Standard Disclaimer - These characters, most of them, belong to Universal, and Renaissance Pictures, and whoever else has a stake in Xena:Warrior Princess. This is written just in fun, and no copyright infringement was intended.

Specific Story Disclaimers:

Violence – Where there is Xena, there will be violence. It’s just one of those things. But this kind is not too graphic, and we avoid mentions of limbs being chopped off and used for kindling, or any description of eyeballs being gouged out by an errant chakram, or anything like that.

Subtext – Subtext R Us. This story, as was the last one, and the one before that which flowed like a sargassum monster from my terminal , based on the supposition that it’s about two women who love each other a whole lot. Once again, there is nothing graphic, but the theme does wrap itself throughout the story, and if you can’t take this, go read some other nice piece of fan fiction. I will make my usual statement – if love offends you, drop me a note with your snail mail address, and I will send you some authentic, found in Southernmost Florida only, key lime pie. (just the thing for hot summers.) Because I really do feel bad for you.

There are characters in this story that originated in a little ditty I wrote called A Warrior by Any Other Name. Don't feel bad if you don't know who they are. Don't feel that you have to read the original story to figure them out - I've tried to give lots of hints.

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Melissa Good

Bound – Part 1

By Melissa Good

The edge of the lake lapped eagerly at the rock strewn shore, making small gurgling noises as it cascaded in and out of the granite outcroppings that lined it’s edge. Its cold depths were irregular, formed from the removal of tons of stone for building down range in the large cities that lined the plateau below.

Around the lake was a dense circle of old forest trees, with aging bark thick with fungus, and hanging with delicately airy moss that lent a musky scent to the already richly textured air. Small chitterings attested to the presence of squirrels, but their activity was slow and lethargic, in this, the winter of the year that urged them more to sleep than industry, living off the nuts stored securely in their knotted lairs.

One squirrel sat perched on a tall limb, and curiously watched the goings on in a small, neatly laid camp just below, having gotten used to the steady rhythmic thunks of steel on wood being generated by a tall, dark haired human who was patiently reducing fallen, dried limbs to kindling, as the dying light of the day turned her dark leathers golden, and flashed warm highlights off the smooth movements of her broad shoulders and muscular arms.

Xena glanced up and watched her partner out of the corner of her eye as Gabrielle trudged over and gathered another armload of the wood she was chopping, and carried it over to the cleared fire circle, laying the sticks down with a practiced hand. The bard had been pretty quiet all day, and her face and movement indicated, to Xena at least, that there was something bothering her.

Do I call her on it? She mused, turning her attention back to the task at hand. Or do I let it be? After all, everyone’s entitled to be in a bad mood now and then. Gods knows I often am, and she has the sense to let me be when I get that way. I should do the same, right? She chopped another large limb down, moving the ax with negligent skill. On the other hand, she’s not being obvious about it, and she deserves there right to keep some thoughts to herself. Though.. Her lips twitched slightly That’s been pretty hard for both of us, lately.

"Xena?" The bard’s voice carried, from near the fire circle. "Sorry.. don’t know what’s with me today, but I can’t get this started. Could you.."

The warrior smiled, and flipped the ax into the next branch, then dropped the limb to the ground and dusted her hands off. "Sure." She padded over to where Gabrielle was kneeling, and crouched down, taking the flint and striker from her, and giving them a sharp blow together, dropping a small cascade of sparks onto the tinder. Another strike, and more sparks, and then Gabrielle was blowing gently on the tinder, and setting it to the kindling, with a sigh of relief.

"Thanks." She patted Xena’s knee, and let her hand rest there. "You have a real knack for that."

"Practice." Xena chuckled, and covered the bard’s hand with her own. And was unable to stop herself from asking. "You look a little down. Everything OK?"

Gabrielle’s fingers curled around hers and squeezed. "Yeah..I’m just a little tired." Her eyes searched Xena’s with warm attention. "Thanks for asking, though."

And then again, sometimes I just get lucky. Xena thought to herself. "Why don’t you go relax for while. I’m going to see what I can find to add to our cold stuff for dinner. How’d you like some hot soup for a change..it’s a little chilly tonight."

"Hot soup." The bard repeated, letting a grin slowly form. "That would be…awesome." Hot anything.. at this point. She sighed to herself. She hated having her cycles, and this month’s was the worst she could recall in recent memory. The nagging cramping was making her tired, and irritable..and she hated being both. Damned if she was going to complain to Xena about that, though. No way..the woman suffers through broken ribs in silence..she doesn’t need me whining about a stomach ache.

"You sure.." Xena studied her closely. "something else isn’t wrong?"

Gabrielle sighed in vexation. Sometimes.. "Yes." She gritted out, between clenched teeth. "I’m very sure." Hearing the irritation in her voice, and wincing at the reaction in Xena’s eyes.

But the warrior merely patted her hand, and nodded. "OK. I’ll be back." She said, as she stood up and took breath, before walking to where Argo was cropping the sparse undergrowth and taking a shortbow from her pack. Turning before she walked off into the woods and gazing back, taking in Gabrielle’s blinked apology, and returning it with a slight quirk of her lips. "If you want to heat some water…"

The bard nodded. "I will." And watched her back until she disappeared into the growing gloom of the forest. Feeling her heart following, which caused a smile to cross her face. With a groan, she stood, and, grabbing the smaller of the cooking pots, crossed over to the lake and tested a handful of the water before filling the pot with it. Not bad..she mused. A little tangy. She straightened up, with a wince, and carried the pot back over to the fire, letting it rest firmly on two flat stones nestled in the wood put there for exactly that purpose.

"Well, that worked." She remarked to the attentive Ares, who was curled up on the sleeping fur, watching her every movement. Walking over to the supplies, she picked up a bag of assorted dried vegetables, and dumped it in the water, with a satisfied sigh. Even if the unthinkable happened, and Xena actually managed to not catch anything.. the vegetables would at least provide a tasty broth. And the thought of hot liquid warming her aching belly was very welcome.

She left the water to heat, and, grabbing her scroll case, collapsed on the sleeping fur next to the wolf. "Move over, Ares." She sighed, and curled up on her side, resting her head on one elbow, and pulling out her diary and a quill.

The darkening forest closed it’s fragrant leaves around Xena’s shoulders like an embrace, and she stopped for a long moment, to breathe in the scents around her. The musky moss made an interesting counterpoint to the thick smell of decomposing vegetation that littered the floor, making the ground slide under her boots, and causing her to step cautiously. Her mind, however, returned to her partner, and her bad mood. Xena considered a moment, then her face cleared, and an understanding grin lit her face. She chuckled as she started pacing deeper into the forest, keeping her ears cocked. First things first. She mused. Let’s get dinner, then….

Heard the faint double thump that said rabbit to her sense, and froze, waiting. Until she saw the barest hint of motion upwind of her.

Tender shoots, a rarity for this time of year, had coaxed the wild hares out of their snug dens, and two of them were making their cautious way into the tiny clearing just in front of where Xena was watching. Her eyebrow curved up, and she gripped the shortbow, pulling an arrow out of the quiver strapped to her back with smooth economy.

They were a beautiful black and white pelted variety that Xena had never seen before, and she spared them a moments admiration before she nocked the shaft, and drew it back, until the feathers were even with her ear. And waited, with a patience natural to the wilds around her, until the animals were side by side, and had their bodies lengthwise towards her.

Releasing the shaft, she watched with cool interest as the arrow sped true, and took them both in the chest, pinning them together in death.

One would have been enough for dinner.. but somehow.. the thought of separating the two creatures, obviously mates, had never crossed Xena’s mind, until she was crouching over them, and removing the arrow. And she sat down hard on the ground and considered that, letting her fingers ruffle through the soft, blood stained fur. So.. my perceptions certainly have changed, haven’t they. She mused to herself, with a brief smile.

The month since they’d left Potadeia had been one of adjustments for both of them, and the most profound adjustment had been to the almost overwhelming sensitivity they now had to each other. It was an openness that was at once frightening and exhilarating, and that neither of them had any defenses against. Xena found herself continuing their usual bantering and teasing, but even in her most irritable moods, she found her biting comments tempered with an automatic gentleness that surprised her.

And Gabrielle… the warrior smiled. She’d be in one of her full fledged outraged tantrums about something Xena had done, or said, or… and then she’d just look over at her, and their eyes would meet, and she would lose her train of thought, and end up just coming over and usually resting her head against Xena’s shoulder with a helpless laugh. "I keep trying.." she had said. "but I just can’t get mad at you anymore."

Xena shook her head, as she set to work skinning the rabbits, taking care with the pelts, and removing the heads. She got them bundled up neatly, and stood, collecting her bow, and started back for the campsite. Halfway there, she caught a familiar smell, and stopped, sidetracking into a thick copse of low-lying bushes. "Thought so." She laughed, as she spotted the berries, two kinds, both of which Gabrielle had an inordinate fondness for.

"Two with one stone, too." As she examined one kind, and collected a handful of the leaves, which she tucked away in pouch slung from one of the buckles in her leathers. She put the rabbits down, and pulled off a fronded leaf from a nearby tree, expertly weaving the leaves together to form a rough basket.

"OH yeah..I think this’ll be a good idea." Xena sighed, as she filled the basket with blackberries and raspberries. Besides.. her mind added wryly I like them too. And I forgot that we usually cycle together, when I do at all. She was too hard on her body, she knew, for any kind of regular cycle, but on the rare occasion she did, it was always in sync with Gabrielle. Wonder why she just didn’t say that was the problem..she’s usually not shy about that. Xena’s eyebrows drew close in puzzlement. "Guess I could just ask her." She remarked to the berries, which winked richly back at her. She popped one in her mouth, and chewed. "Oh boy..I’ll be lucky to get any of these." She mumbled, then stood and picked up the rabbit, and broke into a casual run back towards the camp.

It’s been a time for changes, for both of us. Gabrielle wrote, then paused and chewed on the edge of her quill. And it’s been wonderful. We are, really, partners now.. I can feel the difference, and I don’t feel like some tagalong kid anymore. I know she’s still afraid for my safety.. gods, do I know..we’ve got so much more to lose now. Her heart clenched, as it always did, when she though about that. And I’m afraid for hers, because the more we let this go, the more we become part of each other, the more frightening our lives become. But I wouldn’t give up one single moment of this, not for anything in the world. Even with the risks. And.." She felt a smile appear unbidden on her face. I think she feels the same way. No.. Gabrielle sighed, and looked up at the darkening sky. I know she does.

She stretched a little, and groaned, waiting for a spasm to pass. She was usually luckier than this, and Xena.. she rolled her eyes. Didn’t have to worry about it most of the time. She took a breath, and continued writing. I’m sorry I snapped at her. I shouldn’t have.. I know she’s just.. she knew something’s wrong, and she just wants to help. But.. how can I explain to her that I want to live up to her example, not have her have to coddle me? I want to be able to stand what she does, and bear up under impossible conditions, and keep going on , in the face of problems. Not have her have to solve my problems for me.

Felt the warrior’s presence a long beat before she appeared, and was looking in the exact place she moved out of the forest in, fading from a faint pale blur into the reality of her leather clad form, carrying two bundles, and sporting a relaxed grin that went right to Gabrielle’s heart. Must have been a good hunt. She mused, then lifted a hand and waved. "Hey… that was fast."

Xena shrugged, as she knelt by the steaming pot, and sniffed appreciatively. She unwrapped the rabbit, and slid the parts into the water, putting the skins aside for later washing and tanning. Then she grabbed the small water pot they used for tea, and crossed to the lake sure, scrubbing her hands and arms well before filling the pot with water, and moving back to the fire.

"Yeah, found a couple of rabbits not far from here." She remarked casually, removing the leaves from her pouch, and tearing them into thin strips, depositing them into a cup she set down next to her. And waited, patiently, for the water in the small pot to boil, then poured the water on top of the leaves, and let them steep.

Stealing occasional glances at Gabrielle, who had gone back to her writing, taking the opportunity to admire the way the now dancing firelight outlined the supple smoothness of her face, and cast shadows from her brows, drawn in concentration over what she was doing. Ok..ok.. let’s get this show on the road, now Xena. Stop daydreaming. She laughed at herself, and added a good dollop of honey to the cup she was stirring, then picked it up and carried both it, and the leaf basket of berries over to the sleeping fur. "Mind if I join you?" She drawled, lowering herself to one knee, then settling cross-legged next to the bard’s curled form.

"Don’t be dumb." Gabrielle sniped, poking her knee with the quill. "What do you have there?"

Xena got control of the grin on her face and handed the bard the cup, watching her sniff suspiciously, then sigh.

"Is it that obvious?" She gave Xena a disgusted look. "I was trying not to be."

The warrior shrugged, and stretched out next to her, reaching out and giving her knee a gentle squeeze. "Nope. I had to spend a while figuring it out." She studied the bard’s face as she took a long sip of the tea and closed her eyes in pleasure as she swallowed. "You could have said, Gabrielle.. it’s not like it’s your fault, or something."

"Mmm.." The bard mumbled, taking another long swallow. "Gods, that feels good." She opened her eyes and looked at Xena. "I feel like an idiot complaining about a damn stomach ache, Xena…I mean, come on here, I didn’t even find out until three days after we left Potadeia that the minotaur had broken your ribs, and then only because I felt the bumps..you never say ANYTHING when you’re in pain." Her plaintive protest wound down. "I don’t want you to think I’m a baby." She finished, and gazed into her cup.

Xena leaned over, and touched her hand, causing her to look back up. "Gabrielle." She said, her voice deepening on the name, turning it into a verbal caress that the bard never tired of hearing. "It’s not the same thing.. most of the time, when I get hurt..there’s nothing you can do for it. Nothing I can do for it.." she shrugged. "Just something I have to live with until it heals. Which it usually does, as you’ve noticed, pretty fast. " She reached out and cupped her hand around Gabrielle’s calf, massaging the tenseness she found there with strong fingers. "But if there’s something bothering you that I can do something about.. like make you raspberry tea, then by the gods, say something and let me do it." She paused, then grinned. "And I don’t ever think you’re a baby."

Gabrielle let out a light laugh, and cupped her hands around the warm mug, taking another sip. "Ok..ok..I see your point." She said, after she swallowed. "That’s what I get for trying to be noble and self sacrificing, I guess." With a rueful grin in Xena’s direction. ‘But if there’s anything I can ever do for you… you gotta tell me. Please?"

"In a heartbeat, love." Came the affectionate answer. "Now that we have that settled, how are you feeling?"

"Ow." Gabrielle sighed, closing her eyes. "I usually don’t get it this bad, but gods…I feel like I’m one big knot." She sipped from the cup. "But this is helping."

"Uh huh. " Xena nodded, then stood up , and crossed to their supplies, picking up one of the leather water skins, and walking back to the fire. Setting it down next to the soup pot, which Xena took a moment to stir. A delicious waft of the soup traveled back to where Gabrielle was curiously watching, and made her mouth water.

Xena fussed with the soup a bit more, then sat down for a few minutes, and waited, putting her hand on the waterskin from time to time. Eventually, she seemed satisfied, and picked it up, bringing it back with her to the sleeping fur.

"Turn over." She told the bard, dropping back down on the fur.

"Huh?" Gabrielle asked, but did as she was told at the raised eyebrow she got. "Ok..ok.." She rolled over onto her other side, and felt Xena move in behind her. Then she was lifted, and found herself settled back against Xena’s chest, in a very comfortable position.

"Comfortable?" Xena asked, raising an eyebrow at her.

"As I can be." Gabrielle answered, relishing the warmth of her partner’s body. Then Xena lifted the waterskin over her side, and gently put it against her stomach, letting the warmth of the heated water travel straight through her. "Oh gods." She breathed, as her body went limp against Xena’s.

A grin from the warrior. "Here, hold that there." She waited for the bard to comply, then slid a hand between them, and used strong fingers to ease the tense knot she could feel in Gabrielle’s lower back. ‘Better?" She whispered, into the bard’s nearby ear.

"I’m an idiot." Gabrielle answered, letting her head roll back against Xena’s shoulder. "Next time, you bet I’ll ask, instead of suffering all day."

"Good." Xena answered, reaching behind her and moving the leaf bundle up next to their heads. "Now here’s your reward." She unwrapped the leaves one handed, and exposed the glistening berries.

"Oooo…" The bard chuckled deep in her throat and selected one, popping it into her mouth and chewing with evident enjoyment. Then she swiveled her head, and regarded her partner. "You like doing this, don’t you?"

The warrior nodded, with a twinkle in her blue eyes. That gaze studied her with unnerving accuracy. "And you like having it done, don’t you?" She playfully accused, watching the blush spread across Gabrielle’s fair face. "Thought so."

"I try to fight that." The bard muttered, waiting for the blood to stop rushing to her face. "I don’t want to be so dependent on you."

"But?" Xena asked, elevating an expectant eyebrow.

"But." Gabrielle answered, with a resigned sigh, and a smile, and a contented snuggle into Xena’s chest. "Yeah, I like it. " She admitted, as the tea and the warmth of the waterskin, and the strength of the arms cradling her did their magic, and she felt her pain ease and dissolve into nothing. "I love this feeling."

"Glad we got that settled." Xena commented, watching the lines of tension ease on the bard’s face, and feeling her own shoulders relax in response. She leaned forward and let her breath move against Gabrielle's ear. "So do I.'

They lay there in quiet peace while the soup created itself, sharing the berries and each other with equal enjoyment. "Great berries." Gabrielle mumbled, as she shared one with the chuckling warrior.

"Mm…" Xena neatly captured the bit out of her lips, and let it slide down her throat. "You are definitely spoiling me."

"I do my best." The bard answered, biting another berry in half, and inviting Xena to remove the remainder. "You’re a tough assignment."

"Oh really?" The warrior questioned, with a chuckle.

"Yeah. But I’m persistent, or so I’m told." Came the answer, complete with another half berry.

"That you are, Gabrielle." Xena assured her, taking the offering, and giving her a kiss on the nose. "I think the soup is ready. Interested?"

Later, when the fire had burned down to embers, and she was pleasantly stuffed with two big bowls of the soup, along with the rest of the berries, and was once again cradled in Xena’s protective arms, Gabrielle found her amused thoughts turning to Jessan. How he’d laugh if he could see them now…Wonder what he’s up to? Her mind drowsily reflected. Guess I’ll find out soon enough – over this last mountain range and then we head down the plateau toward the coast and Cirron. "Hey.." she said, glancing up at the half asleep Xena.

"Hmm?" Xena opened an eye and regarded her.

"Did you know that jewelry maker in Cirron?" An old question, just now surfacing to her consciousness.

Xena smiled. "Why?" "Did you?" The bard insisted, seeing the smile. "You did, right?"

"He’s an old friend. Yes." The warrior admitted, with a twinkle in her eyes.

"Hmm.. he wouldn’t take any money for those bracelets, you know." Gabrielle quietly commented. "I wondered." She paused. "Did he make that necklace, too?"

Xena shook her head. "No, but I did show it to him."

Gabrielle remembered being steered towards the window, and appraised. "Oh.. I get it." So then.. Xena must have gotten the necklace earlier. But when? "He was nice."

"Uh huh." The warrior agreed. "He made that ring you’re wearing."

Felt the bard start in her arms, and smiled quietly to herself. Yeah..figure it out, love. That was before…

"But that was…" A long pause.

Xena knew she was being studied intently, and kept her eyes closed. "Yeah. But it takes a while to cast that sort of thing. He delivered it to me when I was home."

"Oh." Gabrielle mulled over that. "I love it."

Xena just hugged her tighter, and silence fell, over a quiet campsite warmed by a banked wood fire and an solid blanket of love.

Life, Xena mused, was a series of compromises. She snuggled down more comfortably under her heavy cloak, feeling Gabrielle tighten her hold instinctively, and settled back to watch the sun rise, as she did most mornings nowadays. After a long argument with herself, which she’d lost, she eventually stopped trying to pry herself away from Gabrielle’s warmth in the pre dawn, and just adjusted their schedule to start later in the day.

And found, to her secret chagrin, that she was enjoying the change, and the opportunity to laze around in the morning as much as Gabrielle was. Oh well… she rationalized. It’s not like it matters.. our schedule is up to us anyway – not like I’m running an army anymore. Besides, the extra time in the morning meant she had extra time at night, to finish the extensive drills she’d tasked herself with as compensation.

So far the compromise was working – she knew herself to be in top condition, and the bard’s staff skills were steadily improving under the workouts as well. That gave her the confidence to allow herself a lot more playtime when they weren’t actually travelling nor doing camp chores. Like last night, for instance.. Xena’s mouth quirked. And, in between saving small villages, which they’d done several of during their journey to Cirron, and helping out people in distress, ditto, and the odd getting caught in some altercation or other, she found she was enjoying herself.. a lot. More than a lot.

The first rays of the sun began to peek over the treeline, and Xena closed her eyes as they raced across the ground, and slid across their bodies, dancing stripes of warm amber light across her face, and the bard’s. She smiled into the warmth, and felt the gentle movement of Gabrielle’s hand against her belly. Opening her eyes, she glanced down, and met the bard’s smiling gaze. "Good morning." She commented, letting her eyes drift over Gabrielle’s peaceful face. " Feeling better?"

"Perfect.’ Gabrielle answered, taking a deep, contented breath. "Thanks.. I owe you for that one." Her smile turned mischievous. "I’ll try to think of something to do for you in return."

Eyebrows raised. "That sounds dangerous."

"Could be." The bard laughed, and wrapped her arms tightly around Xena’s chest. "Ergh…feels so good to do that."

Xena kissed the top of her head, and returned the hug. "Feels good to have it done." She admitted. "I think we have some of that soup left for breakfast, if you’re interested."

Gabrielle grinned, and sat up. "You bet." She cheerfully commented, getting to her feet and stretching, then extending a hand down to the still reclining warrior. "You gonna hang around here all day?"

And got a shake of the head and a laugh in response, as Xena took the proffered hand, and allowed herself to be hauled out of bed.

"This range curves off towards the coast, doesn’t it?" The bard asked, hours later as they climbed a long, steep path up the side of a towering granite face.

"Mmm." Xena agreed, carefully watching Argo’s step on the rock strewn ground, as the mare walked beside her. "This pass will take us down range of Cirron, really, and it’s kind of a short cut into Jessan’s territory." Saw the look on Gabrielle’s face and grinned. "Don’t’ worry, we’ll stop there on the way out. I still want to head up towards Athens."

Gabrielle gave her a sideways look. "I don’t want to just stop and shop, you know."

"Of course not." Xena replied amiably. "I want to see Hectator, too."

Long pause, and then they looked at each other. And burst out laughing. "Ok..Ok.." Gabrielle gasped, backhanding Xena in the midriff. "So I like shopping…kill me."

"Nah." The warrior replied, then glanced at the sky. "Rain coming." Her eyes started searching ahead. "Looks like we’re going to have to shelter in until it passes, unless we want to get very wet."

Gabrielle chewed on this for a moment, then grinned. "You know, I think I’ve developed a real.. liking.. for rain."

"Oh really?" Xena asked, giving her eyebrow a quirk. "Doesn’t have anything to do with a certain Centaur Village, does it?"

"Could be." The bard replied, moving closer, and wrapping her arm around Xena’s waist, feeling the expected weight of the warrior’s arm settling across her shoulders, and smiling. "Yeah, I think it does." A rolling peal of thunder rumbled over them. "Whoa…"

"Yeah." Xena sighed. "Come on, there’s an alcove we can get some cover in." She pointed off to the side of the path, and they moved in that direction. It was an overhang, hardly more than a crevice in the tall granite walls, but it was enough to shelter their gear, and put some kind of cover over their heads. Xena stripped off Argo’s bags, and tossed them in the back of the alcove, moving the mare as close to the granite wall as she could. "Sorry, Argo, not enough space in there for you, girl."

"Roo!" Ares protested, as Gabrielle pulled him out of his carry bag, and set him on the pebbled floor.

"Hush." She scolded him, digging out a handful of dried meat scraps and offering them to the puppy.

"Grrrr." Was the enthusiastic response, as Ares laid down, grabbing one piece between his two growing paws, and started chewing. He barely looked up as Gabrielle settled next to him, with her back against the stone wall.

Xena finished settling Argo as best she could, and joined her partner under the granite ledge just as the rain started down, changing the dusty pale rockface to dark slate, and sending the occasional spatter into their sanctuary. "Well, it’s better than nothing." She remarked conversationally to the bard, who was gazing out at the hard falling water with a dreamy expression.

Gabrielle kept silent, but leaned over slightly and rested her head on Xena’s shoulder with a sigh, then let her glance slide up to study the face above her. "You have a really nice profile." She commented, lifting a lazy hand to gently trace a line across the warrior’s cheekbone.

"Think so?" Xena replied, smiling at her. "I kind of like yours better." She ducked her head and captured Gabrielle’s lips for a long moment. "Especially that part of it." She whispered, as they parted, and looked into each other’s eyes.

A loud boom of thunder startled them, and Xena heard Argo moving restlessly outside. "Easy, girl.." she called, as a sharp flash of lightning lit the mountainside like a sudden sunrise, and another crash of thunder followed it. They glanced at each other, and Gabrielle huddled closer, snuggling tight against Xena’s leather clad side, and wrapping her fingers firmly around her armor.

Xena laid a protective arm over her shoulders, and put a restraining hand on the back of the growling Ares, as the storm lit the sky again, and the booming roar that followed cause the chips of granite to vibrate between her boots, and the wall to shiver behind her. Damn… Xena took a quick look out at the wild-eyed Argo, and cursed silently to herself.

Then the flash went sheer white, and a loud crack sounded right over their heads as lightning struck the side of the mountain, and sent a shower of granite shards downward, cascading over their ledge, and pelting the defenseless mare.

It was too much for Argo, trained though she was. The mare screamed once, then took off running down the path, trailing her reins.

"Damn." Xena growled, shaking her head and standing up. "Stay here, Gabrielle, l gotta go stop her before she runs off the mountain."

Gabrielle felt a nameless fear grab her. "Xena.. be careful, please?"

The warrior smiled. "Always. You be careful too. Stay under here.. the storm shouldn’t last much longer." With that, she left the overhang, and moved into the driving rain, headed off after the mare at a determined run., not realizing until long after that Ares had scrambled out and followed her.

"Great." Gabrielle sighed, after trying to stop the wolf from leaving. "Well, no question who he takes after. " She settled back against the wall, and wrapped her arms around her knees, and waited.

Xena could still hear the faint echo of Argo’s hoofbeats, and she sped up, giving her head a quick shake to remove the dark hair from her eyes. Gods..I’m going to be forever drying off this armor again. She sighed to herself, as she kept her eyes on the path, not wanting to misplace a boot, and take a tumble down the rock-strewn path. "Argo!" Her voice barely carried over the rolling thunder, and she just shook her head, and ran faster.

Ah. The mare had spotted a much larger overhang, and was huddled under it. "Good girl." Xena laughed, as she slowed down. "Should have let you find a place to stay, eh?"

The streak of lightning exploded over her head with a sound that blocked out all other noise, as it impacted the rock wall over her head and loosened a centuries worth of boulders on the ledge above where Argo was sheltered.

Xena only remembered the horse scrambling out from under the rocks, and the ear shattering roar that was almost a physical blow, as she glanced up and saw a wall of rock headed her way.

No time to stop, or dodge, or get out of the way, and now she saw the dark furred form of Ares scoot between her legs and stop, frozen in front of her. Without thought, she thew her body over him, and curled up in a desperate ball as the first shower of rocks slammed into her body. And she had only one, tiny second in which her only thought was of Gabrielle, as the rest of the wall buried her, until one merciful rock connected with her head and sent her into the darkness. She heard nothing more, felt nothing more as the rocks piled up over her, and finally only silence settled on the scene.

A quiet unbroken, except for the odd, occasional skittering of an errant granite pebble tinging off the deathly still pile of stone.

Gabrielle rubbed her arms against the sudden coldness that had descended on her, and looked up at the approaching sound of hoofbeats, brows drawn down in concentration. She’d become so used to sensing Xena’s presence, that not doing so now seemed odd to her. An icy finger touched her soul as she saw Argo’s approach, and realized her mistress wasn’t alongside.

She bolted out from under the overhang, and ran to Argo’s head, running her hands over the multitude of small cuts on the mare’s neck and back. "What happened, Argo? Where’s.." A sick feeling just happened in her gut, and she felt her eyes mist up for no apparent reason. "Oh gods." Her eyes searched the mares. "Show me what happened, Argo.. " She whispered, turning the mare and leading her back along the path, stumbling on the stones and not caring. Something had happened, that’s all she knew. Something that was causing her entire body to coil up in knots, and making her heart pound all out of proportion to the energy she was expending.

They rounded the last bend, and she saw the pile of rocks. Saw the blocked path. Heard Argo’s soft whicker. Was close enough to see, at the very edge of the slide, the barest glimmer of light off an object she knew.

She never remembered walking those last steps, didn’t remember holding on to Argo’s mane for support. She was just somehow standing over a large boulder, whose cruel edge trapped a chakram motionless.

Her fingers went out, and gently touched the rock. "No." As gently a whisper of sound from her lips. "Oh no." The whisper cracked, and broke into a sob. "Please no."

Gabrielle crumpled to the ground, wrapping her arms around the rock, and let the shocked tears just roll down her face. Her heart shattered, as every one of her worst nightmares came down on top of her like that rockslide had come down on top of her partner.

No..gods..no.Xena please… Her thoughts moaned. Not now.. no.. This can’t be happening. You can’t be under here. You can’t be gone. I can’t have.. oh gods help me please…I never got a chance… we were just…She could still feel the pressure of Xena’s arm around her shoulders, smell the rich tang of her leathers.. she was just here..…please… don’t take this away from me..oh gods…

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The howl of anguish slid from mental to vocal, as her throat went raw with the emotion that wracked her.

"No." She whispered again, letting her fingers stroke the ugly rock face. "Why didn’t you take me too? " She waited for the empty darkness to come over her. "I can’t bear this, not again." She slammed her head against the rock. "Not again. I can’t.. I can’t…"

And from the furthest corner of her tortured mind, there came just the barest hint of a familiar warmth. That nearly stopped her heart in her chest, and set her body to shivering. ‘Xena?" Gabrielle suddenly realized that what she wasn’t feeling was… that emptiness.. the one she’d felt after Xena had died the last time. As though half her soul had gone. Which it had, she now understood, and she knew that feeling intimately. What if… her eyes studied the rock pile. She can’t have possibly… but I should know better than anyone else not to give up on her so fast. Or am I just lying to myself?

Gabrielle sniffed back her tears, and sat down, and looked deep inside her heart.

But if anyone could, it would be Xena. Her heart knew. And I can’t move these rocks. Now her heart started hammering for a totally different reason. Gotta get help..but… A picture of Jessan formed in her mind. Jessan, whose strength she knew. She managed to get to her feet, and got three steps towards Argo, when she turned around and went back, laying a hand on the rocks.

"You.. stay for me, Ok, Xena? Please? " Her fingertips traced the surface gently. " What I told mother was true.. I can’t live without you." Tears darkened the stone surface. "Please don’t make me try.. OK? I’ll bring back help."

And felt the ghostly touch of hands on her shoulders, and the brush of lips against her forehead, which could have been the fitfully gusting wind from the aftermath of the storm. But Gabrielle didn’t think so. She clutched the sensation to her soul, and moved to the uneasy Argo’s side.

"Listen." She said, stroking the mare’s soft cheek. "I know we usually don’t get along. And I know your best friend’s not here." Her voice caught. "Mine isn’t either. So.. we’re going to have to work together on this, Argo."

Sighing, she took a look at the high stirrup, then shook her head, and walked Argo over to a boulder, climbing up on it, then onto the mare’s tall back. It felt very lonely up there, by herself, she realized as she gathered the reins up, and tried to remember what Xena had taught her about directing Argo. Who wasn’t like a normal horse, which she could just nudge around. Cautiously, she pressed a knee into the horse’s warm side, and was relieved when Argo started down the path, not without a backward glance.

Which was ok, because she was doing that herself. But a sense of urgency began to stir in her, and she gave Argo’s side a little more pressure, and felt the mare increase her pace.

Silently, Gabrielle sent up a prayer to all the gods who might be listening. Just let me get back in time. Please. And if you don’t.. take me with her. And realized, in a far off way, that she meant every word.

Darkness. And more pain that she’d had in.. a very long time. Those thoughts drifted to the surface of her mind as Xena came to groggy consciousness and took very shallow breaths in response to the vise like squeezing of her ribcage by the rocks around her. Trouble. Lots of it. Her mind panted, feeling the closeness of the rock, and the dangerously still air around her. Oh gods… I can’t believe that didn’t kill me.

The rocks had pinned her in place, but by the luck of the slide, had stacked themselves in such a way that there was a tiny space in the pile, with her in it. And..her fingers, the only part of her arm she could comfortably move touched warm fur, and Ares whimpered in response. "We’re in big trouble, boy." She managed to gasp, wincing at the lances of pain that drove through her.

Cautiously, she tested the rest of her body, and felt her heart sink. Rocks pinned her on every side except for directly below her, and she knew from the feeling in her gut that the blows had done some serious internal damage. The realization settled into her, bringing a wave of dark emotion. She was going to die here, whether from a further shifting of the rock, from her own injuries, or from running out of air..her time was running short.

Damn. And her thoughts turned inescapably to Gabrielle. She felt a searing pain in her heart that had nothing to do with damage from the rocks, and an answering anguish echoed back to her from an outside source. From her partner, who was surely nearby, and might have even…

The rocks vibrated faintly with an unearthly howl. Ares whined in response, and Xena froze, knowing its source. She thinks I’m…Xena’s eyes closed, and her soul responded, reaching out in agony to touch its other half, so very close by, and so impossibly far away. Gabrielle.. I promised you.. forgive me, love. I didn’t plan this… but don’t give up yet… listen to your heart..it hears mine still beating.. I know it does…it has to…if you hear it.. it’s a slim chance, but…

The anguish from outside lessened, as if by magic. Good girl.. Xena breathed, as the darkness began to fill her senses again. Not much time… but I’ll try to wait.. for… you…

Silence fell again, save for the rustled of a small fur covered body, who squirmed until he could reach his target, and then the soft rasp of a tongue against flesh as Ares patiently cleaned the still hand resting near his rumpled head.

"Jessan!’ Wennid called, for what seemed the hundredth time. "Hey!"

The tall forest dweller started, and turned from where he was standing on their family porch, gazing off into the distance. "Huh? Sorry.." His face crinkled into a smile. "Just thinking." He ambled over to where his mother was standing, and gave her a warm hug, wrapping his fur-covered arms around her.

"Hmph." Wennid snorted, wrinkling her snub nose. "Daydreaming is more like it. You’ve been wandering around all afternoon. What on earth is up with you?"

Jessan bared his canines in a laugh, and looked down on her from his near seven-foot height. "I don’t know.. maybe the weather?" He glanced off towards the mountains, seeing the cloud tops clustered around the highest peaks. "Looks like there’s some storm going on up there."

Abruptly, his face went serious, and his gaze focused on the far off slopes. "Something.." he whispered, clenching his big hands around the porch banister.

Wennid circled around him, studying his face, and brushing his arm with her lighter furred hands. "What is it, son?" She focused her Sight on him, and found only vague confusion, and a simmering apprehension. "Raiders?"

"Mama, I don’t’ know." He answered, turning his golden eyes on her. "Just… something." He shrugged. "Or maybe I’m just imagining it. What’s for lunch?"

His mother gave him a look, then shook her head. "Jessan, what am I going to do with you?" But her burring voice was warm with affection for her only son. Tall and powerfully built, as were all of their kind, his bearded and maned face still retained an air of childhood to it, in the openness of his golden eyes, and the almost perpetual smile on his snub nosed face. Now, she added to herself. But for a long time after humans had killed his wife, her son had been a dark, angry presence.

Only after his meeting with, and saving by the most unlikely of human allies had he returned to the sunny natured boy she’d raised. Xena. Still, even after this time, unbelievable. Even after they’d signed a treaty of peace with Hectator, the prince of Cirron, and fought by his side. Even after the Warrior Princess and her companion had visited them. Even after Wennid had seen wit her own eyes, and grudgingly accepted the fact that this was not the same woman she’d seen slaughter a village in the next valley. Even after she’d been forced to admit that a human, a hated human, of all things, shared the precious gift that she was sure was unique to her people, and only some of them at that..even then, it was still unbelievable to her.

But it was all true. And so was the fact that Xena had risked her own life, and her own bond, try as she would to deny it, to save Wennid’s lifemate, Jessan’s father Lestan.

"What are you thinking about?" Came a deep, rumbling voice, that ran fingers down the harp of her soul. Warm arms circled her, and Lestan’s chin rested on her shoulder. "Hmm?" He winked at his son. "Such serious expressions on the both of you."

"Jessan is having some storm warnings." Wennid replied, letting herself lean back into her lifemates’ strong arms, and feeling their bond ignite, and send a golden flow of love throughout them both.

Lestan cocked his head at his son. "Eh?"

Jessan shrugged. "Nothing definite. Just.." His eyes drifted towards the mountains again. "A feeling." He walked to the railing again, and stared across the village square, past the central fire pit, around which some of his peers were practicing sword drills. Past the stableyards, where he could see his Eris’ shaggy head peering at him. Far off in the distance, he caught the rumble of thunder, and the very sound ignited a feeling of apprehension in him. Something was wrong.

But the long afternoon hours passed with no incident, and he’d about relaxed, and told his overactive imagination to cut it out. Even the storm had dissipated, and missed them entirely. Shrugging, he belted on his practice gear, and headed to the yard for some sword work.

Argo was nervous, Gabrielle realized, whether due to the absence of her usual rider, or perhaps because the sensitive animal was picking up her own agitation, she didn’t know. "Easy, Argo." She murmured, patting the mare on the neck, and getting an ear flick in return. "That’s right..take it easy."

Worrying about Argo helped keep her mind off what she was really worried about. And that served no purpose –she was already headed in the only direction that would help, as fast as Argo was able on the rocky ground.

But she couldn’t help it – every time her mind was empty, the memories would start bursting in with ever increasing vividness. And that led to her being scared- very scared those memories were the only thing she’d have left.

Now, at last, they were off the pebble strewn path, and onto a long grassy sward, and she bit her lip, and dug in her knees, and Argo responded, lengthening her stride, and making the long grasses whip against Gabrielle’s legs. Faster… her mind urged, and felt that urgency echoed from far away. "Come on Argo." She grasped the reins firmly, and asked the mare for more speed.

And Argo, snorting, complied, bounding over the grass at an ever-increasing gallop. "Go, Argo.." she whispered, bending low over the mare’s back. "You don’t want to lose.." Her breath caught in her throat. "No.." Her chaotic mind threw up a vivid picture – she and Xena sitting, with their backs against a tall rock, watching a sunset. Her eyes closed and she let the memory run. It had been after that kidnapping, when Xena had lost her eyesight.

Her heart had been in her throat, for a what seemed like forever, but had only been short minutes, after she gently washed Xena's eye's out with the pungent mixture of senna.. and they waited. Waited to see if it wasn’t too late after all – if the price of her life was going to be Xena’s eyesight. Gabrielle couldn’t bear it… watching her sitting there so calm – but she saw her heartbeat. It was going so hard its wonder the bard couldn’t hear the rapid thumping.

Then those unfocused blue eyes took on clarity, and expression, and had focused on her.

That smile. Sight for sore eyes, huh? That sight had almost passed out from relief, and wouldn't that have been a sight.

And later, watching the sun set, scattering crimson daggers of light across the springy river grass they were sitting on, light that kept catching darting sparkles in a pair of restless blue eyes that seemed to drink in.. everything with quiet appreciation.

Eating dinner, then Xena’s gaze was suddenly on her, and there was that smile again. "I had time to think about all the things I'd miss seeing." She’d said. "Lakes, trees, sunsets." And she’d paused. "You." Grinning at the bard's blush, and slipping an arm around her shoulders.

And Gabrielle's heart had almost stopped beating, because that was the first time she'd ever heard that.. note.. in Xena's voice. …She’d watched that sunset as though it was the first one she’d ever seen, and maybe it was, since it was the first one she’d ever watched with Xena’s arms around her. And it was the first time she'd cautiously let down her guard, and let herself believe that they were both moving in a direction she'd only daydreamed about before.

If she closed her eyes, she could still smell the rich scent of the elderberry bush they had sat near. And shared the fruit from, in an easy familiarity that had sent tingles down her spine, among other places.

Then she forced her tearing eyes open, and blinked to clear them, feeling the panic start building in her. I can’t lose this. She whispered to whoever was listening. I can’t lose her. Not again. She focused on the thunder of Argo’s hooves, and steered the mare down towards the small valley that would eventually let out near the river that marked the boundary of Jessan’s people.

Waking up again in the darkness was about the worst thing that had ever happened to her. Xena groggily reflected. Even her heart beating hurt. She took shallow breaths, her chest hardly moving in the still air, so as not to jar anything.

Heard a tiny whine. "Easy, Ares." And winced at the hoarseness in her voice. She felt his soft tongue against her thumb, and willed her hand to move, giving him a gentle rub behind his ears. "Sorry you got stuck in this."

She swallowed against a suddenly dry throat. "Guess it’s not more than I can expect, though, huh?" Feeling a profound sadness. "Joke of the gods, Ares. Maybe he was upset about you after all." The puppy looked up, as something hit his head, and blinked. "Knew it was too good to be true." Ares shook his head as something fell on him again. "Wish I hadn’t waited so damn long."

Ares shook his head again, then crawled closer, inching his way up her arm until his moist nose touched hers. With a little whine, he started licking her face.

"Thanks." She whispered, pressing her cheek against his soft fur. "I’m not ready for this, Ares. I always thought I would be. When you do what I do.. you kinda get used to the thought." She shifted her shoulders, causing an ominous creak in the rocks, but easing the pressure a bit on her back. "I can’t.. stand.. the thought of leaving her." She let her head rest back against the cruel rock, and closed her eyes, as Ares kept his industrious licking up. "You must be thirsty, huh?" " I’m not.. and that’s a bad sign. My body must be shutting down. "Glad I could help." The puppy nuzzled her ear, and squeezed his body up next to her shoulder, settling down with a sigh.

At least we had some time, though. She took a shuddering breath. And if this is my time, then I thank all the gods in Olympus we finally said something to each other. Because if I had to die without her knowing…no.. I swore last time that wasn’t going to happen. And it didn’t’, and if there is only one thing I can be glad of in this pitiful excuse for a life, it was what we shared. Her heart clenched painfully. But I don’t want to give that up.. just yet.. so I think I’ll just hang around here.. a.. little.. longer.

Argo's speed slackened, as they entered the serpentine valley, and followed a small stream along the center of it. The walls rose on either side of them, reflecting the bright sun off their sloping sides. It would have been a pretty place, Gabrielle mused, but right now she hated it. Hated every long intervening mile between herself and help. Between herself and the mountain back there. Urgency burned in her, and pressed her knees harder against the warhorse's sides, causing the mare to snort.

"Listen." She pleaded with Argo. "I know it's hot, I know you're tired.. so am I.. but you just gotta,OK?" She stroked the lathered neck, and wrapped her fingers in Argo's wheat colored mane. "Please?" Gabrielle knew the mare couldn't understand the words, but her pace increased again regardless, and they sped down the path.

Think positive, Gabrielle, she reminded herself. Think about what it’s been like, the past couple of months. And how much you want that to continue. So she did, and lost herself for a short time in the warmth of remembering the moment when she realized their friendship was deepening.. faster than either of them had anticipated.

It had been a late night, after a very long day fighting off bandits that had attacked a small trading town. They’d both taken a long soak in the nearby lake, and she’d been concerned with the exhausted look she’d seen on Xena’s face. So she’d quietly made some herbal tea, using the fruits she knew Xena liked, and brought it over to her as she sat gazing into the fire, one long arm wrapped around her upraised knee.

She looked up and responded to the concern in the bard’s eyes with a smile. "What’s that?" She’d asked. "Made you some tea. You look kind of wiped." Gabrielle had answered, and to her surprise, Xena had patted a place by her side. On her bedroll. "Share it with me." That voice had said, and Gabrielle could still feel it, right down in her gut.

So she’d sat down, and they’d shared the cup, back and forth, and she’d somehow found herself brushing against the warrior’s tall shoulder. And Xena, instead of moving away, had leaned back, and stretched her arm out along the log behind them. And as though this had been the plan all along, Gabrielle had settled in the suddenly friendly, warm space against her, and, hardly breathing, put her head in the hollow of Xena’s shoulder.

Not a word from the warrior, just that gentle smile, and the surprising comfort of her arm lifting off the log, and curling around the bard’s waist.

It was nothing really much. And it would have seemed almost normal.. they were two very close friends, and gods knew she got hugged as much as Xena would allow herself to hug anyone. Would have been, except that they’d made the mistake , in all that closeness, of looking into each other’s eyes.

And that, Gabrielle remembered, with aching clarity, had changed everything. From then on, they’d stopped even trying to find excuses to be close. And not long after that, she’d been called to the Amazon village to mediate a dispute. And the rest, as she often said, was history.

That brought a wistful smile to her face, as she rounded the last bend in the valley, and her body froze, as she spotted the thin line of leather clad men strung across the path.

Instinctively, she reached for her staff, only to realize it was under the alcove high up on the mountain, and cursed herself. Never get caught without a weapon. Xena's insistent drilling had told her again and again. Damn, and now I am, and when her life...... Gabrielle felt her throat close. I screwed up. Figures. You were crazy to depend on me, Xena.

The line of men got closer, and she could now see some of them grinning, as they started waving long sticks at the galloping mare, waving her off.

A flickering image dove into her mind, of a day not long past when she'd sat in the shade of an oak, and watched Xena put the mare through her paces. Long arms comfortably relaxed at her side, the warrior had used just light leg signals to direct the horse through a makeshift labyrinth, ending by jumping her, still without holding on, over a tall haybale left to moulder in the field. "How high can she jump, Xena?" She remembered asking, and that put an insane idea in her head. I can't do that. Her eyes darted to the line of men, now closing in on her. But I can't let them stop me either. She closed her eyes, and concentrated, remembering exactly what Xena had done - yes.. she'd sat low, just like this..

Gabrielle snarled her fingers in Argo's mane, and drove her toward the line of men, not slowing a bit. The mare seemed to sense what she was doing, because the bard could feel her collecting herself under her aching knees, and she only hoped she could hang on and not fall off the mare if and when she jumped.

She leaned forward, moving her body over the mare's shoulders, and saw the horrified surprise on the first man's face as she dug her heels into the horse's sweating sides, and felt her explode up off her haunches into the air. The wind lashed at her face, as she saw the sky swing wildly around her head, then her face smashed with stunning force into Argo's neck as she landed, and stumbled a step before continuing on.

Gabrielle almost blacked out. She could feel the grayness on the edge of her vision, and her hearing faded, but she kept her death grip on the thick springy hair and managed somehow not to slide off. She felt wetness under her nose, and freed one hand, wiping her face, and watching in fascination as her hand came away covered with blood. Then she turned her head, and saw the dust of horses following her, and realized the men were coming after her.

No.. Her tired mind groaned, and she laid her hand against Argo's hard working neck. "Sorry girl.. wouldn't have put you through that if I knew they were going to chase us down. I know you're tired.. you can't outrun them."

She wearily started to pull back on the reins, but Argo had other ideas. Whether infected with her urgency, or just from her own stubbornness, the mare refused the request, tossing her head and pulling the sweat soaked leather through the bard's fingers. They drove on through the end of the valley, hearing the closing hoofbeats of the raiders, but now the cool breeze lifted her damp hair off her forehead, and whipped the stiff mane against her hands, reviving her spirits.

Far ahead, she saw the welcome glint of sun on water, and the surrounding wild meadow resolved itself into welcome familiarity. "Oh.. gods.. it's so close. Come on Argo, you can do it." She lay down over the mare's neck, and wrapped her hands in leather and hair, feeling the heat rising off Argo's skin. And as her hands encircled the mare, she felt a faint brush of arms wrapping around her in a feeling so warm it made her soul ache to feel it. "Stay with me." Her lips formed the words. "Please."

Deggis yawned, and stretched his long arms over his head, listening to the joints pop with a wince. "Trees alive, I shouldn't have done that much drill yesterday." He sighed, getting a grunt of assent from the pale haired Olanis who was leaning against the guardpost tree and scanning the horizon.

"I told you that." Olainis rolled his eyes. "You have to keep competing with Jess, don't you. Give it up already, OK?"

"Someone has to go toe to toe with him.. otherwise he'll just get lazier than he already is. Did you.." Deggis halted, as his eyes caught an unfamiliar movement coming towards them. "Hey, you see that?"

Olanis straightened, and peered in that direction. "Horse." He muttered, squinting. "Not one of ours."

The darker furred forest dweller shaded his eyes, and cursed. "No..not one of ours." He looked over his head, then crouched, and leaped for the first branch, pressing himself up onto it, and getting a better look at the approaching rider. "More than one." He hissed, as he spotted the trailing cloud of dust. "And.." He blinked, and his brow creased. "I know the one in the lead.. I think.. Ares, it is. It's Argo."

Olanis pulled himself up on the branch and stared. "Are you sure?"

"Yeah...." His eyes longfocused. "Uh oh. Looks like the storyteller's riding. This is trouble. You better pass the word back."

Olanis grunted. "Looks like the others are pulling up."

"Good." Deggis sighed. "I wasn't looking forward to a fight today."

Olanis dropped off the branch, and headed for his stallion at a run, jumping on the animal's gray back and urging him toward the village.

Deggis continued watching, now that the mare was coming on unhindered, and waited.

"Come on, Procci, stop being such a grazer and hit me, already." Jessan sighed as he circled his smaller opponent, whisking his broadsword back and forth in vexation.

"Easy for you to say." Procci spat, wiping the blood from the corner of his mouth. "You're not getting beaten up." He darted in, and slashed sideways, hoping to catch the taller Jessan at knee level.

"Grazer." Jessan laughed, and blocked the shot, twisting his wrist as he did, and sending Procci's sword flying. He bounced on his feet a few times while he watched Procci trudge over and pick up the sword, then stopped as the vague feeling of apprehension flooded over him again. Damn..what was that? Hoofbeats caught his attention, and he swiveled to gaze at the village gate.

A flash of gray, and he recognized Olainis, who was standing post guard this week - though relations with Hectator were excellent, and that was the only real approach to their territory, they still kept watch.

Olanis looked around, and spotted him, digging heels in the gray's sides and galloped in his direction.

This is it... his mind breathed. I knew there was something. I should have listened before. "What's up?" He yelled, as Olanis pulled up next to him..

"Rider, coming in fast, from the mountains. Looks like it's Xena's horse Argo, and Deggis says the storyteller's up on her." He paused. "Alone."

Jessan muttered a curse, and started running, whistling for Eris as he did so. He managed to scabbard his sword without cutting his arm off, and reached the gate as Eris reached him. "Come on.. come on.." He groaned, as he vaulted to the black horse's tall back, and grabbed his mane, pointing his head towards the sentry post and letting out a wild roar. Eris' body jerked, and he bolted into motion, scattering a group of returning hunters willy nilly across the path.

Argo was tiring badly, Gabrielle knew. She could feel the mare's labored breathing under her knees, and the lather from her head and neck whipped back and flecked the bard at odd intervals. But they'd lost their attackers - she had heard the hoofbeats drop off a little while back, and now they were almost upon the boundary stream that marked the edge of the forest dweller's territory.

The splash of the icy water shocked her to alertness, and Argo snorted wearily as the liquid cascaded up her flanks, shaking her head as she stumbled out of the stream on the other side, and kept going. Gabrielle felt a wave of fatigue wash over her, and she put her head down on the mare's neck, and just hung on, letting Argo go where she would. The sound of a running horse drifted into her ear, and she felt Argo change direction to head towards it. The noise became a loud thunder and she was about to lift her head when Argo stopped suddenly, and reared, and she tumbled off her back onto the sweet smelling grass of the meadow.

Silence then, save for Argo's heaving breaths. Then a muttered curses from a voice she knew, and the sound of a heavy body landing on the earth nearby. Two footsteps, and she felt the soft fur of Jessan's arms as he lifted her up. She opened her eyes, to see his golden ones peering at her anxiously, and felt the barest quiver of a smile twitch her lips.

"Gabrielle.." His voice was gentle. "What happened.. is everything all right?"

"No." She managed to answer. "Everything is all wrong." She sat up, and took a breath. Come on, Gabrielle. You've come this far, don't go to pieces now. "We were.. up in the mountains. And there was a storm. Big one." She cleared her throat. "Argo got spooked, and Xena chased after her." Her eyes fogged. "And there was a cave in.. Jess. She got caught in it. I need... " Another breath. "Your help. To get her out." She paused. "Please."

More hoofbeats, and now a group of the forest dwellers were surrounding her, faces tense with concern.

An older man dropped to his haunches next to her, and put a hand on her knee. "A cave in, you say, Gabrielle." Lestan’s voice was quiet, and the leader of the forest dwellers eyes were sympathetic.

She nodded. "Not much time. I got here.. as fast as I could."

Jessan gently took her face in his big hands, and made her look into his eyes. "We'll come, you know we will, Gabrielle.. But..." His eyes glistened. "That's a cruel mountain.. it doesn't like to give back what it's taken."

They all waited, gazing at her. She knew what Jessan meant. "No.. she's still alive." She took a deep breath. "I'd know, otherwise." And turned to look at Lestan with her heart in her mouth. "Wouldn't I?"Please..please tell me I'm not imagining this. That I just didn't ride through Tartares for no reason. Please..don't take my hope away. Not yet.

Lestan let his eyes drift shut for a bare moment, then fluttered them open. "Yes, you would." He answered quietly, with a note of surprise in his deep rumbling voice. His hand reached out and cupped her chin. "You would indeed, little sister."

A murmur ran through the watching forest dwellers, but fell to silence as Lestan stood up. "We need to move quickly. Call up a climbing patrol, and have them meet me here. Now. Go." He poked a finger at the first of the sentries that had followed him. "And you, take this horse in, and get her cared for." Detailing off a second, who carefully approached the exhausted Argo, and took her by the bridle, crooning soothingly at her.

"You'll ride with me, OK?" Jessan murmured to her, visibly upset. "Here." He took the waterskin a cousin was offering him and opened it, reaching out and holding it to her lips. "Drink something, Gabrielle, please."

Gabrielle sipped on the water, then sighed, and put her head in her hands, propping her elbows on her knees. "I’m scared, Jess."

"I know." He looked at her with an aching sympathy. "I know she means a lot to you.." He took a scrap of linen from his pocket and, wetting it with water from his waterskin, carefully wiped the blood off her face.

"No.." Gabrielle managed a strangled smile. "It's more than you know. A lot has changed since you last saw us."

Jessan gazed at her, then let his eyes close, and extended his Sight. Then his golden eyes opened, and a smile creased his mouth, exposing the tips of his canines. "Oh..gosh." They did it. Damn.. I knew it was becoming deeper when I left them..but.. Xena said she'd never.. wonder what changed.

"I promised.. I'd keep you from teasing her about that." The bard said, with quiet despair.

Jessan clasped her hand, and rubbed the iciness of it. "I swear to you, Gabrielle, I won't even wink into those baby blues. Not a word."

That thought was almost too much for her, and she had to bite her lip hard to keep from breaking down. She looked up at him. "Oh Jess.. what am I going to do if.." Couldn't finish the sentence.

"Shh." The forest dweller put his long arm around her. "Don't think about it. We'll get there. She's hands down the strongest person I know - and she'll hang in there until we can get her out. Believe in her, Gabrielle. You know I do."

The bard felt her load lighten. "You're right. I lost sight of that... what's a mountain against the strength of her will, right? It'll be lucky it doesn't end up as rock garden decorations."

Against his will, Jessan grinned. That was so like Xena, too. He looked up as the climbing patrol approached, and offered his hand to Gabrielle."Time to go."

They were mounted on Eris by the time the patrol reached them, and Lestan took the lead, as they splashed back across the stream, and headed for the high granite peaks.

The air was getting stale, Xena realized, as she prodded herself into consciousness again. She wondered how long it had been - her internal clock didn't seem to be working, and she had no idea how much time had passed.

Ares was drowsing near her head, and she could feel his soft breath against her cheek. Poor little guy. Her mind mused tiredly. Hasn't hardly had a chance, has he? First a panther kills his mamma and all his brothers and sisters, now this.

She stretched her body out a little, ignoring the pain, and sighed. Well, the internal damage seems to have stabilized, at least, since she no longer felt the harsh throbbing and tense swelling that had been present before. Gabrielle always teases me about being a fast healer..maybe I’ll heal up just in time to suffocate. Gallows humor from someone who'd been on her share of them.

Cautiously, she tensed her limbs, feeling the muscles howl in agony from being stuck in one place for so long, but they responded, and she realized she'd somehow escaped any major broken bones. She felt an ironic laugh bubble up, and let it run, even though the effort made her head pound.

Damn. The darkness settled down around her again, a thick inky blackness that made her long for even the tiniest hint of sunlight. Worse than when I was blinded, for that while.. at least then I could see shadows..this...I hate this. What I wouldn't give to see... Her chest contracted painfully, and she didn't finish the thought, because this time, even in an unconscious stupor, she remembered, her mind had turned to Gabrielle - she recalled half formed dreams of sunlight, valleys, horses, and an icy cold splash of water that had seemed so real...

I'm gonna miss her. She felt a quiet anguish. And I don't want to die here, alone in the dark, and never get a chance to see her again... and I don't think I will. A profound sadness filled her. Because I'm pretty sure we're not going to the same place.. And she stared inside her soul with honest eyes, judging the darkness of her life against the relative pittance of the last few years, and knew it for the truth.And it really will be never again, as much as she wants to believe otherwise. And I know she does.

Something inside her shattered at that thought, and the shards of that shattering hurt worse than any of her injuries ever could have.

Ares stirred, and licked her ear. "Hello, boy. You'd have been better off staying asleep." She whispered, in a choked voice. More than anything, she was just so tired. Of fighting, Of hurting. Of losing people. She couldn't win, and maybe it was just time to stop trying.

The air was starting to get hard to breath, and Xena realized, in a far off kind of way, that her time was coming to a close. She tilted her head, and gently kissed Ares on his moist nose. "Sorry, boy... gave you a few more months, anyway, huh? " He licked her face, with a little whine. "You never really had a chance..but..I guess neither did I."

She felt the darkness growing closer, and the still, empty air settled on her like a blanket. And she took a deep breath, as though in defiance, dismissing her fear, and focused her thoughts to one place. To one person. Damned if I'm going to let something as insignificant as dying stop me from saying goodbye to her.

Hear me, Gabrielle… Listen to this poor dark soul you brought up into the light, for a little while.

I want you to take care of yourself, Ok? Because I can't be there to do it for you.. though I'd give anything to be able to.

I want you to live the rest of your life knowing you made a difference, for me, and for everyone else you touch with your grace, and your honor, and your selfless gift of giving.

I want you to know you'll always have a part of me tucked away in your heart - because I gave that to you, and I never regretted it for a second.

I want you to know that you've brought a wonder into my life that I didn't deserve, and will never forget. The memory of that will carry me through an eternity in Tartarus, and I'll smile. And they won't understand, but I don’t care.

I want you to know that I love you, and that I always have, and I always will. Think of me, once in a while. You know I'll be listening.

The forest dweller patrol thundered through the pass into the valley, and the raiders started spreading out to stop them. Lestan, in the lead, stood in his stirrups, raising his fur covered arms and baring his canines. A bass roar burst from his throat, and the raiders broke and ran, leaving their horses and gear behind.

"Sometimes, the fangs really do the trick." Jessan whispered in Gabrielle’s ear, with a crooked grin. "And it's a lot faster than stopping and fighting with them."

Gabrielle smiled, and rested her head against his arm, trying to ignore the churning in her stomach. They were headed back..as fast as they were able..there was no more she could do right now.. but that didn't help the cold, creeping grimness that was casting a shadow over her soul. She could feel it. They were running out of time.

Don't you dare leave me. She thought fiercely towards the mountain. Don't you dare, Xena, not after I had to ride Argo half to death, and jump her over some filthy murderous raiders. Me, jumping Argo. So don't you even think about it. You stay put, you hear? But despite the strength of her thoughts, she watched the setting sun with heartsick eyes. It took me too long..

They started the long ride up the narrow path, moving at the fastest speed possible, but it was twilight before they rounded that last bend, and saw the rockslide.

Jessan's breath drew in, before he could control it, and he groaned. No one..not even Xena... and yet, if I close my eyes, I can see that bare...slim connection still there. Gods help me..I don't want to see that break. I can't..

"Jessan." Gabrielle's voice was a bare, strained whisper.

"Yes?" He answered, leaning close to her and looking into her eyes, flinching at the haunted look there.

"Hurry." Came the answer.

Half the group pounded torches in, and got them lit. The other half started clearing out rocks, taking the smaller ones in hand, and working in teams on the larger ones.

Gabrielle helped, for a while, but found she was more in the way than anything else, and found a rock as close as possible to where they were working and crouched on it, staring into the growing indentation in the pile. Xena.. not much longer.. please..I can feel you hanging in there. I know you are. Don't leave me... I don't know what I'll do without you.. Please?

Jessan brushed the hair back from his eyes, and surveyed the pile, from his position on top of it. His heart sank, as he realized just how much rock they had to move before they even had a chance of reaching Xena. If she was alive, and though his Sight insisted that was true, his intelligence told him nothing, no one, could have lived through the crushing of that many tons of granite.

And when my ax breaks that last one..and I uncover her..then what? What am I going to do when I have to carry her lifeless body out of here? Because, by my honor, it will be done by no hand other than mine. Whose life she owns.

He glanced back at Gabrielle, huddled on her rock, eyes unseeing. I teased her about this. Gods damn me to Tartarus. I teased her.

The tall forest dweller turned his attention back to the rocks, swinging his pickaxe, and sending shards flying over the pile, showering the his working cousins and brothers with sharp shards of the stone. Showering Gabrielle with them, but she showed no signs of feeling it.

Suddenly, she looked up, and directly into his eyes, and he saw the beginnings of despair there.

No.. his mind whispered, and he swung the ax with panicked strength, shattering a boulder almost his size into three large chunks, and kicking one aside, to continue his frenzied assault. He swung again, and again, and again, every time with increasing power that he tapped from deep within himself.

Now he was close enough to sense her life force Felt it slipping away. And let out a howl of anguish that echoed sharp and harsh against the rock wall he faced.

Panic lit his body on fire as he let loose one final blow, that crashed like thunder into the cold stone, and moved an entire section of rocks to one side.

Lost his balance, and tumbled backwards as the slipping and sliding rocks exploded outward, moved by something more than their own momentum.

And a single moment of shocked silence followed, before he was scrambling over the piles of rubble, towards that one last hidden pocket in the stone, and a still, dusty, leather clad form.

It was a suspension between shadows, Xena knew, as one part of her understood it was trapped, and dying. And another part began to break free, and drift as a buzzing filled her ears, and the useless air moved in and out of her still working lungs.

She felt that tug from without, and hesitated, a growing part of her that wanted to just let go battling with the part of her that belonged to Gabrielle and rejected that parting and was fighting it tooth and nail. She was so tired... but Gabrielle was asking something of her.

I can’t say no to her. A single agonized thought floated free and that was enough to trigger her inborn fighting instincts, the ones that never gave up. Never stopped. Never let go.

She called on her will, and pushed back the darkness, holding on tight to the one thing she knew was beyond question. No.. I am not going to allow this to happen. Tapping deep into unknown reserves, into the dark strength that came from anger. From what made her what she was. From the wildest parts of her that were more Ares than anything else. Where her true strength lay.

I promised. The words rang clear as a bell in her mind, driving out the buzzing, and letting her hear the sudden, vibrant sound of urgent pickaxes exploding against the stone nearby. I promised, and no damn mountain is going to make me break that promise.

It was a fierce growl, that ignored the spent air, and the darkness, and the pain, that gathered everything she was and set it against the force that was dragging her apart from her soulmate.

A fire that ignited in her, and as the piles of rock above her collapsed down under the assault from without, she coiled her suddenly released body and shoved outward, forcing a boulder the size of her own body outward, freeing her at last from her dark prison.

And felt a ethereal roar of light and darkness, as the cold outside air slammed into her, and the wind whipped snapping of a row of torches brought painful sparks to her eyes, and a scent of burning tar that filled her lungs.

She landed with a painful crash on a pile of granite shards, and the impact nearly sent her unconscious again. But she clung to awareness with tenacious power, tilting her head back, and forcing her eyes open to see the stars she knew were blazing over her. And they were, so she drank in their light, and the blessed fresh air, and the smells of hot granite chips, and sweating forest dwellers with an overwhelming sense of relief.

Pairs of furred hands were on her, she knew it, but ignored them as she just lay there, sucking air into her starved body, listening to Ares do the same, curled up in the protective circle of one arm. It took what seemed forever for the roaring grayness to subside, but it did, and then was cut through by the sudden feel of hands her body knew, hands whose touch she craved more than the air and the light.

Xena turned her head, and met the misty green eyes of the person who was cradling her face with infinite gentleness. Felt an involuntary smile twitch her lips, and saw the response in Gabrielle's expression. "Hey." She barely managed a hoarse whisper.

"Hey yourself." The bard replied, seemingly unaware of the tears coursing down her face. "Had me worried there for a few minutes." I felt you slip away.. I felt it.. and then you.. "Should have guessed it would take more than a measly mountain to beat you, huh?"

"I had a promise to keep." Came the barely audible answer. "Didn’t want to…disappoint you."

"You didn’t." Gabrielle softly responded, gently moving the dark hair out of her eyes. "You never do."

"Try.. not to." The pain was getting worse, again, and she knew she only had a few minutes left, before it would take her back into unconsciousness. So she fastened her eyes on the bard, and drank in the sight of her. "Thanks.. for coming back for me."

"Thanks for sticking around." Gabrielle’s voice wavered. "We need to get you back to the forest dwellers’s village, Xena. You’re hurt."

Xena nodded a little, reaching out and twining her fingers with the bard’s. "Know that. Think.. you’re going to get a chance.. to spoil me good this time."

That got a tense smile from Gabrielle. "You bet I am." Her voice steadied. "Xena.."

The blue eyes fastened on hers, and took on a ghostly twinkle. "I know."

They both nodded a little at each other.

Xena shifted her head and met Jessan's glowing gaze. ""Hello, Jess. "

Jessan lifted her hand to his lips, and kissed it, then pressed it to his cheek. "Good to see you, Xena. In fact, it’s the best thing that’s happened to me all day."

That got him a smile too.

"Grr." Ares growled weakly, lifting his head and staring at Jessan.

"Sokay, Ares. He's a friend." Gabrielle soothed the puppy.

"Ares?" Jessan asked, raising an eyebrow.

"Long story." They both answered, in unison.

Then the pain could be held back no longer, and Xena felt herself going out again. "Sorry.. been a rough one." She blinked at them. "Gonna have to go out for a while." And finally let the darkness retake her. For a little while.

Gabrielle watched in silence as Xena’s eyes closed, and her body relaxed. Only then did she allow herself to sink down next to the warrior’s battered form, and release a long, shuddering sigh of relief. "Oh gods." She whispered, lifting a shaking hand to her head.

Felt Jessan’s gentle hand on her shoulder, and looked up into his concerned eyes. "Gabrielle.."

"Thank you." She replied softly. "From the depths of my heart, Jessan, thank you."

Jessan didn’t answer, just put his hand on her cheek and smiled his fierce smile. Then they both turned their eyes to Xena’s quiet form. "Gods.. how did she ever.." Jessan breathed, eyes tracing the bruises, scrapes and cuts covering the tall warrior’s body.

Gabrielle carefully ran her knowing hands down the granite dust covered arms and legs by her side, and let out a sigh of relief. "Nothing major broken." Incredible. She gingerly turned Xena’s head and studied the dark bruise that started over her right cheekbone and disappeared into her hairline. "That looks bad."

Her eyes found Jessan’s and his brow creased as he let light fingertips touch her chest, then her midriff, putting gentle pressure. "She’s pretty pale, and I can feel some damage in here." He commented. "I think she may be bleeding inside." He lifted his hand and touched Gabrielle’s face again. "But she’s… Gabrielle, most people with that kind of injury don’t make it past the first hour. Maybe two." His eyes lifted to the dark sky. "When did this happen?"

"This morning." The bard confirmed, moving the dark hair out of Xena’s closed eyes with infinite tenderness. "But she’s not most people." Her eyes lifted up and found his with utmost confidence. "She’ll be all right."

And Jessan, faced with green eyes that seemed to see beyond his own, joined his belief to hers with no hesitation. "I know she will." I felt that fire ignite in her, and it was like looking into the heart of the sun, because Death came to take her and she just laughed at him. "She’ll hang in there. But we have to get her back to the village. Stay here with her for a minute – I’ll see if the litter is ready."

The bard nodded, and turned her attention to the groggy Ares, who was slumped by Xena’s shoulder, half cradled in one of her battered arms. "Hey, Ares. How are you doing?" She crooned, gently lifting him up and holding him.

"Rrrr." The puppy complained, giving her hand a half hearted gnaw.

"Yeah, I know." Gabrielle sighed, and carefully ran her fingers through his thick fur, searching for injuries. "Wow, looks like you got lucky." She told the wolf, who continued his chewing. ‘Your mommy protected you, didn’t she." The bard tickled his chin. "She’s a good mommy, huh? Likes to protect everyone." Her eyes lifted and traveled over Xena’s unconscious body. "Except herself, of course."

She extricated her hand from Ares’ jaws, and slid around, gently cradling Xena’s head and putting it in her lap. The warrior stirred, but quieted when Gabrielle added a warmly protective arm across her bruised shoulders and felt the taut muscles relax under the touch. The intimate awareness of her lightened her mood, and she managed a slight grin, as she ran her fingers through Xena’s tangled hair and straightened it. Xena.. her mind mused. You’ve had such a rough time, love. She felt her awareness slipping, and focused on the still, pale face . It must have been a nightmare for you.. I know how you hate closed in places. Her thoughts drifted Even though I’m the only one who knows that. Even though it was my dumb clumsiness that forced you into letting me know.

It had been another rainy day, not long after they’d left Cirron, before they had gotten Ephiny’s message about the Amazons. This time it was just one of those long, annoying, drizzlingly rainy days that gets everything wet, and the minute you dry it, gets it wet again. After watching her get more and more irritated by the dripping water down her back, Xena had, without comment, found them a cave to shelter up in.

A nice one, actually, with a soft sand floor, and a fire pit already dug. Xena had set up camp, changed out of her soaked leathers, and was patiently cleaning and oiling her sword. Gabrielle had decided to do a little exploring after she got the stew started, which was bubbling away and casting a rich meaty aroma into the pale walled cavern.

She found a small crevice in the dark rear corner, and scrambled through it, curious as to what was on the other side.

Lost her balance, and fell headlong into a cold natural well, with a startled scream, as she couldn’t feel the bottom nor see anything in the darkness around her.

Bare seconds, and the low light from the outer cave was blocked out, and a powerful hand grabbed her, pulling her out of the water, gasping, and into Xena’s arms. She sat there dripping quietly, waiting for her heart to stop hammering, and then realized Xena’s was beating even harder, and the warrior was shaking.

"What’s wrong?" She asked, straining to see Xena’s face in the dim light, with the roof of the crevice brushing against their heads.

"Sorry." She’d finally answered, after taking a few deep breaths. "Too close in here."

"Gods." Gabrielle had cursed, hauling her out of there, and was almost scared witless by her shockingly pale face and rapid breathing. But Xena had closed her eyes, and concentrated, and moments later it seemed, was fine.

And the bard had kept an unobtrusive eye on her after that, realizing when the warrior said she hated big parties, or crowded squares, exactly where that was coming from. It didn’t really bother her all that much, though now.. Gabrielle’s brow creased. Now it would be worse. She knew.. since she’d developed a sensitivity to that herself, after being caught in that coffin.

It’ll be all right, Xena.. though I know just how much you hate admitting any kind of weakness. Even to me. I’ll get you through it. I promise.

It had bothered Xena , that night in the cave. Gabrielle had known it, from her expression that the bard was learning to read, the tension in her shoulders, and the restless motions of her hands. The bard had tried to distract her with stories, asked her questions – nothing . She finally just went over to her, and put an arm around her stiff shoulders, and sat like that in silence, until she felt the tense muscles relax, and her breathing deepen, and saw her eyes close in gentle surrender.

‘Gabrielle." She’d said, in that wonderful, deep tone the bard never tired of listening to.

"Hmm?" Gabrielle had answered, laying her cheek against Xena’s upper arm and gazing at her, knowing her heart was showing in her eyes and deciding she really didn't care.

Blue eyes met hers, an arm slipped around her, and then came the jolt as Xena’s lips had touched hers for one searing instant. "Thanks." Xena had said, close enough for them to still be breathing each other’s air. Close enough, Gabrielle had been sure, for Xena to have heard her heartbeat which was pounding inside her hard enough to make her shake.

Close enough for her to walk a fine tightrope for what seemed like forever, before she could take a breath, and bring the intensity down. "Anytime. Thanks for pulling me out of trouble. Again."

Gabrielle smiled fondly at the memory, and looked up as Jessan and Lestan approached, walking quietly so as not to startle her. "We ready?" She asked, not moving her hands.

Lestan crouched down next to her, and put a hand over hers, where it rested on Xena’s shoulder. "We are, little sister." He paused. "How are you doing?"

Gabrielle thought about that for a long minute. How was she doing? Good question. "Better." She answered.

"We can take you both on the litter." Lestan replied, with a slight smile.

As though he knew that was exactly what she wanted, to not let go of Xena, not even for a short time.

"That’s silly, Lestan." She gave him a grin. "I’ll be fine."

"It’s not silly at all." The older forest dweller told her, looking her right in the eyes. "You want to stay with her." Tips of his canines showed as he smiled. "And that’s exactly right."

"Oh." The bard whispered, closing her eyes and biting her lip. Someone who understands. "Yeah…ok."

So hard for them. Lestan sighed to himself. No training, no traditions, just…and yet, they’d managed. "All right. Come on then, you get up there first, and Jess will bring Xena down. He peered down at Ares. "Hmm… do you want to take up your friend, there? I think he’s probably not going to like it if I do it."

"Sure." Gabrielle smiled, and scooped up the still somewhat dazed puppy, who did have the presence of mind to growl at Lestan as he got a better look at the forest dweller. "Ares, cut that out." She scolded, shaking his paw. "He’s a friend."

Lestan’s eyebrow rose. "Ares?"

"Roo!" The puppy responded. "Grr." He added, giving Lestan a suspicious look.

The bard shook her head. "Don’t ask. Or better yet, ask Xena. She named him."

Gabrielle waited until Jessan had Xena’s body cradled in his powerful arms, then walked with them down the slate scattered hill, where the rest of the patrol was waiting. The bard had always felt welcome by the forest people, but the look she was receiving from them now was filled with an understanding and respect that hadn’t been there before.

The litter had a short back, and low sides to keep its contents in. Lestan lifted her up with negligent ease, and laid her down in a reclining position, against the low wall. She settled Ares down near her knees, as Jessan leaned over, and ever so gently put Xena down so that her head and shoulders were cradled against the bard’s chest.

It felt wonderful, but Gabrielle didn’t stop to figure out the reason. She just lightly wrapped her arms around the warrior, and settled back with a contented sigh. Jessan ruffled her hair, and stepped back with a grin. "Never thought I’d..well, anyway, Deggis picked up the rest of your gear, Gabrielle.."

She turned her eyes to the shorter, darker forest dweller. "Thanks."

Deggis blushed, and shrugged his dark furred shoulders. "Anytime."

The forest dwellers mounted up, and they started off, with the two advance scouts going ahead with torches lit and held high, scattering flashes of amber light from the gray granite cliffs. They rode in silence, broken only by the fitful wind whipping against horse’s manes and the ragged flame of the torches, and the steady, purposeful footfalls of the large horses.

The gentle swaying motion of the litter nudged Xena back into a gray fuzziness in which the faint sounds of the journey were coming at her at a far distance.

The pain was first and foremost, and took up quite a bit of her attention, but pain was an old acquaintance, and she'd developed techniques over the years to allow her to let the pain sort of float past her, in some back part of her mind that acknowledged it, but didn't let it prevent her from paying attention to what was going on around her.

And what was going on she took in from senses other than sight, as opening her eyes would have taken far too much effort right now. So the wisp of oily smoke and the warm smell of nearby horses combined with the familiar woolen texture of her own cloak that her fingers identified assured her she was safe.

Which she already knew, because her body had no problem recognizing the unbelievably comforting presence of the person she was leaning against, whose arms were loosely clasped around her.

She was aware of being thirsty, now. Good sign, her mind mused, but she realized it also meant she was going to have to make the effort to open her eyes and drink something, and she didn't know if she had the strength to do even that. On the other hand, it would probably make Gabrielle feel better if she at least made the attempt, so...

She pried her eyes open reluctantly, and blinked a few times to clear them, realizing she was looking almost straight up at a blanket of stars that twinkled in the clear night air. It was beautiful. Her mouth twitched into faint hint of a grin. Then she felt a feather light touch on the top of her head and the grin became more definite. She experimentally took a breath, found it uncomfortable but bearable, and took a second. "Think I could get used to this." She winced at the hoarseness in her voice, but was rewarded by the convulsive tightening of the arms that cradled her, which hurt, but she didn't care because the feeling that came along with it was worth every painful moment.

"Hi." Gabrielle's voice floated next to her ear. "How are you doing?"

"Lousy." Came the faint answer. No point in pretending, not with Gabrielle, at any rate, who knew when she did with unnerving accuracy these days. "Got any water?"

One arm released its hold around her, and picked up a waterskin tucked against the bard's hip. "Just might." Gabrielle uncapped the spout, and held it to her lips, grinning when Xena found the energy to lift her head a bit and take the waterskin between her teeth, and pull down a few mouthfuls.

"Hey..take it easy." The bard laughed, and got an eyebrow twitch in response.

Xena kept going until she ran out of strength and had to stop, and settled her head back, blinking up at Gabrielle's dimly lit face. "Thanks." Her voice sounded clearer. "How'r you doing?"

The bard put down the waterskin, and put her arm back around Xena, squeezing very gently and burying her face in Xena's hair. "All right." Her voice was muffled, but Xena could still hear the catch in it, and she could feel the ragged edge to her breathing. She stayed silent for a while, and eventually Gabrielle took a long shaky breath, and sniffed.

"Sorry." The bard sighed. "Just relief, I guess."

Wincing, Xena lifted her arm and covered Gabrielle's hand with her own. "S'allright."

"Not fair, Xena. I'm supposed to be comforting you." Gabrielle couldn't help but smile, and saw an answering grin tugging at Xena's mouth.

"Habit." Xena admitted. "'sides, you are." She laid her cheek on Gabrielle's chest, and closed her eyes, breathing in the bard's familiar scent. "A lot." And felt Gabrielle's lips touch her forehead, as she drifted back down into the twilight and the warmth of her partner's enclosing arms.

Continued in Part 2

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Bound - Part 2

Melissa Good

For DISCLAIMERS see Part 1.

Jessan stood in his stirrups and stretched, and kneed his mount closer to Lestan, who straightened up in his saddle to greet him as he got closer.

"Son." The older forest dweller put a hand on his shoulder and glanced at the litter ahead of them. "Never in my life have I seen anything like that." He laughed. "I say that a lot around her, don't I?"

Jessan shook his maned head, and let out a long breath. "Like no one else I know." Or ever would. "They're quite a pair, huh?" His jaw jerked in Gabrielle's direction. "Did I tell you, or what?" Never mind that I was as surprised as you were, father. What changed, so far and fast? Not that it matters..even with her not conscious, I See that warm golden fire that surrounds her now... surrounds them both. I hope it brought her joy. She deserves it.

Lestan bowed his head in agreement. "You did." He glanced at them. "I wouldn't have believed it, and your mother is going to have a fit, but it's true, Jess. It's a strong a bond as ours is, and it might just have.." He hesitated, and swallowed, eyes going internal for a long moment.

"Kept her alive?" Jessan finished quietly.

"Given her a reason to stay alive." Lestan corrected, with a gentle smile. "It's been known to do that."

"Mmm." Jessan agreed, gazing ahead of them, where the first weak beams of moonlight were reflecting off the rippling surface of the boundary stream. "Almost home. She needs a healer to look at her. That's some really bad bruising, maybe worse than it looks."

Lestan nodded. "You should ride ahead and wake up Elaini." He glanced up. "That was quite a rock smashing job you did, by the way." He slapped Jessan on the shoulder. "You had chips flying halfway off the mountain."

Jessan grinned. "I did, didn't I?" He flexed his arms and made a wry face. "Got to display one of my best assets."

Lestan snorted. "Noticed you made sure everyone saw you carry her down off that granite mountain you made." He chuckled. "Show off."

Jessan gave him a wounded expression. "Her? You're joking. She hardly weighs anything, even with the armor. Now if it was YOU..." He gave Lestan a mischievous grin, and patted him on the belly. "Mom's been indulging you again, I see."

Lestan bared his canines with a snap. "Look who's talking, son of mine." He poked the taller Jessan in the gut. "Now I know where all those pies went to."

They both laughed, and Jessan was still chuckling as he dug his knees into Eris' side, and threaded his way through the patrol, headed for home.

It very quiet as he rode up to the gateway into the village, and the portal swung open silently at his approach. He paused Eris in the entrance, and leaned down towards the gate guard. "Might as well leave it open. Patrol coming back." Very calmly, he thought.

The guard grinned at him. "Brung her back then, did you? Knew a little mountain wouldn't do her in."

Jessan's smile showed every tooth perfectly. "Nope. We got down far enough and Ares' boots if she didn't do the rest herself." He sobered. "I've gotta wake up Elaini, though. Those rocks weren't kind."

The guard waved him on, and he trotted into the central open space, stopping Eris outside the healer's quarters and dismounted, his solid footfalls breaking the silence of the night as he padded up the stairs and onto the porch of the solitary building.

"Ah..Jessan." Elaini yawned, as she opened the door on his second knocking. "Didja find your human??"

"She's not mine. But yes, and we need your talents." Jessan answered, with an unseen rolling of his eyes.

"Mine?" The healer snorted. "What would I be knowing about humans? Send to Cirron." She gave him an amiable shrug. "Not that I have anything against em, mind you.. I just don't know what to do for em."

Jessan let his eyes narrow and stepped up to her. "Xena managed to take care of me when I was injured. Wonder how she figured it out." His voice dropped. "What with me being so different and all." He turned away. "Guess they're just smarter about that kind of thing. Ok..well, I'll.."

"Hey. I didn't say I couldn't figure it out." Elaini interrupted him. "Hold on..I'll get my stuff." She puttered around for a minute, then joined him at the door. "Just hope you don't expect me to do something impossible, like deliver a human child or something."

Jessan, blindsided, giggled. "Uhh.." He coughed. "Don't think that'll be a problem this time."

Elaini glanced at him strangely. "Whatever." She had been out at an allied settlement doing her healer's apprenticeship when their village had last been visited by the mythic Warrior Princess, and had missed that whole thing. In her opinion, which was always strongly professed, this human was probably very overrated. Guess I'll find out. She cheerfully thought to herself.

She stayed at Jessan's shoulder as he walked out onto the porch, and put his big hands on the railing, gazing towards the gateway. The night torches fluttered in the wind, and that breeze rattled the dry leaves on the trees overhead, sending a pattering of them down onto the roof with a sound like rain.

A flash of dim light at the gate, and the first sentries were trotting in, holding their torches out for the gate guards to grab and ground to the earth. They cleared the opening, and left space for the two litter bearing riders to come forward, as the rest of the patrol moved off towards the stables with a clatter of equipment, and a rising hum of good natured voices.

Jessan stepped off the porch and ambled down to meet the litter, pausing and gazing down at its contents with undisguised affection. Gabrielle still had her arms wrapped around the injured warrior and was looking back up at him with a sleepy smile.

"Good ride?" The tall forest dweller asked.

"Not bad.." the bard answered, taking a deep breath. "Much better than some I've been on."

Jessan chuckled. "Did she come to at all?" His eyes drifted to Xena's still face.

Gabrielle nodded. "A bit. She had some water."

"Great." Jessan smiled, and walked around to the other side of the litter, preparing to lift her up. "Let me get her into the healer's cot, and I bet you could use something to eat, huh?"

"Grr." Ares lunged at his hands, and stood over Xena’s prone form with infantile protectiveness. His thick ruff hair lifted on his tiny neck, and he growled again. "Grr."

"Ares!" Gabrielle stifled her laughter. She reached down, and lifted the puppy, cuddling him to her side and stroking his fur. "Sorry about that." She looked up apologetically at Jessan. "His mother was killed by a panther."

"What happened to the panther?" Jessan asked, edging closer again, and darting a glance at the puppy, who glared back at him.

"Xena happened to the panther." Gabrielle answered quietly. "Then she kind of adopted Ares."

"Uh. I see." The forest dweller nodded. "Ok..let’s go then – let me get her."

Reluctantly, the bard released her grasp, and watched as he lifted Xena up and cradled her gently. "Come on, Ares.." She remarked, hopping off the litter, and stretching painfully. "Ooof." Glancing up, she smiled at the two litter bearer riders. "Thanks... I really appreciate all you guys did."

The two young forest dwellers grinned back, and the nearer gave her a pat on the shoulder. "You can pay us back in stories, huh?"

Gabrielle grinned wholeheartedly. "You bet." she patted his calf, and followed Jessan's retreating form into the healer's hut.

Elaini watched as Jessan carefully settled the injured woman on one of the healing cot’s pallets then crossed over to him and studied the quiet form. "So that’s her, eh?"

Jessan nodded. "Uh huh."

The healer sniffed reflectively. "Pretty big for a human female."

"I guess. I don’t know that many of them." Jessan replied, turning as Gabrielle came in. "Elani, this is Gabrielle. She’s.. uhm…"

"A bard." Gabrielle finished, giving him an amused look, and holding out a hand to the healer. ‘Hello."

Elaini took the offered hand slowly, and grasped it, sensitive fingers detecting the surprising strength she found in the grip, and equally surprised at the steady power in the pale green eyes of this.. bard. So. "Nice to meet you, Gabrielle the bard." She drawled, releasing the arm. "Sorry you had such a bad time up there."

"Thanks." Gabrielle smiled, then glanced past her. "Jessan, give me a hand with the armor, will you?" She turned and gave Ares a stern look. "And you, leave him alone. OK?"

"Rrrr." Ares grumbled, trotting underneath the pallet Xena was on and lying down.

Jessan nodded, and joined her at Xena’s side, lifting the warrior’s head and shoulders up, which allowed Gabrielle to get at the buckles in the back and side. "Got them all?" He asked, noting her concentrated expression.

"Yeah.. hang on..Ooof. Ok, I got that last one." She sighed, and released the armor, lifting it gently off Xena’s chest and putting it aside, then starting to work on the bracers.

"Gods.. this leg armor is heavy as anything.." Jessan muttered, as he detached the greaves. He glanced back at Elaini, who was busy getting a tray of healing supplies together. "How does she…oh, never mind. It’s all magic anyway."

Gabrielle looked up from her task, and grinned. "You figured that out too, huh????" She slid the bracer off, and started on the other one. "I keep telling her that, but she thinks I’m crazy."

Elaini padded over, and put her tray of supplies down on the small table next to the pallet, and rubbed her hands together briskly. "If you two are done now, I can get to work." She reached out towards Xena’s arm, surprised when Gabrielle put out a quick hand to stop her.’ What?"

"Listen." The bard said, seriously. "Don’t make such fast moves. She’s been in and out of consciousness, and if she fades in while you’re making a grab for her, she might not know you’re trying to help." Her green eyes fastened on Elaini’s face with disturbing intensity.

"And..???" Elaini said, trying not to laugh. What did she think this human was going to do to her, anyway?

"I don’t want anyone getting hurt." Gabrielle answered calmly. "And you could."

The healer chuckled. "Listen, in her condition, she’s not going to hurt anybody. So relax and let me do my job."

The bard didn’t let go of her hand. "In her condition, she moved a rock as large as she is. I’ve seen her be almost unconscious and kill someone." Her voice dropped in pitch, but rose in volume. "Most people’s first mistake is to underestimate her. Don’t be dumb, ok? "

Elaini got mad, and shook off Gabrielle’s hand. "Look, I didn’t ask for you guys to come in here, ok? So stop the nonsense, and let me get on with what I need to get on with so I can go back to sleep." With deliberate roughness, she turned back and reached again for Xena’s arm.

And found herself sitting on the floor, holding her arm with her other hand, in shock. Never seeing the hand that grabbed her, or the elbow that slammed her off the chair and onto the dusty wooden planks. Looked up in utter bewilderment and found herself pinned in place by a pair of glittering ice blue eyes

"She doesn’t lie to people." Xena said, fighting down the utter agony caused by having to use her sorely abused muscles to make a point. But I think I made it, hmm?? Gabrielle, you owe me one.

Gabrielle recovered from her shock, and leaned over the edge of the pallet, gazing at her partner fondly. "Show off." She settled a hand on Xena's shoulder, and squeezed gently. Impossible, incredible, unbelievable.. I have to invent new words to describe her.

Xena tilted her head back, and regarded the bard with weary amusement. "After that little speech of yours, what was I supposed to do?" She asked plaintively, meeting the bard’s eyes and feeling the warmth between them. "Have to live up to my reputation, don’t I?"

Jessan sat down heavily on the floor, shaking his golden maned head. "Didn’t even see her move. Damn."

Elaini got up, and stood over the pallet, studying her erstwhile patient with new eyes. "Sorry about that. I’ll pay attention next time." Gingerly, she settled back down on the stool, and hesitantly took up her linen and cleanser. "Uhm..need to get that leather off.."

Ares, hearing Xena’s voice, came scrambling out from under the pallet, and heaved himself up on his hind legs, putting his front paws on the edge of the bed and peering over. "Roo!!" He shifted from paw to paw, then tried to jump onto the pallet and lost his balance, slipping underneath the edge and tumbling on his side.

"Hey.." Xena let out a tiny laugh. "Get him up here before he hurts himself." And watched as Gabrielle fished him out from under the pallet and hoisted him up next to the warrior, where he stumbled over, and put his paws on her chest, licking her face. "Ares, cut that out." Xena sighed, unable to muster the energy to push him away. Gabrielle chuckled, and moved him to the end of the pallet, where he sneezed, but curled up against Xena’s legs with a little satisfied sigh, and fell asleep.

"Whoops.. my cue to leave." Jessan said, lifting himself up and dusting his hands off. "Xena, please be gentle with our healer. She means no harm..she’s just a little blunt." Ignoring Elaini’s glare, as he knelt, and took Xena’s hand in his own. "Be well, my friend."

Xena squeezed his hand, and let a grin quirk her lips. "Thanks, Jess."

He rose, and walked over to Gabrielle, who stood and hugged him. "I’ll be back a little later with some food for you, Red." He whispered in her ear.

Gabrielle gurgled, and punched him. "What did you call me?" she hissed, grabbing his chest fur and pulling hard. "You better think again."

Jessan grinned, and poked the tip of his tongue out at her. "Bye." He swept them all a bow, and padded out the door and into the darkness beyond.

Gabrielle shook her head in mock irritation, and moved around to the other side of the pallet, undoing the shoulder strap on that side of Xena’s leathers, stopping when Xena gave her a little headshake. "What?"

"Cut em off." The warrior muttered, with a wince. "Can’t take it otherwise." Her eyes met Gabrielle’s, and the bard flinched at what she saw there.

"OK." She replied softly, looking up at the silent Elaini. "Do you have a.."

"Armor dagger." Xena interrupted her quietly.

"Right." The bard stood and went to where she’d put Xena’s armor, and extracted the dagger from the breastplate, handling it carefully. Knowing it’s deadly sharpness. She knelt at Xena’s side again, and with infinite care, sliced the leather down the seam along her side, moving the sharp knife along her skin with unerring precision. And realized suddenly that she was probably one of the only people in the world Xena would trust to do this. That she held Xena’s life in her hands, because if she’d chosen to use that very sharp blade against the warrior, there was no way for Xena to stop her.

She finished her task, and lifted the leathers up and away from Xena’s body, drawing a sudden breath at the damage revealed underneath. Even Elaini winced at the darkly mottled bruise that covered the warrior from her breastbone almost to her hips.

"Ow." Gabrielle breathed, putting a sympathetic hand on her partner’s tense shoulder. "No wonder you hurt."

Xena kept her eyes closed. "Got caught between two rocks, right at the start of it." Her eyes drifted open and found Gabrielle’s, and the bard sank down next to the pallet, and clasped her hand. "Ugly, huh?"

Gabrielle gave her a sweet smile. "How could anything about you ever be ugly?" Aware of Elaini’s suddenly startled look out of the corner of her eye. Whoops. She chuckled to herself.

Xena raised an eyebrow at her, realizing the bard was trying to distract her from what Elaini was doing. She turned her head and gazed at the healer, causing the woman to freeze as she was cleaning a nasty scrape on the warrior’s shoulder. ‘Relax, " she sighed. "I really am not in any condition to kill anyone right now."

"Could have fooled me." Elaini said cautiously, gingerly continuing to clean the scrape. "But that’s.." Her eyes drifted to the bruise on the warrior’s chest.

"Bleeding inside. I know." Xena answered, taking a shaky breath. "And you can’t do anything for it."

"No." Elaini answered, fascinated. "Are you a healer?"

"Sometimes." Came the answer. "And if that hasn’t killed me yet, I’ll probably get lucky this time."

"Probably." Elaini replied, relaxing a little. "But it’s going to be Hades’ own boots to heal."

"I know." Xena sighed. "Thanks for taking care of the scrapes."

"Sure." The healer answered softly. I came in here full of disdain for these people. Now I see a human who is more like us than some of us are. No wonder Jessan loves her. No wonder she won every warrior’s heart in the compound. What a fool I am. Or was. Covertly, she studied the tanned body as she worked her way down, this time looking at her with a warrior’s eyes.

And found they were not so different after all., save the matter of some fur, and a few fangs.

Gabrielle tucked the soft blanket around Xena’s body, and smoothed the edges down around her shoulders. Elaini had finished her task, and quietly left, after putting a sympathetic hand on the warrior’s shoulder. She apparently expected Gabrielle to be staying, because she also pulled out another set of bedding, and tossed it onto the closest pallet to the one Xena was lying on, then gave them both a nod, and padded out the nearer door into her private quarters.

Xena had been drifting in and out for a while, and now she blinked her eyes open and studied the bard’s face, giving her a weary half grin. "Rotten day." She murmured.

"We’re both here at the end of it. That’s all I need in a day." Gabrielle answered, uncapping a full waterskin. "Water?" She held the skin up to Xena’s lips, and gave her a hard stare until she finished at least half of the contents. "Good girl." And gave Xena an impish grin.

"Thanks mom." Xena whispered quirking an eyebrow at her. Then she closed her eyes, and swallowed, but opened them again and shook her head a little. Damn. Too close in here. Keep seeing that…OK, OK, Xena. Deep breaths now, you’re not there. You’re in a healer’s cot, in the middle of Jessan’s village. Gabrielle is here. She closed her eyes, but the feeling of being lost and alone didn’t fade. That would take time, she knew. Time she didn’t have right now. Damn.

The bard put the waterskin down, and laid a gentle hand on the warrior’s arm. "Xena?"

Blue eyes tracked to hers, and she saw Xena swallow again. "Yeah?"

"Are you OK? I mean.. other than.." her hand made a vague gesture towards her body. Something..something in her eyes isn’t right.

A long pause, then Xena’s eyes blinked and she took a deep breath. "No." Almost a whisper. "I’m not." She shifted and glanced around, then back to Gabrielle’s face, which had tensed with concern. "Every time I close my eyes…" she hesitated. "I’m back there .. and I can’t.."

"You need to get some sleep." The bard chewed her lip with a worried expression. "Is there.. can I get you anything, I mean…" What do I do here? I’m lost… now I know how she felt when we were in Potadeia. Gods.

Xena studied her for a long moment, then her gaze turned inward. "Yeah, there is something."

"Hmm? What?" She picked up Xena’s hand in hers and pressed it to her heart. "Anything, you know that."

Fingers tightened on hers, and tugged. "C’mere."

"Xena, you’re really hurt..I don’t.. " She hesitated, torn between what her common sense told her was ludicrous and what her heart wanted desperately to do.

"Please?" A quiet plea. "It would help."

"I won’t hurt you more?" The worried bard asked, but she was already moving.

Xena shook her head with surprising strength, and waited for the bard to cautiously nestle into her usual spot before wrapping a tired arm around her. It hurt like crazy. And it felt wonderful. "Need this." She whispered, and heard the bard’s breathing catch.as she tucked the blanket around Gabrielle’s body.

Gabrielle felt her partner’s body relax, and she looked up to see the blue eyes closing, and her breathing slowing to a deeper rhythm. Whatever works, Gabrielle. Her mind smiled, as she felt that peace between them sinking into her own consciousness, and gently washing away the horrors of the day. "I think I need this too. " she muttered softly, and felt the arm circling her body contract briefly. "Good rest, love. Let that magic in you start working."

"No magic." Xena breathed, feeling sleep stealing over her. "Just this."

Gabrielle thought about that, and as she let sleep take her as well, she smiled. "This is magic," she mumbled, giving in to the warmth with a contented sigh.

And silence fell, over a torch lit room, under the shadows of an old forest, and the light of a blanket of stars.

Wennid yawned, as she put the tall steaming mug on the table, and turned to greet her lifemate as he walked in the door. "So." She said, wrapping her arms around his body. "I take it you were successful?"

"Oh yeah." Lestan sighed, as he returned her hug, pulling her close and reveling in the intense connection between them. "We got her out."

Wennid released him, and pushed him down into the nearby chair. "Tell me what happened."

So he did, watching her eyebrows raise higher and higher as he proceeded,. "I know, it’s hard to believe. But she did..and…" He went on, watching her grin turn proud when he mentioned Jessan’s heroic attacks on the rock. "It was pretty amazing."

Wennid slid her arms around his neck and rested her chin on his head as he sipped the hot herbal tea. "Sounds it." She mused, floating in the golden light of their bond. "How is she?" Xena was a sore subject with Wennid. Half of her had a grudging admiration and liking for the woman, the other half had a hard time forgetting the razing of two nearby villages by Xena’s army.

Lestan was quiet for a moment, then half turned and pulled Wennid into his lap, and cradled her, bringing her golden eyes into contact with his own. "She’s going to be all right, I think.. but my love..what you sensed when they were last here, is real now."

"No." Wennid whispered, staring at him. "It’s not possible."

"It is." Lestan said, hugging her. ‘Look for yourself, Wenni" He rubbed his cheek against her. "It’s so strong.. I was afraid, love, very afraid we’d not be in time, and that poor lass.."

"The storyteller?" Wennid said, with a sigh.

"Aye." Her lifemate nuzzled her. "Do you hate it so very much, Wenni?"

She sighed, and nipped at his ear. "Them, no. I almost like them. Or..I do like the bard, and if I work at it, I might be able to like Xena." She turned brooding eyes on him. "Lesi, I don’t want to share this with their kind. It’s something that belongs to us, and damned if I want them to know it. They have so much.. we have so little.."

"Augh." He let out a trailing growl, standing up and cradling her with his one good arm. "Rabbits in a snare don’t’ have the choice of the killing, love. They have the gift..it behooves us to teach them about it."

‘I still don’t like it." Wennid grumbled. "But I suppose you’re right."

"I usually am." Lestan said, with a smug chuckle, as he carried her off to their quarters.

It was a long, disorienting moment before Gabrielle realized where she was the next morning. Then memory came flooding back, and she closed her eyes and let her head return to its resting place on Xena's shoulder.

A long sigh, and then she opened her eyes and studied her partner's face anxiously. Xena's breathing seemed better this morning, deeper, and some color had returned to her features, which encouraged the bard.

Along with the fact that the painful looking bruise on her face seemed to be fading already, a process which always caused Gabrielle to shake her head in amazement. I almost lost her. So close. A lump formed in her throat, which she swallowed with an effort. Thank the gods for that stubborn will of hers.

A tiny smile quirked on her lips, despite everything, and she let her hand relax against Xena's ribcage which was mostly unmarked, due to her armor. Felt the steady heartbeat against her palm, and the even motion of her breathing, whose rhythm matched Gabrielle’s own.

That's so.. weird. The bard mused, idly. But we always do that, now. Wonder if... She moved her other hand up to her neck, and felt for the pulse point. Oh. Wow. That’s an interesting discovery, especially since our bodies are so different. Our heartbeats match. How cool.

"What's wrong?" Came a soft voice just above her head.

"Oh..hi." Gabrielle answered, glancing up "How are you feeling?"

Xena briefly considered not answering, then sighed. "Not great." She moved slightly, and bit her lip to keep from yelling. Oh boy. This is not good. Grimly, she stretched out all her muscles, ignoring the shooting pains that accompanied the movement, until the pain subsided a little, and she felt a bit more optimistic.

"Mostly stiff." She commented, stretching again, this time with better results. "Teach me to lie still for that long."

"Really?" Gabrielle said, watching the process with interest. "I have an idea." She sat up, and carefully avoiding the still raw scrapes, gently started to knead her partner's neck and shoulders, then worked down from there.

Xena just closed her eyes, and surrendered herself to the bard's capable hands, a small grin playing about her lips.

"Better?" The bard inquired, when she was done, and had settled back down at Xena's side.

"Mmmm." Came the lazy answer. "You're really good at that."

"Really?" Gabrielle grinned at the unexpected compliment. "Well, I'll just have to keep practicing, then."

"Anytime you like. " Xena replied, idly combing her fingers through Gabrielle's hair., then lightly scratched the bard on the back of the neck.

Gabrielle’s eyes closed, and she dropped her head forward, humming with delight. "I love when you do that."

"I know." Xena smiled, and continued, causing the bard to collapse next to her in utter abandon. "Look at you…what a pleasure hound."

Gabrielle rolled over, and gently captured her hand, brushing the knuckles with her lips. "You bring that out in me." She commented, then blushed. "Uh.. I mean…"

Xena burst out laughing then immediately regretted it. "Damn," she cursed, holding her midsection.

Gabrielle took hold of her arms, and held her steady while she caught her breath. "Easy..easy.." She said, watching frustration and annoyance chase each other across her partner’s face. Eventually Xena took a breath, and cautiously let it out, and Gabrielle released her. "I know you hate this."

"Yeah." The warrior replied, carefully shifting, and closing her eyes against the agony as she tried to lift her body up.

"Hey..hey.." Gabrielle protested, putting a cautiously gentle hand against Xena's shoulder. "Take it easy, OK?"

Xena grimly kept at it, until she was leaning against the sloped edge of the pallet, raising her head above the level of her body. "Gotta." She gasped, slumping back against the padded surface and waiting for the rolling waves of pain to subside. "Gods." But she'd achieved her objective, which was to avoid lying down flat. "Bad idea." She blew out a long breath, and opened her eyes to see a very concerned look on Gabrielle's face.

"No.. bad idea to stay flat for long." She explained "Lungs fill up, especially with this kind of injury.

"Oh." The bard swallowed. "I"m glad you know what you're doing." She tucked the blanket around Xena's now half reclined form. "I just wish I could..." She broke off ."Anyway, you thirsty? How about trying some broth, or something?" She looked up as Xena's fingers twined with hers. "Hmm?"

"Can't risk it yet." The warrior answered, with a grimace. "Not sure exactly what's broken in there." Besides..this hurts so much I think I'd throw up if I tried..and that would hurt worse. "Just water, thanks." she shrugged. "Maybe if that's ok, tonight I'll give the broth a try."

Gabrielle got up, and retrieved the waterskin, walking over to the deep basin at the back of the cot and refilling it. She glanced out the window at the early dawn lit village, and noted the starting of the morning's activity. Like most villages, she mused, but this one has a slightly different look to it. She turned and looked at Xena, and felt her heart clench at the set look of agony on her face. Walking back over, she settled on the edge of the pallet, and slid an arm around Xena's shoulders, rubbing her back lightly. "It's pretty bad, isn't it?"

Xena took a long drink of water before answering. "Yeah." She finally admitted, letting her guard down as she would only with Gabrielle. "Very bad." And allowed her head to drop and rest briefly on the bard's shoulder, absorbing the compassionate touch of Gabrielle’s hand against her cheek, and the murmured words of encouragement with quiet gratitude.

Then took a deep breath, and settled back against the head of the pallet, and gave Gabrielle a look. "You, on the other hand, need to get something to eat." And raised an eyebrow at her. "You never had anything last night, did you?"

"Uhm..." Came the hesitant response She was unconscious. How in Hades does she know that? "No, well, I got… you were… uh.. no."

"Thought so." Xena remarked. "G'wan. I"ll be fine. Our friendly healer will be up and puttering around in here any minute."

"Trying to get rid of me?" Gabrielle teased, knowing what she was doing. "Won't work, Xena. I have a signed contract that says I'm allowed to worry my head off about you, and it has a special clause that gives me the right to bleed when you're cut."

"Oh really?" Xena chuckled, then winced. "Ouch." She sighed. "Thanks for staying close last night." The darkness has no chance against the light you bring, Gabrielle.. wonder if you know that? "You chased away the gremlins."

Gabrielle laughed. "Oh, like that was such a hardship." She shook her head in amusement. "Did it help?"

"Oh yeah." The warrior nodded, and grinned. "Slept like a baby all night."

"Hmm." Gabrielle mused. "So did I... you think we do that to each other?"

Xena shrugged, and thought about that for a minute. "Maybe. Yeah... I think so... I know it was a lot harder for me to sleep when you were with the Amazons." Her lips twitched. "The other reason I spent half the night doing drills. Got myself so tired I just... Anyway. I'll have to ask Lestan about it."

The bard eased over and snuggled up against Xena's side, linking arms with her and sighing. "Same here. Wish I'd thought of working out.. but I was just so.. I don't know.. mentally tired, I guess. I'd lie down and just start thinking."

"Yeah." Xena agreed softly.

"Then I couldn't stop thinking." Gabrielle continued.

"Yeah." Another thoughtful agreement from the warrior.

"Mostly about you." The bard sighed, gazing up at her with what she was sure was a very dumb grin.

Got the grin right back at her. "Glad I wasn't the only one, then." She blushed a little. "I was always kind of wondering what you were up to."

Gabrielle nodded. "Uh huh." She smiled a little. "I missed you so much it.. Gods, it hurt… I wanted to.. just see you. Hear you." Her fingers trailed down Xena’s arm. "Feel your hand on my shoulder."

Xena nodded, and sighed. "Yeah."

"Then, it was all so ratty.. and when you just.. you showed up right at the very second I was thinking that the worst part of the whole thing was that I wasn’t ever going to get a chance to..I mean, we never really talked about it before then, Xena." She laid her cheek against the warrior’s arm. "About, well, us. I think we both knew there was something…" She glanced over at her partner, who nodded and smiled. "Right..but we never.. so, here I was, about to get shot to death, and that’s what I was thinking."

"I wasn’t thinking." Xena commented, taking a careful deep breath. "All I could see was that arrow. And you. And I still don’t know how I managed to get there in time."

"Cait said you were just like an unstoppable force. She said she couldn’t hardly see you, because you were moving so fast, it was a blur to her." Gabrielle replied, watching Xena blink in surprise. "And that’s what it was like for me – just a blur. But I knew it was you."

"I heard you." Xena muttered, thoughtfully. "You called my name."

"And then..after.." Her face flushed. "I don’t know what I was thinking.. I don’t..I should have asked you.. I just was so damned glad to see you, and I stopped thinking and just.."

"I know." Xena smiled. "Right place, right time. End of story, Gabrielle."

"Really?" Gabrielle asked, with a shy look.

"Really." Xena confirmed. "I loved every minute of it." And I can still feel the rain coming down on top of me, and the wind howling, and the thunder, and her in my arms, and that kiss... "It’s one of my favorite memories."

"Oh." Gabrielle sighed contentedly. "Good, because it’s one of mine, too."

"Really?" Xena drawled, with the barest hint of a mischievous grin .

"Mmm hmm." Gabrielle replied, nodding. "I wish..oh." The touch of Xena’s lips on hers sent a tingle through her body like nothing else on earth. "Gotta make sure my memory is accurate.." she muttered, and slid her arms around Xena’s neck, being careful not to pull the injured warrior too hard.

A sound at the door made them break apart, but not until both sets of breathing had gone ragged. Gabrielle ran her finger across Xena’s cheekbone and smiled lazily. "Hold that thought for while.. huh?"

Xena captured her waywardly tracing finger in her flashing white teeth, and bit down gently, running her tongue over the sensitive tip, and watching the deep flush creep up Gabrielle’s neck to her fair face. She released the bard’s hand as the noise at the door got louder, and enjoyed her partner’s struggle to maintain a dignified expression.

‘You, are bad." Gabrielle released a held breath.

"That’s what I hear." Xena drawled, with a smirk.

They both looked up as Elaini ambled in, giving them both a nod. "Morning." Then stopped and blinked at them. "Oh, sorry.." she started then stopped, then blinked again.

Xena just calmly raised an eyebrow at her, and tried to ignore the silent giggles from her partner. "Problem?" She asked, coolly.

Elaini took a breath, then a second. "Uhm. No, I just didn’t.. damn that Jessan, I’m going to kill him. He…nevermind." She cleared her throat. "Let’s start again, ok? Good morning."

"Same to you." Xena replied, giving the bard a nudge with her elbow. "Go get breakfast, you."

For a minute, it looked like Gabrielle would rebel, but then her stomach betrayed her by growling, which got a laugh from Elaini and a knowing smirk from Xena.

"All right..all right.. I’m going." The bard sighed, rolling off the pallet, and attracting Ares attention, as he followed her into the small bathing area. She splashed water on her face, and scrubbed her arms, drying off on a scrap of linen from their kit. Then she glanced down and realized she’d better change – the blood was probably going to be distracting to anyone she met up with.

Elaini settled herself on the stool next to the pallet, and took out her supplies. "Better get those scrapes taken care of. " She commented, then paused. "OK?"

Got a quirky grin from Xena, who decided she liked this bluntly honest healer. "Sure."

"You look a lot better this morning." Elaini mentioned. "How’s the stomach?"

Xena considered her answer. "Better than I had any reasonable expectation of it being."

The forest dweller glanced up. "Must be killing you."

The warrior grinned. "More or less." She glanced over at where Gabrielle was fastening her tunic. "I try to keep that quiet, though."

Elani followed her glance, and nodded., then paused, and a strange expression came over her fierce face. No..that can’t be… But this close to Xena, and wide awake now, she could feel… Her eyes slid shut, as she extended her Sight..and almost stopped breathing. No..that’s not possible. Her eyes popped open, and she stared at the warrior, who returned the look in puzzled silence.

"You guys ok?" Gabrielle stepped to the other side of the pallet, and glanced at the healer in some concern. "Hello??" What’s up with her? She looks like she’s seen a ghost. "Elaini?"

"Did..do you…" The healer started, then stopped. "Has Jessan…"

"Has Jessan what?" Came a deep male voice from behind her.

Elaini stood up, and gave them a tight smile. "Excuse me a minute." And turned, grabbing Jessan by the chest fur and pulling him back into her quarters.

"Hey! Cut that out! You could just ask." Jessan muttered, as he let her pull him into her room and close the door.

"They’re lifebonded!!!!" She hissed, not letting go of his fur.

"Yeah, I know." Jessan answered, with a calm look. "Now let go of me."

Elaini shook him. "You knew??? And you didn’t tell me? Ares’ blood, Jessan! What if she hadn’t survived the night? " She was seething. "How was I supposed to know? I didn’t know humans even had the ability… are you an idiot???" She slapped him hard. "You know there are things I gotta do, to prepare for that, damn you!!"

Jessan put his hands on his hips, and stared her down. "How was I supposed to know you wouldn’t even bother to Look at them? What’s the matter, didn’t think humans are worth the time to Look?" His voice raised. "Yeah, I knew, and father knew, and my mother knows now, and everyone who was at that mountain knows because when we finally got her out of there, and the two of them got ahold of each other, anyone with a single speck of sensitivity nearly had their senses blinded." He threw up his hands. "So get off my back, all right?"

A polite tap on the door.

"What?" They both yelled.

The door opened, and Gabrielle stuck her fair head in, surveying them with cool interest. "I’ve been instructed to tell you that if the screaming doesn’t stop, we’re going to find out if someone with internal bleeding going on can still .." She turned and looked at Jessan "And I quote here, ‘beat your behind’." She paused. "Unquote."

Silence.

They looked at each other, then at Gabrielle.

"Sorry." In unison.

"Mmm.. Gabrielle.. interested in breakfast? " Jessan said, edging around Elaini’s glowering form.

"I’d love some, thanks." The bard smiled, and took his arm. "Now would be great." As she steered him towards the door.

Elaini watched them go, and snorted in irritation as she crossed back into the main room. Xena had her eyes half closed, but they slid open at her approach with a slightly amused look.

"Can you really?" Elaini asked, as she resumed her seat on the stool.

"What do you think?" Xena countered, giving her a crooked grin.

Elaini studied her intently. "I think I want to get you healed, Xena the Warrior Princess, because I would pay good dinars for the privilege of a watching you, as you said, beat his behind."

Got both dark eyebrows raised on that one. "I’ll see what I can do."

The healer nodded, and got on with her task, stealing occasional glances at Xena’s quiet face. "Sorry I gave your lifebond a hard time yesterday."

Xena stared at her, startled.

"What?" Elaini said, noticing the look. "You did… I mean… good gracious…you did know, right?" And if she didn’t.. I’m going to go find Jessan, and stuff him in a hollow log. "Tell me you did. "

"Oh.. well, yeah." Xena muttered her brow creasing. "I just never…" Heard her.. thought of her.. by that name before. But it’s what they call it, I guess. If it is the same thing at all, which I still kind of doubt. I know.. there’s something there. But what it is…maybe it’s just the love two people have for each other. Shouldn’t that be enough? She sighed inwardly. All right, I’ll stop lying. She’s gotten to places so deep inside my soul that I know I couldn’t survive without her. I'd drown in the darkness.. Without her light. So.. could it be mutual? What does she need from me, other than a strong hand to protect her, and a willing ear for her stories?

The healer stopped what she was doing, and regarded her patient. "You really don’t know what it’s all about, do you?"

Xena sighed. "No." A light shrug. "That’s why we were headed back here." She shifted slightly, and held her breath against the wave of pain. Starting to get on my nerves. Not a good sign.

Felt a hand on her shoulder, and lifted her gaze to meet Elaini’s. "I know." She forestalled the healer’s words, as the woman took a breath to speak. "I shouldn’t move. I shouldn’t even take a deep breath. But Gabrielle will tell you I’m the worlds worst patient."

Remembering, suddenly, vividly, the last time she’d had to succumb to an illness, a fever which had been building for days, and finally got too bad for her to ignore at dusk, in camp.

Gabrielle had been annoyed with her all day, attributing her shortness and lack of humor to some kind of bad mood, and she’d been trying without success to needle her out of it. Why she hadn’t just told Gabrielle she was sick.. Xena sighed. Sometimes she got carried away with that stoic warrior routine, she knew, This had been one of those times.

Camp was set up, and Gabrielle had some soup or other going for dinner, but the simple smell of the cooking was making her stomach queasy, and she realized her fever was getting worse by the cascading chills that were making her hands shake, and nearly took her to her knees. She’d slid down the trunk of a nearby tree, and sat with her back pressed against it, watching Gabrielle walk towards her, knowing the bard was saying something, but not able to make her mind wrap itself around the words.

"Xena?!" The bard had finally spoken very sharply, putting her hands on her hips. "Are you ignoring me for a reason, or just on general principals?" Her brows drawn in anger. "You’ve been doing it all day, and I’d like to know just what little infraction of the Warrior Princess code I’ve broken this time, so I can write it down.."

"Gabrielle." She’d hardly heard herself speak, and her voice seemed to be coming from a pretty distant place. It stopped the bard in mid sentence. "Stop.. yelling.. please." She drew breath. "My head hurts."

And the next thing she knew was Gabrielle’s hand on her forehead, and the bard’s muttered curse. "Damn, Xena.. why didn’t you say something? You’re on fire, for Zeus’s sake."

She’d mumbled something back, and the bard had just sighed. Then she left, and came back in a very short while, and Xena was aware of the comforting texture of her woolen cloak being tucked around her gently. But she wasn’t sure if she liked the feel of the cloak or of Gabrielle’s hands on her better.. and in the feverish fog, she knew she’d also said something that caused those hands to still for a very long moment before they continued their task. She wished she could remember what that something was.

Whatever. Gabrielle had finished tucking her in, and gone to the fire, then returned, and settled herself right against Xena’s shivering form. Wrapped her arms around the warrior’s body and held her as the fever took her in alternating fits of icy chills and drenching sweats. It had been a nightmare of a night, but the only thing Xena had really remembered was how wonderful it had felt to have the bard holding her. She’d let her guard down, and just abandoned herself to Gabrielle’s gentle support, waking in her right senses still cradled in the sleeping bard’s arms.

And had grabbed all her yelling instincts that demanded distance and stuffed them down deep, and had stayed there until Gabrielle’s eyes had sleepily blinked open and looked down into hers.

"Thanks." Xena had said, with a tired smile. Another barrier down. And had started to get up, saying she must be crushing the life out of her poor friend.

Gabrielle had merely tightened her hold, and Xena had felt the sudden rapid increase in her heartbeat. "Are you uncomfortable there?"

Blue eyes had met green ones, in the rosy dawn light. "No." The answer had slipped out from her rebellious heart.

Gabrielle had closed her eyes and wrapped her arms tighter, until she felt Xena’s body give in and relax again. "Neither am I. So go back to sleep."

Against all her better judgement, she had, giving in to her body’s insidious craving with a distinct sense of losing control of something. And as the warm wash of contentment curled around her, she realized she really didn’t care if she did.

Xena felt a smile tugging at her lips at the memory, and with a glance at Elaini, she very deliberately put both hands down on the pallet, and pushed herself up higher, ignoring the shooting daggers and settling back more comfortably against the back of the pallet.

Elaini watched this with a curious expression. "You’re not at all what I expected."

Xena gave her a wearily amused look. "If I had a dinar for every time I heard that, I’d be able to buy Athens." She swallowed, and let her eyes close.

A fur covered hand moved to her head and gently felt it. "You’re in a fever." Feeling a totally unexpected surge of compassion for this human whose strangeness was beginning to feel more and more familiar.

Now Xena’s face went serious. "I know." She’d felt the beginnings of a chill before Gabrielle had left. Damn. Was hoping to avoid that..

"I can do a infusion of…" Elaini began, turning to her supplies.

"No." The warrior responded, quietly. "Fever has a purpose. In this case…probably a good one." Knowing whatever damaged she’d taken was causing her body’s defenses to react, and she had a lot of respect for those. "I’ll be all right." I hope. If the fever doesn’t get out of control.

The healer studied her, noticing the tense lines of pain in her face, and the faint glazing of her bright blue eyes. "I hope so. Do you have any idea what would happen if you weren’t?" Elaini’s voice was very gentle.

The usual answer came to her lips, that Gabrielle would be upset, of course, but she’d survive, she was a strong woman. Stronger than Xena herself. It was a thought that had consoled her many a dangerous time, when she was throwing her life on the line for a thousand different reasons. Came to her lips, yes, and stopped there.

Was that really true anymore? Xena blinked at the healer. "I don’t know.. what you mean. We face danger all the time. Both of us."

Elaini dropped her gaze to the floor, then studied her stilled hands, resting quietly in each other, stained with the golden pale cleaning fluid. How can she not know? Can she be so adept at lying to herself? Or is she just lying to me…. "I think you know better." And swept her red toned golden eyes up to meet Xena’s.

And saw, in those strangely colored portals of the soul a truth that the warrior hesitated to utter. She knew. It was the knowledge that let her, if Jessan had told the truth about what he’d Seen, hold death itself at bay, and would keep her, with all the strength of her seemingly very powerful will holding to this life regardless of the obstacles before her. "I know you do." She added, finding herself caught and held by those eyes. "You should try to get some rest."

Xena nodded a little, drawing the soft blanket closer around her shoulders in reflex, as a cold chill went through her. "Probably a good idea."

Elaini patted her shoulder, then got up and walked softly out the door, turning to watch her patient as she paused in the doorway. Saw her take a deep breath, and let her head fall back against the padded edge of the pallet, as an expression of resigned patience crossed her face. Not so different at all. The healer mused, shaking her head and walking out of the door and into the sunlight.

Xena heard her leave, and realized she was alone for the first time since.. her mind shied away from the thought. Oh oh. Not good. Stubbornly, she refocused her thoughts on what had happened the day before, putting aside the uneasy wash of dark fear that came with them.

Ok..ok. I almost died. The blunt shock trembled over her, and she let it pass. I should have died. There was no more air in that tiny little.. Whoa. Better back off that for a while. Sweat broke out on her brow, and she felt the walls coming closer to her. She closed her eyes and took several breaths, not letting the old terror take control I can master this. I have before. Come on now.

It subsided a moment later, and she sighed in relief. So I should have died. Why didn’t I? The last few minutes she’d been trapped were too foggy for her to see clearly in memory.. but she did remember getting angry. Angry that death seemed determined to separate her from Gabrielle. A permanent separation, and now she had her finger on the part that really bothered her.

The room seemed small, of a sudden, and she focused her eyes on the window, as a spasm of shivers took her. The morning sun was now pouring in the window, and as if hypnotized, she watched it’s slow progress across the wooden floor. The pallet she was lying in was in deep shadow, and that combined with her fever made her feel cold to her very core, and she wistfully gazed at the warm light, craving its touch.

Funny. I used to like the nighttime. Shadows… it matched the darkness inside of me perfectly, and suited my dreams. Before they became nightmares. Now.. now I love the light.. because the light is what she is. But all I can do is marvel at all that light that she brings to my life.. I can’t ever know it like she does. I watch..and I watch her standing in the sun.. and feel like a little kid sometimes, who’s looking into a window of a building that they can’t ever.. ever enter.

She felt the moisture gather at the corner of her eyes, and focused her gaze on the ceiling. Blinked. Waited. Took a breath and the surge of emotion passed. I’ve done too much evil. And they’re not going to forgive me, even if she does. I’ve made too many enemies, hurt too many people. I’m too much a part of the darkness, and she’s too much a part of the light, so that I know when our time here is done, she’ll go one way.. and I’ll go.. where I belong. This time the tears came, and she couldn’t stop them.

Irritatedly, she used a corner of the soft blanket to wipe them away. Must be the fever. I’ve known that for a long time.. so come on, Xena. Why is it different now?

The solid wedge of sunlight had reached the edge of the pallet, and was dancing across the bottom surface, causing dust to float it it’s golden mist. Xena eyed it longingly, and huddled closer in the coverings.Damn. Fever must be getting worse.

It’s different because I went and did a stupid thing. I broke all my own rules, and gave up my ability to control my own destiny, that’s what I did.

She’s taken custody of my soul, though why she’d want that nasty old thing, I’ll never know. And she’s given me the gift of hers, and therein lies the problem. I don’t want to hurt her. Ever.

Dying would do that. And doing what I do requires me to throw myself into situations where that becomes a possibility. And the older I get, the bigger a possibility it is.

So what do I do? Can I stop being what I’ve spent most of my life becoming? Can I stop fighting, settle down in some small place… maybe at home.. and just be an ordinary person, living my life out. Giving up any chance at a possible redemption in return for time. Time with her?

I’ll have to think about that. About if she’d even want something .. along those lines. That fortnight with her at Amphipolis… Xena sighed. Time spent sunning and swimming. Taking long twilight walks in a familiar wood. Laughing with her family. Gabrielle’s head on her shoulder, and her voice saying, "I could live here.". The memories called to her, triggering a totally unexpected longing that left her almost breathless. Oh Hades, Xena, save this for after you’re not in a feverish, pain-ridden stupor, ok? She finally decided.

And to her surprise, the whirlwind of thoughts obediently subsided, and she was left in relative peace.

The sunlight now curled around her legs, bringing blessed warmth, and she cautiously stretched towards it. The agony in her arms and legs had subsided to a very dull ache, and for that she was grateful. At least I can move around a little.. As long as I don’t.. Augh.

A wave of pain passed through her, when she accidentally tried to move her upper body. Oh gods.. she moaned silently, then blew out a held breath as the spasms subsided. This is gonna kill me.

A whine distracted her, and she glance to her left, to see Ares’ dark head poking up over the pallet edge, eliciting an unexpected smile. "Hello, boy." She looked up, and cocked her head to listen. "You run off from Gabrielle and Jess? What’s the matter.. they don’t cough up goodies like I do?"

"Roo!" Ares demanded, scrabbling with his paws on the pallet edge, trying to lift his uncoordinated body up to be with her.

Xena smiled, and carefully extended her left arm, and grasped him by his heavy scruff fur. "Come on, jump." She directed, and as the puppy did, she lifted, and he tumbled across the bedding and collided with her shoulder. "Whoa.. take it easy."

He turned around a few times before curling up in the crook of her elbow, and putting his head on her chest, gazing up at her with his yellow eyes, and giving up a little puppy sigh. Xena carefully looked around, and, satisfied she was quite alone, kissed him on the nose. He raised his head, and licked her face enthusiastically in response, and she smiled.

"You don’t care about who I am, either, do you, boy?" she mused idly, stroking his soft fur. "I’m just a big, funny looking wolf who feeds you goodies, huh?"

"Roo!" Ares agreed, snuggling closer, and licking his chops with a satisfied sound. His warm body felt very good pressed against hers, as a spasm of shivers shook her again. "Thanks, Ares." She whispered, laying her head back against the padding, and trying to relax a little. It was hard, the fever chills kept causing her muscles to stiffen up, and that really hurt. But the sunlight was spreading like a blanket over her body now, and she welcomed every dust-strewn mote, as the warmth of it penetrated the blanket, and bathed her in golden wave of relief.

"Should try to get some sleep, Ares." She mumbled to the wolf, who was already drowsing. "Maybe it’ll be better when I wake up, huh?" She let her eyes drift shut, and felt the light touch her face as she slid back into the twilight world of dreams.

Gabrielle kept hold of Jessan’s arm as they left the healers cot, and started across the central square of the village towards his home compound. "So.. what was that?" The bard asked, giving him a sidelong glance.

"What?" Jessan asked, dredging up an innocent look from somewhere, and not meeting her eyes, instead watching curiously as Ares stumbled ahead of them, sniffing every blade of grass.

"Don’t try that with me." Gabrielle answered, catching his eye. "Remember who I travel around with, OK? The Champion of Evasiveness herself."

Jessan smiled, and ducked his head in acknowledgement. "Ok..Ok.. can we get something to eat first, because I need to talk to you before I explain why we were arguing."

The bard nodded. "Sure." And gazed around the village with interest. "Didn’t really get a chance to see this place the last time." She remarked.

It was an odd place, a roughly symmetrical circle of cots, surrounded by an old growth forest so deep the canopy extended over the cots in some places, and broke the sunlight up into green tinged explosions of dappled light. The cots were round, and in fact, most of the geometry of the village was rounded, making the structures blend into the trees more than the usual squared off dwellings of humans would.

It felt.. peaceful to her. Gabrielle noted. She could hear the sound of rushing water off to her left, and supposed that was where the stream that provided the village’s water was located. Right now, a gentle morning breeze was blowing through the trees, rattling the leaves in a pleasant rhythm, and blowing her hair back off her forehead with cool gentleness. "Nice morning." She smiled up at Jessan.

"Nice to see you smiling." The forest dweller responded, giving her a warn look. "Look.. I know yesterday was a really bad day for you. I’m glad.. " he hesitated, then put a hand on her shoulder. "it ended much better."

Gabrielle sighed, and closed her eyes for a moment. "Yeah, me too." She finally answered. "Thanks to you." She rubbed his back, and he blushed, seen as a flow of color across his muzzle and lips.

They walked up onto the porch, and were greeted by Wennid, who had seen them approaching through the window.

"Roo!" Ares said, sitting down on his haunches in front of her, and cocking his head to one side.

Wennid blinked at him. "Goodness." She muttered, glancing up at Jessan, but making no further comment on the wolf. She turned to Gabrielle, and smiled. "Hello, Gabrielle." Clasping her shoulders. "Sorry am I that your return visit to us had to be on such horrible circumstances." She gazed into Gabrielle’s eyes, then blinked and looked away. "I’m glad everything worked out all right." Damn.. he’s right. Her Sight barely needed to be used at this point.. she could feel the energy of this human’s bond as almost a physical force.

"Thanks." Gabrielle said, watching her face. "I have your son and your lifebond to thank for that" She smiled at Wennid. Lifebond… that’s what they called each other, right? Wonder what they’d call me. Would I be that, too? Guess I’ll find out.

"So I hear." Wennid replied, then glanced at her son, waiting quietly to one side. "Come.. I have some breakfast inside . She steered them both into the cot, and shut the door, gesturing them to places at the table. "Sit. I’ll be right back."

"So." Jessan said, with a slight grin. "Mind filling me in on what’s been going on with you guys?"

Gabrielle let out a light laugh. "Where do I start?" But she knew what he was talking about. "Uhnm…I guess it sort of started to change after we left you off here." She paused, and composed her thoughts. "Sorry.. this is a little embarrassing for me. I don’t usually discuss.."

"I know." Jessan said, putting his hand out and capturing hers. "But this is different.. because what you two share is something very special to us."

"Then it is the same." The bard breathed, staring at him. "I.. we.. " She broke off at his slow nod. "You knew." Another nod. "How?" She felt Ares press up against her leg, and dropped a hand down to stroke his head. Felt his tongue tickle her fingers in response.

"We can see it." Wennid replied in a quiet voice, putting plates down in front of them. " And as much as I wanted not to believe it, my son is right. It is the same."

Her blunt honesty kept the bard quiet for a moment. Then.. "Why didn’t you want to believe it?" A soft question from Gabrielle. "Do you still think Xena is the same horrible monster you remembered from a long time ago?"

Wennid studied her. Had always liked her. "No." She shook her head wearily. "I have nothing against you. Or your lifebond."

So. Gabrielle thought. That is what I am. What we are. It felt.. funny. Like it hadn’t been real before that.. something they sort of hedged around with each other, and found excuses for. "What then?"

Jessan’s mother just shook her head. "Nothing you’d understand, Gabrielle. Don’t worry about it. Eat.. it’s getting cold."

After breakfast, Jessan stood, and gave her a quirky grin. "Want to go for the tour?"

Gabrielle nodded. "Sure." And got up, taking her plate and Jessan’s and carrying them back to the small kitchen, where Wennid was standing over the deep fireplace. "Thank you." She said, quietly, to the woman’s back, as she cleaned off the plates.

Heard Wennid step up behind her, and consciously relaxed her posture, turning with an inquiring look as the forest dweller towered over her. Never back down.. the voice calmly said in her mind. So she stood her ground, and just let a half smile come on to her face. And met Wennid’s level gaze with one of her own.

Ares growled, and they both looked down, to see the puppy, who had put himself between them, staring up at Wennid with unblinking yellow eyes. The forest dweller raised her eyebrows, but took a step back, then returned her gaze to Gabrielle’s face.

Looks like he takes after his mommy. Gabrielle couldn’t help thinking, biting the inside of her lip to keep from smiling, because she knew Wennid to be very, very serious right now.

"Tell me, child." Wennid drawled, keeping their eyes locked. "What does it feel like, to you?" The kitchen was cast in deep shadows from the forest canopy, and the flashes of green light only served to highlight the pale tints in Wennid’s coat, and cast her face in a half darkness, masking her expressions from Gabrielle’s searching gaze.

"What does what feel like?" the bard asked, in an ordinary voice.

Silence from Wennid.

"Oh. That." Gabrielle chewed her lip in thought. How do you describe what… She imagined in her mind the wonderful feeling of.. wholeness she felt when she was in Xena’s arms. And the effect that dazzling grin had on her. Was there a way to put that in words? Put into words the feeling she had everytime she looked into those eyes? It filled her heart now with a golden fire, and as she looked back up into Wennid’s eyes, hoping to find the words on her lips, the forest dweller’s expression changed, and gentled, and she put a hand up.

"Hush. No need." Her golden eyes softened. "Sorry I am, child, to have doubted you."

"But I didn’t say anything." Gabrielle replied, bewildered.

Wennid gazed at her with a mixture of sadness and understanding on her face. "Your face did." And what I saw there, that light from within, was as familiar to me as this cot. It’s not fair. "Go on with you now. We’ll talk later." Let Jessan tell her a few things, first. The good, and the bad. And then there would have to be a decision made.

"All right." Gabrielle replied. "Later, then." She slipped past Wennid, and rejoined Jessan . "You said a tour?" She asked, daring him to make a comment on her long trip to the kitchen.

"Uh. Yeah." The tall forest dweller affirmed, and held the door for her and Ares.

They circled the village, and ended up near the stream, where Jessan took a seat on the soft rich grasses and patted a place by his side. She joined him, and plucked a long grass stem, chewing on it thoughtfully.

"You were saying it started after you dropped me off." Jessan started, giving her a shy look under his thick eyebrows. "If you don’t mind me asking. I… "

The bard sighed, and leaned back on her elbows, regarding the chuckling stream, and enjoying the softly cool breeze that stirred her hair and his thicker fur. "No.. I mean… I need to know more about this. So I’ll tell you. .but this is hard for me Jessan. Hard because it… it’s a very intense, very personal thing, you know?"

"No, I don’t." Jessan replied quietly. "I wish to all the gods I did."

Gabrielle paused, disturbed by the uneasy feeling deep in her gut. The feeling that she’d come to associate, recently, with things being not all right with her partner. It wasn’t a strong feeling, but.. "Ares, come here."

The wolf looked up, from his investigation of a rabbit hole, and trotted over, to sniff at her outheld fingers. "Go find Xena, ok? Stay with her." She rubbed the puppy’s head. "Tell her I'll be right there."

Ares blinked at her, then apparently focused on the familiar name, because he sneezed, then turned and trotted clumsily off towards the healer’s cot.

"Trouble?" Jessan asked, quietly.

Gabrielle gave a half shrug. "It may be just because she’s in a lot of pain, I don’t know.. but.. we’ll have to cut this sort of short. I get…" She looked up at him. "Sort of this feeling.."

Jessan smiled. "It’s ok. I’ve heard my mother say that a thousand times. Just give me the short version, so at least I know where to start explaining."

She looked at him in silence for a long moment. "It really started after Cirron, yeah.. but we’d been kind of.." Her mind searched for an appropriate word. "It actually started when she died."

"What?" Jessan started, blinking hard at her. "Excus..what.. I.."

"Shh." Gabrielle waved him off. "I’ll tell you." And she did, that whole story, from beginning to end, because she had an idea that something had changed during that time that led to where they were now.

"Oh." Jessan breathed, his big chin propped up on a fist, now that he was lying in the grass next to her. "Wow."

"Yeah, wow." The bard agreed. "So, after we left you off, things just.." Accidental touches had became deliberate, hugs had gotten longer and more frequent. She stopped not liking riding Argo. Then the night she’d had nightmares for the last time.

They had suffered through a pretty rough day, dodging a flooding river in the morning, and helping three villages to evacuate ahead of the roaring wall of water. Xena had pulled her out of the racing stream more times than she could count, and she had been totally exhausted. Too tired even to eat, which got a worried look from her companion.

"Just let me go to sleep." She’d begged Xena. "I’ll have something in the morning. I can’t go another step."

"Sure." Xena had said, steering her by the shoulders towards her bedroll. "Out you go, my bard."

And she had clutched that endearment to her like she always did, and rolled herself into her blankets and dropped off.

Only to jerk awake not long after, heart pounding, head pounding, with a concerned Xena crouched over her, one hand on her arm. "Hey.. take it easy.. must have been some dream. "

She’d sat up, and felt tears rolling down her face. "Gods." And couldn’t for the life of her even remember what the dream was about. "Just it was.. you were there.. I was there.. and then you were gone, and it was…"

Xena had taken her into her arms, and when she did, Gabrielle had felt such an overwhelming flood of relief that she’d tangled her hands in Xena’s shirt and buried her face in the friendly shoulder with quiet desperation. Hadn’t wanted to let go.

And Xena, instead of putting her gently back to bed, as she had every time before when the bard had woken in a sweat from nightmares, had kept hold of her, lying down on the bedroll, and pulling Gabrielle close with her head tucked securely in the hollow of one broad shoulder, and her arm wrapped around her.

Had rubbed her back gently until Gabrielle had slipped half unaware back into sleep. And this time no nightmares happened. She’d woken up still wrapped around Xena’s muscular form, and looked up, startled, into gently smiling blue eyes.

"If that’s what it takes to get rid of those nightmares, Gabrielle." Xena had drawled, "Then I guess we’ll have to share a bedroll from now on."

Very matter of fact. Very.. logical. Reasonable. And it had made her heart almost come out of her chest. A dozen different protests jumped to her lips. But what came out was "Sure."

Now she glanced at Jessan, and smiled. "It just sort of progressed from there, until I got recalled by the Amazons."

"The Amazons?" Jessan queried. "What did you have to do with them?"

"Oh." Gabrielle laughed. "I guess I forgot to mention I’m.. well, their queen, actually."

Jessan just stared at her in wonder, eyes blinking. "Really?"

"Yeah. So, they wanted me to come in as a mediator against a particularly warlike faction in the Amazons. Xena decided, and I agreed, that her presence would be more of a hurt than a help. So she went on to Amphipolis and I went to the Amazons."

Jessan leaned back and regarded her. "How long were you separated?" A curious question.

"A month." The bard answered, with a quiet inward smile.

"Bet that was hard." Jessan guessed, watching her with fascinated eyes.

"Oh..gods. It was impossible." Gabrielle laughed. ‘You have no idea." She sighed. "So anyway, at the end of that.. something happened, that made Xena come to the Amazons.. she’d felt there was something wrong. And she was right. She got there… just in time.

Jessan sat up, intrigued. "So.. she could sense you were in trouble?" He put his finger right on the issue.

Gabrielle nodded. "Yes.. and we.. well, afterward, we got to talking, and she told me what you’d said.. and we just…we figured that we might be like your parents. "

"You are." Jessan affirmed, giving her hair a tweak. "You have a really strong, really distinctive connection. "

Gabrielle swallowed hard, and lifted her head towards the healer’s cot. "I know. And right now, that connection is telling me I gotta go." Should have before.. she berated herself. Don’t you realized by now this stuff is real. Gabrielle? She stood up, and brushed herself off, as Jessan joined her.

"Do you want.. uhm.." He hesitated, glancing at her.

She put a hand on his arm. "Don’t get mad, but not right now. If you’re there.. she’ll feel the need to put on that Warrior Princess routine, and, Jess.. I don’t think she’s up to it. Give her a day or so, huh?" She started walking, and he joined her. "It’s going to be bad enough just getting her to stay still long enough to heal right." She sighed. "She is the worst when it comes to that."

Jessan chuckled. "I can imagine. My father’s the same way." He glanced at her, and smiled. "Aside from all that other stuff, you look great, by the way." Healthy, stronger, more self-assured.. his mind mused. Looks like that’s been good for both of them.

Gabrielle shrugged, and blushed a little. "Thanks." She returned the glance. "You been getting lazy?" She teased gently, patting his stomach. "What’s up with that?"

He sighed, and for a moment his face lost its usual humor. "Been slacking off, I guess" He glanced around the compound. "Sometimes I need a challenge to get me going again. Hasn’t been much of that around lately."

Gabrielle laughed. "Give me a few days, and you’ll have one."

But Jessan shook his maned head. "No.. I’m not in any kind of condition to go against her. Even injured." His face flushed with embarrassment.

"That’s not a bad thing." The bard mused, thoughtfully. "Because whenever she gets hurt, she drives herself three times harder just to get over it.. maybe if she has to slow down for you, I can get her to take it easier ." Her face went serious. "One of these times, she’s just going to push too hard." She mounted the steps to the cot, and put a hand on his shoulder. "Would that be OK with you?"

The forest dweller paused, and then nodded sheepishly. "Yeah. It would. I know I need it, too." He admitted, giving her a wink. "Go on." His head motioned towards the door. "I’ll drop by later."

Gabrielle was still chuckling softly as she entered the inner room of the healer’s cot, and she stopped, with one hand on the doorframe, and just looked for a very long moment.

The inside of the cot was quiet enough for her to hear clearly the rustling of the leaves outside, and the occasional bird call which floated in the window along with the muted sounds of village life going on outside. Most of the inside was bathed in the pale green light reflected off the trees, but one large window let in a bar of sunlight which flowed lazily across the floor and onto the pallet her partner was lying on.

And lit her like some kind of mythical hero from a story Gabrielle hadn’t heard yet. The light burnished her skin to a golden glow, and brought out the deep highlights in her dark hair, bringing a quiet smile of wonder to the bard’s watching face. Bathed in the light.. it looks so natural for her. Her mind mused delightedly. Wish she could see this. She never sees herself like I do. Maybe that’s half her problem.

Shaking her head, she walked forward, and sat on the edge of the pallet, giving the sleepily alert Ares a pat. After a moment, the blue eyes opened, and Xena turned her head, focusing her sleep blurred gaze on Gabrielle’s face.

"Hey." The warrior said, managing a grin, which faded when the bard put a cool hand on her forehead. "Pretty hot, huh?" Seeing the concerned look on her partner’s face and inwardly sighing.

"You must be miserable." Gabrielle said softly, "I'd trade places with you if I could."

Xena looked up at her and a smile twitched her lips again. "That would make me a lot more miserable, my bard." She laid a hand on Gabrielle’s knee. "I’ll live." She glanced down at Ares. "Didn’t you guys entertain him enough?"

Gabrielle accepted the change of subject momentarily. "No.. I sent him back here. I thought. I felt there was something wrong, and it looks like I was right, huh?" Bringing the subject right back to Xena, who quirked an eyebrow in acknowledgment. "What’s up with you?"

The warrior dropped her gaze, and let her head relax back against the padding. "My body’s reacting to whatever the damage was inside." Her eyes flicked back to Gabrielle’s. "That’s a good thing, love." She sighed. "Just damned uncomfortable for me." A rakish grin at Gabrielle. "Gotta let it run its course."

Gabrielle looked relieved. "Well, that’s a mess, but…" She brushed the dark hair out of Xena’s eyes. "I guess I’ll let you get back to sleep then." But she really didn’t want to leave. And, looking deep into the silent blue eyes facing her, she saw the quiet plea that Xena would never verbally make. "But I’m not moving, so you’ll just have to get over me hanging around here."

A sparkle of gratitude in there. "You don’t have to do that, Gabrielle. I’ll be fine."

"Too bad." The bard replied, cheerfully. "If you think I’m gonna pass up an opportunity to laze around in bed with you all day, you are fevered."

Xena couldn’t help it. She grinned, unable to stop the surge of warmth that started in her heart and spread out all over her, pushing away the pain and the fever for a long moment. " I guess I’ll just have to get over it then."

Gabrielle grinned back, and shifted Ares to the other side of the warrior, sliding carefully onto the pallet, and easing her right arm around Xena’s shoulders, and her left across her chest, hugging her close, resting her head against Xena’s. And gave a contented sigh as she felt the now familiar warmth stealing over her.

Xena looked up into the sunlight, and let it fill her soul, mingling with the light that Gabrielle had already brought there. And felt her hand on the doorknob of that place that Gabrielle lived in, where she had only ever been able to look into from outside before.

I am fevered. She told herself. That’s not possible.

Gabrielle’s arms tightened, and she playfully nibbled the ear so close to her. "Gods, I love you." She breathed, feeling the shiver run down Xena’s neck.

And with that, anything was possible. Xena took that thought with her, as she surrendered to the light, and to her body’s healing.

Xena opened her eyes, and glanced around, startled. The unmistakable peach glow of dawn was coloring the window, and she realized she'd been sleeping almost an entire day. Damn! She glanced to her left, where Gabrielle was deeply asleep, with her head pillowed on Xena's shoulder and her arms clasped around her in a snug hold. With the cutest little smile on her face. Doesn't look like she's moved either.. that's unbelievable.

Cautiously, she flexed her arm, and a grin split her face. Oh.. that's much better. Let's see how everything else is doing. Her head felt clearer, she noticed, and the headache that had plagued her all day yesterday was also gone. She took a deep breath, and felt a dull ache, but no sharp pains. I like this better and better. Her mind chuckled.

She carefully indulged herself in a long stretch and, though annoyingly stiff, her body responded with something close to it's normal range of motion, and she sighed happily. Looks like the fever did its job. And my body did its usual bag of tricks. One of these days, that’s not going to work. But.. I’m glad it did this time.

Gabrielle chose that moment to stir, flexing her hands and opening her eyes, to blink in confusion at Xena's amused expression. Her eyes slid to the window, and her brow creased, then she looked back at Xena. "Wh... How.. " She rubbed her eyes and arched her neck. "Whoa. That's stiff." She swallowed, still obviously half out of it. "What time.. did I sleep..oh gods." She finally groaned, and let her head drop back on Xena's shoulder. "How could I have done that? I was supposed to be keeping an eye on you."

Xena grinned, and slid an arm under her, reaching up around her back and kneading her neck with practiced fingers. "Better?"

"Ughh." Came the response. "Waitaminute." The fair head popped up, and she regarded Xena intently. "You're feeling better." She accused, lifting a hand up and resting it on Xena's forehead. "No fever, right?"

"Looks like it." The warrior smiled. And to prove it, she wrapped both arms around the surprised bard, and squeezed her thoroughly, feeling Gabrielle’s back pop all the way down her spine, and suffered only a twinge of pain herself as a result. And that felt so good, she did it again, this time lifting Gabrielle half off the pallet, which hurt a little more, but still nothing like it would have yesterday. "Gods, that feels so good." She breathed. "Been wanting to do that for two days."

Pausing when Gabrielle didn't answer, and lifting her head up to gaze at the bard'. "Hey... hey.." She said softly, seeing the tears streaming down her partner's face. And she wonders why I never tell her when I’m hurting.

Gabrielle buried her face in Xena's shirt, and tried to stop her tears, but the overwhelming relief she felt just kept them coming. "Ssss sorrry. " She stuttered, trying to take a deep breath, and hiccuping. "Being an idiot. Give me a minute."

"Shh." Xena said. "It's all right." She used her sleeve to gently wipe the tears from under Gabrielle's eyes. "Been a rough couple of days, huh?"

The bard nodded, sniffing. Rough. The Princess of Understatement. "Yeah."

"Sorry I gave you such a hard time." The warrior apologized, with a rueful grin. "I'll try not to do that again."

"Better not." Gabrielle responded, a grin tugging reluctantly at her lips. "Or you'll be in big trouble."

"Oh yeah?" Came the mock growling response.

"Yeah." The bard responded, with a smirk. Then, quietly. "You must feel better."

Xena's eyebrow rose. "Why?"

"Because I do." Gabrielle replied. "Except.. gods.. does my back hurt from sleeping in one position for.. how long? I don't believe I did that." What was up with me? How long was I out… almost a whole day???? She had an excuse..what was I doing?

"Yeah, mine too." Xena admitted, stretching her body out again. "Gotta stand up."

Gabrielle watched her face closely, and was satisfied when all that movement didn't even cause a flinch.. "You hungry?" She hasn’t eaten anything for two days. She’d better be.

Xena thought about that. "Yeah." She decided. "Very, in fact." She grinned at the bard. "Bet you are, too, huh?"

"You bet." Gabrielle replied, sliding a hand inside her partner's shirt, and letting her fingers trace the outline of Xena's stomach. "Gods, you're all hollow there, love." But the skin was cool to her touch, not the unhealthy heat of the day before.

"I bet." Xena laughed. "I don’t have much reserves, unfortunately." No.. they burned off as fast as she acquired them, with her energy level.

Gabrielle gazed up at her. "It's nice to hear you laughing." She let her hand drift further, and slide up the side of Xena's ribcage. "How's everything else?"

The warrior chewed her lip for a minute. "Fine..I think." She finally answered. "No headache, fever's gone.. I'm a little sore here.." She indicated her midsection. "But nothing like I was."

The bard gazed at her. "Uh huh. And you still don't think that's magic, right?"

Xena hesitated, then shrugged. "I really don't..." Be honest, Xena - you know damn well you heal much faster and lots easier than you should. "I try not to think about it." She sighed. "I'm not sure I wanna know the answer to that."

And that, Gabrielle thought, was far and away more than she had ever gotten out of Xena on that subject. Time to drop it. "Well, whatever it is, I'm really glad you have it." she finished cheerfully, giving her ribs a tickle, which elicited a chuckle, and return poke.

"Watch it.." Xena warned, a mischievous sparking appearing in her eyes.

Gabrielle saw the look, and chewed her lip, tempted. "OK..OK.." She sighed, giving up on a tickle fight for now. "Let’s see.. too early to bother anyone .. I think we have some travel stuff left in our packs. Interested?"

"Anything." Xena replied, rolling over on her side, and reveling in the fact that she could do so without doubling over. "Though.." she slid her head forward, and nipped Gabrielle in the arm. "There’s some tasty bard here."

"Xena!!" Gabrielle blurted, rolling away from the warrior, and off the edge of the pallet. "Whoa!" She yelled. "Urk." As Xena reached out an arm and grabbed her, pulling her back onto the pallet with a laugh.

"Take it easy!! I won’t take much.. just a bite.." A flash of white teeth, and then Xena relented, and just pulled the bard into a warm hug. "Sorry about that."

"Don’t’ be." Gabrielle mumbled into her chest, then looked up. "I’ve missed playing with you."

Xena gazed at her affectionately. "You make us sound like a couple of kids." She protested, but with a big smile.

"Problem with that?" The bard asked, with an insolent smirk.

The warrior’s face softened. "No." She reached out and cupped Gabrielle’s face gently. "Don’t think either of us had much of a childhood the first time around." She paused as she felt the bard swallow a few times. "I’m really enjoying my second chance at it."

Gabrielle closed her eyes, then opened them again, as an incredible smile formed on her face. "Oh.. so am I." She answered, then laughed, and darted a hand down to catch Xena behind the knees. "Gotcha!"

"Argh." Xena growled, and rolled onto her back.

"Roo!" Ares answered, bounding over from his spot on the end of the pallet and blinking sleepy eyes. He climbed clumsily onto Xena’s chest, and stood looking down at her, tail gently waving. "Roo!" He repeated, then flopped down, and started licking her face.

Gabrielle giggled.

Xena sighed. "Ares.." She closed her eyes as the puppy licked harder. "Come on.."

"Aww.." The bard snickered. "He loves you!." Then her eyes glinted, and she rolled closer, snuggling up against the warrior’s side, and licking her ear. "So do I."

"Gabrielle!!" Xena laughed helplessly, as the bard continued to lick the edge of her ear, and the puppy started working on her now closed eyelids. "Ares! Come on now!"

Gabrielle started to giggle, but kept up her attack, now nibbling on the edge of her ear.

"All right." Xena said finally, in her best warlord’s tone. "Now cut it out, both of you."

She was ignored. I tried talking. Really, I did. She mused to herself. I promised Gabrielle I would try talking first, right? Right. So, I tried. Everyone saw that.. no way to say I didn’t. Besides, she was starting to like what Gabrielle was doing.

I used to run half of Greece, and here I am, bested by a laughing bard and a half-grown wolf puppy. For shame, Xena. All right. Gotta do something about this.

She reached up and grabbed Ares firmly by his scruff, and moved him off her chest. Then she slid an arm around Gabrielle’s still giggling body.

"Whoa..ok.. ok.. I was just.. whoa.. Xena!!! What..uh.." The bard found herself being swung through the air, and ended up half sprawled across Xena’s chest, with her eyes inches from the warrior’s own. "Uh oh." When she saw Xena’s feral smile. "Oh boy."

"Now." Xena drawled, giving her a very private version of the look, as she nibbled at the bard’s nearby shoulder, and watched the goosebumps run up her arm. "I wonder…" She moved across to Gabrielle’s collarbone, and felt the pulse flutter under her lips. "what would happen…" Now she traveled up her partner’s neck, and felt the sudden sharp intake of breath as she reached the point of her jaw. "if we kissed."

And did just that, as she felt Gabrielle’s hands begin a gentle exploration, and hers did the same, moving with knowing sureness of each other.

"I’d be really mad if we stopped." The bard breathed, in a husky tone, as they parted for an instant, then resumed. "Thought you were hungry." She murmured, as she took another breath.

"Oh yeah." Xena answered, with a long low chuckle deep in her chest. "C’mere."

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Bound – Part 3

By Melissa Good

For DISCLAIMERS see Part 1.

Jessan rolled over, blinking sleep out of his eyes, and regarding the pre dawn sky outside with a distinct lack of enthusiasm. Damn. He sighed to himself. Gotta get out of this hole I’m in. Wish I knew what was up with me. He heaved himself up out of his seductively warm blankets, and padded to the washing room, splashing cold water on his face and drenching his fur in an effort to wake himself up. Didn’t used to have to do this. He raked his fingers through the hair on his head and neck, and blinked at himself in the small mirror there.

And sighed, again, as he took in the weary look in his golden eyes. I need someone to kick me in the pants. He mused, then a half smile quirked his lips, and he Looked towards the healer’s cot. Ahh.. Awake. Now his lips curled into a full grin. Elaini had been cautiously optimistic when she’d checked on her patient.. he paused, then chuckled. Patients, last evening, estimating that morning would bring them both back out of their healing sleep. It had, he noted, and what he could sense of both of them indicated things were well, very well, indeed.

Well, he chuckled quietly. If you wanted a challenge, you got one, you pudgy has been. But he felt an excited chill travel up his spine all the same. Something about Xena just…maybe it was the air of danger that usually surrounded her. Or the way things happened in her vicinity that stretched the bounds of the possible. Or maybe it was that smile.

Or whatever. He was glad he’d been the one to break those rocks – but she’d kept herself alive by the force of her own will, and those rocks got moved at the end by her own momentum. I’d never seen that strong a life force before. It was scary. He mused, as he finished his washing up, and trudged back into his room, where he pulled on a pair of dark green trousers, wincing at the snug fit. Gotta do something about that, too. He sighed. Getting out of hand. Maybe he could start his morning runs again.

He heard the faint sounds of stirring in the rest of the cothold, and cocked his head. Mother was up, and.. Lestan as well, and in the conference room. Wonder what’s up so early?" He slid out of his room, and ambled down the hallway, shoulders brushing the woven mat walls on either side of him.

He turned the corner and poked his head into the conference room, and stilled – as he recognized whom his father was talking to.

Uncle Warrin.

The tall scarred forest dweller was slumped into the chair at the end of the conference room, and was watching Lestan as he examined a set of parchments.

"Ah. Jessan." Lestan muttered, glancing up. "Come in." He waved Jessan towards a seat across from him.

"Morning." Jessan muttered, reading the tension in the room. "Uncle Warrin." He gave the older man a nod.

"Jess." Warrin rumbled, propping his head against one hand, which was braced on the table. His shadowed eyes gazed at his nephew. "Hear you have a visitor."

He couldn’t suppress the quick grin. "Yeah." He answered, quietly.

Warrin nodded. "Heard she and the storyteller.." He hesitated, as he always did. On this subject.

"Yes." Jessan’s voice was very gentle. Warrin was that rare thing, a surviving member of a broken lifebond. His bondmate had died during a hunting accident – a freak chance – but there had been their tiny son to raise. A compelling reason, it was said, was needed for one bondmate to survive the other’s passing. That was.. for Warrin, compelling enough.

But it didn’t make him whole. Only death would do that, now. And he walked in darkness, for all his days, as an infiltrator, a scout, and an assassin.. Even Lestan didn’t know how many people had fallen to Warrin’s blade, and he probably didn’t want to. It was whispered about Warrin that he enjoyed the killing.. that he used the fierce emotion of the hunt to replace the gentler fire of his lost partner.

His son, Jessan’s cousin Alainis was a quiet boy, who had a touch of his father’s dark nature, but had a gentle humor about him that Warrin totally lacked. Alainis had tried, on any number of occasions, to break through his father’s bleak reserve, but he was always brushed off, kindly, but nevertheless.

"Odd." Warrin said, as s a shadow passed over his eyes. "Never heard of that in a human."

"None of us had." Lestan said, absently. "Well, we’re in for it." He sighed, and pushed the documents over to his son. "Secan’s scouting parties have pushed in again into our territory."

Jessan studied the maps, drawn in Warrin’s careful, precise hand. It was their territory, with the main village, and the six scattered outposts surrounding it. The river marked one boundary, the mountains another, and the coastal ridge the third. Warrin had marked in places where he’d spotted patrols from their neighbors to the north encroaching. Again.

Lestan sighed. "Secan has a real problem with my treaty with Hectator. Thinks I’m a traitor to our people, you know." He stretched, and showed his canines in a broad yawn. "I’ll have to send patrols out to watch for his patrols. Damn. We get things all settled with the humans, and now we have problems with our own people." Lestan scowled, and turned his eyes to his son. "Not a word about this to our guests, by the way. They don’t need to know we prey on each other just like they do."

Jessan glanced up from the map, and gave them both a strange look. "Waitaminute." He put the parchment down, and waved his hands. "Wait. You have.. oh.. only the warlord that conquered half of Greece right here, in this village, and you don’t want to ask her for strategic ideas?"

"Jessan, you don’t understand." Lestan growled, letting one fist down on the table with a thump.

"Sure I do." His son answered, not intimidated. "But what part of our nature do you think Xena doesn’t understand?" Those eyes, father, have seen more of death, and of darkness, and of evil that you, and I together will in all our lives. And still she smiles. And puts out her hand to help those in need. "She looked at me and saw a man, father, and I was never anything other in her eyes."

"You’re a fool, boy." Warrin sighed. "You can’t trust humans. I’ll tell you that, out of all my years of watching them. Tracking them. Killing them. Honor is not generally their strong suit. They have no grace in battle, no pride in fairness, no joy in the exercise of their art of war."

Lestan hesitated, then put a hand on Warrin’s arm. "You know I am no friend of humankind, Warrin, but not all of them are like that. Hectator is an honorable man. " He glanced at Jessan, whose eyes were snapping with flashes of anger, and whose body was tense with it. "And.. my son is right about one thing. Xena knows us, knows our hearts. She is an honorable person also."

Warrin shook his heavy head. "Fools." He shrugged. "Tell who you like." He continued, then stood, stretching his sinewy body. "I'll be gone after sundown tonight."

And he was gone, disappearing out the door into the growing light of dawn.

Lestan and Jessan looked at each other. Lestan shrugged. "He hates them, Jess.. they took his lifebond from him.. even though it was an accident, he’s never forgiven. Never forgotten." Lestan gazed out of the half open door. "I remember him before.. he was light, and laughter, and gentle good nature. Now.."

His son got up and walked around the table, stopping in front of the window and looking out. "It’s terrible, the breaking."

"Aye." Lestan whispered, then turned, as Wennid entered and put a plate down in front of him. "So, how are our guests this early morning?"

"Fine." Jessan replied, absently, then turned and greeted his mother with a hug. "Morning, mother." He sat down again, and rested his forearms against the table. "Elaini was right, I think."

Wennid walked over to him and brushed the fur off his forehead. "Are they doing well, then?"

Jessan turned his Sight towards the healer’s cot.

And blushed a shade of red more common to the rose bushes his mother cultivated in her small garden. "Uh. Fine." He squeaked. "Just fine. Yep. Uh.. they’re great."

Lestan and Wennid exchanged puzzled glances, then burst out laughing. "Oh…" Lestan roared, and tumbled back off his chair, hitting the floor without a pause in his laughter. "Better watch where you’re Looking now, Jess."

Even Wennid was giggling, pointing at her son’s still crimson face. "Oh dear. I’ve never seen that color before."

"Stop it."Jessan muttered, covering his face. He’d forgotten.. a cardinal sin in a people as sensitive as his own, that certain times of the day, dawn, twilight, moonrise.. it was better to keep one’s Sight to oneself. Or risk being embarrassed. "Come on..cut it out."

Wennid kissed his head affectionately. "It’s all right, dear. We’ve all done it on occasion." She patted his shoulder. "Let me get you some breakfast."

"Uh.." Jessan said, standing up. "No..no .. I think..I have something to do. Bye." Maybe a run. Yeah. His mind raised an amused eyebrow at him. Try a dunk in the lake, better. Ares.. I can’t believe I did that. He shook his head, and broke into a trot, headed out past the village boundaries.

But the taste of it was still with him. It had been a very brief touch.. but the golden texture of what he’d Seen had been so powerful it had overwhelmed his senses for a timeless instant, and made him understand, for the first time, what his father and mother knew. And what Warrin had lost.

Warrin silently crossed the still quiet courtyard, and went down the leaf-covered path that led to his seldom-used cot. He entered the door, closing it behind him, and glanced around with idle curiosity. Never changed. The round cot had woven mat walls, and a wooden floor, a small room with ready water for bathing, a table, a chair, and in the room beyond, his bed. No personal items, no hangings on the wall.. it was a very impersonal space.

And I like it that way. He thought to himself. No strings. No emotional attachments. He'd learned, over the years, to cut off that part of himself, to keep from triggering his memories of what it was like before. He existed in a constant state of now.. going from situation to situation, battle to battle, keeping himself almost obsessively busy. Anything to avoid thinking. Or remembering.

Like now. He sat quietly, gazing out the lightening window at the dawn, and just went.. nowhere for a while, letting the beauty of the day just flow through him. Then he remembered why he was upset, and the peace shattered.

Humans. Knowing that gift.

He had nothing against them personally, he reasoned with himself. Had only met the storyteller for bare seconds, at Cirron, and not met Xena at all. But he felt as Wennid did - this was something that should be reserved for their kind only - to have humans know it degraded the gift. Degraded his memories.

For one long, aching moment, he allowed himself to remember what it felt like, suffering the emptiness that followed without complaint. Even after all this time, he missed it, and spending time around his own kind only made it worse, especially his sister, which hurt them both.

But.. he mused, leaning back and regarding the sunrise. They can't be right. Humans can't know this, can't sense it. They're Blind, and always have been. So.. either Lestan is mistaken, or these two are lying, or maybe they just don't know what's going on. Think I'd better go check it out.

He stood and stretched, giving himself a little shake to settle his fur, then strolled out onto the porch and into the sunlight now pouring down through the high canopy of leaves.

"That certainly got the kinks out." Gabrielle commented, with a sly grin, as she settled flat on her back and stretched her body out across the length of the pallet.

Xena just chuckled, and offered her a slice of apple, which she took and chewed thoughtfully. They had finished off a large piece of travelers bread and a couple of wedges of cheese between them, with Gabrielle watching closely to make sure Xena didn't give her the lion's share of the edibles, as was her habit.

"Hey, you get some of that too." She growled, poking the warrior in the arm.

"I am." Xena protested, holding up a slice in self-defense, and popping it in her mouth.

"Grr." Ares poked his nose under her elbow and sniffed at the apple. He blinked at them, then sighed. "Roo?"

Gabrielle laughed. "No.. no apples for you, piglet. I saw your mommy give you that big piece of bread and cheese." She gave Xena a mock glare. "When she thought I wasn't looking."

Xena raised an eyebrow at her, and took another slice of apple, cutting it in half and extending it. . "Relax. I've had plenty.. more than I should have, really, since I hadn’t had anything in there for two days" Her gaze softened. "But thanks.. for watching out for me."

Gabrielle grinned. "If I don’t, who will? " She got up off the bed, and crossed to their packs, pulling a towel out of hers. "The bathing room here has a really cool reservoir, gets warmed by the sun, then you let it trickle over you. I’m gonna try it."

"I’ll join you." Xena answered, swinging her legs off the pallet and onto the floor a trifle stiffly.

The bard got in front of her and held up a cautious hand. "You sure? You know, there’s nothing that says you have to hop right out of bed.." Like that’s gonna stop her. Right. Well, I have to try. "I'll be glad to give you a bath." This with a very wicked twinkle.

Raised eyebrow from Xena, who just shook her head and grinned. "Would you please relax? Gabrielle, I really am fine, OK?" And to prove it, she rose smoothly to her feet, feeling a good deal of nagging soreness, but nothing she hadn’t had to deal with a thousand times before. "Shall we?" A chuckle. "And besides, I still have granite dust stuck all over me. So c’mon."

Saw the look in Gabrielle’s eyes, and gentled her voice. "Come here." Extending an arm towards the bard, and letting it rest on Gabrielle’s shoulders when she drew near. "I am a little light headed after all that time lying down.. " she admitted. "Could use some support." Sometimes, sometimes, Xena, you need to cut the self-sufficient attitude back a little. She needs that.

"Sure." The bard smiled, winding an arm firmly around her partner’s waist. "I can do that."

They walked slowly into the bathing room, and Xena very quickly gave her approval to the water setup, as they stood under the reservoir.

"I like this." The warrior chuckled, letting the lukewarm water wash down her body. She picked up a piece of their soap, but Gabrielle forestalled her, and plucked it out of her fingers with a grin.

"Hey… you’re not supposed to be straining yourself. Here." And she set to work, scrubbing gently, then moving closer to get her arms around to Xena’s back. And found herself trapped in a pair of welcoming arms. She glanced up, and saw the smile. "What?"

"It’s almost like it’s raining." Xena teased, pulling her close.

"Mmm…yeah." Gabrielle agreed, circling her arms around the warrior’s neck, and pulling lightly. "Lemme make sure I remember what that felt like." Xena’s lips touched hers, and she was transported, for a brief disorienting moment, back to the Centaur Village.

"Warmer water." She mumbled, as they paused.

"No Centaurs." Xena replied, giving her a playful nip on the ear.

Gabrielle chuckled. "You still hungry?"

Got a low, deep laugh in return. "Don’t get me started."

Gabrielle let her eyes wander over her partner's body and sighed. "I guess we'd better go and be social, huh?" She put her head down on Xena's shoulder for a long moment, then glanced up. "I think I'm addicted to you." As though this was a new discovery to her. "Did you know that?"

"Yep." Xena said, her hands starting a slow massage of the muscles on Gabrielle's back. "Did you know it's mutual?"

"Unngh." The bard closed her eyes and went limp. "Thank the gods it is." She yawned. "I could do this forever." she mumbled happily. And heard, under her ear, Xena's heart stop for just a second, then restart at a faster rate. She picked up her head, and searched the quiet face above her. "What's wrong?"

I should say nothing. Right? It's been a really good morning, I feel a lot better, and it’s a nice day out.. don't ruin it. Xena quietly mused. Then she looked down into Gabrielle's eyes and somehow got lost there. "Just thinking." She finally said. "Come on.. " Picking up their towels, she slung one over Gabrielle's shoulders and started drying herself off.

Gabrielle hesitated, studying her. Come on, Gabrielle - back off a little for a while. She's been through Hades the last couple of days.. give her some space. "OK - it's about time for everyone to start waking up anyway." She managed a smile, and popped her lightly with the towel.

"Hey!" Xena barked, and snapped her back, causing the bard to yelp, and attracting Ares' attention. The puppy scrambled toward them, and grabbed the edge of Gabrielle's towel as she was preparing to retaliate.

"No fair!" The bard protested, tugging the fabric. "He's on your side!" She gave Xena a mock glare. "And you sure have enough of an advantage already."

"Grrr." Ares pulled enthusiastically, shaking his head back and forth and digging in his paws.

Xena laughed. "Good boy, Ares." She encouraged the puppy, who glanced at her out of the corner of his eyes and wagged his tail. The warrior wrapped her towel around her body and tucked the ends in, and strolled past the bard, leaning over and nipping her lightly on the back of the neck.

"Yow!" Gabrielle yelled, and dropped the towel, causing Ares to tumble backwards, and tangle himself in the suddenly loose fabric. She turned around and glared at Xena. "I'll get you for that."

She gestured at the puppy linen ball on the floor. Ares had a length of the cloth wrapped around his head, and was chewing contentedly on the end of it. "Now look!!" She put her hands on her hips and scowled.

Xena crossed back over, and removed her towel, settling it around Gabrielle's shoulders and using the ends to gently dry off her face. "There." She said, smoothing the damp hair out of the bard's eyes. "OK?"

Gabrielle felt her irritation dissolve away, and a smile edged her lips. She lifted a hand and lightly touched the still vivid bruise that covered her partner's midsection. "That looks like it still hurts." Eyes went to Xena's, to judge the reaction, and saw reluctant agreement there. "Thought so." She raised a stern eyebrow. "I want you to promise me you'll take it easy until that's healed."

"It's not.." Xena hesitated Would it hurt to promise? There wasn't any law that said I have to spend days in pain pushing through this, is there? Other than my own law, that is. Besides.. She sighed inwardly. I think I need some time to consider.. whether or not I want to keep doing.. this. "All right. I promise." She said finally, quietly.

That was too easy. Gabrielle's alarm bells started going off, but she put a lid on them, and smiled at Xena. "Anyway, if you start off slow, you can nudge Jessan along with you. He's..umm..."

Xena's eyebrow quirked, and she resumed her grin. "I noticed."

The bard put laid her hand flat on Xena's stomach. "Don't tease him." She gave her partner a knowing look. "He promised he wouldn't tease you about us."

The warrior laughed. "Deal." she replied, moving into the main area of the healer's cot and pulling out a fresh tunic. "In fact, I'll just relax out on the porch and restitch those leathers." She fastened her tunic, settling the fabric folds neatly around her long body. "Will that satisfy you, my bard?" And maybe take out my armoring tools and give a go at straightening out that armor..must be banged up to Hades. She sighed..

"Sounds like a good idea." Gabrielle agreed, slipping into a spare skirt and top. "I gotta get these washed.. " She indicated her usual set, and Xena's eyebrow rose as she recognized the stains.

"Blood?" She queried, moving closer.

"Nosebleed." The bard shrugged. "Banged my face on Argo's neck."

"Doing...?" Came the softly spoken question, as Xena gently grasped her jaw and tilted her face to the light, studying her intently.

Oh Gods..I forgot I haven't told her about any of that yet... "Uhm...well, there were these raiders."

Both eyebrows jerked up. "Raiders?"

"In the valley pass, yeah.. and I uh.. well, Argo really did it, I just sort of hung on, you know, and then when she landed, I banged my head."

Xena bit her lip to keep from smiling. "You jumped Argo. Over guys with swords?"

"Yeah." A long silence, as they regarded each other.

The warrior sighed. "You could have been......" Hurt. Killed. Damn.

"If I'd let them stop me, that's what I would have wanted to happen." Gabrielle blurted.

A long, intent stare from those blue eyes. "You don't mean that." Flatly. But I think she does.

Gabrielle's eyes snapped with anger. "Don't you treat me a like a child." She said, returning that stare intent for intent. "Yes I do mean that." she took a breath and released it. "I mean exactly that."

Emotions held in check for days were now bubbling to the surface, and she knew she wasn't going to be able to hold them back. "I know what it feels like when you die, Xena. " She paused. "I can't go through that again. I can't." Her voice broke. "I can't." she repeated softly, aware of Xena's tense, still form, one hand still cupping her jaw. "I don’t want to be here without you." That, in a whisper, as Xena’s hand left her face, and slid around her body, and pulled her tightly close.

"Gabrielle." Only her name, but it sang with an aching sadness that circled her heart and held it firmly.

"It hurt so much." In a hoarse whisper. "It was tearing me apart." Gabrielle let herself sink into the warmth and love that had become an essential part of her life, and floated in a haze of green tinged sunlight, and the scent of their soap, and the warm sun dried fragrance of Xena’s linen tunic, soft against her cheek. And spoke the poignant truth in her heart. "I can’t live without this anymore, Xena." And against her ear, she felt the strong pounding of Xena's heart, much faster than normal.

Xena stared sightlessly over Gabrielle's shoulder. I can't do that to her. I just… I can't. I close my eyes, and I hear that gods be damned sound that came out of her when she thought I was… And I remember what I felt in her after I died. How empty that was. No more. I need to stop this useless, dangerous attempt at making amends, and just.. keep her safe. That means keeping myself safe.

"Then we have to make sure that you don’t ever have to.." Came the unexpected answer, and when the bard looked up, she saw an unexpectedly lost look in her partner's eyes.

"What do you mean?" She asked, softly, trying to study pale blue eyes that wouldn’t meet hers, of a sudden. "Xena?" No answer. Gods.. what’s going on in there?

Finally, the warrior took a very deep breath, and let it out, and met Gabrielle’s gaze with quiet intensity. "Means I’ll have to find a way to keep us both safe, right?"

Gabrielle stared at her, warning bells going off again. "Mmm…right. But don’t you usually?"

Xena’s lips twitched with a faint regretful smile. "No.. I find a way to keep you safe. I never much thought about myself." She paused. "I can’t really – not and do some of the things I do."

"But.." the bard started, confused. "I don’t.."

Xena gave her a smile, and a squeeze. "Don’t worry about it for now, Gabrielle. Just something to think about. " She rubbed the bard’s back briskly. "Come on.. "

Gabrielle held her out at arms distance. "Talk to me." Green eyes as direct and clear as sunlight on a still pond. "What’s going on with you?" What’s going on that’s making your heart beat that fast, that hard? What’s making you shiver, you who fears nothing, and no one, and who stares death down with regularity?

Xena hesitated, torn between opening her heart, and the knowledge that Gabrielle wasn’t ready to hear this right now. That she wasn't ready to say it, yet. And knew one thing that would temporarily distract her partner. She let her eyes close, and swayed a little, grasping the bard’s shoulder for support.

Instantly, Gabrielle came in close, and wrapped a concerned arm around her. "Hey.."

"Sorry.." the warrior sighed. "Little light headed after all that enforced rest." She gave Gabrielle a tentative smile, and laid an arm across her shoulders. "It’s good to know you’re here."

A smile from the bard. "Always." She promised, with a squeeze. "Do you want to lie down?"

Xena took a deep breath, and shook her head. "No.. no..I’d really like to just go outside. It’s.." She glanced around. "I’d just like that."

Gabrielle understood. "Sure."

Xena stopped and picked up her battered leathers, and her repair kit, and they walked outside into the very early morning light, watching the sun creep through the village like silent hunter, burning off the pale gray mist, and waking the colors from dim blues and greens to vibrant life.

Across the central area they could see the morning movements of the watch, striding across the grass with loose limbed strides, and hear the nickers from the stableyard. Xena’s ears cocked, and she let out one low, vibrant signal. Was rewarded by a familiar neigh that brought smiles to both of their faces. "Gotta go visit." Xena commented.

"Sit down for a little bit, first." Gabrielle coaxed, getting an eyebrow raised in response, but watching in contentment as her partner did as she was requested, and settled back into the hewn wooden chair, slinging one leg casually over the arm and relaxing. "That’s better." And gave Xena a quiet smile.

"Yes mom." The warrior teased, "But do me a favor, and just check on her, OK?"

Gabrielle chuckled. "Sure.. I’ll be right back." She trotted down the steps from the high porch, and headed in the direction of the stables.

Xena watched her until she vanished into the structure, then sighed.

And stilled, as she sensed, in the edges of her peripheral senses, that she was being stalked

Warrin stood in the dappled shadows, his dark furred body blending in with the trunk of the tree he was leaning against. His eyes flicked over the compound, and noticed tiny details. A bird was making a messy nest in the roof of the healer's cot. The morning pit fire had too much green wood and was lifting fragrant smoke into the air. The ground under his bare feet was damp from the dew, which also glistened in the grass and beaded gently on the leaves surrounding his face.

Curiously, he licked one, and tasted the green tang of the leaf, scratchy against his tongue, and the faintly sweet taste of the dew. Then his eyes returned to the healer's cot, spotting movement in the doorway.

Ah. His eyes absorbed the sight of the two humans, as they walked together out onto the wooden porch, and into the sunlight. The smaller was familiar to his sight, and he remembered leaning over an assassin on the cool stone floor across from a pair of sea green eyes that had seemed to him to be uncommonly penetrating for one of her kind. A bard, she was, he remembered, but carried a quarterstaff as though she knew well how to use it.

And her body had backed up that impression, being slim, but muscular, and when she had moved, it had been with the calm assurance of one comfortable with handling themselves.

So here was the bard, again, looking out over the grass, the cool morning breeze blowing her fair hair over her shoulders as she glanced out, then glanced up at her companion.

So that was Xena. Warrin mused, studying her intently. Tall, for a human female, and well built, with long arms and legs and a way of moving even when injured that spoke to him.. His lip curled up slightly.Oh yes. She was one of Ares' children, no question there.

He heard her low whistle, and the responding answer from her mare, and the quiet speech between them, as the bard watched her seat herself, then strode off towards the stable.

I want a closer look at this human. He decided. I want to see if she lives up to the stories I've heard.. the legends they tell, though I know that can't really be possible.

He slipped from behind the tree, and moved silently forward, reaching the edge of the healer's cot and gaining a position where he could observe her unaware, pressing himself against the large oak tree in front of the building, and going very still.

Xena felt the eyes on her and consciously relaxed her body, laying the leathers out along her thighs, and removing the patching needle from her kit. Tuning her hearing in the direction she knew her watcher to be, she pulled out a length of fine gut from the small bag, and threaded the needle, then started to work on the tough leather.

Her senses focused tight, absorbing the sounds around her, and slowly eliminating the harmless ones. The soft rush of the wind, the rattle of the leaves in movement, calling voices from across the courtyard, all faded. She focused further. The faint creaking of the wooden building at her back, muffled sounds inside as Elaini woke and began her daily tasks, a bird rattling on the porch roof.. she let them dissipate, leaving the almost soundless pressure of her watcher's breathing, and the sense of him shifting, moving, the scratch of bark against hair.. she had him pinpointed as closely as if she'd turned around and looked, and she let a reluctant grin tug at her lips.

The skills.. I'll keep. For a while, at least, until people forget who I am, and I don't have to worry about them showing up on Amphipolis' doorstep. She glanced up, and regarded the peaceful scene in front of her. Besides, be honest, you cantankerous old goat, you enjoy showing off what all that hard work accomplished. She mocked herself, but knew it for the truth. Now I just have to figure out a way to broach the subject to Gabrielle.. wonder if she'll like the idea? Maybe she'll choose to... A smile tightened her lips momentarily. No.. whatever else, that choice is long past, and you know it. For you as well as her. But you know.. she just might.... She let her thoughts drift back to a quiet patch of grass under a fading sunset just outside of a place she could once again call home.

It had been a long, long walk after dinner through the fragrant woods, she'd mostly listened, as usual, as Gabrielle practiced one of the stories she was working on.

"That happened a while ago, though." Xena had commented.

"Yeah.." Gabrielle replied. "But I'm so backlogged - I could take off 10 years and not get caught up on all the stuff that's happened to us." She'd glanced up, and tucked her arm in Xena's. "No chance of that, right?" Half jokingly.

"You'd get bored." Xena had laughed. but wondered, since Gabrielle had slipped into the daily routine with an almost wistful ease, and went about her day with a relaxed smile that occasionally looked like relief to the watching warrior.

"Hmm... I guess you're right." The bard had replied, but her eyes had been thoughtful.

They'd ended up by the embankment over the small river to the west of Amphipolis, and settled down in the grass to watch the sunset, Xena leaning back against a convenient rock, with her arms clasped loosely around Gabrielle, who was tucked comfortably up against her chest.

Watching the light turn from deep golden to crimson, to purple, and change the landscape from brilliant colors to a dim blue haziness in which the night noises suddenly erupted and displaced the gentler sounds of day.

"Ugh." The bard had yawned, rubbing her stomach. "Your mother is going to be my downfall, you realize." Giving Xena a sheepish look. "I know I've more than made up for losing all that weight with the Amazons." she chuckled ruefully and plucked at her loose fitting tunic. "I'm afraid to try getting back into that skirt."

Xena had laughed, and reassured her. "You look healthy. Don't worry about it." And had given her a warm hug to back the statement up. Gotten a grin in response, as she felt Gabrielle's body relax against her contentedly.

"Pretty." Gabrielle murmured, wrapping her hands around Xena's. "This is a nice place to watch sunsets from."

"Mmm." Xena agreed. "I always used to come up here when I was little." She had looked down at her quiet partner. "You like it here?" Meaning Amphipolis, actually, and not the riverbank.

Gabrielle had understood the question. "Very much so." Her eyes had lifted to Xena's as she half turned in her arms. "Your family's made me feel part of them, Xena. I really like that. And I really like being here with you." She'd paused. "I've never seen you so.." She glanced up and smiled at the warm, dreamy look in those blue eyes. " Relaxed. It's really nice."

"I'm glad you're enjoying yourself." Xena had quietly answered. Then - Gods..I am at peace with myself. .. just when did that happen? "It's been a quick fortnight, huh?"

And Gabrielle had gazed at her for a very long moment, seemingly about to say something, but ended up just smiling and nodding agreement.

"Too short?" Xena had hazarded a guess.

The bard had swallowed, and quietly nodded again.

"We'll have to do it again sometime, then." The warrior had promised, with a tiny grin.

Gabrielle had let her head fall back against Xena's chest, and let her fingers idly play with a fold of her tunic. "I'd really like that." She replied, in a wistful voice.

"So would I." Xena had responded, and realized right then that it was the truth.

She tracked her watcher as he moved away from the large tree at her back, and slid silently closer. Not bad.. she admitted, detecting the soft scrape of his hand against the wood of the cot. Let's see.. foot up on the porch next. Bet it creaks.

But would Gabrielle agree with why she wanted to stop traveling, stop.. this never-ending series of fighting and struggling towards a far off dim possibility of redemption? Should she even tell her.. maybe she could just say this last injury did.. something. No. She didn't want there to be any secrets, not ones this important, between them. She'd tell Gabrielle exactly why, and then just see what the bard said. At least.. she mused sardonically I'm secure enough in what we have between us to assume she's going to care about where I end up after I have one fight too many.

Creak. Xena rolled her eyes. Amateur. Should have found the supports under the porch, and made sure he landed right on top of one. Her senses told her it wasn't Jessan, but they also told her that whoever it was wasn't attacking. Guess I'll just have to force the issue. She sighed, and spoke "Might as well sit down."

And turned her head, finally, to see him with her sight instead of her hearing. A scarred, dark furred face blinked quietly back at her. "Don’t' think we've met." She paused. "You'd have been better off staying by the tree."

Warrin was stunned. He'd sworn she hadn't detected him, not with the completely relaxed posture she'd kept, and the distracted, almost unseeing look to her gaze. He studied her face in silence, drinking in the sharp, angled planes and the chillingly ice blue eyes. So.

He seated himself next to her, and leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees. "My name is Warrin." He finally grunted, and waited.

Xena raised an eyebrow at him, not pausing in her mending. "Jessan's uncle."

Warrin nodded. They sat in silence, and he realized that was a natural state for her, as it was for himself.

Blue eyes flicking to his. "Did you get Ansteles?" Xena's voice was mildly curious. Knowing he had been sent to assassinate Hectator’s rival after the battle at Cirron.

The forest dweller peered at her, feeling a tickling interest poking its head up, despite his firm intentions. "Yes." He answered, then cleared his throat. "Didn't know you knew." He paused. "Nice work on Stevanos." The assassin that Xena had taken apart in her quarters that night. Whose jaw, and arm, and skull were fractured to a degree he thought only his kind were capable of, that showed a savage, brutal strength that had surprised him, coming from a human.

Xena just raised an eyebrow at him, and grinned.

That grin surprised him, in its feral familiarity. Then her gaze drifted across the village center, and he saw the sharp lines soften almost imperceptibly, and a certain warmth kindle in her eyes. He followed her glance and was not surprised to see the fair-haired bard approaching. So. But love between them did not a lifebond make, he reminded himself.

"Hi." Gabrielle turned her eyes to him as she climbed up the step onto the porch. "Warrin, isn't it? Jessan's uncle?"

He nodded, and watched her closely. Her attention was on him, but her steps drew her unerringly to Xena's side, and she rested a hand on the warrior's casually propped knee in unconscious possession, her fingers idly tracing smooth patterns on the tanned skin.

And now, with them together, he could See it without a doubt. His heart darkened. "Well, just saying hello." He said, shortly, and got up, leaving the porch without another word.

They looked at each other. Xena shrugged. "Don't ask me. He tried to sneak up here without me seeing him, then sat down and made small talk, then you showed up, and he left."

"Hmm." The bard mused. "Well, anyway, Argo's fine, but she misses you." She started to go to the other chair, but Xena patted the arm of hers, which was wide enough for a seat, and she settled down on the smooth worn wood slipping her arm around the warrior's shoulders and leaning her head against the high chair back.

The door to the healer's cot opened, and Elaini stuck her head out, peering around the doorframe with an inquiring expression. "Oh. There you are." She sighed, and edged the rest of her big body out the opening. "I’m going to stick my neck out, and assume you're pretty much OK. Right?" Her eyes scanned Xena from head to foot, and apparently were satisfied with what they saw.

"Pretty much." the warrior agreed. "Thanks, by the way." She leaned back, feeling the warmth of Gabrielle's arm against her neck. "Sorry I knocked you over that first night."

Elaini laughed and ambled over, settling herself in the other chair. "Thanks..for..what?" She propped an elbow on the chair arm, and gazed at them. "You diagnosed yourself, healed yourself, and even, it seems, fed and bathed yourself without any assistance from me. I wish all my patients were as considerate. Usually they hang about complaining of ingrown claws until I throw them out of the place." She yawned, showing her canines. "And I get tossed around occasionally, too - just wasn't expecting it from..er....well, anyway. No problem."

Xena gave her a look, and shook her head. "I did have help." She elbowed Gabrielle, who tugged her hair in response.

"I realize that." Elaini grinned. "You both were out cold all day yesterday... bet you..." She winked at Gabrielle "Had some kind of backache, with that position you were in."

The bard's mouth quirked. "I did.. but Xena fixed that." Then she sobered, and cocked her head. "Was that because of this... connection thing?"

Elaini nodded. "Uh huh. But surely you noticed..." She blinked at them. "You sleep and wake together, right?"

They both looked at each other. "Well." Xena finally said, with a light laugh. "That explains a lot." Suddenly little things she'd been noticing made more sense. Like her sudden inexplicable inability to get up in the morning, after how many gods be blasted years? She shook her head, but saw that Elaini's attention was distracted, and curiously followed the forest dweller's gaze.

Jessan was making his way across the center ground, headed in their direction. Xena looked at Elaini watching him, then glanced at Gabrielle, who quirked an eyebrow at her.

The warrior looked at Elaini, then at Jessan, and now the bard's eyes followed hers, first curiosity, and then comprehension dawning as she interpreted the strange expression on Elaini's face.

They looked at each other, and grinned, needing no bond to share each other's thoughts.

"Morning, Jess." Xena drawled, as the forest dweller drew near, and returned his smile.

"Feeling better, I guess, huh?" Jessan asked, as he climbed up onto the porch and settled cross-legged at her side. He glanced up." Hey guys." Grinning at Elaini and Gabrielle.

"Hey yourself." Gabrielle responded, with a twinkle in her eyes. "Listen.. I have a really great idea." Now.. just go along with me here, Xena.. come on.. "I’ve gotten my friend here.. " A poke at the warrior, who gave her a look. "to agree to take it easy for a few days.. I was wondering if you guys would like to join us for a… picnic, this afternoon."

She felt the silent chuckle run through Xena’s frame, but not a twitch showed on her face. "Sounds good to me." Xena replied gravely, crossing her arms over her chest and the now finished leathers. "You should go. Gabrielle does great picnics."

Jessan looked at her, and then at Gabrielle, and hesitated. They’re up to something. Wish I knew what.. but they are definitely up to something. Oh well. No harm in a picnic, I guess. "Sure." He agreed with his sunny grin. "I love a picnic." His eyes traveled over to Elaini. "Come on.. you can take the afternoon off."

The healer raised both shaggy eyebrows. "Well, since my patient here seems to have recovered with no help from me, I guess I can." She chuckled. "And I suppose we’ll need some food to go with it. " She nodded at Gabrielle. "Can I introduce you to the community kitchen?"

Gabrielle grinned. "Absolutely." She got up, giving Xena’s arm a quick squeeze. "Be back."

Xena nodded at her, and watched them cross the central space, heading for a low, wide building near the stream. Then she turned her head, and she and Jessan regarded each other quietly.

"Think we’re about even now, my friend." Xena said at last, prodding him with the toe of her boot.

Jessan shook his head, and leaned forward, catching her boot. "We both know I didn’t get you out of there. How did you do that?"

"Do what?" Xena asked, gazing at him, arms still crossed. Then – "Don’t ask me that, Jessan. We both know I don’t know the answer, other than to just say I did what I did because I had to do it."

The tall forest dweller nodded slowly. "Know that." He patted her foot absently. "I thought.. " He swallowed. "I didn’t see how.. Xena, if it wasn’t for Gabrielle being convinced you were…" He stopped, and sighed. "I was so afraid you weren’t."

"Afraid?" Came the quiet question.

"For her." The honest answer.

Xena closed her eyes in acknowledgment. "I know.’ She drew breath and released it. "I couldn’t let that happen." She paused. "You were right, damn you." But she smiled as she said it. Right about what he’d seen between them, and the inevitability of it all.

Jessan’s eyes shadowed, and he put a hesitant hand on her leg. "Are you sorry I was?" Please.. Xena.. I have to know.. but Ares, I hope…

Her smile forestalled his thoughts. "No." A simple answer, to a hard question. "Not at all."

He felt relief cascade down him, lifting his fur in a happy shiver. "I’m glad." He grinned suddenly. "I promised Gabrielle I wouldn’t tease you about that." His golden eyes lifted to hers, and saw the twinkle there.

"Yeah… " She drawled, giving him a look. "I got that lecture too."

Watching him blush and roll his eyes. "I know.. I know.. I’m a little piglet." He patted his belly. "Not enough things to challenge me around here. I get lazy." He lifted his broad shoulders in a rueful shrug. And found unexpected sympathy in her eyes.

"Been there, done that." Xena chuckled. "I can be pretty bad if I don’t keep the pressure on."

"Really?" He asked, intrigued. "Never would have guessed."

"Yeah." She admitted. "But don’t tell anyone. It’s bad enough Gabrielle brings out that part of me in the worst way."

Jessan grinned, and slapped her boot. "Not a word" He promised.

They looked at each other in silence.

"It’s changed you." Jessan said, quietly.

A long expelled breath from Xena. "Yeah." But her face broke into a sudden dazzling smile.

Jessan held his breath, charmed by her response. Knowing that, whatever else this joining brought, it had brought her a measure of peace, and of happiness, and that soothed his soul with a wonderful warmth. "Ares, I’m glad." He breathed, returning her smile with one of his own.

They both glanced away, then back. "Me too." Xena chuckled, then unfolded her arms and patted his head. "Listen, I did promise her I’d take it easy for a few days.. wanna do some light drills?"

Jessan grinned, and showed every tooth in his mouth. "You bet." He sighed happily. "After this.. picnic." And now his gaze turned suspicious. "What are you two up to?"

"Us?" Xena hiked both eyebrows up in injured innocence. "Don’t know what you mean."

"Uh huh." The forest dweller nodded, not buying it.

"Really." Xena assured him. "It’s just a picnic. Gabrielle likes them. A lot."

"Uh huh." Jessan said again.

Xena just looked at him with a slight smile on her lips.

"Not going to tell me, huh?" Jessan sighed.

Silence from the warrior.

Jessan sighed again. "OK" He finally capitulated. "But it better be good."

A grin from Xena. It will be if Gabrielle does her part.. and if I know my bard… she already has.

Gabrielle strode along silently, stretching her steps a bit to keep up with the much taller Elaini, and casting her eyes around the compound. "Nice day." She commented, glancing up in appreciation at the cloudless sky. The warm sun drenched the grassy central area, and a gentle cool breeze stirred the leaves on the surrounding trees.

"Hmm.. uh huh." Elaini answered absently, then turned her golden head and looked at Gabrielle. "Sorry.. my minds a thousand leagues away from here… you’re right – it is a nice day." She smiled, showing her canines. "I’m glad your partner is doing better. I was.. " She glanced around, then back to Gabrielle, softening her tone. "I was a little worried about her yesterday.. that was a pretty high fever."

The bard nodded and chewed her lip. "I know. I was too." She took in a breath. "But she’s pretty tough."

"So I found out." Elaini chuckled good-naturedly. "Boy was I surprised. Sorry..by the way, for not listening to you." She gestured towards the larger cot that held the village’s communal kitchen. "Come on."

"Thanks." The bard responded. "And, no problem – I just try to make things easier for people around her.. especially when she’s not really sure of what’s going on. She reacts really, really fast."

Elaini nodded, as she pushed the door to the cot open. "Now I know." A curious glance down at the fair-haired human. "How did the two of you… I mean… it’s an odd…"

Gabrielle laughed. "That’s a long story, so I’ll tell you at lunch." She gave the forest dweller a sideways look. "I’m glad Jess said he’d come.. he looks like he could use a little cheering up."

Elaini sighed. "That’s true.. I’m not sure what’s bugging him lately." Her ears perked up and she put a hand on Gabrielle’s back to guide the bard into the cool storage area. "What do you bring for a picnic? I’ve never been to one." She glanced around, nodding a little at the well-organized room. The storage cot was dug down below the ground level, and held a coldness even in the hottest weather, keeping the provisions well stored on rough shelves around the packed earthen walls.

Gabrielle browsed around the supplies, and selected, first, a large basket. "Well, this is important – something to carry everything in." She grinned. "And.. let’s see.. " She selected a few items with a knowing hand. "These are good. You can put them together and make little snack rolls with them."

"Really?" Elaini replied, coming closer and looking over her shoulder. "Oh.. yeah, I see what you mean. Do you like those?"

"I do.. and so does Xena." The bard chuckled. "We’re lucky that way.. we mostly like the same things."

"Oh." The forest dweller mused. "Is she picky?" Her face creased into a mischievous grin.

Gabrielle snorted. "Gods no." She picked up several other items "She’d actually just swallow anything edible if she had to.. but I can always tell when she really likes something, and I try to work with that, because if she likes something, then I can sometimes get her to slow down and actually chew it before she swallows." She winked. "Getting her to relax and enjoy herself a little is a hobby of mine."

Elaini let out a low, rumbling chuckle. "Sounds like quite a hobby." Offhandedly, she picked up a piece of dried venison from the shelf and examined it. "So.. how do you tell if she likes something?"

Gabrielle hid a grin, and studied the selection of fruits stacked in small baskets against the back wall of the cot. "Well.." She reflected. "She’s a tough read, I’ll give you that. It’s that warrior thing..you know? That stoic, never admit to pain, never admit to having an emotion about anything kind of walnut shell they all have?"

"Oh yeah." Elaini nodded, and rolled her eyes. "Tell me all about it. Like if they let up for a candlemark the world would stop spinning."

The bard nodded. "Uh huh." She sat down on a convenient box and assumed a thoughtful expression. "Let’s see.. how do I know when she likes something.. well, she gets kind of this.. " her mouth quirked into a grin. "sparkle in her eyes." She paused. "Not that those eyes don’t sparkle all the time, all by themselves, mind you.. but this is different."

"Really." Elaini breathed, seating herself on a cask of cider.

"Yeah." Gabrielle confirmed. "And.. she kind of smiles, just a little bit, but almost like she can’t help it. " If she closed her eyes, she could picture the look. "She has a sweet tooth she won’t admit to, but I catch her with that sometimes." With a twinkle, she added a handful of honey and nut clusters rolled in powdered sugar to the basket. "You watch."

The forest dweller sighed. "You sound like you really enjoy doing that."

"I do." The bard responded. "Those walnut shells are tough.. but once you get them cracked.. " Her face relaxed into a smile. " Underneath all that, she’s the nicest, most gentle person you could imagine knowing. " She paused. "It’s worth the effort." Get my drift? Maybe…

Elaini studied her for a long moment, then gave her a wistful smile. "You’re in love with her."

Gabrielle smiled. "That’s pretty obvious, I thought." As obvious as you’re being.. but we won’t mention that, right? Right.

"Even without the bond you share, I think you would be." The healer mused.

"I was, a long time before we knew about that." Came the honest answer.

Elaini ducked her head closer. "How did you know?" Her eyes glinted "When did you realize?"

Ah. Good question. Gabrielle reflected. Now, how can I answer this so that I give her the information she’s asking for.. "Well, I’d known for a long time we were really close - I mean, when you go around the way we do, you kind of… come to depend on that other person. And I did. " She stopped then smiled a little. "I do. Anyway, but there are always things that drive you nuts, and she has a bunch of those things, too." She handed Elaini a pear, and took one herself, biting into it and chewing thoughtfully. "So, we’d had this fight."

And it had been a big one, Gabrielle reflected, looking back. She hadn’t spoken to Xena since that morning, when they’d had yet another in a series of arguments about why Xena never bothered to tell her what was going on, or where they were going, or…

Same old, same old. Gabrielle had thought, trying to come up with something to put down on the scroll that had been sitting before her blank since they’d stopped and made camp. I get treated like a child, I get mad, and she just pulls into her shell and stops communicating. Not that she communicates really well even on a good day. But this is like.. She glanced over at the closed, silent visage across the fire from her. I used to just get mad. Now I get mad, but it also hurts.. and it’s been hurting more and more lately. That’s weird. It’s like I don’t want us to fight.

A motion had attracted her eye, and she realized the warrior was no longer there. Great. She thought in disgust. Just run off, like usual. She’d known that Xena would probably just go work off her anger doing those never-ending drills of hers, and come back, like she did sometimes, tired and just kind of quiet.

Guess it’s cold stuff again for dinner. Not that Xena ever cared. The bard had sighed. Or complained, be fair - she would eat whatever you put in front of her, and never say a word. Though I wish sometimes… Gabrielle had felt the anger leaking out of her like water in a sand pile, being replaced by a wistful sadness that had become more and more common to her lately. I wish she’d notice when I really try to make something nice.

And realized with a funny kind of shiver that lately.. smiles, and kind looks, and the odd positive word from her traveling companion had become more important to her. Had become.. something she needed, something that filled a spot in her that was otherwise dark and empty. That felt very dark and very empty right now.

She had stared down at the parchment in somber reflection, trying to sort out her feelings, and using the end of her recently useless quill to brush the tears off the surface as they fell. She’d had no idea why she was even crying, and rubbed her face in irritation as she lifted her head.

To see Xena standing there, leathers damp with the water that was also dripping off her bare legs and lower arms, and off the shining fins of two large fish she had by the gills. Yellow tails, which Xena knew were Gabrielle’s favorite kind.

The bard had looked up, startled, into those deep blue eyes, and seen the slight tilt of that dark head, and the quirked eyebrow that was Xena asking for a truce. And the fish were a peace offering, if Gabrielle had a mind to accept them.

And suddenly, desperately, she wanted to accept them. Wanted things to be all right between them with a fierce longing that shocked her to the core. She had stood up, and walked over to the waiting warrior, and slipped her hands into the gills to take the fish, feeling her heart jump as their fingers touched, and listening at last to her body’s reaction to her nearness, and the warm, spicy scent of her leathers, and the look in Xena’s eyes as their glances met.

Realizing in that timeless moment that ‘best friend’ just didn’t quite encompass her feelings any more. And wondered what in Hades was the point in that?

Wondered until Xena, now relieved of her burden, dried her hands off, hesitated, and then lifted a hand up, and so, so gently brushed one of the recently fallen tears off her cheek. And let her fingertips linger a heartbeat longer than she needed to. "Thought you’d appreciate something other than bread and cheese." Was the offhand comment.

Thanks." She’d said, hearing the touch of strain in her voice. "Thought we’d be stuck with trail bars tonight." But her tone had been warm, and she’d seen the reflection of that in the grin that quirked unevenly across the warrior’s lips.

But she wanted more than that, so she let her feelings show, just a little, and braved the danger of their glances meeting. And was rewarded with a softening in those ice blue eyes, and a real smile, which she tucked into that lonely place inside her, letting the warmth spread out slowly. "Uhm… sorry I yelled, before." She apologized, letting out a long sigh.

"My fault." Xena had replied, putting a hand on her shoulder, and squeezing gently. "Sorry.. I.." She’d hesitated. "I hate when we fight." She’d finally admitted.

"Me too." Gabrielle had agreed, as she felt the tension drain out of her. She’d glanced at her hands. "These are my favorites." With a shy glance up, and reveling in the feel of the warm hand still clasped on her neck.

"Yeah. I know." Had come the quiet answer. "Mine too."

Gabrielle had felt a slow smile crossing her face. "Didn’t know you had a favorite." The words slipped out before she could stop them, and she blushed slightly.

Xena had just chuckled, though, and patted the side of her face gently. "I do." She’d drawled. "Just took me a while to get around to mentioning it."

Gabrielle grinned, remembering. She’d lain awake half the night, just looking up at the stars, and trying to figure out where her head was at. And finally, had lit a tiny candle stub, and settled down at her parchment, and wrote a poem that came as close as she could to painting a picture in words of what she saw when she looked across the dim, barely glowing embers of her campfire towards her companion. At last, satisfied, she’d sanded and blown off the scroll, and reread it, then rolled it up and tied it neatly, and stowed it away in her carry bag. Where it still was, a bit tattered but whole.

"I don’t.. " She glanced at Elaini, who was patiently waiting for an answer. "Well.. for me, I knew, when I realized that for all the danger, and all the bad things that happen to us.. " Here she smiled. "And all the times we fight about stuff, I’d still rather be with her than be anywhere else in the world."

Elaini sighed. "Wow."

"So." Gabrielle said, crisply. "What does Jessan like?" Ooo… Gabrielle, you are an bad bard. Bad Bard. Bad to the bone. Her eyes took on a mischievous sparkle. "Come on.. come on.."

Elaini blushed a deep crimson "How would I know??" She blurted, scowling at the bard.

Gabrielle summoned up her best Xena style raised eyebrow look, and dumped in on the hapless forest dweller.

It worked. The healer let her shoulders slump and put her chin in her big hands. "He doesn’t even know I’m alive." She sighed deeply. "He’s so cute."

Gabrielle bit her lip hard to keep from giggling. "I always thought so." She gravely agreed. "Now we just have to get him out of his shell." A quick grin. "So to speak." Oh..I’m gonna enjoy this.. and so is my ever so cynical, I’m too tough for my leathers partner. "Relax. We’ll think of something."

Elaini bit a section out of her pear, and looked up with embarrassed gratitude. "Nice to have an ally, anyway."

Gabrielle grinned. "Two of them." She picked up the basket, and swung it over her arm. "Come on.. we’ve got a picnic to go to."

"You mean.. she.. uhm…" Elaini spluttered. "I thought.. but.. she’s.."

The bard stopped at the flight of steps leading up from the earthen floor, and put her free hand on her hip. "When it comes to plans… " The green eyes glinted. "Nobody even comes close. "

Xena studied Jessan’s profile as he looked out over the grassy area, small wisps of fur whipping back against his ears in the wind. "So.. what’s up?" She drawled casually. "What was that fighting I heard yesterday.. you and that healer got problems?"

Jessan turned his head, and regarded her. "Uhm… problems.. no." He said, then sighed. "Just a difference of opinion." A wry look crossed his face. "We have a lot of them."

"Mmmm." Xena murmured. "Bout what?" Keeping her voice light and only casually interested, as she watched a hummingbird on a bush limb near by.

The forest dweller shrugged. "Nothing.. really.. oh, yeah. She was mad I didn’t tell her about you guys the night before." He saw the raised eyebrow. "About you being.. well, you know."

Xena nodded. "Seems nice." A glance at Jess "Little young for this job, huh?"

Jessan straightened, and half turned to face her. "She’s qualified." The defensive tone in his voice brought a faint twitch to the warrior’s lips. "She’s very nice.. sorry she had that little problem with Gabrielle. She just didn’t.. Xena, you’re not her usual kind of patient. " He patted her muscular leg. "Don’t sell her short."

Blue eyes gazed down at him in mild bemusement. "Me? I was just commenting that she’s a bit young to have finished healer’s training. That’s all.. no complaints."

"Oh." Jessan blushed. "Sorry.. I was just… " A peek at Xena’s face, which had maintained it’s amiable good nature. He shrugged. "She gets a lot of grief from the clan about being so young.. so I…"

"Sokay." Xena patted his head. "I understand." Boy.. do I ever. She grinned at herself. Remembering her own heated defenses of Gabrielle, usually not in the young bard’s hearing. "You’re a good friend."

Jessan stared off into the distance, and snorted. "Yeah." Then he looked up. "Just got back from a run." He absorbed her sympathetic grin and returned one of his own. "Going to go wash off, then I’ll be right back."

"Sure." Xena nodded at him, prodding him with her boot again. "Like those water arrangements, by the way."

He chuckled, and got to his feet, feeling the beginning of what was, he knew, going to be a lack of use soreness in his legs, and padded down the stairs and off towards his family cot, giving the returning Gabrielle a wave as he passed her.

"So." Xena asked, as Gabrielle seated herself back on the deck with a large basket. "What do you have there?"

The bard looked back and smirked. "Guess you'll find out." she teased. "Thanks for going along with my plan, by the way." She leaned back against Xena's leg and felt the warrior’s fingers tangle themselves in her hair. "She likes him."

Xena chuckled. "Uh huh."

"You think he likes her?" The bard mused, glancing up and over her shoulder.

"Uh huh. " Xena repeated, with a grin.

"We’re bad." Gabrielle chuckled, crossing her arms and smirking.

"Yeah." Xena sighed, letting her head drop back against the chair's wooden surface, and closing her eyes for a minute as a small wave of dizziness hit her. Damn.. still a little wiped out, I guess.

Felt a hand reach up and clasp hers, and opened her eyes to see Gabrielle's concerned gaze on her. "Hey." The bard rested her chin on Xena's knee and studied her face. "Everything OK?"

"Yeah." The warrior sighed. "Must have lost a lot of blood in there.. just a little lightheaded." Her mouth quirked. "Old news."

Which got a smile from her partner. "Not." She snorted, and squeezed Xena's hand. "Can I get you anything? Water?"

And that got an amused look from her partner.

"You're going to kill me for clucking over you like an worried hen, right?" Gabrielle sighed.

Xena gave her a little grin. "Nah." She glanced across the village center, then looked back into the bard's eyes. "Really.. I haven't had anyone do that to me for.. " Her gaze went inward for a long moment. "Since mother, actually. A long time ago." Very long time ago, she realized, remembering peering up fuzzily at Cyrene's worried face, as her mother changed bandages on.. yeah, that's right. She'd been thrown, and then kicked in the head by that bad tempered stallion of their neighbors. Just before Cortese, and after that... she hadn't ever let anyone close enough.. trusted anyone enough to expose that kind of vulnerability to them. Until now. "You can cluck over me anytime."

Gabrielle's eyes took on a quiet sparkle, and she blushed a little. "I haven't had much practice at it.. " Her brow creased. "And I hope I don't get much." She gave Xena a severe look. "You should be more careful.. how did you let yourself get caught in a rockslide anyway?"

Xena took a breath, and held it, letting it out slowly. "Well.. " She glanced down to where Ares had stumbled out next to her, and was yawning sleepily. "There wasn't a lot of time to think."

Gabrielle hauled herself up off the floorboards and settled back on the arm of the chair. "Since when do you require a lot of time for that?" She rested a hand on Xena's shoulder. "I’ve spent two years being amazed at how fast you move, you know."

"Yeah.. well, " The warrior reached down a hand and scooped Ares up, depositing him on her lap and scratching his ears. Not looking at the bard. " I could have jumped clear." She paused. "But he couldn't have." A half apologetic glance in Gabrielle's direction. "He was there, and I saw him, and I just didn't think.. I just. .it was..." She sighed. "It was stupid."

"No it wasn't..." The bard interjected, but Xena cut her off.

"It was.. is his life worth the amount of.. " She stopped. "I didn't want to put you through that."

A long silence stretched between them, punctuated only by the soft sounds of the returning hunters, and the rustling of grass and leaves in the wind.

Finally, Gabrielle sighed. "Look, we know... I know.. that's always a possibility." She stroked Xena's cheek gently with her knuckles. "It's the price we pay.."

"For me trying to make up for being a bastard most of my life." Xena finished quietly. "I know." She looked up right into the bard's eyes. "But I don't know if I want to pay that price anymore."

Gabrielle took a very deep breath. "Any life's dangerous, Xena." she began, tentatively. "I mean, look - you were just chasing after a runaway horse, here." What's she thinking?...

"You're right." The warrior answered softly. "But I deliberately go out and make it a lot more dangerous, Gabrielle, by putting myself, and you, in to situations that require me to use every skill I have full out just to survive." Her shoulders slumped. "And one of these days, I'm afraid those skills just aren't going to measure up."

Gabrielle gazed at her in consternation. "But you always.." she started, then stopped, watching the tension knot her shoulders. She's talking about quitting, Gabrielle. About settling down somewhere, isn't she? A sudden jolt of wistful longing hit her, but she ruthlessly wrestled it down. This is the price of her redemption. And even if she's not willing to pay it, I am. "Listen.. " she continued, softly. "Even if something happens, it's not forever, Xena. You know that."

"Isn't it?" Came the quiet reply.

Silence from Gabrielle for a long instant. "What.. I mean... " She stopped and took a breath, and swiveled around until she was facing Xena, putting her hands on both shoulders, and locking her gaze with the warrior's. "What's up with you?" And saw a quiet anguish in those blue eyes that made her breath catch in her throat with an audible sound. "What's wrong? Xena, talk to me, please?" There’s been something stirring around back there since it happened. I knew it.. thought it was just.. Damn, I should have dug this out before.

Xena let her eyes close wearily. "I had a lot of time to think, stuck in that cave in, Gabrielle." She looked up at the bard's worried face. "Not much else to do." and let a tiny smile tug at her lips, which Gabrielle reluctantly answered. "And.. well, I realized it wasn't the dying I minded so much.. after all.." She shrugged. "that's a certainty for us all, and for someone like me..." She left the sentence unfinished. "But the thought that was killing me a lot faster than those rocks was that.." She paused and swallowed. "I really didn't want to not ever see you again."

"But... " Gabrielle frowned. "We'll...I mean.. I know not here... but.."

"We're not going to the same place." Xena's voice was quiet and final.

The bard froze, and felt a solid chill take her, sending a shiver down her spine. "You don't know that." Her voice was shaking, she could feel the vibration in it.

Xena's eyes held a remote sadness in them that was it's own answer. "Unfortunately, Gabrielle, yes I do."

"No." Gabrielle whispered, her voice breaking. "Is that.." Where you were when you died? "But that doesn't mean.. it's only been... "

"I've always accepted that eventuality for myself, Gabrielle." Xena said gently, with a faint rueful smile. "Thought I'd have a lot of friends.. and enemies.. there to keep me occupied." She reached out and took the bard's chilled hands in hers, and felt the tremors in them. "That wasn't so bad. But.." She took a breath. "If I only have one lifetime to spend with you.. I'd kind of like it to be a long as possible."

Spotted the gleam of tears in the green eyes facing her and squeezed the hands still clasped in her own. "So.. I'm thinking about.. putting down the sword and going home for a while." She paused, and watched Gabrielle's eyes closely "And I'd really like you to come home with me." And saw the sudden look of intense longing that the bard tried to disguise but couldn't. I saw that, love. You stay out here for my sake, but you want that.. and on some level, so do I.

Gabrielle studied her quietly. "Where you go, I go." A simple truth.

Then she looked inside, and asked herself a question. And got back an answer. And realized that if she were to ask herself that question a thousand times, she'd get back the same answer. A thousand times.

Peacefully, she took in a breath, and gave her partner a smile. "That includes this life, and everything after."

Xena stared at her, with a stunned expression. "What are you saying?" She asked, her voice taking on a hoarse roughness.

The bard managed a shrug. "Simple. I'm not leaving you. No matter what, no matter where, no matter how long.. in this life, in Tartares, it just doesn't matter." She leaned forward and rested her forearms on either side of Xena's neck, so they were nose to nose. "You are stuck with me." She paused, and did her best rendition of the look. "Got it?"

Xena regarded her for a very long moment, in silence. "You don't belong where I'm going." But there were equal parts sadness and joy in the tone.

"Neither do you. But you're missing the point... " Gabrielle rested her forehead against the warrior's. "An eternity in the Elysian Fields without you would be far more torture than anything Tartarus could come up with. As long as I'm with you, nothing else matters."

"Just that simple?" Xena asked, in a wondering tone.

"Yep." The bard answered, kissing her on the nose. "Just that simple. So.. don't get me wrong, there's nothing I'd like better than to settle in at home and spend the rest of my life lazing around in the sun with you and running a village inn. But don't let your decision rest on what's going to happen after this life." She paused, and grinned. "Because that's a done deal."

"It is, huh?" Xena couldn't control the grin that kept twitching at her lips.

"You bet." Came the cheerful answer.

The warrior nodded, in resigned acceptance. "All right." She took a deep breath, and looked up. "Here come our lunch partners."

Then she looked back into Gabrielle's eyes. "We'll talk more about it later." She grinned a little. "You wouldn't mind hanging around a backwater like Amphipolis?"

"Nuh Uh." Gabrielle shook her head vigorously. "Like I said when we were there.. I’ve got 10 years of work to do just to document what I've seen so far." She relaxed back on the arm of the chair, leaning against the tall wooden slats behind her. "Besides.. " her grin turned teasing. "Subject myself to your mother's cooking again? No arm twisting required."

"It’s an ultimatum." Lestan sighed tossing the scroll down on the large conference table in his cot, glancing at Wennid and Warrin, who were seated at the table, and then let his gaze travel around the roughly circular room at the scarred, older warriors who were present. "We either capitulate, which means reneging on our treaty with Cirron, and pay them tribute, or they attack."

"Let em." Brennan snorted, pushing himself away from the wall, and uncrossing his burly arms. "He’s not that good."

Warrin regarded him out of his pale eyes. "Not correct." The tracker stated, in a quiet voice. "He is, in fact, that good, and his threat is a serious one." He glanced around. "We have no one that can take him, one on one."

Wennid let a small sigh of relief pass her lips. At one time, it would have been Lestan who answered that challenge. Nowadays, it might be Jessan.. but even she realized he’d let his skills slip recently and wasn’t up to it. "So.." she said, glancing up at her bondmate. "Even though we can’t take him individually, can his clan take on all of us?" The us was her concession to joining the debate – she was no warrior.

Lestan walked slowly around in a small circle, pacing thoughtfully. "Maybe. I don’t know." He looked around the room. "We try to be a peaceful clan, he doesn’t pretend to that. He trains and drills his fighters year round, all the time. They have an edge."

Warrin grunted. "A big one. We can’t win." Not pessimistic, but just truthful, as they all had come to depend on his advice being. His shadowed eyes scanned them. "My vote goes to backing down."

A terrible thing, to hear from one of their kind. But from Warrin, they heard it, knowing it wasn’t fear that drove him. Fear of death was the least of his worries, bringing him one step closer to reuniting with his long lost lifebond.

Lestan winced. He knew Warrin was probably right.. but it galled the tall forest dweller, and started a sick feeling down deep in the pit of his stomach. "I’ll think about all the options." He finally said, with a heavy sigh. "We have a few days yet."

Brennan gave him a dour look. "Why don’t you ask our guest for advice." He spoke up, bluntly. "I’m sure her thoughts would be worth having."

Warrin slammed a hand against the table. "We don’t involve humans in our affairs, Brennan."

Lestan chewed his lip. He really wanted to ask Xena for her advice, especially now, but… if he had to break his treaty with Hectator, where would she see her duty lying? She was a fair person.. he believed that, but.. "No, it’s too delicate to involve her." He commented, giving Warrin a nod. "But if it comes down to the fighting, I’ll be glad of her sword at my side."

"Are you sure that’s where it would be?" Warrin asked, raising one pale eyebrow at him.

Lestan and Wennid looked at him, and spoke in unison. "Yes." And looked at each other in some surprise. Then Lestan’s mind presented him with a sudden image of himself, down and hurt on the battlefield, and a tall, dark haired woman fighter standing over him, holding off uncounted numbers of crack troops with a skill he’d never seen matched. Nor, he suspected, ever would.

I can’t even ask her.. His mind whirled. And yet.. and yet..Could she? No.. he sighed to himself. She’s injured, and it’s not her fight. Mores the pity.. it’s not the first time I wished her born into my clan. "Warrin, I know you hate the humans – but just as we damn them for judging us for what we seem to be, don’t judge all of them based on past experience." He gazed thoughtfully at the rough hewn table surface. "She’s an honorable person. I like her. "

Brennan rolled his eyes. "Lestan, in case it escaped your notice, most of us also like her." Boyo.. his mind chortled. Most of us would gladly lay our swords at her feet, including me. "I think you’re wrong in not asking her. I don’t’ know what you’re so ashamed of – you think the warlord who ran half of Greece is going to be surprised at interclan squabbling?"

Lestan felt Wennid’s hand on his own, and looked down at her. "What do you think, love?" He asked quietly, gazing deep into her burnished eyes with his own, and feeling their link as a low, deep river of emotion lying just beneath their golden furred exteriors.

Wennid sighed. "You know I am not enamored of her. " Her eyes flicked over the room. "And I know you’re concerned with whose side she’ll take if our treaty with Hectator is broken." She stood, and stretched her body, and shrugged. "But, my heart tells me that she will be a part of this before we’re through, and it behooves us to get the best advice we can." She dusted her hands off. "She’s an expert. Get her expert advice." Not looking at Warrin, who she’d had this argument with a short while earlier.

Lestan grunted. "As I said, I’ll consider all the options. We’re done here. Keep the guard up, and pass the word to the northern outposts to keep their eyes open. "

He waited until they’d all filed out, then regarded Warrin with a gentle wistfulness. "Listen.. I know.."

"No, you don’t." Warrin replied, in a remote voice. "No one does. And I don’t want those humans knowing our gift. I don’t care how much you like them. It dishonors the memory of all of us that have gone before." He stood up, and left the room without a backward glance.

"Well." Lestan sighed. "So much for that." He circled his big arms around Wennid. "And thank you for speaking what was in my heart, love."

Wennid smiled, and relaxed her body, melding into his in a warm cloud of tangled fur. "I hope she gives you good advice, Lesi."

He sighed. "I hope so too. She’s having a lunch with Jessan.. I’ll search her out after that. "

The four of them walked slowly down a shaded path towards the stream, away from the quiet bustle of the village. The path sloped down slightly, and was overgrown with tall trees, providing a canopy that blocked the sun from penetrating, and made the walk a cool journey.

"Nice." Gabrielle sighed, giving Xena a sideways glance. "You doing OK?" Her eyes took in the preoccupied look in her partner’s eyes with some concern.

Xena tilted her head down and smiled. "Yep." She reassured the bard. "Just thinking." She glanced ahead to where Jessan and Elaini were padding along next to each other in relative silence. "Got any ideas for that, yet?" Her head nodded towards the two forest dwellers.

Gabrielle chuckled, and linked her arm through the warrior’s. "Actually, I was hoping you did.. you’re better at that sort of thing than I am."

Got a two raised eyebrow look for that. "What?" Xena snorted. "I don’t think so, my meddling bardic friend."

"Right." Gabrielle retorted. "This from the woman who managed to single handedly solve all of Potadeia’s problems in less than a week. Uh huh." She glanced at Xena’s face, and saw the twinkle in her eyes. "Busted." She chortled, and bumped against her gently.

"See what I can do." The warrior relented, and freed her arm, settling it over Gabrielle’s shoulders and pulling her closer. For someone who doesn’t like public displays of affection.. Her mind teased her.You’ve become quite a mushball, know that? But her body craved the contact, and she was in no mood to argue with herself today.

Gabrielle wound a supportive arm around her, and returned the hug, smiling quietly to herself. Boy, has that ever changed, she reflected. When they’d first started travelling together, she’d had to be really careful about touching Xena. The warrior was as jumpy as a cat in the rain, and even the few times she’d slipped and grabbed an arm, she’d plainly seen the effort it had taken for Xena not to react by slamming her against something

And she could hardly help herself.. she remembered with a rueful smile. Touching was an important part of how she related to other people. She’d practically had to sit on her hands not to reach out with a friendly pat, a hug, a squeeze.. especially when things weren’t going so good, and she’d learned enough about her traveling companion to see when pain, or exhaustion was weighing heavily on those broad shoulders.

Then, one night around the fire, it had become unbearable. It had been one of the longest, worst days they’d had in a long time. Two villages burned to the ground, and a third half destroyed before they had caught up with the warlord’s pillaging troops, and had stopped them, but gods, there had been a lot of them, and they had been good, and it had taken just about all of Xena’s strength, and ferocity to defeat them.

They’d hurt her, Gabrielle knew. She could see it in the warrior’s stiff movements, and in the shadowed eyes she kept focused on the dimly moving fire after they’d eaten a mostly silent dinner and the bard had settled down with her scrolls on her bedroll.

But the scrolls remained empty, as she watched Xena’s tense face in profile instead. Finally, unable to stand it any longer, she quietly rose and walked up behind the warrior, forgetting the warning, forgetting… everything.. and dropped her hands to the knotted shoulders, feeling muscles like iron bands under her probing fingers.

Expecting.. she didn’t know what. To be thrown across the campsite, probably. To be yelled at, definitely. Probably not to even have an effect, since her hands weren’t that strong.

She never was sure, afterward, which one of them was more surprised when not only didn’t she get tossed on her rear, but Xena hadn’t reacted at all. Not a twitch, when Gabrielle had always seen the flinch on contact when she’d touched her before. The tanned skin had felt smooth and warm under her hands, and she’d felt the tension melt out of the stiff muscles, as Xena submitted to the gentle pressure and let her head drop forward and rest against her forearm, which was propped against her raised knee.

Gabrielle had let her hands lay in stillness for a long moment after she’d finished, quietly absorbing the warm feeling the contact was stirring in her. Xena had taken and released a deep breath, and tilted her dark head to regard her companion with a half grin. "Guess I was more tired that I thought. You got lucky."

"Sorry.. I just…" The bard had shrugged helplessly, and given Xena a sheepish grin. "You looked so.. " She stopped and just shook her head. "Sorry."

And Xena had regarded her with a quietly grateful expression. "Don’t be. That felt really good. Thanks."

Gabrielle wondered, after, if that wasn’t the start of everything.. really. Because after that, the warrior never flinched at her touch, and the bard had started to relax her constant need to make sure she didn’t just reach out and put a hand on the woman. Now look at us. Gabrielle giggled to herself, as she tightened her hold.

"Here’s the place." Jessan’s voice interrupted her thoughts, and Gabrielle looked up in surprised pleasure at the pretty little glade he’d led them to. It was surrounded on three sides by towering trees, and bordered on its fourth side by a chuckling tributary to the main stream that provided water to the village.

The mossy ground beneath their feet was soft and springy, and Elaini flopped down with a grin of evident delight. "Nice choice, Jess." She nodded approvingly at him, as he seated himself more decorously nearby.

Gabrielle plunked the basket down and knelt, running her fingers through the soft mossy turf. "This is great." She grinned, giving Xena a sideways glance. "Right?"

"Right." The warrior agreed amiably, as she lowered herself to the ground and relaxed into a reclining position propped on one elbow.

They unpacked the basket, and settled down to lunch, making idle small talk until they’d each gotten a trencher full of food, and leaned back against the warm rocks clustered in the glade.

"So." Elaini mumbled, around a mouthful of food. " Tell me about the 200 people you fought off to save Lestan." Her eyes focused with interest on Xena, who snorted and shook her head.

But Gabrielle just grinned, and was off, telling the entire story of their meeting with Jessan and the events that followed with cheerful enthusiasm, pausing frequently to assemble and chew her food, and make sure Xena was doing the same.

"Here." She handed the warrior a large pear, glaring at her until she took it and started nibbling. "Anyway, where was I?? Oh yeah.. so, we get to Cirron, and.."

Xena leaned back, and let the words run over her, focusing instead on the warmth of the sun that was laying on her like a blanket, and whose rich light was bringing out the golden highlights in Gabrielle’s hair, and the forest dweller’s layered coats.

The lunch had made her feel a lot better, which really wasn’t surprising considering that her body had a lot of rebuilding to do, and needed fuel to do it with. Gabrielle had determinedly chosen items she knew Xena really liked and had badgered her until she’d consumed what the bard thought was sufficient.

So the warrior was pleasantly stuffed, to he point where it was making her a touch sleepy, and she stretched out at full length on the turf, one hand resting on the drowsing Ares, the other propping her head up. Imp. She thought, watching the bard’s graceful hands describing the battle at Cirron. Her mind drifted lazily back to their conversation on the porch, and she mentally shook her head. Gabrielle… do you know what you’re saying? To spend an eternity in torment just.. to be with this beat up ex warlord. Her eyes traced the bard’s profile in loving detail. I’m not sure I can let you do that, love.. but the thought that you’re willing to.. oh Gods, Gabrielle.

Question is.. do I keep going, and hope I can do this as well as I do, for long enough to make up for the last 10 years? What are the chances of that, I wonder? I’ve died once already this year, and came close.. I don’t want to think about how many times. And she’s come close, too. The guilt of that thought settled over her as it always did. What happens the one time I’m just not fast enough to stop that? We’ve been lucky.. don’t know if I want to trust our luck much more.

"No way!’ Elaini laughed, slapping her furred thigh. "I don’t believe it."

Xena realized all eyes were on her. "What?" She inquired, raising an eyebrow.

"You catch fish with your bare hands?" Elaini demanded, crossing her arms. "Sorry, Xena, I know you’re amazing and all that, but…"

The warrior sighed, and gave Ares a pat. "OK.. OK.." She put both hands on the grass, and pushed up, getting her feet under her and standing with a lazy stretch. "I can see I’m going to have to prove this." She slipped out of her soft indoor boots and padded towards the creek before they could say a word.

"Wait.. " Gabrielle laughed, getting to her feet and trotting after the warrior. "Xena…"

The creek was fairly narrow, and fairly fast running, and the vibrant chill contrasted strongly with the warm sun on her shoulders as Xena waded into the water, cheerfully ignoring Gabrielle’s protests. "Shh." She gave the bard a look, then waded deeper, and tilted her head, listening.

Turning out the sound of the wind in the trees, and the bird sounds, and the rustling of the river grass on the bank. Listening to the rhythm of the water, as the fast running stream flowed past her, and detecting its pattern. Finding the out of pattern watery chuckles, and concentrating, hearing them closer, and closer, and now, only, looking down into the dappled water.

Saw the reflection of the sun’s rays against something that wasn’t rock, and wasn’t leaves, and she went very still, letting her stance deepen into a crouch, and becoming part of the stream, her body creating a shadow that the fish found intriguing. So he lazily swam into the shadow, and peered around, looking for his next meal.

And found himself grabbed by the gills, in a movement faster than his eyes could detect, and lifted out of his world and into the sunlight.

"There." Xena said, raising her hand, and displaying her catch, a very large fresh water trout, to both forest dwellers, who were now standing on the creek bank watching in fascination.

"All right.. all right. "Jessan said, glancing at Elaini’s markedly interested face. "Show me how to do that." He waded in the creek, hearing Elaini’s gasp and grinning. He could swim, unlike the balance of his clan, having been taught by the dark haired woman standing in thigh deep water in front of him. "Well?"

"With all the noise you just made, you expect the fish to hang around?" Xena asked, arching an eyebrow. Her eyes glinted. "Here." She said, casually flipping the fish towards him.

"Hey!" The forest dweller yelped, catching the struggling fish, and trying to control it’s erratic movements. "Whoa!" He hollered, as the fish got partially loose, and smacked him the face. "Yow!" His feet slid out from under him on the slick creek floor, and he landed on his back in the cold water.

Came up spitting riverweed, with one long stalk poking from behind one draggled ear, trying manfully to ignore the wild giggles from Gabrielle and the corresponding deeper laughter from Elaini.

"You said you wanted to catch a fish." Xena commented, a devilish look in her blue eyes.
"Didn’t say it had to be in the water."

Jessan narrowed his golden eyes, and, forgetting her recent injuries, lunged at her from his sitting position, wrapping his long arms around her linen clad body and taking them both into deeper water, holding on until she started tickling his ribs, and he let go with a high pitched howl. "Hey! Cut that out!!" He gasped, as they surfaced, and Xena tossed her head to get the dark hair out of her eyes.

Then he remembered. "Gods.. are you OK? I forgot…" He moved towards her clumsily, relaxing when she waved him off.

"Yeah.. fine. Don’t worry about it." Xena laughed, and laid back in the cold clear water, attempting to float. And failing miserably, as usual. She glanced up at Jessan, who was practicing his swimming. "Not bad." She cast her eyes over to the shore, where Elani was anxiously watching, up to her ankles in water. "Why not show your healer friend how to swim?"

Jessan gazed at her, golden head cocked to one side. "Swim. Teach. Elaini?"

"Got the essentials." Xena muttered, flipping over and swimming towards him with lazy overhand strokes. "Sure.. why not?" She reached Jessan’s side, and poked him. "G’wan."

"But.." The forest dweller hesitated. "I mean.."

Got him another poke.

"She doesn’t want to." He hissed at her, darting a glance towards the shore.

A raised eyebrow, and a slow, feral grin. "You didn’t want to either."

He sighed. "All right, I’ll try." Shaking his head, he sloshed towards the shore.

"Uh.." Elaini said, tiptoeing back out of the water. "No.. really.. uhm… I have… things.. no, really.."

Bumping into Gabrielle who suddenly was standing in back of her. "Hi." The bard said, putting a firm hand on her shoulder. "You should try it. Really.. it’s a lot of fun."

"Well.. uh no, no thanks, Gabrielle, really." Elaini stammered, but didn’t retreat any further. "I don’t.. Jessan, what are you doing?" The tall forest dweller had climbed out of the water, and was approaching her.

"It’s not hard." Jessan said, soothingly. "it’s really nice.. you can feel the life in the water all around you, Elaini."

They looked at each other, with an understanding common only to their kind.

"Xena taught me.. just like she taught me lots of other things" Jessan’s eyes softened. "I’d like to teach you."

Elaini gazed at him, noticing for the first time just how the light sparkled in his eyes. "Oh." She breathed. "I guess I could try. A little."

Xena pulled herself through the water, until she reached the side, where Gabrielle was seated on a rock dabbling her feet in the water. They both watched as Jessan carefully took Elaini’s hand, and led her into the stream, grinning a little at her gasp of surprise at the coldness of the water.

"Nice plan." Gabrielle whispered, giving the dark hair close at hand a gentle tug.

‘Thanks. I thought so." Xena deadpanned, splashing her with a handful of water.

"Cut that out." The bard warned. "Or else."

Xena reached one hand out of the water, and closed her fingers around Gabrielle’s arm. "Or else what." She asked, letting a slow grin cross her face.

"Uh… well, let’s see.. " Gabrielle thought furiously. "Why can’t I ever come up with some clever thing to say to keep you from throwing me in the water?" she finally finished, exasperation coloring her tone.

"Try ‘please don’t’.’’ Xena replied, taking her hand away and letting her body sink into the cool running water. She watched Jessan coaxing Elaini step by step into the deeper water, and smiled.

Felt a gentle hand run its fingers through her damp hair, and turned her head, to gaze up at the bard’s face. "What’s up?"

"I love you." Gabrielle responded unexpectedly, tracing one finger across the warrior’s cheekbone, and down the sharp line of her jaw. "That's all."

That got a grin from Xena. "And look. I’m already all wet. " Gabrielle blushed. "So it’s safe for me to say I love you right back, right?"

"Right." The bard sighed happily.

Xena stood up, and let the water drain off her body. "Think I need to dry off." She said, with a rueful grin. "Care to join me?"

They walked up the bank, to a sunny spot overlooking the creek, and settled down, watching the swimming lesson with mutually amused eyes.

"Think we did our job?" Gabrielle asked, reclining next to her partner.

"Mmm." Xena mumbled, soaking in the sun, which was rapidly drying her tunic and warming her through. "Sure." She opened one eye. "Right."

Gabrielle chuckled, and pulled the basket closer, reaching inside and removing a few of the nut and honey balls. "Open wide." She teased, and got the expected look in return. With a grin, she popped a morsel into the warrior’s mouth, and watched her chew and swallow. "Like?"

Xena let the stuff slide down her throat and made a humming noise. "Mmm..hmmm.." Her eyes twinkled, and Gabrielle produced a second confection, then more, until she’d finished them all.

This is a bad idea. She tried to tell herself. If I do go home, between her and mother, I’m gonna be in a world of trouble. And she tried to feel concerned about that, but the concern kept sliding away from her, washed away by the warm sun, and the cool breeze stirring her now drying hair, and Gabrielle’s nearby presence.

"Pretty day." Gabrielle sighed, as she resumed her relaxed position at Xena’s side, idly pulling out the folds of the warrior’s damp tunic to better catch the sun. She grinned as she saw Xena’s eyes drifting shut, and watched her partner try to fight it. No no.. my friend. That’s your body telling you it needs rest to heal, even this bard knows that. She moved a little closer, and slid a hand through the loosened openings in the fabric covering Xena’s chest, finding her skin cool to the touch from the water. "Nice breeze." She commented softly, letting her fingers move across the ribbed abdominal muscles in a gentle pattern. That’s it.. she mentally chuckled, as the blue eyes blinked sleepily, then slid closed.

Xena felt her awareness slip as an insidious drowsiness crept up on her, weighing her eyelids down with an almost irresistible force. The sounds of the meadow sharpened as her other senses relaxed, and she spent a long moment listening to the combination of sounds that made up the area.

A gentle thump as a rabbit sensed their presence. The rolling crack of the wood bird making its nest.

I shouldn’t drift off like this. A token protest, but Gabrielle’s warm body was now nestling closer, and the bards fingers were tracing gentle patterns under the fabric of her tunic, that were pulling the warrior deeper and deeper into sleep. Guess I was more tired than I thought..

And a sound penetrated her warm golden haze. A sound that sharpened her senses, and brought her sitting upright so quickly, she nearly bowled over Gabrielle.

"What is it?" The bard whispered, seeing the tense, listening attitude.

"Someone’s calling for help." Xena breathed, and hauled herself up, moving Ares out of the way with a gentle nudge, and turning her head to determine what direction the call was coming from.

"You hear that?" She called to Jessan, who paused in his instruction, and cocked his head. "Sounds like someone calling for help."

Both forest dwellers strained their ears, but it was long minutes before the voice came again, and it was closer, and more desperate.

"Please.. someone .. anyone. Help us.." The voice called, from the woods to their north.

"Damn. " Xena cursed, leaning forward and breaking into a run down the near side of the creek. A wave of dizziness momentarily blurred her vision. No time for that now. She grimly told herself, shaking her head to clear it, and kept moving, aware of Gabrielle’s following steps, and the splashing as Jessan and Elaini pulled themselves up out of the water and started in pursuit.

The warrior headed up the well-beaten path next to the creek, listening hard for the cries, and heard them. Heard panic now in the tone, and felt her body responding with an additional burst of speed as she rounded a bend of the stream and spotted the source.

Two forest dwellers, on the other side of the creek. One supporting the other, and even from here, Xena could see the crimson stain of blood stiffening their coats. She slowed momentarily, looking for a way across the water, then sighed, and headed diagonally across the path, straight for the edge of the bank.

Three long steps and she was airborne, diving into the water in a clean slice, and starting a strong pull towards the opposite shore, moving across the current with skillful strokes.

Heard the splash as her companions followed, and put her head down to clear the last fast moving current, spotting a long branch extending out over the stream and, getting her feet firmly under her and on the shallow bottom, kicked off and launched herself towards it.

Felt her hands wrap automatically around the branch, and realized too late that her injuries were going to make this little trick particularly painful. The momentum saved her, and enabled her to use a twist of her shoulders to bring her body up and over the bank, and she let go of the branch, twisting in mid air and coming down jarringly hard with a jolt that sent a shock of pain all through her. Boy. That was stupid. Her mind spat in disgust, as she shook herself off, and started running towards the two forest dwellers again.

They were both very young, she realized, as she came up on them, and they stared at her with rounded golden eyes. "It’s all right. " she said, holding both hands out. "What happened?"

The paler of the two glanced nervously behind him, and dropped to the ground, easing his companion to the leaf littered floor gently. "It was a patrol.." He said, softly, cradling the other forest dweller’s head against his chest. "Just a little scrap, nothing.. but Ereth got cut.’

Xena knelt down next to the injured boy, and parted the fur with gentle fingers. Her eyes closed in reaction, and she took a deep breath. Cut. This wasn’t a cut, it was a mortal wound. Her mind supplied wearily. The gash had severed some of the arteries that carried blood around the boy’s body, and with each beat of his heart, a red gush pulsed out from the wound.

Damn. Her mind cursed, and she glanced over her shoulder, seeing Gabrielle about to make the swim over. "Hold on!" She yelled, wincing as her stomach muscles protested the effort needed to project her voice.

Gabrielle glanced up, and waited. "Need my kit!"

The bard nodded in understanding.

"Gabrielle.." She added, pausing as her partner hesitated. "Run!"

And the bard took off, balling her hands into fists, and starting back up the path as fast as she was able.

Reflexively, Xena’s hands went to the cut, and pressed, temporarily slowing the flow of blood, but Xena could see the paleness already etching a path around the forest dweller’s muzzle, and she knew his time was limited. Heavy breathing and footsteps told her of Jessan and Elaini’s arrival, and she looked over her shoulder as they came up on either side of her, and Elaini knelt down.

Pulled aside one of Xena’s hands, and saw the blood flow. Blue eyes and golden met, and Elani’s shoulders slumped in acknowledgment. She moved around to the injured boy’s companion, and took him by the arms.

"Gennen.." The boy looked up at her, and swallowed. "That’s a very bad cut." Her voice was gentle, and she held onto him like a child.

"No." He said softly, searching her face, then turning his pleading eyes to Xena. "No. please…" His arms tightened around Ereth.

Xena’s heart hurt looking at him. She glanced down at the injured boy, who blinked up at her slowly, with a quiet knowledge in his eyes. A faint smile twitched the blood stained lips, and he lifted a shaking hand and touched hers.

Jessan knelt down at her side, and put a hand on her leg. "Who did this, Gennen?" His golden eyes gently searched the boy’s face. "Was it one of Secan’s guard?"

The pale golden furred Gennen nodded, clasping his arms tighter around his companion. "Jessie, can you.." He looked down at Ereth, whose eyes were fluttering closed.

Jessan turned his head, and studied Xena’s profile, which was frozen in concentration as she tried to stem the flow of Ereth’s lifeblood from his body. "They’re lifemates." He said, quietly, in a voice so soft only her ears could hear it.

Knew she heard, from the sudden clamping of her jaw that made the muscles stand out sharply against her tanned skin.

They sat in an unnatural stillness, not speaking, until they finally heard pounding footsteps, and ragged breathing as Gabrielle flung her dripping wet form down at Xena’s side, and started pulling things out of the kit she’d brought.

"Gut, thin needle, hurry." The warrior murmured, watching as the bard focused her concentration on threading the needle, and then handed it to her. "Put your hands here."

Gabrielle put her hands where she was told, and held them, feeling the warm blood seep through her fingers. Watching Xena’s emotionless face as she worked with a speed she seldom had to employ, and working mostly by touch, managed to get the broken arteries tied off.

She took a breath, and closed her eyes, fighting off another dizzy spell. Damn.. where are those coming from, anyway? No time, Xena… no time. She reached down deep and went for her reserves, and her vision cleared. "Not much chance." She said, glancing at Elaini.

"Wouldn’t have even tried what you did so far." The healer answered honestly.

Xena nodded, and took a deep breath again, then willed her hands not to shake, and continued to work, sealing the gaping cut with agonizing precision.

Pausing for a moment, and watched in grateful approval as Gabrielle sprinkled the wound with healing herbs, and wiped the area down with a bit of linen dipped in cleanser. "Thanks." She said softly.

Gabrielle smiled grimly, and finished her work, then sat back on her heels and looked at Xena.

They were all looking at her, she realized, as she took the last stitch, and trimmed the raw skin and fur back away from the wound with her small knife. "OK." She sighed, resting her hands on her knees. "All I can do. Rest is up to him."

"Let’s wait a bit and see what happens." Elaini responded calmly, settling down next to Gennen and putting a comforting arm around him. Jessan sat down on the other side of the injured forest dweller, and put a hand on his shoulder, watching the shallow breathing.

"I think you need to sit down." Gabrielle’s voice uttered, near Xena’s left ear. "Come on."

"Hmm?" The warrior replied, looking at her. "Oh.. no, I’m OK." Liar. And she knows it. "On the other hand, we might have a long wait. So.. " She started to stand and realized that was a bad idea when her vision tunneled, and she felt a queasy buzzing in her ears. Then a pair of warm hands gripped her arm, and with a determined effort, she forced away the swimming darkness, and took several deep breaths. She blinked a few times, and Gabrielle’s concerned face came in to focus. "Sorry about that." She gave the bard a half grin.

"You’re scaring me." Gabrielle said quietly.

"It’s.. OK. " Xena sighed. "Not unexpected, given what happened, and the fact that I just did some things I probably shouldn’t have." She allowed Gabrielle to lead her over to a fallen log, and they both sat down and leaned back against it, watching the silent tableau in front of them.

"Are they.." Gabrielle whispered, tucking her arm through Xena’s.

Xena nodded, watching Gennen’s agonized face.

"No.. " The pale furred forest dweller was moaning softly. "Don’t leave me.. please.." He pleaded, as he rocked his lifemate gently. "You can't leave me all alone, Ereth, please.."

And the words catapulted Xena back to a memory she shied from always, which visited her in her dreams and made the worst of her nightmares. A healing temple in Thessaly, with war cascading around them and the smell of blood and death that soaked through the place like fog on a damp, cold morning.

Her lack of good judgment had led them there. Her damned sure knowledge that she always knew the right thing to do.

And at first, it seemed right - because her skills had saved lives, and taught lessons to healers more used to the odd farming accident and skin rash than to the savageries of war. And then one more in a long line of stretchers had come in, but the body on it had been achingly familiar.

Damn you, Gabrielle.. what were you thinking of, to run out there under fire, in the middle of a war? Thinking of someone else, as usual. But not yourself, and the blood on that pale face had almost taken Xena to her knees in disbelief. No… she hadn’t been prepared for that. She’d lifted the bard off the stretcher and taken care of her with hands that would have shook like a leaf, if she’d allowed them to.

And the bard had faced up to the horrible pain, and what she felt was coming with the clear eyed bravery that was so, so typical of her.

She had been dying, and that knowledge had ripped a hole inside Xena so large she could hardly stand to think about it. My fault. Kept running through her head, and made her so sick to her stomach that she couldn't bring herself to eat or drink, or even think straight.

Ephiny. Her face when Gabrielle called her over, and gave her rite of caste. "I won’t be needing it." She’d said, with sad sureness. And then, after Ephiny had left, their eyes had met, and she’d known her heart was there, wide open, for Gabrielle to see if she had a mind to.

They hadn’t said a word to each other, but what passed between them left Xena exhausted, and the bard with tears tracking down her face.

Two moments.. one bright, one dark - the birth of Ephiny’s centaur son, all limbs and squalling vigor, which brought a faint glad spark to her heart.

Then the sounds of choking, as Gabrielle went into convulsions and Xena felt, in a real sense, the better part of her world toppling.

She had grabbed the bard, and tried to stop the convulsions, and felt the horrible sinking drop of her stomach as she felt Gabrielle's breathing stop.

Then her heartbeat stop.

And an ex warlord, who had seen the deaths of thousands, and watched without emotion acts of war that would chill Ares himself, found that her heart could not withstand the death of a friend.

It shattered her composure, and she found herself babbling in panic at the healers, seeing the pity in their eyes at her useless attempts to regain a loss that was beginning to fill her with a roaring, unending darkness.

And in a lone single moment in the quiet of her soul, a silent plea had gone out that was powered with all the strength of her will, towards someone she’d just begun to know, and was stunned to realize she wasn’t capable of living without.

The plea was answered, and Gabrielle had turned willingly from the Elysian Fields and returned to a painful, anguished present, gasping for air, and clasping the shaking arms of that desperately relieved ex warlord, who had let tears fall unashamedly down her face, and cradled the dazed bard in her arms for what seemed like forever.

And afterward, she’d sat braced against the crumbling wall, in the semi darkness of the half-abandoned temple, just watching Gabrielle sleep. Not taking her eyes off that pale face for an instant, not even to trim the wick on the guttering candle by her side.

Thinking about all the things that had happened to them in the past year. About the good times, and the people they’d helped. About the bad times, and the sadness, and the pain they’d both gone through.

About how her feelings for Gabrielle had progressed from tolerance, to amused affection, to the warmth of friendship.

And now? She’d closed her eyes for a brief instant, then popped them open and focused them again on the bard’s face. And knowingly, consciously, took the long closed locks off her heart, and admitted to herself that she’d broken one of her most strongly held rules.

She’d fallen in love.

With someone who, for her own good, she hoped would never find that out.

But that night she had just sat there, in the gathering darkness, and had been glad that their friendship had been strong enough to draw the bard back. The shadowy emptiness she knew was coming when Gabrielle tired of her life on the road and left to settle somewhere had been postponed. And for right now, that was enough.

She felt a hand on her forehead, and opened her eyes, gazing at Gabrielle’s face with grateful appreciation. "Hey."

"Oh.. OK." Gabrielle said, removing her hand, and brushing the warrior’s cheek with her knuckles. "You looked a little out of it there." A shiver passed through her, as the cool wind dried the damp fabric around her body, and she huddled a little closer to Xena.

"No cold bards." Xena said, shifting and putting both arms around her. "I was just thinking, that’s all." She hugged Gabrielle hard, and didn’t let go for a long, long moment, which she spent with her face buried in the bard’s hair, just breathing in her familiar scent. Finally she raised her head and whispered in the nearby ear. "Thanks."

"For what?" Gabrielle asked, as she snuggled closer. Wonder what that was all about…

"Just for being here." Came the surprising answer, as Xena let her chin rest on the bard’s damp head, and watched the forest dwellers in their vigil.

"No place else I’d wanna be." Gabrielle sighed, feeling the warmth of the hug begin to penetrate her chilled body. "Mmm.. that feels really good." She laid her head down on Xena’s shoulder.

The late afternoon sunlight cleared the surrounding treetops on it’s journey to sunset, sending rich yellow stripes of warmth over them, and bathing the forest dwellers in a golden pool. Jessan and Elaini sat motionless, supporting the traumatized Gellen, and watching the unconscious Ereth’s faintly moving chest. The injured boy seemed on the edge of leaving this life, with his shallow breathing and bloodless features. But the will to live still held him, and the breathing, though slight, was steady.

They waited a long time, until finally Elaini reached down, and checked the faint thready pulse, and looked up at Jessan. "We’ll need a stretcher." She said calmly, and the tension seemed to flow out of him like water.

Jessan rose, and dusted his trousers off, laying his hand on Gellen’s bowed head. "Steady, my friend. We’ll bring you both home." He turned and padded over to where Xena and Gabrielle were quietly waiting, and crouched down by them. "Xena… you’ve given him a chance." His lips curled into a smile, and he laid his hand on her arm. "Thank you." Thank you, my human friend, who teaches me again, and again how few differences there really are between us. ‘I’m going to get some help to get him home." His eyes searched hers. "Do you need.." Help? And she’ll say no. Just like one of us.

Xena shook her head. "Nope. I’ll be fine." She kept up her steady stare, and dared him to disagree. I got here on my own, I’ll get back. But she had to chuckle at herself. Stubborn old mule.

Gabrielle studied her face, noting the returned color, and the more normal alert look about her eyes, and decided not to call her on it. She gave Jessan a wink, and noted the twitch of his lips in reply. "We’ll wait for you to get back, Jess."

Xena nodded. "Don’t want to leave these guys unprotected." A matter-of-fact statement that obliquely reminded Jessan, again, of what she was. Even now, even injured, and at reduced capacity, she was dangerous. More so than most of his kind would be.

"I feel better knowing that." He said, and meant it. "Take care." And with a pat on the arm, he stood and loped down the path next to the creek, moving in and out of the patterned bars of sunlight filtering through the trees.

Continued in Part 4

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Bound – Part 4

By Melissa Good

For DISCLAIMERS see Part 1.

Xena watched the sun creep lower and lower in the sky, spreading broad bands of reddening light across the small clearing they were sitting in. She looked up as Gabrielle returned from a trip to the creek, bearing a folded scrap of linen, and a full waterskin.

"Give me your hands." The bard said quietly, as she resumed her seat, and poured some water on the linen.

"You don’t…" Xena started, then stopped, and moved her blood-stained hands off her lap and over the grass towards her partner. She watched in silence as Gabrielle carefully cleaned all the blood off, making sure she got between all the warrior’s long fingers, and all the way up her muscular forearms. "Thanks." She murmured, when the bard was finished, giving her a little smile. "That feels a lot better."

"No problem." Gabrielle responded, handing her the waterskin. "You look thirsty." She waited for and got the amused look from the warrior. "Yeah, yeah, I know. Drink anyway."

Xena chuckled, and pulling the stopper out of the waterskin, did so. "Glad you thought to bring this with you on the way back." She commented, after a long drink.

The bard grinned. "Injuries required the medical kit and water. You drilled that into me, remember?" she settled back, pressing her shoulder against Xena’s and regarded the scene in front of her with a quiet sigh. "Wasn’t the ending I’d hoped for."

Elani had straightened out Ereth’s crumpled limbs, and made the unconscious boy more comfortable. She had coaxed Gennen into changing his cramped position, for one with his lifemates head cradled in his lap. Gennen had his eyes closed, and seemed to be whispering to his fallen companion. "Is he…" The bard whispered, knowing only Xena’s acute hearing would pick her voice up.

The warrior sighed, and settled a long arm around Gabrielle’s shoulders. "I don’t know." She muttered, bringing their heads closer together. "He lost a lot of blood." She glanced up and over the bard’s head. "Here comes the stretcher." Suddenly she laughed. "Gods… look at that."

The forest dwellers were fording the creek, carrying the litter, and perched on top, small paws braced against the movement was Ares.

"Roo!!" He snorted, when his eyes fell on them. "Roo!!!" He scrambled down off the stretcher, and lolloped over to them, tripping over his paws in haste.

"Hello, boy." Xena said, ruffling his fur. "Did we leave you back there all alone? Sorry bout that." He crawled up her chest, and put his fuzzy muzzle up next to her mouth. "Hey.. cut that out."

"Grr." The wolf protested, and proceeded to lick her face.

"Ares." Xena sighed, rolling her eyes, very much aware of the snickering bard at her side. "Enough." She scowled at him, and started to get to her feet, aware of the sudden pressure of Gabrielle’s firm grasp on her arm in support.

Was really glad of it when the world around her abruptly dimmed as she stood and only that grip kept her from crashing back to the ground. "Damn." She muttered under her breath, closing her eyes and willing her head to stop spinning. After a minute it did, and she reopened her eyes and let them focus on Gabrielle’s very concerned face. "OK." She gave her head a slight shake, feeling a twinge in the back of her neck that worried her. "Better."

"You’re going back to bed when we get to the village." The bard said, giving her a direct stare.

Xena grinned. "Ok.. as long as you join me." With a twinkle, that got a grudging return smile from Gabrielle. "That’s better." As she patted the bard’s cheek.

The forest dwellers made fast work of loading Ereth carefully onto the litter, and, Xena was interested to note settled Gennen next to him.

"They did that for us, too." Gabrielle whispered in her ear, as they followed the procession back towards the village.

"I don’t.." Xena started to say, then fell silent for a moment. "Oh, wait. Yes I do. I remember waking up at one point." She smiled. "I remember you being there."

Gabrielle grinned. "Yep.. I sure was." She gave Xena a sideways look. "I guess It was my turn to take care of you for a change."

Xena raised an eyebrow at her, and lifted a hand to brush the errant strands of red gold hair from her eyes. "You always do a good job of that, love."

"Do I?" Gabrielle sighed. "Never seems that way." Her brows furrowed.

Xena stopped, right in the middle of the path, and took hold of Gabrielle’s upper arm, causing the bard to swing around and face her. "What?" The warrior said bluntly, giving her a very direct stare. "What is that supposed to mean?"

Gabrielle closed her eyes. Damn, you and your big mouth, Gabrielle. Why can’t you learn to think before you talk? "Nothing.. never mind. I wasn’t… just forget it." Knowing full well that wasn’t going to happen. "Just… forget it."

Xena didn’t answer, just kept looking at her, with a gentle sadness in her eyes.

"I wasn’t.." Gabrielle sighed, having no defenses left against that look. "Sorry.. that trip up the mountain after you got hurt that last time still… " She hesitated. "There should have been something more I could have done." And that was a demon she’d never quite exorcised, having gone so far, given so much effort, to no good end.

Xena glanced over the bard’s shoulder, at the retreating forest dwellers, and dismissed them from her thoughts. "Look, Gabrielle – that wasn’t your fault. None of it was.. gods, you spent days, injured yourself, getting up that mountain. It’s not your fault I decided…" Now here, she stopped. "Gods. " Not your fault I decided to just give up. Not your fault at all.

"You would have found a way to make things right. " Gabrielle whispered, staring sightlessly over the warrior’s tall shoulder. "You always do. I just can’t measure up to that." She lifted her sea green eyes up, and flinchingly made contact with Xena’s intense look. "I’m so scared I’m going to fail you again."

The warrior wrapped her hands around Gabrielle’s face, and just looked at her for a very long moment. "Gabrielle.." she breathed, letting a faint smile twitch her lips. "Don’t you know that’s my biggest fear too?" She took a breath. "That one day there’ll be an arrow I can’t stop, a fall I can’t catch.. that I’ll fall short in your eyes?" She moved closer, and felt Gabrielle’s arms come up on reflex, settling about her waist. "I think we’re both in pretty good hands."

Long silence, while Gabrielle chewed on that, and finally ducked her head against Xena’s chest and breathed in the scent of the sun-dried fabric. "You think so, huh?"

"Yep, I do." Xena replied. "I feel very safe in yours.’

Green eyes blinked up at her with a tiny smile. "Really?"

Xena nodded, and kissed her forehead. "Really. You’re a very resourceful person, my bard. I would trust my fate to you anytime."

"Roo!" Ares sighed, from his seated position at Xena’s left boot. He nuzzled her calf, and tugged on a bit of the leather. "Roo?"

They both looked down, and laughed. "Boring you, Ares?" Xena asked, not letting go of Gabrielle.

"Roo." The puppy grumbled, settling down on his haunches and chewing a bootlace of Xena’s.

"Yeah.." Gabrielle softly agreed, feeling a surprising warmth flood through her. I know I was being a little insecure.. funny, after all this time, I thought I was over that.. but it was really nice to hear her say.. "Sorry I got all goofy on you. This whole thing kind of threw me for a loop."

Xena chuckled wryly. "Me too." She let her forearms drop to Gabrielle’s shoulders, and laced her fingers neatly behind the bard’s head. "Let’s go.. I don’t know about you, but it’s been a pretty long day for me." Admitting finally, grudgingly, that she was no where near up to her usual physical condition.

Gabrielle sobered immediately, knowing the admission for what it was. "OK – they moved us over to a quiet spot near Jessan’s place. Unless you need to go back to the healer’s.." A question in her voice.

"Nah." Came the reply. "Just need a warm bed, and you."

"Oh really?’ Gabrielle giggled. "Is that an invitation?"

"Uh huh." Xena responded, then ducked her head and captured Gabrielle’s lips in a long kiss. "Interested?" She asked, when they paused, and she felt the bard’s hands starting to wander across her body. "Guess so." She laughed lightly, tracing a finger down Gabrielle’s neck, and feeling her swallow hard. Feeling the racing pulse against her sensitive fingertips as they paused above her jugular.

Then her own breathing caught, as Gabrielle’s warm hands slid under her tunic, and began to move up her ribcage, her thumbs sliding gently over the taut muscles. "Gabrielle.."

"Mmm?" The bard responded, moving closer.

"In a forest surrounded by potential enemies is not the best place I could think of for doing this." The warrior reminded her with a quirky grin.

"Hey." Gabrielle giggled. "You started it." But she removed her hands reluctantly, and settled an arm around Xena’s waist. "But I guess you’re right."

"He’s sure it was Secan’s patrol?" Lestan asked, with a sigh. "Ares’ boots." He glanced at his son, who was perched on a corner of the table, arms crossed on his golden furred chest.

Jessan nodded, and shook his head. "Poor kids." He turned as Wennid entered the conference room, bearing a tray with large mugs on it. "Thanks mom." He said, as he took a steaming mug from her.

Wennid handed Lestan a mug, and took the third. "Elaini says he’s got a chance." She looked at them both. "Not a good one, but a chance." She stretched wearily. "I’m going to spend some time over there, in case." She turned to Jessan. "Elaini says he wouldn’t even have this chance if it wasn’t for Xena. Is that true?"

Jessan smiled, and ducked his head. "You doubt Elaini’s word?" He countered, raising one bushy eyebrow. "Of course it’s true."

Wennid sat down in the end chair, and propped her chin up on her pale furred hands, glowering at him over the tops of her eyes. "Look I am very sorry I have a problem reconciling the butcher I remember torching a village in the next valley with this person you seem to have such a fondness for, Jessan." She took a long sip of mulled cider, and stared broodingly into the remaining depths. "But I’m adjusting. Now I have to somehow picture her as a healer. It’s a bit much, dear."

Lestan snorted, and dropped his hands on her shoulders. "Life is just an endless series of adjustments, my love." He looked up at his son. "So, is Elaini another convert to the Xena cult?"

Jessan grinned. "I think so." He blushed a little. "I taught her how to swim today."

Lestan and Wennid exchanged glances. "That was nice of you, dear." Wennid remarked, taking a long sip of cider. "We’d heard you were all out on a picnic."

The forest dweller leader grunted. "And a good thing, too, for Ereth." He reminded his lifemate.

Wennid sighed. "I know. I know." She glanced up at both of them. "All right.." She took a breath, and looked inside her heart. Can I forget what I saw?

A cold and misty morning, and she was hidden in the trees, watching the activity going on around the human village. It was primarily a herding community, rich in livestock and crops, but not much else, and no commerce to speak of.

Of a sudden, there was the thunder of hooves, and then the raiders were on them, kicking and clubbing, setting torch to the thatched roofs, and scattering the frantic herds of both people and animals. It had started as an attempt at intimidation, but the stubborn resistance of the villagers had angered the raiders, and blows and kicks had degenerated into the ruthless and irreversible biting of naked steel.

The blood had been terrible, Wennid remembered, as she peered through the thick black haze of the smoking huts, and saw the running, screaming forms that passed in and out of sight, followed by laughing raiders, who ran them down like animals.

Wennid had gagged in disgust, and turned away, but not before she spotted the galloping figure approaching the village, and found her eye drawn to it. A female human, on a golden horse, but armored and weaponed as well as any of the raiders. She rode down to join them with a ringing laugh, that still sounded in Wennid’s ears, even after time had passed.

She’d never forgotten that laugh, or that form, or the hiss of live steel as she’d drawn her sword and disappeared into the clouds of black smoke. But Wennid had heard the screaming that followed, and had seen the ruins of the village, after.

A long walk down to the silent, death fogged town, safe, because she was sure she was the only living thing within miles. Her Sight had told her so. The raiders had long gone.. she’d only stayed for a moment, just long enough to imprint in her mind the impression she knew would last her all her life.

And then.. in the midst of the remembering, details long fogged in her memory surfaced, and cleared. Dead bodies, there’d been, yes - but raiders as well as villagers, and the raiders had been butchered as thoroughly as their victims had been.

She wondered. Would villagers have been able to take perhaps a captured sword from a fallen raider and cause that kind of damage? Did the raiders turn on each other?

Or, her mind logically, and ruthlessly presented. Was that laughing female human she’d assumed was their leader actually nothing of the sort? What if.. instead.. she was an avenger, riding in with the joyous laughter that warriors of her own kind exhibited when they went to war.. which was a mentality she had never understood.

What if?

What if I’ve been wrong all this time.. though all of her atrocities cannot have been mistakes. She did evil things. She’s said so. But they say she’s changed. What if she really, truly has?

"I think I want to talk to this paragon of yours." Wennid mused, startling the both of them. I think I want to look into those odd, pale eyes you all seem to find so mesmerizing, and see what kind of person she really is. See why the gods seem to mock our gift in bestowing it there.. "Yes, I do."

Lestan shrugged, and lightly massaged her shoulders. "Wanted to go ask her about Secan myself.. why not come along?"

Jessan stood up, and put a hand out. "No."

They both looked at him like he had sprouted a tail. "What?" Lestan spluttered, "You.. this morning.. I thought.."

His son quickly moved around the table and put a hand on his arm. "Not yet. "

"Whyever not?" Lestan asked, reasonably. "Jessan, you’re not making sense."

"I know her." Jessan responded quietly. "She’s still hurting, bad, father - and if you talk to her about Secan, she’ll want to do something about it. And.. You said we had a few days yet. Wait."

Lestan studied him in silence for a moment. "I’m just asking for advice from her, son. She can’t get involved in this, and you know that well. Not shouldn’t. Can’t." Can’t for three reasons, his mind detailed. She wasn’t of his people. She wasn’t of his clan, and she was, deny it though many would, one half of a lifebond. "But… if you think I should, I’ll wait until tomorrow or so.. I know those were wicked wounds she took."

But part of him knew Jessan was right. Part of him knew that once he involved her, things might happen that he’d have no control over. Because he had no control over her, and she hunted by her own rules, stalked her own prey without regard to anyone’s traditions. Part of him was scared of that. But a greater part felt the under the skin thrill, that stood his fur partially on end and made him think things.. were possible. She did that. And it was an intoxicating feeling.

Xena liked the little cot they’d been offered a lot. It was in an alcove just off the main square, with open space around it, but still sheltered from most of the village’s bustle by a ring of peaceful oak trees that rustled pleasantly in the evening breeze. Inside, the cot was simply provided, but had wide windows, and the weave mats on the walls were dyed a soothing blue color that matched the fabrics of the bed, and the wide, low couch that faced the main window of the living area.

"I like blue." Xena commented, stripping out of her blood spattered and now once again damp tunic and donning a soft sleep shirt. She folded the tunic for later cleaning, and sat down on the wide couch, letting her head drop and rest against its back. Damn. She sighed inwardly. The dizzy spells hadn’t abated, and she was starting to get worried about it. Blood should have been replaced before now and…her hand reached back and touched the sore spot on her neck, where she could feel a faint uneasy pressure that she’d noticed this morning.

That hadn’t gone away, and now she wondered, as a cold chill traveled down her, if she hadn’t done more permanent damage to herself than she’d first thought. Injuries to her back frightened her –she’d only had one once, and that… had taken many moons to heal, and even more to regain full use of her body. This.. was not a good time for a repeat.

The fabric moved, as Gabrielle settled next to her and she looked up. "Hi." The bard announced. "I’m back." From the communal kitchen, where she’d gone to rustle up some dinner. "You look wiped. Wanna just sit back and let me feed you?"

Xena’s eyebrow rose. "That’s pretty decadent. Isn’t it?" But she was smiling, and dismissed her worries for a while, as she relaxed and allowed the bard to settled a trencher between them, holding a huge bowl of gently steaming stew, and a pile of fresh baked bread.

Ares trotted over, and scrambled up onto her lap, seating himself and looking from one face to the other expectantly.

"See what you created?" Gabrielle teased gently, as she went to work with alternating forkfuls delivered to herself and the warrior. "A monster."

"Mmm Hmm." Xena nodded, chewing thoughtfully on a chunk of venison. "Terrible." She swallowed, and took a sip of the fragrant cider the bard had brought. "That’s not bad." She complimented the mug, and held it up to Gabrielle’s mouth for a try.

"Ooo.." The bard sipped appreciatively. "Not bad at all." She speared another large piece of meat, and offered it to her partner. "Come on.. lots more to go here."

"Uh huh." Xena mumbled, biting the piece in half, and giving the other half to Ares. "Glad you brought plenty." She grinned at the bard’s expression. "Hey.. he’s gotta eat too, you know."

"Roo." Ares agreed, and flopped down on Xena’s lap, clutching his prize between his growing paws and chewing, looking up every so often to see if more was forthcoming.

Gabrielle kept up a steady stream of chatter while they ate, including the village gossip she’d picked up while getting dinner. "Rumors about Jess and Elaini already." She snickered, as she buttered the last slab of bread and took a bite, then offered the slice to Xena.

The warrior chuckled, and chewed her bread, noting with surprise that they’d about finished that huge portion of stew between them. "That was pretty good." She commented, then took the bowl from the trencher, and offered the remainder to Ares. "Here you go, boy."

The wolf stood up on Xena’s lap, and stuck his head in the bowl, tail waving enthusiastically, finishing the contents, licking out the bowl, then transferring his rough tongue to Xena’s hand, which was still holding the container. "Hey…" The warrior protested. "Cut that out."

Gabrielle finished off the bread, and sighed happily, moving the trencher out of the way, and snuggling close into Xena’s welcoming arms. "I feel much better now." She admitted, sliding her arms around the warrior’s body and putting her head down on the convenient shoulder.

"Me too." Xena agreed, and reflected that it was mostly true, anyway. Other than the soreness in her neck, everything else seemed to have worked itself out, and she wasn’t even suffering any stiffness from the day’s activities. So that was sort of OK. And as long as she didn’t stand up… her mouth quirked a little. Well… that could be arranged… "Now.." She said, leaning over and removing the last few breadcrumbs from Gabrielle’s lips with expert skill. "Where were we?"

A low, throaty laugh from the bard, who shifted her hands over Xena’s form. "Well, I was right here…" She grinned as she felt Xena react to her touch. "And I think you were… " A long pause as Xena’s lips found her place. "Oh yeah." Gabrielle breathed. "bullseye." She closed her eyes as she felt the sensual jolt caused by the pressure of the warrior’s fingertips against her sensitive skin. "Definitely nicer than standing out in a forest." She mumbled, then let the warm wave of passion take her.

Long habit brought Xena awake before dawn, and she spent some minutes just quietly listening to the gentle sounds of the sleeping village that wafted in the wide windows, along with the sweet scent of wild flowers and the distinctive smell of a light pre dawn rain.

I wish I felt as peaceful as this village sounds. Her mind mused. She glanced down as Gabrielle stirred, and tightened her hold, burrowing her head more securely into the hollow of Xena’s shoulder. In the darkness, she could just make out the bard’s profile, and she lifted a hand up to smooth the hair off her face, her touch bringing a faint smile to her sleeping partner.

The warrior sighed, and leaned her head back against the soft fabric cushions of the wide couch, where they’d decided just to snuggle into last night after they’d spent.. Xena grinned to herself. Quite some time relieving the stresses of the day. She winced as she felt the pressure still gnawing at her spine, though, and tried gently rotating her neck, stopping when a sharp pain jerked through her.

Damn. She turned her eyes to the dark ceiling, and blew out a long breath. That meant nothing but trouble, though in one sense it might make her decision easier. Based on her last experience with a back injury, this was definitely something that would require quite a bit of time off to recuperate from, and no question that home would be a good place to do it.

It’s not like you weren’t thinking of doing that anyway. She told herself. But to have the decision forced on her… that, she didn’t much like.

Ares raised a sleepy head, and yawned, blinking up at her. "Shh." She whispered to him. "No one’s awake." She let a hand rest on his back, and the puppy obediently tucked his muzzle back down between his paws, and closed his eyes. "Lazy thing." Xena chuckled under her breath.

Isn’t that what I’m afraid will happen to me if this forces me home? An honest appraisal. It would be so, so easy to go back there, and recover.. but the last time, she’d had bleak necessity driving her hard to push through the injury, and regain her conditioning. What about now?

Xena sighed. Now, she knew, she’d go home all right, and fall right back into the daily routine, and she’d let herself lose it all.. her sharpness, her skills.. because there would be no urgent reason for her to force herself to go through the pain it would take to recover them.

She just didn’t seem to have the self-discipline to do that anymore, she had known that after a fortnight spent lazing around with Gabrielle at home. She hadn’t done a single drill the whole time, and what was scarier.. she hadn’t missed them. At all. And that was a hard truth to take. Toris had teased her the last day she’d been there, about her losing her edge; and she’d dumped him in a mud hole, then thrown him in the spring to prove him wrong. But he hadn’t been. And she damn well knew it.

Question was, did she care?’

Xena laid her head back, and thought about that for a long time, listening as the balance started to shift between night and day, darkness and daylight. A long still moment, when the whole world seemed to be holding its breath, waiting for the first faint tint of color on the horizon.

She thought about how she felt about what she did. And who she was. And knew that her abilities were woven so tightly into her image of herself, she wasn’t sure what would be left if she let that unravel.

Yeah, I’d care. Xena admitted to herself. So. I guess I have to figure out just how bad this is, and what kind of limitations it’s gonna put on me. Maybe if I keep reminding myself just how much I hate being sick, I can get motivated to get past this.

"When you’re ready to talk about whatever’s bothering you," A quiet voice startled her. "You know where to find me, right? I’m the short, light haired one that talks a lot."

Xena felt a smile pulling at her lips against her will, and she glanced down to meet the sleepy green eyes that were peering up at her. The bard’s words echoed her own, not so long ago, in a clearing not far from Potadeia. "Hi." She temporized, reaching up and stroking Gabrielle’s soft hair. "I was just thinking."

"Bout what?" Gabrielle asked softly, as she snuggled closer, and molded her body against the warrior’s. "Please." Her eyes searched Xena’s and she put a hand up to touch her chest. "Don’t lock me out of there."

"Never." Xena said, taking a deep breath. "You know better." She paused for a moment. "One of those rocks apparently hit me in the wrong spot." She stopped, and watched Gabrielle’s face tense.

"Those dizzy spells." The bard realized, her hands clenching unconsciously in the fabric of Xena’s shirt.

The warrior nodded a little. "I think so." She shifted her shoulders uncomfortably. "I can feel this pressure in my neck." She lifted a hand and indicated the spot. "Hurts."

Gabrielle chewed on her lip for a short time. "What does that mean? Are you going to be OK?"

Xena laid her head back against the padded surface, and closed her eyes. "I don’t know." And that was one of the hardest things she’d ever had to say to her partner. "Depends on just how bad it is, and how hard I need to work to get it fixed."

The bard was silent for a moment. "You’re scared." She finally whispered.

"Yeah." Came the quiet answer out of the darkness.

Gabrielle let her hands start a gentle movement over the tense body she was wrapped around. "Why?" She asked, hearing the racing heartbeat under her ear. "You’ve been hurt before… gods, Xena, I hate it when you are, but you always…" She shrugged, and knew the warrior felt that. "just work through it." She glanced back up.

"I know." Xena sighed. "Maybe it was what we were talking about earlier. About going home.. this kind of hurt.. Hades, Gabrielle, the last time I got one like this it took nearly half a year for me to get over it."

The bard shrugged. "So.. we go home, for a while. You were talking about that anyway, right?" Her brow furrowed. "I don’t see…" Then she got a good look at Xena’s face. "You hadn’t made up your mind yet. Right?"

A slow shake of the head in response. "I don’t want this to make up my mind for me."

"What makes you think it would?" Gabrielle asked, reasonably.

"It just would." Xena answered, tangling her fingers idly in the bard’s hair, which was spilling gently across the warrior’s chest. "I don’t know if I can…get it all back this time." She paused and shrugged. "Or if I’d even want to."

The bard pulled herself up on her elbows, and moved up until she could look directly into Xena’s eyes. "What is going on with you?" She shook her head in confusion. "All the time I’ve known you, I’ve never seen you doubt yourself. Fate, life, other people, me.. but never yourself. What’s up?"

Xena let out a long held breath, and scrubbed her face with one hand. "I don’t know." She admitted wearily, leaving her hand over her eyes. "I.. really don’t know what’s wrong with me." She raked her fingers through her dark hair. "Sorry. I must be driving you crazy."

Gabrielle moved one hand up and gently stroked her partner’s cheek. "After you went through with me in Potadeia, don’t you dare think anything you could do would drive me anywhere, Xena." She paused. "Look… I think you.. went through a really bad thing.. something that nobody else I know could have gotten through." Her eyes glistened. "And I want you to know just how very very grateful I am that you had the strength and the will to keep going even when anybody else would have given up."

"I promised, remember?" Xena’s tone caressed the bard’s hearing, and it brought a smile to her face. ‘Damned if I was going to let a puny mountain make me break that promise."

Gabrielle nodded, and brought the warrior’s fingers up to her lips, and kissed them. "I know." She whispered. "But, " in a slightly louder tone. "I think it took a lot out of you." She lifted a hand and gently touched Xena’s forehead. "Here too." Saw Xena close her eyes in tacit confirmation. "And you need to just let yourself replenish all that."

"Think so?" Xena mused. She could be right. Took her eyes to see it, though.

"I think so." The bard confirmed, putting her head back down on Xena’s chest, and winding her arms around the warrior’s body for a fierce hug. "Look…" Her head came back up, and their eyes met. "I can’t pretend I don’t get knots inside when I watch you do some of the things you do.. but you get such joy out of them, Xena.. don’t give up on that."

"I don’t get…." Xena started to protest, then stopped, and fell silent. A long pause. "Yeah, I guess I do." She finished quietly, letting her gaze search Gabrielle’s watching face. "Pretty sad. Huh?"

The bard shook her head. "No." And her smile turned a bit sheepish. "Because I’ve discovered that I love watching you do them."

"Hmm." Xena grunted, then laughed a little. "Well, in that case, I’d better go find out just how bad whatever this is wrong with my back is."

Gabrielle cocked her head. "By doing…what?"

"Using it." Came the short, practical response. "I need to know what my limits are."

And Gabrielle, capturing her partner’s face firmly in her hands, locked eyes with her, green to blue. "You don’t have limits." She declared. "That much, I do know."

In her eyes, I don’t. Xena mused quietly. Maybe I can just close my own eyes for awhile, and see through hers. Bound to be a more pleasant view. "Gabrielle?"

"Hmm?" The bard responded, giving her a smile.

"Thanks." Xena said in a soft voice.

They looked at each other in silence, then Xena gathered the bard into her arms, and just hugged her for a long time, savoring the feel of her body, and the her familiar scent, and the warmth that just poured over her, taking away the fear, and the uncertainty, and leaving her for the first time since the accident at peace with herself.

"Are you sure you.." Gabrielle asked later, when they were both standing on the porch, looking out at the early morning light glance off the thatch cot roofs across from them. She hesitated, and gave her partner a sideways glance, taking in the quiet expression on her face. "Never mind. Just be careful, OK?"

Xena gave her a look. "C’mon, Gabrielle - give me a break. I’m just going for a walk." She laughed a bit. "Don’t think I could do much more than that. So… relax, all right?"

"Uh huh." The bard snorted. "You go for walks, and the course of history changes. Frequently. You forget I’ve lived with you for over two years."

Xena just shook her head, and stepped off the porch, giving Gabrielle a wave. "See you in a bit." She called over her shoulder, as her steps took her past the first ring of trees and onto a dimly seen path cut into the dense forest, aware of the faint pattering of Ares footsteps as he ambled along in her wake.

"Yeah." Gabrielle sighed, watching her until she vanished. Wish there was something more… Hades, Gabrielle. That’s one of the more complex puzzles in Greece you’re trying to unravel there. She straightened her tunic out, and hopped off the porch, taking determined steps towards the healer’s cot.

Admit it, you’re worried. She accused herself. You’ve gotten so used to her being able to deal with anything and everything, that this is spooking you good. Gabrielle’s eyes closed briefly, then opened again. I never thought about.. well, I mean, she does what she does, right? Right. But.. I never thought about whether or not she liked doing it - or if she ever thought about not being able to do some of the things she does.

Her brow furrowed. Maybe it’s like how I feel about storytelling. How would I feel if all of a sudden, I just couldn’t do any of that?

The bard stopped in her tracks, and gazed unseeing at the ground. "Wow." She muttered aloud. I always thought of the stuff she does as just hard work, and practice.. but the way she does it, it’s almost like an art, isn’t it? She gets pleasure out of it, just like I do when I write poetry. I never looked at it…

Then gave herself a very honest appraisal. That’s not true, Gabrielle. And you damn well know it. You told her that - when she moves, it’s poetry, remember? You’ve always known that, even if you never wanted to admit it to yourself. The bard resumed her walk, still deep in thought. But.. she thinks that’s all there is to her. How can I get her to see that’s not true… there’s so much more..

Remembering one warm morning when they’d been in Amphipolis about a week, and she’d just finished helping Johan unload some supplies they’d bought. She had dusted her hands off, and gone in search of Xena, whom she’d seen going into the main part of the stables earlier.

Heard voices as she cleared the door, and paused, hidden in the shadows beside the entrance, to observe.

Xena had been sprawled out on a haybale, leaning back against a second, with her long legs stretched out in front of her, and her dark head bent intently on the task in her hands. Next to her, watching in fascination, was one of the small boys that seemed to be forever running around the town, all of them looking pretty much alike.

The warrior was speaking in a low tone, and indicating something that was hidden by the curve of her left hand, using a small knife and tiny precise motions of her right hand to go along with her instruction.

"Wow!" Gabrielle had heard the boy mutter. "C’n you show me if I get a piece like that?" His high voice held more than a hint of excitement.

"Sure." Xena had said, with a low easy laugh, that sent a wave of warmth through the watching bard. "See if you can find one."

"OK." The boy had grinned, and hopped off the bale, making a beeline for the door and almost bowling Gabrielle over. "Sorry!" He called back, but was already out the door and running down the path.

Gabrielle had sauntered forward, and taken his still warm place on the haybale, peering over Xena’s arm. "What’s that?" She asked, giving the warrior a curious look, as she had closed her hand over the object when the bard had approached.

"Oh." Xena said, clearing her throat a little. "Well, nothing really… just.. " She stopped when she saw the look in Gabrielle’s eyes, and just opened her hand in silence, exposing a small, neatly carved wooden turtle in her palm. The wood had been cleverly worked around its natural dark and light spots, creating a realistic pattern of patches on the creature’s back.

Gabrielle gently picked it up and examined it, running one fingertip lightly over it’s ridged shell, then raised wondering eyes to Xena’s face which had gone quite still. "You did this??"

A slight nod.

"You never said you were a carver." The bard said, with a note of delight in her tone. "This is beautiful."

Xena had shrugged. "Just a little something. I don’t… it’s not something I do a lot."

"Why on earth not?" Gabrielle asked, peering closely at the carving, then up into her eyes. "Xena, that’s a real gift you have here."

The warrior had taken a breath, and looked away. "Not much use for that in the middle of a skirmish." She’d given Gabrielle a wry look. "And anyway.. I have to be really.. " she stopped. " I have to be in a certain mood to do it at all. Doesn’t come to me very often."

And Gabrielle had studied her face, seeing the gentle, introspective look about her eyes, and the relaxation of the usual sharp tension that always characterized her partner, and had smiled. "Then I gotta get you into this kind of mood more often." She had teased gently, and had started to hand the turtle back to its creator.

But Xena had shook her head, and smiled, and folded the bard’s fingers over the wooden creature. "Yours." Had been her only comment.

Gabrielle had given her a hug. "You’re just full of surprises, aren’t you." She sighed happily. "Maybe if I try really hard, I can get an entire Athenian circus out of you." And she had glanced up, catching a look of wistfulness in those blue eyes.

And once again she’d gotten a glimpse of the person her partner was, under all that blood, and the self-torment, and the memories of evil. The person who was gentle, and funny, and full of wonder, who only got let out for very few, very isolated moments. I want to get to know that person better. She’d thought at the time, and still did.

"Maybe you can." Xena had said, slowly, touching a fingertip to her nose. "Because just looking at you puts me in that kind of mood." And the expression in her eyes had warmed the bard all over.

And still did, even now, even weeks later. Gabrielle felt a little better, and mounted the steps to the healer’s cot with a confident grin. Xena would work through it. She would find a way to get around whatever problem it was she was having, even though it might take a while. That’s ok. The bard smiled inwardly. I don’t care if it takes a lifetime, as long as I get to spend that lifetime right alongside her.

She pushed the door open, and stuck her head inside, struck by the atmosphere of tense silence inside the building. Several pairs of golden eyes turned her way, and most turned back again.

"Hi." She said softly, moving all the way into the room, and finding Elaini’s bloodshot eyes still looking her way. The healer stood, and walked stiffly over to her, and patted her shoulder. "How is he? " The bard whispered to her, gazing around at the assembled forest dwellers in confusion.

"Holding his own." Elaini said with a smile. "It was touch and go most of the night, but he’s a little stronger this morning." She glanced behind her. "Support for Gennen." She continued, in a lower tone. "It’s traditional - when there’s a possibility.."

"Elaini." A cool voice interrupted her, and they both turned. One of the older forest dwellers, with mottled brown and gold fur was gazing at them. "No need to explain what can’t be explained, cubling."

"But.." Elaini started, holding up a hand. "You don’t.."

"No no.." The woman said clearly. "The humans are fortunate that they never have to worry about what the breaking feels like, so don’t distress Gennen by trying to explain." She spared a glance at Gabrielle, who was regarding her with a serious expression. "No offense to you, storyteller."

"What are you talking about?" Gabrielle asked, moving further into the room.

They all looked at her, with a strange remoteness in their glances.

Elaini sighed. "You don’t understand." She said to the woman who had spoken. "Gabrielle, they’re talking about what happens when you.. lose.. your lifepartner."

Gabrielle slowly moved her head in a circle, meeting all their eyes. "Has that happened to anyone here?"

A startled response. "No." The woman said, shaking her head.

The bard nodded slowly. "Then I understand it a lot better than any of you do."

Dead silence followed, and now even Gennen, curled up on the double pallet with his lifebond was watching her in fascination.

Eyelids fluttered, then opened again on shocked golden eyes. "Ares tongue." The woman gasped. She turned to Elaini with an angry look. "You never said.."

The healer raised an eyebrow at her. "I tried." She responded briefly, then turned to Gabrielle. "Would you like to sit down?"

The older woman waved a hand at her. "My name is Cessi." She held out a forearm to Gabrielle. "And I apologize, storyteller. I had no idea… but what did you mean you understood better than we about this?"

Gabrielle took the proffered arm, and seated herself on a low bench. "It’s a long story, and one best not told.. here." She glanced around, and gave Cessi brief smile. "I’m trying to learn more about this whole thing - everyone either assumes I know, or doesn’t think I need to know, and both of those things drive me crazy. "She paused. "My name is Gabrielle, by the way."

"Welcome, Gabrielle." Cessi said, with a smile, showing her canines. "And this is Berrat, and Legres, and Tobias." She indicated her three companions. "Elaini, you already know."

"We owe your partner a grateful thanks for helping out Ereth there, ay?" The small, very dark man Cessi had called Tobias spoke up.

The bard nodded. "We heard them calling for help. Right place, right time, right person, I guess." They were still ill at ease, and she was casting about for a way to relax them, when Gennen called over softly from his perch.

"Gabrielle?" The boy gave her a smile, which she returned. "Will you tell us a story?"

The bard grinned. "Sure. Any particular one you like?"

His eyes glinted. "Something with Ares?"

Oh boy. Gabrielle quailed.. then smiled. "Sure… have you heard of the one where he lost his sword, and became mortal for a little while?"

Now she had all of their rapt attention. "No.. did that really happen?" Cessi asked, cocking her head.

Gabrielle nodded. "Yep.. I was there." Now she couldn’t have shaken their rounded eyes with an earthquake.

"You know him???" Gennen breathed, and a low murmur went through the other forest dwellers.

"Yep." The bard confirmed offhandedly. "So, this is what happened.. we were traveling through several small towns, and we’d noticed how angry everyone was…"

The leaves had closed around her just a short way down the path, and Xena had stopped for moment, and glanced back through the leaves, watching Gabrielle take a deep breath, then head off towards the healer’s cot. A smile reluctantly crossed her face, and she shook her head before turning back around and heading down the path.

It was her balance that was off, she realized, which was above and beyond the pain causing her the biggest problem. The pain she could work through, in fact, had, more times than she was interested in counting. But the sense of being off balance.. that was something she had very little way of compensating for.

Because it tied into everything. It made walking, as she was now, uncomfortable, and would render just about anything else she did with a bladed weapon difficult at best. Impossible at worst.

Might as well find out. She thought grimly, and broke into a loping run, which sent jolts of pain up her back, but after a short while, that subsided and became almost bearable. Ares scrambled at her heels, tongue hanging out.

But it felt all wrong, and the ground didn’t seem to be in the right place, and she felt a distinct sinking sensation as she realized she might be in real trouble here. "Damn, Ares." She sighed.

"Roo?" The puppy answered, glancing up on hearing his name.

"Yeah, roo." Xena answered.

Then her head jerked as she saw movement out of the corner of her eye, and a rabbit, frightened out of it wits from Ares’ smell darted across her path, and the wolf bounded after it, tangling himself between Xena’s boots with a startled yelp.

She was moving too fast to stop, and suddenly saw the path dogleg sharply to the left. Managed to dodge the helplessly rolling wolf, but the last step threw her balance completely off, and she knew there was no way she was going to recover. This is gonna hurt. She sighed, as her momentum took her off the path and down the steep embankment.

And she lost all sense of direction, and just tucked in tight, and hoped she’d get lucky. She had no idea where the ground was until she crashed into it, and went bounding of and slammed her back into the tall, unforgiving bulk of an old forest tree.

The world went gray, then black for an endless moment, but she held onto consciousness with grim determination. Finally, her vision cleared, and she blinked slowly until the blurred outline of the dark green ferns in front of her sharpened into focus.

It was definitely one of the more depressing moments of her life, and for a long minute, she just let a dark wave of hopelessness wash over her as she was lying there in the musty smelling leaf litter, with the gloomy half light of the clouded sky filtering weakly through the heavy leaf canopy, and dappling her in dark shadows.

Gods be damned. Her mind cursed. Is this worth it? What in Hades am I doing out here, anyway… I gotta get my head examined. Get a grip, Xena – so you have a back injury. Been there, done that, get over it. Knock off this self pitying garbage and just get moving, go back to that damned village, and stay in bed for as long as this takes to heal up. Worry about getting back into condition later, and listen to Gabrielle for a change.

Finally, she rolled her head back a little and gazed up at the path, the edge curving away high over her head, and spotted Ares’ frantic form, dancing from foot to foot.

"Roo!!!’ He yelled, spotting her. He bounded to the edge, then back, then to the edge, and before she could open her mouth to stop him, leaped off the edge and came tumbling down the embankment.

Rolled to stop not an arms length from her, and sneezed. "Rrrr." He protested, stumbling forward and bumping his nose against her jaw

He sat down, and gazed at her, blinking, then leaned forward and started licking her face, cleaning the traces of mud she’d picked up on the way down, then moving up and scraping his rough tongue over her cheekbones.

Xena closed her eyes and swallowed. "Thanks, Ares." She cleared her throat. "Damned if I know why but that helps." Great. I wonder if I can even make it home. She thought in self disgust. Falling off a path in broad daylight.

Her eyes closed again. It would be easier just to stay here. She mused, forcing back a wave of self-pity. But I never did take the easy way out of anything, right? Right. So get moving.

Slowly, cautiously, she shifted her position, and flexed her body, relieved, at least, that everything seemed to be in relatively good working order. Lucky. She snorted, then raised her head and flexed her shoulders, and froze.

Uncertainly, she raised a hand to her neck, and flexed her shoulders again.

One eyebrow rose. No pressure. No pain. "Nobody gets that lucky." She muttered aloud. "Not even me. Not even on a good day." She gazed speculatively at Ares, who gazed back. "Right?"

"Roo." The baby wolf solemnly agreed.

Gingerly, she sat up and rocked forward, and paused. The other eyebrow raised. So far, so good. Gritting her teeth, she rolled up into a crouch, then stood, putting a cautious hand out toward the nearby tree and held her breath.

Nothing. Not a twinge, not a touch of dizziness.

"You gotta be kidding." The plaintive snort escaped her, and Ares growled in response. "I don’t believe this." Experimentally, she hopped gently up and down, once, startling the puppy. "Sorry." She muttered.

Nothing.

She put her hands on her hips, and lovingly studied the tree. "Can I take you home?"

No answer from the tree.

"Well, Ares, there is only one real way to test this." She addressed the puppy, who sat down, and cocked his head at her. "Right." The warrior added, and cast her gaze around here. "Here.. that looks nice and soft." She knelt, and patted the turf a short distance away from the tree, which was dense with moss. Cause if this doesn’t work, I’m gonna hit that ground real hard. Then she stood up, with pointed swiftness.

Nothing.

Xena closed her eyes, then opened them, and gave a little nod. "Wish me luck." She said to no one in particular, and dropped into a crouch, then shot skyward, waiting until the reached the high point of her jump, and lazily curled her body into a flip.

The world stayed exactly where she expected it to stay, and she landed lightly on her feet. And stood there, quietly staring at the ground for a long time. Then she sat down cross-legged on the mossy turf, and put her forearms on her knees, knitting her fingers together.

I will never. Ever take this for granted again. She promised herself. Gabrielle is right. I need to stop pushing myself so damn hard, and take the damage I’ve been doing to my body more seriously. Or one of these days I’m going to do something that’s going to really be irreversible.

She stood back up, taking a sensuous pleasure in the rock steadiness of the motion, and smiled. "Come on, Ares." She walked over to where the embankment rose above her head and chuckled. "Wanna ride?"

"Roo?" The puppy answered, standing up and putting his paws against her thigh.

She picked him up, and settled him across her shoulders, feeling his tail whipping against her ear. "Cut that out." She said, giving him a look. He licked her other ear in response. "Hey.. only Gabrielle gets to do that, so knock it off."

Feeling a fit of giddiness coming on, she shook her head, and backed off several paces, bouncing a little in place, then moving, four long strides and a very deep crouch and then she shot skyward, feeling a laugh bubbling up as she twisted in mid air, and landed neatly in the path, not far from where she’d left it originally.

"Did that feel good, Ares?" She chuckled. "It sure did to me." Oh yeah.. that sure did. My gods you don’t value something until you don’t have it anymore, isn’t that the truth? Ares panted a little, and blinked at her. "Oh..did I get you dizzy?" She started laughing at the expression on the wolf’s face. "Sorry."

She glanced down the path. "Now, let’s see. I was in the middle of a little run.. wasn’t I???"

And she took off, feeling the difference in the first steps, as her body settled into a familiar rhythm, and it all just felt.. right, for the first time in days. She sucked air down deep into her lungs, and just abandoned herself to an overwhelming sense of relief at the comfortable feeling of being in total control of her body.

The cool wet air slid across her body she felt her muscles loosen up, and her speed increased, causing the damp wind to whip her hair back and brush away the laughter that bubbled up in pure reflex. Been a while since I just did this for the fun of it… maybe I should do it more often… make this less of a chore than I have been.

After a few minutes of mindless running, punctuated by the occasional flip for no reason, she started paying attention to her surroundings again. "Better start heading back, Ares," She remarked conversationally to the puppy, who was still slung over her shoulders. "I think I want to see your other mommy, OK?" Gods.. did she ever. "I wanna pick her up, and toss her in the air, and she’s gonna be furious with me, you watch." For a minute, anyway. Xena grinned to herself.

The path sloped down, towards the end of Lestan’s territory, and fairly close to the area where she’d found Ereth and Gennen the previous day.

And her defensive reflexes came up, as she slowed her pace, and extended her senses, and heard the faint rasp of voices from not far ahead.

Now pacing in silence, she slid from tree to tree, and moved around a rock outcropping, freezing into stillness at what she saw there.

Two strange forest dwellers, armed, and standing with an unmistakably menacing posture. Facing a battered looking Jessan, who had both hands up in a gesture of defenselessness

"That was an amazing story, Gabrielle." Cessi said, leaning forward and bracing her hands on her thick knees. "Though I'm.. what's wrong?" She stood in reflex, reacting to the bard's sudden loss of color, and stricken expression. "Gabrielle?"

"Uhm.." The bard stammered, blinking hard and standing. "Sorry..I need to... excuse me." The vague uneasiness that had been unsettling her stomach since Xena had left had suddenly flowered into a dark flare of upset that brought her heart up into her throat.

Elaini put a hand on her shoulder. "Gabrielle.. take it easy. You're getting something through your connection with Xena."

Gabrielle turned and looked at her. "I know that." The bard snapped, struggling to stay calm. "You think I’ve never felt this before?"

"OK.. OK.." The healer backed off, raising both hands in a warding off gesture.

Then almost as soon as it came, it began to subside, and then to moderate. "Whoa." Gabrielle sighed. "Whatever it is calmed down." She paused "Ok.. I think everything's all right now." She shook her head to clear it, then glanced around at the silent room. "Sorry about that."

Cessi cleared her throat. "Does.. that happen often?" She asked, trading swift glances with Tobias, who stood, and walked over to Gabrielle. Ares' boots... she knows nothing about this... nothing, the poor cubling. "Sit down, little sister."

Gabrielle sank back down, and gazed at her. "Does..it happen often. Well..." She glanced down. "I don't... it's been happening a lot more, recently. I don't think it happened.." She paused, and thought hard. "Well, maybe it did, but not so strong that I knew what it was." She amended, as a memory floated up into her mind, that she hadn’t looked at quite that way before.

Just a vague feeling of apprehension.. that had gripped her for five days, when she'd been sidelined in a small village waiting for Xena to return from a fast ride out to help an old friend; after they'd been travelling together for almost a year. "Just a couple of days, nothing much." The warrior had said, putting a hand on her shoulder. "I'll be back before you know it." Two days more than a couple, but Xena had returned, and related a somewhat pedestrian encounter with an old warlord enemy of hers. She'd taken him in single combat, and his troops had scattered off, to rebuild and elect themselves a new leader. Time, she had said, was what she'd bought for the city they had been plaguing.

Gabrielle had studied her, finding nothing on first glance that seemed out of place. "Everything OK with you?" She'd asked, bringing over a cup of ale to the table they were sharing.

"Yeah, sure." Xena had answered, then paused. "Why do you ask?"

And Gabrielle had shrugged. "I don't know.. just had this weird feeling, that's all." She had laughed. "Just me being silly, I guess." Sitting down, and only then noticing the silence, and looking up to see an quietly serious expression on Xena's face. "What?" She sat down and put a gentle hand on Xena's arm, which was resting on the table, and only then did she pick up the faint signs all was not well with her companion.

Nothing much, just a hesitation in the way she moved, and a clouded look to her blue eyes, and an unusual tension in her face.

But Xena had just given her a brief smile. "Long day." She'd shrugged. "Long ride."

Gabrielle had nodded. "Let's go upstairs, huh? " But she'd been sure, then, that something had happened. '

So sure that as soon as the door had closed behind them, she'd turned and given the warrior an intent stare.

And Xena had ducked her head, with a faint smile, and held up one hand. "It's just a scratch."

" Uh huh." Gabrielle had snorted, and shook her head. "I knew it." She had paused. "I just felt something had gone wrong."

The 'just a scratch' had turned out to be an ugly arrowhead wound puncturing her ribcage, which had escaped being really dangerous only because the arrow had deflected off her breastbone and bounced back out. Xena had meekly lain down on the bed, and allowed her to take care of the wound, sighing in relief when she'd covered it with herbal salve, and settled a bandage over it.

"Thanks." She said, reaching out and squeezing Gabrielle's hand. "Can't keep much from you, right?"

"Teach you for trying. " The bard had retorted, watching her struggling to stay awake. "Would you go to sleep, already?"

"Your bed." The warrior had protested, starting to get up.

Gabrielle had pushed her shoulder back down, or tried to, anyway. "I don't think so. You're the one with the arrow hole in you." She laughed. "After all these months of sleeping on the hard ground, a wood floor will seem like luxury. Don't worry about me."

Xena had gazed at her for a long moment, then let a small grin quirk her lips. "It's a big bed, Gabrielle." And had patted the mattress at her side, and raised an eyebrow in invitation. "I promise I won't bite you."

And Gabrielle had found herself caught between shy reluctance and surprised happiness at this break in the oh so sturdy stone walls her companion kept built around her. "All right." she'd agreed softly, putting away the medical supplies and returning to slide into the bed next to the half asleep warrior, curling on her side and facing Xena. "Night." She'd said, giving her a little smile.

"Night." Xena had responded sleepily, then opened a sharp blue eye and regarded her. "Gabrielle?"

"Yeah?" She'd answered, just enjoying the closeness, and the quietness, so rare so far in their relationship

"Did you really have a bad feeling?" Curiosity in that tone.

The bard had nodded. "I really did." she had paused. "why?"

Xena had shrugged. "Not used to having someone worry about me, that's all."

Gabrielle had smiled, and felt a warmth flow through her that now, all these months later, she realized was the first gentle stirring of the connection that now bound their souls together. "Get used to it." She'd said. And they'd both smiled at each other, before Xena's eyes had closed and her breathing had deepened into sleep.

"Yeah, " Gabrielle admitted, glancing up into Cessi's red gold eyes. "It happens a lot now, because we're always in the middle of things."

Tobias patted her back, and crouched down next to her. "Little sister.." He gently said, casting a glance over his shoulder, to where Gennen and Ereth were now peacefully sleeping. "You said you'd experienced the breaking. How? Can I ask you that? It's such a serious thing for us... I'd like to understand."

Gabrielle took a deep breath, and gazed at him. Can I tell that? Gods, it was hard the last time. Never does get any easier to think about, either. "I'll try. But it's a hard thing to tell.. especially after what happened the other day." She answered honestly. "I might have to stop."

"All right." Tobias answered softly, settling onto the floor cross-legged. "Remember, we understand, Gabrielle - what you feel... we know this."

The bard smiled. "I know." she glanced down. "We were under attack." She started, looking off into the distance. "And I had been captured, along with some other village women by a tribe of flesh eaters.. we'd been tied up, but Xena found us and set us free, staying behind to fight off the rest of the tribe."

"Really?" Tobias breathed, glancing at Cessi. "Why didn't she just run away with you?"

Gabrielle stopped, and looked at him in puzzlement. "Run away? Because she just doesn't do that." she shook her head. "Anyway, she caught up to us, but so did some of the flesh eater tribe. She fought them off, but they set loose a log trap, and there was a little girl in the way."

She cleared her throat. "And, she got the girl clear, but the log hit her, and smashed her against a tree."

The forest dwellers all looked at each other. "You were there?"

"Sure." Gabrielle said. "I hit the last one of them with my staff, but he got me in the leg with his knife before he passed out. I got to Xena.." Remembering those glazed eyes, and the blood dripping from her ears that had gotten over.. everything. "And she was able to tell me to take her to a healer she knew up in the mountains" She paused. "Who might be able to save her."

"What did you do?" Cessi asked, wrapping her arms around her knees and gazing at the bard in fascination.

"I took her there."

"Alone?" Tobias asked, edging closer to her, until his fur covered shoulder was pressed against her leg.

"Yes, except for Argo." She paused. "That’s Xena’s horse." She paused. "But when we got there.. I guess… it must have taken too long, because I just…" And it hit her again, the memory of those agonizing hours watching Xena slip away from her. "Oh gods."

Furred hands gripped her firmly. "We’ve got you, Gabrielle. It’s all right." Cessi said gently. "We understand."

"She died." The bard said, in a pool of quiet. "And… I felt… like a really big part of me died with her."

Cessi circled her shoulders with one long arm. "It did, cubling. That’s not something you imagined. That was real."

"I know that now." Gabrielle whispered.

"Then… what happened?" Tobias asked, cupping her knee in one hand.

"I took her home." The bard answered, bleakly. "I promised.. her. That if anything ever… That I would take her back to Amphipolis and have her buried beside her brother Lyceus."

"Alone???" Cessi rumbled, a note of outrage starting in her voice.

"Yes." Gabrielle answered, looking up at her. "There was no one else." She shook her head. "She only has her mother and brother Toris, in Amphipolis. " She paused, and sighed. "And me."

"Gabrielle, you have to understand…" Tobias said softly. "that’s not how this is done, with us. You would have had the support of all your brothers and sisters here… that’s never, ever something you should have to go through alone. How did you survive it? "

The bard took a deep breath, and let it out. "I just did, because I had to, that’s all." She answered, simply. "Xena taught me that." She looked down at her hands, the fingers knotting together. "Well, anyway, on the way back, I was met by an Amazon escort."

"Amazons?" Cessi asked, one bushy eyebrow curving up.

"Yeah." Gabrielle sighed. "They wanted to render escort to Xena..they’d heard.. and also because they were looking for me."

"You?" Tobias queried. "Why?"

The bard smiled a little. "Well, because I’m their queen by rite of caste, and they needed me, I guess." She paused. "The previous queen had died in challenge, and the new queen wasn’t so.. well, there was a difference of opinion over who should run the Amazon nation. "

‘Wait." Cessi said, holding her head in her hands. "You’re the Queen of the Amazons???"

Gabrielle nodded.

"Good Ares’ boots and spurs." The forest dweller said. " But they rule by right of arms…and forgive me, cubling, but a warrior you are not."

The bard sniffed reflectively. "Well, no. But I had a champion to do the fighting for me."

They all looked at each other. "Oh." Cessi said, slapping her forehead. "Of course. Go on."

Gabrielle related the events in the village, and about Velasca, and finally got to Autolycus breaking into the hut they’d stored Xena’s body in and trying to steal it.

"What?" Tobias said, now resting his elbow on Gabrielle’s knee. "He said what??"

"That he was doing it under a cooperative effort with Xena." Gabrielle repeated. "I know, I thought he’d lost his mind too, until he stopped us from burning the casket, and took off with it. Then… what he was doing, the things he did… I can’t explain it, but that was Xena. I was sure of it."

"From beyond death???" Elaini spoke up for the first time, and that in a whisper.

The bard nodded. "Yeah.. I didn’t believe it until then, and I took off after him. And then.." She tipped her head back and swallowed, and bit her lips to keep them steady. "And then she told me to close my eyes..and think of her.. and I did.. and.. and… she was there."

"In your mind?" Came the whispered question.

"I.. I guess. I don’t really know." Gabrielle answered. "So real.." she added, in a hushed tone. "I started crying when I saw her there, it felt so wonderful."

"Ohh.." Tobias breathed, patting her knee. "You poor cubling.’

"Well, she told me what we had to do, to get to the ambrosia, and restore her body to life." Gabrielle sighed. "And.. I told her I couldn’t lose her again." She looked at the four sets of golden eyes glued on her. "I meant that." She added quietly.

"We know." Tobias and Cessi answered in concert. "We understand."

The bard smiled. "You do, don’t you." She felt her body relax at last. "And she told me she’d always be here." The forest dwellers exchanged glances. "And after we got the ambrosia, and she did come back.. I made her promise she’d never die on me again."

"Tis a terrible promise to ask of one of our kind, cubling." Cessi said gently, but her eyes were understanding.

"I know." Gabrielle answered, closing her eyes. "But she promised."

Xena lifted Ares off her shoulders and put him down on the ground, with a pat. "You stay here, boy." She muttered, then began moving towards the three forest dwellers, stopping just inside the last ring of trees and pausing to consider her options.

Which weren’t numerous, actually. She could leave. Not an option. She could pick up that long fallen branch nearby and just go in swinging. Sounds fun, possibly an option. She could walk in calmly and use threats to intimidate them into leaving. Entertaining, but they looked mean and that could possibly turn into a brawl.

Question is, am I in the mood for a brawl? She asked, as she started to move, then paused when she spotted a pile of jagged stones, evidently from a quarry nearby. Oh. Her mind chuckled. Now, I like this option better.

She picked up a handful of the stones, and gazed for a moment at the two strange forest dwellers. Then she wound up and let fly, her unerring aim directing the rock neatly into the forehead of the closer forest dweller.

He yelped, and spun, eyes darting around the ring of trees.

Xena grinned wholeheartedly, and let a second rock loose, catching the other forest dweller on the side of the face. A third and fourth rock followed, causing blood to fly from the enraged victims, who held their arms over their heads, and started to retreat, unable to see their attacker, and beginning to feel the deadly sting Xena had started to put in the rocks’ momentum.

Jessan had lowered his hands, and was starting to grin, letting his eyes also search the treeline without success. He waited until his attackers were out of range, then crossed his arms over his chest, and laughed, now catching the first sign of movement as Xena jogged towards him at an unhurried pace.

"Hey." She said, as she drew even with him. "What was all that?"

"Trouble." Jessan replied. "That’s some arm you have there.. were you all the way up on that ridge?"

Xena chuckled. "Yep. " She admitted. "Many years of my youth spent trying to best my brothers, actually."

"Did you?" He teased, sure of the answer.

"Uh huh." She cheerfully confirmed.

And Toris had been furious, too, she remembered, because she’d not only beaten him, she’d beaten his friends who he’d been trying to impress.

"You can’t play. You’re a girl." Toris had said, with a laugh, as he ran of with the village boys. "Girls can’t throw." It was a common game they played, standing on one side of the stream that bordered Amphipolis, and throwing stones across the surface of the water, trying to hit the row of sunken logs near the other side. The closer you got to the log, the more points, and hitting the log was the prize.

Every time she tried to join in, they chased her off, until she trudged downstream from them, and found her own spot on the bank to try her luck.

They had been a lot older, and she had never tried throwing stones, so it took her a long time to figure out how the best way was to throw the rocks, and what size traveled furthest, and just how hard she had to throw them.

At first, it was bad. Then it got a little better, and after a while, she knew Toris had been wrong. Girls could throw, all right. At least this one could, and she started throwing bigger and bigger ones until she was satisfied she could hit the logs, every time.

So she had gone up the bank, to where they were standing in a circle, egging each other on, and watched them for a while. Then, at a gap in their throwing, she’d picked up a nearby loose stone, and let fly over their heads, hitting the furthest log with a distinct sodden thump.

"Hey!" The largest of them had yelled, spinning around. "Who threw that?"

"I did." She’d said, crossing her arms and smiling.

"No way." He scoffed.

For an answer, she’d picked up another rock, and barely glancing across the stream, let her new found coordination between her arms and her vision find a target, and threw, hearing the resounding thunk of the stone hitting wood and smiling again.

The boy had laughed, and given Toris a shove in the chest. "She throws better than you do."

"Does not!" Toris had yelled, and shoved him back, and that had degenerated into a scuffle, until the older boy had had enough, and just picked Toris up and threw him on the ground. And had then aimed a kick at him that never fell, because he was knocked off his feet by a flying body, who was all yelling energy and small fists, and whose arms, wrapped around his body, held shockingly surprising strength.

"Get off me!" The boy screamed, as he felt the blows his groin. "Help!"

It had taken all of them to pull her off him, and then finally they pushed her back, and stood huddled in front of where he was stlll writhing on the ground, facing her.

She stood with her hands balled into fists, breathing hard, and ignoring the cuts and scrapes that covered her arms and legs from the rough ground, watching them staring at her with looks that mixed fear and respect in equal measure.

And she decided she liked that. So she looked down at Toris, who was just getting to his feet on the dusty ground. He glared at her.

She glared back. "Girls can too throw." She informed him, and walked off, to where she could see Lyceus crouched wide-eyed behind a tree.

"Wow." Ly had said, in his gentle voice as she drew near him. "Mommy’s gonna be mad with you, Xeney." He plucked at her worn tunic. "You gots blood all over this." He slipped his hand in hers and they started walking home together. "Will you teach me to do that?"

Xena had looked down at him, still thinking about what it had felt like, to fight, and win.. and get those looks. "Yeah, Ly. We’ll do it together, ok?"

Lyceus had given her his most enthusiastic grin. "All right!"

"But, this time Gabrielle will be proud of me." Xena commented, slapping Jessan on the shoulder. "I decided to take the easy way out for a change."

Jessan laughed. "Oh, the rocks?"

She nodded. "Yep… so, what was that/" Bringing the question right back around to him, but then she stopped, and stiffened. "Damn."

"What…oh." Jessan growled, as the faint sounds she’d detected came to his ears as well. "Well, you tried. Let me talk us out of this, Ok?"

But there was no time for talking, as the brush suddenly parted, and the two forest dwellers returned, springing on them with wild, angry roars that exposed white fangs and red mouths.

Jessan returned the roar, and met the first one, who bowled him over with his greater size, and slammed a heavy clawed fist against Jessan’s side.

Xena dodged the leap of the second attacker, and let him hit the ground and bounce up, right into a solid kick that snapped his head back and robbed him of breath for an endless instant.

Long enough for Xena to slip inside his reach, and slam an elbow into his jaw, causing his eyes to glaze in shock, and knocking him back several paces.

Then he shook his head to clear it, drew his sword, and came after her in earnest, weaving the blade in front of him like a scythe.

Xena felt the blood pumping in her veins, and the tingle that always came to her in this kind of fight, when life and death were equal partners, and the only influence to one or the other were her skills, and her determination. She laughed, and bounded to one side as he came on, crouching slightly and kicking away from the ground, flipping over his head and twisting in mid air, lashing out with one powerful leg to catch his head and snap it forward.

She heard the sharp crack as his neck broke, and he slumped to the ground lifeless, as she completed the flip and landed neatly on her feet, bouncing a little to bleed off the momentum. The remaining attacker was stumbling off, holding an obviously dislocated arm and she let him go, after locking eyes with him for a long moment.

"Jess.." She hissed, dropping to the ground and seeing the blood stained fur. "He got you?"

The forest dweller winced, and tried to roll over. "Ares’ blood." He gasped, holding his side. "Ribs, I think."

Experienced fingers probed, and Xena sat back with a sigh. "Cracked, and that’s a bad slice." She indicated the bloody cut on his side.

Overhead, the cloudy sky began to shed itself of its watery burden, and a light mist fell on their heads, drenching Xena’s tunic and beading in Jessan’s draggled fur.

"You..OK?" He gasped, golden eyes searching her face worriedly. He’d seen the effort she had to muster just to walk back to the village yesterday, and had been concerned.

Those blue eyes met his with a wry warmth. "Yeah, I’m fine."

His hand reached up and clasped hers. "Good.. cause I think I’m gonna need some help to get home." He glanced around. "We can’t stay here."

"All right." Xena said, standing and carefully surveying the surrounding forest. "Can you walk? "

Jessan snorted. "Probably. Can you help me up?"

And he got a smile at that, which charmed him. "Sure." The warrior affirmed, and extended both hands down to him. "Grab hold."

"Xena…" He hesitated. "If you’re still…" Ares.. I don’t want her hurting herself worse trying to help me. I’d rather rot out here.

"Grab hold." Xena repeated, giving him a look. "Or I’ll just grab your fur and pull. Your choice."

Golden eyes widened in mock horror. "All right.. all right…" He grasped her warm hands, and felt her fingers tighten on his wrists like iron bands. "OK.." He said marshalling his strength.

And felt himself being lifted up with a speed and sureness that startled him. He swayed on his feet a bit, from the blood loss and the pain, and she got a shoulder under his, and wrapped his arm around her neck. "Thanks." He grinned at her. Then his eyes glanced back. "They’re not going to forget a dead scout, I’m afraid."

Xena shrugged. "Not my problem. You attack an unarmed person with a sword, and you get what’s coming to you." She moved forward, walking very slowly in deference to his wounds.

Jessan snorted, then laughed a little. "Unarmed? Who are YOU kidding?" He shook his head vigorously, scattering the light rain about him and over her.l

Xena chuckled. "Well, you know what I mean." She flicked her own damp dark hair out of her eyes.

"Oh yeah.. right. If you were tied up from head to foot and then wrapped in a linen shroud, and then shackled with iron chains, and then dead drunk, maybe, just maybe, I’d think of you as unarmed. But I wouldn’t take a chance." Jessan stated, stumbling a little.

"Oh really?" Xena laughed. "I’ll have to remember that."

Jessan smiled. "Yeah." He took small breaths to reduce the pain from his ribs. "Hey Xena?"

"Hmmm?" The warrior answered, glancing at him.

"Could you… I dunno.. tell me a story or something to make me not think about how much this hurts?" The forest dweller asked, wistfully.

"Me?" Xena muffled a laugh, and rolled her eyes. "Oh boy, you don’t know what you’re asking here, my friend." She shook her head to move the hair out of her eyes again, and ducked a little to avoid the feathery ferns soddenly slapping her. The smell of the rain, and the wet vegetation rose around her. "I don’t do stories well."

Jessan sighed. "I know.. sorry ."

They glanced at each other.

Xena’s blue eyes took on a gentle twinkle. "What did you have in mind?" With this slow progress, I might as well.

"Oh, I dunno… what have you guys been doing since I saw you last?" Jessan asked, shyly.

Xena took a breath, and looked around her. "Oh. You wanna hear about the Amazons, huh?"

He nodded.

"Sure." Xena said, taking a firmer grasp on his arm, and starting up the shallow incline towards the path she’d been on. Ares trotted at her heels, sneezing as raindrops hit his furry face.

Gabrielle moved quietly to the back of the healer’s cot, and listened to the forest dwellers talk amongst themselves. The anxious, worried feeling she’d had in her gut was gone, she was glad to note, but she, herself, was still upset at her partner’s continued physical problems. "Elaini.." She said softly, as the healer walked past. "Can I ask you something?"

The forest dweller paused, and put down the basin she was carrying. "Sure.." She said, focusing her attention on the bard. "What’s wrong?" She paused. "Is it Xena?"

Gabrielle sighed. "Yeah." She glanced down to where her fingers were twisting a bit of linen around into knots. "She told me this morning she thinks she got hit in the wrong place by one of those rocks.. and that’s what’s causing those dizzy spells she keeps getting."

Elaini sat down, and a worried expression found it’s way across her face. "That’s bad." She sighed, looking at the bard. "She’s just resting, right?"

The bard gave her a look. "You’re joking, right?" She let out a breath. "No, she’s out trying to find out just how bad it actually is."

The healer looked at her in horror. "Gabrielle..that’s not funny. She can do herself… a lot of damage." Her brows contracted. "One wrong move.. and if it’s her spine that’s hurt, she can paralyze herself. " How can she risk… Ares’ boots, I don’t understand these humans.

Gabrielle took small, silent breaths. "That hasn’t happened." She said, but her voice shook. "I’d know." Would I? What was that horrible… she’d feel like that if she… oh gods. "I gotta go."

"Shh.." Elaini soothed her with a hand "You’re exactly right, Gabrielle – you’d know if something bad had happened, you know that." Gotta stop scaring her like that. Poor kid.

The bard sat down slowly. "I know.. it’s like a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach.." She shook her head, then glanced up and noticed the odd expression on Elaini’s face. The healer brow furrowed, and she absently let a hand drift down to her abdomen. "What’s wrong?" Gabrielle asked, putting a hand out.

"Uhm. Nothing." Elaini said, giving her head a brisk shake. "What did Xena say she was going to do?"

Gabrielle studied her for a moment. "She said she was just going to go for a walk." Which probably means she went for a walk, that turned into something else, but I don’t’ think she’d be dumb enough to try anything too strenuous.. she was hurting, so bad that she couldn’t stop me from seeing it.

The smell of rich herbal tea spread throughout the cot as Cessi fiddled in the corner, pouring steaming water of a large basin of herbs. The rich steamy scent held traces of mint, and that brought a faint smile of remembrance to the bard.

It had been not long after Perdicus’ death, and relations were still… strained.. between Xena and herself. It wasn’t anything the warrior did.. or said, or anything Gabrielle did.. but she still heard Perdicus’ screams at night in her dreams, and her guilt, compounded by the guilt obviously felt by Xena, and combined with the whole mess involving Callisto and that body switching had caused the distance between them to lengthen.

And that, she had reflected sadly, as she sat near the fire on a cold winter’s night in the outlands, was the worst thing of all. It felt like she was losing something she’d come to count on. To depend on in a way that she hadn’t expected.

She’d thought that Xena was feeling it too – the warrior had taken to spending more time with her solitary drills, and often came back to the fire plainly exhausted, to toss her weapons down and just sit, staring at the fire with a look of… helpless sadness in her blue eyes that stung Gabrielle’s heart.

But she didn’t know the way back to where they were… they’d been through so much, and it still hurt so bad, she could hardly stand it sometimes. What she wanted was… something she couldn’t have, she knew, as she looked over at Xena’s closed, silent face and felt an anguished tug on her heart. She’d hugged herself closer, against the stinging cold wind that was sweeping through the campsite, and wanted very badly to just curl up in a ball and forget the world. Vaguely aware of Xena’s moving around, she focused her thoughts, or lack of them really, on the fire, and let the misty sadness that seemed to dominate her thoughts lately roll over her.

Until she’d been called back by the scent of steamy mint, and looked up into the shadowed blue eyes of the warrior now standing over her with a cup not far from her face. "Here." Xena had said. "You look a little chilled."

And instead of her usual offhand denial, or smart remark, she’d let out a tired breath. "I’m freezing." Had come out in a hoarse voice she hardly recognized, and that had brought Xena swiftly down on one knee.

"Let me get your cloak." The warrior urged, curling Gabrielle’s stiff fingers around the mug.

"It’s not the weather." The bard had whispered, unable to stop herself from speaking.

And Xena had stopped in mid motion, paused for a long instant, then slowly sat back down next to Gabriele’s too still body. "Look, Gabrielle.."

But the bard had put her other hand out, stopping her. "No.. there aren’t words for this, Xena. I’ve been trying and trying to come up with something.. anything I could say to fix this.. but I can’t." Her eyes raised up and found Xena’s, and stayed there, seeing the anguish she felt reflected back at her. "Are you mad at me?"

Xena’s jaw dropped slightly. It would have been almost funny if it hadn’t been so serious. "Me?" The warrior blurted, shaking her head a little bit. "What.. why… No." Then more gently. "No."

"It’s Perdicus, right?" Gabrielle’s voice was no more than a whisper. I abandoned you.. again, Xena. Don’t think I don’t know that. Don’t think I don’t know that hurt you.

And got silence for a response, and eyes that would no longer meet hers. "I tried, Gabrielle." Xena’s response was low and controlled. "I just didn’t… I didn’t think Callisto would.."

"Xena, its not your fault." Gabrielle had responded. "I shouldn’t have said yes to his offer." She’d taken a gulp of the half forgotten tea in her grasp, and was pleasantly surprised by the delicious taste as it rolled down her throat. "Mm." She murmured.

"Gabrielle… don’t be silly. You loved him. Of course you should have said yes. It’s not your fault Callisto… did what she did. It’s my fault. If you’d never met me, it never would have happened." Xena answered, in a tired voice, staring moodily down at her clasped hands, examining the callused fingertips as though they were a stranger’s. "Yet another thing to add to my list of regrets."

"I didn’t." Gabrielle had said, studying that half profile, lit by a scattering of dull crimson flames from the fire.

‘Didn’t what?" Xena had asked, finally lifting her head with a sigh and meeting the bard’s eyes.

"Love him." In a bare whisper, that nonetheless brought Xena to an abrupt stillness.

A very long silence had followed, in which they studied each other’s faces with a vivid intensity.

"Then…." Xena asked slowly, finally. "Why… Did you just want to go home? I would have.. you could…"

"Xena." Gabrielle had said, with a gentle smile.

"Hmm?" The warrior replied.

"I am home." She had allowed her heart free rein, and she knew a lot of things were showing on her face, in her eyes. I’ve been sitting outside the doorway for months now.. for the sake of the gods… please.. let me back in.

For a long, frozen moment, she thought Xena wasn’t going to respond. And if that was the case.. having put her heart on the line, maybe leaving would be her only option. Staying like this simply wasn’t.

But those blue eyes had gentled, and softened, and the warrior had allowed a little of her own heart to show as she raised a hand and cupped Gabrielle’s cheek. "You will always.. " Her voice dropped in pitch. "Always, have a place in here, no matter what happens." Xena’s other hand rose and tapped her chest. "You do know that, right?" A pause. "Gabrielle??"

"I was starting to wonder." The words came out strangled, as her throat closed, and long held tears started to track down her face.

But then she was physically lifted up and pulled into a hug so strong, and so fierce it blocked out the chill wind, and the dark memories, and the coldness between them. And filled her with a growing warmth that eased the knots she’d been carrying inside for months as though they had never been. She’d cried herself out, and they’d talked for hours, finally erasing some of the grief that had held them apart.

She’d woken up, groggily, the next morning, still wrapped in Xena’s arms, the warrior’s woolen cloak folded around both of them in a makeshift shelter. Her head had been tucked under the taller woman’s chin, and she had felt Xena’s steady, even breathing and resting heartbeat where their bodies were pressed together. It had been cold out, and warm where she was, and she had closed her eyes and just drifted back to sleep, with a smile, and the faint, remembered taste of mint in her mouth.

They both glanced up as thunder rolled overhead, and Gabrielle could hear the beginning patter of raindrops hitting the thatched roof. A glance outside showed them a cold drizzling rain, and Gabrielle shivered as the breeze blew in the door. "Brr… it sure got cold fast."

A yell outside caught their hearing, and they both turned to look out the open door. "Gods." Gabrielle spat, heading out the door and pulling up short with one hand on the porch railing and her heart in her throat.

Out of the falling, misty rain came two drenched figures, one supporting the other.

"Damn." The bard cursed, but her body relaxed when she realized which one of the pair was supporting the other. She stepped off the porch into the rain, and heard pounding footsteps behind her as Elaini leaped off the porch and powered past her, throwing up splashes of rain at every step.

"Easy, easy." Xena cautioned Jessan, as they came down the end of the muddy path and into the village. "Slippery here."

"Yeah, ok." The forest dweller panted, keeping his head down.

Xena looked up and spotted the running form heading towards them, and the smaller one not far behind. A smile appeared on her face. "Looks like helps on the way, Jess. A little bit more." She said quietly, as Elaini skidded to a halt next to her, and put a hand up. "Ok.. ok.. he’s got some cracked ribs, and a cut. It’s not major." She told the anxious healer.

"I’ve got him.. let me get that weight off your neck, Xena. For Ares sake, be careful." Elaini snapped, grasping Jessan’s arm and allowing the warrior to duck out from under it.

"Relax, I’m .." Xena got halfway through that when a pair of arms slid around her and she looked down into Gabrielle’s mist green eyes. "Fine." She finished, but in a soft voice that only the bard could have heard. "Really." She added, seeing the disbelief in the bard’s glance.

Thunder rolled in overhead, and they all glanced up. "Let’s get out of this." Xena said, sliding an arm across Gabrielle’s shoulders and moving towards the healer’s cot. "You’re shivering." She accused the bard, and felt her snuggle closer in response.

"How’s your back. " Gabrielle asked, watching her face for a response. Something’s different.

"Much better." The warrior reassured her. "You won’t believe what happened."

"Won’t I?" The bard smiled gently up at her. "Like impossible things never happen to you, right?"

They mounted the stairs to the healer’s hut, and went inside, where Cessi and Tobias were helping Elaini get Jessan settled in a cot on the far side of the big room.

"He looks like he’s in good hands." Xena whispered to the bard, who giggled. The warrior crossed over to where Gennen was snuggled down, watching the action on the other side of the room. "How is he?"

Gennen turned his face towards Xena. "He’s going to be ok." His mouth moved into a big grin, showing all his teeth. "I owe you two lives, eh? Mine and his."

"Nah." The warrior patted his arm. "I just helped a little. He saved himself."

Heavy footsteps on the porch, several sets, then Lestan and Wennid entered, and Wennid bolted immediately for her son. Lestan let her go, and stopped by Xena’s side, nodding as the warrior stood to meet him.

"Xena." He sighed. "What happened?"

Xena stood to her full height, and put her hands on her hips. "Suppose you tell me what’s going on with your northern neighbors, and I'll tell you what they did to your son."

Silence in the room, as all eyes studied the leader and the human.

Finally Lestan nodded. "It’s time." He replied. "Call a council." This to his aide, who had followed them in.

Continued in Part 5

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Bound – Part 5

By Melissa Good

For DISCLAIMERS see Part 1.

The council room was filled, by the time they got there, with a shifting mass of damp forest dwellers who sorted themselves out and settled down as Lestan strode in and took his seat, motioning for Xena to do the same.

A small silence followed, in which the steady sound of the rain outside punctuated by thunder rolled over them. "Well." Lestan said, putting a hand on the table, and gently playing with the handle of mug. "As some of you know, we had yet another incursion today. Secan’s rangers entered our territory, and ambushed my son."

Silence, as golden eyes flickered around and met each other with unease.

"Jessan is all right, besides some cracked ribs and a cut or two." Lestan continued, and felt a wave of relief roll around the room. His attention shifted to the silent, dark haired woman in their midst. "Can you give us any detail as to what happened, Xena?"

A quiet, controlled voice responded, with a vibrant low tone that carried easily around the large gathering. "Nothing really to tell, Lestan. I was out running along your northern border, and saw two strangers facing off against Jess." She shrugged. "Chased them off, but they hadn’t had enough, and they came back." She paused. "Jess gave one a dislocated shoulder, and he took off."

Glances traded around the room. "And the other?" Lestan asked, leaning forward.

No answer from Xena, but her mouth twitched into a feral grin.

"I see." Lestan replied, taking a breath. "That will… complicate things." Gods. She killed him. And it was probably one of his prize border raiders, and they had a witness.

She shrugged in apology. "Came at me with a sword, Lestan."

And she had been unarmed, he realized. "No fault to you, Xena." He smiled at her. "Wish I could have been there." And looking around the room, at the glints in familiar eyes, he realized he was not the only one who felt that way. But.. "That does put a spin on things, though." He glanced at Wennid. "Secan will want her."

Wennid’s eyebrows rose, and she shook her head. "Damn fool."

A loud bang shook the room, and they all jumped. "Now that I have your attention. " Xena said calmly. "Wanna let me in on just what in HADES is going on here?" She felt a gentle hand on her back, as Gabrielle leaned close to hear the answer, and she half turned and caught the bard’s glance, and the smile she was trying to wipe off her face. Liked that, huh? Xena thought, amused, then turned her attention back to Lestan. "Well???"

So he told her. About Secan, and his clan, who had sent an ultimatum, either capitulate, or fight, or send their best in single combat against him.

"So, we have a problem, Xena. We have no one that can match him, and his rangers are better trained, and more experienced than the fighters here." Lestan sighed. "And it would burn my soul to give into him, but I have lives to think of." His eyes met hers. "And now, sure as the sun rises in the morning, he’s going to demand I turn you over to him as part of the surrender."

Xena laughed. And the sound skittered around the room dancing off the woven walls and the watching forest dwellers. "I guess I’ll have to tell him I’m not yours to surrender." She remarked, letting her gaze travel around the room. "No chance of fighting them off? "

Warrin cleared his throat, giving Xena a direct stare. "We’d lose badly."

Silence.

"Why?" Came the surprising question from the warrior.

Jessan’s uncle blinked at her. "Because they have the fire in the blood, and we do not." Not expecting her to understand the lust that fueled Secan’s rangers that made them almost unstoppable fighters. That let them kill without regret.

Xena nodded slowly. She did understand, probably better than Warrin knew. Probably better than Warrin himself understood. "Ares’ gift." She said, quietly. Feeling the stirrings of it in her own blood.

"Aye." Warrin replied.

"You don’t always need that." Xena remarked, as she sat back and let her arm rest on Gabrielle’s shoulder. "You can use intelligence instead."

Lestan watched both of them, aware he was viewing a fencing match as deadly as any with live steel. "What do you mean, Xena?" He interrupted them.

She turned and regarded his face. "I mean strategy sometimes will win a day when you’re outnumbered, outclassed, and outfought."

"You’re daft." Warrin snorted, and shook his head. "You have no idea what you’re saying. Would you ask us to go to our deaths on the chance of strategy?"

"Isn’t that what you want?" Gabrielle’s voice carried clearly across the table, and was followed by a deathly stillness. Her mist green eyes bored into his. "Why are you trying to convince everyone that there’s no chance? That giving up is the only option?"

Warrin stood, and walked slowly over to her, his face a mask. He stopped within striking distance, and felt his nostrils flaring as his temper began to rise.

Gabrielle rose smoothly to meet him, exquisitely aware of the hair trigger tension running through the shoulder she had a hand casually on. She squeezed the muscles gently. Give me a chance here, love. She waited for his response.

"I wouldn’t risk even a one of my brothers or sisters in a foolish plan that’s doomed to failure, you little idiot." Warrin hissed. "You have so little knowledge of what we are. Go back to your human city and let us take care of our own problems."

The bard calmly regarded him. "Sometimes you have to risk the things you love, Warrin." Her eyes bored into his. "I live with that risk every minute of the day, but that would never stop me from putting myself on the line for something I believed in. And if you don’t believe in yourself, and the freedom of your people, than what’s the point?"

Xena had half turned, and was watching them, with a quiet smile. Then saw Warrin’s body twitch, and pinned him with a stare. "Don’t." She snapped, a growl in her voice that was echoed by the small damp body at her feet.

One word, and she was unarmed, and in a room filled with potential enemies twice her size, and not one of them would have made a move towards her. They wanna see Ares’ gift? Fine. Xena mused, and let the fire rise up in her, and knew they felt it. That it was closer to the surface in her than it was in them.

"Fools." Warrin spat, and turned on his heel. But it was a retreat, and they all knew it. The scarred forest dweller left the room, and there was silence in his wake.

Gabrielle let out the breath she’d been holding, and flicked her eyes to her partner, and saw the swiftly hidden grin. "Well." She sighed, and sat back down, moving a little closer to Xena.

The warrior slid an arm around her and turned to face Lestan again. "Apologies, Lestan."

The older forest dweller shook his head. "Not needed." He grunted. "Warrin does not risk lightly, as you can imagine. He says what he feels is best for our clan.. and I value him for that." He hesitated. "But Gabrielle’s words ring true in my heart as well." A glance around the room told him that his sentiment was shared. "Is there a strategy that will get us out of this damned hole?"

Now all eyes turned to Xena, and Gabrielle watched her gaze go inward for a long moment. "Maybe." She finally answered. "I’d need more details on his fighters. And yours." She looked around. "Maybe I could teach you a few… " A grin curled her lips. "Tricks.. Secan’s never seen."

They grinned back, and a little thrill of excitement traveled around the table, responding to her air of confidence. "Tell you what." Xena took a deep breath. "I’ll take a look at the situation. If it’s as Warrin says.. if there really is no hope, maybe Gabrielle here can help work out some kind of agreement that’s not as bad for your clan."

The bard worked very hard to keep the look of utter surprise off her face. Wow. Didn’t expect that. But she felt a warm glow of pride at the words, and she slid her arm around the warrior and gave her a quick squeeze of thanks.

"But if there’s an honorable way out…" she let the thought trail off, and saw the response in their eyes. "I’ll find it."

Lestan reached across the table, and grasped her wrist. "You don’t have to do this, Xena. It’s really not your fight."

Xena laughed. "Seems to me I’ve heard that phrase around these parts before." Then she sobered, and met his eyes. "I know that." A pause, and a sly grin. "But I never could resist a good brawl."

They nodded at each other in understanding. "Very well." Lestan sighed, then realized his lifemate was poking him. "Oh. Sorry." A grin in their direction. "Will you join us for dinner tonight?" He ignored their smiles. "I can get all the information about Secan’s warriors and let you see it."

Xena half turned her head, and raised an eyebrow at Gabrielle, who nodded. "Sure." She said. "We’d be glad to." She glanced outside, at the sheeting rain, which still battered the conference room, and the lightning that lit the village in stark relief at frequent intervals. He’s right. This isn’t my fight, and I could, in all honor, just leave his territory and let him settle things their way. Once up on a time that's exactly what I would have done. But now… she searched her heart and sighed. I’ve changed too much.. very stupid, Xena. She smiled inwardly. But it feels… really good to know just how naturally that choice comes to me now. Maybe.. She cut the thought off. "Well, I need to go get wet again, then change into something dry, and so does my partner here. So.."

They broke up the meeting, and headed off into the cold rain, but not a few of them noticed that the chill didn’t seem to penetrate quite so deep, now that the warmth of hope was there to counteract it.

The rain hit them like a waterfall as they left the conference room, and stepped down off the porch. "Damn." Xena cursed, pulling Gabrielle closer and ducking her head. "I know I like a rainy day, but…" She felt the bard chuckle, then start to pull away. "Hey…?"

"Gotta get something for lunch." The bard shouted, nodding towards the communal kitchen. "You didn’t get breakfast."

"I’ll get it." Xena said, giving her a shove towards the cot they’d been assigned. "You go dry off and warm up."

Gabrielle took a stubborn grasp on her arm. "Look, I remember what you said this morning, and you’re the one who needs to go sit down. So go.. OK?"

Xena stopped, and wrapped her arms around the bard’s neck. "Gabrielle, I really, truly am fine. Would you go on, please… you know I hate being sick.. " Her hands gently cupped Gabrielle’s chilled face. "But you also know I hate you getting sick a lot more." She paused, seeing the look in the bard’s eyes. "You don’t believe me, do you?"

Gabrielle shook her head. "Nope." She put her hands on her hips. "I think you’re pulling that stoic Warrior Princess routine on me like you usually do."

Got a sigh from the warrior. "Ok." Xena remarked, then quickly scooped Gabrielle up into her arms, and stood there for a moment, looking down at the surprised bard. "Look at me." She said, gently, and watched the green eyes track to hers. "This close, I couldn’t hide a hangnail from you, right?"

The bard studied her face intently, looking for the tiny tensions around her eyes and mouth that weren’t there, and felt the firm steadiness of her body and the arms that held her securely off the ground. "I don’t understand." She finally said, lifting a hand and stroking her face gently. "What happened?"

"Long story." Xena said. "I’ll tell you later. Once you go inside and dry off!" She let her voice drop to a menacing growl.

"But.." The bard protested, ""Look, that can’t just vanish.." She sighed in frustration. "Xena, would you put me down?" She growled, and tugged the front of the warrior’s tunic. . "I know you can put stuff out of your mind with no effort but.."

"Still don’t believe me, do you?" Xena said, with a momentary sad look in her eyes. "Hang on." She warned, and took a few powerful steps, leaped, crouched, and shot up into the air, diving foreword into a flip and landing in a mud puddle with an impressive splash.

Straightened up with no sign of discomfort, and stood easily, still holding the bard securely tucked in her arms. "Well?" she asked, watching the bard’s face through the rain.

Gabrielle let out a breath, and blew the wet hair out of her eyes, reaching for one wrist with her other hand and pressing sharply. "You’d better cut that out or lunch won’t be an option." She warned, but she couldn’t keep a smile off her face, and she wrapped her arms around Xena’s neck, nestling her head into her shoulder. "All right.. all right..I believe you.." She said, just absorbing the warmth. "But how.."

"Later." Xena said, giving her a hug. "Now, I’m going to let you down, and I want you to please, go and dry off. For me?"

Reluctantly, Gabrielle sighed, but kept her arms around Xena’s neck as the warrior released her and her feet touched the ground. "Only for you."

They stood there in the rain for a long moment, just absorbed in each other, ignoring the pelting water, the thunder, and the mud that was collecting around them. "Your lips are blue." Xena finally said, softly, ducking her head and solving the problem neatly and thoroughly. "Better?" she asked, after a bit.

"Huh?" The bard blinked, shaking her head a little. "What? Oh..lips. Right." She gazed up at Xena’ amused face with a dreamy look., then sighed. "Right.. I’m going." She headed off toward their cot at a brisk pace, and was soon lost in the sheeting rain.

Xena chuckled, and headed towards the kitchen, sloshing mud and water with her booted steps cheerfully. She ducked into the large double size cot, to see several forest dwellers clustered around the firepit in obvious dismay. "Problem?" She inquired as they turned to see who had entered.

"Xena." The closest one murmured, and spread a hand towards the firepit. "Uhm.. in a manner of speaking. Rain came down the chimney and put the fire out. We have nothing warm but some soup.. but you’re welcome to it. She cast an irritated eye towards the trays of cut ingredients waiting for cooking. "Ares’ blood. That’s going to spoil by the time we get this thing restarted."

Xena peered at the trays, then at the broth. Then grinned. "Can I take some of this stuff, too?" She asked, cocking an eyebrow at them.

The cook stared at her. "It’s raw."

"Uh huh." The warrior agreed. Now.. I can’t wait for the rumors of my eating raw meat to spread around. "That’s ok."

All four forest dwellers glanced at her, then at each other. "Sure." The cook said, sweeping her arm towards the trays. "Help yourself."

And Xena did, collecting a selection of raw meats and uncooked vegetables, a covered pot of the broth, and some of the various condiments the forest dwellers used for seasoning their sometimes bland meals. "Thanks." She said, then paused in the doorway. "Don’t try to relight that. Just clear the pit, and start from scratch."

Raised eyebrows. "Had this happen?" The cook asked, with the start of a smile on her face.

Xena chuckled. "My mother’s an innkeeper." She answered, then ducked out the door and disappeared into the driving storm.

The forest dwellers looked at each other. "She has a mother?" One snorted, with a surprised look.

Xena stepped up onto the porch of their cot, and shook herself, scattering water all over the already drenched surface. Bet I look a sight.. her mind thought in amusement. The door opened as she reached it and Gabrielle grabbed her dripping tunic and pulled her inside. "Hey.." She laughed as the bard closed the wooden panel against the storm.

Inside, the cheerful flames of a well-laid fire lighted the cot, and several candles were scattered about, dispelling the gloom from outside. Gabrielle was wrapped in one of her heavier shirts, and had her cloak around her for good measure. "Get in here." She ordered, taking the items Xena was carrying and putting them on the table. "Hold still." She added, starting to unfasten the dripping tunic Xena was wearing.

"Wa..." Xena started to protest, then stopped, and just stood easily, with her arms hanging loosely at her side as Gabrielle undid the belt of the tunic, and stripped it off of her, tossing the garment over the back of one of the chairs and stepping closer with a piece of dry linen. "What did I do to deserve this treatment?" She teased the bard, who was industriously drying her off.

"Who said I’m doing this for your benefit?" Gabrielle answered, then blushed. "Gods..I can't believe I said that." She finished her task, and tossed Xena the shirt she had slung over her shoulder. "Here." She sighed, trying to ignore the warrior's delighted laughter as she pulled the fabric over her head. "Now.. explain to me what happened out there."

Xena settled the shirt around her with a sigh, and pulled her damp hair out from under the collar. "Well..." She paused, as she sat down on the chair and started untying her boots. "I.. I felt pretty bad this morning." She looked up at the bard's face, which had sobered.

"I know." Gabrielle said quietly, as she pulled up the chair next to her and sat down, putting one hand out and rubbing Xena's arm.

The warrior finished removing her boots, setting them down on the wooden floor, and leaned forward, bracing her elbows on her knees and letting her head drop down between her shoulders for a moment. Then she took a breath, and propped her chin on her hands. "It was.. really discouraging.. even just walking was hard, Gabrielle."

"Because it hurt?" The bard asked, softly, moving closer.

Xena shook her head. "No." She gave the bard a half grin. "Balance was off. I can't.. describe what that feels like." She looked off into the distance for a moment. "Usually.. I always know where I am." A pause. "I don't have to have my eyes open.. or even think about it. I just always.. know. Up from down, that kind of thing."

Gabrielle stayed silent, not wanting to stop this unprecedented look at how Xena knew herself to operate.

"This was..it was driving me nuts, really." Xena admitted, with a rueful smile. "It felt all wrong."

The bard linked her arm through her partner's and rested her head against one shoulder. "I know.. I could feel how frustrated you were."

"Could you?" Xena murmured. "Anyway, there I was, stumbling along.."

"I doubt that." Gabrielle interrupted with a sly grin.

"Do you want to hear this or not?" The warrior asked, raising an eyebrow.

The bard dropped her head against Xena's shoulder again, and quieted. "Sorry, love. Go on."

"Rabbit." Xena sighed.

"Excuse me?" Gabrielle asked, rubbing her cheek against the soft sleeve of Xena's shirt.

"A rabbit crossed the path in front of me, and Ares started chasing it." Xena replied gruffly. She paused. Well, it's embarrassing.. but this is Gabrielle, and she'll only laugh for a minute. "He tripped me, and I fell off the path and down an embankment." She waited patiently for the giggles, and gave the bard a sideways glance when they didn't materialize.

"Were you all right?" The bard asked in a gentle voice, straightening up, and lifting a hand to smooth the dark damp hair out of Xena's face. Gods.. how she must have felt. Ouch.

"More or less." The warrior shrugged. "I slammed into a tree." She leaned into the pressure of the bard's hand on her face. "Felt pretty bad about that." She admitted, quietly.

"I know." And Gabrielle realized she did - that it had been that moment she'd sensed during her storytelling. "Gods, Xena.. you should be more careful."

"Yeah, I know." Came the answer, on the heels of a quiet sigh. "So after I just laid there feeling sorry for myself for a bit, I told myself to stop being such a self pitying idiot and get going, and when I sat up.. " She shrugged her shoulders and laughed helplessly. "The pain, and the dizziness was gone."

"Just like that?" Gabrielle asked, in disbelief.

"Just like that." The warrior confirmed, with a wan smile. "I was really surprised."

"I just bet you were." Gabrielle snorted, shaking her head. "I don't.. Xena, for the sake of the gods, do you know what might have happened if..."

Xena lifted her head, and met the bard's eyes in a direct stare. "If that bounce had gone the wrong way and fractured my back, or done worse damage? Yeah I do."

Gabrielle's voice deepened with anger. "They why.. how could you deliberately risk that?" Her eyes blazed. "What on earth were you thinking of?"

Xena flinched, and drew back, blinking at her. "I didn't... I wasn't.." She fell silent, and just looked at the wooden floor, letting her fingers slide through her hair as she propped her head on her hands. "Obviously I wasn't thinking." She finally replied. "I'm not.. I'm used to making decisions and taking the consequences of them, good or bad, Gabrielle."

The bard took a shaky breath. "Do you understand what it would do to me if something like that happened to you?" There. In one sentence. Now it's out in the open. "Do you know how much I hurt... when you do?"

Xena stared at her hands for a moment, then looked up. "As much as I do for you, yes." She took a deep breath, and made a quiet decision. "But what I do.. is so much a part of what I am... that I’m not sure just how much I can change.. that." Or how much you want me to change it.

Gabrielle felt her shoulders relax slightly. "Can I tell you something?" She asked, gently.

"Anything." Came the expected response.

"I don't care what you are." The bard replied, and moved closer again, putting a hand on the warrior's knee, and feeling the aching tension in the muscles under the skin. "I wouldn't care if you were a beggar in the streets, or a cloth merchant in Athens, or an innkeeper in Amphipolis." She felt the tears well up and ignored them. "In case you haven't figured this out yet, I love who you are, Xena. The person you are, who has my heart so fully, and so completely that I don't have words enough to describe it."

Blue eyes opened wide and met hers. "I can't imagine why." Xena finally answered, after a long moment of searching her face.

"Because I don’t just love you." The bard answered, with a little smile. "I like you. A lot. I enjoy being with you just because you are who you are." She paused. " Because you’re smart, and you’re funny, and.. I just… you make me feel really good when I’m around you. That’s all." She hesitated, then let her fingers trace the muscular lines on Xena’s thigh. "I guess what I’m trying to say is.. you do a lot of unbelievable things.. but those things have nothing to do with why I love you.. and it wouldn’t matter to me one bit if you chose not to do them." She glanced up at the still and watchful face. "Is this making any sense?" She paused. "Do you believe me?"

Xena swallowed, and let out a long held breath. "That takes a lot of believing." Her eyes searched Gabrielle’s with stark intensity, then let a quiet smile cross her lips. "But yeah. I believe you." Just take it on faith, Xena. That’s a gift. "Look... " she sighed. "I know.. you were right, Gabrielle. I know.. I have to change the way I think.. about some things. The way I do some things. It just... it'll take a little time."

Gabrielle reached out and grasped the powerful hands resting between Xena's knees and interlaced their fingers. "We have forever." She said, with quiet confidence. "Take as long as you like."

Forever. Xena's mind played that through several times as she allowed herself to just get lost in Gabrielle's gentle regard. I think she may have enough belief in that.. to carry both of us. Hades... be gentle with me when we meet.. and if she's got a good argument, remember you owe me one for that helmet, and listen to her.

"So, " Gabrielle said, after a very long silence. "End result, you hit the tree, it fixes you?"

Xena cleared her throat, and shrugged deprecatingly. "More or less, yeah."

"Uh huh." The bard sighed. "And you persist in believing that there is no magic involved in any of this."

"Uhm." Xena's mouth twitched. "How about some lunch?"

"You're impossible." Gabrielle chuckled, and stood up, stretching luxuriously, then giggled as Xena tickled her ribs. "Cut that out." She examined the collection of things Xena had brought back. "I hate to tell you this, love, but that's raw." Her eyebrows rose, and she cast an amused glance back at her partner.

"Oh..yeah.I know." Xena drawled, reaching over and grabbing the pot of broth, and moving it over the hearth. "Back in my more..." Her eyes glinted "Uhm.. .back in the old days, when I used to take a little more time and effort over meals - sometimes I'd take a tray of this and that.. and just cook it in hot broth. Dip it in whatever I had around.." She glanced at the fascinated bard. "Nice way to spend a rainy afternoon." She paused. "Interested?"

Ohh.. she was right. Gabrielle later thought to herself, sprawled on the thick rug in front of the fire, leaning back against Xena's stomach, with one arm draped casually over the warrior's leg. "This was a great idea." She said out loud, accepting another cooked tidbit and swallowing it with pleasure."We gotta do this more often."

Xena chuckled, stretching a little, and settling herself again, half reclined against a soft pillow from the couch that she'd borrowed. "Not too often." She warned. "This is pretty decadent."

Gabrielle's eyebrow quirked, and she glanced over her shoulder at Xena's fire lit face. "You have a problem with that?" She asked, taking a piece of lightly cooked beef from the simmering broth, dipping it in a sweet sauce the forest dwellers had a particular fondness for, and offering it to the warrior, who took it neatly in her teeth and chewed it. "Like that?" The bard asked, knowingly.

Xena nodded. "Uh huh."

Gabrielle grinned, and poked a finger at her. "You have a sweet tooth."

For a minute, she though the warrior was going to deny it, then her partner relaxed into a chuckle. "Yeah." she admitted, rolling her eyes. "I've always had one. Just ask mother." She gave the bard a lazy scratch on the back. "So do you." She accused, dipping her finger in the sweet sauce, and touching the bard's lips with it.

Gabrielle's eyes twinkled. "Yep. I sure do." She cheerfully acknowledged, licking the sauce off with evident enjoyment. "And you have no idea just how glad I am that we run around like idiots out here, so I can safely indulge that, without worrying about the consequences."

"Oh.. so that's your real reason for hanging around me, huh?" Xena teased, sliding an arm around her middle and hugging her.

"Sure.. quality sparring." Gabrielle agreed, half-turning and snuggling closer. "Besides..." she ran her hands up the warrior's body. "You're a really good inspiration."

Got a raised eyebrow back. "I am?" Xena queried, reaching up and riffling her fingers through Gabrielle's now dry hair, which crackled around her hand and clung to it.

"You really are." The bard confirmed, sliding her hands slowly down Xena's arms. "I love the way you look." She breathed, and felt her body react sharply as she felt the warriors fingertips touch the bare skin at her hip, and travel up her side with a delicate, knowing pressure.

"You're not so bad yourself." Xena advised her, as she leaned over and nibbled the bard's ear, grinning as she heard the sudden intake of breath at the light pinch.

"You know.." Gabrielle had just the presence of mind to mumble, as she gave into her instincts. "I'm starting to have a real thing for rainy days."

"Uh huh." Xena's barely heard response. "Me too."

The harsh roar of thunder caused Xena to lazily open one eye some time later, as she gazed out the window, contentedly watching the rainfall. One hand made slow, soothing circles on Gabrielle's sleeping back, the other rested comfortably on her own stomach, rising and falling with her relaxed breathing. She yawned, and let her eyes close, as the patter of rain on the thickly thatched roof seductively urged her back into sleep. No no... her mind scolded, and she opened the eye again.

The candles had burned down, and now the room was mostly lit from the fireplace, and was shadowed in darkness from the storm outside. Xena shifted a little, and blinked open both eyes, running the council session through her mind.

A cold draft blew in the window, and she lifted her arm, pulling her cloak closer, and tucking the ends neatly around Gabrielle’s shoulder. Not taking any chances with you getting sick again, my bard. Her mind mused, not after that last time. You had me scared out of all good sense.

"I’m fine" The bard had said, for the third time that day, when Xena had questioned her, but this time the words triggered a coughing spell that left her hanging on Argo’s saddle ring for support, and brought the warrior sliding down off the tall horse’s withers at breakneck speed.

"Easy." Xena had said, supporting her shoulders until her chest eased, and continuing to grasp her as she took a cautious breath, and leaned her head against Argo’s flank. "Damn." Xena cursed, and crouched to put a sensitive ear against the bard’s chest. "Breathe." She ordered.

Gabrielle had done so, and watched as Xena straightened up, and put a hand on her forehead, not bothering to hide her worried expression. "We need to find shelter." She told the bard. "I’d like to get to a town, but we’re three days from the nearest." Her eyes searched the area. "Those cliffs over there might have some caves, though. Can you hang on till we get there?"

"Sure." Gabrielle had assured her. "It’s just a cough, Xena." But she had heard the rattling in her own breathing, and knew better. Knew that the warrior knew that even better than she did.

"You’re riding." Xena replied, in a voice that brooked no disagreement. She vaulted back onto Argo’s back, and put an arm out to the bard, shaking her head when Gabrielle reached up for the back of the saddle. "No… in front." She corrected quietly, and lifted the bard up, helping her to swing one leg over Argo’s neck, and moving back in the saddle to allow Gabrielle to nestle in front of her, with one of Xena's powerful arms wrapped around the her middle for support.

Gabrielle had stayed very quiet, and after a while she had given up all attempts at pretending wellness, and simply allowed herself to slump back against Xena’s chest, and had closed her eyes, wearily attempting to doze between coughing fits.

Xena had pulled Argo to a halt next to the cliff, having located a decent sized cave, one large enough for even the horse to enter, and slid off the golden back, gently pulling Gabrielle off as soon as her booted feet were secure on the ground. The bard had swayed, holding on to Xena’s arms for support, and the warrior had made a quick decision, sliding one arm behind Gabrielle’s shudders, and one under her knees, and lifted her like a child.

"Hey. .I can walk." Gabrielle had protested, stifling a cough. "Xena, you don’t." Another cough stopped her, and she curled towards the warrior’s body, resting her head against one broad shoulder. "Oh gods." She’d whispered, and Xena had felt her heart skip.

"Hang in there, OK?" She’d said, right into the bard’s nearby ear. She’d gotten Gabrielle settled, and camp set up, carefully collecting a large supply of firewood, and searching the nearby underbrush for healing herbs she knew she was short of.

Gabrielle had gotten worse that night, and worse again the following day, unable to hold down even the smallest amounts of liquid from the coughing, which allowed her no rest. No rest for Xena either, who had felt a solid knot of panic starting to build in her chest, at this enemy which she had limited strength against.

Going into the darkness of that following night, Xena had adjusted the fire, after having the bard breathe a little of the aromatic steam made from pouring boiling water over crushed eucalyptus leaves, which seemed to help a little. The bard was half sitting, half lying on her sleeping roll, leaning against Argo’s saddle, which the warrior had propped under her so she wasn’t lying flat, and she’d looked up at Xena as she walked back over. "Xena." The bard had said her voice hoarse from coughing.

"Don’t’ talk." Xena had replied, settling to the ground next to her, and putting a hand on her arm. "You’re a little warm."

Gabrielle had nodded wearily, and Xena had hurt to see the paleness of her face, and the darkness of the circles under her eyes. "Hard to breathe." The bard had whispered, and Xena had been able to see the movement of her shoulders as her lungs labored to drag air into her clogged passages. And for the first time, a cold, bleak, knot of fear had gathered in the warrior’s gut, that closed her own throat.

"Cold." Gabrielle had pulled her cloak closer around her body, giving the warrior a wry attempt at a smile. Then her green eyes had found Xena’s, and the warrior responded to the unspoken plea there by sliding onto the bard’s bedroll, and opening her arms.

"Come here." Xena had said, lifting Gabrielle’s body up, and sliding in behind her so that the bard was resting against her chest, with the warrior’s strong arms wrapped around her. "That any better?" She asked, and had heard the break in her voice.

Gabrielle had half turned, and buried her face in Xena’s shirt, and tangled her fingers in the fabric as well. "I’m scared." She’d whispered, then tightened her hands convulsively as a cough racked her body. When it was over, she just lay quietly for a moment, then lifted her head, and peered up at the shadowed face above her. "Glad you’re here."

"Wish I could do more." Xena had answered, with a sigh.

"Glad its you.. and not someone else." The bard had said softly. "So much I want to say…"

"No." Xena whispered fiercely. "Don’t you start that." She had tightened her hold, and abandoned all pretenses towards distance between them. Her careful rationalizations of exactly why she felt an insatiable craving for physical contact with the bard flew out the window, and she just gave into her instincts, and felt Gabrielle do the same.

"Understand.. why you had Callisto help.." The bard responded, stifling a cough with an effort. "Sorry I got mad about that. You were right."

"It’s not important, Gabrielle. You don’t need to bring that up now." Xena protested quietly.

"Owe you.." The bard couldn’t stifle the cough this time, and it had shook her hard, and Xena had been able to hear the rattling sound as she tried to draw breath after it eased.

"You don’t owe me a damned thing." The warrior uttered in a low tone. "You need to get some rest, Gabrielle – try to sleep."

The pale head shook slowly. "Afraid."

"Of what? I’ve got you." Xena had consciously gentled her voice.

"That I won’t wake up." Gabrielle had choked out, and taken a shuddering breath

The words had sent a shock wave of terror through Xena’s body, and her heart started pounding with painful speed in her chest. No….

Gabrielle’s eyes had opened, and her head lifted, to push aside the sickness and the pain, focusing her gaze on Xena’s face. One hand moved up, and settled gently on Xena’s chest, her expression shifting from weary discouragement to startled wonder.

"Yeah." Xena had finally said, "So now you know what scares me, too." She paused. "So don’t you be going off anywhere, all right?"

Gabrielle had blinked at her. "All right." She’d whispered, her gaze going inward.

"Promise?" Xena had replied, aware suddenly of the fragility of the life she held wrapped in her arms.

The green eyes had jerked back and met hers for a timeless moment. "Promise." The bard had finally said, with a quiet air of decision about her. Then she closed her eyes, and with more confidence, laid her head down on Xena’s chest, so that her ear was pressed against the spot right over her heart.

And for all that long, dark night, Xena had held her close, standing sentinel against the cold wind, and the insidious power that was trying to pull Gabrielle away from her, her blue eyes roaming the interior of the cave, daring anything corporeal or otherwise to threaten her charge.

In the deepest hours of the night, when the human body reaches it’s lowest ebb, and when the journey between this life and the next comes the easiest, Xena had felt the bard stir, and sigh, and lift her face to gaze up at her.

"Think I’m gonna try to sleep a little." The bard had quietly said, having had a respite from the racking coughs for a short while.

"All right." Xena had answered, getting her to drink a little water, and giving her a smile when she managed to swallow a few mouthfuls without coughing. "I’ll be right here."

Gabrielle had nodded, and settled her head back down, and after hesitating briefly, moved her arms from their cramped position in front of her and slid them around Xena’s body. "Can’t think of a better reason to wake up." She’d mumbled, forgetting the ethereally sharp hearing of her companion, who let an unseen smile respond to the sentiment, as she turned her head to focus her hearing on the gentle rasp of Gabrielle’s labored breathing.

The sun had found her still listening, and as the first rays warmed the cave mouth, Xena’s heart lurched as the gentle rasping stopped.

But the body securely clasped in her arms still moved, the chest rose and fell with gentle regularity, and Xena realized that the worst was over. She had felt the smile that had crossed her face involuntarily, and as the relief poured through her, it melted down barriers she had kept up for a long time. She buried her face in Gabrielle’s hair, and just let the emotion out, taking a deep breath as silent tears dampened the soft red gold strands.

And had gotten caught at it as the warmth of the sun and the growing light woke the bard, and she blinked open her eyes, glancing up and going still as the dancing rays of dawn outlined Xena’s half smile, and reflected off the tears still glistening on her cheeks.

The bard could have said.. anything. But what she chose to say was nothing, instead, she had closed her eyes, and returned the half smile, and buried her face back into Xena’s linen clad chest with a contented sigh. And that had been enough for both of them.

"Hey." A sleep-blurred voice interrupted her thoughts.

Xena glanced down at the bard in amusement. "Hey yourself." She answered, still smiling from her thoughts.

"Whatcha thinking of?" Gabrielle yawned, charmed by the smile on her partner’s face.

"You." Xena answered, watching the bard blush a little in response. Good answer, Xena. Her mind chuckled. "And a little about the council."

Gabrielle stretched, then snuggled closer, flinching a little at a loud clap of thunder. "What’s up with that, Xena? It sounds like a no win situation.. do you think you can really… no, forget I asked that…" She smiled apologetically. "What’s the plan?" she asked instead.

Xena chuckled appreciatively. "It’s ok to question me, Gabrielle. You’ve been with me long enough to know I’m far from infallible." She chided the bard gently. "Right?"

"Mmmm…" Gabrielle waggled her hand. "I don’t know about that, love. You take sidetracks sometimes, but Hades if you don’t end up in the right place when the game’s over." She gave Xena a smile. "So… what’s the plan?"

The warrior laughed, a sound that never failed to enchant her partner. "OK.. OK… " She said, tweaking Gabrielle’s nose. "They’ve got a real problem, my bard." Her expression sobered. "Secan’s troops, if you can believe Warrin, are better trained, and better armed, and they drill all the time. Lestan’s fighters don’t’ have a good chance against them, and unless I can uncover some hidden talent, he really doesn’t have a standout fighter to send for a one on one encounter with Secan." She took a breath and a sip of cooled tea from a mug resting to her left.

"Uh huh." Gabrielle mused. "No chance of a negotiation? Seems like a more productive course to me." Her eyebrows arched, and she grinned. "Not that I’m suggested anything, here."

Xena snorted. "No no.. of course not." But her expression went serious. "I have only Lestan’s account to go by, but it doesn’t sound like Secan is willing to discuss a settlement, when he’s pretty sure he can win what he wants by force of arms." Her eyes narrowed. "Have to have leverage, and Lestan has none."

"So…" Gabrielle said, fingers tracing the outline of Xena’s ribs under the linen shirt. "What, then?"

"Well." Xena said softly, studying the thatched roof with sudden interest. "There is the obvious solution."

Gabrielle’s mouth opened then quietly shut. Of course, Xena was the obvious solution, because Secan and his well-trained fighters or not, her partner was one of the finest sword wielders ever to walk the surface of Greece. She knew that, even though Xena had never once clamed any such thing. The best of the best, Meleager had even whispered to her, watching Xena work, and that was high praise from her friend.

But Secan was an unknown quantity, and Xena was, evidence to the contrary notwithstanding, recovering from some pretty serious injuries. "Is that smart?" She finally asked, choosing her words carefully.

Xena shrugged. "Probably not. " She admitted. "And I’m pretty sure I won’t be allowed to directly interfere. Lestan inferred that I’d be disqualified due to the fact that I’m not a member of his people, or his clan."

"Oh." Gabrielle took a short little breath of relief. "That kind of makes sense."

"Mmm." Xena agreed, but her eyes were distant. "But… well, anyway. " She smiled at Gabrielle. "Plan so far is, I’d like you to continue what you were doing this morning – tell some stories, get some idea of how the clan feels about this whole thing. "

The bard nodded. "I can do that." She grinned. "But what will you be doing?"

A slow feral grin curled Xena’s lips. "What I do best." She smoothly drew her sword, resting close by her hand near the fire, and twirled the blade with smooth precision. "Maybe I can teach them a few tricks."

"I just bet." Gabrielle chuckled, then fell silent for a moment. "Xena.." She said, softly.

"Hmmm?" The warrior replied, resheathing the weapon with an economical motion, then meeting the bard’s worried eyes.

A short silence between them, then.. "Gabrielle.. " A gently reluctant smile. "You’ve been too much of an influence, my love. I can’t… I can’t walk away from this."

Gabrielle’s mouth twitched, and she glanced down, and studied her hand as it played with a button on Xena’s shirt. "Works both ways." She finally said, shaking her head a little. "Because I don’t want to see you walk away." She gave Xena a rueful smile. "But please be careful, all right?"

"Not a problem." Xena said, with a faint smile. "Too much here to stick around for."

Gabrielle blushed, and let her head fall back onto Xena’s shoulder. "Mmm.." She sighed, pressing closer. "This is nice." Her eyes twinkled. "What a great way to spend a rainy afternoon…" She quietly undid the button she’d been toying with, and slid a playful hand inside Xena’s shirt.

"Oh yeah?" Xena chuckled softly, feeling the sudden warm contact. "We’re a couple of lazy bums, I think." Her vague notions of getting up and doing a few chores dissolved like so much fog in the sunshine as the bard’s hands began a gentle exploration. Well… I could pretend I cared. Nah. I’m loving every minute of this.

"Got a problem with that?" Gabrielle smirked, lightly rubbing her fingertips in circles on her partner’s belly. "Hmm?" Grinned as she saw the smile start to creep across Xena’s lips. "Come on, Xena.. it’s raining like crazy, we’ve got nothing to do until dinner, and I don’t care what you tell me about the healer tree, you’re still recovering." She let her hand trace the fading bruises that still darkened the skin across most of the warrior’s midsection. "So close." She whispered, almost too quietly for Xena to hear. But she took a breath and resumed her smile before she looked up, stilling as she met the quiet anguish facing her. "No.. love, I'm sorry. I didn’t’ mean.."

Xena slowly put her head back down on the pillow, and let out a long breath. The dark images she’d been pushing to the back of her mind for days clustered close, and demanded entrance, and suddenly she had the overwhelming urge to share what she’d felt with Gabrielle. To feel those gentle hands, and hear that warm voice sooth away the lingering queasy terror.

"It was more than close." Her voice had a touch of hoarseness. "The air was running out, and it hurt.. so damn much… " She shivered, and Gabrielle immediately pulled the cloak tighter around both of them. "I t.. was dark, and part of me wanted so much to just give up. Let go. "

"But you didn’t." Gabrielle said, softly. "I knew you wouldn’t."

"No." Came the stark answer. "Because another part of me just got mad, and I.. " Her eyes fastened on Gabrielle’s. "Didn’t want to leave." A long pause. "I wasn’t ready.. there was so much I still wanted to.." She stopped, and swallowed hard, sliding her hand through the bard’s hair, and sighing. "All I could think of was how much I’d miss you."

Warm tears struck the bare skin stretched over the warrior’s ribs, and Xena moved her hand to gently wipe the bard’s eyes. "I couldn’t let that happen." She took a breath. "Then I could hear the rocks being shattered, and I felt them.. shifting around me. And I just…" Shaking her head. "Moved."

"I remember." The bard whispered, sniffling. "It was like…" She stopped, and shook her head. "I could feel you slipping.. away." Her voice broke on the word, and she had to stop for a long instant, taking several breaths before she continued. Felt Xena’s fingers tangle with hers, and gripped them hard. "And then you weren’t. Just like that."

"Just like that." Xena agreed quietly. "It was.. about the worst thing I’ve ever had to go through." And that admission seemed to bring the darkness into focus, as Gabrielle slid up, and put her arms around her.

"Gods." She groaned And felt again the horrible roaring as the mountain came down on top of her, and the closed, stifling blackness she’d endured for the better part of a very long day. All right.. all right… let it go past. C’mon, Xena, you know how to do this. Don’t scare Gabrielle.

"Easy." Gabrielle responded, feeling the shudder pass through her, and saw Xena’s face suddenly tense with the effort of dealing with the memories of her ordeal. Gods… when a mind that powerful decides to go off track.. what do I do? What do I say to her? "Take it easy, love." She tightened her hold, and for a second thought Xena was going to resist the contact, but then the warrior’s body relaxed, and she buried her dark head into the bard’s chest for an achingly long moment.

Gabrielle closed her eyes and swallowed, getting a sense of what her partner had been forced to go through. I couldn’t have… done that. She admitted to herself. When I was trapped in that coffin.. I just.. I gave up. The truth hurt, and she suddenly felt very small and a little ashamed. "I wish I had as much courage in my whole body as you do in a fingertip, Xena." She whispered, and that got the warrior’s attention, because she opened her eyes, and gazed up at Gabrielle’s face.

"I don’t…" Xena started, then sighed, and shook her head. "Feel very courageous right at the moment." She finished in a low tone of voice, closing her eyes and craving the bard’s gentle touch, which came then, a hand stroking her hair, and soft words of encouragement that trickled down her hearing and settled comfortingly into the stark coldness of her memories. I’ve never needed this before Her mind bleakly realized, and for a disturbing second she wondered if her experience had pushed her over a line there was no coming back from. Then common sense reasserted itself, and she relaxed a little Probably because she’s the first person I’ve ever trusted enough to allow them to see me like this. Be honest… strength you show everyone, but with her…

She abandoned herself for a time, just absorbing the warmth and love that Gabrielle offered with her voice and reassuring touch, soaking it in and letting it dissolve the dark walls that had suddenly closed in on her. After a bit, she took a deep breath, and leaned back against the pillow, giving the bard a half grin, that was immediately reflected back to her. "Thanks." Xena said, with quiet affection.

"Anytime." Gabrielle responded, flinching as a boom of thunder rolled over head. "Gods." She glanced back at Xena, who raised an eyebrow at her, and was gazing at her with a thoughtful expression.. "You OK?" She ducked again as lightning flashed, followed by a loud crack.

Xena thought about that. "I don’t know." She finally answered, facing what had been bothering her for days. "I think you were right…. I don’t… " I don’t know if I can even say this. Or what it means for me.. for her… "Something happened to me.. in there." Xena’s eyes went quietly introspective. "Something that’s made me doubt.. what I do.. why I do it… " A long painful pause. "Myself."

Gabrielle moved closer, and wrapped her fingers around Xena’s, her gaze all compassion. Gotta be careful here… she’s a field of hidden pits… one wrong step, and I can make this worse… Gods, I’m scared. "Xena.. that’s not an unusual thing when someone’s been through trauma."

Blue eyes studied hers. "Not for me." Xena quietly answered, glancing down. "Not sure why it’s so different this time." But as her eyes swept back up, and locked with Gabrielle’s, she knew the answer to that question. "Or maybe I do." A gentle smile. "I’ve never had so much to lose before."

Gabrielle’s mouth twitched into a small grin. "I think you just need to give it some time, love." She squeezed the warrior’s hand, and felt the strong fingers return the pressure. "I didn’t hear you hesitating when you had to defend Jessan. Or me, for that matter." Now she gave the warrior a real smile. "One word, and you had that entire roomful of hulking, fanged, overmuscled fighters shaking in their furry feet." A twinkle in her green eyes. "Don’t think I didn’t see that."

Xena’s brows creased. Damn. She’s right. Maybe.. it’s just making me think twice before I go risking my life.. hers… is that a bad thing?

"You may be right." Xena nodded slowly, and reached out a hand, snagging the bard’s shirt and pulling her closer. "I guess I just lost it there for a minute.. " She paused, and waited for Gabrielle to resume her favorite spot, and tucked the cloak back around her. "Are you OK?" She queried, feeling a shiver go through her partner’s body, on the heels of a sharp blast of thunder and a violent drumming as the rain came cascading down again, blowing in a cold wet smell through the windows, and carrying the scent of bruised vegetation and mud along with it.

"Yyyeah. " Gabrielle chattered. "Just got a chill." Because that crack of thunder is something I’ll never hear again without thinking about that landslide, Xena… this left scars on both of us, I think. "Better now." She assured the warrior, snuggling closer, Watched as Xena hitched herself up on one elbow, and reaching over, took the pot of still hot broth and tipped a good portion into a nearby cup.

"Here." She said, handing the cup to Gabrielle. "Take a good swallow of that."

The bard did so, and made an approving noise deep in her throat as she allowed Xena to pull her slightly upright, and settled herself back against the pillow, one hand curled around the mug, the other curled around her partner. Then she stopped, and glared at Xena. "Where’s yours?"

The warrior rolled her eyes, and grabbed another mug, chuckling as she poured herself a portion, then collected the scraps of their lunch and poured the remaining broth over it. "Here you go, boy." She commented, as Ares trotted over and plunged his muzzle into the bowl.

"Rww." The wolf mumbled.

Xena grinned, and leaned back with her broth, taking a sip and settling her free arm around Gabrielle. "Hey.. that’s not bad." She commented, taking a larger sip, enjoying the warmth and the taste. Aware of the fact that despite their recent lunch, she was still hungry, and that meant Gabrielle was right, her body was still using everything she was providing it for repairs.

"Here." The bard chuckled, tugging her arm down, and dumping the remainder of her own broth into Xena’s cup. "You need it more than I do." She patted her belly with a rueful grin. "I think I’m missing my sparring partner."

"Yeah right." Xena snorted, draining the cup and setting it down. "Like you have a problem with that. " She slid her hand inside the bard’s tunic, and tickled her ribcage, then moved lower and grinned as her partner’s giggles deepened, and her stomach muscles contracted under the warrior’s teasing touch. "A real problem there, Red."

Gabrielle squawked, and grabbed Xena’s tunic, rolling up and onto the warrior’s chest and baring her teeth. "What????" You did NOT call me that. Did Jessan pay you off? " She wrapped her hands in the soft fabric, and shook the warrior as hard as she could. "I’m gonna hurt you."

Xena was laughing so hard she had no defense against the bard’s tugging. "Ok..ok.." She finally gasped, waving a hand in surrender. "Forget I said that."

"Never." Gabrielle growled, pulling herself up so they were nose to nose. "If you ever…" and got no further, because Xena took advantage of her position and captured her lips in a long, teasing kiss. "Ever.." Gabrielle repeated, but in a much softer tone when they parted momentarily. And again was stopped. "Xena? " She finally murmured, after a slow series of escalations that had her entire body tingling.

"Yeah?" Xena drawled, moving her hands along the bard’s sensitive skin.

"You can call me anything you want." Came the mumbled response.

The healer’s hut was quiet, the heavy thatch roof absorbing the insistent rain, and the silence inside mainly broken by the scratch of a quill on parchment, as Elaini sat, updating her records.

Scratch scratch. Pause. Scratch. Longer pause, as Elaini let her head raise, and her eyes study her lone patient, peacefully asleep on his pallet.

Ares’ boots. Elaini sighed to herself, propping her chin on her hand and giving up the pretense of recordkeeping for the moment. It’s lighter in there. She’d convinced herself, better to do the records in the main room, rather than her own quarters. Right?

She snorted quietly. Stop fooling yourself, OK? You just wanted to be out here.. near him. And so she studied his face in profile, allowing herself the luxury seldom indulged in. He’s so cute.. she’d said to Gabrielle, but that wasn’t entirely true.

His face was too strong to be strictly cute, the jaw too decisive, and the eyes too deep set and piercing. Even in sleep, his features showed a slight tension, a testimony to the alertness of his senses. Elaini felt her eyes drink him in, and knew she was rapidly getting lost in an insane flood of… she didn’t know what.

I’m in love with him. In all that quiet, the thought seemed overdramatic, and she rolled her eyes at herself. Oh damn.

Footsteps treading on the porch, and she turned to see just who in the world was out in this weather. Pale fur, and shadowed eyes, scarred face and a powerful, sinewy body. "Warrin." Elani said with quiet sympathy. "Come to see your nephew? He’ll be fine."

"Not when I’m done with him." Warrin snapped, brushing by her, and heading towards the pallet. His heavy footsteps caused Jessan to stir as he approached, and the younger forest dweller turned his head and gave him a small smile

"Uncle War.." Got no further, as Warrin grabbed his chest fur, and tightened his fists. "Hey!"

"Exactly what happened out there." Warrin growled. "It could be the death of us. So tell me."

Jessan took a deep breath, and didn’t answer for a long moment. Saw Elaini standing quietly a few feet behind them, a watchful look on her face, and hid a grin. "Well.." Can’t give him the real story… "I was out running… and.. " He shrugged. "I got a little distracted, and rounded a blind corner without checking. They were waiting, and they jumped me."

"Distracted." Warrin spat. "Go on."

"It was more harassment than anything." Jessan remarked quietly. "But they were getting kind of rough, and then all of a sudden…" His lips twitched. "It started raining rocks."

"Rocks?" Elaini asked, from over Warrin’s shoulder.

"Uh huh." Jessan confirmed. "Rocks. Nailing them right in the face, too." He smiled a little. "They ran off, and then Xena came romping out of the forest, just checking things out."

"Romping?" Elaini muffled a grin.

"Well, she was." Jessan shrugged. "She was all kind of relaxed, and sort of bouncy, like she gets sometimes when she’s in a really good mood."

They both stared at him.

Warrin just shook his head. "Then what?"

"They came back." Jessan replied, not joking now. His golden eyes darkened. "No warning, no truce.. they just came at us." He licked his lips, and Elaini held out a waterskin without comment. "Thanks.." Their eyes met, and slid away from each other. "So.. one of them jumped all over me and we fought.. and.. " His face took on a feral look. "One had the misfortune to attack Xena."

Should I admit that’s how I got my ribs broken? Too damn busy watching her to guard against that last kick… "She vaulted over him and kicked down, and broke his neck."

Warrin grunted. "So." He said, staring at the floor. "Secan will want her." His eyes darted to Jessan’s. "Fight or no fight, he’ll want her. That one that died.. it was Elusha, you did know that."

Secan’s nephew, who, since the leader was sonless, was his choice for continuing his bloodline in the leadership. "Damn." Jessan cursed, wincing at the jolt in his side. "No.. I hadn’t seen him before."

"He’ll be through this village like a boar in the forest." Warrin stated flatly. "Unless he gets what he wants."

"He’ll never get that." Jessan said, quietly. "Father won’t allow it, Warrin. She saved his life." Not to mention SHE won’t allow it…

"Wont he." Warrin said softly, and his dark eyes slitted. "Perhaps you’re right.’ And he stood, his face going expressionless. "Perhaps." And with the scratchy sound of claws on wood, he turned and padded out, slipping out the door and into the driving rain.

Elaini and Jessan studied each other covertly for a moment, then Elaini gave in to her insistently driving instincts and knelt by his pallet, straightening the covers with a self-conscious twitch. "He sounded… " She said, lifting her eyes to his. "Upset."

"Yeah." Jessan muttered, wondering. "He’ll probably try and convince father to give Xena up to Secan." Aware suddenly of her closeness, and the pale softness of her fur. And the lovely spicy scent of her.Whoa… his mind blinked at him, surprised. What’s going on? This is Elaini, right? Right. "No chance of that." He assured her.

"No?" Elaini said, unable to resist putting a hand out, and touching his forehead, where an errant blow had put a deep bruise. "That’s a bad one." She observed, with a professional air.

"Yeah." Jessan answered, closing his eyes, and feeling her touch. Oh Ares.. this can’t be happening… "Little tired." He mumbled, needing time to think.

"Too true." Elaini said softly, removing her hand and standing up. "I’m sure Lestan will do what’s right." As she stood and went back to her table, and picked up her quill.

And used the whittled instrument to idly draw tiny flowers as she gazed unseeing out the window into the future.

Gabrielle reluctantly dragged her eyes open, and took a deep breath, enjoying the odd mixture of rain-wet air, smoldering wood in the fireplace, and the familiar scent of her soulmate . A sly glance up told that said soulmate was still fast asleep, and Gabrielle was careful to make no movement that would wake her up.

She needs this. The bard’s mind felt the truth of it .Even if she won't admit it, either to me or to herself. She paused a moment, just listening to Xena's steady breathing. Though I’ve gotten her to sit still this time a lot more than usual. She tilted her head carefully, and studied her partner, approving the return of her normal healthy color, and that she seemed relaxed, her body free from pain. You’re going to be all right, you crazy warrior. She mused affectionately. Gods, you scare me a lot.. But.. I think you scared yourself this time.

Gabrielle glanced out the window, and was glad to see the rain slowing. She yawned peacefully, and was about to snuggle back down when her world erupted in violent savage motion.

Never seeing Xena move, but finding herself tucked down flat on the floor, a warning hand on her back, and then the warrior was exploding through the air, powerful hand snapping closed on something then releasing it, and diving back across Gabrielle’s body, pulling her dagger from her armor and whipping it sideways.

Catching another invisible something in the air, then rolling, bleeding off her momentum, and shifting forward to launch herself towards the door, stopping in the entrance, and just watching, one hand resting negligently on the wooden frame.

Silence. Gabrielle stayed where she was, and waited for an all clear, which came in the form of a warm hand on her back, and a whispered word. She rolled cautiously over, and looked at her partner, seeing all traces of sleep gone from her body as though she'd been awake for hours. How on earth does she do that?

"Well." The bard said, taking several breaths as she sat up and gazed at Xena. "I’d say there’s nothing wrong with your reflexes, love." Trying to smile, and waiting for her heart to stop going double time. "That was… " Amazing, Incredible, Impossible. Still looking for more words for her, aren’t I?" "What was it, anyway?"

Xena’s face was very still, always a bad sign. "Someone wanted us very asleep." The warrior answered quietly, holding up a hand, and dropping it’s contents in front of where Gabrielle was sitting. It was a small, feathered dart, the tip stained an uncomfortable shade of crimson.

They looked at each other.

"Wow… so we have a mystery." Gabrielle said, picking up the dart carefully, and examining it.

"No." Xena’s face twitched. "I know who it was."

Gabrielle’s mist green eyes searched hers with unerring accuracy. "Warrin?" She guessed, quietly.

A nod from Xena.

"Why?" The bard asked. "I mean.. sure, he was mad when he left that council, but what would be the point of… Xena, I don’t understand."

The warrior sat down cross-legged on the thick rug next to her, and propped both elbows on her knees, leaning forward and playing with the fur. "I think I understand." She replied quietly. "He figures if he delivers us.. or at least me.. " Her lips twitched "to Secan, that might give him leverage enough to work out a deal." Xena shrugged. "It’s not a bad plan… might have even worked."

Gabrielle stared at her, appalled. "How can you just sit there and be so calm about that?"

Xena smiled a little. "He’s trying to protect people he loves, Gabrielle." Her eyes met the bard’s. "I might have done the same, if it were you."

"No you wouldn’t." The bard quietly answered. "Because I wouldn’t want my life bought at that price, and you know that."

And Xena did know it, and hoped and prayed that she’d never have to make that decision.. because to not act would lose her Gabrielle in this lifetime. And acting might lose her for longer than that. "Yeah, I know that." She acknowledged. "We should get ready for dinner. I want to stop by the healer’s cot and see Jess before we go over."

Gabrielle studied her for a moment. Do I let her get away with that subject change? She watched the blue eyes watching her and smiled inwardly. It was the ‘drop it, please?’ look. Yeah, this time. "Sounds like a plan." She stood up, and started to move towards their gear.

"Whoa!" A sudden yell, as Ares trotted into her path, and the next thing she knew she was falling. "Hades." She muttered, and closed her eyes. "This is gonna hurt."

But hands caught her in mid fall, and she found herself cradled in Xena’s protective arms instead of hitting the wooden floor, and she gave Ares a suspicious look. "Did you train him to do that?" She accused the warrior.

"Sure." Xena said, with an impish grin. "He’s got good timing, huh?" She noticed that Gabrielle was making no effort to escape her grasp. "Comfortable?"

"Mmm hmmm." The bard laughed. "I feel.. very protected." And her mouth twitched as she remembered the last time she’d said that.

A moonlit glade, in a heavily foliaged patch of jungle around the hidden temple where they’d found the ambrosia, and where she’d walked back out from under the shadows, and her life had changed again, this time for the better. She’d spent the first little bit of time after they’d gotten out of the temple just trying to convince herself she wasn’t dreaming.

That the person sitting quietly on that rock, bathed in silver light was no ghost, no figment of her sorely tested imagination, but was real, and alive, and who had pulled her close in a long hug after Autolycus had left, and the Amazons had started to set up camp for the night. They’d eaten dinner, and Xena had even come up with a few wryly humorous comments, surprising the Amazons and delighting Gabrielle. Then the fire had settled down, the exhausted Amazons had set a watch, and otherwise snugged down tight for some well deserved rest, and she’d found herself sitting on her bedroll, facing a quietly pensive Xena.

Who was seated on her own bedroll close by, leaning against a convenient rock, with both arms wrapped around one upraised knee. Those blue eyes had studied her for a long moment before the warrior cocked her head a bit, and spoke gently. "You all right?"

"Me? " the bard had said, "I’m not the one who’s.." And found she couldn’t say the words, couldn’t even think them. "Yeah." She finally sighed. "I’ll be fine. It’s just been… a really bad week." She had glanced up and searched Xena’s silent face. "How are you doing? You need.. water, or anything?"

The warrior had smiled ruefully. "I’m a little tired, I guess." She took a breath. "Feels funny."

"What does?" Gabrielle had asked softly, just wanting to hear her voice more than anything else.

"Breathing." Xena had answered. "Talking, moving…" She took a sip of the hot herbal tea in her mug. " I missed being able to.. feel things… " Her eyes locked on to Gabrielle’s. "Missed being able to just talk to you."

And that had hit Gabrielle hard, as she realized things were changing a little between them. That had started in that clearing with Autolycus, and hadn’t ended with her willingly surrendering control of her body when the warrior had asked her to. Had asked if she was willing. Gabrielle had to laugh silently to herself. What a question. That had been.. awesome. She hadn’t felt any fear, even when Velasca had almost forced her to fall into the flaming pit below, no fear, only a fierce racing of the blood, which had surged through her like strong wine. And she had felt protected, as though she was wrapped in a warm blanket, realizing that warmth had to be coming from Xena. "I really missed being able to talk to you, too." She answered in a small voice, but then smiled wryly. "Even though I talked to you anyway." A depreciating shrug. "You know me."

"I know." Xena had replied. "I heard you."

Then they’d just looked at each other, for a long time, until Xena leaned over, and tapped the bard on the knee, and smiled. "Missed being able to just do that, too."

And Gabrielle had captured her hand, and wrapped her fingers around Xena’s larger ones, and pressed gently. "Me too." Heard the crack in her voice that made her look down, and stare at their linked hands. And swallow hard. Damned if I’m going to break down now. She had thought fiercely to herself. Not after all that. And had taken a very deep breath, and forced a smile onto her face, and looked back up.

Xena’s eyes were fastened on her face, and there was a rare, gentle warmth there that had shimmered over her in a welcome wave. "You need to get some rest, my bard." Xena had said, and then her lips had quirked a little at Gabrielle’s shyly startled look at the endearment.

"Yeah… " Gabrielle had finally managed to respond, and had given that warm hand a final squeeze, and lain down facing Xena, as the warrior did the same, making the last thing she saw before surrendering to her exhausted body and mind a pair of blue eyes just… watching over her.

And the nightmares claimed her again that night, the same damnable scene seared deep into her mind’s eye but this time… this time, a hand shook her awake, and she surged up, heart racing, to see concern scrawled across a face she’d seen only in cold stillness in those nightmares for far too long. Before she could stop herself, she’d put a shaking hand out and touched Xena’s face, just to prove she was real, and it fractured her.

Her composure broke apart into a thousand shards, and the only thing holding her together was a pair of strong arms that wrapped themselves around her and kept her safe as she let out all the grief she’d held inside since she’d left Nicklios. "Oh gods" She gasped, when she’d taken a break to breathe "You’re here… it’s not a dream. You're really here..you really are." Feeling the warmth of her body under shaking hands, and hearing the steady beat of the warrior's powerful heart under the ear she had pressed to her chest.

"I’ll always be here, Gabrielle." Xena’s voice gently reassured her, and that sound became a lifeline that netted her soul out of the dark waters it had been drifting in. "I promise you."

And with that, the exhaustion of the past while just took her out, and she didn’t even remember falling asleep, waking in confusion the next day with the late morning sun filtering through the trees, painting splotches of alternating light and dark over the leaf littered floor, and became aware of a warm, silent presence by her side, and a casual arm draped over her shoulders.

Looking up and watching Xena’s relaxed but alert face idly scanning the surrounding forest had to rank right up there as one of the most beautiful things she’d ever seen. "Hi." She said, reaching out a hand to reassure herself of her realness again. "It’s late."

Xena had smiled down at her, and patted her shoulder. "You looked like you needed the sleep."

"Been up long?" The bard yawned, and propped her head up on one hand.

The warrior had nodded. "Wanted to watch the sun rise." She said quietly, then paused. "Had a lot to think about." And there had been a hesitant, veiled sadness in her eyes. "So.. what’s it going to be like being the Amazon Queen?"

Gabrielle had looked up at her, studied the look of friendly interest there, and sensed the faint hint of… regret? fear? She couldn’t decide which that lay beneath the half smile and lurked in the back of that clear blue gaze, but it plucked a chord in her heart that she hadn’t expected.

So she had shrugged, and watched those eyes carefully as she answered, her decision having been made the instant she'd opened her eyes in that foggy dreamscape and seen Xena standing in front of her.. "Don’t know. You’ll have to ask Ephiny , I guess. " And Xena had merely raised an eyebrow, but Gabrielle had seen the tension in her shoulders relax, and a gentle warmth replace the shadows. "It was.. a refuge, and I would have done the best I could but.. " She sighed.

"You sure?" Xena had asked casually, but she’d been unable to mask the smile tugging at her lips, so she’d looked off towards where the main group of Amazons had been camped for a minute to regain her composure before returning her gaze to meet Gabrielle's.

And Gabrielle had reached up and clasped the hand still draped over her shoulder, and taking a deep, happy breath. "Yeah, I’m sure." She’d answered. "I like the Amazons.. but.. " She’d hesitated, then went on before her courage failed her. "they could never have begun to fill.. that great big empty space that had you in it."

‘Gabrielle…" Xena’s voice was gentle.

"I know." The bard sighed, shaking her head. "That was a goofy thing to say. Listen, I’m sorry. I’m just… I’m glad you came back, all right?" She gave the warrior a smile. "After all, the world needs you." Yeah.. Almost as much as I do.

In the next clearing, she could hear the Amazons moving about the camp, and the wind whipping the trees, the snap of the fire, a dim clanking as the armorer did repairs.. but the warmth of a hand grasping her jaw, and deep blue eyes capturing her own with vivid intensity suddenly jolted her senses. "Gabrielle." Xena said, slowly and clearly. "I don’t give a damn about the world."

And after a long moment of absolutely frozen comprehension, all she could manage to say was. "Oh." But from that moment, she cautiously began to allow herself to imagine.. some new possibilities.

"Hey!." Xena said, giving her a light poke in the ribs. "That’s an interesting smile you have there.. what are you thinking about?."

Gabrielle’s smile grew. "You."

The warrior chuckled, and stood, releasing Gabrielle to stand once she was upright. "I’m flattered."

They bantered while dressing, and were pleased to note that the rain had stopped. "You going to mention Warrin to Lestan?" Gabrielle asked as she was struggling with the laces on the front of her tunic.

"Here." Xena grinned, and took over the lacing. "Probably. He should know what’s going on."

They walked out into the reluctantly penetrating bars of weak sunlight that finally cut through the clouds, and stepped up onto the porch of the healer’s cot just as the door opened and Elaini peeked out.

"Hi." The healer greeted them, opening the door and moving aside. "Come on in… I need to go get some supplies." She moved past them, and skipped down the stairs, oblivious to the swiftly exchanged grins between warrior and bard.

"Hello, Jess." Xena said, as she and Gabrielle entered the cot, and moved over to where the forest dweller was propped up on his pallet.

"Hey." Jessan replied softly, giving them a toothy grin. "How are you feeling?" This was directed at Xena.

"Fine." The warrior replied, with a note of finality in her voice, which didn’t keep Jessan from glancing at Gabrielle for conformation, which he got in the form of a smiling nod. "How’s the ribs?"

The big forest dweller sighed. "Hurts. " His golden eyes dropped. "But not as much as my self esteem does." He took a shallow breath. "I owe you an apology, Xena."

Xena felt her brow crease, and she looked at Gabrielle in puzzlement, who looked back in equal confusion. "For… what?"

"I put you in danger." Jessan answered quietly.

The warrior laughed. "Please, Jess.. I do that all by myself just fine."

"That’s an understatement." Gabrielle muttered, ducking away from Xena’s playful cuff.

"No." The forest dweller shook his head. "I allowed my skills to erode to the point where I got myself in trouble that I couldn’t get out of. And that put you in danger, and we don’t… we don’t do that lightly with lifebonds, Xena."

Great. Xena sighed inwardly. This is all I need. "Look." She said firmly, getting a grip on his chest fur and pinning him with a glare. "Nobody gets me into or out of things, all right? ‘ she felt Gabrielle’s supportive presence, and a gentle hand on her back. "We know the risks."

"Do you?" Jessan asked quietly.

"We do." Gabrielle answered, putting a hand on his arm. "But what kind of people would we be if we didn’t help someone because we were afraid?" Her eyes met Jessan’s. "Life is one big risk."

Jessan studied them in silence for long moment. They do realize. Ares… that bond is so strong.. I don’t’ even need my Sight to feel it. He watched as Gabrielle moved closer, and put her chin on Xena’s shoulder in a casual gesture, and smiled wistfully at them. "I envy you guys." He sighed. "I wish… well, anyway." He forced a grin. "Thanks for the rescue."

"Anytime." Xena smiled, then her eyes took on a mischievous twinkle. "Besides… this’ll give you a chance to.. debate.. your opposing viewpoints with Elaini." She darted a sideways glance at the bard. "Right?"

"Right." Gabrielle nodded solemnly ‘Great opportunity."

They looked at him. He gazed back, then a blush colored his muzzle and he sighed.

Xena grinned. Nice to see him on this side of the coin for a change. "Nice blush." She commented, making it worse. "Aww.. c’mon, Jess. She’s a nice kid."

Jessan peeked at her. Tell me, Xena.. is this what falling in love feels like? I can’t remember… it’s been so long. Is it like drowning? Like standing under a waterfall? Like the sunlight in the morning? Tell me. What was it like for you? "I know." He said softly, and felt his lips move in an involuntary grin. "Better go. Mom hates serving dinner late."

Xena laughed. "We’ll be back later to visit. " She promised, then leaned close to him. "Enjoy it, my friend."

Their eyes met, and he understood what she was saying. "I’m scared." He said softly, searching her eyes intently.

And she nodded. "So was I." A hand on his shoulder, and a look so intense it burned him. "Do it anyway."

"Don’t think I could stop it." He responded, almost in a whisper.

"You don’t want to." Xena replied, aware of the still, silent form at her shoulder. "Believe me."

"I do." Jessan affirmed, and took a breath, as he heard the outer door open. "Thanks."

Xena nodded at him, and rose. "Anytime."

They passed Elaini in the outer room, as she was arranging some items on a tray. She looked up as they approached, and gave Gabrielle a wink. "You were right about the twinkle." She said, with a little grin.

The bard smiled. "Go for it." She advised, then leaned over and whispered something to the healer, which made her giggle. "Try it. Trust me."

"Ok." Elaini agreed, and gave them a nod, carrying the tray into the inner room.

‘What was that all about?" Xena asked, as they descended the stairs off the porch and headed towards Lestan and Wennid’s cot.

"Proper Care and feeding of Warriors, 101." Gabrielle answered innocently, shooting her partner a wicked glance.

Xena snorted. "Oh.. so we’re so hard to deal with, there’s a class?"

"Oh yeah. It’s a whole special wing at the Academy." The bard assured her. "The details… how to pick the right leather, how to polish armor, you name it."

They walked on in silence for a space, then: "You seem to have passed with flying colors." Xena remarked, with a slow grin.

"I had a private tutor." Came the immediate answer. "The best."

Xena chuckled, then felt her senses come alert, and she moved closer to the bard, sliding a protective arm around her shoulders. "Keep walking." She muttered, feeling Gabrielle tense under her arm. "We're being watched."

"Think it’s Warrin?" The bard asked in a very soft voice.

Xena shrugged, and kept moving, pinpointing their watcher just to the left of Lestan’s porch, as instinct had her shift slightly so her body was shielding Gabrielle’s. As they got closer all her defensive instincts rose up, and she could feel the nape hairs on her neck prickling, and the tension sing with deliberate speed through her muscles.

Closer, and now her hearing was picking up the watcher’s slight sounds.. the breathing, and the faint scratch where the tree branch the watcher was behind caught wiry fur, and tore slightly. "They’re cocking a crossbow." She said calmly to Gabrielle, who merely nodded, and let her eyes rest on the leader's cot directly ahead.

Heard the mechanism clink into place, and the watcher fit a quarrel to the weapon with a faint snick of wood on wood.

A piece of silence, and Xena could clearly picture the watcher pausing for aim. Six feet of me, and in a light colored tunic, too. Nice target. Her mind mused idly, as she prepared to let her instincts take over. Her eyes flickered briefly to Gabrielle's face. She's not even a bit concerned.. gods..does she trust me that much? Do I?

The scratch of the tight wound cord on the crossbow. A faint click as the mechanism cocked. She felt her shoulders tense, and the smaller muscles of her forearms and wrists What if I miss?’ The thought oozed into her mind. Then I’ll probably have a crossbow arrow sticking out of me. Her practical mind answered, but she felt a twinge of unease. Just when did I start doubting my ability to do this? That’s very dangerous, Xena.

Feathers in the wind, a faint shredding sound as the quarrel passed through foliage, then her right arm was almost lazily lifting up , the long fingers closing about a smooth polished shaft. Unmarked. A commotion in the underbrush and yelling voices told her that the crossbowman had been discovered, and as she watched, a tangle of forest dwellers tumbled into view, three of them obviously subduing a fourth.

"Guess I forgot to tell any of the stories where you catch arrows." Gabrielle remarked wryly, giving her back a little rub. "Nice catch."

Xena examined the arrow thoughtfully, twirling it between her fingers and smiling a little. Guess that particular skill is intact.. That’s.. a good feeling. And she felt a tingle of her customary confidence returning. "Thanks." She remarked, flipping the quarrel around a few times in her hand. ‘Let’s go see who our friend is."

"This isn’t a negotiation, Lestie." The tall, silver furred visitor remarked, in an amused tone. "In fact, I haven’t any idea why Secan sent me over here, instead of just getting it over with and trashing this place." Kelten turned around and regarded Lestan with a bored look. "Just give him what he wants, all right?"

Lestan tilted his head back and gazed wearily at the ceiling. "I’ve told you twice, Kelten. She’s not mine to give."

The taller forest dweller stepped up behind him and pitched his voice low, in a menacing tone. "What is it with you… I knew you went soft, but harboring a human? Lestan, they slaughtered half your home clan, and would have done the same for this one.. how could you bring a human in here?" He paused. "And one of us has been killed. Does that mean nothing to you?"

Lestan took a breath, and studied his hands thoughtfully. "Your precious Elusha decided to take bare steel to an unarmed human female. What honor was he hunting with that, Kelten? Was the human supposed to stand and be spitted like a pig?"

"Why not?" Kelten spat. "it’s all they’re good for." He turned and walked to the window, putting one hand on the sill and staring outside. "Stop stalling, Lestan. I want her. Let me get what I need, and get out of this stinking dung heap."

Lestan stood, and moved in back of him, glancing out the window and seeing the two forms approach. "Kelten, you’re an idiot." He remarked quietly. "For the last time, she’s not mine to give." He motioned with his jaw out of the window. "There."

Kelten peered out, spotting the two humans approaching and studying them with interest. Both women, he noted, one smaller, with pale hair the color of his sisters, who had a compact build and a confident way of moving. The other… his eyes narrowed thoughtfully. Tall, almost as tall as one of their own, dark haired, with the shoulders and arms of a sword wielder, and long, muscular legs. And a way of moving that said she was no farmer or merchant. This.. his nostrils twitched. Was a hunter. And he knew why Secan wanted her.. because this hunter had no business sleeping in Lestan’s nest of grazers.

"I’m taking her, Lestan. Do yourself a favor and stay out of it, hmm?? " Kelten chuckled. "And maybe I’ll tell Secan to let your pathetic little dung heap here alone for a while." He watched as the warrior human put a friendly arm around her smaller companion, oblivious to his crossbowman hiding just outside the perimeter of the village, with orders to take the human females down like deer in the woods. Except the quarrels held a poison to bind them, and the bowyer was skilled enough to put the shaft into a non-vital part of their bodies. That’s it.. he crooned silently to the two. Closer now, just a little, you blindlings..

And watched in shock as the tall dark haired woman, in a flickering movement that his eyes barely caught, snared the quarrel out of mid air, and flipped it over in the air. Ares balls. He breathed. I can’t have seen that.

"Be careful what you ask for." Lestan drawled nearby. "You could find it burrowing under your cot." He watched the guard drag the archer from his hiding place, and move in their direction. "Get out of here." He ordered, quietly. "Tell Secan we’ll meet him where we agreed."

Kelten tore his eyes from the human with difficulty. "Not without that human.’ He stated flatly. "Thought I could save you some trouble, take her out of here asleep, but no matter. We can do things the hard way." He moved to the door and onto the porch, where the guard was bringing his still shocked looking archer. Idiot. He sighed to himself, and then went still as the two humans mounted the stairs and came within his striking distance.

Eyes bluer than the sky pinned his for a moment so long he forgot to breathe. He saw her face twitch, and the set of her shoulders change as she marked him, and shifted to put her body between him and the smaller human with such smooth instinct, he had to believe she wasn’t even conscious of doing it.

"We have a blood debt with you." He said, watching her face. One eyebrow rose, and the lip on that side of her face quirked upward.

"How could you?" The woman answered, in a low voice that tickled his ears. "I broke his neck, no blood."

Kelten felt his blood begin to burn. "You think that’s funny, human?" He let his fur bristle, and showed the tips of his canines in a feral smile.

She smiled right back, and moved towards him. "No. What I find amusing is that you send your armed raiders out against unarmed villagers, and then get mad when one of them dies.. " Her own smile turned feral, and her eyes glittered. "because he picked the wrong victim."

Silence all around them. Only the rustling of leaves overhead, and the faint settling creak of the floorboards, as even the forest creatures held their breath and waited. For him to decide, to follow the screaming demands of his honor and tear into her with fangs and claws and long, powerful arms. Or to listen to the ice cold warning his instincts was hammering him with; that this human was more than she seemed. That if he chose to attack, he’d better be prepared to.. lose? No. His mind coldly rationalized. He was what he was, and she was merely a human, and a female.

Kelten’s arm moved faster than thought, claws extended, in a arc that took in her neck. One swipe… would be all he needed. Secan had said alive… but no matter. He tensed for the blow, already feeling the eviceral sensation of his jagged nails tearing through her soft flesh.

And found his arm gripped. And stopped, throwing him off balance. Then a hand was curled in his chest fur, and he was being forced backwards, slamming against the wooden support post of the porch with a shudder, pushed by a strength that shocked him into stillness.

"Now you look." Xena’s voice was angry. "I’m not in the mood to wipe the floorboards with you. So you go back to your little leader, and tell him.. from me, that if his little boys can’t defend themselves, it’s not my problem." She leaned forward, getting right into his face, and daring him to snap at her. "Got that??"

No answer, but he didn’t move either. "Oh yeah. " Xena continued, taking a better grip on his fur and pushing hard against the support post. "And if I get any more arrows shot at me , I just might skin you and make myself a new rug. Got THAT?"

Kelten felt his resolve fading, as he looked into those eyes, and realized in sinking moment that he was playing with a fire that could burn him to cinders all unknowing.

"I got that." He said quietly, and started breathing again when she released him, and stepped back, not taking her icy gaze off of his face. He dropped his eyes, then glanced around, absorbing the silent attention focused solely on her, from the forest dwellers, form his archer. From the other human, who alone was smiling gently, and whose gaze held a brilliant range of emotions . Then those green eyes flicked to his, and he stopped breathing again as he felt the power they held.

"If I were you.." The younger human said, almost conversationally. "I’d take off. And you know, you might want to think about learning to control your temper."

This got a snort of laughter from the tall warrior, who relaxed a little, and gave her companion an amused look. "Gabrielle.." That low voice sounded the syllables with a lover’s gentle attention, and Kelten realized that’s exactly what they were. Then his Sight showed him they were something again more than that. And he decided he needed to get out of this village, and get back to his own, to take his lumps, and relate his news, which would probably offset each other nicely. She was the one factor Secan was worried about, and he knew now his leader had nothing to concern himself about.

"All right." He sniffed, trying to recover his bravado. "Until we meet, Lestan, when all this becomes… irrelevant." He made a disparaging gesture. "if you can even muster enough fighters to show up with." He turned and sauntered down the steps, grabbing the equipment straps of his archer and tugging. The villager holding him didn’t let go, but instead glanced up to Lestan.

The tall forest leader cocked his head, then gave a short nod. "Go on." He paused. "And Kelten?" Now his own smile showed all his teeth nicely. "We’ll be there."

They stood and watched the pair disappear into the forest . Silence reigned, until Lestan sighed, and the door opened to reveal Wennid’s tense face. "Ah, my love." He said, holding an arm out to her. "All’s clear now." His eyes turned to Xena, and he chuckled. "Wow."

Xena shrugged, and ignored the poke from Gabrielle, who had moved closer and was now leaning against the post, with a grin on her face. "The young are easily intimidated." The warrior stated, in an offhand tone. "Can I ask who that was?"

Wennid snuggled tight against Lestan’s side, and rubbed his belly. "I think his name used to be Kelten." She mused, giving Lestan a tweak.

"Used to be?" Gabrielle asked, pushing off the post and cocking her head in puzzlement.

"It’s mud, now." Wennid remarked, getting a round of chuckles from the surrounding forest dwellers, whose attention was still fixed on the tall, dark haired woman standing casually in their midst. "A rug?" Jessan’s mother chuckled against her will.

"Well.." Xena admitted, with a sly glance towards Gabrielle. "I try not to use the same threat twice. It’s kind of a game we play. Gabrielle keeps track."

This got a real laugh, and now the tension dissolved, and they started to move away.

Xena took a deep breath, and mentally shook her head. Damn… she grudgingly admitted to herself. That was pretty impressive, wasn’t it. Maybe Gabrielle is right.. and it’s all in my head. She looked up, to see the bard’s gaze fixed on her. "Hey."

"Hey yourself." Gabrielle responded, sliding closer and putting a hand on her arm. "Did I ever tell you just how guilty you make me?"

"What?" The warrior replied, her brows contracting in a puzzled scowl.

"Mmm." The bard said, linking an arm through hers, and giving her a nudge towards the doorway, where Wennid was waiting for them. "I love watching you do that. And I know, as the peaceful, gentle, bardly person that I am, that I really shouldn’t."

"I see." Xena murmured, as they entered the leader’s cot. But the confidence she felt in the bard’s glance kindled a warm glow inside of her that she hadn’t expected. And she felt the uncomfortably dark memories recede a bit further. "I'll have to keep that in mind." She finished mildly, and smiled at the bard, who smiled back.

Lestan kept the conversation light, through most of dinner, which consisted of huge portions of meat and bread, with a sparse scattering of vegetables in deference to what Wennid thought her guests might enjoy. Xena was touched and amused, though she was perfectly happy with the meat which would provide her still healing body with a good supply of energy. Gabrielle, on the other hand, cheerfully consumed the vegetables along with the rest, and kept depositing odd ones onto her partner’s plate, and poking her until she swallowed them in self defense.

"So, " Lestan sighed, as they finished eating, and settled back with steaming mugs of mulled cider and a plate of Wennid’s nut cakes. "You see that we’re not so different from your kind after all, eh?" His eyes ruefully met Xena’s. "Much as we pretend otherwise."

The warrior sat back, and crossed her arms over her chest , raising an eyebrow thoughtfully. "People are people, Lestan." She exchanged glances with Gabrielle. "They seem so much more violent than your clan is, though… why?"

Wennid spoke up, resting her chin on her hands. "When we combined our villages." She paused, giving her bondmate a smile. "Mine was a very peace oriented one. Lestan’s was more like Secan’s in its outlook. We decided to try and meld the two philosophies, and this is what we came up with" She shrugged. "Some say it’s neither one nor the other, and therefore loses strength because it lacks a real identity. I think it takes the best from both extremes, and meets somewhere in the middle. "

Gabrielle nodded, and rested her forearms on the table, nibbling a cake. "So.. your village isn’t typical of your people."

Lestan shook his head. "Not really."

"So.. what’s Secan’s goal here?" The bard asked. "What’s his point.. if he defeats you, will this village become like his?" She turned a puzzled look on them. "I don’t see what he gains in all this."

Xena gave her a little grin, which the bard knew meant she’d asked a good question.

"I don’t know." Wennid sighed. "Sometimes I think he just does it because he can, and because he likes fighting and killing."

A small silence fell around the room, and the scent of the mulled cider drifted across the table like a morning fog.

"That can be a very compelling reason." Xena finally said, studying her hands.

Wennid felt her breath catch, as she realized what the warrior meant. "Can I ask you something?" She said, leaning forward a little, and putting her hands on the table.

Xena looked up, and regarded her quietly. "Sure." Gabrielle’s hand closed gently on her knee beneath the surface of the table, and brought the faintest hint of a smile to her face. How does she do that, I wonder? She always knows when I need that support.

"Do you know a small village, called Reclon, in the next valley?" Jessan’s mother asked, her pale eyes fixing on the warrior’s face, now lit by the surrounding candles, and the glow from the fireplace.

"I do." Xena answered, her eyes shadowing in memory. "Small place, mostly farming."

Wennid took a breath. "I saw it destroyed."

Xena nodded grimly. "So did I."

Gabrielle stirred, and glanced at Xena’s still face. "I don’t’…"

A quick glance from the warrior. "You weren’t there." In a very quiet tone. "You were at home."

"Oh." Gabrielle responded, her gaze turning inward. Home. That meant… "When I left.."

Xena nodded. "Yeah." She turned her attention to Wennid, who was waiting silently. "Rigus was an old.. adversary.. of mine. He gave the village terms.. give him everything or he’d burn it to the ground."

"He did." Wennid whispered. "They slaughtered those people like sheep." They. You already know it wasn’t her, don’t you.

"I heard the screams." Xena answered, with a far off look in her eyes. "I was.. " she stopped and stared at her hands. "Anyway, I heard the noise, and rode into the village. Too late, though. To save them."

" But not too late to avenge them." The forest dweller said softly, with the beginnings of a smile.

A slight shrug from the warrior. "As you say." And I always wondered.. if it had been Draco, or one of the warlords I’d been friendly with, would I have joined them? She sighed inwardly. I didn’t hear them because I was too busy trying to convince myself just how lucky I was to be on my own again. That I’d gotten rid of my little tag along. She snorted at herself. How lost I was, those couple of days. "I was sorry it happened."

Wennid studied her, the golden candlelight catching the faint highlights in her dark hair, and reflecting off her pale eyes, and sighed. "I thought you were one of them, you know." She remarked, into that still quiet. "I didn’t realize until just recently that I’d seen as many raider’s dead as villagers. "

Gabrielle felt the tension under her hand, and she gave Xena a little squeeze. What was going on in that head, then… she never did tell me what she did while I was gone. I wonder if she felt.. She closed her eyes, and remembered. Wonder if she knew that leaving was the hardest decision I’d ever had to make… or that the further I got away from her, the closer I got to home, the more my heart was telling me it was a bad one.

"Not an unreasonable thing to think." Xena sighed, but kept her gaze level. "It’s what I was."

Another silence fell, broken by the snapping of the burning logs in the fireplace.

"Not anymore." Wennid finally said, not even needing her Sight to tell her that. She gave the warrior a small smile.

Xena felt the tension that had been building ebb, as she understood what the forest dweller meant. "No." She returned the smile. "Not anymore." Do I believe that? Really believe it? Xena looked inside her heart for a very long moment. You know.. I think I just might be starting to. "At any rate, for whatever reason he’s doing it, Secan is intending to attack this village. Tell me about your fighters, Lestan."

They talked long into the night, as the candles burned down and guttered, and Xena got an idea of the strengths and the weaknesses of Lestan’s forces. And the strengths of Secan’s, who outnumbered theirs three to one.

"Damn, Lestan." Xena sighed, examining the scouting reports spread out all over the council table. "This doesn’t look good."

They were alone, since Wennid had gone to check on her son, and Gabrielle had elected to join her. "I know." The forest dweller said, rubbing his face with his good hand. "I don’t see any way out, Xena." His mahogany eyes met hers, and he let his despair show.

The warrior stood, and stretched muscles stiff from sitting so long. "I can think of one possible solution." She said softly, putting her hands on her hips and looking at him.

"No." Lestan said, with a ghost of a smile. "You can’t. Your lifebonded." He walked over and put a hand on her shoulder. "Not that I don’t…" he sighed. "appreciate the offer, Xena." He glanced down. "And, it has to be one of us, a member of my clan."

"Why are you eligible, Lestan.. you’re lifebonded too." Xena asked, quietly.

The man shrugged. "Comes with the job. I’m the exception.. I knew that when they elected me." He smiled grimly. "But with this arm.. I have no chance. And.." His eyes met hers, honestly. "Even with two good arms, I’m not his match."

"Am I?" Xena asked, giving him a level stare.

Silence. And a flare of his nostrils, as he drew in a deep breath.

"Yes." His face grimaced. "You have a skill with the sword that I have never seen equaled." He paused and studied her. "I would have said he had the margin in strength, but after watching you stop Kelten… Xena I really don’t know about that." He smiled at her diffident shrug "But he won’t accept you as a legitimate challenger, and besides, you can’t. We don’t allow lifebonded to challenge."

Don’t you. Xena mused to herself. Unless you happen to be the clan leader, hmm? "So.. his clan is a lot more violent.. I guess that’s how he got elected, huh?"

Lestan breathed a sigh of relief at Xena’s apparent willingness to drop the subject of challenge. Not, he thought for the thousandth time, that he didn’t harbor a closely held, secret wish to see her just.. take him. "Uhm… well, sort of. He wasn’t elected. He chose the other way of gaining leadership among our kind." He smiled grimly. "He forced the old leader to yield in front of the entire clan, then cut his head off."

Xena’s eyebrows shot up. "Nice." She muttered. "Reminds me of the Amazons." She smiled at his look of astonishment. "Yeah, they do death challenges for the queen’s mask."

Lestan blinked. "Really? " He let out a short laugh. "Well, Secan didn’t have to kill Urtus. He just had to force him to yield. But I guess he wanted to eliminate any possible competition."

Click. And that was the steel-trap mind of an ex warlord snapping shut on all the essential details needed for a plan. "Nice guy." Xena shook her head. "Well, I’ll do my best to teach your troops some tactics, Lestan. But there’s not much time.." She paused, and looked at him. "Would he call off this attack if I gave myself up to him?"

The question came from around the corner, and hit Lestan so hard and so suddenly that he answered it without thinking. "Yes." Then he realized what he’d said and his eyes widened. "But not for long." He added quickly, seeing the look in those blue eyes. "And… by Ares’ hands, Xena, I will chain myself to you if you even think about doing something so stupid."

A raised eyebrow. "Stupid? Why is saving lives stupid?" Xena asked, in a reasonable tone.

The forest dweller sat down on the chair next to her, and leaned forward, resting his weight on his elbows. "Xena." His voice was very gentle. "I want you to listen to me, all right?" He took a breath. "I know no one of us has talked to you about this yet, because a human with our gift is so rare, we hardly know what to say to you."

Xena remained silent, but leaned forward to match his stance, and waited. I don’t know that I want to hear this. Her mind echoed quietly. But I think I’d better know now.

"Xena.." Lestan looked down at his hands, which were knotted together tensely. "My brother Warrin."

She nodded. "I know.. he’s very resentful of us. He…" Her eyebrow quirked. "I forgot to tell you, in all the excitement. He tried to shoot us with darts before we headed over here. Had some kind of drug on them, knockout stuff I think."

Lestan stared at her. "All the more reason for you to hear this, then." He blinked. "Wennid and I love Warrin. He was… very much like your Gabrielle, when he was younger. All laughter, and full of stories. " He swallowed. "He had a joy in life that made you glad to look at him. " Can you see where this is going, my human friend? Do you understand the risk? "When his lifemate was killed, we thought he was going to die."

Xena swallowed, and looked down.

"Maybe it would have been better if he had." Lestan went on quietly. "I know I would have wanted to, if something had happened to my Weni." He could see the shadows on her face move, as her jaw muscles tensed. "Do you understand what would happen to Gabrielle, or to you, if your bond is broken?"

Xena studied the floor, idly tracing the wood grain for a long time before she answered. "Gabrielle’s already had to face that once, Lestan." She looked up and met his eyes, forcing herself to just answer the question, and not think about the subject. "It would be… really hard.. for her, but she’s a very strong person. She’d survive… and go on."

The tall forest dweller swallowed audibly. "And you?" He asked quietly. "Warrin was bonded only a few months before his lifemate was killed, Xena. How long have you and Gabrielle been together?" He hesitated. "After a certain point…."

"Two years and some." The warrior replied. And allowed herself to imagine, for one very long and very agonizing moment, the possibility of life without the bard. Then admitted consciously what she’d known in her guts for a very long time. "I’d never survive." No.. I’d crawl off, somewhere dark, somewhere alone.. and just wait.. wouldn’t take long, I don’t have a lot of reserves. I'd just.. go to sleep and not wake up. End up in the flames, and maybe.. just.. damned.. maybe, I’d look out across the sheet of fire, and see her looking back at me.. from the Fields. Her throat tightened. And.. she’s so stubborn, she’d find a way to wherever I was, just so she could yell at me for doing something so damn stupid. And I'd love every word of it.

They studied each other in silence for a time. Then Lestan sighed. "Neither would I." He smiled a bit. "I thought you understood.. but I had to make sure. You can see why putting yourself at risk like that isn’t an option."

And she looked at him, with a shadow in her blue eyes he didn’t understand, and patted his hand. "Right. Makes sense, Lestan."

Except that you can’t live your life in fear. She felt the knowledge settle quietly onto her shoulders. And hiding in the shadows when lives are depending on who I am and what I do is worse than dying. Gabrielle taught me that. "More cider?" She said, raising an eyebrow at him. " I think I hear Gabrielle and Wennid coming back. Hope Jess is feeling better."

Lestan looked warily at her. At her calm, interested smile, and casual conversation. She appeared to accept what he’d said, accepted the limitations that all his kind lived with, those who were bound together.And yet.. He smiled inwardly. She lives by her own rules, and not ours. And… I’m not sure those rules allow her to stand by and watch death come hunting. A shiver of excitement lifted his fur involuntarily. "Yeah, thanks. I think I hear them too." He returned her smile, and they both relaxed, as the door opened, and Wennid lead the way in, and Gabrielle’s clear voice followed her, in the middle of some story or other.

"Lestan, Jess needs some of his paints to make the time pass. Can you help me find them in that rag pile he calls a room?" Wennid rolled her eyes, and shook her head. "Please?"

Lestan rose, and stretched, chuckling. "Surely." He took Wennid’s arm and led her out the door an down the hallway, and their voices trailed back. Into the room in a fading cascade.

Gabrielle closed the door, and crossed over to Xena, seating herself on the edge of the conference table and sighing. "Did you get the lecture?"

Xena smothered a grin. "Uh huh."

They regarded each other. "What did you think?" The bard asked, idly playing with a lock of Xena’s hair.

The warrior examined her knotted fingers closely. "I’m wondering if you still think this is so awesome." There was quiet resignation in her voice. "And if you don’t… I’m sorry, Gabrielle. I never meant to …" She stopped, leaving the thought unfinished.

Dead silence from the bard, and then a faint rasping noise as she slid off the table, and dropped to her knees on the wooden floor, folding her hands around Xena’s, and gazing up into the painfully shuttered eyes. "I need to know something. Would you change this, if you could, Xena?" Her voice was steady, and she patiently watched shadowed face for a response.

A deep breath, and a slight shake of the head. "No."

"Good thing." The bard whispered, leaning forward and touching her forehead to Xena’s. "Because if you’d said yes, I was going to have to hurt you." She tilted her head and kissed the warrior. "Yes, I still think it’s awesome. " Another kiss. "No, I wouldn’t change a single thing, either." A third . "Don’t ever bother asking me that again. Ok?"

"OK." Xena responded, with a low chuckle..

"So." Gabrielle sighed contentedly, rubbing her cheek against the warrior’s. "How are you… " she stopped. "How are we going to get them out of this rotten situation?"

Continued in Part 6

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Bound – Part 6

By Melissa Good

For DISCLAIMERS see Part 1.

Xena leaned back; resting her arm on the conference table, and letting her head drop back against the tall wood of the chair. "Still working on that." She replied, running her fingers lightly through Gabrielle’s red gold hair, and tracing the smile on her face with the edge of her thumb. "How’s Jess?"

Gabrielle leaned both forearms on Xena’s thighs, and smiled a little. "He’s doing ok." She idly played with the edge of the warrior’s tunic. "He’s really beating himself up over getting jumped like that."

Xena sighed. "I know how he feels. I know how I’d feel if it were me."

"Mm." The bard agreed. "Though I can’t imagine it happening to you." She grinned, and tugged on the hem of Xena’s tunic. "You’re too good."

The blue eyes gazed at her with gentle regret. "It can happen to anyone, Gabrielle." She replied. "If I let things slip, or I get really distracted…" She took a breath. "Sometimes it’s hard to keep the pressure on, all the time." She saw the concern erupt in the bard’s eyes, and cursed silently. Damn, Xena… would you cut that maudlin garbage out? You’re scaring her half to death.. and she doesn’t need that, not after what you just put her through. So cut it out and get a grip on yourself. "But.." She smiled easily, catching Gabrielle’s eyes. "I don’t think there’s any danger of that happening any time soon." She stroked the bard’s cheek and winked at her. "You keep me on my toes, my bard."

The green eyes studied her for a long space of time, then slowly brightened. "I’m gonna do my best to make sure it stays that way, too." She promised, with a sly grin. "You warriors are so helpless sometimes…you need someone to take care of you."

Xena laughed. "Oh really." She responded, chucking the bard under the chin. "Guess I’m lucky to have you then, huh?" Her eyes twinkled. "Or who knows what trouble I’d get myself into."

Gabrielle snorted. "Oh.. right.. like you don’t get into trouble anyway."

"Me?" Xena asked, pointing a thumb at herself, and raising one eyebrow. "Was I the one who let the Titans get loose? Or get bitten by Bacchae? Or found Pandora’s baby? "

"Well.." The bard took a breath, then stopped. "No fair."

"And just how many times have you been kidnapped?" Xena went on, with a devilish look in her eyes.

Gabrielle gave her a mock glare, and let out a dramatic sigh. "Ok.. ok.. you made your point."

They grinned at each other. Then Xena dropped one hand down and covered the bard’s. "Gabrielle?" Her face went quiet.

"Hmm?" The bard responded, getting to her feet and wincing at the stiffness from crouching so long. "Ow."

Xena stayed quiet, and leaned forward, putting both hands out and gently massaging Gabrielle’s legs. "Next time, just sit down, OK?" She chuckled, cocking her head as she heard Lestan and Wennid returning.

"Mmmm.." Gabrielle sighed happily. "You really are good at that. " She dropped into the chair facing Xena, and stifled a yawn. "Were you going to say something before?" She yawned again, and grinned as Xena tried to keep from following suite. "Cause I was about to say that I think I’m the lucky one.. and don’t think I don’t know it."

A quirk of those lips. "I think we could have a debate about that."

A smirk from the bard. "You’d lose. I’m the talker, remember?"

Lestan stretched, and shook himself as he ambled back into the room, and perched on a corner of the table. "Well, we found it." He rolled his mahogany eyes. "Ares, the boy’s a packrat." He bent his gaze on them. "Think it’s time we all got some rest. I’ve got a feeling tomorrow’s going to be a long day. "

Xena nodded, and stood up, very aware of the bard’s watchful gaze, which made her smile inwardly. "Probably. " She paused thoughtfully. "Not much time though, Lestan. You said his challenge was for day after tomorrow?"

The forest dweller nodded. "So you know.. and I’m not unhappy about it.. surrender is no longer an option. He.. tied my turning you over to him as part of the deal." Lestan’s face went quiet. "And that, my friend, is not going to happen. You understand that, right?" Right, Xena? There won’t be any disappearing from my village tonight, on some solitary mission..

The warrior studied him pensively, turning over possibilities in her mind. "I don’t see any point in it." She answered carefully, reserving her options, seeing Gabrielle stiffen from the corner of her eye. Ahh.. my bard. My friend.. you do know me too well. Her mind mused sadly. "On the other hand, Lestan – they were able to get that archer right into the village." Her eyes fixed on him intently. "Got me worried they might try again." Her eyes flickered to Gabrielle’s face. "But it’s not me I’m worried about."

The forest dweller blew out a long breath. "Good point." He admitted, with a nod. "We’ve all let things slip a little, I think." He glanced at her with a rueful smile. "Dangerous. Because you usually don’t realize it until you go to use something.. and find out it’s not there anymore."

For no reason he could detect, Xena seemed to find this funny, because she smiled, and even chuckled a little. "That’s very true, Lestan." She agreed. "Can’t say I’ll sleep soundly tonight, though. "

Gabrielle snorted. "As if." She teased gently. "I always do, as long as you’re there."

Lestan laughed softly. "I'll set a double guard around the village. " He got up off the table, and started walking towards the door, and they joined him, walking out onto the porch and into a cool night breeze.

The moonlight slanted gently down through the leaves, scattering silver and black patches across their path as they strolled slowly back towards their cot. Gabrielle felt the silence, and found herself uncharacteristically unwilling to break it, focusing instead on the problem that was facing them. One short glance at Xena’s face had told her what the warrior thought their chances were, and she realized that her partner was using the quiet walk to turn over her options, which were limited, and trying to decide what to do.

Nearby, a bush rustled as some small creature was disturbed by their passage, and Gabrielle felt the almost imperceptible shiver run through Xena’s arm, which she had tucked neatly around hers. That was her detecting that noise, analyzing it, and deciding it was harmless, in less time than it took me to blink. A quick look up took in the warrior’s preoccupied expression, and the bard shook her head slightly. And she doesn’t even know she’s doing it anymore. Wow. How many years has it taken her to get herself to this level, where she can rely totally on her instincts. Where I can rely totally on them?

Their boots made faint crunching noises, as they crossed the dew rich grass, and sent up a gentle fragrance of the storm churned earth to waft around them, and combine with the heady scent of Wennid’s rose garden. "Mmmm." Gabrielle said softly, finally breaking the silence between them. "That’s nice."

"Hmm?" Xena replied, then she sniffed appreciatively. "Yeah… it is." She cocked her head and looked at Gabrielle, standing there quietly in a pool of moonlight that bleached the color from her hair and turned her vivid green eyes a pale gray and smiled. "Thanks for making me stop and notice stuff like that."

Gabrielle dropped her glance, and grinned a little, the blush bringing a delicate trace of pink to her otherwise pale face. It’s all still so new… sometimes I just can’t believe we are what we are to each other.. after what seemed like half a lifetime of both of us wanting this, and stopping short because we were.. scared. And after we almost lost even our friendship.. gods. That was a horrible time.

She’d been furious. And hurt, and a thousand other things after they’d finally sent Callisto and Velasca into the lava pit. And she’d snapped at Xena a dozen times, over using Callisto, and then not telling her what convoluted plan Xena had come up with to get them out of what was, she had to admit to herself, an almost hopeless situation.

Xena had just taken it, and withdrawn into herself like she used to in the old days, and put a cold face on her interactions with the bard. Their conversations had been reduced to curt inquiries and sullen responses, until Gabrielle had to acknowledge to herself that she was wondering about her decision to stay with someone she thought she knew, but now apparently didn’t.

She’d thought about just leaving, and making her way back to the Amazons, but a tenacious part of her was reluctant to give up on two years worth of inch by inch progress in what was without question a difficult relationship.

And then there was that part of her that desperately wanting nothing other than to throw herself down at Xena’s boots, and take back all the sharp and biting things she’d said over the last few weeks, and just beg for forgiveness. Because she knew what she’d said had hurt. She knew Xena too well now, and the warrior couldn’t hide the flinch and the stark pain in those blue eyes, and she found herself having to work very hard not to reach out, to try and take that pain away because it hurt her just as badly. And that should have told her something.

That knowledge was what had kept her there, on her side of a fire which spread no warmth to her, looking through the flames at Xena’s expressionless face, as she steadily sharpened her sword with rhythmic strokes.

Then the strokes had slowed, and finally stopped, and Xena had taken a deep breath, and stared at her hands, then quietly stowed her sharpening stone, and sheathed the sword, letting the hilts rest between her interlaced fingers.

"Two days more on this path, and we’ll be back in Amazon territory." The low voice had sounded clearly across the fire. "I think you’d better stay with them."

Gabrielle had felt her heart sink right into her stomach as the words penetrated and she understood what Xena was saying. And found out right there and then exactly how she felt about leaving, and it must have showed in her eyes, because she saw Xena’s sharp intake of breath, though the warrior remained silent and waited for her response. No.. don’t do this to me.. please. Her heart pleaded with her, in all that quiet. Whatever we’ve lost… there’s something that runs between us, I can feel it. Even now. "I don’t.." And she had to stop, and look down at the ground, as her throat just closed on her, and robbed her of speech. "That’s not your decision." She finally got out, still staring at the ground.

"Yeah, it is." Came the quiet response, in a cool tone. "You used to trust me to do what’s best for you." A long pause. "Why not just trust me this one last time."

Gabrielle had stared at the ground, watching the dirt darken as her tears hit it. The sense of loss was so overwhelming it made her gasp audibly, and wrap her arms around herself in a vain attempt at keeping her composure. She couldn’t look up, couldn’t stare through that fire and see that coldness, those barriers she’d spent two years chipping away at now back up, as solid as they’d ever been. "I can’t believe… " She managed to grind out, "You just don’t care."

She never heard Xena move, all she knew was a sudden jolt as strong hands grabbed her shoulders and pulled her upright, forcing her to meet the warrior’s intense gaze.

"Don’t care?" Xena’s voice was seething with anger, and something else that Gabrielle couldn’t identify. "Don’t care? Oh.. how wrong you are." Her voice dropped into a low, raspy whisper. "I care so damn much I risked the only thing I value in this life to keep you whole." Her eyes blazed. "I had a choice between saving your life and losing your friendship, and by the gods I chose to keep you alive." And then Xena had swallowed hard, and took a breath, then a second. "And I’d do the same thing again if I had to. I knew you’d never understand my freeing Callisto, Gabrielle." Her fierce gaze softened, and her shoulders slumped. "I knew what that price of that would be." She finished quietly, releasing the bard, and sitting down in front of her, letting her forearms rest loosely on her knees. "It was use Callisto, or find Hercules, or call on Ares for help." She looked up, with a tired expression on her face. "And it would have taken too long to find Hercules." Another pause. "So.. I’ll drop you off with the Amazons, all right? They’re good people, and you’ve got some good friends there.. unless you’d rather go back home, or to Athens. You just let me know."

The only thing I value in this life.. kept echoing through Gabrielle’s mind as she blinked her eyes, and regarded the dark head bent thoughtfully in front of her. How lonely that choice must have been, for her.. I have friends, and a home to go back to. She has.. nothing, except Argo. Except me. She rolled that thought over in her mind. Except me. Oh my gods, Gabrielle. What have you done. To her, to yourself.. " Do you want me to leave?" Her voice barely more than a whisper.

There had been no answer for a long time. Then Xena had looked up, with a resigned expression in her eyes. "I want you to do what’s going to make you happy, Gabrielle. And that’s obviously.. not being here."

Gabrielle had felt a small spark of hope kindle, because the answer was an evasion, and she knew it. She had slid down off her log onto the ground, and sat knee to knee with the silent warrior. They just looked at each other for a tense while, then slowly, hesitatingly, Gabrielle reached out one hand and curled her fingers around Xena’s, and felt a slight tightening in response. It had given her the courage to look up into that very quiet, and very still face.

"I’m sorry." She had started, softly. "If you’d have asked me to choose.. between falling off that bridge and what I’m feeling right now, I’d have chosen the bridge."

Strong fingers had clasped hers with a sudden grip that startled her. "Gabrielle…"

"No.." The bard put a hand up. "Let me get this out before I lose it, OK? Because I’m going to."

"All right." Had been the quiet answer.

But the grip on her hand hadn’t loosened, and she’d drawn strength from that, enough to put her thoughts in order, and settle down. "Look." She paused. "Velasca coming after me… really shook me up." She swallowed. "Uhm… I was scared, and it felt like I was losing control of.. everything." She bit her lip a little. "And I was dragging all of you into this with me…and I.. felt so helpless." A look down at their linked hands. "I tried to convince myself that I should.. grow up. And take charge, since I was supposed to be this Amazon queen, right? Except that I didn’t have a single clue what to do, because I’m not anything of the sort. I’m just a fraud." She ignored the sudden grip on her other hand. "And that’s why I think I’ve been so ratty. It’s not you I’m mad at, it’s me." She ignored the tears that had started running down her face. "And… I think I resented the fact that you aren’t.. a fraud. You’re the real thing, Xena. You can do whatever it takes, and you can make the hard decisions… and.. I have no idea why you’ve put up with me as long as you have." She took a shuddering breath. "So.. if you want to drop me off somewhere, I don’t blame you. Home would probably be best. I can’t run the Amazons."

She’d had no idea what to expect as a response from Xena. All she could do was put the truth out there, and let the warrior make of it what she willed. She heard the slight rasp as Xena took and released a deep breath, then the hands holding hers tightened. "Look at me." Came the quiet demand, and she did, looking up into patient blue eyes. "Do you want to go home, Gabrielle?"

"No." The bard had answered.

"Do you want to go to the Amazons?" Another gentle query.

"No." Gabrielle answered, studying the ground.

"What do you want?" Xena’s voice was insistent.

And she had raised her eyes, and took her courage in both hands. "I want my best friend back." Watching Xena absorb the words, and holding her breath in tense anticipation of what her response would be. Don’t let this be the end, please…

One eyebrow had quirked, and a smile had tugged at her lips. "I haven’t gone anywhere." She quietly responded. Then her eyes had softened, and conveyed a true regret. "I should have told you what I was thinking about, Gabrielle. I just… I wasn’t sure if it would work, or even.. if it was a good idea." She paused. "I knew you were counting on me… I was.. " A sigh. "Afraid I wasn’t going to be able to come through for you, this time."

They had studied each other for a minute. "Sorry I’ve been so ratty the past few weeks." Gabrielle said, quietly. "You didn’t deserve that."

"Sorry I’ve shut you out." Xena replied, with equal quietness. "I knew you were having a hard time. You didn’t deserve that either." She paused. "And you’re not a fraud, Gabrielle." She dropped her gaze to the ground. "There are a lot of times… when I wish I didn’t have the experience that lets me make those hard decisions." Her voice dropped to a whisper. "I would have given anything not to have had to make that one."

Another long silence. Gabrielle studied their linked hands, and slowly, cautiously allowed herself to relax a little. She tightened her grasp experimentally, and felt Xena return the pressure. It’s going to be all right. She realized, and the relief of that was so intense it was painful. I could have lost this. I almost did. Her heart clenched, and she took a shuddering breath. I know what I need. She’d thought, ruefully. But that would be too much to expect after all that. Give it time, Gabrielle. It’s a start. She looked up, and against all probability found a compassionate warmth in those blue eyes, and a half grin that touched something deep inside her.

"C’mere." Xena’s voice, and a tug on the hands still clasped in hers, and then she was being pulled across the space dividing them, and into the warrior’s arms. Into a warm, fierce hug that she burrowed into and never wanted to get out of.

How did she know… her thoughts had mused absently. "Thanks.." She’d whispered. "I needed this."

Xena had tightened her grasp, then relaxed it, giving the bard’s back a little rub, and Gabrielle had felt her take a deep breath, then let it out. "So did I." Had come the admission, in a voice so soft the bard had to strain to hear it.

And after that, Gabrielle reflected soberly. They’d been more open with each other. As if that dangerous intersection, once passed, had allowed them to take their relationship a step closer, and made them realize it was ok to get mad at each other, a little. Or play.. and Xena had a wicked sense of humor Gabrielle had then discovered. Now, she looked up at Xena’s face as the warrior gazed up at the full moon, and smiled. "Hey.. if you’re going to be playing swords with all of them all day, you need some sleep."

Xena gave her a wry look. "Yes, mom." She teased, ruffling the bard’s fair hair, then tilted her head up and took a closer look at her. "Hey.." Concern in her voice now, as she touched the moisture under her eyes. "What’s wrong?"

Gabrielle laughed a little, and shrugged. "Oh.. it’s silly, nothing. I was just… thinking. Remembering, really." She glanced down and sniffed. "The moonlight here.. just kind of reminded me of the night we.. made up. After Velasca, and all that stuff."

"What made you think of that?" Came the quiet response. "You mad at me?"

The bard smiled, and gave her a little slap. "Don’t be goofy." Then her eyebrow quirked. "Unless you’re really thinking of giving yourself up to Secan and not telling me."

Xena chuckled easily, and put an arm around Gabrielle’s shoulders, tugging her towards the cot. "Nah." Her eyes twinkled. " He’d make a lousy dinner companion." She stifled a yawn. "Nope.. I’m gonna wait until I see what Lestan has to work with in the way of fighters." She blinked a little. "Before I make any decisions."

Gabrielle nodded in agreement. "Good idea." They mounted the stairs, their boots making a soft hollow noise on the wooden planks, and entered the cot, and stopped dead. "What…" Gabrielle said, then burst into laughter.

Xena’s eyebrows rose, and she put her hands on her hips, as she surveyed the sight of a very young forest dweller, crammed up against the wall of the cot, eyes wide. Staring at him, ears flat, tail down, growling, was a very fierce looking Ares.

"Ares." The warrior sighed, and patted her leg. The puppy looked around, and his tail wagged enthusiastically.

"Roo!!!" He yodeled, dancing from paw to paw, then bounding over to her, and jumping up to put his paws up on her thighs in a long stretch. "Grrr!!!" He added, as she scratched his head.

"Hi there." Gabrielle said, moving closer to the youngster. "Who are you?"

The boy’s head swiveled, and cocked, and he smiled tentatively. "Hi." He answered softly. "I didn’t meant to.. cause trouble." He was shorter than Gabrielle, and had fiery red fur, and a very sweet smile. "Just wanted to bring this, from my sister." He held up a package, but his gaze didn’t focus on either of them, and they realized the boy was blind.

Gabrielle dropped down to sit cross-legged next to him, and took the package from his hands. "Thanks. Who’s your sister?"

Ears swiveled, and cocked at her. "Elaini." He answered, with a grin. "I’m Tody." His face took on a wistful expression. "I can’t see you, but you sure sound nice."

Xena chuckled softly, and Tody’s ears swiveled towards her. "She is nice." The warrior commented, picking up the still growling Ares and moving closer. Tody’s face grew apprehensive at the approaching sound. "Don’t worry. He won’t hurt you. I’m holding him." Xena reassured the boy,

"You’re tall." Tody commented, with a little smile. "You must be Xena."

The warrior sat down slowly, so as not to startle either boy or wolf. "That’s right." She agreed. "And this is Gabrielle, who sounds just as nice as she really is."

Gabrielle giggled. "I’ll remember that." She remarked, giving Xena a light poke in the leg.

"Put your hand out." Xena gently requested. Tody did so, and the warrior let Ares sniff it suspiciously.

"Rrrr." The wolf muttered, with a little sneeze.

Tody tentatively touched the soft fur he felt under his fingertips, and then patted the puppy with more confidence. "Hey.. that’s nice. Is he really a wolf?"

"Yep." The warrior acknowledged. "He’s kind of overprotective."

Gabrielle looked up from her task of opening the package and grinned. "Takes after his mom." Her eyes twinkled at the faint blush that colored her partner’s face, and she got the expected sideways glance, to which she stuck out the tip of her tongue. "Don’t’ deny it."

"Yeah, well.." Xena sighed, rolling her eyes. "Someone has to keep an eye on you."

Tody sat quietly, moving his head to catch their voices and smiling. "This is so cool." He sighed happily. "My first humans." He cocked his head towards Gabrielle, and blinked a little. "You’re the storyteller, aren’t you?" His snub nose crinkled in a grin. "Would it be ok if I kind of felt what you looked like? It doesn’t hurt."

"Sure." Gabrielle responded immediately, and scooted closer, within his reach, gently grasping his hand, and moving it up to her cheek.

"Oh." He said, fascinated, as he drew sensitive fingertips across her skin. "Soft." His hand traced her jawline, and then traveled over her lips, and the bridge of her nose. "So different than ours." She smiled, and he felt that, his thumb touching the muscles on the side of her mouth. "You’re smiling." Then her eyelids fluttered shut as his fingers touched them, and he paused. "I can sometimes picture colors.. what color are your eyes?"

Gabrielle opened her mouth to answer, then hesitated. What meaning would the color name have for him?

A low voice emerged from the semi darkness of the cot, where Xena was still seated, cradling a contented Ares in her arms. "You know how fresh grass smells?" She asked, with a quiet smile.

Tody nodded vigorously. "Yes.. I do."

"That’s what color her eyes are." The warrior responded, enjoying the look of wonder on her partner’s face.

The boy grinned widely. "Oh..wow." Then his face sobered, and he cocked his ears towards Xena. "You’ve been blind." No question, just a statement.

"For a little while, yeah." Came the soft response. "Have you always been?"

Tody nodded. "Almost always." He returned his attention to the bard’s face, tracing her features, and ending up gently grasping a lock of her hair. His head turned, and he raised an eyebrow in question towards Xena.

The warrior took a breath, and thought a moment. "You know how the sun feels, when it’s almost setting?"

Unconsciously, the boy’s eyes closed, and a dreamy look crossed his face. "Uh huh.. is that the color?"

"Yeah." Xena answered, letting her eyes wander over the bard’s face affectionately

Tody sighed happily. "That sounds beautiful." He paused, then he giggled. "You’re blushing." As he felt the heat under his fingertips, and drew them back, lacing his fingers together and leaning forward. "Elani was out and gathered a whole batch of new herbs for tea.. she thought you’d like some." He poked his tongue out a bit. "And I volunteered to deliver them cause I wanted to meet you… the whole clan’s talking about you guys."

Gabrielle examined the herbs under her fingers. "That was really nice of her." She looked up as Xena stood, and reached down a hand for the bundle.

"I’ll put them to good use. Why not tell our friend here a story? " The warrior winked. "Bet you have some he hasn’t heard."

"Would you?" Tody asked, a delighted look lighting up his rust colored face. "I promised Elaini I wouldn’t bother you for one."

Gabrielle turned a compassionate look on him, and put a hand on his, squeezing it lightly. "Sure." She replied. "Come on, let’s sit down near the fire. " She stood and pulled him to his feet, guiding him towards the fire and settling down on the rug in front of it.

Xena stood watching for a minute, then smiled and put Ares down. The wolf trotted over and curled up against the bard’s leg, putting his chin on her knee and sighing. "Know exactly how you feel there, Ares. " The warrior muttered, then snorted at herself. Oh, boy… when you fell, you really just went all the way, didn’t you, mushball. She let her hands move automatically as she sorted the herbs, and collected a selection, dividing the pile into three parts and putting a packet in each cup, then carrying the cups and their water put over to the fire and settling down in the shadows of the fire, where she could watch the water and Gabrielle at the same time.

The bard had settled into her story, and had captured Tody’s complete attention, as the blind forest dweller shifted back and forth, and cocked his head to get all the nuances of her voice. Gabrielle had adapted her storytelling style, Xena realized, and dropped her usual use of graceful hand gestures, and instead put more descriptive terms in the narrative of the story. She’s good. The warrior’s lips quirked into a grin, and she let her head drop back and rest against the fireplace, stretching her legs out and crossing her arms.

And found her attention drifting, and her eyes closing against her will. Damn she sighed inwardly. Stamina still isn’t there. And I got extra sleep this afternoon, too. She forced her eyes open, and shook her head a little to clear it, glancing up to see mist green eyes fastened on her. She quirked an eyebrow at the bard, and took the hot water off the fire, pouring it neatly into the cups she’d prepared. Ignoring the stern look she knew she was getting.

"Hang on a second, Tody." Gabrielle said, putting a hand on his wrist reassuringly. "I’ll be right back." She stood and walked the few steps to where Xena was seated, and dropped to one knee. "Hey."

"Hey yourself." Xena answered in their familiar exchange, handing her a cup. "Here you go."

"Thanks." The bard set the cup down. "You know, you’ve heard this story before." Giving her a meaningful look.

"Gabrielle.. I’m in this story." Xena replied, with a quiet glint in her eye. "Your point?"

Gabrielle sighed, and slowly shook her head. "You are so stubborn." She leaned closer. "Would you please drop the tough as nails warlord routine and just go to sleep?" Her hand lifted and settled on the warrior’s shoulder. "Xena, it’s only been three days, OK? Anyone else would still be flat on their back in bed.. would you give your body a little healing time, please? For me?"

Xena gave her a smile. "Gabrielle.. "

"I know." The bard interrupted, putting her fingers on the warrior’s lips "But you told me the last time I was hurt that I should listen to my body, right? And if my body told me it needed to rest, I should?" She saw Xena take a breath to answer, but then she blinked a few times, and gave the bard a rueful look. "Am I right?"

A resigned sigh from the warrior. "Yeah." But she chuckled. "Let me finish this, all right?" She held up the steaming mug, and settled back against the wall, taking a large sip of the hot tea, and letting it slide down her throat. Hope she doesn’t figure out I dumped a little something in this thing to keep me up for a while. She gave the cup a wry look. Gods know I don’t have to do that often. Her eyes roamed the interior of the cot. Just have this feeling… I’m gonna need to be alert for just a little while longer.

Gabrielle went back to her storytelling, but she kept one eye on her partner, who seemed to be comfortably settled in her corner, and remained alert through the rest of the tale, blue eyes focused and interested in what she was saying. She’s doing that just to tweak me. The bard sighed inwardly, but couldn’t keep a slight grin from appearing. Oh well… I’m almost done, then she won’t have any excuse.

"That was great." Tody laughed as she finished the tale. "And.. thanks." He put a hand out and accurately patted her knee. "I could really see what you were describing in my head." He stood, and brushed his fur down, giving himself a little shake. "I’d better get home.. mom gets worried when I’m out after dark." He suddenly produced a feral grin. "Even though that almost gets me to even footing."

Gabrielle laughed, and stood up herself. "I have to get something from the healer’s cot. Mind if I walk with you?" She ignored the faint chuckle from her partner, who was indulging in a long stretch, having risen and joined her. She leaned back against Xena’s warm body, and felt the long arms circle her from behind, and settle to rest around her neck.

"Be careful." Xena’s voice whispered in her ear. "Take your staff."

The bard swiveled her head and regarded her partner quietly. "All right." She laid her cheek against Xena’s arm, and closed her eyes for a moment. Oh.. bad idea.. she realized as a wave of sleepiness washed over her. And I had the nerve to go and tease her about this. With a sigh, she forced her eyes open, and saw the twinkle as Xena caught her at it. "Not one word." She advised, giving her best version of a mean look.

Xena made a low rumbling growl deep in her throat that vibrated against the back of the bard’s head. "Make it quick, and I’ll save a nice warm spot for you." Came the gently teasing reply right in her ear, and the sudden warmth of her partner’s breath against her face sent skittering jolts down Gabrielle’s spine.

"Whoa." She exhaled, blinking. "I’m awake." Sliding her gaze sideways and meeting Xena’s mischievous twinkle. "Hold that thought." She slipped reluctantly out of the warrior’s grasp, and steered Tody towards the door, grabbing her staff on the way out. "C’mon, Tody… you can guide me. It’s dark out there."

"You bet." The boy said, lifting his russet chin importantly. "I'll protect you."

Gabrielle chuckled, and, turning, met Xena’s amused glance. "You collect them." The warrior mouthed, giving her a big grin, laughing quietly at the bard’s sheepish shrug.

They passed into the misty night, darkling now that the moon had passed behind a set of thick clouds. Gabrielle found her companion did, indeed know his way, and threaded his steps between the trees with expert skill. "That was a great story." His child’s voice echoed confidently out of the darkness. "And it was true, wasn’t it?"

"Yep." Gabrielle confirmed, taking a better grip on her staff. "I don’t have to make stuff up about Xena. The real things she does are more than enough."

"Wow." Tody breathed. "And your connection is just so super. I can see it without hardly having to Look real hard."

Gabrielle slowed, and cocked her head at him. "What’s that like? You all keep saying you can see us.. or see that connection… I can’t. I know Xena can’t… well.. I mean, I don’t know, but she’s never said, and I think she would have. It’s just this… " Her brows creased. "Like this feeling I get.. when she’s in trouble, or whatever."

Tody scowled, rumpling the fur on his face. "Gosh. I never… I mean… well, what does it feel like for you when you sense your bond?"

Gabrielle thought about that for a minute. "Like being totally immersed in sunlight." She finally said. "It’s.. " The feeling she got when their eyes met, and she knew.. she knew she could sense something flowing between them. "I can’t describe it."

The boy nodded. "Ok.. right. So you see my problem. I can’t describe it." He swiveled his ears towards her. "I just know it when I feel it. Some mates are stronger, some not… Lestan and Wennid are real, real strong. Yours.. is like theirs.. just all warm, and friendly, and nice. " His head turned, and he concentrated a moment. "That was weird." He muttered.

"What?" Gabrielle said softly, her own nascent instincts flaring, as her nape hairs lifted, sending a chill draft across the back of her neck., and sharpening her senses. That was something that had only begun to happen recently… and her mind filed that information away for later study as she brought her staff up in an instinctive warding gesture, and bent her hearing around her.

"Something…" The boy breathed back, his body deepening into a crouch, as he turned his head to different sides, trying to recapture the sound that had alerted him.

It happened so fast, neither of them had a chance to jump clear. A deep roar, and Gabrielle was faced with a blur of paleness coming at her, slashing claws catching against her staff raised by pure instinct.

"Hey!" She yelled, twisting violently and managing to somehow avoid the leap, clearing her staff from the sharp claws, and slamming it into the rapidly moving figure with all the force she could muster.

Heard the deep grunt, then a blood curdling snarl that sent shivers up and down her spine, as her attacker rolled, and turned, and launched back at her, bearing her to the ground, and knocking the wind out of her. She felt the rip of sharp claws against her skin, and kicked up, levering with her staff against the body on top of her and somehow rolling free again. "Damn. " She cursed, then looked up, and caught her breath, as her attacker bounded to his feet, and, spreading his arms wide, and baring his fangs, crouched for the leap she knew would be the end of her.

Except that she heard footsteps pounding closer, and she knew if she could just… "You’d better make sure you kill me first time." She yelled, right up into his face, right into his fangs, and saw the eyes react. "Because by the gods, you won’t get a second chance."

On her knees, only a thin staff between herself and his fangs and claws and much greater size, and she ignored it all, reaching for that core of courage that was as much a part of her as her bardic skills. "Damned if I’m going to be done in by some coward!" She yelled louder, seeing his momentary hesitation, and managing to get to her feet.

Then his eyes blazed, and he leaped, both arms slashing down at her. Desperate, she dropped back to her knees, and raised her staff, and just.. prayed.

His growl thundered through her ears, and the hot breath blasted against her skull, then the growl stopped, with a shocked grunt, and his body was tossed over her and to the ground, knocking her down as he passed, but not fast enough for her to miss seeing what had taken him down.

Gods. Impeccable timing. As always. Her mind nervously provided, as she rolled out of the way, and found herself up against Tody, who grabbed her with shaking hands. "It’s ok… " She gasped, clutching his shoulders. "Are you all right?"

Tody nodded, bending his head to listen. "What’s happening?" He begged her. "Heard you go down, then someone was running, then someone hit him, and.."

Gabrielle looked over his shoulder, in time to see her attacker lifted off the ground and slammed into a tree by a powerful kick. "What happened? " Her voice was amazingly calm. "Xena happened." She watched as her partner bounced on the balls of her feet, and moved towards the pale form who was getting up. "That’s a bad idea." She murmured to herself.

Xena didn’t even slow down, she just used her momentum to power a roundhouse punch that slammed her attacker’s head back with such force it sent saliva flying almost to where the bard was crouched.

Then the darkness was broken by a flood of furred bodies, three of whom grabbed her attacker, cautiously giving Xena a wide berth. A hand fell on Gabrielle’s shoulder, and she looked up into Wennid’s anguished face.

"Are you all right?, cubling?" Jessan’s mother asked, peering at her.

"Yeah.. I’m fine." Gabrielle answered, taking a breath. "Who.."

Wennid wouldn’t meet her eyes. "Warrin." She said through tightly clenched teeth. "He’s shamed our clan, and my family, and by all the gods, Gabrielle, I’m sorry."

Gabrielle took a glance towards the cluster of forest people, and found stark blue eyes staring back at her. She gave a little wave, and saw Xena’s body relax, and got a nod from the warrior, which she returned. "It’s not your fault, Wennid." She said, looking up at the woman. "But why.. I mean, I know I said those things to him, but…"

Then a hand touched her head, and Xena dropped to one knee at her side. "You all right?" The warrior asked, giving her a quick looking over.

The bard nodded shakily. "Yeah.. just got the wind knocked out of me. I’m fine." She let herself fall forward, into Xena’s welcoming arms, and tucked her head against the warrior’s shoulder. "Nice timing, as always." She grinned, giving the warrior a pat on the side.

"Good thing I decided not to take a snooze, huh?" Came the softly whispered answer in her ear.

"Yeah." Gabrielle answered, soberly. "Real good thing."

"Xena." Lestan crouched down next to them, his mahogany eyes almost black in the faint moonlight. "Let me have till morning to sort this out."

The warrior gazed at him. "It’s your clan, Lestan.. but.. " Her brows creased. "What was his motive? Why Gabrielle?"

The forest dweller grimly shook his head. "I have to assume he either went over the edge, or .. no, I prefer to believe he just lost his mind. Because if he did this on purpose.. to break your bond.. I’ll kill him myself."

"Maybe that’s what he wants." Came Gabrielle’s clear, quiet voice.

Eyes went to her in shock. But her gaze was focused on Xena’s face, and there was a sad understanding in her green eyes. "Maybe he did it because he knew if he succeeded, he’d die." She paused. "And even if he didn’t, even if he just managed to.. anyway. There’s a good chance he’d.." Not wanting to say, outright, the truth.

"That I would have killed him?" Xena quietly asked, then shrugged. "Probably true." Or maybe he knew if she died.. he’d have no trouble delivering me to Secan. If there was anything left to deliver."At any rate, if you’re taking custody of him, I think we’d all better get some rest."

It was a very quiet walk back. Xena didn’t speak even when they'd reentered their cot, and were standing, regarding each other in silence. Then the warrior shook her head, and let herself down onto the couch, resting her elbows on her knees, and letting her head drop between her shoulders.

Gabrielle sat down next to her, and put a hand on her back. "You all right?" A senseless question, when she could feel the painful tension present under her fingertips. "Sorry I caused all that trouble." She hitched herself up on the back of the couch, and was putting both hands to work, when Xena raised her head, and half turned.

"Come here." The warrior said in a weary voice.

"Hmm? Sure.." Gabrielle wrapped her arms around Xena’s neck, and slid off the back of the couch, landing neatly in her lap, which elicited a faint grin from the warrior. "That what you had in mind?"

"Yeah." Xena responded, and hugged her close for a very long time. Finally, when the bard was half suspended between sleeping and waking, that low voice brought her back to the present. "Gabrielle?"

"Mmm." The bard mumbled, her senses full of her soulmate.

"We’re going home after this." A very quiet, very peaceful sounding tone.

Gabrielle thought about that for a minute, then snuggled closer, and let a held breath out, ruffling the fabric of Xena’s tunic. "OK." Was her only response.

Xena just tucked the bard’s head under her chin, and let herself drift, now that she’d focused, and made a decision. At least for a while. Her mind mused. Until I can figure out how to cope with this.She’d known the instant Gabrielle had gotten into trouble, felt the edgy panic as though it had been her own, and that had sent her out of the cot and into the darkness at a dead run. Good thing I’ve got decent night vision. She considered. Or I would have ended up plowing into a few trees.

And seeing that pale form standing over Gabrielle.. She took a deep breath. Had brought out that part of her that was all fire, all Ares. That had tapped right down into that part of her she tried to control, and released it almost without her permission. Gabrielle had been right.. if the other forest dwellers hadn’t shown up, she would have killed him. She could feel it, in the way she had been attacking.

Funny. At one time, I would have welcomed knowing that. She realized. Now.. it just takes me further and further from where I’m trying to go. A quiet melancholy descended on her. Not that I have a snowball’s chance of getting there anyway. And that thought settled on her like a pall.

"Xena?" Came Gabrielle’s soft voice, and the warrior could feel the warmth of the bard’s breath against her skin.

"Hmmm?" The warrior replied, gazing fondly down at her.

Gabrielle tilted her head and gave her a dreamy smile. "I think I’m gonna really like that."

"Yeah?" Xena answered, her eyebrows lifting in mild surprise.

The bard nodded. "Yeah." She nestled closer. "It’s.. " A light sigh. "Been a really long road." Meaning more than the travel, Xena knew. "I’m a little tired."

And that, the warrior realized, was an admission Gabrielle would never have made if she hadn’t already decided to take a break.

"I didn’t really realize it until we stopped over for that fortnight. I just… " A pause. "So much has happened." The bard finished quietly.

Xena slid a hand under her jaw, and tilted her face up. "Why didn’t you tell me that before?"

Gabrielle’s eyebrows rose. "This question is coming from the Warrior Princess of Communication?" But her tone was gentle. "Xena, I couldn’t… and I was willing to keep going as long as I had to, you know that. But.. I’m not going to lie and pretend I won’t welcome a chance to just sit back and.. let some stuff heal." She took a breath. "And.. " Her lips quirked. "I saw glimpses of another side of you at home that I’d really like to spend some time digging out."

That got a smile back. "Yeah… " Xena admitted. "I felt different…wasn’t sure if it was just being home, or.. if it was because of us, or.. whatever. " She stroked Gabrielle’s hair. "And… honestly.. I’ve been worried about you."

"You have?" The bard queried. Guess I wasn’t as good at hiding what I was feeling as I thought I was..…

Xena nodded. "Ever since.. that whole mess with me getting hurt, and all that." She cleared her throat, and felt the bard’s body tense in her arms. "I saw you getting wound up tighter all the time.. and I didn’t know what to do about it.. wasn’t sure if you were just tired, or if it was getting to be too much, or.."

Gabrielle smiled. "Didn’t realize you noticed." She sighed. "You’re right, though. I think it was.. all that mess.. and just the stuff we do all the time, all the fighting, and all that.. and.." She hesitated, debating with herself, then shrugged. "And it was hard.. wanting.. " She paused, and trailed her fingers idly across Xena’s collarbone. "This." She glanced up. "Not knowing if you felt the same way, or if we’d ever… I guess I was just scared, most of the time."

"You still scared?" Xena asked, tracing her jawline with one fingertip.

The bard closed her eyes, smiled, and shook her head. "No." She snuggled closer and sighed.

"Good." Came the answer. "Come on.. " Xena stood up, carrying the bard with her, and walked across the cot to where their gear was. "Bedtime for bards."

Gabrielle giggled, and held on to the warrior’s neck as her legs were released and she felt the ground under her feet. "No argument from me." She knelt and took a sleep shirt from her pack, and grabbed one of Xena’s, tossing it to her. "Here you go." She stood, and stripped off her tunic, and heard Xena’s intake of breath. "What.. oh."

"Damn." Xena cursed, running her fingers very lightly over the four parallel scratches that raked across the bard’s abdomen. "Didn’t know he got that close."

Gabrielle’s hand dropped and covered hers. "Just stings a little." She said softly, squeezing the warrior’s fingers. "It’s not nearly as bad as yours there." Her hand lifted and touched the faded claw marks on her partner’s shoulder.

Xena shook her head. "Put your shirt on, and go lie down. I’ll get my stuff and clean those up."

"All right." The bard answered softly, pulling the shirt over her head, and padding over to the large round bed and lying down on it. Xena joined her shortly, carrying a piece of linen, and Gabrielle caught the sharp scent of her herbal cleaner as the warrior stretched out on the bed’s soft surface, motioning her to lift her shirt up. She did so, then let her arms relax on the bed, and closed her eyes.

Xena sighed, and warmed the linen between her hands before starting to clean the scratches. They really aren’t that bad. She admitted to herself, slightly mollified, as she finished up her task, and gave the bard a light tickle with her fingertips. "There."

"Cut that out." Gabrielle chuckled, slapping at her hand. "Xena!" As the warrior dodged her blow, and ran her fingers over the smooth skin. "Ugh!" She giggled, and rolled over, tugging her shirt down.

Xena chuckled herself, and relented, relaxing onto her back and allowing Gabrielle to snuggle up in her favorite spot, with her head resting on the warrior’s shoulder, and one arm thrown over her stomach. She wrapped her own arm around Gabrielle’s back, and began moving her hands in slow circles, massaging the tense muscles under her fingertips. "You’re all in knots back here, love." She commented, pressing a little harder.

"Mmmm." Gabrielle mumbled. "Not for long." She blinked her eyes open, and studied the face above her, seeing a fleeting expression she didn’t like. "Hey.. are you OK?" She laid a hand on Xena’s chest and searched her eyes. "You didn’t hurt yourself again, did you?"

A shake of the dark head and a smile. "Nah. He didn’t touch me." She reassured the bard, but felt the long delayed need for sleep tugging hard at her. Herbs must be wearing off.. well, they did what they were supposed to do.. can’t complain. "Just a little tired, I guess." She heard it in her voice, and really didn’t need the bard’s gentle touch urging her into sleep, but welcomed it anyway, and pulled her closer with a contented sigh. The world had begun to slip away when Gabrielle’s drowsy voice called her back.

"Xena?" The bard mumbled.

"Hmmm?" Her partner responded.

"How did you know.. I mean.. that new grass thing. " Came the incoherent question.

Fortunately, Xena had a good idea of what she meant. "Oh.. well.. " She responded thoughtfully. "When I was blinded, that time… I sort of.. I started to think about ways to.. well, adapt. In case.. For a while I really didn’t think I had a chance to get my sight back, Gabrielle. "

She felt Gabrielle move closer, molding their bodies together. Gods.. that feels good. She could feel the tension dissolve out of her and she felt her mind drifting. Probably not making a lot of sense.. She mused sleepily.

"Anyway.." she continued with a sigh. "I guess I started paying a lot closer attention to what things felt like.. smelled, sounded like.." A long pause. "I thought about.. you.. a lot. " She swallowed, and knew Gabrielle felt it, because the bard slid a warm hand under her shirt and rubbed her belly comfortingly. "When we’d stop for rest, I’d try to.. " She stopped for a long moment. "I didn’t want to forget what you looked like, I guess." She stumbled over the last few words, and couldn’t keep her eyes open any longer. "Sorry.. really tired."

"It’s all right." Came the gentle reassurance. "Sweet dreams, love."

A faint smile tugged at her partner’s lips. "With you here, they always are." Was the half-mumbled answer.

Gabrielle watched those blue eyes slide shut, and her breathing deepen, at last releasing the tension in the body she was wrapped around. Mostly. Because a core of it still remained, and she could feel that, and knew it would protect them both from anyone foolish enough to take one step inside that door seen dimly across the darkened room, even as tired out as she was.

She laid her head back down on Xena’s shoulder, and spent a few minutes just listening to her heartbeat, and watching the steady movement of her chest, and sighed. She’s still not 100 percent.. Her hands traced over familiar territory, and her brow creased with concern. But we’re out of time, I think.. and tomorrow, I know she’ll be pushing herself, and them, as hard as she can. Damn, Xena… but there was no arguing with the warrior about this, she realized. All I can do is keep her still for as long as I can, and three days, wow.. that’s a record. She snorted softly. And that was with.. what.. two fights and the rescue the other day? At least now, I know what’s going on with her..

For a long time, when they first had started traveling together, Gabrielle had been convinced that the warrior either just didn’t get hurt, or didn’t feel pain, and that viewpoint alternated depending on the day of the week, and the phase of the moon because she went into these horrible, pounding, crunching fights, and came out apparently untouched, Every time..

And slowly, she was getting used to the monosyllabic conversations, and the lack of any real communication between them, though that was hard. She compensated by babbling, and she knew it, and was always kind of surprised when Xena didn’t just tell her to shut up half the time.

And then, one day, they’d gotten into this fight behind some tavern, when a couple of big mercenaries had decided to grab her as she was walking in from the stable and Xena had appeared from the darkness and taken them on. Gabrielle had just ducked out of the way, having learned by now to stay clear of whatever area Xena was fighting in.. so she’d gotten behind the water trough and watched as her traveling companion let loose with a fist into one of the square jawed faces, and took him down. But he’d grabbed her arm as he was falling, and she wasn’t able to jerk it loose in time to ward off a flying kick from the second, who slammed her back into the tavern wall with force enough to rattle the boards.

She’d bounced right off the wood planks and given back a savage roundhouse that had sent blood flying from the mercenaries’ nose, and sent him sliding bonelessly to the ground.

Gabrielle had watched as she stood over the fallen thugs, hands flexing, for a long moment before she shook her head, and walked over to where the bard was crouching. Gabrielle had thought she was making sure they would stay down.. that seemed like something Xena might do, though the warrior was still largely an unknown quantity to her at this point. "You all right?" Had come the gruff question to her.

She’d nodded, and risen, giving her companion a quick grin. "Yeah, thanks. That was nasty."

Xena had merely made a sound of acknowledgement, then glanced up at the tavern, thinking in silence for a moment. "Long as we’re here, might as well get something to eat."

That had surprised Gabrielle, since she knew Xena had wanted out of this particular town, but she wasn’t about to argue, not with a hot meal in the bargain that she didn’t have to assemble, nor Xena to catch. "Great idea." She’d grinned, and followed Xena inside.

It actually was a good meal, to her delight, and she’d finished her portion with seconds before she’d looked up and noticed that the warrior wasn’t keeping pace. Which had been very unusual, since Xena tended to attack her food with single-minded persistence, though a usual marked lack of enjoyment. "Don’t you like it?" She’d asked, studying that composed face across from her.

Xena had shrugged diffidently. "Just not hungry, I guess. Take it." She’d pushed her plate across the table, and leaned back in her chair, with a large mug of ale in one hand, which she took frequent sips of, letting her eyes scan the room for possible trouble.

And that was so unusual, it had caused Gabrielle to take the opportunity to study Xena closely, though the woman appeared completely normal.. slightly menacing dour glare and all. Then the warrior had shifted slightly in her chair, and the bard had seen a momentary flicker in that cool mask that was gone so fast she thought she imagined it. So she shrugged, and started one of her mostly one-sided conversations, stopping at one point for a response, and looking over at Xena’s face.

Catching an unguarded look into her clear blue eyes and seeing something that made her instinctively reach across the table and lay a hand on the warrior’s arm, which was resting on the surface. "Xena, are you all right?" She’d asked, and thought for a long moment that she was going to be brushed off. As usual.

Those eyes had regarded her coolly, then they dropped to the table, to where her hand was resting, stayed there for an instant, then lifted back up, and met her gaze with a wry half smile. "Mostly." She admitted.

"Mostly." Gabrielle repeated, then took a breath to pursue this unusual opening, but stopped after feeling the arm under her hand tense, and changed tactics. "You know, my back is really killing me. Any chance we could stay around here for a night?"

She hadn’t been sure, but that might just have been a twinkle of amusement in those eyes, as Xena had raised that one eyebrow. "All right." She’d replied, with a shrug.

And they had, settled into a spare, if comfortable room with two decent size beds on the upper floor of the inn, and Gabrielle had really enjoyed the opportunity to be out of the weather and sleep on something soft for a change. She had slipped into an old shirt, and curled up happily on her bed, working on her newly started scrolls as Xena went through her usual routine of weapon cleaning and sharpening.

Gabrielle had kept an eye on her, though, and watched as she put the sword away, and sat slowly back in the chair, staring silently at the small fire in the fireplace with a distant look in her eyes. Then she had taken a deep breath, and reached for her armor clips, unlatching both sides and lifting the breastplate off one handed over her head, dropping the heavy plates to the ground and starting to unlace her bracers.

After she’d finished, she had quietly sat there for a minute, and then stood, and padded over to the other bed, sitting down, and leaning back against the headboard with an almost inaudible sigh.

The bard had packed her scrolls away, and slid out of bed, walking over and waiting until Xena turned her head, and raised her eyebrow in question. "Hi. I’m going to make some tea for myself. You interested?"

"Sure." She’d said, for once without that faintly cocky tone in her voice. "That would be great."

And when she’d brought the warm cup back to Xena, the warrior had reached out and taken it gently with her left hand, and given her a quirky grin. "Thanks."

Gabrielle had nodded, putting her hands behind her back to keep herself from the almost irresistible urge to give the warrior a pat. "You still mostly OK?" She’d asked,.

Eyes had locked with hers, then Xena had blinked, and gazed down into her tea. A light laugh. "Depends on what you consider a couple of broken ribs." She’d commented, knowing she’d shocked the bard.

Gods.. Gabrielle had thought. Broken ribs??? She must be…"Does it hurt a lot?" Came the quiet question, and this close, the bard could see the ugly bruise that started a few inches below her collarbone, and disappeared under her leathers.

Xena had started to shrug it off, then had chewed her lip briefly. "Yeah, a little." She finally admitted. "I’ve had worse."

Gabrielle had finally given in to her instincts and put a hand on her wrist, giving it a little squeeze. "I’m sorry. Is there anything I can do for you?"

"Nah." Came the casual reply. "I’m used to it." She held up the tea. "Nice job."

"You’re USED to it?" Gabrielle had said, staring at her in disbelief. "How do you get USED to that?"

And Xena had cocked her head to one side, and given the bard a quietly resigned look. "Have it happen often enough, you get used to it."

And Gabrielle had realized, at that moment, that she must have seen Xena get hurt a dozen times already, and never realized it, because the warrior just never said anything.

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Bound – Part 7

By Melissa Good

For DISCLAIMERS see Part 1.

Gabrielle trotted across the central square, appreciating the cool breeze that pushed the hair back from her face, and send pleasant drafts down her loose fitting tunic. Not the time to be displaying my trophy marks from last night.. she'd mused ruefully as she changed out of her halter top and skirt. Besides.. sometimes that thing gets.. drafty. Her mouth quirked. She liked wearing it most of the time.. it reminded her of her ties to the Amazons, but while she was in Amphipolis, and later at home in Potadeia, she'd gotten used to the comfortable belted tunics that Xena also tended to wear when not in armor. The clean, sun dried linen felt good against her skin, and she decided she'd stick with them when they went home.

Home. The word struck a sudden chord in her, and brought a smile to her face as she neared the small path leading to Lestan and Wennid's cot. Home for her always meant at Xena's side, but now home was also Amphipolis, and her mind filled with warm memories of Cyrene, the forested paths they’d walked on, the cold spring they loved to swim in, even Toris...it had been the longest they'd stayed in any one place the entire time they'd traveled together.. and Gabrielle was glad, in the depths of her heart that they were going back there.

She wanted to see the now familiar outline of the inn, and taste Cyrene's unmatchable cakes, and enjoy the private time they'd reserved for themselves every afternoon in the hidden glade to the north, where she and Xena would just rest quietly in each other's arms, and watch the slanting sunlight change it's angle, and listen to the world going by.

She had been at peace, and for the first time since she'd known her, so had her partner. And I want that back.. Gabrielle decided silently. I never would have asked her to stay home.. but.. Gods.. am I ever glad, because I think that's going to do more to heal her than anything else...I could see her changing right before my eyes there...all that hard watchfulness and angry tension just washed out of her, and left a very warm, and very loving person that I want very very much to coax back out.

She mounted the steps to the leader's cot, and the door opened as she got to it. "Hello." She said, as Wennid pulled the door back, and motioned her inside. "Just thought I'd stop by and ...Oh."

The conference room the door opened in on was filled with murmuring forest people, and she immediately stopped and started to back out. "Sorry.. didn't know you were in the middle of something here."

"No... Gabrielle, please stay." Wennid smiled, patting her arm. "We actually were just talking about you."

The bard's eyebrows rose. "Me?" She blurted, startled.

Smiles ran around the room. Wennid chuckled. "Well, you and your lifemate, actually." She guided Gabrielle to a chair, and settled her in it, pouring a cup of cider for the bard and putting it before her. "Here.. sorry I startled you .. it's really very benign.. you see, we were all just discussing our first experience with humans who share a gift we thought only affected our people."

Gabrielle settled back, resting her wrists on the table, and cupping her hands around her mug. Oh boy... this wasn't part of the agenda, Xena.. I'll just have to do the best I can. "Well.. listen, I know it must be really weird for you." She said calmly. "It's pretty weird for us, too." She leaned forward, and took a sip of the cider. "We didn't ask for this."

"Of course not." Wennid interjected soothingly. "We all understand that, Gabrielle, and believe me, we don't regret that this has happened..." Her eyes flicked around the room. "I won't lie and say that we weren't...dismayed.. at first, but that had more to do with what you are, than who you are."

Gabrielle took a breath, then thought better of it, and remained silent.

"Now.." Wennid went on. "We've gotten to know you, and we realize that... " She looked a touch sheepish "You're not so different than we are."

Gabrielle thought about that for a minute. "No, you're wrong." She finally said, quietly, but her tone carried across the suddenly silent room. "I’m very different." Her mist green eyes traveled around the room. "Just like I'm very different from Xena, and she's very different from just about anyone else I've ever known." She paused. "We get in a lot of trouble with this us and them thing, you know? We're all different - you just have to learn to judge people by themselves, not as part of some other group."

Silence fell, as they regarded her, a ring of furred faces, with varying shades of golden eyes, and the odd fangtip showing. She took a sip of cider, knowing she'd made a point, and suddenly the room seemed friendlier. Good one, Gabrielle, Xena will be proud of you.

Her nearest neighbor leaned over, and gazed thoughtfully at her. "So.. you think I'm just another person, is that right?"

Gabrielle nodded. "Sure."

The forest dweller jerked forward, baring all his teeth and growled in a risingly fierce howl.

Oh yeah? Gabrielle got angry. Take this. And she dropped her head, letting her expression harden, and locked her eyes with the forest dwellers in dead silence. The forest dweller blinked, then drew back his head, and finally tried to find someplace to put his eyes other than hers. "Don't try that with me." The bard growled. "Because I've seen things lots scarier than you." She paused, then grinned right at him. "In fact, I travel with one of them."

"Alen." Wennid's voice was angry. "That was very rude."

Alen sighed, and gave Gabrielle an abashed nod. "I know, I'm sorry. But we're so used to humans thinking we're animals, it's hard to believe when one of you just comes in here and says you don't." He paused. "Sorry."

The bard relented, and let off her Xena look impersonation. "That’s all right.. I do understand – we go through that all the time from people who think Xena is a murdering warlord."

Wennid quietly refilled the bard’s cup, and settled back down in her chair, casually casting her glance around the room. Then she smiled, and gave a signal, and the group began to disperse. She laid a hand on Gabrielle’s arm when the bard started to stand up. "Please stay, Gabrielle. I’d like to talk with you for a little while."

Uh oh. Gabrielle’s mind raced. Ok..Ok.. take it easy, Gabrielle – you can handle this. "Sure." She said, shrugging, as she sat back down and took a long swallow of cider. And be careful with that.. it’s nice and smooth and tasty, and packs quite a punch, and you don’t need to be tipsy right now.

The room emptied, and quieted, and Wennid stood, moving around the room and collecting cups. She glanced across the room and quietly studied the young human who was sitting, hands wrapped around one of her glazed mugs, with a serious expression on her face. She is.. in her own, very gentle, very honest way, as formidable as her lifemate. The forest dweller mused. Smaller than Xena, yes, and less physically threatening, but her compact body was strong and muscular, and she had a force of personality that became it’s own weapon. She piled the cups on a tray, then crossed back over and sat down next to Gabrielle.

"Tell me.. Gabrielle… how do you feel about this gift?" She kept her voice gentle, non-threatening. "How did you find out you had it?"

The bard sat slowly back, and played with the arm of the chair she was sitting in. How do I feel? Good question. "I think it’s great." She answered slowly. "It’s saved my life.. oh.. I don’t know how many times now.. even before we realized what it was, Xena used it. "

"She did." Wennid murmured. "And didn’t say anything to you?"

Gabrielle shrugged. "What was there to say? It’s just a feeling you get.. that something’s not right.. something’s.. out of place. " She thought for a minute. "She did it so often, I stopped questioning it. It was just something.. one of the many things she was just good at. "

"And when you found out.. what it was?" Wennid gently persisted.

"Oh.. gosh. " Gabrielle laughed. "Well, we’d had this situation where I was with the Amazons for a while, and she wasn’t, and we got back together after a really nasty problem. She’d told me that she knew something was wrong with me, and that’s what made her come riding to my rescue. " She grinned at Wennid’s face. "Well, she does – that’s just how she is. Anyway, we were at a banquet the next day and I could… " She fell silent. "I think for the first time, really.. I could feel that something wasn’t right with her…it was.. really strange. "

"Were you touching each other?" Wennid asked, with a grin.

"Mmmm…yeah." Gabrielle acknowledged, blushing. "Did that have something to do with it?"

Wennid nodded, and quietly filled the bard’s cup. Gabrielle didn’t appear to notice. "Sure.. it would, if you had reached a certain point. And I guess you had." Her eyes twinkled.

Gabrielle blushed again. "Sort of." She muttered. "Anyway, I just turned around and asked her if she thought we were like.. well, you and Lestan. And she said yes."

"That was it?" Wennid blinked. "You didn’t question it or..???"

The bard nodded. "Yep.. that was it. We just sort of said, Ok.. we can deal with this.. and went on from there."

Wennid rubbed her head and gave it a little shake. "And how long have you been together?"

"Two years and some." Gabrielle answered, taking a tiny sip from her mug.

"And you never considered before.." The forest dweller seemed to be having some trouble with this.

Gabrielle sighed, and glanced at her hands. "I’m not really comfortable discussing this." She looked up at Wennid. "No offense, but it’s really personal to me."

The forest dweller blinked. "Gods above. I do apologize, Gabrielle.. we’re so used to talking about the lifebond amongst ourselves, that I forgot.."

"And please don’t try to get me drunk. I don’t like it." The bard quietly added, leveling a stare at her.

Wennid studied the table thoughtfully. "I apologize again, Gabrielle. I was only trying to get you in a frame of mind where you could discuss this with less anxiety." She looked up with a serious expression. "The clan has voted to ask you, and your lifemate, to allow us to adopt you – I wanted to make sure had all the information you needed to make that decision before I asked. I can see I went about it the wrong way."

Gabrielle gave her a slow smile, and sat back. "Actually, " she said with a casual air. "what you really want is to know more about us before you ask that. " Her mouth quirked. "So.. let’s just get to the "so.. what’s Xena really like" discussion and we can go from there, OK?"

They looked at each other, then Wennid started to laugh. "OK..OK.." She finally said, slapping the table. "You pass, storyteller. .. you win." She leaned back herself, and waved a hand at the chuckling bard. "All right then… tell me, Gabrielle, what’s Xena really like?:"

"That’s better." Gabrielle cheerfully responded. "You gotta remember, I get asked this a LOT." Her eyes twinkled. Whoa.. good catch, bard!!

"So.. you’re going to tell me she’s not like all the stories we’ve heard, not a bloodthirsty, ruthless warlord who kills at the drop of a hat, right?" Wennid winked at her.

And got back a sudden, serious stare. "No." Gabrielle said, her voice deepening. "I’m not, because she can be bloodthirsty, and ruthless, and I’ve seen her kill at less than a drop of a hat."

Silence fell.

"But she’s also endlessly brave, and totally honest, and she’s willingly offered her life up for others on more occasions than I can count. " The bard finished softly. "She’s the most complex, most driven, most determined person I’ve ever known. Or ever will."

Wennid absorbed this in continued silence. So.. the little girl is not a naïve child after all. Her mind mused. She knows the darkness as well as the light of her lifemate. "Thank you."

"You’re welcome." Gabrielle answered.

Another silence. "She came and got Jessan this morning." Wennid commented offhandedly, but her eyes glinted. "Never saw anyone pull him by the ear before and get away with it."

Gabrielle giggled. "That’s Xena." She leaned forward again, more at ease now. "There was this time…" And she was off, snaring a fascinated Wennid into several of their more complicated tales, which she told with the ease borne of long practice. She’d just finished the last, when the door pushed open, and Lestan trudged in, to throw himself into a chair, and sigh explosively.

"Where…" He rolled his head to one side and glared at Gabrielle. "Does she get all that energy?" He closed his eyes and rocked his head to relieve pressure in his neck. "She took on all of us, one at a time, then went through battle formations, and taught me more about field generalship in one morning….Ares, she’s good."

Gabrielle smiled, and glanced down. And you probably ran yourself ragged doing it, didn’t you love. "You guys finished?"

Lestan nodded wearily. "Yeah. She said if we had a few more days…" He chuckled. "But she did what she could.. and it might … " His eyes opened and met Wennid’s, over Gabrielle’s head. "Might just make the difference." His face held a note of surprise, and a dim dawning hope. "She showed me a strategy that would work against Secan… takes advantage of his one glaring weakness."

"Excuse me." Gabrielle said, standing up. I’m gonna kill her.

"Wait.." Lestan put a hand on her arm. "Wennid’s spoken to you about the clan adopting you, has she?" His mahogany eyes searched hers in quiet gentleness.

Gabrielle nodded. "Yeah."

"You can say no." The forest dweller rumbled. "I know we’re very different.. but it seems we have the important things in common, and I'd really like to extend the protection of the clan around you both if you’re going to fight on our behalf tomorrow."

The bard took a breath. "I know.. and I’m sure that won’t be a hard decision. " She smiled at Lestan. "I’ll go talk to her about it." She slipped from her chair, and headed for the door, shaking her head a little. "Xena, you promised." She muttered under her breath.

Then stopped short, as a tall, pale furred form towered over her, and put up a hand to slow her progress. Warrin.. oh gods… "Don’t even think about it." She said firmly, backing off and taking a defensive position automatically.

"Ok.." Xena said, for what seemed the thousandth time that morning. "Try that again." And parried the resulting blow with what must have seemed to the forest dwellers smooth ease. But it wasn’t to her, and hadn’t been for a little while. Damn damn damn… she cursed herself. I don’t have time to get tired this fast.

She’d done brief bouts with all of the fighters, getting a good idea of their strengths and weaknesses, and had spent the last while teaching them some battle tactics she’d used successfully in forest battles in the past. It was going well – the forest dwellers were very fast learners, and this was something natural to them. She’d even spent a bit of time with Lestan, and showed him a way to compensate for his bad arm. All in all, an excellent session.

In fact, she mused, if she had a fortnight to spend with the forest dwellers, doing this, their neighbors might justifiably become very nervous. A smirk tugged at her lips, then vanished as she patiently parried yet another charge, this time letting the fighter just run right past her, and smacking him lightly on the back with her flat. "When you lose control of your momentum.." She called. "You end up in places you don’t wanna be."

Deggis rubbed his back as he turned around to face her and spoke up tiredly. "But they outnumber us, Xena. What then? It’s fine to do this one on one, and Ares in Olympus I’ve learned a lot today.. but…"

Oh boy. Xena sighed. I was afraid someone was going to ask that question. "Works the same in a crowd, Deggis." She answered, watching his face. Doesn’t believe me. Damn… OK, Gabrielle, I know I promised.. but if I’m gonna collapse in the middle of battle tomorrow, I’d better find that out now. "All right.. I’ll show you." She said, stepping back a few paces, and shifting her grip on the sword. Then.. I’m calling a break, because standing up might be a problem.

They all looked at her, a ring of serious, intent faces. She took a deep breath, and reached down into rapidly depleting reserves. Better make this good, Xena.. it’s what’s going to get them through tomorrow.. or not. They have to believe it’s possible. "OK – all of you. At me. Now."

For a moment, they all looked at each other, then at her. "Now!!!" She yelled, and saw them jerk in response, then they moved at her with frightening speed.

She met the first two blades with sudden backhanded lunges that sent them flying, then was in the middle of a solid band of fighters, whipping her sword around her in pure instinct, which kept their steel from her body and kept them at bay. Two more disarmed, and she was flipping out of the way of a third, landing and leaping high again, this time slamming her hilts on a furry head, and kicking yet another who tried to engage her.

It was long, and it was hard, and she took out all the stops and kept moving, driving them back and disarming them one by one.

And at last, at very long last when she thought she might possibly pass out on the battlefield for about the first time in her life, she looked around and saw she was the only one armed and standing. She stood with her sword resting against one thigh, in a very quiet field where the grass waved gently against her boots, and the insistent chirp of crickets could now be heard. A cool breeze filtered through, pushing the dark hair off her forehead, and bringing welcome relief to her pounding head. Gods.. I can’t believe I actually pulled that off. She felt her labored breathing began to settle, and quietly thanked the gods for all that time spent in endless hours of conditioning. Pays off.. when I really need it to.

They all stared at her with eyes that absorbed her every move, every word. "It can be done." She said, pitching her voice to carry across the waving grass. "In war.. the winners are usually the ones who want it the most. Not the strongest, not the best armed.. all it takes is just refusing to lose." And she flipped her sword over, and slid it into its sheath with a smooth motion.

They believed her, she could sense it. See it in their faces. She let a smile cross her face. "All right, let’s take a break…I’ve done about all I can here for the moment." Oh boy.. was that ever true. I hope I can actually make it back to the village. That would be embarrassing…" She was, she admitted to herself, exhausted. Gabrielle’s gonna kill me. Her tired mind chuckled, and she looked up as Lestan ambled over and patted her shoulder.

"Mind if we sit down a minute.. I gotta ask you something." He said quietly, cocking his head at her.

Xena shrugged. Sit down.. that’s probably a good idea. She realized, as her legs started to shake. "Sure." She waved a hand at a convenient pair of stubby rocks poking out of the ground, and seated herself.

He followed suit, and stretched his legs out with a wince. "Thanks." He sighed. And leaned back. "Haven’t had a workout like that in years.. how do you do it?" He glanced at her, and got an amused grin back. "If you say practice, I’m gonna have to kill myself."

Xena laughed. "Sorry. Practice." She informed him. A small silence fell, then she looked over at him. "What’s up?" She plucked a strand of pale grass, and munched on the end of it, waiting for him to get whatever it was off his chest.

Lestan studied her, chewing his lip. Beat around the bush? No.. bad idea. She’s the type who just likes to get things over with. Ok.. "We want to adopt you."

"What?" The warrior’s brow creased, and she stared at him. "Do I look like an orphan or something??" But she had a good idea of what Lestan meant. Well… that simplifies the backup plan. She mused.

"No no.." Lestan chuckled. "It’s a tradition of the clans, Xena. When we have someone who joins our clan from the outside, to make them family, we adopt them. It gives them clan rights, and the right of protection from anyone outside our group." He hesitated, then went on. "And.. since you’re going to be out there fighting with us tomorrow.. I thought… " He paused. "And because of your bond with Gabrielle also. We just think you two should be.. uhm."

Xena put a hand on his knee. "Relax." She reassured him. "I understand. And I appreciate that, Lestan, I really do. Let me talk to Gabrielle and see how she feels about it before I say one way or the other."

He nodded. "Wennid’s talking to her too." He looked up and grinned. "I hope you say yes." Then he put his hands on his knees, and pushed with a groan. "I need to go get some lunch before I keel over. Can I walk you back?"

"Sure." Xena nodded amiably, and rose to join him, stretching her back and shoulders gingerly. But the shakiness was gone, and she took a deep breath, feeling some measure of energy returning. "Let’s go."

They walked in silence across the field, and through the treeline that surrounded the village. The colder breeze under the tree’s shade felt good, Xena realized, and she ran her hands through her hair, freeing it from her gambeson to let the air hit the back of her neck. Whoa. That feels a lot better. She chuckled. "Gwan, Lestan. I’m going to take a walk to the stream and get a cold drink." She gave Lestan a push towards his cot.

"Home looks good." Lestan agreed, and gave her a nod. "We’re having a big dinner tonight.. I hope you and Gabrielle will join us, regardless of your decision. "

Xena gave him a wry grin. "Gabrielle miss out on a banquet ? Never." She sighed. "We’ll be there."

She left him to amble home, and knelt by the stream, drinking for several minutes from cupped hands, then splashing the cold water over her head and face. That feels better. Her mind analyzed. At least I can go get Gabrielle now and not worry about falling over in front of her. I’d never live that down. She got to her feet and headed back towards Lestan’s cot, where she’d heard Gabrielle’s voice a few minutes earlier.

Warrin stared at her coolly. "Be still, human. I won’t harm you."

She crossed her arms and studied him. How could they have just… maybe I don’t understand them as well as I thought. Her mind raced. "Oh.. you only do that in the dark? When your victim can’t see you coming, is that it?" Her jibe hit the mark, and she saw his eyes narrow briefly.

"Have a care, human… I gave my word no harm would come to your or your friend.. " His voice rasped. "But if tomorrow brings what I know will be the death of half my clan due to your involvement, I'll break that word, and show you what our people really are."

"No you won’t." The voice floated out from behind them, and Gabrielle felt a wave of familiar warmth crash over her. Xena stepped out of the shadows, and put herself squarely between Gabrielle and the formidable form that face her. "Because one, I’m not gonna let that happen."

Warrin’s eyes showed uneasy disdain. He threw a quick glance to one side, as though trying to figure out where she’d come from. "You can’t prevent it, don’t you understand?" He said. "You’ve taken away our choices."

Xena stepped closer to him, right into the range of his claws, and smiled. "You’ll just have to take my word for that. " She stepped even closer, until she could feel the wisps of fur on his chest rasping against the quilted tunic she wore, and could smell the musky scent of him. "And if you ever.." Her voice dropped to a silky rasp. "Touch her again I’ll show you up close and personal what it means to be Ares’ Chosen. "

A silence dropped over them, as the two warriors stood with locked eyes. Gabrielle could see the tension in Xena’s shoulders, despite the casual stance and knew her partner was on a razor’s edge, needing only the barest of movements from Warrin to throw her into battle.

"Are you threatening me?" Warrin whispered, in an ice-cold tone. His fur lifted on his back and his nostrils flared.

Xena gave him a lazy smile that had no warmth in it at all. "Yes."

A long pause, then Warrin stepped back a pace.

"Your arrogance will be the death of us." Warrin stated flatly, but his body language signaled defeat, and he turned and disappeared down the shadowed path next to Lestan’s cot.

Xena took a breath, and released it, letting her head drop forward for a moment. Damn I’m glad he didn’t push that. She tilted her head and regarded Gabrielle, who had moved closer and slid an arm around her waist. "Thought you weren’t going to see him without an escort."

Gabrielle gazed up at her with a raised eyebrow. "Thought you said you were going to take a break when you got tired." She responded, maintaining a cool expression, and daring her to deny it.

And got a wry smile back, and a long arm settling around her shoulders. "I know I did. And I meant to..." Xena admitted, with a heartfelt sigh. "But if we’re going to fight tomorrow, I needed to know just how hard I could push."

The bard considered this for a moment. "And you pushed really hard." It wasn’t a question, because she could see the strain in her face, and feel the effort it was taking her to move.

Xena took a long breath. "Yeah." She admitted very quietly. "But it’s better I know now."

Well, she has a point. "So what’s the verdict?" She snuggled closer, forgiving her for the moment.

"On me, or them.?" Xena asked, as they walked towards their assigned cot.

"Yes." The bard answered, giving her a squeeze.

"Mmm… if the battle ends before noon tomorrow, I'll be fine. " The warrior replied. "And they might have a chance at winning, if they keep their heads, and do what I tell them to."

Gabrielle nodded thoughtfully, then looked up, seeing in her eyes just how far she’d pushed herself. "And if it doesn’t and they don’t?"

Xena walked a few steps in silence. "If it doesn’t and they don’t.. well, we’ll have to go to plan B." She answered, taking a another deep breath and releasing it.

"What’s plan B?" Gabrielle persisted, wanting to know the worst.

And got a quirky grin back. "I dunno.. but when I figure it out, I’ll tell you."

Gabrielle sighed. "I was afraid of that." She chewed on that for a minute. "Do they really have a chance?" She studied Xena’s profile. Or are you depending on everything landing on your shoulders? As usual? As always…

The warrior nodded. "Yeah, they do." With me leading them. I’m the one crucial factor.. and gods know, I hope I’m up to it.

Gabrielle laid her cheek against Xena’s shoulder and gave her another hug. "Come on, hero. " Her lips quirked. "Let’s get you some lunch and a nap before you fall over." Daring Xena to contradict her.

"That sounds… really great." The warrior sighed, not bothering to dissemble. She negotiated the steps carefully, and reached out, grabbing the door pull and opening the wooden portal for Gabrielle to pass before her. She followed the bard inside, and stopped short as Ares bounded over and thumped up against her legs, yawning in an ecstasy of greeting.

"Roo!!!" He yodeled, tail going furiously. "Roo!"

Xena dropped a hand onto his head, and grinned. "Hello to you to, Ares." She was about to kneel down and play with him when a pair of strong hands gripped her shoulders, and she was pushed towards the low couch. "Hey… cut that out."

"Not until you sit down." Gabrielle kept up her steady pushing until Xena relented and half dropped, half fell into the pillows, laughing as Ares scrambled up next to her and put his paws on her chest, licking her face with aggressive vigor. "Ares.." the warrior growled.

"Grr…" The wolf growled back, but settled down on her lap, panting.

Xena patted the wolf’s soft fur, and let her head rest on the back of the couch, idly studying the ceiling and letting her mind drift until she felt a gentle hand on her forehead, and focused her gaze on Gabrielle’s concerned face. "Hey." Gods.. did I just go out like that? "Sorry.."

"Here." The bard said quietly, handing her a steaming cup. "Drink this.. " She slid onto the couch next to her partner, and put a supportive arm around her shoulders as she sat partway up and took a sip.

"Not bad." Xena said, giving the bard a grin, and trying to deny just how much she needed that supporting arm. The soup helped though, and so did sitting quietly while Gabrielle threw together a large plate of meatrolls, which they shared, along with most of a fresh loaf of bread the bard had gotten, that was still warm from the oven.

She felt a trickle of energy returning, and she used that to stretch out her length across the couch, and pull Gabrielle’s body down beside her.

"Hey!" The bard yelped, grabbing at the edge of the couch and missing. "Whoa.. cut that out."

Xena just grinned as Gabrielle lost her balance and collapsed onto the couch, half sprawled across the warrior’s body. "Nu uh… I like that." She growled, and wrapped her arms around the bard, holding her in place and feeling the giggles go through her. "So.. tell me about your day?" She asked, as the bard got over her surprise and relaxed against her.

"The usual." Gabrielle tried to stifle a yawn and failed. Xena’s warmth was very seductive, and she felt her body’s rhythm slowing as she nestled closer. Now.. why am I tired? She puzzled quietly. All I did was run around and talk to people. She stretched lazily and felt the tension leaving her body as Xena gently rubbed her back with light fingertips. "Uhm.. let’s see. I had the usual Explaining the Warrior Princess lecture with Wennid, and passed some kind of test with a gaggle of her friends that were over there when I showed up."

"The what lecture?" Xena laughed, and felt Gabrielle laugh a little too.

"Oh.. you know." The bard mumbled into her shoulder. "the ‘What’s she really like ‘ one.. everybody asks me. " She yawned again. "Damn.. don’t know why I’m so sleepy all of a sudden. .you must be a bad influence." She started to get up, but her body refused to obey and she simply collapsed again and gave in to the insideious craving. "Ungh.. guess I’m staying here."

"Having problems, my bard?" Xena asked, kissing the top of her head, and chuckling softly. "We got up pretty early. .and after that lunch you just ate, I’m not surprised you’re sleepy. " She teased, tickling her ribs. ‘Mmm? Guess I’d better stay awake just in case, huh.."

"I think I’m just addicted to you." Gabrielle answered in a lazy tone. "I should get up and work on those scrolls, or get some staff practice in, but I have absolutely no desire to do anything other than stay right here and snuggle." She unbuckled the leather belt and slid a hand inside Xena’s gambeson, starting to trace her gentle patterns there. "And you will not stay awake, you goof." She was rewarded by an involuntary fluttering of eyelids over amused blue eyes. That’s it… come on.. you need this, and you know it. "Are we going to let them adopt us, by the way?"

Xena let her eyes close as she considered the question. Couldn’t have kept them open anyway.. gods, she has that trigger down pat. "What do you think?" She finally asked, to buy time. I want this – but not for the reason she thinks… because there is a plan B.. I just hope to Hades I don’t need to use it.

Gabrielle hesitated, then shrugged. "I guess what’s bothering me is that I’m not really sure why they’re doing it.. I mean sure… we’re going to help them out tomorrow, and you’ll probably do something or other amazing and save the day, but…" She sighed. "I still get the feeling that most of them don’t trust us. So.. what gives?"

"Mmm." Xena agreed. "I get the same feeling." She stroked Gabrielle’s hair with a gentle rhythm. "Maybe more of them agree with Warrin." Her brow quirked above her closed eyes. "Not like they’d be the first people not to trust me, right?"

Gabrielle felt her breath catch at that, and she studied the still face carefully. Trust and personal loyalty were touchy subjects with Xena.. always had been. She knew her reputation preceded her, and had gotten used to strangers assuming she was a bloodthirsty killer.. But from those that knew her more closely.. distrust from them hurt her. Gabrielle knew.. she’d made that mistake once, and never forgotten it.

It had been the stupidest of circumstances… just a shopping trip in one of the larger cities around Athens, and she had decided to try and surprise Xena with a present. That was always hard, since the warrior didn’t do shopping much, and didn’t have a lot of extraneous possessions to base any possible purchases on.. after all, how many leather gauntlets can one woman have, right?

So she’d rigged up some dumb story to get out on her own for a while, and had bumped into an old acquaintance from the Bard’s Academy, and made a pretty pleasant day of it, since Aaron would have none of her going around the market by herself, and insisted on accompanying her. She’d even found a great set of sharpening stones to give Xena, correctly assuming a warrior could never have too many of those.

But she’d forgotten how arrogant Aaron was.. and when they’d finally ended up back by the Inn they were staying at, he’d disdained the rough lodgings, and insisted she accompany him to his hostel, several blocks away. She had been on the verge of refusing, when Xena had brusquely told her to go on, that she had something she needed to attend to, and that she’d meet back up with her tomorrow.

Aaron, who had really no idea who Xena was, took in the rough hewn clothes the warrior was wearing, and her acerbic speech, and made an assumption, which led him to sniff in her direction, and state that he’d love to invite her as well, but it was obvious she couldn’t be trusted not to stab one of her tablemates for their dinner.

And here, Gabrielle knew she’d made a grave error. She should have taken Aaron down verbally, and sent him on his way, but she was confused by Xena’s angry behavior, and so had said.. nothing.

As though she had agreed with him. And behind those icy blue shields that she had only recently started to be able to see through, she saw a look of profound hurt that nearly made her heart stop. Then it was gone, and Xena had stood, and put her hand on her sword hilt, and given him a look that made him back up, dragging Gabrielle with him out the door.

She’d gone the length of the street with him, her heart growing heavier with each step, until she stopped. And turned, looking back at the inn. "I have to go back." She’d said to Aaron, who thought she was crazy. "Maybe I am.. but you just really hurt a friend of mine, and I have to go fix that."

Aaron had laughed at her. "That’s a friend of yours?" He pulled on her arm. "What.. you keep her around to do a little hunting for you? She looks like an animal."

And Gabrielle had felt a slow burning fire in her erupt without warning, as she jerked her arm free, and slugged him with all the strength she could muster, connecting with his face with an audible crack that sent a jolt of red hot pain up her arm, but she didn’t care. "Don’t you ever." She yelled, grabbing him and shaking him hard. "Ever talk about her like that. " She hit him again, and he started to whimper. She shoved him away from her violently, and he stumbled off, giving her a look one usually reserved for a mad person.

She’d gone back to the inn, but Xena hadn’t been there., so knowing her companion, she’d gone outside and entered the stable.

And had frozen at the site of Xena standing quietly next to Argo, her arms wrapped around the golden neck, and her face buried in the mare’s thick cream mane. Just for an instant, until she sensed Gabrielle’s presence, and straightened up, pulling a comb through the thick hair, and arranging it neatly along the mare’s bowed neck.

"Thought you were going cross town." Xena had said, in a cool voice, as she worked. Keeping her eyes glued on the pale stiff hairs, and not looking up at Gabrielle.

"I don’t want to hang out with idiots." Gabrielle had replied, joining her at Argo’s side, and stroking the golden shoulder gently. "I'd rather be here with you." Because it was the only thing she could think of to say that might make a start at fixing this mess.

"Can’t see why." Xena had commented, now working on Argo’s forelock.

"I said.. he’s an idiot, Xena." Gabrielle had responded softly. "He doesn’t know you."

And Xena’s hands had stilled, as she turned and gazed at Gabrielle. "It’s all right. It doesn’t matter." Her eyes had dropped to the straw. "I’m used to people not trusting me to act like a.. decent human being." She took a deep breath and shrugged. "I just didn’t expect that… from.. you." She’d swallowed hard after getting the words out, and then just shook her head, and sighed. "I just… I thought.." Then she had stopped speaking, and went back to currying Argo. "Forget it."

Gabrielle had felt that pain like it was her own, and had moved closer, and put a hand on the warrior’s arm. "That’s not how I think of you." She’d said softly. "And you know that. "

Xena hadn’t answered, just went back to her currying, so Gabrielle had gotten right up against her, and forced eye contact "You do know that, right?"

And finally had gotten a reluctant grin from her companion, and light nudge in the belly. "Yeah, I do." Then her hand had been captured, and Xena’s eyes were pinned on hers. "What happened to your hand?"

Gabrielle had blushed, remembering. "I.. um… "

"Gabrielle, that’s broken." Xena had said, examining the aching bones gently. "Damn… I need to.. what did you do?"

"I hit him." Gabrielle answered, in a faint voice, now that the pain was hammering at her. "He said.. something bad about you and I got mad and I just…" Her head was buzzing, and now she was aware of Xena’s arm supporting her, and leading her to a small bench. "Oh gods, that hurts."

Xena had sat down next to her, and set Gabrielle’s hand down gently on her own knee. "I'll have to block off…She’d stopped speaking, and paused. "Wait a minute.. " She raised a hand and captured the bard’s jaw. "You were defending my honor, Gabrielle??" Her voice was an odd mixture of pride, disbelief, amusement, and something indefinable.

And Gabrielle had looked up into her eyes, and grinned bravely. "Sure.. you’ve got so much of it .. I thought you could use a hand defending it." The blue eyes widened, and she’d let her voice drop a little. "And I mean every single word of that." Very aware of the hand still cupping her chin, and the blue eyes so close to hers, and the rich scent of leather and metal and skin that always meant Xena to her.

A long still moment passed between them, then Xena leaned forward, and gently kissed Gabrielle’s forehead. "Thanks." She whispered into the nearby ear. "But next time?"

"Yeah?" Gabrielle responded, enjoying the closeness.

"Kick him in the groin., OK?" The warrior sighed, and blocked the nerves to her hand.

Gabrielle smiled gently in remembrance. Another milestone in our long journey.. she mused. "Well, I guess it can’t hurt us any, if we say yes." Meaning the adoption.

Xena grunted in response, and grinned as she felt Gabrielle’s body slowly go completely limp against her. Fell asleep before I did…that’ll be good for a tease later. She cracked open one eye, and regarded her partner in some amusement, then scanned the room, judging the sounds she heard outside and deciding it would probably be safe for her to take a short nap. She checked the position of her sword, lying sheathed along her right leg, and gave Ares one last pat before closing her eyes and joining the bard in sleep.

"So." Secan drawled leaning back in his large chair and throwing a powerful leg over the arm of it. "Tell me." He’d just gotten back from a recon to their own northern border, and it was the first chance he’d had to get a report from his favorite lieutenant, about his parley the day before.

"Good news, and bad." Kelten said, pulling up a low stool, and seating himself in front of his leader’s desk. "Which?"

"Bad." Secan said immediately, propping his sunset red furred head up on one hand. "Always."

Kelten nodded, and sniffed reflectively. "Bad news is, she’s.. about what the stories say she is." He gazed at his hands, as they twisted each other. Remembering those ice-cold eyes that scared him far more than a human’s should. "The rest of those grazers just rolled over for me, but not her.. no.. she got right up in my fangs and threatened me."

Secan’s shaded eyebrows rose. "No, really?" He showed his large fangs in amusement, and took a deep draft of the ale in front of him.

The silver forest dweller snorted a little, and shook his head. "Yes, really." He looked up. "You know we tried to dart her."

"Yeah? You said you were going to give that a try." Secan said, a fascinated look crossing his handsome face. "Did Selwyn miss?"

"No." Kelten put his chin on his hand. "She caught the damn crossbow quarrel."

"Really??" Secan laughed. "No… you’re joking with me."

Silver hair flew as Kelten shook his head hard. "Nope.. and it wasn’t even like she was trying.. she just was walking along, and I heard his mech release, then the thing was in her hand, and she was sort of.. playing with it. You know.. flipping it over, that kind of thing. "

"Whoa." Secan stuck the tip of his tongue out. "So.. what did she threaten to do to you?"

"Make me into a rug." Kelten admitted. "And I gotta tell you Sec, I believed her."

"Did you." Secan said softly, taking a sip of his ale, and leaning back. "Damn.. I wanted her… and not just because of what she did to Elusha. I wanted her here, so I could play with her… remember what I did to that last human we caught?" His eyes glittered. "She lasted a week. Bet this one would last a month."

"If she didn’t kill you in the first candlemark." Kelten added dryly. "But anyway, the good news is, you don’t have to worry about her getting in the middle of our little war."

Secan tilted his russet head and regarded his lieutenant. "Oh?" He ran his tongue around his fangs. "Not that I was worried anyway."

"She’s lifebonded." Kelten said quietly, watching Secan’s face for a reaction, and not being disappointed as the big leader’s eyes rounded, and he sat up straighter in his chair.

"No way." He breathed. "Humans can’t…." Then he stopped, and chuckled. "Well, I always said that was our softer side.. now I have proof. Is she really?"

"Yes way." The silver forest dweller acknowledged. "She’s got this little bit of a thing she keeps tied to her tail, and brother are they ever tied.. they stand out like a bald wolf in a pack reunion."

Secan laughed. "Better and better… we’ll take out that grazer village tomorrow.. and after I finish making my point with their precious lifebonds, we’ll take our little humans back here and have some real fun. You think that warrior would like to be chained up to my table here, while I burn our alphabet into her little bondmate?"

Kelten considered the idea. "Hmmm… that might be fun.. then are you going to take her right on the table? " His eyes glinted. "Maybe we could make the little one into a rug, you think? She has nice hair.. kind of like Jerusha’s."

Secan laughed deep in his throat. "No.. I’ll make a whip out of it.. and use it on the warrior. " His face creased into a dark smile. "It’s definitely going to be a fun day. And after we finish with this one, we’ve got a few more of the peace lovers down along the coast to take care of. Then…" His fangtips showed. "Then.. I have a taste for human blood." He took a long sip of his ale. "What amusement around the fire this evening, my friend?"

Kelten stood, and straightened a kink out of his spine. "Selwyn’s the amusement." He smirked, and waggled an eyebrow at Secan. "Not only did he miss, he let them catch him."

Secan laughed. "I see… well, when you’re done, you can toss him into the grazer’s village.. Ares knows they take all the other flotsam and jetsam that floats to the top around here. " He stood and yawned, towering over Kelten from his nearly 8 foot height. "They even took in that blind whelp of mine, would you believe it? What fools. Nature’s law is very simple, Keltie. "

Kelten nodded in agreement. "The strong survive and breed. The rest, die." He glanced down, then up at his leader again. "Secan?"

A heavy red furred hand descended onto his silver shoulder. "Yes, my friend?"

His pale eyes met Secan’s striking russet ones. "Be careful with her." His nostrils flared. "There was something there… I don’t know what it was, but… she’s no grazer."

Secan’s hand lifted, and patted his cheek gently. "No, I know that." His fangs glinted. "Believe me, dearest friend, I’ll treat her with the utmost care." He slid a muscular arm across Kelten’s pale shoulders. "Come on.. we’re missing the fun." They passed out of the door to his quarters, and made their way down the neat path to the fire. "You think you can make him squeak like the last one?"

"Maybe.’ Kelten drawled. "Can I use your dagger?"

"Sure." Secan said, as they passed from the darkness, into the rich red firelight and were greeted with enthusiasm.

Elaini folded the blanket that had been on the cot neatly, and put it away, shaking her head a little and muttering to herself. She looked up when the door opened, and then an involuntary smile crossed her face. "Didn’t think you’d be back." She commented, turning around and leaning back on a nearby table.

Jessan grinned bashfully, and moved all the way into the room. "Hmm… well.." It was like.. a heavy cloud had been lifted from him, and he wasn’t really sure about what to do with himself. "Looks like Xena did the right thing.. I guess. I feel a lot better." He walked over to her quietly. "And I owe you an apology for being such a lump."

Elaini glanced down, away, at the table, anywhere but up into his golden eyes. "S’allright." She shrugged. "I’m glad you’re feeling better." She snuck a peek at his face, and saw the gentle look there, and was lost. The next thing she knew, his fingers were lifting her chin, and those eyes were meeting hers, and she had no defenses. "Jessan.."

He smiled gently at her. "Tell me you don’t feel that." He challenged, brushing his fingertips down her jawline, and watching her nostrils flare in response. "Tell me."

"I can’t." Elaini whispered. "You know that." She put a hesitant hand against his chest, and felt his breathing catch. "I can’t… Jessan, we’ve known each other forever.. I don’t…"

Jessan moved closer, feeling her hands go flat against the fur of his chest. "Happens sometimes. You know that." He reached up and smoothed the hair out of her eyes. "It’s real, Elaini. Mother Saw."

Her eyes closed, and she felt her breathing deepen. This can’t be happening… But her mind knew it was. We’re too old… it never happens this way… But her heart, already happily building a bridge to his, knew better. "Gods." She breathed.

"Mmm." Jessan agreed, and took her into his arms, feeling the rich golden warmth of a forming lifebond for the first time. Now I know why it changed Xena… this would change anyone.. even Ares himself.

They stood like that for a timeless moment, then reluctantly parted and looked at each other.

"Uhm..’ Jessan said, blushing furiously. "Actually, I came over to ask you to go to the dinner tonight with me."

Elaini smile a little, and traced the line of his fur down the center of his chest. "Sure."

Another long silence. Then Jessan cleared his throat. "We’re getting two new clan members tonight, you know."

"I heard." Elaini responded. "They agreed, then."

Jessan nodded his golden head. "They did. I’m glad."

Another silence, shorter this time. "So.. what’s going to happen tomorrow, Jess?" Elaini asked quietly. "I’ve seen Secan’s fighters. We don’t really have a chance do we? What will they do with us?"

Jessan took a deep breath, and laid his wrists on her shoulders. "Elaini, don’t worry. Xena’s here."

"And..???" Elaini objected. "So.. what is one human fighter, no matter how skilled, going to do to make a difference? Will a half dozen more of Secan’s lot gets killed? It won’t change the outcome."

"She’ll get us out of this." Jessan replied, with endless confidence in his voice.

"How can you say that? How do you know, Jess?" Elaini’s voice was getting upset.

He clasped her face in his hands, and gazed deep into her eyes. "Because she said she would." Remembering her going against his entire clan that morning, her blade moving so fast, they couldn’t even see it. Taking them all one with a single-mindedness of purpose that allowed for no defeat.

"And you believe that?" Elaini whispered softly. "You really believe that?"

Rounded, golden eyes stared back at her. "Yes." He answered slowly. "I believe she makes anything possible."

Elaini sighed, and let her head rest against his arm. "I wish I had your belief." She looked up. "Because I’m scared, Jessan. Very scared that after tomorrow, nothing will be left."

He smiled a little at her. "You’ll see." He let his thumb trace her cheekbone. "This time, tomorrow, we’ll be sitting comfortably in our hall, listening to the storyteller’s tell the tale of it. " He glanced at the window. "Come on.. Xena and Gabrielle are waiting for us to walk over."

He guided her to the door, and opened it for her. They both smiled at each other, and passed through, to the porch where two now familiar forms were leaning casually. "Let’s go."

And the passed into the darkness, flickers of cloud scattered moonlight reflecting fitfully against hides of yellow and gold, and off tanned skin and deep hued linen.

The long, low hall was gently buzzing, as there was a break in the storytelling and the packed crowd was free to make conversation with their neighbors. The torches lighting the walls snapped fitfully in the mild breeze from the large windows, and the fireplace let off the hot smell of fire warmed granite along with the remaining scent of cooked meat.

Xena leaned back in her chair, and propped one foot up against a table support, surveying the room with idle approval. Every fighter, in fact, every resident of the village was present, crammed into a space that seemed to Xena far too small to hold them. She had kept her wits, in fact, only because she had picked a seat right next to one of the open windows, and thereby had a nice breeze riffling through her hair and an open space behind her that made it bearable.

Still, she pressed her back against the chair, which was pushed flush to the wall, and sighed, as she let her eyes drift over the crowd, coming to rest on Gabrielle’s animated form, as the bard leaned over the table talking. Xena felt a smile come unbidden to her face, and indulged herself in it, watching her partner make a point with a well placed hand gesture. I’ve watched her do this a thousand times. And every time, it’s different. She just captures these people.. snares in their hearts and never even realizes she’s doing it. She bit her lip to keep from grinning. Just like she captured mine.

It had been a shock, really, the first time she’d come wearily into a tavern they were staying by, and caught Gabrielle in the middle of a story.. about her. She hadn’t been sure whether to be embarassed or mad, or both, or a little flattered to be honest. But she’d slipped into a seat in the rear of the room, hidden in shadows and out of the bard’s line of sight. And she’d just listened.

It was one of their milder adventures, to be sure, but the sound of Gabrielle’s clear, sometimes slightly hesitant voice describing what they’d done.. how they’d done it.. and she’d gotten to see herself through the bard’s honest eyes for the first time.

That’s not me she’s talking about. Was her first reaction. But she knew the story, and eventually had to come to the conclusion that this… rational, brave, heroic person the bard was describing however unlikely she deemed it, was supposed to be her.

It changed something forever. She tried to deny that, tried to convince herself it was just Gabrielle’s misguided hero worship speaking through the bard’s voice. Tried to tell herself that it was just silliness.

But those clear, green eyes had held a conviction that drew her in, and for a tiny, short while in that wood smoke filled tavern, she’d gotten a glimpse of a possibility.

Then it had ended,and the crowd eagerly thanked her, and asked for more, and the bard had produced a delighted grin, which froze as her eyes lifted above the heads of the front rows, and met Xena’s own, there in the shadows.

She’d stumbled all over herself as they walked outside. "Uh.. I didn’t think you’d be back..I wanted to.. try that out I mean… I didn’t want to get you.. or maybe you’d be embarassed, or angry or.."

"Gabrielle." She’d said quietly.

"Look.. Xena, I’m sorry..I didn’t mean.."

"GABRIELLE." Xena had raised her voice.

"Yyyes?" The bard had stammered, sending her eyes anywhere but up to meet Xena’s.

Xena had gripped her shoulders, the unusual physical contact making the bard start in surprise,and look up. They had looked into each other’s eyes for a long instant, before Xena had spoken.

"Look.." She’d said, searching for words. "No one’s ever… What I mean is… most of the stories…" She’d given up. "Oh Hades. " She’d sighed. "Thank you, Gabrielle. It was a very good story."

The bard’s eyes had widened,and gentled. "You didn’t mind?"

"No." Had come the answer. Then, "You’re quite the storyteller."

And Gabrielle had hesitantly clasped the hands still on her shoulders. "I have a lot of inspiration." She’d said.

Xena had smiled, and patted the bard’s cheek. "C’mon. For that, you deserve a decent meal sitting down indoors for a change. "

I"d gone from trying to find a way not to let her drive me crazy, to inventing things to do for her..wonder if she realized it? Wonder if she realized she just took my heart like a spoil of war. And that was a strange feeling, Xena mused. Because Gabrielle was the first person in her life that she’d just… surrendered everything to. Held nothing back. All the rest of her involvements.. she’d been in control of. Dictated exactly how far she was willing to give, of herself, of her time…

Not this one. The warrior admitted to herself. I have no more control over this than I do the path of the sun. Her eyes studied Gabrielle’s face. Damn..how can something this chaotic feel.. Her eyes closed and she let a warm wave crest over her. So wonderful. Even the dark situation she now found them in couldn’t put a damper on that.

"Hey." Gabrielle’s voice startled her, and she glanced up, to find the bard at her side, a concerned look on her face. "You all right?"

Xena grinned sheepishly, and rubbed her temples with one hand. "Yeah.. I was.. uhm." She sneaked a look at the bard’s face. Whoops. "I was.. uh.. planning." She even managed to keep a straight face. "For tomorrow."

"Uh huh. " Gabrielle remarked, perching neatly on the arm of Xena’s chair. "So.. like what part of tomorrow were you planning that put that goofy grin on your face?"

The warrior laughed. "Ok.. you caught me. I was daydreaming." She admitted, lacing her hands around her propped knee. "Satisfied?"

"You?" The bard squeaked. "YOU were daydreaming? About what?" And found herself being regarded by intent blue eyes, and gifted with a half smile that brought it’s own answer. "Oh." She murmured softly, feeling the blood heat her face. I put that look there? I did?

Xena broke off their absorbed gaze, and took a breath. "Well done on the stories, by the way." She glanced up. "You changed around the ending part on the Trojan War."

Gabrielle gave a little start, and rested her arm on Xena’s shoulder. "You noticed?" She let out a short surprised laugh. "Didn’t think you paid that close.." And saw the look in her partner’s eyes and stopped. "Sorry. I know better." She finished quietly, touching the backs of her fingers against Xena’s cheek. "My own dumb lack of confidence just poked its head up there."

To her surprise, Xena just nodded a little, and took a deep breath. "I noticed." She said, giving Gabrielle a brief grin. "I liked the change."

"Thanks." The bard murmured, studying her closely. "How are you feeling? You look a little out of it."

And got a light shrug back. "Just thinking, really. Different scenarios, that kind of thing." Xena reached over an picked up her cup, taking a swallow of ale. "It’s what I usually do the night before a battle." She gave Gabrielle a nudge. "Besides, I had a really nice nap this afternoon."

The bard rolled her eyes, leaned against the convenient shoulder next to her. "I have only your word for that." She complained, having been gently woken up by Xena’s playful nibbling on her neck. "*I* wouldn’t know."

Xena laughed softly, and rested her head against Gabrielle’s side. "Cross my heart, Gabrielle." She took another sip of ale, and regarded the crowded room. Lestan had made a brief, informal announcement about the clan adoption. Good.. short and simple, just how I like them. Xena mused. And they had proceeded on with the banquet, which had been along the lines of stuff everyone as full as possible, pour ale down their throats to relax them, then get the storytellers up to get their minds off tomorrow.

It had worked, Xena chuckled, even, to a small extent, on her. She’d enjoyed the meal, liked the ale, and allowed herself to get lost in Gabrielle’s tales for most of the evening.

It really had been a nice nap, and she was feeling pretty good, despite her morning’s activities. This might even work… she considered, feeling Gabrielle’s fingers tangle themselves idly in her dark hair. And if not… she sighed inwardly. There was always plan B.

Plan B, which called for her to take a much more.. personal.. role in what happened tomorrow, above and beyond leading the forest dweller’s forces. Which would pit her directly against the enemy’s leader who, by all reports and despite Lestan’s assurance, might be too much for her to handle. And that was the first time ever that she’d considered an opponent that way. Even Hercules.. who any rational person would have avoided challenging, she lit into without a thought.

Do I stake this entire village on something I’m not sure I can deliver? Was the question rattling around in her head. Only if there’s no other choice. The answer kept coming back, repeatedly. Because that would have dire consequences not only for Lestan’s people, but also for her, death being a likely result, and that would mean…

Her mind slid past that, deliberately shunting the thought off. What was that you told Hectator? People who go into battle thinking they’re going to die, generally do? Knock it off, Xena. They’re forest dwellers, just like these guys here and you beat up 100 of them this morning. How bad could this possibly get?

The door opened, and a very dark furred forest dweller stumbled in, scattering startled villagers until Jessan had the presence of mind to grab him. "Restie?" Jessan rasped, holding him up. "What happened?"

The dark Restie grabbed Jessan’s golden arm, and remained silent, his chest heaving. "Hold on." He gasped. :"Gotta catch my breath."

By now, the group had quieted, and a small ring surrounded the two of them. Jessan glanced up as his father appeared behind him. "He was on north border duty." He quietly reminded Lestan. "Restie?"

"He’s mad." Restie got out, after taking a large breath of the close air. "He’s lost his mind, Jessan. He’s going to… " His dark eyes flickered to Lestan’s face, then back. "If he wins tomorrow, he’s going to take the village apart.. he’s going to kill all the lifebonds."

"What?" Wennid gripped his arm, appearing as if by magic next to her lifemate. "All of them?"

Restie’s eyes met hers and his nostrils flared. "No. One of each pair."

A shudder passed through the room, bringing deathly silence, in which the crackle of the cooking fire could be clearly heard.

And a voice fell into the well of quiet. "Why?" Xena had threaded her way through the tightly packed crowd somehow, and was now standing next to Jessan. Her pale eyes captured Restie’s dark ones.

The forest dweller snorted wearily. "Because he can. Because he likes making other people hurt. That archer he brought to the village today… " He just stopped speaking and stared at the ground. "They branded him."

A buzz went up, and Xena could feel the panic start to build. She let it, for a moment, to allow Lestan a chance to calm his village, but the tall leader was staring at Restie with a blank expression on his normally good-natured face.

Now what? She felt her mind calming, her body relaxing as she responded to the familiar tingle of danger circulating the room. Now I put a cap on this. "All right, everybody calm down." She said, her voice quiet, but penetrating. A hand touched her back, and she leaned into the contact, needing Gabrielle’s comforting presence. The bard slipped into place next to her, and left her warm hand on Xena’s back as she watched the faces surrounding them.

Xena’s voice caught their attention, and after a long tense second, the buzz in the room dropped, and a very uneasy silence descended again. Everyone always told me I’m a natural born leader. Xena mused privately. Maybe it’s just that I’m always telling everybody to shut up, then I have to think up a reason why they should. "You heard all this?" She questioned the dark furred Resti quietly.

He nodded, eyes fixed on her. "They’re making noise enough to scare a deaf warthog over in their camp. I got into a tree not far, and just listened for a bit. I heard.. that archer scream."

She nodded slowly. "So they’re pretty confident, huh?"

Resti nodded. "It’s not like they even think they’re going to be fighting."

"Point one in our favor." Xena said, giving him an easy smile, and she felt, in the little quiet after she spoke, that seductive tingle of excitement as the fighters surrounding her shifted, and picked up her meaning.

"They think you won’t fight." Resti added, nape lifting as he unconsciously responded to the crackling air of energy around her.

"Point two in our favor." Now Xena’s smile turned feral, and she deliberately relaxed her posture, crossing her arms on her chest and leaning on one leg while crossing the other at her ankles.

Resti took a deep breath, and nodded. "He wants you." A glance went to Lestan’s face, which was darkening in anger. "He wants you bad."

Xena was aware of the eyes on her, of the expectant silence in the room that waited her response. Aware of Gabrielle’s tense body brushing hers, and the rapid beating of the bard’s heart that she could see as a fluttering at the base of her throat. "Well.’ She drawled, lifting an eyebrow and chuckling. "He’d better be careful what he asks for. " She paused. "He may just get it."

She felt the expanding circle of confidence that had her at the center, and let her eyes travel around the room, collecting theirs. Xena knew, at this moment, she held them neatly in her cupped palm, as she had done with armies since she’d been fifteen years old. They believed utterly, because she did. Or they think I do. She quietly amended to herself. I only wish I had that option. I’d like someone to believe in, right now. "

"All right. So they’re coming in overconfident, and they don’t think we’ll be much of a challenge." She nodded judiciously. "That’s not a bad position. We can work with that."

"We?" Lestan muttered, quietly.

"Hey." Xena just as quietly muttered back. "You adopted me, remember?"

Lestan let a smile cross his somber features. "Xena.." His voice was very low, and hidden in the again rising buzz of the room. "There is too much death in this. I don’t want you part of it." His eyes flicked to Gabrielle’s face. "Please."

Xena took a breath, and felt Gabrielle’s arm tighten around her. She looked down at the bard, and found those mist green eyes fastened on hers.

"You took us into your clan, Lestan." Gabrielle said, not looking at him. "What kind of clan members would we be if we ran at the first sign of trouble?" Her eyes remained locked with Xena’s, and gentle promises passed between them. "We’re in for the duration."

Ah Gabrielle… Xena’s mind caressed the thought. "She’s right." That to Lestan, whose eyes held a resigned understanding. "Besides, you need us." And felt a warm squeeze from Gabrielle at the words. Had to train myself to say us, my bard. Hope you appreciate that. Even with my other lovers, it was never us. Always me, and them. But you and I… I’ve think I’ve finally accepted that. "Time for us all to get some rest, I think."

Lestan nodded, and raised his arm, commanding attention. "Sleep now, the rousters will wake the fighters pre dawn. The rest of the village will pack, and make ready to move if needed. No one, NO ONE gets caught behind, in any case, for those carrion eaters."

They dispersed, filing slowly out of the hall and into the dark of the cloud-covered night. Xena stayed a moment, reviewing last minute strategy with Lestan, then gave him a shove towards the door. "Gwan, Lestan. Get some sleep. " Her eyes fell on Jessan. "You too. "

Jessan stepped up to her, and their eyes met. Xena grinned at him.

"You know." He breathed, smothering a smile. How does she do that… magic again, I suppose.

"I guessed." Xena drawled, patting the side of his face. "Jess, I’m glad for you."

Gabrielle just gave him a hug, and tugged his chest fur with a smile.

"Thanks." He replied, shyly. Then his eyes darkened, and he swallowed. "But if.."

Xena put her hands on Gabrielle’s shoulders, and stepped closer to him, meeting his eyes over the bard’s head. "Don’t." She said softly. "Because I’m not gonna let that happen." And with that, the battle crossed the line with her, and became very personal.

Because she was, she suddenly realized, one of the people Secan meant to devastate with his insanity. He’d kill Gabrielle... and a fierce jolt of anger shook Xena’s body, and sent an icy mask over her features. "Get some rest, Jess." Her voice held a chill in it, and the forest dweller backed a step.

Gabrielle felt it, saw the subtle shift in her features, and turned, sliding her arms around Xena’s waist and looking up at her. "Hey." She called softly, watching the icy blue eyes slowly track to hers, and look through her for an endless moment, before they focused, and warmed, and brought her partner back to her. She tugged hard on the warrior, and was rewarded with a quirky half grin. "You too, hero."

Xena nodded. "Yeah." She said, "Let’s go." She steered the bard towards the door, pushing Jessan ahead of them. "Tomorrow’s going to be a long day. "

Gabrielle walked slowly through the darkness of the central grassy square, aware of the soft voices on all sides, and the comforting warmth of Xena's hand resting casually on her back. Sidelong glances told her that the warrior's face was tense and still, and she remained quiet, giving Xena time to assimilate the information of the evening.

What's she thinking? The bard wondered, studying that angular profile. Then an idea occurred to her. I could just ask her. That was a new thought, she pondered, as was the very real possibility that her close-mouthed partner just might tell her. She waited until they were inside the cot, though, before putting a hand on Xena’s side, feeling the warm skin through the coolness of the fabric covering it.

The warrior half turned towards her, and raised an eyebrow, focusing her attention on the bard. "What?"

"Dinar for your thoughts?" Gabrielle asked evenly, moving a little closer, and allowing herself to feel their connection. Knew that Xena was feeling it too, from the involuntary smile that shaped her lips, and the almost unconscious lifting of her hand to the bard's cheek. "What's bothering you?" And.. how far we've come, she silently mused that I can now just ask her that. Question is, will she tell me?

Xena's eyes searched hers, and her mouth quirked. "The fact we're going to fight against a homicidal maniac tomorrow?" She offered tentatively, brushing her thumb against the bard's cheekbone. "Lotta things can go wrong, Gabrielle." Her voice had dropped to a near whisper. "I don't.." She fell silent, unable to voice her fears.

But the bard understood, and sat down on the low couch, tugging Xena down with her. The warrior collapsed onto the cloth surface with an uncharacteristic lack of grace, and spread both arms out across the back, stretching her long legs out and crossing them. After a minute, she rolled her head to one side, and regarded Gabrielle soberly.

"Stakes just got a lot higher, huh?" Gabrielle asked seriously. And got a nod back in confirmation. Do I go serious here, or try to get her to relax a little? No.. no serious stuff before going to sleep. There's enough time for that tomorrow. "So.. what is it with us? Do we just attract disasters, or something?" She made a disgusted noise, and was rewarded with a wonderful, full smile. "I mean it, Xena. If we went to go buy lunch, we'd cause at least one small war, the theft of the village temple altar, and the birth of a three-headed goat. I swear."

Xena started laughing, and reached over, grabbing Gabrielle's arm and pulling her squawking across the couch. "C'mere." She said, wrapping the bard up in a fierce hug.

Well, that worked. Gabrielle sighed in satisfaction, as she burrowed happily into the warrior's warm embrace. "Did I ever tell you just how much I love when you do this?" She mumbled, then tilted her head back to gaze fondly up at Xena.

The warrior smiled back, and kissed her gently.

"Mmm..." Gabrielle chuckled deep in her throat. "That too." She rested her head against Xena's shoulder, and took a breath. "This.. makes it harder, doesn't it?" The words were out before she thought about it, and she felt Xena's breathing catch. Thought we weren't going to do serious, Gabrielle..where in Hades did *that* come from?

Xena smoothed the red gold hair out of her partner's eyes, and let her fingers trail down the down soft cheek. "Yes, it does." She admitted quietly. "It raises the stakes.. beyond price."

A long still moment, when the only sounds were two sets of gentle breathing, the subtle popping of the fire, and the fading noises from outside coming in the window. Even Ares was motionless, lying tucked under Xena's extended legs.

"Are you.." Gabrielle whispered, then stopped as Xena touched her lips with stilling fingers.

"No regrets, Gabrielle." The warrior murmured. "No second thoughts, no what ifs." Her eyes were very serious. "Just something I have to take into account, that's all."

The bard closed her eyes, and let her fingers tangle into the soft cloth shirt Xena was wearing. Then she sighed, and raised her glance up again. "I'm going with you tomorrow morning." Her tone was inflexible. "I'm not staying behind here."

No, never again, my bard. Xena thought silently, we'll do what we do together. "Of course not." She acknowledged, feeling Gabrielle's heart skip a beat where the bard was pressed hard against her. "Who would watch my back?" She put a fingertip on the bard's nose. "I'm counting on you."

But then she took a very deep breath. "Gabrielle.. if it goes bad tomorrow.. " The bard's body went very still. "I.. want you to go home." She paused. "Please. I'd like to know you'll be someplace.. " She stopped. Gabrielle's hands clenched tight on her shirt, and she cleared her throat. "Someplace where you'll be loved."

Gabrielle stayed very still, letting the words play over and over in her mind until her breathing had settled, and she thought she might be able to speak. And what she said was something that she'd made a decision on, during that long, torchlit ride back from the mountain, with Xena's shallowly breathing form cradled in her arms. "No." Her voice was steady, and she saw the widening of the blue eyes locked with hers. "If something.. happens." She put a hand on Xena's cheek. "You just wait a heartbeat for me, all right?"

"No." The word on an explosion of air "You don't.."

"I do." Gabrielle spoke forcefully. "I can, I will, and nothing you're going to say, or do is going to change the way I feel." Her fingers twisted in fabric "I am not going to live like Warrin, Xena. Don't ask that of me." Her voice cracked a little. "Please. Promise me you'll wait."

Xena felt her whole world shift, then settle down again. Come on, Xena. You knew this. No matter what you told Lestan, and what you kept telling yourself, you knew it. She felt a mass of tension dissolve as she let her heart accept the concept. "On one condition." Came the quiet answer.

Gabrielle's eyes studied her. "What?" Trust Xena..to go and try to put conditions on this.

"You make me the same promise." Xena replied.

Oh. The bard's mind reflected. Of course. "I promise."

A nod. "I promise too."

Gabrielle put her head back down on Xena's chest, and let out a deep sigh. They sat in companionable silence for some time, gazing at the fire, each lost in thought. Finally, Xena kissed the top of Gabrielle's head, and tightened her grasp. "Let's get some sleep."

The bard yawned in agreement. "OK." She unwound herself from Xena's arms, and stood, indulging in a long stretch. "Sounds like a good idea." She extended a hand to the still seated Xena, and smiled when the warrior grasped it firmly. "Come on."

Xena allowed herself to be hauled to her feet, then padded over and stripped out of her light tunic, pulling a sleep shirt out of her saddlebags. She turned in time to see Gabrielle do the same, and stepped closer to the bard, casting a critical eye at the fading scratches on her stomach. "Looks ok." She pronounced, running a finger over the smooth surface. "Lucky for him."

Gabrielle knew what she meant, and traced the lines herself. "Yeah." She agreed quietly. "Doesn't even sting today."

Xena took the shirt from her, and gathered up the sleeves, settling the fabric over the bard's fair head. "There." She chuckled, giving her a pat on the side.

"Thanks." Gabrielle murmured, studying her. "Bruises are gone." She commented, tapping lightly on Xena's chest, then trailing her fingertips down the centerline of the warrior's belly, and felt the muscles shift under her hand. Then she reached up and touched Xena's forehead. "What about up here?"

Xena sighed, and shrugged. "Mostly." She acknowledged. "Still don't like closed places much." She pulled the shirt on. "But then, I never did, so.."

Gabrielle let that slide. "I know how you feel." She said quietly.

Xena stopped, and glanced up at her. "Huh?"

"Coffin." The bard said, succinctly.

"Ah." Xena breathed, raising her hands and cradling Gabrielle's face. "I should have realized."

"Yeah, well.." Gabrielle sighed, letting herself fall forward against Xena's warm body. "It never came up."

"Suppose not." The warrior muttered, tilting the bard's face up and studying it with a unhappy frown. "Gods, I'm sorry. If I'd just been faster.."

"Whoa..whoa whoa..!!!!" Gabrielle barked, grabbing Xena around the ribcage and shaking her. "Don't you even think about going there." She would have laughed at the startled expression on the warrior's face if she hadn't been so mad.

"OK..OK.." Xena blinked. "I was just.."

"I know what you were just doing. " The bard growled. "So just don't.. please?" She let her head bump Xena’s collarbone. "Not tonight."

Xena tilted the bard’s head up again and kissed her. "All right." She murmured as they separated for s second, then resumed. The warrior chuckled as Gabrielle moved closer, bringing their bodies into contact all along their length. She wound her arms around the bard, and straightened up, lifting her off her feet. "I can think of a better place to do this." She commented, as she walked over to the bed, and launched both of them up a little, twisting in mid air so that she’d land on her back with the bard nestled on top of her. "There."

"Much better." Gabrielle mumbled, as her hands explored and found bare skin, then sucked in a sharp breath as she felt a sudden, knowing touch in return. "Gods.. I’m sure glad you don’t have cold hands." Was her indistinct comment.

A low chuckle was the only response.

Pre-dawn brought a cold moist breeze into the window, and Xena knew there would be fog outside when she looked. Wonderful. Her mind sighed. Foggy, wet, cold morning. My favorite. She was glad she'd checked her leathers, and set them near the fire to make sure they were dry. Getting into clammy, cold leathers and then into chilly armor was one sure way to put her in a bad mood. And that was no way to start out a day of battle. Xena decided, then paused and examined that thought. Or any other day, for that matter. Gods, and I used to do it all the time. How dumb was that?

At the moment, however, she was still curled up in bed with Gabrielle soundly asleep beside her, the bard's head resting on her shoulder with one hand lying across her abdomen, and she allowed herself a few minutes of extra time to enjoy the warm feeling before starting what she suspected would be a very long day.

Well.. time to get moving Regretfully, Xena raised her left hand, and patted Gabrielle on the back. "Hey." She said, in a low voice.

"Mmm?" The bard stirred, and blinked her eyes open. "What? Oh..." She gave a quick glance around the darkened cot. "Let me guess, time to get up?"

"Uh huh." Xena remarked, giving her back a rub. "Bout that time." And despite her own self doubts, Xena felt that old familar tingle starting in the pit of her stomach, an anticipatation from that dark part of herself that found a seductive thrill in pitting her fighting skills against an opponent. That part of herself that always got loose during battle, and produced the deadliest of results, and that ringing laugh. "Gotta go, love."

Gabrielle sighed, and wrapped her arm tighter for a moment, giving the warrior one last hug. "All right. I'll go get us some breakfast." She grumbled, releasing her grasp, and propping herself up on one elbow.

"Well, I don't.." Xena started, then stopped as Gabrielle gave her a stern look. "OK, sounds like a good idea." She amended, managing to keep a grin off her face. "I am a little hungry." She poked the yawning bard out of bed and rolled out of the other side herself, stretching thoroughly and giving herself a little shake. No point in saying I don’t usually eat right before fighting, because she’s going to get me to one way or the other. Right? Right. Just go with it.

Gabrielle got dressed in a long sleeved tunic against the cold, and laced up her boots quickly, then trotted out the door, stopping for a moment on the steps to adjust her night vision. The central area was already whispering with gentle motion, dark shadowy forms crossed in front of her, throwing fog about in waves that lapped at the edge of the porch she stood on. Far off, haloed by the wisps of fog were the torches that ringed the circle of cots, throwing vague shadows off the trees, and the weapons racks, and the moving forms of forest dwellers.

The smell of burning pitch came to her, and woodsmoke, and the clammy, stinging scent of the fog itself that got into her lungs and brought an unpleasant taste to the back of her mouth. "Ugh."she muttered, dropping down the stairs and starting off towards the communal kitchen. "Hope Xena thinks to put hot water on for tea while I go scrounge."

Xena had thought of it, in fact, and had set the water pot on the fire while she ducked into the bathing room and let the reserviored water, now cold from the night exposure, rinse over her. Drying herself off, she slipped her linen undergarment on, padded over towards the fire, and stood regarding it for moment, then lifted her repaired leathers from the chair back they were slung over, and slid them on, fastening the shoulder straps with absent minded precision. Then she slid the upper arm protectors on, and pulled the bracers up, but didn't lace them.

Gabrielle came in as she was lifting her breastplate over her head, and settling the shoulder pieces, and paused as the bard put down what she was carrying and trotted over to help.

"Here..let me," she muttered, pulling the shoulder straps over and reaching for the buckles. "Hang on, these are loose." She sighed, tugging the straps out of the fasteners and making them tighter. "Will you hold still?" She gave the figeting warrior a light slap. "There... " she slid around to face her partner, and patted the breastplate. "That's on the last hole there, love." A tug on the leathers followed. "Pretty loose… this one took a lot out of you, didn't it?"

Xena blew out a long breath and fiddled with her shoulder clasp. "Easy enough to get back." She replied, giving the bard a kiss on the nose. "Especially if we're heading home." That got a smile back. "Give me a hand with these damn bracers?"

Gabrielle tugged on the laces without comment, getting the leather bracers settled, then sitting down on the edge of the bed and watching Xena lace up her boots and strap on the heavy leg armor, adjusting the fitting with expert hands.

The warrior stood, and bounced twice on the balls of her feet, settling the armor plates with a subtle clinking, then cocked her head and regarded Gabrielle with a grin. "Did you mention breakfast?"

They shared the meat and cheese the bard had acquired, along with a still steaming loaf of heavy grain bread that Gabrielle broke into small chunks, and put a dab of honey on before popping in her companion's mouth.

"Mmm." Xena gave a satisifed hum, as she chewed the flavorful bread. "Good choice, Gabrielle." She gave the bard a wink, then stood, dusting off her hands, and crossed to the small table, where her weapons were laid out in gleaming display. She clipped her sheath to her armor, and settled the daggers in their respective sheaths, then secured the chakram. Took a breath, and gave Gabrielle a nod."Time to go."

The bard stepped up to her, and put both hands on the dully gleaming armor. "You be careful." Came the gentle reminder.

Xena took the bard's hands in her own, and raised them to her lips. "Always." Then she pulled Gabrielle closer, and their lips met. And when they parted, Xena wrapped her arms around her partner and squeezed hard, then released her. "Come on."

She knelt down and ruffled Ares’ ears affectionately. "You stay here, boy. " She told the wolf gently, and smiled as his ears drooped. "Your time’ll come. "

"Roo." He sighed, chewing on her finger dejectedly.

"Aww." Gabrielle cooed, crouching down at Xena’s side, and scratching him behind the ears. "It’s all right, Ares. When you get a little bigger, mommy will take you out and show you how to bite people ." This got a dry look from the warrior.

"Maybe I"ll use you as a demostration victim. " Xena mused, making a sudden motion of her head and capturing a fold of the bard’s arm skin neatly in her teeth. "Mmmm.." Her eyes sparkled.

"Hey!" Gabrielle laughed, grabbing a handful of dark hair and tugging. "Cut that out!"

"Roo?" Ares cocked his head at them.

Xena kept her jaws locked for a moment longer, then released them, as Gabrielle’s fierce pull moderated to a gentle riffling of hair through her fingers, then a tracing of her partner’s angular features. Her green eyes softened, and a smile shaped her lips "I love you." She whispered, with a tiny shake of her head.

Blue eyes regarded her in silence for a space, then Xena smiled. "I love you too." She answered, reaching up and clasping the bard’s hand. "Come on." She released Gabrielle’s fingers, gave Ares one last pat, and stood, taking a deep breath, and heading for the door.

Gabrielle grabbed her staff, and followed.

The warriors were gathered in front of Lestan's cot, torchlight flickering off the soft sheen of their woven battlecoats that covered them from shoulders to mid thigh. The heavy fog flowed around their legs, making them seem for all the world like they were standing in a shifting pool of water, and that shifting pool parted as they sensed Xena's approach, and cleared her a path.

In silence, with only the light wind and the fluttering torches as a backdrop she strode forward, her steps muffled until she reached the porch, and then the wooden planks sounded a solid echo as her weight hit them. A step more, and she was even with Lestan, and his eyes were meeting hers with something approaching relief. "Xena." He acknowledged her with a nod.

"Morning." The warrior said, in a normal voice. She looked around the crowd and put her hands on her hips. "Nice fog."

Serious furred faces cracked hesitant grins. Gods.. Jessan wondered, from his front row position. What a difference she makes. In armor, as she hadn't been since they'd pulled her out of the rock slide, she gave off a dark energy that made his nape hairs lift, and he felt himself getting excited.

Lestan repressed a smile, and carefully went over the battle plan, making sure everyone listening understood what to do. Startled looks were traded, then a palpable sense of relief washed over the waiting fighters.

"That might work." Deggis whispered, poking Jessan in the ribs. "She come up with that?"

Jessan snorted. "She conqured half of Greece. How hard was it for her to come up with a tactic between two small forest clans?" He rolled his eyes at Deggis. "You guys just don’t’ get it yet, do you?" He put his fanged jaws close to Deggis’ sensitive ear. "It’s not just the fighiting..she’s got a brain, doofus."

His cousin flinched, and rubbed the ear. "Ouch. " He complained, scowling. "Ok..Ok.. I get it." He sighed, kicking the fog around his knees and watching it disperse. "I just hope it’s enough."

The quiet trek through the pre dawn forest carried it’s own burden of unreality, as the forest dwellers, no more than shadows, waded through the thick blanket of smoky fog, scattering small clumps of it before them. Even the nightbirds were silent, as though the forest was holding its breath in wait for the violence to come

They came to the assigned place, at the assigned time, when the first tint of gray was invading the eastern sky, and paused, settling their alignment carefully. Xena stood behind a fallen tree, one hand resting lightly on the crumbling bark, the other fiddling idly with a leather strap from her armor. Her eyes constantly swept the opposing forest, finding the shadows and watching them for movement.

Gabrielle slipped quietly up next to her, glancing over at the still dark treeline, then up at her face. "Xena?" She breathed, not wanting to disturb the silence.

Hooded ice blue eyes darted to hers, and a dark eyebrow raised a fraction.

Gabrielle moved closer, until they could feel each other’s body heat. "What’s plan B?" She asked, keeping their eyes locked.

Xena’s head cocked to one side slightly, and her lips twitched. "Me and Secan." She answered, watching the bard’s face intently.

Her partner nodded. "Thought so." Then Gabrielle looked across the way again, and back. "Why isn’t that plan A?"

An unexpected question, and one that Xena had been hoping not to have to answer. "What do you mean?" She asked, buying some time. Gods.. what do I tell her? What do I tell myself? That I’m too scared to face him? To put my life on the line?

The bard took a breath, and glanced around. "You against the enemy leader.. that’s an old one, Xena. We’ve been there before.. so.. I mean, if they go up against each other, lots of people are going to die, aren’t they?"

A sideways jog of the head. "Maybe." Xena answered quietly.

"Right." Gabrielle sighed. "And not that I want to see you do this.. but it’s more like you to save those maybes and put the whole responsibility on your own shoulders. So… why?"

Xena half turned, and let her forearms rest of the rough bark, giving her head a little jerk towards the area facing them, which was starting to achieve outline form from the pale glints of a dawning day. Shadowy forms could be seen, the foremost a massive, dark furred, still body. She felt her heartbeat start to increase. "Because I’m not sure I can win." Her voice was very quiet.

Gabrielle’s brows knit. "Are you ever sure?" She asked, putting a hand on the warrior’s tense arm. "I mean.."

"Always." Xena replied, at last turning and looking Gabrielle square in the eye. "But not this time."

The bard took a breath, then a second. "Why?" Whoa.. Gabrielle.. this is very very dangerous. Step carefully.

"I don’t know." Came the tense, upset answer. "I… " She stopped, and just stared at the tree trunk, then in a savage, frustrated motion slammed a fist against it. Bark exploded outward, showering both of them. "You were right." The warrior sighed.

Gabrielle swallowed a few times, and shot a nervous glance towards their adversaries, getting a clearer look at what must be Secan. Gods.. her mind shivered. He’s huge. "Right about what?" She asked. "Xena, you always find a way to come out on top, you know that."

The warrior studied Secan, who was now swaggering slowly across the open space between the two groups, motioning with one lazy hand for Lestan to approach. "Remember when you told me you thought I convinced myself to do things?"

"Yeah." Gabrielle replied, in a small voice. "I remember."

"Well, I think you’re right. Only I can’t convince myself that I can throw myself into battle without fear anymore, Gabrielle, and that’s what my kind of fighting requires." Xena’s face was set, and Gabrielle could read tension in every line of her body.

"But you.. " The bard objected softly. "When Warrin.. and with Jess…"

"Reactions." Xena replied succinctly. "A threat, and my body responds. No thought required."

"But this is different." Gabrielle mused. "Because you have to decide ahead of time."

A nodded response. "Yeah." The warrior half turned, and studied the bard, a look of regret on her face. She picked off pieces of bark that had landed on Gabrielle’s shoulder. "Sorry."

Secan’s voice rang out over the lightening forest, and they turned to listen. "So.. you showed up. Unexpected, but it’ll make for a good drill." The russet forest dweller hooked his thumbs in his swordbelt, and leaned back a little, obviously relaxed and in a good mood.

Lestan didn’t answer. His mahogany eyes studied Secan then flicked across his waiting fighters. Outnumbered. His mind sighed. But then I knew we’d be. Casually, he spat into the grass near his feet, and crossed his arms. Stay cool.

Secan raised an eyebrow, and laughed. "Aren’t we in a mood." He sauntered closer and picked a wildflower, twirling it between his fingers. "So.. you got your pet humans here?" His eyes ranged through Lestan’s ranks, searching. "I got plans for them, you know." He laughed, and a fluttering of echoed humor ran through his line of fighters. "My fighters want to know.. from an intellectual standpoint, of course, if it’s possible to interbreed with the pathetic things. " His fangs showed in a huge grin. "Could only help them, right?

Gabrielle felt her chest tighten, and her breath come faster. "He’s crazy." She murmured, glancing up at Xena.

"He has Ares’ Gift." Came the quiet reply, but there was a glimmer of something very cold starting to emerge in the restlessly searching blue eyes.

Gabrielle took a breath, and thought hard about what and who her companion was, and what she hoped to become. And whether or not there was any way to reconcile the two realities. This could be my biggest mistake. Gods watch over me if it is. "So do you." Her voice cut clearly, and calmly across the distance between them.

Saw the shoulders jerk in response, and had bare seconds to prepare herself before Xena turned and caught her gaze, and she had to grip her hands behind her back to keep from reaching out and taking hold of her partner, so painful was the look of quiet hurt in her eyes. "You do.. it’s part of you, Xena."

The dark head dropped, and Xena studied her boots quietly. "I know." She finally said in a weary tone. "It’s where most of my fighting ability comes from." She turned her head and shot a glance at Secan, who was still taunting a silent Lestan. "And every time I let that out, I slip further and further back into the darkness, Gabrielle."

"No." The bard stepped forward and grabbed her by the shoulders. "No.. that’s not true." Her voice was shaking. "It may be his gift, but the use to which you put it matters, Xena, it matters more than anything else. And.." Her eyes lifted over the still bent head and found the enemy leader. "If you use it to defeat evil.. that’s all that counts."

"So." Secan stretched. "Shall we get this farce over with? I have a banquet planned, and I don’t wanna be late. " He yawned. "Can I assume you’re not challenging me? " One russet eyebrow quirked.

Lestan didn’t move, but he moved his shoulders in a certain way, and his fighters shifted their weapons to a ready position. I’ll die today. Lestan mused, knowing Secan would come straight for him. I’ve had a good life. His mind drifted for a moment to Wennid, and the quiet scene at their cot this morning when they’d said goodbye. I’ve been blessed more than most of my kind. "Come ahead, you son of a rabbit." His voice rang out over the rose tinted light of dawn.

"Fool." Secan spat at him, then turned, and headed back toward his own forces, raising a casual hand and signaling. Bodies began to move at his command, forming up , and waiting for him to reach their line.

"I wish I could believe that, Gabrielle." Xena replied quietly, raising her head, and meeting the bard’s eyes. "Wait a minute..are you telling me you believe the end justifies the means?"

Mist green eyes reacted, turned inward for a long moment, then shone with quiet understanding. "You taught me that." Her mouth edged into a grim smile. "And.. the end I want is you whole, and this village unharmed. Whatever means you need to use… do it."

No answer, but Xena turned and studied Secan, watching him walk back to his fighters. Her face was impassive, but the eyes flickered constantly, and gave a small indication of the thoughts keeping the same pace. A swift turn of her head. "Remember you said that." She said, carefully, and let their eyes meet for a long instant before she turned, and put her hands on the trunk of the tree, and vaulted over it.

Gabrielle sagged against the bark, and held on for dear life, waiting for the shaking to subside. Gods.. gods.. what did I just do? But as she watched her partner stride forward, dispersing the fog like stiff wind, she saw a certain bounce return to her steps, that brought a wan grin to the bard’s face. Be honest, Gabrielle. That’s a swagger. And it looks good on her.

Whatever it takes, huh Gabrielle.? Xena let the words ramble through her mind as she angled towards Lestan, with every step shedding the kinder and gentler side she’d developed recently. All right. A familiar thrill was building, and she let it, feeling it heighten her senses.

The angle she was at…Lestan only had a split second to realize her presence before she was on him, taking him down to the ground with savage efficiency. She drew her sword, and shaved a patch of fur off his neck, holding his eyes with her own. "Yield to me Lestan." In a voice so cold it rivaled the fog swirling about both of them.

Lestan stared up in total shock, seeing nothing familiar in those ice colored eyes, feeling the weight of her kneeling on his chest, and the exquisite sharpness of the blade she held at his neck. His fighter’s spirit raged.. but only for an instant. Then he turned his head slowly, and raised his rounded jaw, exposing his jugular to her. "To you, Xena of Amphipolis, I yield." His voice was very quiet. I thought she’d play by her own rules.. now I find she plays by ours. Never underestimate her, Jessan warned me. I should have listened. His eyes blinked sadly, and for an instant, a dark eyebrow rose, and a sparkle came into those blue pools, and she winked.

Xena leaned close to him. "Wish me luck." She said, putting a hand on his chest.

A slow, twitching grin found it’s way across Lestan’s face. "Send him to Ares, Xena."

And she was gone, standing and walking slowly towards Secan’s line, where he was standing, sword drawn, watching in amusement.

All right. She took several deep breaths, sucking the pine scented air deep into her lungs, and felt her heart pumping with slow, powerful beats, that sent a charge of blood right through her. Stared at Secan, with his sneering face, and remembered what he’d said he had planned for them, and let that start a boiling down deep, tapping into her darker side which rose up with little effort and sent a welcome shiver up and down her long body. Been awhile.

Xena stopped, halfway across the small open area, and held her hands out with a smile. Then she slowly sheathed her sword, and curled both arms up until her hands were even with her chin. Waited for his eyes to track to her, then crooked her index fingers at him. "Were you looking for me, fuzzball?" Her voice rang out, loud enough to carry across his forces, and back to her own. "Here I am." She lazily let her hands drop to her belt, and waited.

Silence across the forest, save the rising wind blowing the branches, and dispersing the fog. The rosy dawn light was now filtering through the trees, and sent a dappled blanket across her darkly clad and armored form.

Secan strolled out to meet her, stopping about two body lengths away and running his eyes over her with a possessive air. "So you are." He said softly. "Don’t tell me you’re the challenger from that grazer’s village." He laughed. "You haven’t heard the rules, I gather."

Xena sized him up slowly, letting her eyes linger over him as his had her. "Sure I have." She drawled, holding up the little clan token Lestan had given her and Gabrielle the night before. "It’s my clan." She smiled at him. "And I just took it over." A quick motion that tied the token off to her sword belt. "And the third… " She walked forward, within his grasp, armed only with that smile. "I think you’ll let me get by with. Right?"

His nostrils flared, and he felt his fur lifting in pure response to her presence. "They said you were lifebonded."

Xena cocked her head at him. "I am."

He nodded very slowly. "I’m going to kill you, human trash. And I hope your little lifemate watches every minute of it."

It happened so fast he had no time to breath, no time to react, no time to even think, as her hand hit his nose with enough force to send his head snapping back, and sending a light shower of blood over them both. Then she was out of range, and standing clear, and gracing him with that insufferable, sneering smile. His blood rose, and sent fire coursing through him.

"You’ll try. " That voice curled around him like the dissipating fog. "And I guarantee she was loving every minute of that." And Xena chuckled. "So did I."

Then his sword was out, and in his hands, and he was coming at her, with a speed and strength unmatched among his kind.

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Bound – Part 8

By Melissa Good

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Gabrielle had slid closer, until she had a good view of the field of battle. Her heart was pounding hard, as she watched Xena make her challenge to Secan.. Probably pounding harder than hers is. She concluded, as her eyes followed the easy, graceful movements of her partner. C’mon, Xena..you can take this guy. I know you can.

A sound to her left snapped her head around, and there was Warrin, his pale eyes hooded, looking back at her. Her hand tightened around the staff, and she tensed, but his put a hand up, and gave her a little shake of the head.

"No need, human." His eyes went out over the field, and fastened on the two antagonists. "I didn’t expect her to do that." He regarded her emotionlessly. "He’ll kill her, you know."

"No he won’t." The bard replied, then grinned as Xena hauled off and slugged the much larger forest dweller, giving him a bloody nose. "Oh.. good one, Xena.!"

Warrin blinked. "You don’t understand." He said, unaware of the softening of his tone. "Secan is the best there is."

"Second best." Gabrielle answered, not even looking at him. "And you’re the one who doesn’t’ understand."

"What makes you so sure?" The pale forest dweller growled, as the first hissing clash of steel rolled over the battlefield.

"Because I said so." The bard replied, eyes glued to the fighters. That’s it.. gods.. watch it! Oh.. good one.. good one… whoa!

"And you think that makes it so?" Warrin breathed, shaking his head in sorrow.

Gabrielle turned her head, and stared right into his eyes. "That’s the secret, Warrin. You gotta believe in something so much, you make it happen." Her voice dropped to a whisper. "And I believe in her like nothing else on earth." Her eyes flicked to the bow slung across his back. "What’s that for?"

Warrin smiled. "I have my own agenda." He replied, in a silky smooth voice.

Gabrielle risked a glance away from him. Xena seemed to be holding her own, she turned back. "You’d better not aim a single one of them towards her."

Warrin laughed gently. "You’re no warrior."

The bard met his eyes. "For that, I'll become one."

And, curiously, looking into those sea green eyes, he believed her.

Xena knew, from his first stroke, which she parried, that it was going to be a long morning. Secan was almost two feet taller than she was, and more than double her weight. His strength almost did her in, until she could figure the angles, and knew how to deflect his momentum off.

Then it became a battle of her skills and superior speed against his strength, and he found out very quickly that he needed to watch the violence of his strokes, an overshoot past her meant a painful buffet, and once when he was very unlucky a sharp slash along his ribs.

He stepped back, and took a breather, then stepped back in and slammed his hilts against hers, trying to drive her back.

Oh no.. not that trick. Xena mentally rolled her eyes, and slid underneath the thrust of his blow, letting him go past her and getting in her own solid hit on his side. She parried his return backslash, and jumped over his outstretched arm, kicking back and connecting one booted foot against his kneecap. He howled, and slammed his fists against her back, but she was already moving, and the blow just pushed her into an already begun flip.

Which she completed, and slashed inward, surprising him and putting another crease on his ribcage. "You’re too slow for me, Secan. " She laughed, taking one deep step towards him, and pushing herself skyward, lashing out with powerful leg and hitting his collarbone. He staggered back, and didn’t swing, as she landed the jump, and twirled her sword around her wrist, then advanced towards him.

His chest was heaving, and he couldn’t help but notice that hers wasn’t. Damn her.. every stroke she parried, every lunge she diverted.. it was as though she could read his mind, and knew exactly what he was going to do. He took a breath, and settled down. No matter…

And he was on the attack again, probing for weak spots in her defense, no longer seeing her as human, but as a hated opponent whose skills he now took for granted. He used his height and reach advantage to gain a higher angle against her, slamming his weapon down against hers amid a shower of brilliant sparks.

She took the force of the blow, and allowed it to continue through to the bottom of the stroke, and then pulled the weapons towards her, and up into a circular motion.

Ah. His mind smiled. I’ve got her. Almost directly under him, and well within his stroke range. Fast, she was, but he was stronger, and a direct downward slice… she’d no more be able to block than she would be to fly off like a bird. He let his blow slide off hers, and swung the weapon up again, then with a striking speed, brought it directly down towards her head.

Oh Hades. Xena sighed, realizing the position she’d put herself in. I’m in for it. She saw his swing up, and the start of the descending blade, then her body was reacting with automatic precision and she was lifting her own weapon to block his downstroke.

Time slowed, and the memory of Gabrielle’s words echoed through her consciousness. You do things because you convince yourself you can. All right. Xena blanked her mind, and thought about only one thing. I can block this stroke. And set her will into motion, as the his steel blade impacted hers, and the shock of the blow jarred through her shoulders and knees, which flexed to take the weight of it.

She willed herself to hold, willed her arms not to collapse under the stress, willed herself to keep that heavy blade from cleaving her unprotected skull, and felt the dark energy respond with a powerful surge.Sorry Secan… you’re not nearly enough to make me break that promise.

Saw his look of triumph shift to startlement, then disbelief as his downward momentum wasn’t shifted, wasn’t redirected, it was simply stopped, as though he’d tried to cut into a mountain. They stood locked for an endless moment, before Xena leaned forward slightly, and straightened her crouch, throwing him back and flinging his sword to one side.

She was right. Xena’s mind chuckled in delight. It is all in my head. She moved forward a step, and felt that part of her that was part of Ares surge up, excited by this new revelation. "What’s the matter, Secan? Having problems?" She laughed softly. He was wrong about this lifebond stuff.. and so was I. Xena realized suddenly, as she slammed her weapon against his, and drove him back another pace.

It doesn’t make you weaker. The fire in her rose now, and she slashed again, and again, making the forest dweller frantic in his attempts to block the blows, which crashed through his defenses, and shocked him with their power.

It makes you… want to live so much, you just refuse to be defeated. She would have laughed if she hadn’t been in the middle of a fight to the death. What an idiot he was. She shoved him back with another overhand blow, locking their swords together, and saw his other hand fling out in a gesture that caused warning bells to explode in her head.

Warrin slid around to the side, blending his dappled pale coat in with the grey bark on a tree just to one side of the battlefield. He had a good view - and found himself pausing just to watch the combat.

She was… he was forced to admit, everything Jessan claimed her to be. He removed his bow from his shoulder, and strung it quickly, then settled both hands on the top of it, and watched a moment longer.

Secan was having troubles, he noted, his movements were getting a touch more frantic, and he was no longer smiling. All his strokes, his efforts.. were turned aside as though he were a rank cub against a master. Warrin could see her sharp, steady gaze focused in concentration, eyes shifting, body making automatic movements that seemed to flow without pause.

When she launched up, and kicked him, Warrin even laughed a little, at the look on Secan's face. So. The storyteller was right after all, it seemed..but wait…

Now he moved, sliding to one side of the tree, and nocking shaft to bowstring in one fluid motion. Saw her steel meet his over her head, and let a breath trickle out in a soft chuckle when it went no further. He drew his arm to full extention, and focused his long sight on his target. There. The angle was right, and he was so close….

Xena heard the arrow release, and knew, with her hands locked on her blade hilt, she had no chance of stopping it. Hope it hits something non vital. Her mind grimly wished. Or at least gives me time to finish this bastard off.

She heard a rushing sound behind her, and the sickening impact of a heavy shaft, but felt nothing, and couldn’t turn to see what had happened. Instead, she focused on him, and saw his eyes looking over her shoulder in disbelief.

Only for a minute, though, because her next blow, driven as much by will as by muscle, disarmed him, and sent his long sword flying through the air.

Time stopped, and she saw the rage take over his face, as he let out a blood-chilling roar and came at her, powerful arms sweeping towards her with deadly claws extended.

She waited, with patience honed from a lifetime on the battlefield, until his leap was committed, and he had no way to stop himself.

Then she shifted her grip on her sword, crouched, and let him come down, feeling the claws tear at her, until it was almost too late, and then she uncoiled her legs and brought the sword point straight up driven with all the power her body could muster.

Shoving the razor sharp blade up through his battlecoat, and past his wildly heaving ribcage, and into his heart, showering her with a rich, red explosion of hot blood.

He went right over her, and landed on his back, hands twitching in shock towards the length of steel protruding from his body

Then she looked up. To see Lestan’s forces lined up in full array, the archers foremost with quarrels nocked and ready, pointed past her, at Secan’s fighters.

And not two body lengths behind her, lay huddled a limp, pale yellow form, curled up and still. Silence fell as Xena turned her back on the dying Secan, and walked over to the form, kneeling down and putting a hand on the shuddering shoulder. Turned him over gently, as saw Warrin’s face contorted in pain, as his hands clutched the long, heavy shaft he’d intercepted.

His eyes opened, and he looked up, relief showing there. "Ssso. It.. was to good ef..fect." He stuttered, hardly breathing.

"Don’t talk, don’t move." Xena said, reaching for the arrow. "Let me see what I can do with this."

The head jerked, and his eyes found hers. "Nno." His hand grabbed her wrist. "Paid my dues to Ares, just now.. Chosen." He blinked at her. "Don’t.. deny me.. this."

Xena looked at him for a very long moment. Then she let her free hand rest on his shoulder, and gave a jab and a twist, and saw his face change. "Just stops the pain." She said quietly, watching him.

He nodded. "I was wrong… about you. Sorry." His eyes drifted over her shoulder. "Wrong about her.. sorry I … tried…"

The warrior just shook her head. "It’s past, Warrin." Her fingertips touched the feathered shaft. "I understand why you did it."

They looked at each other in silence, then his eyes unfocused a little. "She said.. she’d wait." His gaze flicked dreamily to hers. "Wonder if that’s true." He glanced down at the arrow and grimaced. "Wonder how long…"

Xena felt a lump rising in her throat, but she caught his eyes, and put her hand on the shaft, an unspoken question in her gaze. He nodded in understanding, and a look of profound relief flooded into his face.

One quick twist, was all. And the point punctured his heart. His eyes widened as he felt it, then fixed over her left shoulder, as he let out several shallow breaths, not seeing her anymore.

Then his expression softened, and his eyes lit up like stars, and a smile spread across his features, and his lips moved their last. "She did."

His body went limp under her hands, and Xena bit her lip hard, swallowing down the heaviness in her throat that threatened to choke her. "Hope I get as lucky, Warrin." She whispered, reaching out one blood covered hand and gently closing his sightless eyes. A touch fell on her shoulder, and she looked up to see Wennid there.

"He’s at peace." The forest dweller murmured softly. "At last." She looked up as Jessan joined her, and the forest dweller put a gentle hand on Xena’s arm as he crouched next to her.

"You all right?" He said softly, glancing over his shoulder. "They’re holding Gabrielle back.. didn’t want her to get hurt… not with all these bows drawn."

Xena bit back a smile. "Better let her go, before she hurts someone." She patted his leg. "I’m fine, but tell her to wait until we get things settled here."

Jessan nodded, and gave her shoulders a squeeze. "That was… incredible." Then he stood, and loped back to the treeline

"Let me go." Gabrielle's voice hit a low growl, as she twisted in the grasp of an uneasy and upset Deggis. "I said."

Jessan came trotting back, and gave Deggis a signal. "Whoa.." he put a hand up, as the bard started in the direction of the battle. "Gabrielle.. please.. hold on a minute. She said.."

The bard stopped, and gave him a look. "Jess…"

"Not my fault." Jessan sighed. "She said to wait a minute, till she was done out there. Please."

Gabrielle glanced past his shoulder, and winced. "All right." She said softly, as she watched what her partner was doing. Oh gods… She closed her eyes and swallowed hard to quell the sudden nausea. No way, Gabrielle - you told her to do this. Now you watch, damn you, because this is what she is.

So she forced her eyes open, forced herself to see the blood, and the violence, and the savage primal stregnth that was part and parcel of who her partner was. Gods.

The enemy force parted before her like a school of fish around a predator. She walked into their midst, her sword still dripping with Secan's blood, and they backed away from her menace with universal unease. A few moments only, and then she was turning her back on them, and walking back towards Gabrielle, her face a cold, silent mask.

The bard took a deep, shaky breath. This side of her scares me so much.. I see it, and I know It's there, and not too deep down, either. She crossed her arms and looked down at the ground. But you have to take all of it or none, right? The good, and the bad, the dark and the light. Because she's both. Trick is.. put the good side of her so firmly in charge, that even when she does bad things, she does them for the right reasons. That's.. horrible.

But loving her.. means loving all that she is. Not just the parts I like. Gabrielle watched the steadily moving form coming closer, walking through the high pale grasses. To anyone else watching, the bard knew, she was the picture of a victorious, barbaric fighter.

But Gabrielle saw her armor shift, as she took a deep breath, and squared her shoulders, raising her eyes to idly scan the treeline. And knew what those eyes were looking for.

Yeah. Incredible. Xena bowed her head for a moment, then stood, and turned towards Secan’s forces. They were dead still, eyes watching her, and the motionless body of their leader. She walked slowly over to him, and stared down, feeling a wave of exhaustion crash over her. Well, that’s to be expected. She sighed, glancing up at the sun. But I had time enough. She looked around, taking in the hundreds of forest dwellers poised on either side of the clearing. The grass would have run red with blood.. what was I thinking of? If Gabrielle hadn’t.. would I have let this go on? She looked inside herself for a long moment, then allowed a tiny smile to cross her lips. No. That was plan A all the time, wasn’t it, you old fraud. You just needed Gabrielle to give you a kick in the pants. Perversely, it made her feel better to know that.

Now.. how do I prevent this from happening again in the near future, for the next Secan who comes along? She stared thoughtfully down at the cooling body. Well, first things first. She put a booted foot on his chest, and grabbed her sword hilt, giving it a powerful tug and pulling it loose from his body. Then she sniffed reflectively, and wiped the blade down on one fur-covered leg.

Well, this will at least catch their attention. She decided, then grabbed the dead forest dweller’s battlecoat, and heaved him up, straining hard against the weight. You’ve only got one chance at this, Xena. Better make it good, because it’s going to look extremely stupid if you don’t.

Taking a deep breath, she got herself ready, then released her grasp, and drew her sword, putting all her remaining energy into three savage cuts that sliced through the russet body with a wrenching, grating sound.

Five parts. She noted, trying to catch her breath. Not bad, Xena, not bad. You haven’t quite lost that macabre touch after all. Walking forward, she grabbed the severed head, and picked it up, continuing to walk towards Secan’s forces. Saw the uneasy fear in their eyes, and smiled. When she was in range, she drew her arm back, and let fly, sending the head into their midst, and striking the tall silver lieutenant squarely in the chest with it.

He flinched, and gasped, and jumped back, as the heavy round object thumped to the ground, scattering a fine spray of blood everywhere. His eyes bulged, and he looked up at her with a sickened expression.

She swaggered into their midst, and let her blade rest casually on her shoulder, ignoring the blood still dripping off it. "Which one of you fired that arrow?" She asked, in a low growl.

Eyes flickered back and forth, and then a smaller archer stepped forward. "I did." His voice cracked slightly, and he flushed. Xena noted the angry red brand welt on his arm, and grimaced. So.. this was his shot at redemption, huh? Her sword flicked forward and pressed against his neck, driving him back against a tree.

Silence fell, as they all watched her. She stepped closer, and ran the edge of the sword around his neck, and down the front of his battlecoat. "Said I’d skin the next person who shot an arrow at me." She let her eyes narrow. "Maybe I’ll do it with you still alive." Feeling the shudder run through them but keeping her eyes pinned on the archer. "How would that feel, I wonder?"

He swallowed hard, and she could see his chest heaving. She moved up right next to him, and smelled the fear rising from his furred body. "You like this feeling?"

He shook his head, unable to speak, unable to look away from those bizarrely pale eyes.

"No one else does either." Xena remarked, tapping him on the head with her sword blade. "Think about that, ok?" She turned away from him, and affected not to notice when he slid down the trunk of the tree in a huddled mass. Now her eyes were on Kelten. "Blood debt’s paid." She said, now letting the point of her sword rest on his chest, just tickling the skin through his battlecoat.

His nostrils flared, and he managed a slight nod.

"Get out of here." Her voice hit its lowest register. "Don’t come back." She flipped the sword back and pointed it towards Lestan’s waiting group. "That’s my clan. If I hear of you so much as picking flowers on their territory… I might get mad." She smiled at him. "You really don’t want that, right?"

"No, Chosen." His voice was hoarse.

"Good." She smiled again, not refuting his title for her. That always brought nothing but trouble.. maybe it’ll help for a change. It’s what they respect, I guess. Bet Ares is up there laughing his head off. She rolled her eyes mentally. "Now, get out." She paused. "And take what’s left of your… leader… " She spat in the grass in disgust. "We don’t want any scavengers getting sick around here."

And so they did, two of them trudging forward to the beaten circle in the grass where they had fought, and gingerly collecting the pieces Xena had left them. The rest melted into the forest, leaving Lestan’s fighters to slowly put down their weapons, and look at each other in delighted disbelief.

Xena walked slowly back across the clearing, letting the thigh high grasses slap against her legs, idly sweeping her blade across them and shearing off the tips. The sun overhead felt good on her shoulders, and she rolled her head forward to release the tension that had built during the fight, letting the welcome warmth tickle the back of her neck. Well, that’s that, I guess. Her mind mused quietly. Wonder what Gabrielle thought of it. I know she said to do what I had to but… maybe it’s more of my dark side than she wants to deal with. Wouldn’t blame her.

Footsteps brought her head back up, and she saw Gabrielle’s trotting form heading towards her. Seconds later, she was being wrapped in a pair of enthusiastic arms. "Hey.. wait.. Gabrielle, don’t.. I’m all covered in.."

"Blood." The bard acknowledged, hugging her harder. "No kidding. But it’ll wash off."

"But you’ll get it all over yourself." Xena said, gently, aware of just how gory she was.

Gabrielle looked up and studied her with loving attention. "I don’t care." She wrapped her arms around Xena's neck. "So I'll have to take a bath too. " She hesitated. "That was awesome."

Xena’s lips twitched and she let her sword drop, returning the bard’s hug and feeling the cough as she squeezed the breath out of her. "Think so?"

The bard nodded.

"I just killed someone, and cut them into pieces, Gabrielle. " The warrior said softly.

Gabrielle pulled back, and tugged the edge of her breastplate. "You just saved hundreds of lives, and the existence of Lestan’s people, Xena." Her eyes were serious. "And you did it by risking your own life, and destroying someone who made a lifelong habit of hurting people." She paused. "Did you know Tody was his son?"

Xena’s eyebrows rose, and she knelt to pick up her sword. "Really?"

The bard nodded, and waited for her to stand, then wrapped an arm around her waist and started walking back to where their forest dwellers were collecting. "He left him out to die after he was blinded."

"Really?" Xena asked again. When Gabrielle nodded, the warrior shook her head. "Maybe I should have skinned him."

"Err… Ewwww." Gabrielle poked her tongue out. "Xena, that’s gross."

"Why not? He was a pretty red color. Would have made a nice rug." Xena went on, with a glint in her eyes.

Gabrielle rolled her eyes. "Come on. Let’s get you cleaned up." Then she slapped Xena on the belly. "You didn’t tell me you were going to do that to Lestan, you fink." She laughed a little. "Jessan about croaked."

Xena shrugged, and cut some more grass tips off. "Had to make it within their traditions, so.." she grinned. "Now I have to give it back to him."

"If he’ll let you." The bard grinned slyly. "He had just the biggest smirk on his face when you punched that guy." Her brows creased. "Hey.. that would be kind of cool – I have the Amazons, you have these guys… we could have some great parties."

"Gabrielle." Came the warning laugh.

"No, really…" The bard persisted, enjoying herself. "At least you don’t have to wear one of those damn masks."

"Gabrielle!" Xena protested, as they drew close to the group of forest dwellers.

"Do you know how hot they are?" Gabrielle snorted. "Hey..would you have to walk around without your shirt on like they do? How cool would that be!"

"I’m going to get you for this." Xena growled softly, as Lestan stepped towards them, arm outstretched.

"Ohh.. I hope so." Came the teasing response.

Xena found herself surrounded by a warm moving sea of fur, as the forest dwellers all clustered around her, murmuring in happy voices. Hesitant hands reached out and patted her shoulders, until she reached Jessan, and he just wrapped his arms around her and lifted her off her feet.

"Jessan.." She growled, right into his ear, but returned the hug.

He smiled and released her. "That was great." He sighed, as they all started to walk back towards the village. Then he paused. "Except Uncle Warrin." His golden eyes were sad.

Xena glanced at him. "He got what he wanted, Jessan." She said quietly, glancing ahead to where two forest dwellers bore a pallet holding the still, huddled form. And remembered his last words. She waited for him… even after all this time. And she thought about Warrin, her eyes idly searching the path before her. Warrin.. was certainly no pure soul. A quietly happy glow started in the pit of her stomach, and spread outward, chasing away the weary residue of the battle.

"Xena?" Gabrielle’s voice sounded to her left, and she turned towards the bard.

"Yeah?" She answered, sliding an arm around her partner and pulling her closer.

"What’s that smug look for?" The bard inquired, bantering lightly. "You look like you won a prize at the Athenian battle competition."

Xena looked at her, then grinned and shook her head. "No particular reason, Gabrielle." She shrugged and waved an arm at the exultant group surrounding them. "Except I’m glad things turned out.. the way they did." A prize… yeah.. unlooked for, undeserved… She hugged the bard tighter and took a happy breath.

Gabrielle gave her a wondering look. What’s that for? It’s like she sees something the rest of us don’t.. not that it would surprise me.. no.. but… "Well, yeah, sure.. I am too, not that I had any doubts." She backslapped her lightly in the gut. "After all that worrying.. you had control of that from start to finish. " She paused, and lowered her voice. "Once you started were you.."

"No." Xena replied peacefully. "Like riding a horse, I guess.. you gotta get right back on if you get thrown." She bit back another grin, and glanced to her right. "Hello, Lestan. "

Their eyes met. "Sorry about that." Xena apologized. "Didn’t really have time to discuss that plan with you."

The forest dweller chuckled ruefully. "Better that you didn’t. I don’t think I could have played it out.." His eyes covertly studied her. "I don’t blame you for taking that route. It was.. the fastest, least complicated way."

The warrior nodded slowly in acceptance. "Thanks for going along with me." Her voice was low, but carried force, and it echoed over the suddenly quieter crowd. "That did the trick in getting Secan to buy into it." And felt the sudden shift in tension around her, as the meaning behind her words penetrated.

He shot her an admiring, appreciative glance. "Well, a little playacting was worth it.." He drawled, sharing her grin. "Getting most of us home safe. And a great show to watch." He winked. "Gods, Xena.. that will be one of for the storytellers." You give me my village intact, my worst enemy destroyed, and hand back to me my dignity in one smooth natural motion. He laughed to himself. Remind me to give thanks to that damn mountain some time.

"Oh yeah." Gabrielle smirked, bumping her partner with an elbow. "I loved it when you punched him." But her eyes didn’t miss the more than one glance of masked disappointment as her partner neatly returned authority to its rightful owner

"Too right." Jessan piped up from next to the bard. "That was awesome." He grinned at Xena’s rolled eyes. "You should have seen Kelten’s face… it was priceless."

A discussion of the battle followed. Xena contrived, through her many years of self discipline, to avoid blushing too badly, but she wasn’t really used to having her fighting skills analyzed in depth with her present.

"Oh, and Ares’ boots, Xena.. when you stopped that downstroke of his… he about swallowed his tongue." Jessan waxed enthusiastic. "It was great… "

"No no… Lestan added, waving at him. "My favorite part was Kelten’s face when you hit him with that damn head. " He slapped Xena’s arm. "That.. was so choice."

Gabrielle had to bite her lip to keep from giggling at the look on Xena’s face. The warrior felt her body shaking, and glared down at her.

"Stop that." Xena growled, trying to ignore Lestan’s chuckles.

Gabrielle just giggled harder, and hid her face against her partner’s armor. "I can’t help it." She muttered. "You look so cute when you’re blushing."

"Gabrielle…" Xena sighed, then just started laughing. "Well, I’m glad that’s over with." She glanced up, at the gathering clouds overhead. "Weather’s been bad.. I hear it’s going to be a rough winter." She looked sideways at her partner. "I’m glad we’ll be home."

Felt fingers tangle with hers, and saw the contented smile on Gabrielle’s face. Right answer, Xena. "It’s mom’s busiest season. Hardest.. because there’s lots of transients going through, and food’s shorter." The warrior commented

"So.. she can use the help, huh?" The bard commented with a grin. "Good." Even though I know it won’t be forever… I’ll take what I can get.. Gods, if I can keep her there over the winter.. her mind chuckled. And I sure won’t mind either. "Bet she’s going to be glad you see you."

"Us." Xena corrected quietly, rolling the feel of the word around her mouth. ‘It wasn’t me she sent Johan to check up on in Potadeia." She gently bumped the bard with an elbow.

"Yeah.. I know." Gabrielle sighed happily, then gave Xena a sly look. "But I’m not the one she made all those batches of sweet cakes for." She nudged the warrior with her shoulder.

Got a nudge back. "Yeah, but you’re the one who ate them all."

"Oh yeah, right." The bard snorted, secretly reveling in the banter. "Don’t even go there, my ‘let me hold the plate above my head so you can’t reach them’ friend. She poked her hard in the ribs. "You got your share, and more."

They grinned at each other, and kept walking. Ahead, Xena could see the vague outlines of the village beginning to appear, and Lestan sent a pack of the younger fighters ahead to warn the remaining forest dwellers of their return.

Elaini had watched the fighters silently leave the village, and went back to packing up her medical kit. I know I’ll need it. She quietly reminded herself, trying to keep busy with putting together enough supplies to last.. however long.. in however long they were going to be running. She’d already packed her personal kit, which was standing by the door, and paused as she heard footsteps on the outer porch.

The door creaked open, and a familiar russet head poked in. "Elaini?"

"Hey, Tody." She sighed. "Come on in."

He trudged in, and hopped up on a pallet, swinging his feet in annoyance. "They wouldn’t let me go with them, Lani." He scowled.

"Of course not." His sister replied, rolling her eyes. "You’re too young." She sat down on the pallet next to him and patted his back. "And.. it’s not a game, Tody. You know that."

"Yeah, I know." He sighed. "I just wanna be there." His ears swiveled towards her "You think it’ll take long?"

Elaini scowled. "Well, I don’t know… these things take time, you know." She stood, and paced near the window, hugging herself. Ares.. keep him safe, please. This isn’t his war.

"Well, I don’t think it’ll take long." Tody said, hopping off the pallet and roaming around the room. "I think we’re going to have a great party tonight."

Elaini sighed, and walked over to him, kneeling down and putting a gentle arm around his furred shoulders. "Tody.. I’m glad you’re thinking good things. But.. we’re up against a very strong force, and we’re planning for.. any outcome."

The blind forest dweller cocked his head. "Nothin’s going to happen, Lani." His mouth curved into a smile. "Xena’s there."

The older forest dweller rolled her eyes. "What is with all of you? I mean.. I like the woman, but I don’t think for a minute she’s anything more than one very skilled, very knowledgeable human fighter. Why do you all talk about her like she’s some kind of envoy from Mount Olympus?"

Tody smiled, and kicked the floor with one clawed foot. "Did you ever Look at her, Lani?"

His sister shrugged. "Not really, no.. I know she’s lifebonded, but.."

"Ohh…" The boy sighed happily, rocking back and forth absently. "No… she’s all warm, and strong, and wonderful… not like anyone else."

"Whatever." Elaini rubbed his back. "I’m sure she’ll be a big help." No convincing these guys, is there? Gods.

She finished packing, and was just going to fix her and Tody some lunch when a sound outside brought them both standing. She rushed to the window, with Tody right behind her, and rested her hands on the sill, looking out.

The morning fog had burned off, and all the preparations had been made for moving.. the village was mostly silent, save the odd bird clacking, and the ever-present sigh of the wind.

From the north path, came the sound of rapid footsteps.

"Damn… " Elaini cursed, grabbing her brother. "All right… listen.. " Took less time than we expected…

Then saw the body attached to the footsteps was familiar, was Deggis, and the look on his face was anything but grim. He ran towards the infirmary first… and Elaini threw the door open, and rushed out onto the porch. "What news, Deggis?" She called.

"The day is ours!" Came his booming, happy, unexpected reply.

The remaining forest dwellers came running, all talking at once.

"Wait… what about injuries, Deggis." Elaini stepped down off her porch and grabbed his shoulders.

"None." The pale forest dweller grinned, and bounced up and down on his toes, then sobered. "Ah.. but Warrin took a shaft, and passed over."

Silence fell, and they all looked at each other. "That’s impossible, Deggis." One of the provisioners objected. "What happened?"

Deggis stuck his thumbs in his battlecoat, and leaned back. "To quote my friend Jessan, what happened? Xena happened."

"Told ya." Tody chortled, poking his sister in the ribs. "Told ya told ya!!!!"

"And Secan?’ An older forest dweller quietly questioned, stepping nearer. "Dead?"

Deggis raised one bushy eyebrow. "Very." He said, his grin returning. "And his mangy lot sent home packing."

"How?" Cane the question from several throats.

Deggis shook his head vigorously. "That’s for the storytellers. My mission was just to run ahead, and tell you all’s well."

Louder sounds, now – from the northern path, and Elaini could see the bobbing heads of the first returning fighters. She watched as they melted out of the forest, fuzzy blurs resolving into solid forms, rank upon rank of them, all laughing, gesturing, their voices ringing above the rising hum of the people around her.

She kept watching, and there… half a head above those around him was Jessan, head tipped back to catch the dappling sunlight, fangs showing in laughter. He walked next to his father, and now they were close enough for her to see the distinctive forms of the two humans striding along next to them.

Her eyes blinked, then focused again, and she realized that Xena wasn’t a little fuzzy, she was covered with blood almost from head to foot, obscuring the bronze of her armor, and staining her skin to a rusty hue. But the ex warlord seemed uninjured, though Elaini knew those looks could be deceiving . Must be Secan’s blood, then. She mused. I don’t believe it.

"C’mon!!" Tody yelled, and grabbed her hand. "Let’s go meet em!"

"That was very slick, by the way." Gabrielle murmured, as they were left, at last, to make their way to the cot and a very much wanted cleaning off.

"Huh?" Xena said, cocking her head. "What was?"

"Playing that Lestan was in on the whole plan the whole time." The bard gave her a look, and poked her in the side. "Very slick."

Xena waggled her eyebrows and chuckled, as they mounted the steps and opened the door.

"ROOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!" Ares collided with their legs, bouncing off and sitting down on the floor. He gave them a reproachful look. "Roo!" Then his head cocked, and he stood up and put his paws on Xena's knee, and started sniffing.

"Yeah, bet that smells strange, huh?" Xena said, as the wolf sneezed over one largish patch of dried crimson. "Gods, I am a mess." She gave a rueful laugh as she gingerly put down her still unsheathed sword, and started unlacing her bracers.

"No kidding." Gabrielle stuck her tongue out. "Gross. Here... let me get those." She worked the stiffened laces with strong fingers for a minute. "There." She grunted, and pulled them off, then started on the buckles, which held on her breastplate. "Gods... did you managed to get enough blood caked fur in here?"

"Sorry." Xena chuckled, working on the other fastening. "Guess I don't get points for neatness, huh?" She undid the buckle, and lifted the armor off over her head. "Wait.."

Gabrielle took the metal pieces out of her hands, and set them down. "Later for them. You first." She cheerfully announced, as she worked the upper armbands off.

"Uh huh." Xena sighed, and knelt in place, trying to avoid Ares' energetic tongue. "Ares..c ut that out."

"Hey.. he's helping the washing effort." The bard teased, taking one set of the leg armor from Xena's hands and leaning it against the wall. "I"ll take all the help I can get."

"Gee thanks." Xena muttered, getting her other boot off and standing up. "I'd forgotten drawing and quartering was so... messy."

Gabrielle took her by the hand, and led the way towards the bathing room in silence, and once there, she turned to Xena and undid the straps on her leathers. "Out."

The warrior grinned, and removed the blood stained leathers, and tossed them into the washing tub, followed by her undergarment. She let Gabrielle tug her over to the reservoir, and just stood, while the sun warmed water washed over her. "Gods.. that feels good." she admitted, closing her eyes.

Opened them at the touch of the bard's hands on her, as her partner joined her under the water. "Oh.. I like this, too." She grinned, as Gabrielle set to work on her with a handful of soap.

"He didn't touch you, did he." The bard said softly, as she worked to get all the blood out of the hollows and smooth dips her muscles created. She looked up to see Xena's shake of the head. "Didn't think so." She worked a while more in silence. "You know, I wasn't even scared for you this time.. it was like…I knew."

"Gabrielle.." Xena spoke quietly. "You don't have to do this.. I mean, I can.."

Green eyes lifted to hers. "I know I don't. But you're always taking care of other people. Of me, people we meet... so when I get a chance to, I’d like to take care of you. Is that OK?"

That got the bard a smile. "Sure." The warrior replied, relaxing. "Sorry.. I just.. " she paused. "No one's ever..."

"Taken care of you?" Gabrielle finished quietly. "Not since Cyrene, huh?"

"No." Her partner answered. "It just wasn't.. I mean, the people I was involved with .. they all wanted something.. from me, from my army.. it was almost like a little battle between me, and them. We were always worried about who would get the upper hand, I guess." Even Marcus. Especially Marcus.

Gabrielle almost held her breath at this sudden, and unlooked for revelation. "Competitive?"

"Yeah." Xena admitted, staring down at her hands, which Gabrielle was patiently cleaning. "Something like that." A touch of hoarseness entered her voice. " I couldn't really ever..." She searched for words. "Trust.. them completely. Because I always knew there were reasons behind why we were getting involved with each other."

Gabrielle thought about that for a while. "But you trust me?" She finally asked, finishing her task, and glancing up. "Completely?"

"Do you really have to ask that, Gabrielle?" Came the wistful reply. "Yes."

The bard remained quiet for a minute, then laughed a little. "You know.. it’s funny you say that.. because I was just thinking, before.. about how everyone I’ve ever known in my life.. my parents.. Lila.. even Perdicus, wanted something from me." She paused, and scrubbed Xena’s forearms, which had gone very still. "It was… what could I do for them. What could I.. be.. for them. My mother… never really had time for us.. my father.. well, you know." She swallowed, and felt Xena’s fingertips gently brush her face. "Lila.. needed me to take care of her. " She looked up. "And Perdicus… he was looking for someone to take care of him, too."

"I think you know.. I’m pretty good at taking care of myself, Gabrielle." Xena said softly.

The bard smiled, and let her fingers trace the pattern of muscles just under the skin of Xena’s arm. "Oh, I know that, because you’re the first person in my life who never asked anything of me,.. never expected anything from me… who just let me be who I was. " A pause. "Or who I wanted to be, anyway." She rubbed her temple a little. "And… you’re the first person I ever really wanted to take care of. " A glance up. "That’s kind of silly, isn’t it?" She went back to her scrubbing. "Gods… you did get that stuff all over you."

Xena examined her hands thoughtfully. 'Yeah.. but then you could wash these for a lifetime, and there would still be blood on them." It was barely a whisper, but the bard heard it.

"Then I guess I'll just have to stick around with you for enough lifetimes to convince you otherwise, huh?" Gabrielle took the long powerful fingers in hers, and lifted them to her lips, covering first one, then the other with gentle kisses. And looked up to see a wide-eyed, open stare that let her look straight through to the depths of her partner's soul. So she looked, and decided she liked what she saw there. "Do me a favor?"

"Anything." Came the instant answer, as Xena struggled to regain a shred of composure.

Gotta take the intensity down here or we're both going to go crazy. The bard realized. "Can you kneel down? You're way too tall for me to reach your hair all the way up there."

That got a smile, and Xena complied, dropping smoothly to one knee, and resting her elbows on it. "Sorry." she chuckled, as the bard worked on getting the blood and gore out of her dark mane.

Gabrielle rinsed the soap off, gazing thoughtfully at the bent head in front of her, caught as they were in gentle light from the opening in the roof. "OK." She said. "All done."

Xena looked up, and smiled into the light. "Right.. your turn." She said, in an ordinary voice, as she stood and held out her hand for the soap.

Gabrielle relinquished the bar, but shook her head in protest. "Xena, I didn’t get…" She stopped speaking and swallowed as the warrior stepped closer, and working up a lather between her hands, started at the bard’s neck and worked downward. "Uhm… on the other hand.." She breathed, leaning forward and letting their bodies touch. "A good wash never hurts."

Xena paid close attention to her task, sliding her hands around the bard’s back, and scrubbing industriously, smirking when Gabrielle’s own hands began to wander. "Thought I was all done?" She whispered, watching the flush climb up the bard’s neck and tinge her ears.

"Think I missed a few spots." Gabrielle muttered, experimentally tasting a few drops of water beading on her partner’s chest. "Can’t be too careful."

"Ah. I see. You thirsty?" Xena asked, all innocence.

Gabrielle acquired a few more droplets. "Yeah." She glanced up. "Watching you is thirsty work."

That got a low, lazy chuckle, and Xena tilted her head back, opening her mouth and capturing some of the water from the reservoir. She straightened back up, then bent her neck, lightly opening Gabrielle’s lips and depositing a portion of the water in there. The bard swallowed, then opened her mouth like a bird waiting for more.

She got the rest, and a kiss on top of it. "Mm." She hummed approvingly.

"Glad you approve." The warrior grinned, in a completely good mood for the first time in days. She finished washing her partner, and rinsed the soap out of her hair, as they exchanged kisses and let their hands roam over each other. One last pleasant splash of water, and Xena reached out one long arm, grabbing the large piece of linen she’d left there that morning to dry, and wound it around both of them.

"Gonna make it awful hard to walk." Gabrielle chuckled, as she found herself being roughly toweled dry. "Ohh.. that feels great… whoa!"

"Who said you were going to walk?" Xena inquired, lifting her up, still swaddled in the linen, and walking out into the cot’s open space, then just collapsing on the bed with the bard in her arms.

Gabrielle rested quietly there for a long moment, then snuggled closer, and closed her eyes, taking a deep breath. "I guess we gotta go and join in the festivities, huh?"

Xena wrapped her arms tighter and chuckled. "What would they do to us if we didn’t?’ Her brow arched wickedly. "Think anyone out there’s going to challenge me?"

The bard laughed softly. "Nope.. not a one. And it was nice seeing you get your swagger back." Her eyes twinkled with mischief.

"My what?" The warrior’s brows contracted. "I don’t have a swagger."

This got a helpless burst of laughter from Gabrielle. "You most certainly do."

"Do not." Xena growled, giving her a look.

Gabrielle put up one finger and tapped Xena’s chin for emphasis. "Yes, you do. But don’t worry. It looks really good on you."

The blue eyes blinked at her. "I do?" A pause. "It does?"

The bard nodded. "Uh huh."

"Hmm." A quirked eyebrow. "So.. how come you’re the first person to notice that?"

That got a giggle from her partner. "Probly because I’m the first person could say that without getting my jaw broken." She idly traced the rosy color tracing up Xena’s neck. "Gods, what a blush."

"Hmph." Xena mulled that over for a bit. "Well, one thing." She drawled, with a quirky grin.

"Hmm?" Gabrielle answered, still chuckling a little to herself.

"Least I don’t squeal when I’m tickled." Came the sly answer, and Gabrielle realized suddenly that she was trapped in a wad of linen, stark naked, within reach of her partner’s devilish fingers.

"Whoaa…oh no…. no … Xena, don’t you dare… ahh..AUGH!!!!!"

She squealed, proving Xena’s point admirably.

Ares, alarmed at the noise, scrambled over and hurdled himself onto the bed, stopping short with yip when he saw the writhing mass of off white linen that seemed bound and determined to flip itself off the bed. "GRRRRRR" He growled with all his strength.

Motion stopped, and Xena’s arched eyebrow, followed by a grin appeared. "Hey.. is he on your side now?" She asked the breathless Gabrielle.

"Ugghh." Gabrielle disentangled herself from the linen, and rolled onto her back, throwing her hands out and letting out a huge breath. "I’ll get you for that."

Xena stretched out on her side, and propped her hand on her head. "Oh yeah? When?"

Gabrielle let her eyes half close, and she lifted a hand and tickled Xena’s chin. "On your birthday."

A deep sigh. "She told you." Mother, I’m going to kill you. So much for promises.

"Oh.. you better believe she did." The bard chuckled wickedly. She watched Ares stumble across the bed, and curl up against Xena’s belly, tucking his nose under his tail and sighing. "Aww… he loves his mommy."

Xena shook her head in amused disbelief. "I don’t understand what the attraction is here."

Gabrielle rolled her head to one side, and let her eyes travel down the warrior’s sleek form, then back up until their eyes met. "I do." She smirked, getting a wry look in return. "Ok.. ok. We’d better stop making excuses and go join the crowd." She yawned, and rubbed her stomach. "Besides, I’m hungry."

"There’s a surprise." Xena commented, as she rolled off the bed and stood, stretching her arms and shoulders, and hearing the pop as joints settled back into place. "Oof… " She extended a hand to the bard, and hauled her to her feet. "I’m getting too old for this." She sighed.

Gabrielle slid in close, and patted her on the belly. "I’d sympathize with you, but it sure would sound more convincing if you hadn’t just wiped the field with an 8 foot tall fanged monster. With a sword." She glanced up, to see a glint in her partner’s eyes. "Right after you spent the previous morning whaling all over a hundred or so equally large, equally fanged forest dwellers. "

"Uhm." Xena bit her lip.

"Right after you got out of a infirmary pallet after being stuck under a pile of rocks all day. " The bard continued, enjoying the chagrined look on Xena’s face. "And, of course, saving my life."

"You made your point, Gabrielle." Xena smiled, running her fingers through the bard’s red gold hair, and fluffing it out to dry.

The bard nodded quietly. "Good." Her face went serious. "I feel bad about Warrin." She sighed. "I know.. he was really hurting."

"He found his peace" Xena replied quietly, but a smile etched itself onto her face. "He found what he was looking for.. at the end there. "

Gabrielle pulled a tunic over her head, and settled the folds absently about her body, giving the belt a little scowl as she fastened it. "Did he say anything to you?" She asked curiously, looking up from her task.

Caught in the act of donning her own garment, Xena slowly finished the motion, and fiddled with the hem for a second. "Yeah." She finally said. "He said… " she stopped and paused for a beat. "Uhm. He said his lifemate had promised him she’d wait.. for him. On the other side. And.. he was wondering if she had." Xena felt the lump form in her throat again, as the simple wrenching need of that thought hit her in the gut. Wouldn’t I have been wondering the same thing? I wanted to hate him.. but Gods… what he must have felt.

"Oh." The bard laid a tentative hand on Xena’s arm, frozen in motion on her belt. "I’m sure… I mean.." What if he’d promised too? And he’d broken that promise.. "I hope.."

"I couped him." Xena said, quietly. "As he was dying, he looked over my shoulder, and… smiled.. he looked just like a kid again. "

"You think.." Gabriele said, very softly, watching her closely.

"His last words were ‘she did.’" Xena replied, with a sudden, brilliant smile.

"Oh!" Gabrielle sucked in breath with a gasp. "How awesome." Impulsively, she flung her arms around the warrior, and hugged her with all the strength in her arms. "I’m glad for him."

Xena’s eyes glistened, as she returned the hug, and buried her face in Gabrielle’s hair for a long moment. "So am I, Gabrielle.." Because it means a door I’ve always known was locked to me… just might not be. And damn it – I know better than to believe that. I know better than to even start considering the remotest possibility that I could…no.. "

But… oh gods help me. I think I am starting to believe just that.

She closed her eyes, and felt an unaccustomed wetness trail down her cheeks A wave of emotion crashed over her, and she just let it, feeling Gabrielle’s gentle, reassuring touch rubbing her back. "He went to a better place.. " She whispered, feeling the sudden intake of breath in the bard’s body. "With everything he did…"

Gabrielle just stood there, unmoving, breathing in air that was suddenly perfumed with a hope unimagined. Realizing what those words meant. "I’m glad you finally see.. something.. that I never, ever had any doubt about." She breathed, burying herself in a haze of warm happiness. Sometimes, Gabrielle … sometimes, things happen for a reason.

Another moment to memorize, immortalize in a memory so clear, and so vivid she could later imagine with precision the exact points at which their bodies touched, smell the familiarity of the warm linen enclosing them, hear the first rumblings of the approaching storm, that sent uneven vibrations through the soles of her bare feet.

After a timeless stretch of closeness, Xena finally took a settling breath, and gave the bard’s back a little rub. "Well, guess we’d really better go and join the rest of the village – before we get soaked on the way over there."

And so they did – but the rain caught them anyway, just before the entrance of the gathering hall, and Gabrielle felt the sudden, terrifying feeling of being airborne as she was scooped up in a pair of powerful arms and catapulted forward, beating the leading edge of the thick drops by the laces of Xena’s boots.

Gabrielle leaned back in her chair, wrapping her hands around her cup and taking a long swallow, as she surveyed the darkening room. Outside, the storm raged, and she had to strain to tell the sun was setting, It was a happy crowd – knots of forest dwellers clustered all over the room, sharing two large casks of very fragrant ale that Lestan had tapped, and waiting for the appearance of dinner, the scent of which kept drifting tantalizingly in the window just to her right.

The largest cluster, of course, was gathered around Xena, who was sprawled in a large armchair, her own cup clasped casually in one hand. The warrior was allowing herself to be pumped for old war stories, which she delivered with her usual sparse economy of words, and the forest dwellers were eating it up. Gabrielle herself had been tapped for several hours worth of tales, and now she was content to sit, and rest her throat, and watch her partner effortlessly capture the attention of the bright-eyed circle around her.

Gods.. I’m glad this is over. She felt a wave of relief flood through her, helped, she realized, by the two cups plus of ale she’d drunk so far. Gotta watch that… I know I get silly.. Her eyes drifted over Xena’s casually draped form. And romantic. She giggled at herself. But then.. that’s her fourth cup.. no wonder she looks so relaxed.

Not nearly enough, she knew, to get Xena drunk – she’d seen her partner consume far more than that and still be able to function almost normally, but she often wondered how much of that was capacity, and how much was sheer willpower – with Xena one never knew. The line got very fuzzy at times.

The amount would account for the relaxed expression, though, and the lack of tension in the long lines of her body, as the ale took the edge off her twitchy emotional defenses, and let her talk about her past without apologizing for it. It wasn’t something she allowed herself to do very often, the bard knew, and she had decided a while back not to push the issue. It was enough that Xena felt safe enough amongst the forest dwellers to relax her guard a bit, something she had last done at home, months back.

Tody was seated cross-legged on the floor, his head almost touching the leg Xena had draped over the arm of her chair, and now his head tilted, and his child’s voice piped a question. The warrior ducked her head to listen, then gave him an easy smile, and ruffled his hair. Gabrielle couldn’t hear the answer, but the circle of listeners chuckled in response, and she smiled along with them, content to just sit back and watch.

A gentle hand on her wrist startled her, and she jumped a little, then turned her head to see Jessan seating himself next to her with an apologetic look. "Sorry.. didn’t mean to scare you." He commented.

"No.. um.. I was just.. " She let her voice trail off, and gave a little shrug, and an impish grin. I must have the stupidest look on my face, if that smirk is any indication. "My mind was…"

"Yeah, I can tell." Jessan’s eyes sparkled with mischief, then his gaze gentled. "Don’t blush, but the look on your face when you watch her is priceless."

So of course she did blush, and glanced down at her hands, trying to get her fuzzy around the edge reactions under control. Finally she looked up with a gentle grin. "I can’t help it." She laughed quietly. "I just melt inside when I see her. "

Jessan patted her hand. "Would you relax? It’s a wonderful thing, Gabrielle… it makes me feel good when I see that." He chewed his lip and giggled a little. "Besides.. I’m kind of getting to know that myself." His eyes dropped to her hand, and he lifted it, and tilted it towards the torchlight a bit. "Gosh.. that’s awful pretty." He murmured, tracing the delicate serpentine design of her ring with his eyes. "That’s beautiful, Gabrielle."

The bard rubbed the inner surface of the band with her thumb, and smiled. "Yeah, it is." She agreed. The metal was warm from her hand, and reflected the flickering illumination unevenly from the engraved crest. "It’s her personal seal." Her eyes met Jessan’s, with a twinkle. "And boy, was that ever a surprise."

He grinned. "I bet." A pause. "Do humans.. I mean, do you have ceremonies… uhm… well, is there a formal.." He stopped, not sure of how to ask the question.

But Gabrielle understood. "Well, kind of. " She glanced at her hand. "She gave me this just before we went to watch my sister get married." Her eyes lifted. "That’s a legal ceremony that joins two people.. making one of them responsible for the other." She took a breath. "And then, the Amazons have a kind of ceremony.. that does sort of the same thing, but for social reasons, to raise children, and that kind of thing."

"I see." Jessan mused. "Did you..uhm…"

A quick grin. "Well.. it’s like Xena said.. neither one of those kinds of ceremonies really.." She sighed, and shook her head a little. "Really covers what our relationship is… I mean.. law or not, we’ve kind of.. taken responsibility for each other."

"Oh yeah. I’d say so." Jessan chuckled. "Did you.. I mean, have you thought about doing anything more.. uhm… formal?"

The bard shrugged. "Not.. like my sister, no. It wouldn’t mean the same thing." She paused reflectively. "And I’m not sure Xena would go for an Amazon ceremony…" Her lips quirked. "It’s all right, though. I don’t really care."

Jessan nodded slowly. "Well, what I came to talk to you about is.. Elaini and I, we’re going to.. uhm… participate in our version of that kind of ceremony.. in a few days. And.. I’d really like for you guys to be there. I know that you’re probably anxious to get going and…" He stopped. "Where are you headed next, by the way?"

Gabrielle smiled. "Home." She quietly answered. "I’ll talk to Xena, but I know she won’t mind sticking around a few days to see you both joined."

Jessan studied her. "Home?" His brow creased. "I thought.. "

"Probably not for a real long time.. " The bard explained. "But.. it’s going to be a bad winter, and after what just happened.. and us, and all.. yeah. We’re going to spend a little while just.. " She chewed her lip. "Just regrouping, I guess."

Golden eyes thoughtfully searched her face. "Didn’t think you could get her to stand still that long." He attempted a smile. "She’s so.. can she take that?"

Gabrielle sat up, and put the cup down with slow and precise movements. Then she turned, and rested her forearms on her knees, making serious eye contact with him. "Look." She said, in a quiet voice. "I’m not stupid"

"Gabrielle!" Jessan protested, raising a hand.

"Let me finish." She continued, and he subsided. "She’s known death, and fighting, and war, and bloodshed the better part of her life, Jessan. " An audible swallow. "I know it’s a big part of what she is. " A pause. "Of who she is." She looked away, then back. "And I know.. Jessan, I know.. that it’s pretty damn likely.. that we’re not going to.. to grow old together, all right?"

She felt his shock, and took several deep breaths to keep the heaviness in her chest from blocking her speech. "So.. knowing that.. makes me really, really want to be damn sure that death, and blood, and anger isn’t the only thing that made up her life. " She rubbed her eyes, and fell silent a moment. "I want her to know peace, and family, and love.. and I can’t do that when we’re out there fighting every day."

Jessan put a hand on her arm, and squeezed. "Gabrielle, please – I didn’t’ mean to question that. I don’t… "

"I know." She sighed. "But if it’s only a little while, then it will be a little while that I have to give her something she hasn’t had since she was a little girl.. and Jess, I want that so bad."

"I didn’t understand." The forest dweller whispered. "Now I do… and you’re right, Gabrielle. She deserves that." He glanced down at his hands, which flexed gently, then looked up. "What I really wanted to ask you.. with all this roundabout babbling of mine.. is would you like to join Elani and I in participating in our ceremony of joining… it’s something that is part of our tradition, but it’s something that’s specific to what we are. Elaini and I, and you and Xena."

"Oh." Gabrielle replied softly. "I said there was nothing written that covered the joining of two souls.. but in your tradition there must be, right?" Her eyes took on a subtle sparkle.

Jessan nodded. "Exactly so."

"Jessan, I would very much like that." The bard smiled. "Have you mentioned it to Xena?"

He shook his head. "No."

"I will." Gabrielle patted his arm, then stopped, as his head continued to shake. "What?"

Jessan cleared his throat, and leveled a stare at her. "The ceremony is held in a place sacred to our kind, deep in a cavern, inside the northern mountains." His jaw muscles moved jerkily. "I noticed she was having problems in the crowded hall last night."

Gabrielle let out a long breath. "Might be a problem for both of us, actually." She gave him a look, and a little shrug. "Well, I can ask… but I gotta be careful how, because I know her.. she’ll try to force herself if she thinks it’s important to me."

Jessan smiled, and squeezed her hand. "Do what you think is right, Gabrielle." He rubbed his temples. "I can’t believe I’m going to do it.. I never thought I’d be.. " He looked up with a helplessly happy grin. "It’s great, isn’t it?"

Gabrielle grinned back. "It’s better than great." She stretched, and looked up as the back doors opened, and the feast began to arrive. "I’ll let you know what she says."

A nod. "Good enough." Jessan sniffed appreciatively. "Wow.. that smells great. Shall we?"

She took his arm, and tugged. "Yeah.. come on, you’ve got longer arms."

Gabrielle gasped, and shivered as she stepped out into the cold wet air much later that late evening. "Gods." She muttered, hugging herself. "Should have brought my cloak."

A long arm slid around her, and brought friendly warmth as Xena pulled her closer. "C’mere." The warrior yawned. "This is nasty." She muttered, glancing up. A gust of wind slammed into them, bringing a stinging lash of freezing rain that made even Xena shudder. "Damn." The icy cold cut through the ale induced fuzziness momentarily, and brought her to sharp attention. "Let’s go."

They made their way quickly towards their cot, surrounded by equally huddled forest dwellers, who at least had the advantage of their thick, furry pelts. Xena bundled them both through the door, and closed it hastily after her, grimacing.

Ares bounded over, setting fangs to boot, and tugging at Xena’s laces with vigor. "Grrr." He shook his head back and forth, almost shaking himself off his paws. The warrior dropped to one knee, and ruffled his fur. "Hey, boy."

"Brrrr." The bard sighed, rubbing her arms. "At this rate, I’m going to need thicker tunics before we get home." She sighed, giving her partner an amused look. "What’s up with this weather? I don’t’ remember it ever being like this." She studied the kneeling form, noting the faint hesitation in her movements that were practically, along with the more than normal casualness of her speech, the only indications of the amount she’d drunk that night.

Xena stood up from her petting session with Ares, and walked over, enveloping Gabrielle in a hug. After a minute, she felt the bard’s body stop shivering, and slump against her own without resistance. "Better?" She whispered, gently rubbing the bard’s chilled arms.

Gabrielle just stood there, letting her senses absorb the warmth, and the nutty smell of woodsmoke the clung to Xena’s tunic, and the sweetness of their connection. "Perfect." She mumbled, feeling the smile shape her lips. Then she tilted her head back, regarding her partner with quiet affection. "But you can’t do this the entire way home."

"Oh yeah?" Xena laughed softly. "Watch me." She drawled, then chuckled as she felt the giggles go through her partner. "But you do have a point." She admitted, as she reluctantly released Gabrielle. "And I think… hang on a minute." She crossed to their packs, and sat down cross-legged in front of them, digging through one. "I think.. did I keep.. yeah."

Pulled out a neatly folded bundle of thick cloth, and stared at it for a minute. "Yeah." She repeated softly, running fingertips over the colorful surface. Turning around, she held it out to Gabrielle. "Here. Think that’ll fit you. Bout the right size."

The bard walked over and crouched down, putting a hand on Xena’s shoulder to steady herself. "Oh… Xena, this is really nice… I can’t.."

A hand raised, fingertips stilled her lips. "Shh.. it’s way too small for me. Always was. " A pause, and their eyes met. "Please?" About time someone wore that thing…and those colors… might have been made for her.

It had been a brutal winter, and she’d had to have her army raid more and more frequently to support the increased need for food, and firewood, and clothing. And had found less and less there to confiscate, as the villagers ran low on even the most basic necessities.

She’d tried to tell herself that it was for the greater good. That the security provided by her army would eventually allow these same villagers a more peaceful future. But she was lying to herself, and knew it. She did a lot of that in those days.

The hard weather had led to a rash of stragglers trying to attach themselves to her band, some good, some useless, some just pitiful. She’d tossed out most, kept a few – one of them a young kid from the last village she’d raided, who had a good hand with horses, and a shy, if pleasant personality. He kept his mouth shut, and kept out of the way, mostly, and she’d found herself getting used to his bright-eyed presence. It was a diversion, of sorts, in a season with very few of them. Davi, his name was, and he had pale hair, and eyes almost as blue as her own. He sat silent, in the evenings around the fire, skinny arms wrapped around his knees, listening to the rough tales and jokes, his gaze never far from her face.

He’d eaten their basest scraps… and it wasn’t long before she’d realized she was deliberately leaving part of her own meals uneaten, and making sure he was the one who cleared away her plate.

And then, another warlord’s band, desperate from starvation themselves, came howling down out of the cold night towards their camp in the forest, and they’d found themselves, half wakened, fighting for their lives in the pre dawn chill.

A wad of freezing mud thrown in her eyes had almost ended her career right then – a tall, rawboned raider, sensing her weakness, had jumped over the fire and taken her down, missing a killing blow in his haste, but opening a gash in her side the sent a shock wave of pain all down through her. She’d stopped in dazed confusion, sensing rather than seeing his next blow, and unable to move out of the way in time.

A ragged, high voice screamed something unknown, and then she heard the blow but didn’t feel it. And looked up at a shower of blood to see Davi’s body cut almost in half by the raider’s blade.

She’d never remembered what happened next, though her men had told stories about it quietly around the fire for a long time after. She had no recollection of getting up, or lifting her sword, or what she did to that raider, she only remembered waking up days later, in a foggy haze of pain from her injury, and being told they were safe.

Because of her, they said. Because she’d taken down the rest of the attacking warband, and then passed out from the pain, and the lack of blood. And as she lay there, staring up through the rough interlace of branches over her head that made up their makeshift shelter, she remembered the boy. That had hurt more than the sword cut, and she’d decided, right then, that she’d not get caught in that trap ever again. No one would get inside her emotional defenses. Ever. It wasn’t worth the pain.

She’d healed fast, as always, and they’d moved on, aiming for richer villages, and greener pastures in the south. Before she went, though, she shed her armor and weapons, and donned peasants clothes and a shawl, and wandered through the boy’s muddy collection of cots. Had found a few merchants listlessly trying to put out meager wares, and stopped in front of the weaver’s cot, where a young woman was seated, idly turning a spool of deep blue lambs wool in her hands.

She’d looked up at Xena’s approach, and apparently found nothing threatening there, because she merely nodded, and went back to studying her tools.

Xena nodded back, and let her eyes travel over the few pieces of finished clothing the weaver had displayed. Her gaze stopped on a thick, beautifully embroidered woolen tunic, of a deep forest green, with interwoven yellow and red trim, and an intricate design sewn painstakingly across both shoulders. "This is really nice." She commented, running sensitive fingertips over the garment, feeling the heaviness of the fabric, and noting the well made seams. It was small though, for a girl. And her mind roiled queasily. Or for a young boy.

"Aye." The woman nodded briefly. "I thank you for the compliment. It was made for my son."

Xena had tilted her head in question. "He didn’t like it?"

The woman had shrugged, uncaring. "Ran off, he did. To join one of those cursed lawless bands of vagrants. " She looked up, an expression of weary anger on her face. "Damn them." She’d sighed. "They take everything including hope, don’t’ they."

"Yeah." Had come the answer, in a hoarse tone. Then Xena had closed her eyes, and let herself feel the shame of what she’d become. After a minute, she looked up. "How much?" She’d quietly asked, folding her arms across her suddenly aching chest.

"Won’t fit you." The woman said, running her eyes over the tall form in a professional manner.

"I know." Xena replied. "But I have a friend it will."

Coins had changed hands, and the woman had handed the garment over, letting her fingers linger lovingly on it. "Hope your friend has better luck in life than my son did."

"I hope so too." The warrior had answered, tucking the fabric under one arm. That coin had come dearly, and couldn’t really be spared, but she’d had a debt here, and whatever else she’d done, and whoever else she’d become, she paid what she owed.

"All right.’ Gabrielle quietly agreed, seeing the look in those eyes, and took the garment, running her hands appreciatively over it. "It’s gorgeous."

Xena leaned back against the hearth, and put her hands into her lap. "Try it on." She requested.

Gabrielle smiled shyly. "OK." She stepped closer to the fire, and removed the clothing she was wearing, folding her shirt up and looking down in startlement as Xena took it from her. "Oh.. thanks." She acknowledged. "This is so soft.. " She grinned, as she pulled the garment over her head, and smoothed it over her body. "Oh, wow. "

Xena leaned her head back against the rough stone, and regarded her thoughtfully. "Looks good on you." She finally said, with a smile. Looks like I told the truth.. just took me a long time to find that friend.

"Thanks." A soft blush. "You spoil me." She sat down next to Xena on the hearthrug and leaned against her, then looked up with an impish grin. "Not that I’m complaining, mind you."

That got her a full smile in return. Then Xena’s expression went serious and quiet. "You going to ask me about the ceremony?" Her voice was low and a touch hoarse.

Stay casual, Gabrielle. Just relax. She shrugged. "Well, I was tomorrow morning… it’s not something that I was really thinking about. Why?" She paused. "I guess you heard.."

"I heard." Came the soft response. Xena looked down at the rug, and idly riffled her fingers through it. Thought about going into that small, rocky place she’d heard Lestan describing, and felt her heart start to pound. Damn. I am not going to let this beat me. Again.

Fingertips brushing her jaw made her eyes lift, and find Gabrielle’s starkly concerned gaze meeting hers. "Xena, it’s not important."

"It is to me." Xena replied quietly. "That’s… too big a weak spot." She took a breath, then a second, before she went on. "I need to fix that." Then something occurred to her. "Unless.. I mean, you don’t have to.. " she hesitated. "If you don’t want.. to go through with something like that.. it’s all right." She returned her gaze to the fur, but shrugged. "Whatever." Now.. Gabrielle.. you tell me if this means something to you or not. Because if it does, I’ll do whatever it takes. If not..

Gabrielle sighed inwardly. Busted. She laid her head against Xena’s arm, and slid her hand down one tanned forearm until their hands were joined. "You know me better than that." She accused gently. She felt the fingers twined with hers tighten in response. "Don’t want to go through with it? Give me a break, Xena… but not if it’s going to make you crazy. Or me, for that matter." She rubbed her cheek along her silent partner’s upper arm. "How could you think… " Her brows creased and she lifted her head. "Do you still think I’m just this dumb kid who has no clue?"

That got a response. "No." Xena used her free hand to rub her eyes. "Sorry. Now you know why I don’t let myself drink this much, all right? I get…" Depressed.. insecure.. "Stupid." She let out a -short, mirthless laugh. "Just dump a bucket of water on my head. I’ll be fine."

Gods. I should have realized. Gabrielle mentally hit herself. "No way, that would be too messy." She joked, reaching up and gently rubbing the back of Xena’s neck. The warrior let her head drop forward against the forearm she had propped on one raised knee. "C’mon. We’ll talk about it in the morning, OK?"

"Sure." Xena muttered, closing her eyes. "Tired." She admitted. "Long day."

"I know, love." Gabrielle sighed, glad it was over. "Me too." Yeah, and what did I do, other than watch and worry? She stood, tugging on their still joined hands, and was pleasantly surprised when Xena rose with no further prompting, and shook herself a little. "You know, " She let her eyes run lazily over her partner’s form. "You’re really cute."

This cut through the fog surrounding Xena, and her blue eyes sharpened and bored into the bard’s. "What?" One eyebrow curled upward.

"Cute." The bard enunciated carefully. " You know, good looking, gorgeous, easy on the eyes… get the idea?"

The warrior cocked her head, smiling a little. "What brought that on?" Then the eyebrow quirked again. "Trying to cheer me up?" And, against the odds, it did, not because of what she said, but the fact that she said it. The depression lifted as if by magic, blown to tatters by the brisk wind that was the bard’s irrepressible good nature.

She realized that the problem would still be there tomorrow, but tonight she needed to stop thinking, and sleep off this fuzziness with the warmth and security of her soulmate’s presence wrapped around her.

"Busted, huh?" The bard confirmed, cheerfully. "But I meant it."

Xena reached up and straightened the collar on the heavy tunic and gave the shoulders a tug. Then she caught the bard’s face in both hands and spent a long moment just looking at her, memorizing the way the gentle firelight darkened her green eyes to a deep hazel, and tinted her clear skin to a ruddy tan. "In your eyes, Gabrielle." She acknowledged, smiling gently.

The bard took several breaths before answering. "Then maybe you should look through them and see what I see." She whispered, aware of the warm, powerful hands that still clasped her.

A silence fell between them.

"On one condition." Xena finally answered, stepping closer, and feeling the welcome touch of the bard’s hands against her ribcage.

"What?" Gabrielle’s lips parted on that ghost of a sound, her eyes drinking in the shadowed, angular face above hers, her body suddenly aware of the slightest touch of the soft heavy fabric that draped it, and of the warmth of her partner’s skin under her fingertips.

"You look through mine." The warrior responded, her voice a low rumble that tingled in Gabrielle’s ears. "And see.. what I see.. when I look at you."

The bard studied those clear eyes, dimmed to almost purple in the firelight, and noticed with loving detail how her long lashes neatly framed them, and how her expressive eyebrows arched with just so perfection, the same deep shade as her sometimes unruly hair. "All right." She answered dreamily. "It’s a deal." And just which one of us will benefit more from that bargain… I think it’s a toss up. We both need it. We both need each other.

She didn’t remember getting undressed, after that – she only remembered those endless blue depths, and a warm tickly feeling, exchanging the heavy softness of wool for the lighter comfort of her sleeping shirt, and the next thing she knew she was cuddled in the middle of that large, round bed, letting a blanket of well being surround her.

Xena slid into bed next to her, pulling the covers up over both of them, and settling her arms around Gabrielle, pulling her closer. The bard rolled over, winding her arms around Xena’s body, and burrowing her head into the warrior’s shoulder. "Ummmm." She mumbled happily, taking a deep breath, and letting it out slowly. "Mine."

"Uh huh." Xena grinned, feeling the warm tickle of air through the fabric of her shirt, and snuggled closer, abandoning all restraint, and just allowing herself to wallow in the sensation of being surrounded by the love Gabrielle was giving off. I shouldn’t like this so much She mused sleepily. I’m letting myself become dependent on it… that’s stupid. But after a few minutes of half hearted resistence, she gave up, and let the warm, golden light take her over, and wash her gently into sleep.

Ugh. Xena forced one eye opened reluctantly, and was relieved that it was the pale gray light of dawn that greeted her and not the bright sunlight of late morning. In a reflex motion, she grabbed the waterskin she’d remembered to sling over the edge of the bed frame, and pulled the stopper with her teeth, drinking until most of the contents were inside her.

The dull ache in her head started fading immediately, and she allowed the other eye to blink open as she cautiously rotated her neck to ease its stiffness. Not… too bad. She decided, glancing down with a gentle smile at her partner’s possessive embrace. Gods, she looks so… like a kid when she’s sleeping. She let her eyes trace the faint smile crossing the bard’s lips, and the relaxed openness of her face. One ear was pressed firmly against Xena’s chest right above her heart, an arm was wrapped firmly around her middle; and the other was curled up under the warrior’s shoulder, with the hand resting over the top of it.

From the corner of her eye, Xena could see the glint as the light caught the ring she wore always, waking and sleeping, and sighed as her thoughts returned to the problem of the ceremony.

Because, try as she would to hide it, Xena knew full well how much Gabrielle wanted to experience that. Knew it when she’d seen her face at Lila’s marriage ceremony, and had it reinforced when she would catch the bard, unknowing, tracing the intricate lines of the ring with a look of wonder on her face.

Would a ceremony change the way either of them felt? No. Xena moved her hand, resting o Gabrielle’s back, a little, and felt the soft hair slide over her skin. A thousand ceremonies couldn’t make me love her more. The ring, had been her expression of that. A promise, from someone who didn’t take them lightly, of protection, and support, and love for as long as the bard chose to wear it.

And Gabrielle chose to wear it constantly, though occasionally, Xena would catch her looking at it, and running a fingertip over it as though.. she couldn’t believe it was there. Or was afraid it might vanish someday. Not as long as I live, my bard. She thought in silence. But maybe what Gabrielle needed was to hear that.. in the kind of formal setting Lestan had been describing. Because the forest dwellers had no written form of ceremony – the participants gave their vows to each other from their own hearts, and minds. And souls.

I want to give that to her. Xena decided. To Hades with what it takes out of me. Her eyes focused on the sturdy timbers of the ceiling. Guess I need to find out what that’s going to be first, but I don’t want… Her gaze flicked down to Gabrielle, who stirred a little, tightening her grip with a tiny furrow in her brow. She rubbed the bard’s back gently, and slowed her breathing, shaking her head a little as her partner’s grip relaxed, and her face cleared of worry. Gods… she’s so sensitive to me. I wonder if she was always like that.. just never.. I was never that aware of her.. Or was I, and just never let on? She was always surprised when I paid attention to her. How lonely that must have been for her, at the beginning.. I’m surprised she stayed.. I was really surprised when she came back, that first time.

"I’m going home." Gabrielle had said, quietly, seriously, packing her things with steady deliberation. "I need to figure out who I am, and..get some questions answered."

Xena hadn’t expected the painful jolt that had sent through her. After all, the girl babbled, and got into unbelievable amounts of trouble, and had a knack for being in the wrong place just at the wrong time. But that night around the campfire, alone for the first time in months, the once friendly silence had settled around her like a damp cloak.

And without anything to distract her, dark memories oozed in, reminding her again of who she was. What she was. Reminding her again that the frivolous intent she had of somehow making up for all that darkness, and all that destruction was really kind of… naïve.

She spent a few hours tossing pebbles into the inoffensive fire, trying to convince herself she was better off. That Gabrielle was much better off, which was easier to imagine. The girl would go back to her home, having seen a bit of the world, and settle down contentedly, with a bunch of great stories to tell her kids.

She knew Gabrielle would have kids.. she was just that kind of person. And she comforted herself with a fanciful vision of her young friend, surrounded by tiny faces as she told some outlandish tale of some giant. Xena’s lips compressed into a tight smile. If she concentrated hard, she could almost hear the girl’s voice.

And realized, with a sense of shock, that she wanted to be able to hear it. That she’d gotten gradually used to having that piping sound raised in question, in argument, in laughter.. and had found herself lately just lifting her eyes from what she was doing for no reason, other than to find Gabrielle’s face, usually smiling, sometimes scowling, almost always in motion as she reacted to this very strange world she’d found herself in.

Damn it. Xena stabbed viciously at the ground with the point of her dagger. I swore I wasn’t going to do that any more. No more friends, no more getting inside her defenses. That only lead to trouble, because people like her couldn’t have friends, they became a horrible weakness, one she couldn’t afford. And yet… the young girl so badly wanted to be a friend. Her insistent attempts battered away at the warrior’s emotional shields day after day, almost instinctively finding the cracks there. The flaws, where the dark cruel memories had gaps, and let through the scared, insecure village girl who was still hiding away down there.

Gabrielle touched that side of her, and that sunny good nature pulled so hard at those fragments it was sometimes all she could do not to unlock that deeply sealed away section of her heart, and play with the girl like a colt in a field. She had a funny feeling that if Gabrielle stuck around long enough…

But that was a moot point now. Which was probably a really good thing, she’d mused, as she quietly put those little mental toys back into their sad box, and closed the lid. I lost the ability to have that when I decided to become what I am. So it’s better she left, because otherwise she’d just have kept trying to break through.

She’d drawn little circles in the hard packed dirt, and finally admitted the truth to herself. And she would have broken through. She’d looked up, suddenly seeing the fire through a fuzzy halo. She would have been my first real friend since Lyceus. Lucky for her she left. She certainly doesn't need the kind of friend I would be.

Lucky thing. She leaned back against the rock she was seated next to, and let her head rest against the warm stone, gazing up at the dark sky, and the thousands of tiny lights overhead. Goodbye, my young friend. Unlikely as it seems, I’ll miss you. Be safe. Be well. Maybe someday I’ll happen past, and take a peek in your window. Wonder if you’ll remember me.

So lost in thought was she that it took an endlessly long time before the sounds of carnage penetrated her consciousness. She’d raised her head, and cocked her hearing, identifying the thunder of running horses, the yells of fighters. The screams of victims. She thoughtfully regarded the dagger still locked in the fingers of one hand. Why should I get involved? What’s the point? Is there any reason for me to stop them… or maybe.. join them?

A clear voice echoed in her ears, and closing her eyes didn’t stop a vivid mental image of laughing green eyes to form in her mind. Aren’t you going to help them? She could imagine the girl’s indignant voice.

Ah Gabrielle. She sighed, and pushed herself up to her feet. Just this one last time.. for you. "Come on, Argo." She growled, reaching for weapons, and slipping the mare’s saddle cinch with expert skill. A moment to mount, and they were headed northeast, towards the sounds, and the dawn.

But they had been too far, and she’d arrived as the raiders were torching the village. And seeing those defenseless huddled bodies had let loose the wolf in her to a degree she hadn’t expected. The raiders had fallen under her sword, and she’d spent a short, sickening time searching the ruins for survivors.

Had found one, a tiny girl, who had stared at her with huge, frightened eyes, and had lurched away from her blood covered, outstretched hand for an achingly long time, until she finally tottered forward in exhausted grief and collapsed against Xena’s battered armor, sobbing uncontrollably.

Xena had carried the tot aboard Argo until she’d reached a village in the next valley, and found the reeve, standing warily in front of his homestead. "I need a favor." She’d said.

He’d just jerked his head in acknowledgement. She dismounted, and walked over to him, carrying the child, who had fallen asleep with her arms clutched tight around the warrior’s gore encrusted neck. "Village in the next valley’s been torched. She’s the only one left."

The man had stared at her. "Why not just finish the job? " He’d asked, with a glint in his eyes.

"She needs a home." Xena had ignored the question. "Yes, or no – because if not, I gotta long ride to the next village."

A long silence, then he’d held out his hands, and she surrendered the sleepy tyke, who protested leaving her warm, if bloody, sanctuary, clutching Xena’s armor in desperation, her dark eyes searching the warrior’s with almost heartbreaking pleading. "It’s OK, little one." Xena had said softly. "This is a better place for you to be, all right?"

The tiny shoulders had slumped in disappointment, and she turned her dark gaze to the reeve, blinking tears down her face. "Wants you." The man had said, eyeing the tall warrior.

"I’m not the mothering kind." Xena had answered, spreading her arms out and indicating her battlestained form. "Take care of her." She turned and walked back to the patiently waiting Argo, and gathered her reins up, preparing to mount.

"Wait." The reeve said, holding a hand up. "Please.. just a minute."

Xena had hauled herself up into the saddle, but sat quietly, until the reeve went into the cot, and returned a few minutes later, holding a bag, which he held up to her once he came to the mare’s high shoulder. "Here." He said quietly. "It’s just a little something my wife had extra for dinner. You look like you could use it." And he’d put the bag in her hand, and let his own hand drop to her leg armor, giving it a pat. "Fair winds to you, warrior. I’ll care for the girl."

"Thanks." Xena had answered. "Wish I could have gotten there sooner."

A moments silence. Then ."You’re Xena, aren’t you."

She nodded.

"Someday, that girl will find you. And thank you." The reeve said. "And my name’s Eldren." He glanced behind him to where his wife was holding the child, rocking her gently. "She have a name?"

Xena had glanced down and played with Argo’s mane for a minute, before looking back up at Eldren. "Call her Gabrielle." She’d answered quietly.

He’d nodded. "Pretty name."

"Yeah." Had come the answer, before Xena had turned Argo, and ridden off, to find a small pool high in the mountains, where she’d spent the morning cleaning herself, and her armor. And thinking. Finally she’d dressed in her now dry leathers, and settled her armor on, and finished the pie the reeve had given her. "Roads are dangerous round here, Argo."

Argo had lifted her head, and whuffled.

"We’d better make sure Gabrielle made it home safely, huh?" She’d added, stroking the mare’s bright neck. "Maybe we can just say hello, and move on after that." Not fooling herself or the mare for a second, but not caring, either. "Come on."

So they’d come to the rock trap, and seen the enhancements, and the excited gathering that meant they had a new victim approaching. So she’d perched above their heads, just waiting..

Until their victim rounded the bend, and as her eyes registered the identity, and the direction of travel, she’d felt a flood of emotion that froze her in place just long enough for Gabrielle to get herself in trouble. As usual. But as the warrior watched, she got herself out of it, with a move that earned her an unseen raised eyebrow. And then of course, got herself in even more trouble.

But the chakram took care of that, and Xena found herself almost overwhelmed with a feeling of what she told herself was relief at seeing the girl again, that had to be expressed some how – so she channeled the emotion into an exuberant flip, which let her greet Gabrielle with something like her usual gruff manner.

But only something like, and the girl knew the difference, and their eyes had met in a warm give and take that said more than the words ever could.

Guess I should probably tell her she has a namesake out there somewhere. Xena mused idly, Huh.. two of them now, I guess. She shifted her body slightly, and felt Gabrielle stir again, this time shifting her head to gaze up at Xena with sleepy eyes.

"Where d’you think you’re going?" The bard muttered, still half asleep. "S’not even dawn yet, and you were up real late last night." Then she blinked a few times, and a grin tugged at her mouth. "And how’s your head?" With a wicked twinkle in her eyes.

Got a raised eyebrow back. "Fine." Xena responded coolly. "In fact, I feel great – so I’m going for a little run. Interested?" That’ll get her.

Gabrielle scowled. "Not on your life." She mumbled, rolling over and stretching. "Though I would appreciate a little sparring later. I haven’t done any in a while, and I think I’m starting to feel it."

Xena chuckled. "Getting lazy, my bard?"

Green eyes glanced at her in rueful agreement. "Yeah." She stretched again. "And it’s hard enough keeping up with you as it is."

"Sure." The warrior replied amiably. "Anytime, you know that. How about after lunch?"

The bard rolled back over, and settled an arm on Xena’s stomach. "So.. we’re sticking around?" She asked curiously.

Xena studied her face intently, noting the glimmer of hope lurking in the back of those mist green eyes which hardened the determination in her heart to burnished steel. "Yes."

Gabrielle drew a breath, then put a hand on her partner’s arm. "Xena.. " A warning tone in her voice.

The warrior shook her dark head. "Don’t start." I’ve got something I want to say to you, and I’ll go through with it if they have to knock me out cold and carry me in there unconscious to do it."

She watched storm clouds gather at her partner’s brow, and watched the bard take breath to argue. "Gabrielle." A quiet word. "I mean it." Letting the reins loose for a moment on her personality, which she seldom ever did with the bard.

A moment’s fencing of sharp gazes, then Gabrielle let her eyes drop, and gave a slight nod. "All right." She said reluctantly, then her glance darted again to Xena’s. "But you promise me.. promise me.. Xena, if it gets too bad, you’ll stop. I care a lot more about what’s going on with you than any dumb ceremony."

"I promise." Came the soft reassurance, as Xena hooked an arm under the bard’s body, and pulled her into a hug.

They stayed like that for a while. "Thought you were going for a run." Gabrielle finally mumbled, as the first rays of the sun crept through the window, and painted faint golden dapples across her partner’s shoulders.

"Yeah." Xena replied, her fingertips moving in slow circles on the bard’s back. "In a minute." Not wanting to face the ordeal she knew was waiting out there. Finally, she sighed, and dropped her arms to her sides, waiting for Gabrielle to roll off her, which the bard very reluctantly did. She pulled the covers off, and slid out of bed, turning and tucking the edges of the blanket carefully around her partner’s shoulders, then smoothed the hair out of her eyes. "It’s chilly out, love. Stay here.. no need for you to get up yet."

"I should." Gabrielle protested. "Sides, it’s not the same without you here." She gave Xena an impish look.

Xena grinned back. "I’ll be quick. And I’ll bring breakfast back, how’s that? Saw a big bramble of blackberries when I was out there the other day."

That got an enthusiastic grin back from the bard. "Deal." She said, snuggling into her blankets. "But they’d better be good.. to make up for giving you up."

The warrior laughed. "I’ll taste test them." She stood, and padded over to their gear, slipping into her boots and leathers, and slipping out the door.

It was more than chilly, Xena realized, the minute she dropped down off the porch and headed towards the path. It was downright cold, and she unconsciously picked up her pace to get her blood moving. Damn. Frost formed on her breath, as she adjusted to the exertion, then her muscles warmed up and she stopped shivering.

Across the grass, which crunched with frosty clarity under her boots, and onto the hard beaten path to the river as the sharp scent of burning wood cut the air and the sun vainly tried to dispel the foggy mist. What is up with this weather? She mused as she ran with loose, bouncing strides over the ground. I am glad we’re headed home – I don’t want Gabrielle out in this. Not with her tending to that coughing sickness. She glanced around, and saw the path branch, the lower heading down towards the river, the upper.. towards the cliffs. With quiet determination, she took the upper.

And after a while, she was glad she did – the steeply inclined path was giving her a good workout, and she could feel the steady pounding of her heart clearing out the last of her body’s reaction to the ale, as she drew the cold air deep into her lungs. By the time the path crested out to a small rocky plateau, she’d managed to break a sweat, and was starting to feel a little strain in her breathing.

She slowed to a gentle lope, and studied the rocks quietly, spotting what she was looking for and dropping her pace to a walk, then halting, as she stood easily, hands on hips, regarding a crack in the rock face a little wider that she was.

Even at this distance, thinking about going closer.. she felt her heart rate pick up, and a queasy feeling start in her stomach. Bad sign. I hate this. Gods.. how I hate this.

Resolutely, she took a step closer, then another, eyes glued on that dark slit as her breathing came harder, and a tightening band grabbed her chest.

A sudden flash, and a vivid memory of the rockslide oozed into her mind, bringing her to a halt. NO. The panic started, as she felt the rock walls around her closing in again and she started to shiver. "NO." This time audibly, but it didn’t’ help. She felt her heartbeat speed up, and that, along with her breathing, was starting to get her dizzy. "Calm down." She whispered, putting out a hand and touching the rockface. Damn.. damn… I can’t do this. Slowly, she backed away, until her boots hit a rock outcropping, and she sank down onto it, bracing her elbows on her knees, and clasping her hands together.

Waiting for the shaking to stop, and her breathing to return to normal. And her heart to stop hammering rapidly under her breastbone.

She stared at her clenched hands for a long time, before glancing back up at the opening in the rock. Damn. She sighed inwardly. Even the sight bothered her. She glanced away, then took a deep breath, and stood up, moving towards the cliff face again.

This time, she made it all the way to the opening, and put her hands on either side, before her knees gave out, and she found herself sliding down the rough rock surface, and rolled away from the dark hole, ending up short of breath and seeing flashes of light in her peripheral vision that timed with her wildly beating heart.

She let her cheek rest against the cool stone, feeling the rough chips of rock bite her skin as she just lay quietly for a bit, raising one hand to wipe the cold sweat off her brow, then letting that hand fall listlessly to the dusty ground, idly watching the small cloud of granite dust kick up under the impact. I’d forgotten just how much I hated this feeling.

Slowly, she pushed herself back up to a sitting position, and swiveled around so that her back was against the granite wall, and her legs were stretched out in front of her. She rested her hands on her thighs and studied them reflectively. This, was bad. Worse than she’d been expecting. She raked her fingers through her dark hair, and let her head fall back against the rock, thinking hard.

I could just say forget it. I know.. that Gabrielle would understand but… and I could make it up to her. That thought turned over in her mind a few times. But this really isn’t about the ceremony, and I know it. A sigh. This is about me being ornery and stubborn, and refusing to admit when something gets the better of me.

For a long time, she let her eyes roam the cliff side, considering. I’m gonna have to learn to back down, one of these days. Her gaze slid sideways, to the crack in the wall, and stayed there for a bit. She reached out, hesitantly, and curled the fingers of one hand around the edge of the opening, feeling the sharp granite press against her skin.

And with a long, powerful lunge, pulled herself inside the opening. Not today, I guess. Was her last thought, before the darkness closed over her and she lost the ability to think for a very long, and very frightening moment.

The dark, and the closeness pressed down on her with an intolerable weight, bringing a roaring to her ears, and a sharp flashes to her vision as her body panicked and she gasped for air that seemed suddenly faint, and lacking in substance. Stop it. She commanded herself, but for once it didn’t work, as her body remembered what it felt like to be trapped in the close darkness of cold stone, and struggled wildly to escape. She was able to stand it for another few seconds, before she let herself bow to her panicked reflexes, and rolled back outside the entrance, into the hazy light and misty rain.

She rolled over onto her back, and just lay there, until the pounding in her head slowed, and her breathing returned to something approaching normal. The light, cold rain dampened the rock around her, and she closed her eyes against the moisture, trying to ignore the chills, and the sharp scent of wet stone that rose to her senses.

The rattling sound of tiny rocks falling brought her back to herself, and she struggled up, getting to a seated posture in time to see a small, dark, determined head crest the path’s top.

"Roo!" Ares spotted her, and galloped over, tail high. He stumbled into her arms, and she scooped him up and hugged him in pure reflex, burying her face in his mist damp coat as he squirmed around and started licking her shoulder. "Arrrr.." He warbled softly.

"Hey there boy." Xena whispered, shifting to lean back against the rock wall again, and rubbing his ears. "Did you follow me? You’re a bad boy." The ears drooped, and he cocked his head at her, batting his eyelashes over his pale yellow eyes. Her lips quirked a little. "Hey.. you taking lessons or something?"

"Grrrr.. " The wolf answered, batting at her hand with a big paw.

She petted him a moment more, then shook the damp hair out of her eyes, and hauled herself to her feet, giving the crack in the rock one last glance.

Found she could actually look at it now without a reaction. "Hey.. that’s progress. " She whispered to the wolf, but sighed. Not enough… not with only another day till the ceremony. She put Ares down, and gave his ears a tug. "C’mon, I promised someone blackberries for breakfast. You gotta keep up."

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Bound – Part 9

By Melissa Good

For DISCLAIMERS see Part 1.

Gabrielle jerked out of sleep for the second time that morning, her head pounding from the dark nightmare that had invaded her peace. Disoriented, she glanced around for a minute before she realized where she was.

Gods in Olympus, I’d forgotten how much I hate waking up like that. She yawned, and rubbed her eyes, noting the still gray skies outside, and the damply cold wind creeping in the window. Brrr. She drew the covers tightly around her, and wistfully wished Xena were back already. Then she rolled her eyes at herself. Cut that out, Gabrielle. Give the woman a break- you know she needs time alone.

It didn’t work. She still wished Xena were there, mostly because the warrior had an uncanny knack of being able to chase away the dark cobwebs her dreams caused, especially the kind she’d just had, which was mostly bleakness and horror, but not much detail. A touch of her hand, the warmth of her glance, a hug… Gabrielle snuggled back down with a sigh, noting that Ares was also missing. Following in his mama’s footsteps, I guess. She mused. Guess I’d better get up… it’ll be warmer by the fire anyway. She rolled over, and slid out from under the covers, noting with a fond smile that the fire had been built up, and was crackling cheerfully.

She wrapped her cloak around her, and padded over to the fire, pushing her hair out of her eyes, and moving the water pot over the heat. Might as well get washed up. She decided, and dug out a fresh set of clothes, washing quickly and changing, and resettling herself on the hearthrug in front of the fire.

A knock surprised her. "Come." She called, half turning to watch the doorway, her hand almost unconsciously sliding to touch her staff.

The door creaked open, and Tody poked a fiery head in. "Hullo?"

"Hey Tody!" The bard grinned. "Come on in…."

The boy edged in the door, and carefully closed it after him, moving cautiously across the room "Hold on.." He stopped a good distance from her, and shook himself vigorously, sending misty droplets across the floor. "Wow, it’s wet." He cocked his ears around the room, and then refocused on her, tilting his head in question

"Out running." Gabrielle correctly interpreted the posture, grinning at his facial response. "I know.. I know.. it’s a crazy compulsion of hers." I didn’t realize it was raining out, though… wish she’d get back here before she catches her… And the thought just stopped right there. "Come over here and sit down, Tody. Want some tea?"

"Sure." He smiled, and sat down cross-legged near her, fluffing his fur to help it dry. "Is that why she’s so strong?"

"Mmm…" Gabrielle chuckled a little, as she measured herbs in two cups, and poured the now hot water over them. "She works pretty hard at it, yeah." Too hard, sometimes.

"Wow." Tody responded, wriggling closer. "I knew she’d beat those guys yesterday. " He beamed, then scowled. "They wouldn’t let me go."

"Well.." Gabrielle reached out, and folded his small hands around one cup. "They probably wanted to make sure you didn’t get hurt."

His ears swiveled. "You went."

She took a sip of the sweet tea. "Yep. Where Xena goes, I go."

He sighed. "Wow." A pause. "But you could have gotten hurt."

Gabrielle thought about that for a minute. "That’s true. But I can fight, and we do this kind of thing all the time." She took another sip. "We know it’s a risk."

Tody stayed silent for a bit. "No one will tell me about the fight. Will you ?"

The bard regarded him cautiously. "Do they say why they wont’ tell you?"

The boy shifted, and took a sip of his tea. "Nice." He indicated the cup. "They say I’m too young."

Gabrielle pulled her cloak closer around her shoulders as a damp draft whistled through the window. "You don’t think so."

Tody sighed. "I think it’s because they think I don’t know who my father was."

Oh. Gabrielle’s eyebrows contracted. Was. I see. "Well… that’s probably true, too." She paused. "I guess they feel funny."

He nodded. "Uh huh. But I don’t.. cause I don’t remember him, or anything. I just… he was a very bad person." His hands tightened around the cup. "I hope I’m not like him."

Ah.. The bard took a breath, and remembered a scene not long ago in her own life. She scooted around next to him, and put an arm around his still damp shoulders. "Don’t worry about that."

"No?" He asked, cocking his head towards her. "How come?"

"Nope." She confirmed. "There’s two things you gotta remember, Tody. " She paused, and smiled to herself. "One, you’re just a kid. You didn’t do anything to make Secan hate you, OK?"

"But he did." The boy whispered. "Papas aren’t supposed to do that."

Gabrielle felt a wave of compassion rise and take her. "Tody, when someone does something like that.. to an innocent little child like you.. they don’t hate you."

"They don’t?" Came the soft answer.

"No. They hate something in themselves. And that something causes them to strike out at everyone, so that everyone feels just as bad as they do. It wasn’t you. It wasn’t ever anything you did, OK?"

"Really?" Tody breathed, laying his head against her arm, absorbing every word. "You believe that, Gabrielle?"

The bard was quiet for a second, and looked deep inside her heart. "Yeah. I do believe that, Tody." Now. "And the second thing, is that.. you are your own person. Just because your papa, or your mama was good, or bad – that doesn’t mean you get to be that automatically. You have to be who you are. That doesn’t come from them, it comes from you." Gods bless you, Xena.. for giving me that gift.

The boy sighed, and burrowed further into Gabrielle’s shoulder. "Maybe I got a chance then."

Gabrielle glanced down at him. "For what?"

Tody picked his head up, and focused his ears intently on her. "For what you have… of course."

Huh? The bard’s head swam. What was he.. "Tody.. I don’t understand. What does that have to do with what we were talking about? "

His blind eyes blinked in reflex astonishment. "Gosh.. didn’t they ever talk to you about this? " He took a sip of his tea. "Bad people don’t get the gift."

Good thing he couldn’t see her face. "They don’t?"

"No way." He shook his head vigorously. "You gotta be super good.. super nice.. or no chance." He tapped her knee. "Even Warrin.. he was good inside, I could See it. All nice, and warm, and gold.. like… like Wennid.. and you."

Could the forest people actually see good and bad? She wondered. "What about Secan, and his people.. how do you see them?"

Tody made a face. "Ugh. Don’t like looking. They’re all nasty and ugly." He edged closer. "Gabrielle.. will you tell me.. what does Xena look like? I was wondering?"

Gabrielle thought about that for a minute. "What does she look like to you? " And held her breath for the answer.

He beamed. "Oh.. well, she’s different. All kind of…solid.. and warm.." He paused thoughtfully. "Strong, mostly. Nice." He tapped her arm. .. "but what does she really look like?"

I knew that. I always have. A laugh bubbled up from Gabrielle’s chest. "What does she look like. Hmm. Ok.. well, she’s tall."

Tody snorted. "I knew that."

"Right. And she has really dark hair, with these mahogany highlights when the sun catches it just right." She thought about that for a minute, thought of how Xena had used sound, and smell to describe her. "Uhm… you know in the forest, in the dark parts, if you dig for roots, you get this rich, beautiful, dark kind of moist soil?’

Tody nodded. "Yeah – I know exactly what you mean. Wennid brings it back for her roses."

Gabrielle smiled. "That smell.. that reminds me of the color of her hair."

"Oh." The boy sighed.

The bard took a breath. "And she has the most beautiful eyes." She added softly. "They’re so blue… they’re like a what a stream sounds like on a sunny day. Little lights dance in the back of them."

Tody smiled gently., listening to the music in her voice as she described her partner. The words themselves were coated with a warm affection that charmed him. He could have laughed – he’d heard the fighters describe Xena – and their words were all of her strength, and power, and ferocity in battle. Somehow he knew, if he asked further, all of Gabrielle’s descriptions would be gentle, and loving. He didn’t lose sight of his original request, though. "Gabrielle…" He coaxed. "Please? Will you tell me about the battle?"

The bard tousled his hair. "Sure." She took a breath, and composed the events in her mind. "It’s a little rough, because I haven’t really got the story together yet, but…" And she told him, starting with the predawn march in the fog.

"Wow." He breathed, "She made Lestan yield?" He propped his chin in his hands.

"Mmm hmm." Gabrielle affirmed. "Because she knew that way, Secan would accept her challenge." She drained her cup, and glanced at it. "Mmm." I"d get teased about this if Xena was here, but she’s not, so.. "Hang on, I’m going to make another cup of tea." Efficiently, she fixed it, then returned to the tale.

Tody’s head cocked, as she described the fight, and Warrin’s heroic sacrifice." Oh…." The boy sighed. Then he regarded her thoughtfully. "Were you scared?"

"No." The bard replied. "Not… " She hesitated. "When she fights… it’s like…" A search for words. "watching something like a waterfall.. she just flows, and… that strength.. it’s like nothing can stop her." She laughed lightly. "I mean… I know she’s human.. and she does dumb things sometimes, you know?" She shook her head. "She trips, and gets hurt, and falls in mud puddles, and does really awful things trying to cook sometimes."

"No way." Tody snorted.

"Oh yeah. I’ve knocked her into a lake more than once." The bard chuckled, then sighed. "But.. the fighting.. that’s like an art… I love watching her. It’s… " Sexy. Admit it. It’s primal, Gabrielle." Um.. very… exciting." All that power.. Gabrielle admitted to herself. Yeah.. that touches a part of me that… gods… I"d never really thought about before. Primitive. She smiled quietly. In a good sort of way.

Tody was fascinated, and started to probe, but he had no further chance, because first Gabrielle’s voice stopped, then his ears picked up the sound of footsteps approaching. Bootsteps, actually, that mounted the stairs and rang across the sodden boards of the porch. He heard a slight chuckle from Gabrielle that confirmed his suspicions neatly. "Oh, cool." He warbled happily.

Gabrielle looked up as the door opened, then cursed and scrambled to her feet. "Xena!" Her voice rose, as she headed towards the tall warrior dripping beads of icy rain on the dusty wooden floor. grabbing the blanket off the bed as she passed. "What am I gong to do with you?" She muttered, as she reached her partner’s side, and threw the blanket over her drenched shoulders. "Gods..you’re like ice. Get over here by the fire." Xena’s dark hair was plastered to her head and shoulders, and her lips had more than a tinge of blue to them.

Xena smiled at her. "Yes mom." She teased, but Gabrielle noticed she also wrapped the blanket around herself, after roughly toweling Ares’ dry and setting him on the ground. "Got a little wet out there." The warrior mumbled, allowing herself to be led to the fire. "Hello, Tody."

"Sit." Gabrielle gave one shoulder a push down, gratified when Xena didn’t argue, but settled next to the hearth, leaning back against the wall and letting out a sigh of relief. She studied the warrior’s face, then reached up a hand and pushed her damp hair back off her forehead. "Damn.. you are like ice." She handed Xena her mug, and grabbed another off the hearth. "Here… drink that. I’ll make more."

No argument from her usually stubborn partner, who took a long swallow of the hot tea, then raised an eyebrow at it and then her. "And you say I have a sweet tooth?" She reached over and tickled Gabrielle’s ribs. "Why not have some tea with your honey, my bard?"

"Gahhh..stop that." The bard slapped at her hand. "You’re going to make me spill this." She shot Xena a look. "It’s not that sweet." She paused. "Is it?"

Got a very raised eyebrow in return.

"Oh. Well…’ Gabrielle shrugged, then gave her a sheepish grin. "Sorry about that." She ignored Tody’s giggle.

Xena chuckled. "It’s all right." She took another long swallow, and stretched her legs out, crossing them at the ankles. Then her eyes took on a mischievous glint. "Truth is.. I’d make it this way all the time too.. if I let myself."

Gabrielle stopped in the middle of her task, and shot her partner a look. "Really?" She bit her lip, and grinned. "I"ll have to remember that the next time I make yours."

Xena gave her a rueful shrug, then shifted her mug to her left hand, and extended her right arm out, motioning the bard closer with a jerk of her chin.

Gabrielle slid back, until she was leaning against Xena’s blanket swathed chest, and felt the warrior’s arm encircle her waist in a secure hold. "Mmm…" She sighed contentedly, and settled her head against her partner’s shoulder. "Tody here was just asking me what you look like." She commented.

"Pretty scary right now." Xena joked. "Right Ares?" The wolf had curled up on the hearthrug, and he raised his head and sneezed at her. "OH.. right.." Xena said, reaching under the blanket and pulling out a cloth bag, which she deposited in Gabrielle’s lap. "Your berries, as promised."

Gabrielle opened the sack, and selected a specimen, which was nearly as large as her thumb, and glistening with moisture. "You stayed out there in this nasty weather to get me berries?" She gave Xena an over the eyebrows glare. "Xena, what AM I going to do with you?"

"I keep my promises, Gabrielle." In a quiet, serious voice. "Besides, have you had breakfast?"

"I know you do" Equally quiet, equally serious. "And I could afford to skip breakfast." She growled. "Here." She offered the berry, which Xena took neatly in her teeth, and then chewed in evident enjoyment. "Oh.. wow." The bard mumbled around a second. "Tody, hold out your hands."

"Sure." The boy grinned. "I love berries." Then he glanced around. "But don’t’ tell no one, OK?" He pulled his hands back in with their burden, and ate one off the top of the pile Gabrielle had given him. "Oh.. boy. These are great."

Gabrielle popped another berry in her mouth, and savored it as she bit down, making the sweet juice explode. "Mmm." She offered Xena one, surprised when the warrior shook her head. "Hey…" A warning scowl. "Did YOU have breakfast??"

"Had some. " Xena waved her off. "Had lots, in fact." Her eyes twinkled, as she poked out the tip of a blue stained tongue. "See?"

A light knock at the door interrupted the banter. "Come." Xena called.

The door swung open, and Elaini popped her head in. "Morning!" She called, ducking inside and holding out a covered tray. "I was dispatched to make sure our hero had breakfast."

Xena’s eyes rolled. "Gods." She groaned. "Give me a break."

"You’re wet." Elaini sniffed, moving closer and setting the tray down. "Hey Tody." She greeted her brother. "Actually.." She turned to Gabrielle. "I’ve been looking for you."

Gabrielle held out her hand for the tray, which Elaini passed to her, and offered the healer some berries in return. She put the tray on her lap, and uncovered it, nodding in approval, and assembling some of the ingredients into a pocket sandwich, which she then half turned and handed to her partner.

Got a scowl in return. "Thanks, Gabrielle.. but.. "

She cocked her head slightly, and gave Xena her best pleading look. The one the warrior was usually unable to resist.

A sigh. "All right." Xena took the sandwich, and nibbled a corner, then met the bard’s steady stare, and quirked a grin at her. "Ok..Ok…" She relented, and took a healthy size bite, chewing steadily, and raising both eyebrows.

Gabrielle smiled at her, then turned back towards Elaini, and leaned back against Xena’s chest. "Thanks, Elaini… what’s up?"

The healer settled down, examining a berry with interest, then popping it in her mouth. "Well.." She stopped. "Wow.. these are great.. where did you get them?"

"Great Berry Hunter of Amphipolis, here." Gabrielle cocked her head in Xena’s direction, and got a tickle for her joke. "Augh. Stop it."

Elaini looked from one to the other, and just laughed. "Anyway.. here’s the thing. We’ve found out that there’s a fairly large cave just to the south of here, that they moved some granite blocks from for the new firepit. When they did… " She coughed gently. "They dislodged some remains.. and some pretty old artifacts."

Gabrielle’s brow creased. "Remains.. of your people?"

"Mmm.. we’re not sure." Elaini admitted. "But here’s the thing.. they’re ever so old. And there’s a tablet there with some inscriptions that indicate there’s a cache of scrolls somewhere in that cave.. and those scrolls are supposed to be ancient healing texts."

"O.. K…. " Gabrielle drew the word out. "So.. where do I come into this?"

"Ah.." Elaini grinned. "A little.. " She chuckled at Xena’s quirked eyebrow. "birdie told me that you’re pretty good at reading most ancient translations."

Gabrielle smiled quietly, feeling Xena’s arm tighten around her. "I can try." She acknowledged. "When are you going to look for them? "

"Tomorrow morning." Elaini smiled. "Interested?"

Caves. Hmm. Was that a good idea? Maybe a big cave wouldn’t be too bad.. Gabrielle mused, then felt the tension in Xena’s arm . A half turn, and she saw the look in those eyes. "I’ll be there." She said, glancing over at Elaini. "Because I know my partner here will be dragged out to that practice yard again." Caught the quirky grin as she looked back up, and got a healthy squeeze in acknowledgement. I know love… not yet. But you’ll get there. I know you will.

"Great." Elaini nodded. She stood, and wiped a grin off her face. "Hey Tody.. C’mon. I need some help over at the infirmary. "

The boy looked like he was going to protest for a minute, then cocked his head and grinned. "Ok." He got up and took her hand. "Bye guys…"

They walked out, closing the door behind them.

Xena and Gabrielle looked at each other.

"Subtle." They both said in unison. And burst out laughing.

"Gods." Gabrielle finally sighed, and plucked at the blanket wrapping her partner. "Need to get you into dry clothes, love." She gave Xena an exasperated look. "Was that really necessary?"

Got a shrug back. "No." Xena grinned reluctantly. "Didn’t realize it was that wet outside, but I was too stubborn to turn back." She glanced down. "You know me."

"Ahh.. the truth comes out." The bard smirked, then rubbed her neck. "Next time, drop the tough warrior princess routine, and stay tucked in your nice warm bed, ok? You could have saved me a rude awakening."

Xena lifted her free hand, and stroked the backs of her fingers against Gabrielle’s cheek. "Bad dream?" She asked sympathetically. Damn… I know she hates those.. I should have been here. .

"Yeah." The bard sighed, letting her head drop back against her partner’s shoulder. "Wasn’t even about anything. Just dark, and scary."

Xena could have smacked herself. Idiot. Like she doesn’t have enough nightmares without you adding to them? "Sorry." She sighed. Forgot about that. Again. Wake up, Xena.

The bard shrugged. "Not your fault." She idly let her fingers trace the pattern of hair on Xena’s arm, which still encircled her. "Did you have a nice run?"

The warrior remained silent for a moment. Truth, or evasions? Does she need to know what I was out there doing this morning? She’s not going to like it, and it doesn’t really…no. No more lies between us. "It was my fault, and no, not really." She answered quietly.

Gabrielle half turned, so that she could look up and search Xena’s face with confused eyes. She put one hand flat on the warrior’s chest. "What…are you talking ab…." Remembered the fragments of her dream and realized. "Oh.. Xena." She went and found some small place and tried to… oh Gods in Olympus. I should be furious. No, I am furious.

She let her hands clench in the fabric that covered Xena’s body, and shook her a little. "I thought I told you it didn’t matter. You promised, Xena..you PROMISED." This last at almost a yell, as she rolled away, and stood up, walking across to the small table, and leaning her arms against it

Turned around and spat the words. "What good is a promise if you just go out and do what you want anyway? "

"Gabrielle.." Xena started, then fell silent. She’s right. When am I gonna learn to think about something other than myself? I have no business being.. part.. of anyone.

"I trusted you." Gabrielle snapped, in a frustrated tone, "But I guess that doesn’t mean anything."

They’re just words. She doesn’t really mean that. Xena whispered to herself. Does she?’ Looked into the coldness of the green eyes facing her, and saw the shattered confidence. In her. She felt an icy finger steal through her soul.

The bard blew out a breath in disgust, and turned her back to the silent warrior. Then realized what she’d been saying. Oh ..Hades. I shouldn’t have said that. . A sound made her turn, and she looked back to see Xena standing up, quietly folding the blanket she’d been wrapped in, her face a still mask.

The warrior finished her folding, then laid the fabric over the back of the chair she was standing near, and glanced up. "You’re right." Came the quiet response. "Maybe you were crazy to ever trust me." Blue eyes met hers in gentle regret. Then her gaze dropped, and she gave the blanket a last pat, turning and walking toward the door to the cot.

"W.. where are you going?" Gabrielle stammered, brain working furiously to try and figure out how to fix what she’d just done.

Xena paused, with her hand on the doorlatch. "I don’t know." She finally answered, in a voice so quiet and so tired the bard had to strain to hear it. Then she took a breath, and started to open the door.Anywhere but here. I can’t face that look in her eyes.

If you let her go, there’s no coming back from this. The voice rolled coldly through Gabrielle’s mind like a bell tolling a warning. She panicked, and reacted in total blind instinct, throwing herself across the room and at Xena without regard for the safety of either of them.

Her hands hit cloth, and she just grabbed on, and held with everything she had in her. Knowing that Xena could break her grasp with little effort, and toss her across the room without any trouble. And half expecting just that. "No.. please… gods no. " She knew the whisper was hers.

Felt hands clamp her wrists, and her heart dropped into her stomach knowing she was about to be thrown back. "Stop.. no.. please…" And the pressure lessened. "Don’t go."

Xena was caught on a knife’s edge of decision. The half of her that wanted to just walk out, and keep on walking fought viciously with the part of her that wanted to stay, and try to heal the raw gashes the bard’s words had caused. Her defensive instincts were telling her to run. To get out, get away from this source of infinite pain that she had no shields against. That she was so open to mere words could bring her to her knees and were daggers that sliced her apart so easily it took her breath away.

But those fingers clenched in her tunic with such desperation reminded her starkly that the decision wasn’t wholly hers to make. Not anymore. So she let the door go, and pushed it gently closed, and felt the frantic grip relax a bit.

Gabrielle heard the door close, and slowly unclenched her fingers, staring at the wrinkled cloth they released as though she’d never seen anything like it before. Studying it as it relaxed, and resumed is damp draping over Xena’s very still, very quiet body. Giving herself a minute before she’d have to straighten up, and raise her eyes, and look the warrior in the face. "I’m sorry." She cleared her throat, still not looking up. "I didn’t mean what I said." Heard the intake of breath. "I know.. I … you’re going to .. I didn’t.. I was just…"

She has no reason to apologize. Xena thought in quiet anguish. But the words rolled down her heart, and put gentle patches on the raw spots. "It’s not your.."

"I shoudn’t have said that." Gabrielle sighed. A hand touched her cheek, and she closed her eyes and leaned into the pressure. "I asked you to promise me something I shouldn’t have." She whispered, and knew it for the truth.

"Doesn’t excuse me from doing it." Came the soft, regretful response.

And now, finally, she opened her eyes and looked up, seeing the quiet agony, and knowing she was the source of it. "I excuse you." Gabrielle replied. ‘If you forgive me for caring so much about you that I asked you not to do something.. that you had to do."

"You were right to ask that." Xena took a shaky breath. "Because I shouldn't have tried." She closed her eyes against the memories of the morning.

Gabrielle’s sudden, warm touch, felt through the cold dampness of her tunic was enough to make her eyes open again, and she gazed down at the bard sadly.

"Was it really bad?" Gabrielle asked quietly. "What you did?"

Xena took a long breath, and let it out. "Yeah." She admitted. "I couldn’t… do it." Her eyes closed again. "It’s going to.. take time."

Gabrielle nodded firmly. "OK.. we’ve got that. So.. we’re not going to go through this now." Her eyes fastened on Xena’s, and she put her fingers up to still the warrior’s protest. "No.. listen. I want to do this… you know I do.. but not at that price. This place isn’t going anywhere, Xena.. not now, thanks to you." A quirk of an eyebrow, and a tilt of her dark head conceded the point. "We’ll come back here when you’re ready."

A long silence. "What if I never am?" Xena finally asked.

Gabrielle laughed softly, and tapped her fingers on the damp fabric. "I know you better than that, my friend." Then her voice faltered, and she dropped her hands. "I.. what I said…" She swallowed. "That really hurt you. I didn’t…mean that.. mean to…"

"Shh. It’s all right." Xena responded, touching her fingertips to the bard’s mouth. "We’ve.. got a lot to learn about this.. whole thing. I forgot.. you’d feel what I did… that wasn’t fair."

Gabrielle thought about that for a minute. "You could have let me think it was a dream, Xena. You didn’t have to tell me."

"I know that." The warrior replied, with a rueful smile. "But I wanted to."

"Even though you knew I’d get mad?" Green eyes searched her face intently.

"Yeah. I thought the truth was more important.. I hoped.. what we have between us was strong enough to weather that." Came the startlingly honest answer. And what would I have done if it wasn’t? That close..and I’m shaking like a leaf here.

The bard smiled. "You were right." She replied, simply. "And you were right to tell me." Gabrielle looked up into those shadowed eyes and felt their anguished pull. "Thank you for that." Then she put a hand out and jerked in surprise. "You’re shivering." Now a scowl. "Would you please put on some dry clothes? Were you intending on marching back out there in this?"

Xena tapped her head with her knuckles. "Been hit in the head a lot, I guess." She tugged at the buckle fastening her belt. "I think this is frozen closed." She joked faintly, trying to will her hands to stop shaking long enough to get the damn thing unclasped.

The bard’s gently covered hers. "I’ve got this." Gabrielle got her fingers under the belt, and tugged until they were both back over by the fire. A small silence fell as she worked at the buckle, becoming slowly aware of the warming skin against her knuckles, and the steady movement of Xena’s breathing. "There." The fastening came free in her hands, and she let the ends fall, pulling the damp fabric away from her partner’s body, and putting her palm against Xena’s skin. "You’re really cold, love." Tasting the word in her mouth as though it was the first time.

"Yeah. I know." Xena sighed, stripping off the damp linen, and sliding into a warm dry shirt with a feeling of almost sensual relief. Gabrielle wrapped the fabric around her, and tied it shut, then looked up intently. Xena’s face was tense, and quiet, the eyes still shadowed.

"You look like you could use a hug." The bard offered, and saw her jaw clench, and the muscles of her throat work as she swallowed. Enough of an answer for me. She slid her arms around her partner and pulled her close, feeling Xena’s shaky intake of breath. Then her hug was being returned, and she let herself collapse into the warmth growing between them with a sense of utter relief. Which one of us needed a hug?

Disorientation for a minute, as Xena dropped back down on the hearthrug and took Gabrielle with her, and she found herself snuggled into a very comfortable spot she had no intentions of leaving.

Ever.

They sat quietly for a little while. Then Gabrielle idly picked up a remaining blackberry and examined it. "You know something?"

"Hmmm?" Xena responded, opening one eye and regarding her inquiringly.

"Fighting with each other hurts too much. Don’t wanna do that any more." The bard sighed.

"Mmm." Xena agreed, nodding her head. "Know what else?" The warrior murmured.

"What?" Gabrielle asked, placing the berry between her teeth and glancing up.

"You have a worse temper than I do." Xena observed, ducking her head around and biting the berry in half.

The bard snorted, and swallowed hastily. "NO I don’t!" She swiveled around and tugged on the front of her partner’s shirt. "You go around all day intimidating everything that walks, talks and quacks like a duck, and you have the gall to say I have a bad temper??" She threw her hands up and rolled her eyes. " I can’t believe I heard you say that. I can’t…."

Long pause. Gabrielle sat back, and crossed her arms, and looked inside herself hard. Then she let out a soft sigh. "I do, don’t I." I get madder, faster than she does. And I stay madder longer. Gods.. she’s right.

Xena angled her head so that her lips brushed the bard’s ear. "Quack." She uttered.

Gabrielle grinned, and let her head drop gently back on Xena’s shoulder. "Ok.. you win that one." She played with the edge of Xena’s tunic absently, then reached down for the sack of berries. "Help me finish these?"

They did, while discussing the scrolls Elaini mentioned. "That should be an interesting find." Xena commented, as she watched Gabrielle also finish their breakfast tray, giving the bard an amused grin. "Had enough there?" She teased very gently, giving the bard a pat on the belly. "Still wish knew where you put all that."

Gabrielle chuckled, and offered her half of the last dark, chewy biscuit she’d smothered with honey. "Here." She popped it in the warrior’s mouth, and watched as she chewed appreciatively.

"Nice." Xena commented, after swallowing. "I figured we’d get moving towards home day after tomorrow." She dusted her fingers off. "I spent a little time with Argo this morning… she’s having a great time with the forest dweller’s herd."

The bard nodded in agreement. "Sounds good."

Xena hesitated, then went on. "She’s coming into season. I might.. go ahead and let her breed to one of them. This time." A light shrug. "Never did before.. thought it wouldn’t be fair to her.. I traveled around so much. "

Gabrielle slid closer, and put a hand on her partner’s knee. "I think that’s a great idea."

The warrior nodded slowly. "She’s from a good line. I’d like to see a little filly, or a colt from her. " She studied her hands, then looked up at Gabrielle. "Before it’s too late."

"That’ll be fun." The bard smiled. Then a thought that had been lurking around in her mind surfaced. Oh.. boy. This is a touchy subject but… "You know.. Xena.. Uhm…"

Fingers touching her lips, stilling her voice. Blue eyes boring into hers. "No."

"But…" A gentle protest. "It’s not just you now… he has a grandmother, and an uncle.."

"And an aunt." Xena gave her a wistful smile, then sighed. "And a lot of enemies, who would love to know who he was." Xena finished, letting her head rest against the hearth. "I’m not… what he needs, Gabrielle." She scooped up Ares, who had wandered over, and scratched him under his chin. The puppy wriggled happily, and flopped down on her lap, resting his head along her arm as she rubbed his back. "I’m not the mothering type."

Gabrielle watched her in some amusement, then crawled over, and snuggled up against the warrior’s left side, wrapping an arm around her, and feeling the friendly weight as Xena settled her own arm around the bard’s shoulders.

"Hey, boy.. you like that?" Xena smiled, listening to the wolf’s pleased rumblings. She felt Gabrielle nestle closer, and squeezed her shoulders in response, brushing her lips against the bard’s fair head. Luxuriating in the feeling of her loving warmth, something she admitted she was becoming.. dependent.. on. And decided, right then that she didn’t’ give a damn that she was.

Then looked down in time to catch the bard’s impish grin, as she let her mist green eyes travel over the both of them, and the puppy, then back up to Xena’s face. And she realized exactly what she was doing.

"That was very sneaky, Gabrielle." But she couldn’t keep a rueful smile from appearing.

"Busted." The bard laughed, rubbing her belly gently. "You can’t help it." Then she went serious. "Maybe someday?"

Long silence from Xena, as she sat, deep in her own thoughts, idly petting Ares. Finally she looked up, and met the bard’s patient gaze. "Maybe." She paused. "Are kids important to you, Gabrielle?" My bard, who is not so long from being a child herself?

Gabrielle’s turn to consider in silence. "I always.. thought I’d end up being a teacher.. you know, the writing, and the stories and all." She mused. "And.. I guess, I assumed I’d probably have kids someday. But… it wasn’t something I really thought about." She shrugged a little. "And I can be a teacher in Amphipolis."

"Mph." Xena grunted a short reply. "It wouldn’t bother you not to have kids of your own?"

Gabrielle suddenly realized what she was getting at. "Don’t be dumb. Xena. I’ve thought of that."

"You have, huh?" The warrior wrapped her other arm around Gabrielle, and squeezed.

"Mmmm.." The bard squeezed back. "Sure." She answered. "If I absolutely can’t stand not having one, I’ll just work a deal with Toris." And waited for the reaction, which was an explosive burst of laughter. She grinned mischievously. "And your looks run in your family. What a cute kid that’d be." In her mind, she called up an image of a dark haired tyke, with nice, big blue eyes. Her lips twitched. And an attitude. And, boy did that ever run in that family too.

Xena chuckled. "Gods… I never thought of that… but.." Her eyes twinkled. "Gabrielle, I wanna be there when you ask him." She settled back against the hearth, listening to the dull rhythmic pattern of the rain on the thatched roof of the cot. Gabrielle fell silent after her last joke, and let her eyes drift closed. "Hey." The warrior poked her gently. "You falling asleep on me?" Literally, she realized.

"Mmm." The bard replied, "Few minutes." She flexed her hands slowly. "Comfy."

One dark eyebrow curved up. Xena, Warrior Pillow. Her mind chuckled ruefully, then she settled back and let the last of the tension from their argument drain off. We’ve got so much to learn.. about this, about each other.. gods it scares me sometimes. She mused, feeling Gabrielle’s breathing deepen under her slowly moving fingertips. Must be this weather… makes you sleepy, I guess. She idly watched the still misting rain fall outside, and listened to the muted sounds of activity around the village. Today would be very quiet – everyone seemed to be sleeping off the party last night.

She sighed, and glanced down at Gabrielle’s now peaceful face. I know what she said. A slow nod. I also know this is something she needs. She raised her hand and rubbed her eyes in irritation. I just can’t believe I’m gonna let something that’s not real.. that’s just in my head, for Ares’ sake, keep me from giving her that. She let her head fall back against the rock in frustration.

A joining ceremony.. that was never a problem. Xena considered. In fact, she’d seen that little glint in her mother’s eye after Lila’s wedding, that meant nothing but trouble on that front.

"So.." Cyrene had said, as they casually stood, sipping spiced wine and watching the dancing at Lila’s reception. "Enjoying yourself?"

Xena had glanced sideways at her, and quirked an eyebrow. "It’s.. nice. "

"Mm." Her mother hummed. "I’m very upset with you, Xena."

Both eyebrows had jerked up. "Me? Why?"

Cyrene had tapped her on the chest with one strong finger. "I’m your mother. I deserve to know when my only daughter is going to be throwing rings around."

"Ah." The warrior had said, burying her attention in her cup. "Sorry.. it was.."

"Ah ah ah.." Cyrene wagged the finger. "Don’t tell me it was last minute, dear. That ring didn’t get created overnight."

"Yeah, well… " Xena had laughed a bit. "I’d been carrying it for a little while.. just hadn’t.. I mean… " She stopped and shrugged. "Right time, I guess."

"MmHmm." Cyrene agreed. "So." She moved closer to Xena, and bumped shoulders with her, or more strictly speaking, bumped her shoulder with the warrior’s elbow. "Can I start planning for yours?"

Xena’s head had shot up, and she’d stared at Cyrene for a long, steady moment. "Mother… no." Then realized how that sounded. "I mean.. it’s not something we’re… I don’t think it’s something we want to do."

Cyrene had studied her in silence. "Have you asked Gabrielle what she wants? I saw her face during that ceremony, dear. " She paused. "Unless.. you don’t think you two.. I mean, you seem very committed to each other."

"We are." Xena had quietly admitted. "I guess it’s just that I’m not comfortable with the idea of publicly making her part of who I am. " There.. it had finally come out, and she’d seen the pained look of comprehension on her mother’s face. "I don’t want her to get hurt by that."

They’d stood in silence for a while, sipping their wine, and just watching. Finally, Xena noticed her mother’s gaze fixed quietly on something to her left. "What’s so interesting?" She asked softly.

Cyrene had looked up at her with a gently compassionate expression. "I’m just watching Gabrielle watch you." She smiled a little. "The look in her eyes… you’re her whole world, you do know that, right?"

Xena had taken a deep breath, and let it out slowly. "It’s mutual." She whispered, looking intently at the ground. A silence fell. Then Cyrene put an arm around her, and gave her a hug.

"Think about it." She said gently. "I think it would make her really happy, and you know we’d love to do it at home."

"I’ll think about it." Xena had promised, and had tucked that idea away deep inside her thoughts, where it hadn’t surfaced until now

That was a possible solution, wasn’t it? Gods, it certainly would make my mother happy. Xena smiled to herself. And..I think it would make Gabrielle happy, too.

What about herself? Xena considered this seriously, tipping her head back, and thinking about how it would feel to stand in front of a temple altar, and make public what she knew to be a lifelong, irrevocable commitment. Was she ready for that? She closed her eyes and analyzed herself ruthlessly.

I am self destructive, unstable, and inherently violent. Do I have a right to take responsibility for someone else.. when I can’t even take responsibility for myself half the time?

No. The answer was stark, and honest. I don’t have that right.

Can I live without her?

No. Equally stark, equally honest. So what do I do?

A long silence fell over the room, as the gentle sounds of the rain sodden leaves giving up their burden on the wooden planks of the porch made sporadic tattoos, and the quietly snapping fire echoed loud, masking the soft whisper of breathing from two humans and one wolf puppy.

"So." Elaini said, as she coiled a rope neatly in one hand. "Did you guys have a nice quiet day yesterday? Didn’t see you at all." She smothered a grin.

Gabrielle bit her lip to keep from smiling. "Oh.. yeah. We had a great day." She assured the forest dweller. "Well… we had a kind of fight in the morning, but after that it was great."

Oh yeah.. she’d been chagrined to wake up to the very late afternoon light, chagrined, that is, until she glanced up and found her partner deeply fast asleep, one arm cradled around the dozing Ares, the other wrapped protectively around Gabrielle.

Not that I gave her much choice.. the bard had giggled. Since I was practically sleeping on top of her. But still. She’d briefly debated surprising Xena with a sudden wake up, then reflected that surprising Xena was never a really good idea, because her reactions were really almost too fast.. and watching her trying to stop herself from doing something was actually kind of painful.

So she’d curled her self around, and started planting feather soft kisses on the skin of the arm cradling her, and by the time she got to the elbow, a nibble at the very base of her neck was sending chills up and down her spine. Much nicer.

She’d refused to allow her partner to go back out into the rain, so dinner had been whatever they could scrounge from supplies, which had actually turned out to be kind of fun, and the rest of the evening had just been spent immersed in each other. It had felt very .. Gabrielle grinned to herself. Very decadent. And she’d loved every minute of it, and so had Xena, once she’d gotten over her embarrassed disbelief at having slept the day away.

"Oh.. I love a good fight." Elaini showed her canines. "Who won?"

The bard shoved a set of leather gloves in her bag and looked up with a grin. "We did." She answered, with a chuckle. And in a strange way, they had, because though that fight had hurt.. gods…did it ever.. it had also moved them another tiny step along their path together.

It had brought them closer yet, and at the end of a long, wonderful evening, she’d looked up into Xena’s eyes and the words had just come tumbling out of her unplanned. "You make my life.. worth the living, Xena."

A dozen things had flashed across her partner’s face as the words trickled down her understanding. The blue eyes had closed for an instant, then reopened, and she’d taken a long breath, before lifting Gabrielle’s hand, with it’s ring, up between their eyes.

"I want to make this official, Gabrielle." Had come the totally unexpected, totally serious response. "I want to register it with the reeve in Amphipolis.. you deserve rights under the law.. gods know I don’t have much but…" She’d stopped, and collected herself for a minute. "But.." and the quietly haunted look had crept back into her eyes. "I’ve got a lot of enemies, Gabrielle.. and I’m not.. " She’d swallowed, and Gabrielle had kept deathly quiet, fearing a single sound would make her fall silent. "I’m not an.. easy.. person to want to be around.. I can understand if you don’t.."

"Yes." Gabrielle had whispered at last, stopping the halting flow of doubts. She’d folded their hands together, and pressed them to her lips, leaning forward until they were breathing the same air. "You are MY chosen." She felt the intensity build between them. "And anyone who wants to get to you has to go through me first." It had been ludicrous. Here she’d been, offering protective services to the unquestioned, hands down best fighter in all of Greece.

Elaini laughed at the expression on her face. "Must have been some fight." She teased, picking up a full waterskin. "Well, let’s get going, shall we?"

"Yep.. I wanna see this place." Gabrielle sighed happily. "Besides, it’s either that, or watch them beat up on each other all day." She smirked, and jerked her head towards the window, where the sounds of sword practice were floating in.

"Oh..you mean watch Xena beat up on them." Elaini grinned, hoisting her pack to her shoulder. "They worship her, you know." She snorted. "Fighters."

Gabrielle smiled broadly. "Weeeelll.. I think today they’re lucky. She’s in a pretty good mood."

They walked outside, and were about to leave the porch when a familiar, small red form trotted up, trailing one hand on the railing to keep his place. "Hi guys."

"Hey Tody." Elaini replied, stopping and waiting for him. "What’s up?"

The boy swiveled his ears towards her. "Can I go with you?" He cocked his head wistfully. "Please? That cave’s supposed to have real cool echoes."

Elaini and Gabrielle glanced at each other. Gabrielle shrugged.

"Sure." Elaini decided. "Come here."

Tody padded over, putting a hand out to stop himself when he was up next to her.

"Here." His sister grasped his hand, and put a bag in it. "You can help carry." She hoisted her pack again. " Stay behind me, OK? And in front of Gabrielle."

They started off, crossing the village center, and passing by the fighters. Gabrielle let her eyes settle on her soulmate, who was leaning against a tree, arms crossed, watching two young forest dwellers go at it, and calling out advice. Jessan was on the opposite side of the field, also watching, but shaking his head in amusement when the two swung awkwardly, and managed to hit each other in the head.

Xena snorted, and pushed off her tree, striding to the center of the field, and motioning Jessan to join her.

Elaini just shook her head, and quickened her pace. "Hurry. If they see us watching, that’ll become a show off fest."

Gabrielle smirked, knowing it for the truth. She followed Elaini and Tody up the path, towards the steep upward climb to the caves.

Not that they went unnoticed. They were captured in two sets of peripheral visions until they’d disappeared up the path and into the trees.

Xena forced her attention back to her opponent, parrying his lunge with absent-minded ease. The sun had finally made a reappearance, and she found her thoughts drifting idly, aware of the pleasant warmth on her back, and the sweet, cool scent of the grass they fought in.

C’mon, Xena. Snap out of it… you’re fighting some seven-foot tall fanged guy with a very sharp sword.

It didn’t help. Her body, well used to this kind of thing, went about it’s business, turning aside the panting forest dweller’s strokes without much conscious thought on her part. Good thing.. she mused.. my concentration’s shot all to Hades this morning.

She felt like laughing, or lying down in the heavy grass and just gazing up at the clouds moving overhead. Dunno why.. nothing changed.. really. It’s not like just making this whole thing official really makes a difference.

Right. Uh huh… so why are you acting like a child in the market with a 10 dinar piece then? Whoops. Xena caught her opponents backstroke with a neat hilt parry, and took a step forward, forcing him back and throwing him off balance. This is ridiculous. I was a warlord for 10 years, I’ve led armies, and I’ve conquered princes.. and I am NOT acting like some damn giddy love struck backwater village kid.

"Xena?" Jessan’s voice interrupted her mental self lashing.

"Huh?" She stepped back from her opponent, and focused on him. "What?"

His golden head cocked at her. "Is that.. um…. Are you smiling for some particular reason?"

"Uh… no." The warrior cleared her throat, and glanced at the grass, idly slicing through several stalks of it with the sword. "No particular reason." She shrugged lightly. "Nice day, sun’s out… doing something I like to do.. any reason not to smile?" She opened her blue eyes wide and gazed at him in all innocence.

And sent quiet thanks to the gods for her dark tan, because his gently teasing grin brought on a blush that she could feel edging up her neck. She ignored it, and just raised an eyebrow at him in question.

"Oh.. ok. You just seem a little distracted, that’s all." Jessan chuckled, then yelped as his sword was flicked out of his hands in a movement too fast for him to follow.

"Really?" Xena drawled.

"Uh. Maybe not." Came the sheepish answer.

Xena gave him a flashing grin. "Good answer." That’s it.. let’s keep that mean, nasty ex warlord reputation intact here.

He raised his hands, and smiled. "Mind if I get some practice in with the master?"

She smiled in return, taking a step to her right, and hooking the hilt of his sword on the tip of her boot, and flipping it upward, catching it in her free hand. "Here." She said quietly, laying the blade along her arm and extending the hilt to him. As he stepped forward to take it, she bit back a smile.

"You know where Amphipolis is, Jess?"

His eyes widened slightly, and his brows drew close. "I think so.. yeah. I do." He took the hilt of his sword, and hefted the weapon. "Why?"

She inspected her sword blade, blowing a bit of nonexistent dirt off of it. "If you’re in the neighborhood around winter solstice, drop in." Their eyes met, and she saw the glint of understanding in his.

Then she stepped back, and twirled the sword around her hand with a casual flourish. "Come on… we gonna fight, or just stand here?"

"Whew." Gabrielle paused a moment, and took a sip from the waterskin she was carrying, mentally giving thanks for all the months spent walking all over half of Greece. Her pulse was up, and she knew she was breathing pretty hard.. but not as hard as Elaini was, she noted with some pride. But then.. Elaini didn’t have to keep up with Xena, either.

They were almost to the top of the path, though, just a little bit longer and they’d be up there. Taking and releasing a long breath, she started upward again, using her staff to pull herself up the steep path. Her body was used to this though.. not like when they first started off. Gods…it had taken forever until she’d finally stopped dropping in exhaustion at the end of every day.

And she remembered a day that had been a long, long one. Starting very early, when a wild storm had forced them to break camp before dawn, and travel ahead of it throughout the day. Up a mountain road that sloped steeper and steeper up into the heights.

She’d forced herself to keep up with the steadily pacing Xena, whose long stride never seemed to falter, just moved ahead with that easy, powerfully flexing motion that Gabrielle envied heartily. In the few month’s they’d been travelling together, she’d discovered some interesting things about her taciturn companion, like the fact that she could fall asleep standing up, if she had to. And the fact that she could go without food, and without sleeping for longer than Gabrielle thought a person really should be able to.

That she had an amazingly retentive memory, and unbelievable hearing, could catch fish barehanded, could jump right over Gabrielle’s head, and could ride and control Argo without the slightest use of her hands.

She was, Gabrielle sighed, also in the most amazing physical condition, which made keeping up with her a tough job for a village girl who’d spent most of her life so far not doing anything more strenuous than going to the river for water. Though, she’d been getting a little better lately – and Xena, to be fair, never chastised her for needing to stop and rest, just patiently stood and waited for her to catch her breath, and go on.

But today was bad, because they really couldn’t stop, and she pushed herself harder and harder, feeling the breath starting to come tight in her chest as darkness began to fall and they still weren’t near shelter. The mountain path they were on was very narrow, and rocky, and the low overhanging branches ruled out riding, even if she’d had the guts to ask. Which, with Xena’s uncertain temper, she wasn’t about to do.

Her legs had started cramping right around dark, but she kept her mouth shut, and pushed through it, glad the fading light hid the tears of pain that tricked down her cheeks, and she bit her lip hard to keep from making a sound until the spasms eased a little. Then a root caught her foot, and she stumbled forward, her legs unable to move fast enough to keep her from crashing to the ground.

The sharp shards of brittle stone cut her hands as she threw them out in front of her to break her fall, and she landed in a heap, cringing when she heard Argo’s steady footfalls stop, and Xena’s voice softly telling the horse to stay put. Then muffled crunching footsteps as Xena traveled back along the path to where she was.

"Sorry..it’s all right..I’ll be right.." Gabrielle was aware she was babbling.

"Gabrielle." Xena had said, with a sigh. "Hold still."

"No, no. really… it’s all right." She’d protested, getting to her knees, then standing up.

And pitching forward as her legs cramped, sending her right into Xena’s arms. It hurt so bad, she couldn’t keep a whimper from escaping, and her hands clenched helplessly on Xena’s thick, soft leathers.

"Easy." A voice had whispered in her ear, filling her senses. "Easy.." And she’d taken a shuddering breath, and then another, and tried to stand, this time unable to even make it halfway up. "Can’t." she’d gasped, closing her eyes. "Just.. leave me.." And she’d half expected her companion to do just that. But then she’d felt an arm circle her shoulders, and the sudden pressure of a second under her knees, and she was being lifted up, and cradled like a child.

"Put your arms around my neck." Came the quiet command, and she was too.. well, she’d just done what she was asked, to, that’s all. It should have been a nightmare, with the wind rising, and Xena’s dour gruffness riding around them in silence. But Gabrielle found a quiet port in that storm, which consisted of a sense of warm security, and the scent of metal and leather that invaded her senses, and made her body, against all better judgement, relax completely.

She’d never remembered falling asleep at all, only waking in the shelter of a darkness shadowed cave, with the friendly licking sounds of a healthy fire not far away. Her hands felt stiff, and she glanced down to see bandages covering them, under a blanket that had been tucked neatly around her as she lay on top of her own sleeping roll.

Gabrielle had blinked her eyes to clear them, and glanced around, spotting Xena leaning against the far wall, one knee upraised, and both muscular arms wrapped around it. Her chin rested on the knee, and she was gazing into the fire with a far off look in her eyes. The bard moved a little, and found herself caught in that hawk’s sharp gaze now diverted from the fire to herself.

"Uhm. Thanks." She called softly, glancing down at her hands, her bedroll.. herself. "I didn’t mean to cause you so much trouble."

Xena had stood up, dusted herself off, and walked over, crouching down and settling herself cross legged next to the bard’s sleeping roll. She reached out and firmly grasped Gabrielle’s jaw, and looked directly into her eyes. "Don’t you ever do that again." The voice was low, and sent shivers down her spine. "If you’re hurting, you tell me."

"But.. I knew we had to get to shelter, Xena. And I’m not… I mean..I try not be a baby." She’d objected gently. "I know I slow you down..I know..you’d be better off without me tagging along sometimes.."

The grip on her chin had moderated, then released, and settled on her shoulder instead. "It doesn’t’ matter." Xena had replied. "I don’t… you…" Uncharacteristically, Xena stopped, had seemed unsure of herself. "You tell me next time, OK?" She finally decided to say. And when her blue eyes raised, and fastened on Gabrielle’s, there had been a faint glimmer, a tiny window past that cold and frightening exterior.

Gabrielle had seen it, and recognized it for what it was, and grabbed the opportunity. She lifted her bandaged hand, and covered Xena’s with it, and let her eyes warm with the true affection she felt for the warrior. "Thanks. I will."

And the eyebrows had quirked a bit, and her lips had eased into that rare, uneven smile. She’d squeezed the bard’s shoulder. "Hungry?"

Gabrielle had rolled her eyes in knowing amusement. "Always." She sighed, a sort of running joke between them. She’d thought there was something wrong with her until Xena had taken a moment and explained to her how her body was adjusting to the constant need for energy to cope with their lifestyle. "Xena?"

"Yeah?" Gruff as always.

"Thanks for putting up with me." Daring, Gabrielle let her other hand fall on the tanned knee inches from her.

Xena shrugged. "That’s what friends are for." And this time, Gabrielle had gotten one of the real, flashing smiles that lit her eyes up.

So she responded with one of her own unrestrained, from the heart grins. "Guess I’m lucky to have you as one, then, huh?"

Gabrielle smiled as she pressed down on her staff, finally gaining the summit. She really had been getting stronger.. and the next time they’d bathed together, Xena had taken a little time out to show her the changes she hadn’t even noticed in her body. That… had been an interesting bath.. and she’d learned a lot about Xena, and more about herself than she had anticipated. Like how the quiet, clinical touch of Xena’s fingertips on her newly muscular waistline made her knees strangely weak. And how she suddenly noticed, for the first time, how the warm sunset made interesting shadows on the dips and hollows of her companion’s tanned body

She leaned on her staff, and waited for Elaini to make the last few steps up to the plateau, carefully leading Tody by the hand. "Wow." She said softly, surveying the ridge she stood on. It was fairly narrow, with a number of jagged outcroppings poking through the flat surface. In the dark granite cliff face was a small opening, perhaps a little wider than Elaini’s tall form.

"There it is." Elaini sighed, as she stopped next to the quiet bard. She pulled a torch from her kit, and with a swift meeting of flint, lit it. "Come on." She ducked inside the opening, Tody firmly hanging on to her tunic.

Gabrielle paused an instant, with a hand on the edge of the opening, and licked her lips, feeling a roiling unease in her guts. But it wasn’t overwhelming, and after a few deep breaths, she forced herself inside, reassured by the warm flicker of the torchlight just ahead of her. If it had been total darkness… ugh. But this isn’t so bad. She had a momentarily guilty thought of her partner, but put that firmly aside for the time being, and looked around.

The chamber was pretty bare, with a fairly high ceiling, and darkly sloping walls that contained vivid streaks of color in their gray depths. "Wow.. " She grinned, pulling a torch from her own pack and lighting it.

"Back here." Elaini called, pointing towards a dim opening in the rock. "This is just the outer room. The remains are in there."

It was very quiet in there, Gabrielle realized. Just the soft popping of the torches, and the gentle crunch of their footsteps against the sandy floor. She cast a last look at the sunlight pouring into the opening in the cliff face, then squared her shoulders and followed Elaini and Tody into the darkness of the inner chamber.

"You look really sharp." Jessan commented, as they relaxed under a large tree, after several hours of sparring. "I mean.. " He stretched legs and winced. "Ares knows, I’m not in any position to judge, but.. " He let the thought trail off, and glanced at her, letting his eyes travel down her reclined form.

Xena rolled her head to one side, and opened an eye to look at him. She shrugged, and closed the eye again. "I was in lousy shape the last time you saw me." She admitted quietly.

Jessan blinked. "Huh. Well. You really know how to make a guy feel bad, you know? " He laughed a little. "Believe me, I never would have guessed."

That got a lazy grin. Then she sighed, and opened her eyes to look at him again. " It’s the truth, though. I never really got it back after my last injury."

"The log?" Jessan’s voice was very quiet.

A nod in response.

"Well.. you know.. Xena.. that was really pretty amazing to recover from at all." He replied hesitantly. "Gabrielle… told me what happened."

Xena’s brows creased. "Next time, just ask me, OK? That’s hard on her." A tinge of anger colored her voice. "She had a bad enough time with that without having to relive it."

Jessan’s eyes shifted, and stared at the ground. "I’m.. but.. she was.. Xena, she offered to tell..me." He lifted his hands helplessly. "She seemed all right with it.."

"Yeah, I bet." Xena hoisted herself up on her elbows and glared at him. "It’s just like her." Her voice took on a colder tone. "You remember me waking her up from a dream, when you were travelling with us?"

Jessan nodded, and gave her a tentative smile.

"That’s what the dream was about." Came the serious reply. "And she still has them. So do me a favor, Ok? Don’t ask her."

Jessan laid a hand on her arm, and sighed. "I’m sorry." His golden eyes met hers. "You know I’d never intentionally hurt her."

The warrior laid back down, and laced her hands behind her head. "I know that." She muttered. "At any rate, in answer to your question… it just got worse after Cirron. " But her lips quirked. Sure..I could try to blame it on the injury.. but…I know better….

She’d found herself losing track of things for no reason… forgetting what she’d just done… daydreaming at odd times… and night after night, had been unable to pry herself away from the campfire to go out for her solitary drills.

It was just .. easier.. to sit quietly after dinner, stretched out on her side, and listen to Gabrielle’s clear voice, as she practiced her stories, or read poems in progress.. or.. whatever. Though she wasn’t sure it was easier on the bard, because she lost count of the times Gabrielle would look up, across the dancing flames and meet her gaze, and lose her train of thought completely.

And then just laugh, and duck her head, and rub her temples until she could remember where to start off again. Sometimes she just gave up, and crossed over to their bedrolls, collapsing next to Xena, and leaning back against her. No longer needing permission, or an excuse.

They’d stare off into the fire, just enjoying the closeness, Xena’s fingers tangling themselves absently in Gabrielle’s hair, and the bard draping a casual arm over the warrior’s muscular thigh, tracing the taut lines just under the skin with gentle precision.

She was losing her edge, and she knew it. She could feel it in her body’s subtly slowing responses, and in the effort it took to do things that had once come without a second thought. But.. she just couldn’t summon up the sense of urgency she’d needed to get herself going again. It was… swallowed up in this insidious giddy warmth that had just poured over her without warning.

She’d tried, really hard, to worry about it, too, but.. then those green eyes would look up, and find hers, and..

Gods in Olympus.. she’d been in love before, but it had never been like this. This was overwhelming - she’d watched all her defenses eroding away.. and had seen signs that Gabrielle was, in a quiet and wondering way, responding to the attraction that was pulling them together with almost irresistible force.

The only thing that held her back was her dark conscience… and the knowledge that Gabrielle surely, surely deserved better. But it was hard. So hard not to give in. Especially when she looked down, and saw the incredulous little smile on Gabrielle’s face when they snuggled close at night, and that friendly warmth closed over them.

She’d been fighting a losing battle, and she knew it. Ephiny’s arrival in the woods that night had only postponed the inevitable.

"Anyway.." Xena yawned. " When Gabrielle was with the Amazons, and I was at home, I finally had the time to rest up a little, and get some decent food for a change, and it seems to have made the difference." There..that’s the short version. She shrugged casually. "I feel.." Wonderful.. happy… giddy.. "Pretty good."

Jessan stretched out on his side, and rested his head on his hand. His eyes twinkled. "Well, you know…" He leaned closer and whispered into her ear. "This feeling makes me want to just jump around all over the place like a little kid."

Xena half turned her face, and gave him a look, struggling to control the grin that was inching its way into existence despite her best intent. Finally she gave up, and just relaxed, shaking her head and turning her face into the sun. "Yeah." She sighed, taking a deep, satisfied breath of cool air. "I gotta keep a lid on that."

The forest dweller let a fond smile trace his own features. Ah.. my friend. It gives me such peace to see that look on your face. He sighed inwardly. I wish… His eyes traced Xena’s angular features regretfully, as he heard Gabrielle’s gentle voice echoing that morning.

"No." She’d said, putting a hand on his chest. "Not this time, Jess. And I’m not gonna let her try, either."

"But.." He’d started to say, then stopped when her fingers clenched hard in his fur.

"Jessan." Green eyes bored up into his. "No. And don’t you dare say anything to her about it, either. If she thinks someone expects her to do something, she will, just to prove she can, and damn it all, I don’t want her going through that right now." Then her eyes had softened. "Thank you.. for asking. "

"All right." He’d said, quietly. "But, Gabrielle.. take this from one of her kind… she can’t live with this hanging over her."

The bard had let her head lean forward against his shoulder. "I know." She’d replied softly. "I’ll take care of her."

Odd. Jessan mused, to think of Xena needing to be taken care of. The warrior lay sprawled in the grass, arms folded, legs crossed, that thin edge of tension that was always a part of her present in the sleek lines of her body. A breath, a sound, a movement from him would trigger a potentially deadly reaction. She was obviously, evidently, unquestionably, aggressively able to take care of herself.

And yet…Gabrielle was right. She was also extremely competitive by nature…the residual effects of her being trapped must be gnawing at her, and Jessan debated with himself as to just how long the dark haired warrior was willing, or able, to set that aside. He wondered if Gabrielle was truly doing her a service by not pushing the issue… in fact..

"So. Tell me about this ceremony, Jessan." Came the low, resonant voice, floating above the softly waving grasses.

In fact, I think she reads minds. The forest dweller concluded ruefully. He rolled over onto his stomach, and propped himself up on his elbows. He described it to her, then hesitated. "Uh… I thought.. um…"

"Relax." Xena gave a quiet sigh. "I’ve had to deal with this since I was six, Jess." She turned her head and looked at him. "Just one of those things."

"Must be killing you." He responded with gentle sympathy.

She gave a casual shrug. "Nah, I’m fine." Then her eyes found his, and held them. "That invitation still open?"

He blinked. "Wh.. uh.. sure.. I mean… but.. Gabrielle said.."

A smile twitched just the corner of her mouth. "Yeah..I know. " She rubbed her eyes with the fingers of one hand. "I think I’d like to surprise her." And myself.

A furred and clawed hand settled on her shoulder. "All right. Do it if you can." Came the response. And I’m not going to bet against her. Nope. Not this pudgy fuzzball. "You up for some lunch?"

Xena considered the question. "Yeah, I am." She decided, then smothered a grin. I’d better eat.. I get yelled at otherwise… that should drive me crazy. A warm feeling washed over her. But it doesn’t, not with her. She stretched, lazily, then flipped up backward into a handstand, and pushed that into a forward flip that brought her standing neatly at Jessan’s side, dusting herself off with casual ease. Gods… I love doing that. She chuckled, catching the startled look on Jessan’s face. She offered him a hand. "Come on."

He took her arm, and let her pull him up. "I get tired just watching you sometimes, you know that?" He dusted his breeches off, and picked up his sheathed sword, yawning as they started to walk through the thick grass back towards the village.

"Huh. Gabrielle says the same thing. " Xena commented idly, reaching down and grabbing a stalk of grass, and pulling it up out of the ground. She examined the end thoughtfully, then started to chew it, enjoying the dusty tang. The sun felt good on her back, and she let the brisk wind blow her hair back out of her eyes with a distinct sense of contentment. I think.. for just a little while here, I’m gonna just stop worrying. There’s darkness ahead.. I can feel it. But right now.. right now there’s this warm sun, and this sweet air, and this… feeling. And I’m gonna enjoy it while I can. She shot Jessan a sideways look ‘Hey."

His head turned and he raised a golden eyebrow in inquiry. "Huh?"

She poked him hard. "Race you." Then she grabbed his sword out of his hands, and broke into a lazy jog, watching him out of the corner of her eye.

"Hey!" Jessan blurted. "Oh ..you got to be kidding.. Xena!!!!" He shook his head and bolted after her. "No fair!!!"

Gabrielle peered around the corner of the opening to the inner cavern, letting her eyes drift over the uneven walls, and the dusty floor with interest. These walls were of the same multi layered granite as the outer chambers – dark rock shot through with stripings of rust red, and dark blue, and tiny specks of gypsum scattered throughout.

Inside, the flickering torchlight exposed a dust layered set of artifacts, including what was apparently some kind of sleeping platform, graced by the half disintegrated outlines of two skeletons. "Ugh." The bard coughed, as Tody’s steps ahead of her raised a cloud of cloying dust. There was a faint breeze in the chamber, and, looking up at the wall, Gabrielle noticed two more passages leading down into the darkness. The breeze was coming from one of them, and she detected the faint hint of dampness on it that Xena had taught her meant running water. Underground stream? The air had a touch of coldness, and she shivered in reflex

Just then Tody barked, and she jumped.

"Sorry." He grinned, cocking his head towards the dark openings. "Echoes." He moved slowly across the floor towards the sounds, and settled himself at one of the openings. "Water, too." He called over his shoulder. "Hear it dripping."

Elaini crouched down next to the sleeping platform, and gently ran her fingers over a dusty piece of slate half buried under the rubble. "Here." She said, turning her head and looking at Gabrielle.

The bard crossed the few steps towards the slate, and knelt down next to it, holding her torch at an angle and blowing gently on the surface of the rock. Half formed letters came dimly to her eyes, and she waited patiently, until the shapes of the words started to mean something to her. "It’s old, all right." She murmured, sitting down cross-legged next to the spot, glad for the leggings and boots protecting her from the sharp shards of granite. The leggings had felt funny when she’d first put them on, but the warmth was very welcome, and Xena had insisted.

"I don’t see you wearing them." She’d said, putting her hands on her hips and giving Xena a look.

Got a raised eyebrow in return. "I’m not crawling around in some cold dark cave." Her partner had responded, touching her on the nose.

So she had worn them, and now was really glad. They were soft, and she kind of liked them, now that she’d gotten used to the feel. They were long, of course, being Xena’s, but they tucked down into her boots fine, and were only a little loose, being designed to wear close to the skin.

"This is.. a really old dialect but.." The bard sighed, her brow creasing. "it’s.. almost like it was written by someone who didn’t speak the language real well. The words are in the wrong order."

Elaini sniffed reflectively. "Well.. what does it say?"

Gabrielle concentrated on it. "I’ll try to move the words around so they make sense…its kind of a diary sort of thing."

The forest dweller snorted. "On a tablet???"

"They were out of things to write on." Gabrielle answered very quietly. "Except the stone." Taking a breath, she started to read, slowly, haltingly, but steadily.

We are at the cusp of the second moon, since our ship faltered along the shore, and cast we two up here adrift and alone. This cavern that has become our shelter closes in on Elevown, and makes her pace like a caged moorcat across these harsh floors.

I wish I had some answer for her pacings, for I do not, and can not – she is warrior bred, and alien to my eyes, and speaks to me only in harsh barks and angry curses. The snows tie down the passes, and even her stubborn strength is unequal to them. And she has tried, and failed, and come back here to this miserable little hole in the rock wild with fury. We cannot even have speech – for she is of the race of the northern sea lords, and I am Welsh to the core, and speak none of the northern speech, though I am well versed in my own language, and that of the tradesmen, and some small bit of this land’s that I picked up on the far coast.

She frightens me. I know she holds me in naught but ridicule, for I am but a villein, and unskilled at aught but some motherly traits that do us little good here in this wild, and uncouth land.

I write in the language of these parts, so that she might not know my thoughts, or see the fear I hold in my heart as she sits, sullen, and silent, in our dark retreat.

Elevown has managed, somehow, to find prey this evening, well into our third moon here, and we have warm things to eat for the first time in a fortnight. I am constantly cold, but say nothing, for she complains not, though I can see that hunger is taking it’s toll on her, and the bleak eyes she turns to the empty air tells me she knows that.

Knows that we two.. are coming closer to the Long Winter, and I pray, in silence, to our far off gods to hear us, and help us in this strange and foreign place.

Tonight, I am so cold I can barely but put my thoughts on the tablet, and my hand shakes before me, and cramps in the iciness. Finally, the soup is done, and I sit, in patience to wait for her to eat her fill before I dare approach the pot.

And.. Elevown fills the larger of the two makeshift bowls she has carved, and to my great disbelief, she leans over and hands it to me, those pale eyes expressionless as always,, and no words to go with it. I take the bowl, and she fills the other one, and goes to sit by the far wall, in solitude. It frightens me greatly – for I understand that Elevown knows, in her heart, that this cave will be our last resting place. And seeing her sunken eyes, and imagining my own, I know it for truth as well.

Gabrielle stopped reading, and glanced down, watching a few single tears wash the dust from the tablet. Tody and Elaini was deathly silent, and she could hear the faint sighing of the wind as it came inside the cavern opening, and the far off, sad, plinking of dripping water down the tunnels to her left.

"It’s so sad." Elaini finally broke the silence, shifting to find a better place for her body to relax. "Where were they from, do you know, Gabrielle?"

Silently, the bard shook her head. She took a long drink from her waterskin, then cleared her throat and kept reading.

Another tiny victory in a long string of defeats. We have food again tonight, but at what cost.. Elevown has had to fight off wolves for her kill, and her blood stains her garment and her eyes show her agony, though no sound of complaint passes her lips. She huddles in her corner, and I take the hard won meat and do my best with it.

My heart clenches – I bring Elevown her bowl, and with a look of quiet regret, she pulls aside her furs, and I see the hole the wolf has made in her. A grimace as she tries to smile at me, and pushes the bowl back towards my hands. Her meaning is clear. She has no use for food any longer.

I grieve. This strange, cold person has somehow entered my heart, and I do not wish to see her end her days here in this horrible place. I get bandages, clothes, hot water, and demand with gestures that she allow me to do what little I can for those terrible wounds.

At first, she pushes me off. Then, too tired, or maybe she had just given up, she lets me have my way and closes her eyes to my work. Her body has been hard used, and bears terrible scars that mark her pale skin. Paler than mine own, as her hair is the fairness of the Northlands, and her eyes the gray of a storm swept sky. She has the northerner’s height, and a seaman’s build, with strong arms, and the wide, rounded shoulders of a fighter.

I tend her wounds, and, at the end, when I have done what little I could to ease her, her eyes open, and find mine own, and she makes a small smile at me. I smile the best that I can back, and she lifts a hand and brushes my cheek.

Oh.. my mother… I have heard stories told of one’s losing of the heart.. Aye, I never thought to feel that in my own self. But this day I do, and it goes with out so much as a by your leave to this rude and uncouth foreigner with so little effort, and so little warning that I feel myself lightheaded.

Gabrielle stopped again, and leaned back., folding her hands in her lap, and just waiting for the emotions to subside. Too close to home, huh Gabrielle? I know.. what this writer felt.

"Gabrielle?" Came Elaini’s gentle voice. "Stop.. please. You look upset."

Tody crawled away from the tunnel, and snuggled up against her side quietly, wrapping one short arm around her waist. "You.. can See this." He said in a low voice.

"Yeah." The bard admitted. "I can." She took a deep breath, and shook her head. "In another time, another place…" She rubbed her temples lightly. "Ok.. well, let’s finish this up and see if there’s any mention of those scrolls, huh?"

Elaini put a hand on her arm. "No.. no further, my sister."

Gabrielle shook her head. "It’s all right. Really." She turned her attention back to the tablets.

She sleeps but fitfully this night, and her wounds pain her much, for I can see the stark whiteness of her knuckles as she clenches her hands. I do what I can, but ill humors ravage her with their sickly heat, and she knows not who she is, or who I am, but speaks softly, achingly in her harsh language words that mean nothing to me. I let her grip my hand, and try to trickle water down her lips when reason takes her, but I know I do little good.

Towards the dawn, she rests quietly for a time, and I look down to see those gray eyes gazing at me with a look of.. I can’t tell what. Sadness, perhaps. Regret, I ken that as well. She squeezes my hand with hers, though where that strength comes from I know not, and so gently, touches mine fingers to her lips before her eyes go closed once again.

I am lost. I have never felt a force so fierce, a need so intense as I do this pale, cold morning. I pray to the mother, to pass us by. I pray for her to not take this strange gift from me, but I know, from the paleness of her face, and the lightness of her breath, my prayers will go unanswered.

I feel mine self shattering, and I know, how well do I, that this cold winter will be both our ends, but I shudder to think mine will be last, and alone, bereft of even her silent presence. My heart cries out in agony, and I feel that I, and not she, have taken a mortal wound the pain is so great. What is this terrible thing? I hurt, just looking at her face. I pray she opens her eyes just one more time, I do not wish to bid her farewell just yet.

Now the end comes close, I feel the cold hands of the Taker hovering beyond her, and I do what all I can, which is gather her in my arms, and give her my life’s heat and what little strength I possess to add to that which fades in her. I pray, one last prayer to the mother to take me quickly, for I wish not to know the empty solitude of this forsaken place.

I close mine eyes, as her are, and commend myself to the Long Sleep, and hope the mother takes us gently into her arms.

I am Ardwyn. She is Elevown of the North.

"I can’t read the rest." Gabrielle sighed, scrubbing the tears off her face with the back of a dusty hand.

"Shhh.. It’s all right." Elaini soothed her, patting her leg in anxious comfort. "Later.’

Gabrielle looked up, pushing the hair from her eyes with a tired expression. "No..it’s not that I don’t want to, I can’t. It’s in a different language.. a different hand."

The forest dweller scooted around beside her, and peered down. "Damn.. it is." She shot Gabrielle a look. "You don’t recognize the language? "

A shake of her head. "No."

"Maybe.. whoever found them..?" Elaini’s voice trailed off.

"Maybe." Gabrielle agreed softly. "No mention of any scrolls." She looked around. "But my guess is that they’d store them in a box, and probably wedged it somewhere under all this stuff. "

"OK.." Elaini glanced at her. "Is there.. can I get you something.. water.. are you.. I tell you what." She took a breath. "Let’s go outside and have some lunch, OK? " She stood up, and dusted herself off. "Then we can look for them."

"Yeah." The bard let her fingers trail along the surface of the tablet, and sighed.. Ardwyn. The syllables sounded very strange in her mind, and her tongue stumbled over them. She gave the silent Tody a pat. "You OK?"

He cocked his head and twitched his ears at her. "That’s so sad." He sighed. "They never even got a chance to…"

We came so close to that, Xena.. do you know I get down and send thanks to the gods every day for that second chance? "Yeah… sometimes you don’t realize how lucky you are until you hear a story like that, huh?:

Tody gave her a soft smile, and hugged her hard.

Gabrielle carefully picked a sunny spot to settle herself in, leaning back against the warmed rocks, and wrapping her arms around her knees. She absently nibbled at the pocket sandwich she'd unwrapped from her pack, and let her eyes wander over the tall spruce tree tops that lifted up from the slopes approaching her position.

What that must have felt like. Her mind mused, trading the sun drenched scene before her for one covered in silent, drifting snow, making her shiver in reflex. Gods. I've faced death.. we both have.. but to know it was coming like that.. Then she stopped chewing, and stared out over the mountain for a long moment. I wonder if that was what Xena felt, that whole day when she was trapped. Oh gods... how did she cope with that? What would I have done? Would I have fought as hard, as long as she did..? Or would I have done what Ardwyn did and just.. give up?

A memory came unbidden to her, of those last few seconds, hanging over a river of lava while two gods fought over her head. Of a voice saying.. 'Don't take your eyes off me."

But she had. She'd felt the top rope collapse, and seen two struggling forms plunge past her headed towards the unnerving heat she felt rising past her legs.

And her body had just given out. She'd let go of the rope with a whispered "Sorry." To herself.. to Xena, standing on the ridge above her. She had been so tired.. and having to deal with Callisto had drained her more than she'd believed possible. She had closed her eyes, and just let herself fall, with one last wistful thought of Xena. And heard a rush of air, and the sudden, shocking pull as her arms were grabbed and her body halted in it's descent And that same voice, calm, almost relaxed. "I got you." Xena hadn't given up, even if she had.. no, her sometimes frustrating, sometimes aggravating, always stubborn best friend had dove off a cliff, head first with no thought to her own safety to make a one in a thousand chance at grabbing her in mid air.

Of course, it worked.

But what if it hadn't? What would Xena have done? For a moment, when she had looked up, and their eyes had met, she'd seen a strange peacefulness in her companion's expression, as though Xena hadn't worried about the outcome at all. One way or the other.. and Gabrielle had a sudden feeling that both of them would have climbed up that rope..

Or neither of them would have.

A warm hand dropped on to her shoulder, and she looked up, startled. "Uh.. sorry. Hi."

Elaini sat down next to her, and studied her face. "You going to finish that, or just hold it for a while?"

"Sorry." Gabrielle laughed sheepishly, and took a large bite, chewing steadily. "Just thinking." She swallowed, then glanced at her sandwich. "Mmm." She examined it, then chuckled softly. Xena had tossed her the packet casually as she was leaving, making some smart comment about bards and food that Gabrielle had conveniently ignored. All the stuff I like. Gods.. just when I think she pays no attention to things like that, she surprises me. And for some reason, just that little offhand thoughtfulness snuggled down inside her and warmed her all over. She looked up at Elaini and smiled, for real this time. "So.. what makes you think there are any scrolls here, Elaini?"

The forest dweller relaxed a little, and settled back against the wall. "Well, it's a legend of ours, of course." She sighed. "We have one of the scrolls.. kept in a box in Wennid's store room. It was damaged in water.. but there are still parts that tell how to set fractures, and sew up wounds, and things like that. The scroll references others... and the story has it that there's a box of them somewhere up here."

"Where did it come from?" The bard asked, taking another huge bite and chewing with almost sensual enjoyment. Huh..didn't realize I was this hungry.

Elani shrugged. "A hunting party found it.. in a small lean to one day. " She gave Gabrielle's lunch packet a poke, and grinned. "Hey..how do you luck out? All I got was bread and cheese."

The bard winked. "Gotta pick the right packer." She studied the additional goodies, and plucked a raspberry out, handing it to Elaini. "Mine's about the best there is."

"Thanks." The healer smirked with amusement. "Must be nice."

Gabrielle popped a sweet nut ball into her mouth, and nodded. "Uh huh." She shared her berries with Elaini and Tody, who had wandered over and was playing with a collection of pebbles he'd gathered.

"These are good." Elaini commented, turning her face towards the sun and yawning a little. "Didn't see any in the kitchen, though... Would have snagged them."

Gabrielle recalled Xena slipping into their cot while she was still rubbing the sleep out of her eyes, and the warrior had tucked a small bundle away near her saddlebags while she pulled on her practice gear. "No.. I think the great berry hunter struck again." She leaned back, folding her hands over her stomach, and sighed contentedly, taking a moment to enjoy the feel of the sun on her face, counteracting the cold breeze. Then she rolled her head towards Elaini, and opened one eye. "Guess we'd better start looking again, huh?"

The healer groaned. "Yeah... Ares, that hike took it out of me." She complained good naturedly, watching Gabrielle stand and stretch. "I'm not used to this stuff like you are."

The bard smiled quietly to herself, and reached down a hand. "Here...need a hand up?"

The forest dweller snorted. "I'm not in *that* bad shape." She hoisted herself to her feet, and dusted her overalls off. She took Tody's hand, and started to walk towards the opening. "Though.. " She chuckled ruefully. "With Jess..I think we're going to just reinforce each other's lazy tendencies.. I could be in a lot of trouble, here." She lit her torch, and guided Tody ahead of her. "Not a problem for you, I know."

Mmmm.... Gabrielle mused to herself. "Well, actually, I get accused of being a bad influence all the time." She chuckled, as they ducked back into the outer cavern. "And I'll admit to an active campaign to get her to relax a little." A rueful grin "It ain't easy, though."

Elaini planted the torch firmly in a makeshift wall sconce, and lit a second, glancing over her shoulder at Gabrielle. "She seems.. really intense."

"That's one word for it." The bard muttered under her breath, as she lit her own torch. "Ok, let's go." She led the way, this time, into the inner cavern, and settled her torch snugly between two rocks. Half the inner cavern had been the victim of a slide of some kind, because a pile of slate chips covered a good portion of the artifacts, and Gabrielle realized they were in for some digging. "We might as well get started."

They set up a relay system, with Gabrielle and Elaini digging gingerly through the sharp slate chips, and piling them into a sack. Tody would then sturdily grab hold of the sack, and pull it into the outer chamber, emptying it in an out of the way corner. The sun was making it's way westward before they finally uncovered a large slab of stone, which rocked gently when Gabrielle rested her foot against it. "Looks like this moves." The bard commented, kneeling down and examining the surface.

"Yeah." Elaini sighed, wiping a tired hand across her brow, and running her fingers through her furry nape. She watched as the bard set her fingers under the sharp rock, and lifted up slightly, causing her arm muscles to stand out in relief against her dust darkened skin. .

"Ugh." She released the stone, and rested her forearms on her knees. "No way. Xena might be able to lift that, but not me."

Elaini's eyebrows lifted, and she tested the rock against her own strength. "Not in this lifetime, my friend. " She laughed. "We'll need a few strong backs to move that one." She glanced around. "And it's almost dark. We'd better put this off until tomorrow, when I can bring up some help."

Gabrielle tapped her fingers lightly on the surface, and nodded. "Sounds good to me." She studied her hands. "I need a bath." This with a grimace, which she shared with the healer. "Glad the return trip's downhill."

They both grinned, and Tody laughed, scooping up his pebble collection and stuffing it in a small sack he was carrying. "This was cool!" He grinned. "Can I come with you tomorrow?"

Elaini straightened up with a heartfelt groan, and stretched out her back. "If you promise to stay out of the way when they're moving around stuff here, OK?"

"OK." He readily agreed, standing up, and shaking himself vigorously.

Gabrielle let them precede her, and turned at the entrance to the inner cavern, to look back inside at the remains, and the tablets. The last bit of that story tickled her curiosity, and she briefly debated trying to copy it down for later study. Have time for that tomorrow, I guess. She decided, and ducked into the outer cavern, where Elaini and Tody were packing up their gear.

She joined them, hoisting her kit, and followed them out onto the plateau, where the setting sun was staining the dark granite a bloody shade of crimson.

"Brrrr." The bard shivered, as a cold draft sidled up the mountain path and brushed her hair back. She sighed, and opened her pack, digging the waterskin out. "Wish I'd..." And smiled in gentle reflex as her hand brushed the familiar texture of her lighter cloak, folded tightly, and packed with neat economy at the bottom of the bag. Oh.. you get a nice, big hug for that one, partner. I thought we'd be back well before the sun went down.. She shook the fabric out, and settled it around her shoulders with a chuckle, and started down the steep path.

"If she has twins, I want one." Jessan murmured into Xena's ear, as they stood watching a wary Argo as she flirted with a very interested Eris

Xena raised an eyebrow at him. "You do, huh?" She let her eyes travel over Jessan's black stallion thoughtfully. "He tend to throw doubles?"

Jessan smirked. "Uh huh."

The warrior leaned against the corral fence, and sniffed speculatively. "What about you?"

Got a vivid blush back that colored his entire muzzle brick red, causing Xena to burst into laughter, and startling Ares, who was standing up on his hind legs, front paws hooked over the lower corral railing.

"Roo?" He turned his dark head towards the sound. "Grr."

Xena dropped a hand down and scratched his ears. "Sorry about that.. I couldn't resist." She chuckled, resting her chin on the arm draped over the railing.

Jessan sighed. "Sure.. sure.." He rubbed his face, willing the heat to fade. "Xena, I gotta ask you one question." He waited.

She gave him a look. "And that is...???"

"Oh. Right.. um... " His eyes dropped down. "Ares???"

Xena sighed, and reached down, lifting the wolf up and cradling him in her arms, causing the wolf to squirm around happily until he could reach her face with his tongue, and started kissing her. "Stop that." She growled.

He paused, then blinked his yellow eyes.

Then licked the tip of her nose and wagged his tail.

Her turn to blush, and his to laugh. Then she shifted the wolf, and pointed his muzzle towards Jessan. "Look." She pointed. " Dark hair, light eyes... " She grabbed the puppy's bristling beard. "Dark beard.. he looks just like him."

Jessan stepped back, and put his hands on his hips, and cocked his head at her. "NO way."

She raised her eyebrow and grinned in silence.

He swallowed audibly. "You really do know him, don't you." It wasn't a question.

"Yeah." She replied, softly. "Better than I want to."

A small silence fell between them. "Anyway.." Xena finally said, setting the wolf down. "When I found him... I wasn't.. " She stopped, and turned towards the corral, watching Argo slid her neck over Eris’ with a small smile. "I wasn't in the best frame of mind." She rested her chin on her fist, laid over the upper railing. "Just seemed to fit, that's all."

Jessan stepped closer, and laid a tentative hand on her arm. "Xena.. are you.. all right with this? I know.. it's not something you really.. wanted."

The warrior stayed quiet for a long time, eyes watching the two horses in their courtship. She let one finger trace the rough wood, then glanced up at him. "Yeah." And a quiet nod. "I fought it for so damn long.. when I finally let it start happening, it was like drowning.. " She paused, and her lips quirked. "In a good way." She added. "But I'm a pretty good swimmer." That in a drawl. "I'll be fine." Another pause. "But thanks for asking."

He nodded briskly. "Right. Um.. well, it looks like they’re doing just fine." He jerked his rounded jaw at the two horses, who were nuzzling each other.

Xena regarded her mare, and chuckled deep in her throat. "Yep." The sunset burnished Argo’s coat to a fiery hue, and brought out faint highlights in Eris’ dark hide. Idly her gaze scanned the horizon, then stopped when she got to the head of the path out from the village.

Movement, and now Jessan’s eyes caught it as well. They watched for a moment, then glanced at each other and grinned. "Guess we’d better go see if they found anything." The warrior commented.

"Yeah." Jessan agreed amiably.

The walk down gave Gabrielle time to think about the tablets. Way too much time, and she found herself letting the tale take her mind in directions she really didn’t need it to go. C’mon.. let’s not play that what if game, OK? Your story had a different ending, Gabrielle.

They reached the end of the path, and moved into the village proper, and Gabrielle shaded her eyes from the setting sun as she spotted two tall figures moving towards them out of it.

"Roo!!!" Ares yodeled, bounding through the grass and leaping up against her legs.

"Hey Ares." The bard smiled, ruffling his fur, then looking up. And, moved by a instinct she was too tired to fight, she walked right into Xena’s startled arms and buried her face in the warrior’s tunic, deliberately letting herself feel their connection, warm and solid and real as the cold wind, and the scent of pine around them.

"Hey there… " Xena said softly into her ear. "What’s wrong?" No answer from Gabrielle, who just held on tighter. "All right.. I’ve got you. Take it easy." Her blue eyes swept up and found Elaini’s with a cold, sharp look. "What happened?"

The forest dweller shook her head. "It .. I don’t know, Xena. There was a story on those tablets we told you about.. she read it.. it was.. really sad, but.. " she shrugged helplessly. "I don’t know." Her brow creased in concern as she regarded the silent bard.

Gabrielle lifted her head, and cleared her throat a little. "I’m fine." She looked at her worried partner. "Sorry.. I didn’t mean to… " She loosened her grip, and straightened the fabric of Xena’s tunic. "I wasn’t thinking. Really, I’m fine. Just a little chilled, that’s all."

Blue eyes locked intently with her green ones. A quirked eyebrow that told her she wasn’t being believed. She returned it with a quietly plaintive look, that meant later. Xena’s brows drew together for a long moment, before she relented, and let out a sigh. "Lestan’s invited us for dinner. You up for that?" Her direct stare let the bard know it was more than OK to say no.

"Sure." She smiled, giving her partner a pat. "I need to wash up though. I have granite dust in the worst places."

Xena nodded reluctantly. "All right. See you over there. " That to Jessan and Elaini, who were standing by quietly. Jessan nodded, and slipped his arm around Elaini’s with a little smile.

They watched the two humans walk towards their cot, then Jessan turned and studied his lifemate with serious eyes. "What the heck happened?"

Elaini gave him a bewildered look. "Really, Jess.. I have no idea. Yeah, the story was sad.. it was about two strangers who were shipwrecked and ended up wintering the cave. It was a rough winter, and they didn’t make it. I don’t.. she seemed ok when we left the cave.. I don’t understand."

Jessan shook his head. "We’ll find out later, I expect. " He bumped her lightly with his shoulder. "Come on.. mom’s doing some of those little meat pies.. wanna get some before dinner?"

Elaini struggled with her concionce and lost. "Sure." She grinned, tucking his arm in hers, and starting the short stroll to his parent’s house.

Gabrielle heard the door shut quietly behind her, as she made her way to the soft couch and collapsed on it. Dinner had been… pretty nice, actually. She’d been able to get away with only three stories before Xena intervened, laying a hand on her shoulder, and quietly telling the assembled forest dwellers she needed to rest. But she’d been distracted all night, and she knew her partner could tell, saw it in the studied intensity of her gaze, and the protective arm she’d kept draped across Gabrielle’s wool clad shoulders.

The bard let her head tip back and rest on the couch, staring up at the ceiling while listening to Xena stir the fire, and clatter around with whatever it was the warrior was doing. Then she felt a cool hand on her forehead, and she opened her eyes. "Hi."

Xena perched on the arm of the couch, and put two fingers under Gabrielle’s chin, tilting her face up to make eye contact. "Ready to tell me what’s going on with you?"

Blunt as always, Gabrielle thought, that’s my Xena. And she stopped and thought about that statement, and smiled. "Long day… "

Xena wasn’t buying that, and the sharply arched eyebrow emphasized the fact.

"I know… I know. " The bard laughed. "I’m lying. No.. really it was. And.. that damn story.." She closed her eyes, and rubbed her temples with one hand. "Just.. touched a nerve, I guess. " She finished quietly. She felt Xena’s hands run lightly across her neck, and heard the warrior sigh, then the fabric shifted as she got up, and walked back to the fire.

Gabrielle gazed at the ceiling timbers in weary tension. "It’s not like.. I mean, I’m used to sad stories, Xena..gods know we see enough of them, right?"

"Mmm." The warrior agreed, kneeling by the fire and working at something.

"Right… so.. I don’t know.. it’s.. I guess it’s just so sad to think about those poor people, alone there in the cold…" She shook her head. "And then not to be able to read the ending.. augh.. torture."

Xena returned, and settled on the other side of the couch, holding a cup out to the bard. "Here." She settled back with her own mug. "That’s got something to relax you a little in it."

Gabrielle sniffed suspiciously, then quirked a grin. "I get it. You figure if you dump enough mint and honey into anything, I’ll drink it, right?"

This got her a full out dazzling grin in return, that sent warm relaxing tendrils through her faster than any infusion could. But she sipped the tea anyway, since it was warm, and Xena was exactly right – stick enough mint and honey into anything and she’d probably drink it right down. "Thank you." Her eyes lifted to Xena’s. "And thank you for lunch, and for remembering to pack my cloak, when I didn’t."

"Hey.. ex warlords are useful for something, right? We’re big on details." Xena deadpanned, taking a sip of her own tea, and going serious. "Now.. tell me about this story, hmm?"

Gabrielle hesitated. "I don’t…"

Xena patted her chest, and cocked her head. "C’mere."

The bard obeyed, snuggling up against Xena’s right side, and feeling the solid weight of the warrior’s arm close over her.

"Better?" Came the soft question.

Gabrielle nodded, and took a breath. "Yeah.. now I think I can go with it."

And so she did, telling the story out slowly, and trying to remember the details of the oddly scripted language. It was all right now… the story seemed much more distant, now that she was in the security of Xena’s arms and telling it. She felt her body relaxing, a combination of whatever the Hades Xena had put in that cup, and the gentle ministrations of the warrior’s hands which were easing the tension out of her muscles. Eventually, she let her head drop onto Xena’s chest, and closed her eyes, feeling the waves of sleep wash over her.

"Feel better now?" The voice burred low into her hearing, and she nodded sleepily.

"Wanna know the ending.. Xe.. " She mumbled. "Damn language."

Xena raised an eyebrow, both at the diminutive, which Gabrielle never, ever used for her, and the language insult. Better check what I put in that cup. She mused, a touch startled.

"What if." Gabrielle whispered.

The warrior gently stroked her hair, and felt Gabrielle settled more firmly around her. "What if what, love?" she murmured.

The bard’s breathing started to level out. "Could have been them." She mumbled, then Xena felt her body lose it’s tension.

Which the warrior picked up in triple measure. Damn… as she caught that last whisper. No wonder it struck a nerve. Yeah, we could have, couldn’t we. Oh, Gabrielle. She pressed her cheek against the bard’s hair, and let out a long breath.

And her attention turned to the tablets, which had peaked her own curiosity. The Celts.. had a place in her heart… and this lone Welsh and her Viking companion fired Xena’s interest more than she’d let on to the bard.

A runic language , the bard said? No.. Gabrielle wouldn’t know it.. it came from far over the sea, and didn’t often grace the scrolls of this land. It would be very foreign to the bard.. but not to a certain ex warlord, who, as part of her hard gotten learning, knew the seafaring languages, in both spoken and written forms. She could, she mused, have probably communicated with both of them. A bit.

I could read it. The idea flirted across her consciousness. I could.. and.. NO, Xena.. damn it, wasn’t that spectacle you made of yourself enough yesterday?

But.. I could. I could be in and out.. and she’s sleeping.. the idea drilled insistently at her. I can’t. No.. it’s cold, it’s dark, for Ares’s sake, you idiot, cut this out!

Her eyes fastened on Gabrielle’s peacefully sleeping face, the curve of her cheek gently reflecting the firelight. She wants to know what that said… it really means something to her.

I could, Xena considered. Wait until tomorrow, and just have her copy it down and bring it here. But the thought of the tablets, and the secrets up there… what if I could just.. it would just take a minute, once I was in there.

Once I was in there. That’s the real story right? Xena stroked the soft hair with the back of her fingers. You won’t even feel it, love.. you’re down so deep. Will you forgive me? I have to try. I promise you.. I’ll just go in, and read that part, and be back here in no time.. and when you wake up, I’ll tell you what it said..

The bard nestled closer, and her hands closed gently on Xena’s tunic, and the warrior spent a long moment just holding her close, and whispering softly to her. Then she stood, and crossed to the round bed, kneeling and laying her partner down, and drawing the covers around her protectively. She reached out and smoothed the hair out of Gabrielle’s eyes with infinite tenderness, then leaned over and touched her lips to the bard’s forehead. "Be right back." She promised.

She walked across the room, picking up her heavy cloak from where it was draped over the couch and settled it over her shoulders, then let her eyes rest once more on the sleeping form for quiet moment before slipping out the door and into the cold, dark night.

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Bound – Part 10

By Melissa Good

For DISCLAIMERS see Part 1.

The wind had died down to sporadically fitful gusts, and Xena’s footsteps sounded unnaturally loud to her ears as she threaded her way through the village and headed up towards the ridge. The crisp, cold air carried every noise with uneasy clarity, and she was aware of the soft crunch of rock fragments under her boots, and the sighing of pine needles brushing each other, and the gentle rustlings of night creatures getting out of her path.

If it wasn’t for the twisting in her guts, she reflected soberly, she would have enjoyed the run. It was a beautiful, clear night, and the stars fairly blazed at her when she looked up through the canopy of trees at them, and the air felt clean and refreshing after the evening spent in the overfull and fire heated gathering hall.

Glad I didn’t take seconds. She considered, wryly. The way my stomach feels, it would have been wasted effort. And Gabrielle hadn’t either, which was yet another tip-off that the bard was still disturbed over her day.

Sooner than she’d looked for, she was topping the crest of the plateau, and found herself slowing to a halt on the moonlit rock strewn path, facing the towering granite wall with its dark, uneven opening.

She took a deep breath, and tried to quell the nerves tying her guts in knots, with little effect. Gods.. this isn’t going to work. A fit of wind brushed her hair back, and she blinked as her eyes teared from the cold, dropping her gaze to her boots and kicking a bit at the loose rocks, concentrating on regaining her calm. And her wits.

All right. Her dark head came up, and she fixed her unwavering gaze on the opening. It’s just a cave, Xena. She unfolded her tightly crossed arms, and forced herself to move forward. I am gonna read those damn tablets. She allowed the thought to repeat incessantly, as she reached the opening, and laid a faintly trembling hand on the cold rock face. All right, all right… I can do this. And ducked her head to enter.

Flash of movement, and a sudden rush of musky scent caught her off guard, and she jerked upright, but not in time to escape the scrambling rush of an animal exploding through the opening. A wild roar overwhelmed her sensitive hearing, and before she could even move, a huge form barreled into her, hot breath flashing by her ear, and claws tearing at her cloak.

Only patiently honed reflexes saved her life. The animal bore her down, and made a tearing swipe at her chest, leaving a trail of fire behind, but she’d gotten her legs up and put her feet against it’s barrel chest as it was falling on her, and now she slammed her back against the ground and pushed off, throwing the beast against the rock wall and rolling clear.

Bear. Male, pretty young. Her mind cataloged the threat as she came back up on her feet, and sank into crouch. Oh gods… Her shoulder screamed, and she glanced down to see red staining her tunic, and the shreds of her cloak swinging free.

The bear scrambled to his feet, and roared, standing up and reaching for the stars before he dropped to all fours, and bolted towards her, mouth open and grasping for her. She waited for him to come close, then jumped over his head, landing on still shaking legs, and watching him tumbled over the edge of the path, and into the steeply sloped hillside. Unable to stop, the bear kept rolling, until he crashed into a large tree on a lower slope. Slowly, he got to his feet, and shook his heavy head, turning it to look up at her balefully.

And decided to look for an easier, less elusive enemy, as he grudgingly turned, and limped off into the darkness of the trees.

Xena pressed her back against the rock wall, and let herself slide down, until she was sitting just outside the cavern entrance. She dropped her head back against the stone, and took controlled breaths until the fierce pain in her shoulder dulled to an intense throbbing, and then, finally, put a hand up to assess the damage.

The hand came away covered with blood, and she flinched, but pulled the torn fabric away from the wound and examined it. Gods that hurts. Her mind groaned. A second look, though, reassured her that the gouges, while painful, were relatively shallow, having been partially blocked by her cloak. Oh boy. She sighed. This takes being a clueless idiot to new heights, Xena. So damned tied up in being afraid, you forgot to listen to your own damn instincts. Gods. It’s a good thing I’m going home. I’m getting to be totally useless. To myself, to her.. what in Hades is wrong with me? She sighed again in self disgust, letting her head fall against the rock and closing her eyes. Some lame excuse I came up with to come up here, just because my damn ego can’t stand the thought of someone knowing I’m afraid of something. How pathetic is that.

Well.. let’s just give it our token try, right? Giving the cavern an irritated look, she gathered herself up, and, before she could think better of it, swung herself inside the opening, and against the inside wall.

Darkness. Silence. Still air. It collapsed on top of her, and she could only hear a dull roaring in her mind, as she fought to control the wild impulse to run. Oh no. I am not moving. She wrapped her arms around her knees, and concentrated on breathing. The panic rose, and cascaded over her, and she struggled to stay motionless, just breathing, just waiting. Focusing her thoughts on the pain, and the anger, as she curled her arms tighter, and just hung on. I am not moving. The darkness pressed harder, and she took short, savage breaths, willing it to back off.

It took forever, at least, but gradually she felt the panic start to lessen, and the roaring slowly faded, leaving her exhausted. She slumped bonelessly against the wall, shivering as the cold stone leached heat from her body.

She had no idea how long she just lay there, until she’d gotten back enough motivation to push herself upright and very slowly, cautiously, extend her legs out in front of her. OK..OK.. that’s better. She kept her eyes closed, and now could hear the subtle sounds of the cave, as the wind entered the crevice and moved the pebbles around, and the mountain settled around her.

Opened her eyes, and waited, patiently, until her night vision adjusted, and began to show her very faint outlines in the soft moonlight coming from the entrance. Her breathing calmed, and steadied, and she let out a deep sigh of relief. I did it. A shaky smile traced across her lips, as she glanced around the cave, taking in the deep pile of stone chips, and the darker opening just across from her. I.. can’t believe it. I didn’t think… She ran a still shaking hand through her hair and blew out a long breath of relief. I did it. Now the smile came more surely, and she glanced across the cavern toward the other opening. One down.. one to go. She groaned, getting her feet under her, and standing up. Before I chicken out.

Wincing, she stepped across to the pile of torches Elaini and Gabrielle had left, and lifted one, jamming it between two rocks embedded in the floor, and lighting it with an awkward, left handed motion. Ouch.Her body protested, the deep scratches starting to stiffen up.

The torch fluttered into welcome life, dancing crimson shadows on the interior of the cavern walls, and picking out the chips of gypsum embedded in them. She took another, calming, breath, and lit a few more torches, padding about the cave to place them, until the warm light satisfied her. That’s.. a little better. She sat down for a moment near the inner entrance, and let her head fall into her hands. Come on.. come on, you can do this. You’re halfway there. Her hands clenched, and she rested her forehead against them, then stood up, and squared her shoulders. Ok. I am going to go read those damn tablets.

Lifting a torch, she walked steadily over to the darkened inner entrance, and thrust the light through, peering in behind it.

It was worse in here, she reflected, edging in and pressing her back firmly against the inner wall. Closer.. and the air was still and hung heavily around her. Gods.. the panic started to rise, and she closed her eyes firmly, forcing it back down, and concentrating on keeping her breathing steady. Her hands started to shake, and she carefully wedged the torch into a crack in the wall, and folded her arms across her chest, waiting patiently. She concentrated on how much her damn shoulder hurt, and that distracted her mind enough to make the edgy fear fade again, a mixed blessing, she thought if there ever was one.

Finally, she was able to raise her head and look around, blinking to focus in the dim, guttering light of the torch. The spot where they had been working was evident, a fresh gash in the tumbled pile of stone rubble, and several small clear spots on the dusty floor, two smaller and one larger. She knelt down by one of the smaller ones, and brushed her fingers against the floor – even hours later, the residual scent was distinctively Gabrielle’s. That brought a faint smile to her face, and she turned her attention to the dimly lit tablet in front of her. Need more light for this.. she mused, standing up and moving to the entrance, then slipping out and grabbing one of the remaining torches, lighting it, and bringing it back into the smaller chamber with her.

She sat down cross-legged in front of the tablets, and rested her elbows on her knees, peering down. Then she paused, and lifted a hand up, rubbing her eyes and swallowing. Need to just sit a minute, I think. She propped her elbows on her knees, and let her head rest in her steepled hands for a while, until the fuzzy feeling she’d been having faded, and she felt some semblance of her normal alertness. Better. She analyzed, opening her eyes again, and folding her hands together, peering over the tops of them at the patiently waiting tablets.

Xena ran her eyes over the scrawled text for a few minutes, allowing her mind to get used to the meter and sequence. She took a breath, and started reading from the beginning, catching little things that the bard had missed, since she was reading aloud, and translating for her two companions. Things like.. the two had been part of an advance scouting party, looking for a nice, unobtrusive shore to land on.

A dark eyebrow curled up. Didn’t think they'd ever come this far to the south. Interesting.

Things like the fact that the Viking was a younger child of a noble house, and that her brother had been in command of the vessel.

That the Celt was a shaman’s daughter, whose clan was caught in a Viking raid and taken as servants, as was their custom.

Then she became immersed in the story, and felt the anguish of the writer, as Gabrielle had, and knew why. She sees herself there. The thought was quiet. Gods.. was I ever.. that cold to her? Xena thought back, and bowed her head. Knowing now what I do.. there are a thousand things I wish I could take back.. do over. She reached up and wiped her eyes. Guess I should be glad she was too stubborn to give up on me…

A hot long day, when both of their tempers had been frayed, by the sun, and the dust, and stubbornness of the villagers they’d been unable to convince to move out of the way of an advancing flood.

Gods, they’d tried… but in the end, the village with it’s people and contents had been swept away, leaving little but some thatch floating in the floodwaters, and the distance sound of goats bleating in panic.

They’d been sniping at each other since, Gabrielle angry that she’d refused to go chasing downstream to pull the idiots out of the water, and herself just… tired and disgusted and not in the mood for villagers, or testy young girls.

"You wanna go help them? Go ahead." Xena had finally snapped. "I’m not wasting my time on people too stupid to listen to me." And her gaze had raked the bard, as though adding her in to that summation.

Then she’d deliberately moved a little distance away, and picked a tall tree to sit under, working on a bit of armor that had gotten bent in the flood. Gabrielle hadn’t said a word, just picked up her scrolls, and walked off towards the cresting river.

She’d finished the armor, then glanced up, noting that the girl was still missing, and giving a disgusted sigh. "Damn her." She’d muttered to no one in particular, and stood, dropping the armor back into her saddlebag, and dusting her hands off. "Better make sure she didn’t do something idiotic, Argo." She’d given the horse a pat, then walked quietly off in the direction Gabrielle had taken.

Found her sitting some distance down the bank, with her back wedged against at rock, and the scrolls lying forgotten by her side, and had shook her head, and moved a bit closer, then froze.

Seeing the tears coursing down the girl's cheeks, and the quietly discouraged attitude of her body, slumped against the stone.

"Damn." Xena had sighed, and silently backtracked to their campsite, putting her hands on her hips and staring at the fire in disgust. Then she swore heartily at herself, glared at Argo, and threw her hands up to an uncaring sky, but tightened the buckles on her armor, and took off at a steady fast pace down the riverbank.

She’d come back, hours later, to find the girl sitting quietly in camp, poking at the fire with a long stick. All trace of tears gone, and her face composed in a still, angry mask. Green eyes had jerked up as she padded into the fire lit circle, and started stripping off her armor.

Xena had glanced over her shoulder and briefly made eye contact. Gabrielle had taken a deep breath, and looked about to speak, but she’d hesitated, and Xena had given her a nod. "All safe." Was all she’d muttered, but she’d seen the understanding glint in the girl’s eyes, and had turned away.

Was working her right bracer off when she felt a sudden, warm, clasp on her bicep and turned her head, to find herself looking directly into the girl’s eyes at close range. And there was a caring there that slipped past all her defenses and wrapped around her heart, rewarding her for the long weary hours in a way she had never anticipated.

"Thanks." Was all Gabrielle had said, and had squeezed the arm gently. "Can I help with that?"

Xena had started to make some kind of rude, offhand comment, but stopped, and just smiled a little instead. The girl really meant well, after all. Then she watched in silence, as the hand slid down her arm, and strong fingers set to work tugging at the swollen leather laces holding the bracer on.

It had finally slid off, along with it’s mate, and Xena taken them both and patted the girl on the shoulder. "Pretty hot."

Gabrielle had nodded in agreement.

"Spring, up above that ridge. Interested?" A gruff offer, considering she’d spent an extra hour searching for just such a cool, clear pool.

That had gotten a smile at last from her young companion. "I’d really like that." And their eyes had met. "It’s been a long day."

Xena had nodded gently. "Yeah it sure has." She’d said, letting her voice warm. "Come on." They’d walked off in companionable silence, but Xena had gotten the feeling that she’d come perilously close to losing something she hadn’t even realized she’d wanted. Or so desperately needed.

Sighing, she ran her hand through her hair, pulling it back out of her eyes, and focused on the last part of the last tablet, written in a different hand, in bold, sure runes that carried their own character.

It took a minute, for Xena’s mind to let the runes sink in, and stir her memories of this odd and fluid language, but after some prodding, they started to make familiar images, and she bent her head to read. And slowly, a smile shaped her lips.

Never there was a scurvy wolf with the fur to take down this daughter of the north. Odin laid his hand on my and bade me live to fight again, and so I did. I write this now, in the tongue of the north so that those who come after us may find it, and find the maps I put down, of this land and it’s kind, to aid in the coming of the longships.

If come they not, find they not, for those who speak our tongue are few and read are fewer, and these words are for my kind and no other.

For ye who come – know this first – that the Celti called Ardwyn, a servant of our House of the Red Horn, is a freemen, so said by Elevown, daughter of Ulric, this date and forever after, for service to our house, and to me, and for her gift of friendship, which she laid down at my feet with no thought of return.

Know that we spent our seasons in exploring this strange land, and many things we have seen, and battles have fought, always to winter here in this place, and wait for raiding weather to come once again. We leave this place one last time this day, and go forth, and my weather sense tells me that I will not see this cave again.

What small treasures we have, and the maps and notes, be buried in a long shaft under the stone cap in the center of this cavern. If you be of my kind, you might dare to open it. Do not otherwise – for the fierceness it needs to recover the remnants of our lives will scour you dry to dust for the trying. Odin himself will strike you down, were you to put even such as a little finger on the things I leave inside, and you will fail, for only the strength and the courage of the northlands can bear my test.

Good tidings, my brothers – may your blades run red with the blood of our enemies.

Elevown

Xena sat back, with a thoughtful look on her face. "Huh. " She said aloud, listing to the skittering echoes. "I think I would have liked her." She paused. "Once we stopped trying to kill each other." She chuckled a little, in rueful self knowledge, then studied the stone cap pensively.

I said I was just going to read the tablet. She scolded herself. And then go back, right? But Elevown’s challenge floated softly, tauntingly in front of her and she found herself curling powerful fingers around the sharp stone edging, and tensing her arms, feeling the rock shift willingly under her grasp.

No. She stopped the motion, and let the stone settle, lifting her hands, and putting them flat on the surface. Gabrielle needs to be here for this.

Xena hauled herself to her feet, carefully stretching to avoid pulling on the now thoroughly stiffened shoulder. Need to take care of that, too. She eyed the claw marks disgustedly. I can’t believe I was that sloppy. Gods. She carefully put out the torches, and moved into the outer chamber, dusting herself off, and settling the torn cloak about her as best as she could. She looked around and nodded. Still don’t like it in here much. But I have control of this now. Her mouth quirked, And I know the end of Gabrielle’s story.

She doused all the torches save one, which she carried with her to the entrance, pausing and listening for a long beat before she ducked out into the cold air. Outside, she put out the last torch, and just stood, for a little while, with her arms wrapped around her, gazing up at the canopy of stars.

Gabrielle let her eyes drift open, letting her gaze flick to the darkness outside, then to the empty spot next to her. Nowhere near dawn.. where the.. her eyes lifted to the fire, and stopped there, as she took in the tall, quiet form leaning against the hearth. Saw the stark contrast of dark rust against her tanned, bare skin, and smelled the sharp scent of the herbal cleanser she was using.

"Xena..!" The bard rolled out of bed, heart going double time, and dropped to her knees next to her partner. "What in Hades!" She pulled the warrior’s hand aside, and sucked in a breath. "What.. where…. Did someone here.. why didn't it wake me up…"

"No." The warrior answered quietly, continuing the clean the gashes. "It’s not that bad.. I got off lucky, actually." Then she took a breath. "You were.. pretty deep asleep.. I haven't been gone long."

Long silence from Gabrielle. "You went up to the cave, didn’t you." It wasn’t a question.

Blue eyes lifted to meet hers. "Yes." Came the simple answer. They looked at each other. "You guys made quite a mess in there." Xena added calmly, dropping her gaze, and continuing her cleaning.

Just like that. Gabrielle reflected silently. Like it was nothing at all that she was able to go in there. "What am I going to do with you? Give me that.." She sighed, tugging the pad of linen out of Xena’s hands, and putting fresh cleaner on it, before setting to work getting all the dried blood out of the gashes. "So.. what are these? " She looked up into her partner’s face.

"Bear." Xena shrugged. "Also likes your cave." She waited a beat. "You going to yell at me?" A wistful question. I deserve it. How many times is she going to forgive me for this?

Gabrielle slowly shook her head. "No." She carefully wiped around one of the claw marks, and felt Xena’s skin flinch. "Sorry."

"Wish you would." Xena’s answer surprised her, and she looked up, startled.

"Why?" She searched the blue eyes intently.

The warrior let her head lean against the fireplace and blinked at her. "Cause I’d rather you yell and get it out of your system than have you bottle it up like that."

The bard didn’t stop her efforts, but she sighed. "Not this time, love. I know… this thing was killing you." She added more cleaner, and wiped carefully around the claw puncture right at the point of Xena’s shoulder, which was edged with angry bruises. "And.. I know you.. couldn’t.. go and try to work that out in front of anyone. " She paused. "Even me." In a softer tone. "I’m glad you were able to do it."

A hand covered hers, and stilled her movement, and she looked up. "I am too. But that’s not why I went there tonight." Xena’s voice was very gentle, and she brushed the bard’s cheek with her fingertips. "I wanted to see your tablets."

Gabrielle settled back against her partner’s raised knees and let her brow furrow. "Why? I didn’t think you’d be interested in them… I mean, the story was ok, but… what would you want with that?" She applied the pad to the cleanser again. "I can’t even read the last part… "

"I can." Xena stated quietly.

Dead silence from Gabrielle, who froze with one hand on the cleanser, and the other resting on Xena’s chest. "Um.. I.. Gods…. I never even thought… you.." I never even thought to ask her to look at them.

A depreciating shrug from her partner. "Yeah, I know.. live by the sword, right? Who needs reading?" But she felt the sting. "Most of the time it works to my advantage.. most everyone forgets there’s a brain behind the baby blues." She looked up with a self mocking smile, which vanished when she saw the look on Gabrielle’s face. "Hey.. just a joke, Gabrielle."

"It’s not funny." The bard put the cleanser down, and wrapped her arms around herself. "I know better than that. " Gods.. I spend half my time trying to get other people to see her as something other than a heartless fighter. So what do I do? Hello? Wake up, Gabrielle! The woman speaks and reads umpteen languages, knows every single mortal animal and plant in the world, has memorized all of Greek common and civil law, and is better than you are at math. And you make a comment like that?

"Gabrielle." The voice tickled her ears.

"What?" She growled, still mentally berating herself.

"If you don’t cut that out this instant, I’m not going to tell you what the end of the story was." Xena drawled.

Gabrielle paused, motionless, and stared at her. "Oh.. you really did read it???"

"I really did." The warrior answered, with a grin.

The bard laced her fingers together, and sat quietly, with her best pleading look.

"No more yelling at yourself?" Xena demanded, giving her eyebrow a quirk.

Solemn shake of the head.

"Forgive me for going up there?" Now the blue eyes gentled, and took on a pleading tone of their own.

Gabrielle freed one hand, and laid it against her partner’s cheek. "You don’t need to bargain for that." She replied quietly. "Seeing that weight off your shoulders is worth it."

Xena took her hand, and interlaced their fingers, taking a deep breath. "Listen.. I . read that whole story." This had to be said. "And.. I think I see.. why it upset you."

"Did you?" The bard breathed.

No way to do this except to just say it. "Gabrielle, if I ever… scared you.. or made you feel like you weren’t welcome.. " A pause. "And I know I did… I’m … " Her voice dropped. "Sorry. I never meant to frighten you. And.. " Their eyes met. "there weren’t many days that I didn’t thank the Fates that you chose.. for reasons I still don’t understand.. to stay with me."

Two years, Gabrielle. You’ve been waiting two years to hear her say that. Now she does.. and you realize you’ve forgiven her that a thousand times over, a long time ago. "I know. " She let her head rest against Xena’s knee, and raised their linked hands to her lips. "I kind of figured that out the first time you risked your life for me." Her smile was mirrored. "Or maybe it was the way you just kept coming and getting me out of scrapes. You could have left me out there a dozen times." She nibbled on Xena’s index finger. "Or maybe it was because even on the worst days I had… getting you to smile at me made it ok." That got another smile back. "Yeah, just like that."

But it had been close. Gabrielle knew. She’d been close to giving up, on Xena.. never closer than that night by the river, though. She’d just had it, been tired of the moodiness, the silence, the nasty comments… and her body had been on overload, with the heat, and the dust, and trying to get people out o the way of that damned river.

She’d tried to convince Xena to help yet another stubborn village, and the warrior had simply refused. Had told Gabrielle if she wanted to help them, she could go on her own. Said the villagers weren’t worth her time, and neither, by extension, was Gabrielle.

She’d taken her scrolls, and stormed off, to find a quiet spot and just throw herself down, ignoring the heat, trying to get the warrior’s curt comments out of her mind.

And had found she couldn’t. Weeks of tension between them had worn her down at last, and she found herself regretting her decision to leave home. Really regretting it, for the first time. I can’t stand this anymore. The words whispered to her. She doesn’t like me, doesn’t want me here… I’m not doing her any service by sticking around.

And that had hurt, because there were things about Xena that she liked very much. The courage, the innate sense of justice she glimpsed lurking under that warlord’s façade, and the occasional, very brief flash of humor that always managed to surprise Gabrielle.

But that coldness.. and the lack of.. respect.. she realized she just wasn’t capable of handling it anymore. It just hurt too much. Guess I need to just.. go home. The thought brought unexpected tears, and she let them fall unhindered. Hey.. it was a good try, right? And her head had leaned gently on the warm rock. I just wish… Gods, Gabrielle, don’t be so stupid, She doesn’t need you as a friend.. that much is obvious. She tolerates you, sometimes not even that. Just… give it up.

Decision made, she stood, and walked back to the camp, startled to find Xena gone. Great. She muttered. Probably off sulking somewhere. She’d grabbed something out of their stores, and ate it quietly, then straightened up, and packed up her few things. Might as well start out tonight.

Then she’d sat, and played with the fire, until familiar bootsteps alerted her to Xena’s return, and she composed her goodbye, glancing up as the warrior moved into the firelight. The words froze in her throat, as she took in the mud covered, drenched form. Blue eyes had glanced casually over one broad shoulder at her.

"All safe." Was all Xena had said, and Gabrielle had realized where she’d been these last few hours. She did that for me. The quiet realization hit. Because she knew I wanted her to. And that mattered to her.

She’d stood up, and crossed to where Xena was fighting with a bit of her armor, and carefully put a hand on the warrior's arm, avoiding the cuts and scrapes that covered most of the exposed parts of her body.

"Thanks." She’d said. And she’d looked up into those beautiful blue eyes and seen, in the depths of them, a sudden, quiet, wistful longing that had changed.. everything. "Can I help you with those?" The bracers were covered with mud, and the ties so swollen with river water, that she’d had to use all her strength to unbind them. And seen the dark, vivid bruises underneath, where Xena had deflected rocks in the wild river.

A pat on her shoulder. An offer to go for a cold, clean swim. It was like a door had opened, and she hadn’t stopped to question anything. She’d just entered, and they’d gone on from there. But she’d realized, that hot, angry night, that some things were worth fighting for. And one of those things was this dark, and sometimes cruel person whose heart she now knew she'd touched.

Who had, she admitted, found a path to Gabrielle’s own heart, and was firmly settled inside it. She'd realized that as they both relaxed quietly in the cold spring, leaning back against the same submerged log, shoulders brushing each other. No words passed, but she felt.. a part of something. It wasn't much, but it felt a little.. like… home.

Gabrielle closed her eyes, and pressed her lips against their fingers. "And.. I was scared for you a lot." She let her eyes drift open and find Xena’s. "You were fighting with yourself so hard.. it hurt to watch. " She paused, and gave her partner a direct look. "But I was never scared of you."

"No?" Xena asked softly, pulling her forward and against her chest.

"Nope." The bard answered, snuggling close with a happy sigh. ‘Besides, my story had a happy ending." She tilted her head back, and let their lips touch, closing her eyes as Xena responded, and slid a hand up the back of her neck to tangle in her hair.

"Really?" Xena whispered as they paused briefly.

"Uh huh." Gabrielle nibbled her jawline, and shivered as she felt Xena bite down lightly on her ear. "It’s my story, it’s my ending, and I’m certainly happy."

The warrior’s breath warmed her, as the words slid like molasses into her hearing. "I think they had a happy ending too." She whispered.

Gabrielle’s breath caught. "Then they didn’t…"

"Nope." Xena confirmed, starting to work on the back of her neck, and her breath caught for another reason. "Wanna hear about it now?"

A low throaty chuckle from the bard. "It can wait."

Xena peeled open one eye, and cocked the attendant eyebrow at the pre dawn sky. Not. She snorted, closing the eye tightly and wrapping her body more firmly around Gabrielle’s. Not really remembering how they’d gotten from the fireplace to the bed.. oh yeah. That’s right.. she’d carried Gabrielle, against the bard’s protests about her shoulder being injured and all that.

And because she was just that ornery, she’d proved her fitness by detouring to the window drenched in sillvery moonlight and had held her there, kissing her until they both were breathless.

Xena just grinned, thinking about it. Right now, the moon had set, and it was the darkest part of the night, and she was very happy to pull the covers closer about them and surrender herself back into the warm haze she’d been floating in, and muzzily considered the knowledge that she could now probably participate in the joining ceremony without overwhelming discomfort.

O.. K… Xena. So.. what are you going to say to her?

A number of very silly things floated through her mind, and she cheerfully batted the words around, giving herself a case of silent chuckles. No.. no… come on now, be serious. You used to know how to do that, remember? She lay quietly for a little while, absorbing the warmth of their skin on skin contact, feeling the gentle rhythm of the bard’s breathing against her shoulder, matching her own with unerring precision. What can I possibly say that doesn’t trivialize what this means to me?

She felt a little nibble on her chest, and smiled, but kept her eyes firmly closed.

"You awake?" The words gusted gently against her skin.

"Sorta." Xena mumbled.

"How’s your shoulder?" Another nibble, this time a little lower.

"I’ll live." The warrior responded, flexing the area in question.

"Y’know.. I would have been the first one back into that cave today." Gabrielle commented quietly, sliding a hand up and touching the angry gouges. "I think I owe you my life. Again." Her fingers drifted down, curving across Xena’s ribs, and down her front until they rested on her belly, moving slowly with the warrior’s breathing.

"Just part of the job." Xena replied, with a sleepy smile, giving the bard a kiss on the head. "Pays good." She felt Gabrielle chuckle as she pulled her closer.

"Like that job, huh?" The bard asked, letting her fingers move in slow patterns against the soft skin.

"Uh huh." The answer, in a husky whisper, that brushed her ear with a tickle.

Gabrielle smiled. "Good thing. You’re hired for life." She nuzzled closer. "You knew that, right?"

Xena was quiet for a short while. A thousand reasons for not doing this presented themselves in a calm, rational manner, all of them true, all of them valid, all of them logical. She studied them seriously for a time, then simply walked out of the room they were in and closed, then locked, the door behind her. "Yeah, I kind of figured." She rubbed the bard’s back, and let her hands slide across her waist, giving her a little tickle in passing.

Gabrielle giggled softly, and dropped one hand down to catch the warrior behind the knee, feeling the muscles constrict under her other hand as Xena stifled a laugh. "I got you right where I want you." She growled, running her fingers lightly over the sensitive skin there.

And found herself grabbed firmly by the waist, and lifted up, then settled in the curve of Xena’s arms. "Yep, you sure do." The warrior agreed, cheerfully, pulling her head down for a kiss.

She made it last a long time, until she felt the bard’s hands slip from around her neck, and start a slow exploration, sliding inside her shirt and softly tracing the curve of her ribs. "And I like where I am." She said quietly

Gabrielle paused, and rested her chin on Xena’s collarbone. "Do you?"

"Yeah." Came the fond answer. "I really do."

"Mmm.’ The bard sighed. "I know… um.. " Her fingers traced a pattern on Xena’s neck absently. "I’m not the most experienced person around… "

Ah. Xena mused. I was wondering when we were going to get around to discussing this. She sighed, and settled her arms comfortably around the bard. "Let me tell you something, OK?"

Gabrielle just nodded.

"There’s lots of different ways you can do this, right?" Xena began, waiting for her nod. "Right." She took a breath. "It used to be one of my weapons, Gabrielle."

Dead silence from the bard.

"You know that… I would do.. whatever I had to do to get what I wanted." Xena closed her eyes, so she wouldn’t have to watch Gabrielle’s face. "And I’ve done just about everything there is to be done." A pause. "And I’m not proud of that."

Still no sound from Gabrielle, but warm fingers curled around the warrior’s and squeezed gently. That brought a pained smile to her face. "What I figured out was, unless there’s any kind of feelings behind it, this doesn’t mean much at all. It’s just… an act. Like eating, or throwing a rock, or.. whatever."

Gabrielle slowly let her head drop and rest on Xena’s shoulder. "I never thought about that." She sighed.

Xena gazed at her fair head wistfully. "Then.. I found out that.. when you have feelings for someone, what you’re doing doesn’t matter nearly as much as who you’re doing it with… and the stronger those feelings are, the less it matters. " She slid a hand under Gabrielle’s jaw, and lifted her face up. "And.. sometimes… usually only once in a lifetime, I think.. sometimes.. those feelings get so.. so strong, that all you need is one touch… " Her fingertips crossed the bard’s cheek. "Or one look." Their eyes met, and locked. "One kiss." She tilted her head and felt their lips meet, and the deep, warm flood of their connection poured over them.

They broke apart a little, just enough for Xena to make eye contact again. "And you know you’ve come home." She took a breath. "And that’s how you make me feel." She stroked the bard’s stunned face. ‘So.. don’t you worry, my love. I have no memories that can compete with you."

Gabrielle just looked at her, absorbing the moment, cherishing it’s sweetness completely. "You know." She finally whispered, with a long sigh. "I’m gonna have to start accusing you have having bardic tendencies if you keep this up."

They smiled at each other, then Gabrielle rolled her head to one side and regarded the window, which was greying with the dawn light. "I guess I’d really better get up. I’m supposed to go finish that cave with Elaini today, and then watch the ceremony at noon."

Xena regarded her steadily. "We."

"Hmm?" The bard cocked her head. Hoping against hope that meant what she thought it did.

"We, as in you and I, are going to check out that cave, since our Viking friend seems to have left a few nasty surprises behind, and then.. we, as in you and I, are going to spend a little time in a crystal cavern not far from here." A beat. "If that’s OK."

And got a hug so fierce, it almost stopped even her breathing. That sent jolts of pain through her shoulder, that she didn’t even feel. That made it all worth it. All of it.

"Look." Xena said, for the fourth time. "If you just get out of my way, I"ll take care of it." And was ignored, for the fourth time, by the six arguing forest dwellers, who were trying to decide the best way to get the capstone opened.

"We don’t know what’s in there." Wennid growled, putting her hands on her hips. "It could be full of bats for all you know."

"Bats." Xena muttered quietly to herself, leaning against the wall with her long arms crossed. "And how would they be getting in there.. dig a tunnel? With their wings?"

A muffled giggle told her she’d been overheard.

"Maybe they have little bat shovels." She continued.

"Xena." The whisper was more of a splutter than anything.

"Or maybe they grew in there like mushrooms."

"Stop it." Now Gabrielle was leaning against her. "C’mon. It’s their scrolls. "

"Yeah." The warrior pushed off from the wall and shook her shoulders. "But it’s my patience." She walked up behind Wennid, and gently but firmly grasped the forest dweller’s shoulders, moving her over towards the sleeping platforms and away from the stone cap. When she turned around and headed for the stone, the rest of the forest dwellers moved out of her way without a word. They got a raised eyebrow for their efforts. "Thanks. I’ll take care of this." They all looked at her. She hesitated, then laced her fingers together and explained. "It’s meant to be opened by one person – these kind of caps swivel when you lift them up – if you don’t do it on an angle, you can drop it into the hole.. not a good idea."

"Oh." Wennid murmured. "I see."

She dropped to a crouch, then sat down, bracing a booted foot on either side of the heavy stone, and reaching across it to fit her hands around the jagged edge. Then she took a breath, and arched her body, bringing the stone up with a harsh scrape towards her chest. She paused a second, concentrating, then took a better grip, and lifted straight up, powering the stone free and heaving it over one tensed leg to clatter on the granite floor.

A dark, roughly square hole was revealed, disappearing beyond sight into the floor. From it drifted a taint of musty age, and dampness. Xena dusted her hands off, and regarded the hole thoughtfully, then picked up a slate pebble, and dropped it in, cocking her head to listen. It fell for some seconds before the warrior’s ears picked up the impact. Gods. That’s five times my height, at least. The opening was fairly regular, but small – she measured it with her eyes. Damn. Gabrielle would fit, or me, just. And I don’t think I can do.. that.

A hand on her shoulder. "Don’t you even think about it." Whispered in her ear. All at once, the room seemed closer.. and Xena stood up, and went out into the outer cavern, knowing Gabrielle would follow her.

Which she did. "I mean it." The bard said quietly, folding her arms. "I know that look, Xena." She walked around the warrior, forcing her to look at her. "I’m going down there."

"Bad idea." Xena mirrored her posture. "That tablet makes it pretty clear it’s dangerous."

Gabrielle matched her, stare for stare. "And you point is what? That we never do anything dangerous?"

"It’s less dangerous if I do it." Xena calmly replied.

"Is it?" Gabrielle moved closer, until she was almost touching her partner. "Is it? You don’t think I don’t see you sweating in here? You don’t think I can’t feel what’s going on inside you? "

A hit. The bard saw her nostrils flare, and the muscles in her jaw clench. . "You’re one twitch away from losing it, and don’t’ think I don’t know it." She dropped her voice. "It’s not your fault. But what’s going happen in that dark stone tunnel, Xena? You can’t go in there."

"What if you go in there, because I can’t, and you get hurt. You think that’s any better?" Came the blunt answer. "I’d rather take my chances in the tunnel."

"Don’t you treat me like a child, Xena." The bard warned. "It’s my choice."

Wrong tack, Xena. Wrong tack. Remember Plan B? Stop acting like a damned warlord. "Gabrielle…" She sighed, unfolding her arms, and cradling the bard’s face in her hands. "If that tablet said it was courage they were testing, you’d have my blessings, love. You have more of that than I ever will."

Gabrielle’s green eyes softened, and she reached up and wrapped her hands around her partners. "That’s not true." She replied quietly.

"I think it is.. but what that warning says the tests are for size, and for strength, and for reflexes.. and Gabrielle, I want you to look me in the eyes, and tell me I’m not the better choice for that."

Peaceful silence fell over the cavern, broken by the soft whispers from the inner chamber, and the sigh of the wind entering through the break in the wall, where early morning sunlight poured in and painted a bar almost to their booted feet.

"To Hades with them." Gabrielle finally answered. "Let them stay there."

"You don’t know what’s in them." Xena replied, slowly

"I don’t care what’s in them." Came the soft answer. "Nothing that’s there is worth putting you through that." She took a breath. "Just leave them be. I don’t want to see them. "

Xena’s face went very still. Then she looked at the ground, and felt her shoulders relax. "I’ve never backed down from a challenge in my entire life." She stated quietly. And her eyes swept up, and met the bard’s own. A forced smile. "Guess there’s a first time for everything, right?" She gave the bard’s cheek a pat, and turned with a sigh, slipping back through the opening to the inner chamber.

Gabrielle stood, arms wrapped around herself, and looked at the stone floor for a very long time. Then she shook herself a little, and let out a long breath, and walked to the chamber entrance, putting her hand on the rock and peering through before she entered.

The forest dwellers were clustered around the opening, discussing possible plans of action, and measuring rope to determine the length of the shaft. But Gabrielle’s eyes were drawn to her partner, who was seated quietly against the far wall.

Xena’s head was tipped back, and she was watching the activity with a faintly detached air. Her forearms were braced against her knees, and as the bard watched in silence, the blue eyes closed, seemingly of their own accord, and the broad shoulders slumped a little, as she let her head drop forward and rest against a propped hand. When her eyes opened again, there was a look of quiet defeat in them, that hit Gabrielle in a place so deep, she hardly knew where to start looking for it.

I said.. she was the most complex, the most driven..most determined person I’d ever known. Or ever would. And that’s true. How she sees herself is a really important part of how she is.. and if she thinks she can be beaten… gods.. with that mind, she could convince herself of anything. What will this do to her?

Gabrielle, there’s only one answer to that. Just go do it, you can argue about it later on. She slipped across the chamber, behind the engrossed forest dwellers, and settled down by Xena’s side, hooking her arm through the warrior’s.

"Hi." Xena dredged up a smile for her, turning her head and gazing at the bard. "Did you.. what?" Her focus sharpened.

Gabrielle knew something must be showing in her face. "Go." She decided to say, simply.

Xena froze in mid breath, then studied her intently. "But you said…."

"I know." The bard replied firmly. "But I was wrong. Just go. And please.. be careful." She brought their linked hands to her lips, and pressed them to Xena’s knuckles. Then she released her, and slid back so the warrior could stand up.

Blue eyes looked intently into hers for an endless moment, before Xena did stand, and extend a hand to her.

She took it and was pulled to her feet, and into a warm hug, which she returned, and when Xena released her, she brushed by the bard’s ear. "You’re my anchor, love. Don’t forget that."

Then the warrior was walking forward, nudging Tobias out of the way. "None of you is going to fit down that hole. " She stated, seating herself at the edge, and dangling her legs in. "Only me or Gabrielle, and I won the dinar toss."

Golden eyes flicked to the bard, who crossed her arms in silence, then back to Xena.

"Wish me luck." Xena said quietly, then slipped over the edge, and felt for the slight handholds she’d spotted in the dim light. A rope, with the sharp edges, would be too dangerous. She’d have to hope her Viking friend had made it possible for herself, at least, to get down into this shaft. And if you could do it, so could I. She silently informed the long dead sea raider.

She found the first set of handholds by touch, and lowered herself to the full length of her arms, searching for the second set with her booted feet. Found them.. just a little higher than she expected, and paused, then took her feet off the tiny ledges, and just dropped, trusting her instincts to catch her.

They did, but she wondered briefly how she was going to make the return trip. Once she had her hands firmly wedged in these holds, she found others, closer, and was able to make her way down the shaft with little trouble.

Except it was getting darker, as the torchlight from above faded, and closer, and by the time her boots hit the bottom of the shaft, she was sweating, and her heart was beating so hard it was making her head ache. She stopped, and leaned back against the rock, staring up at the small, flickering square high above her head. I must be crazy. What in Hades am I doing down here? One of these days, my damn pride is going to be the end of me.

The thoughts helped distract her, and she took a torch from the bag she’d strapped on, and lit it. A single, small, irregular passageway led off, and down, with barely enough room for shoulders to clear it. Uh oh. She put the torch up to the entrance, and poked her head in.

Bad idea. She shut her eyes, and concentrated, then slowly opened them again. The passage seemed to end further down, but until then, it was a twisted vein in the rock, with slanted walls, and a low roof. A warm, close smell of rock came over her, and all at once she was back in the cave in, with that same smell, and that same dark closeness.

She gasped, and slammed her back against the passageway, fighting to control the images. It took.. an endless time before she was able to open her eyes, and let out a shaky breath. All right, all right. It’s just a tunnel. There’s an opening on both sides, Xena. You can get out. Slowly, she ducked her head inside the passageway

The fluttering torchlight danced off the embedded crystals in the uneven walls, as she edged down the tunnel, her body turned half sideways to keep from brushing the stone. In any other circumstance, Xena mused, glancing up. I might find this almost pretty. She paused, and reached a hand up, touching a protruding bit of crystallized rock, then sighed and continued on.

It was deathly quiet, only the faint sounds of the mountain breathing, pushing eddies and currents past her, flickering the light of her torch broke it, and the sound of her own movements. Of her own breathing, which sounded loud in her ears.

A few more steps, only, and the tunnel ended, and opened up a little. She sighed in relief, and started forward, then stopped, as she felt a prickle of warning skitter up her spine.

No time to think, she just let battle honed instincts react, and dropped the torch, spinning, and diving out of the way as an object flashed by her and slammed against the far wall, sending a shower of sparks across the floor and over her coiled body.

She stayed where she was, eyes flicking over the floor intently, looking for a trigger. Found none, and now she looked over head, in the very dim light of the almost guttered torch, and saw what almost hit her.

A warhammer, the head easily the length of her arm, on a hilt half the length of her entire body. Damn. She stood up cautiously, and examined the still swinging weapon. And imagined, for a brief, shocking moment, what it would have done to Gabrielle if it had hit her. She closed her eyes, and sat down on the pebbled floor, clasping her hands around her knees and resting her forehead on them for a long moment.

Then she straightened, and blew out a long breath, and stood, dusting herself off, glad that she, too, had chosen to wear leggings with her thick wool tunic against the chill of the cave. She picked up the torch, and gave the warhammer one last look, then continued forward. At least it’s given me something more tangible to worry about. She snorted, feeling the fear in her move back, to a different level, and allow her fighting instincts to surface. Silver lining time, I think.

Now there was danger in the darkness, and she felt her body respond to the threat, as her hearing sharpened, and she sucked in air, testing the currents. Her skin tingled with that other sense she had, which could feel an enemy close – that allowed her to fight with accuracy even when blind. That allowed her to catch arrows in mid flight, and the chakram without looking. It was just.. a knowing.. and she felt it surge up now, and quest ahead of her, probing.. testing….

She grabbed the arrow before it even cleared it’s well hidden niche, and felt a feral smile cross her face. Gotta be better than that, Viking. She sensed a net, and sidestepped it, feeling gently for the release catches, and springing them. Watching in some bemusement as the thick ropes gathered themselves by the ceiling. Not a pretty way to die, she mused. But neither was being crushed or skewered. Our Viking meant business.

Now the passage turned sharp to the left, and Xena stepped warily around the corner, all her instincts at a hair trigger. Nothing. Just a short tunnel, with an opening at the end. Her eyes flicked all over the stone, looking for hidden traps, and finding none, then she paced through the opening.

And she felt space around her, as she hadn’t from the moment she’d dropped into the shaft, and felt a subtle weight lift off her shoulders. She was in a chamber, and the ceiling was high above her head, so high she could hear the faint echoes of her footsteps as she crunched on the floor below her, moving towards the dimly seen walls.

Her nose caught a whiff of oil, and she spotted an age covered torch set in a makeshift bracket at roughly her head level on the wall. Hmm. Her eyebrow quirked. Might as well give it a try… she set her torch against the roughly wrapped one above her, and was slightly startled when it burst into light. She blinked, then walked around the edge of the roughly circular cavern, and lit the other five torches.

Then she planted her own in a crevice, and stood back, putting her hands on her hips, and just looked.

So this was their fortress. She marveled, taking in the faded and crumbling tatters that must have been woven mats on the walls. A firepit’s remains crouched in the center, and to one side was what looked to be a fairly large sleeping platform, with a dusty covering of what might once have been furs.

The crumbled remains of a table stood to one side, and she crouched down, sifting through the pieces and finding carefully wrought stone tools, chipped from the obsidian that lay embedded in the mountain around her. Her fingertips touched the painstakingly flinted knives in wonder, and she lifted one delicately, and tested it’s edge.

Still sharp. She stood up, and circled close to the walls, where irregular crevices had provided storage ledges, where items drenched in dust rested anonymously. Personal things, Xena realized, as she gazed at them. Combs. The faint blurry reflection of a mirror. A hammered piece of copper, with a familiar serpentine design on it. That, she lifted and turned to the light, letting ghostly memories surface.

A rough outcropping roofed over a deeper depression, and she let her hand rest on the overhang as she ducked under it to examine what was.. surely… a harp? So encrusted with age, she had to peer closely at it to even distinguish it’s form, and she leaned closer, to gently blow off the top layer of dust.

And the shelf over her head, pulled by the slight downward motion, collapsed, slamming her to the ground so quickly she hadn’t even had a chance to draw breath in surprise. The loose stones cracked into her skull, bringing on a darkness she was no longer capable of holding back.

Quiet settled once again, broken now only by the fluttering of long patient torches.

Gabrielle watched in silence as her partner’s head disappeared into the dark shaft, then sat down cross legged next to the opening and rested her elbows on her knees. The forest dwellers watched her for a minute, then scattered a little, to explore the small room, and examine the tablets.

Wennid alone settled next to her, and mirrored her posture. "Gabrielle?"

The fair haired human looked up at her with shadowed green eyes. "Hmm?"

"Is.. something wrong?" Delicately asked, and her pale golden eyes made no assumptions. Not with this human, who was far more complex than she had first believed.

Gabrielle studied her for a long moment. "Thanks for asking, Wennid , but it’s not something I’m willing to talk about right now." She held the forest dweller’s gaze, then returned her eyes to the opening.

"Um." Wennid tried again. "I know.. you’re a very private person, Gabrielle… but if it’s something having to do with your gift… maybe I can help?"

The bard took a breath to answer, then felt a cold ball of fear erupt inside her. She closed her eyes, and fought it, concentrating on her partner, and the warmth of their connection. After a minute, it faded, and she opened her eyes with an inaudible sigh. "It’s not." She stated clearly to Wennid. "I can handle it." I should have gone. Damn, why do I let her talk me out things like this? I have to stop that.

Wennid patted her arm, and nodded a little. "All right.. but if you need anything…"

Gabrielle glanced at her, and smiled. "I know.. and, thanks." She breathed a little easier. "I think it’s going to be ok." As she felt the coldness ease, and relax a little. Courage? You think I have courage, Xena? This would be like me deliberately going out and standing on the edge of a precipice. She smiled and leaned back on her hands, watching the rest of the forest dwellers carefully packing up the tablets, preparing to move them.

Wennid unwrapped a package, and handed a piece of flatbread wrapped around some meat to the bard. "You look hungry." She grinned at the human.

Gabrielle laughed, and took the offering. "I usually am." She admitted, cheerfully taking a bite and chewing. She finished the first, and was starting on a second, when she stopped mid motion.

And put the roll down, her eyes fluttering in reaction to the dark pit that had just opened up within her. "Wennid?" She asked, her voice not much more than a whisper.

"Hmm?" The forest dweller answered, turning to look at her. "Gabrielle!" Now the voice sharpened into real alarm at the bard’s expression. She scrambled up, and went to the shocked human’s side, putting a firm hand on her shoulder. "Gabrielle…" Now low and urgent.

"Get a rope." The bard said, forcing herself to take deep breaths. "Now." Her voice took on a fierce edge.

"Tobias." Wennid barked. "Tie off that rope. Move." She turned to the bard. "Gabrielle, what’s happening?"

Green eyes finally sharpened, and met hers. "I have to go down there."

"Ok.. Ok.. " Wennid stroked her arm. "You will. But what’s happening?"

Gabrielle just shook her head. "I don’t know." She watched Tobias toss the thick hemp rope over the edge of the shaft, and without a second thought, she grabbed it an swung herself over and down.

Oof. She grunted, as her weight came down onto her arms, and she swung a little. Don’t look down, Gabrielle. It’s dark anyway. She wrapped her legs around the rope, and started to let herself drop, feeling the harsh strain pulling at her. Why does this always look so easy when Xena does it? Her mind mused, more to give her something to think about other than the horrible feeling she had in her gut than anything else.

Because she spends hours pulling herself up into trees and swinging from branches, Gabrielle, and you don’t. Came the logical answer. She slid further down into the darkness, until she judged she was about half way. The strain in her arms had turned to a deep burning, and she stopped to rest a minute.

A bit more, and her grip gave out, and she fell the rest of the way, hitting with a stinging thump against the uneven ground. The shock sang through her knees and sent a jolt of pain all the way to her shoulders, but she gritted her teeth and let the momentum take her down, and just rolled with it.

She bumped into the far wall, and sat for a minute, wincing. Then she stood and peered into the opening, sensing it’s closeness, but seeing, at the very far end, a tiny glimmer of light. No torch. Very smart, Gabrielle. Tentatively, she entered the passageway, letting her fingers touch lightly ahead of her to prevent her from running into something.

Hang in there, love. I know you’re in trouble. Her mind whispered, as she got to the end of the tunnel, and felt her foot kick something. She looked down, and saw the arrow, and grimaced.

Around the blind corner, and then she saw the torchlight, and her steps went faster, as she entered the round cavern, and stopped, then cursed and ran full tilt across the room to the huddled form she’d spotted.

"Puppy!" Xena’s childishly high voice was becoming testy, as she stumbled through the high grass looking for the cur, who had chased off by the village kids as a lark. "Puppy!" The girl's face scrunched in annoyance, and she sat down for a minute on a rock. She had picked up a couple of muddy rocks and chased the kids off, but the puppy had run, and she’d seen a spot of blood left behind, so she decided to try and follow him. Her ears perked at a muffled whine. "Gotcha!" She grinned, and stood up, running towards the sound.

"Oh." Her eyes had grown round, at the sight of the draggled animal, perched on the edge of the abandoned quarry. "No.. C’mere." She got down on her knees, and extended a hand. "C’mon.. c’mon.. I won’t hurtcha."

The animal sniffed suspiciously, then cautiously extended his head nearer to the small hand.

"Thasit." Xena crooned, wiggling her fingers. "C’mere." She crawled towards him, getting her fingers on his scruff, and puling a little. "Gotcha." She grinned, and half turned at footsteps, but not fast enough to stop the hard shove from a sniggering body, which unbalanced her and sent her tumbling over the ledge and into the softly sloped quarry.

She screamed, and clutched the puppy to her, as they both bounced from sandy ledge to sandy ledge, until one final bounce threw her into the top of an abandoned shaft, and caused the soft sandstone to collapse on top of her.

She could hardly breath, there was so much stuff pressing on her, from all sides, and it was dark, and now.. now she didn’t even have the puppy for company, because that last crash had flung him from her, and she couldn’t find him with her hands. She tried to dig a path, but the soft surface just kept falling in on her, and binding her tighter and tighter.. and the darkness got darker, until she could feel it closing in all around her and choking her to death. "Mama.." she gasped… "Mama…"

A hand on her face.. cool water lifting away the dust. Her name being called. But it wasn’t her mother voice.. not this time.. it was higher, and warmer, and it touched a deep chord in her like none other ever had.

Very slowly, she started to become aware of where she was. Not a quarry, not sandstone.. a deep cavern, carved from granite. And she was no longer six years old, but much older.. and the hands that gently stroked her face did not belong to Cyrene.

With a heartfelt groan, she cracked her eyes open, to see Gabrielle’s concerned face. Xena’s head was cradled in the bard’s lap, and the cold wetness was a piece of the bard’s shirt, torn off in haste. "Hey." She managed to get out, blinking a little, and forcing her eyes to focus on Gabrielle's somewhat blurry features.

Gabrielle’s hands cradled her face, and her expression remained serious. "Xena?"

"Uh huh." She groaned, and swallowed. "Gods.. that hurts."

"All right.. hold on. I"ll get you some water." The bard said quietly. "You were.. calling for your mother.. I was a little…worried."

Xena blinked a few times, and remembered. "Oh damn. Sorry." She swallowed again. "Old history." She started to get up, then thought better of it when a wave of nausea hit her, and Gabrielle grabbed her shoulders.

"Stay put." The bard ordered. "You've got quite a bump there."

Gladly. Xena's mind oozed., and she rolled back over and settled her aching head back into the bard’s warm lap. "How’d you get down here?"

"Climbed. How do you think?" Gabrielle answered testily.

Xena looked up, and for an instant, Gabrielle saw a child’s hurt in her eyes. Then they blinked, and the vision was gone, replaced by an arched brow. "Gabrielle, I didn’t pull a rock shelf down on my head on purpose just to get you down here."

Gabrielle closed her eyes, and let out a long breath, then opened them. "I know.. " She gently hugged Xena’s shoulders. "You just scared me, that’s all. You didn’t know who you were.. you didn’t know who I was… it was like you weren’t even in there. I got.. " She paused. "Scared.. and.. where were you?"

Xena stayed quiet. Then tilted her head back and regarded her partner. "I was… oh.. I guess six or so." She paused. "Was doing some kid thing.. who even remembers. Ended up on the edge of a rock quarry." She stopped again, and felt Gabrielle’s hand link with hers. "Someone thought it would be funny to give me a shove.. I fell into the quarry.. into a .. I don’t remember.. some kind of hole." She closed her eyes against the memory.

"I’ve got you." Gabrielle’s calm voice floated down to her, and it came with a secure hold around her neck.

"Took them.. overnight .. I guess, to find me. " Xena finished quietly. "Just kept.. calling for my mother.. I never… I don’t.."

"It’s all right." Gabrielle stroked her hair gently. "It’s over… I’ve got you."

"I swore… " Came the vibrant whisper. "I"d never be that helpless again."

And that.. explains.. some things. Gabrielle considered, watching her partner’s eyes slowly lose their horror, and return to an almost normal gleam. "I think you kept that promise, love." She murmured into the nearby ear, and hugged her tighter.

Felt the chuckle move through Xena's body, and let out the breath she’d been holding for what seemed like forever. ‘You’re gonna be fine, Xena. Just relax for right now."

"Course I’m going to be fine. " The warrior mumbled, closing her eyes. "You’re here."

And the silence closed down once more.

Gabrielle gazed down at the still form for a long time, her hands never stopping their slow gentle motions – pushing her hair back, smoothing the rumpled fabric of her tunic, brushing the stone dust off her arm.

She tried to imagine herself as a small child, going through a horrible experience like that. And coming out of it stronger, more determined… it said so much about this person she chose to share her life with. "Wish I would have been there, then, Xena." She whispered softly. "I know I would have clobbered whoever pushed you." Her chest tightened. "And I sure could have used a feisty friend like you when I was little." Her fingers delicately traced the planed cheekbones. "Wish we hadn’t waited so long to find each other… though… " she laughed softly. " I feel like I’ve known you all my life."

Unexpectedly, the blue eyes flickered open, and smiled into hers. "I feel like I’ve know you longer than that, love."

Gabrielle blushed. "Uhm.. I didn’t know you were.. I thought you were sleeping…uh…"

Xena chuckled lightly. "It’s all right." She lifted a hand and curled it around the bard’s thigh. "Sleeping with my brains all scrambled up isn’t a good idea… besides I’ve been enjoying listening to you." She gave the bard an impish grin. "And as much as I’m loving just lying here letting you have your way with me, I think we’d better be getting out of here."

"Yeah, I guess you’re right." The bard replied softly. "I’d better go tell Wennid and those guys everything is ok down here." She gave Xena’s shoulder a light knead. "I was yelling pretty loud. I’m surprised they didn’t find a way down."

Xena gazed at her. "Thought your voice sounded a little hoarse. Why were you yelling?"

The flickering torchlight had revealed to her the sprawled, dark haired form, and she’d dashed across the stone floor, and dove to her knees by Xena’s side. Had touched a body so rigidly tense, it felt like part of the stone itself.

"Xena.." She’d called, pulling on one shoulder to turn the warrior’s body towards her, then saw the intense grimace of pain on her face, and instead just pulled Xena’s body into her arms and held on for all she was worth.

After a bit, the tension had eased, but when those eyes had opened, there was no familiarity in them. Gabrielle was looking at a stranger, who stared back at her with uncomprehending blankness.

"Xena?" She’d said, softly, and seen no response, not even a flicker of understanding. "Hey..come back to me here, ok?"

Nothing. And she’d gotten scared, and her voice had risen. "Don’t you do this to me." She’d pleaded. "Don’t you leave me here alone, Xena. "

She’d gripped the warrior’s face in her hands, and stared hard into her eyes, willing her to respond. Willing that blank nothingness to dissolve into the sparkling intelligence she’d always seen there. "You get back here!" She’d finally yelled, panic overriding caution, and she shook Xena hard, and slapped her cheek with some force.

And that had scared her more than anything, not because she’d done it, but because she could do it, and Xena made no move to stop her. Then she pulled back her hand to strike again, and this time.. this time, her wrist was grasped, and held in a flickering motion, and Xena’s eyes had closed again, her lips moving on her mother’s name.

Several moments of senseless muttering, then silence, and then, at last she’d groaned, and opened her eyes, and they had tracked to Gabrielle’s, and warmed instantly, her lips edging into a familiar half grin as she'd recognized who was holding her..

"I"ll tell you later, OK? You just spooked me a little." Gabrielle sighed, and touched her face again, unwilling to lose contact. "Don’t ever do that again, all right?"

Xena’s brows contracted, and she carefully rolled over onto her elbows, then pushed straight up, and into a sitting position facing the bard. "Bring that torch closer." She said, quietly.

Gabrielle did, watching her face closely, seeing the seriousness there. "All right."

A nod from the warrior. "Look at my eyes." A pause, then she smiled gently. "Look at them, not into them, Gabrielle."

"Oh." The bard smiled back. "Sorry. They’re… kind of … uh. Sorry."

"All right – I’m going to close them. When I open them again, see if the dark parts get smaller at the same time." Xena gave her a nod. "Understand?"

Gabrielle nodded. "Yeah..I.. Go ahead."

Xena closed her eyes, and counted to thirty, then opened them again, and looked directly at the torch for another count of thirty, then transferred her gaze to Gabrielle’s face, blinking a little. "Well?"

The bard sighed. "The left one didn’t change." She bit her lip, and watched Xena as she lifted hand and gently touched the back of her head. "Concussion?"

A nod. "Yeah.. looks like it." The warrior winced. "Explains why I feel so lousy." She propped her elbows on her knees and rested her chin on her hands. "Let’s see if I lost any pieces." She thought a minute. "What year is it?"

The bard told her.

"That’s right. I know who I am, and I know who you are. My hometown’s Amphipolis, yours is Potadeia. " She blinked. "We’re outside Jessan’s village, right?"

Gabrielle felt the tension in her start to relax a little. "Yeah."

Xena nodded. "We’re headed home next, right?"

Big smile from the bard. "Oh yeah." She moved closer, and put a hand on Xena’s knee. "Drink up."

The warrior picked up the cup, and slowly drained it, then examined the container thoughtfully. "Still feels… " She hesitated. "fuzzy, I guess." Her mouth quirked. "But I think I’ve got the important stuff intact." She released the cup and curled her fingers around the bard’s hand. "Why don’t you see if you can find those scrolls while I collect my scattered wits, and then we’ll get out of here, huh?"

Gabrielle nodded. "Good idea. I"ll be right back." She stood, and walked quickly towards the entrance, lifting a torch to take along with her.

"Careful of that warhammer." Xena called. "Don’t hit your head on it."

"What hammer?" Gabrielle inquired, then ducked her head outside the chamber and jerked to a halt. "Oh.. that one." She chuckled faintly. "Guess I saw you and lost track of everything else." She shook her head, and kept going towards the shaft.

Xena pushed herself back until she was leaning against the wall, and let out a long breath. Gods. She closed her eyes and rubbed her temples. Haven’t thought about that.. little episode in a while. Must have been the accident, and all that triggered it… poor Mother.

After the first panic had faded a little, she’d finally stopped screaming, and dug around in the dirt until her fingers had touched draggled fur. The puppy had sensed her touch, and started digging his way towards her, until she was able to get a grab on his front legs. She’d pulled and pulled, and finally retrieved the crying puppy from his prison, and that… had, she now thought, probably saved her sanity. She’d had the animal to focus her fear and anxieties on.

Poor Digger. Xena mused idly. She’d refused to let go of him, even after they’d dug her out, finally, and carried her home, with bruises and a broken arm. Cyrene had been forced to add yet another mouth to feed, until one day he just got into the wrong place, and a horse kicked him.

I cried for days. The warrior remembered. It hurt so bad.. I think I decided right then at, what.. age 10? Not to let things get so close to me. She chuckled at herself, as Gabrielle returned, and their eyes met. But that.. brings it’s own heartache, doesn’t it? I’m glad I broke that rule.

"Ok." Gabrielle smiled. "They’ve stopped panicking now." She gave Xena a sheepish grin. "How are you feeling?" She crossed over, and knelt at her partner’s side, setting gentle fingers to the bump on the side of the warrior’s head.

Xena captured her hand, and held it, her face serious. "What I’m feeling is that I’m a very lucky person." The bard froze. "I'm glad you’ve become a part of my life, and I don’t think I say that nearly enough."

Actually.. Gabrielle thought faintly You’ve never said it at all. That must have been some bump on the head. "Funny… I always think about how I’m the lucky one… " She brushed her lips against their linked hands. "That you just decided to let me in that fortress in there." She smiled. "Come on. I gotta get you out of here."

Xena laughed softly, and looked around. "I don’t know… it’s kind of peaceful." She regarded the chamber thoughtfully. "I bet they thought so." Suddenly she felt Gabrielle’s hands on her face, and turned her startled eyes to the bard. "What?"

"You don’t mind being here." Came the quietly tense answer.

Blue eyes flicked over the room, then back at her. "Must have overloaded something.. but.. not right now. No."

Gabriele sighed in vexation. "What is it with you? Can’t you just heal like normal people? "

"Huh?" Xena’s brows contracted sharply. "Gabrielle, what are you talking about?"

"I’ve seen you. A dislocated shoulder, you slam yourself into a wall. You hurt your back, you go flying into a tree and poof. Now this. What IS it with you?" Her voice rose. "I don’t’ want to be having to thump you over the head to fix things, Xena. It’s…. barbaric."

That got a laugh from the warrior. "I don’t do it on purpose."

"Yes, you do. Just to piss me off." Gabrielle responded, giddy with relief.

"No no.. THIS I do on purpose." Xena wrapped a hand around the bard’s neck, and pulled her closer, kissing her soundly, and smiling inwardly as she felt Gabrielle’s body melt into hers.

The bard’s eyes blinked dazedly at her when they parted to breathe. "That doesn’t piss me off."

"I should hope not. " Xena teased, running a fingertip over Gabrielle’s lips, and grinning when the bard caught it in her teeth. "Shall we find those scrolls, my bard?"

Chuckling, they stood, Gabrielle holding her partner’s arm in a firm grasp until she was sure the warrior was steady on her feet. Then they started investigating.

"Found them." The bard announced, looking up from examining a wooden chest half hidden beside the sleeping platform. She had lifted the lid and the familiar scent of ink had risen to her senses. "Gods.. there’s dozens… " She lifted one and partially unrolled it. "Looks like these are the healing texts."

Xena knelt beside her, and glanced at the scroll. "Yep. I recognize that… "

The bard looked at her. "You’ve seen these?" Surprises, surprises… my ever mysterious partner here.

The warrior shook her head. "No.. I’ve seen the texts these are based on. " Her eyes traveled gently over Gabriele’s face. "At Nicklios."

Ah. Gabrielle mused, remembering the walls of bound parchment, which she’d had found no interest in whatsoever. "I knew.. there were… writings there." She tapped a finger on the rerolled scroll in her other hand. "But I didn’t… " That long, horrible night tumbled back into her memory. "If they’d been the mysteries of Mount Olympus, I wouldn’t have cared." Realizing Xena was gone.. that stark, empty feeling flooding through her.. the aching loneliness that made her wish she herself was dead. "Not that night." Her voice dropped to a broken whisper.

Long arms wrapped around her, and she didn’t resist, needing the tactile warmth of her lifemate’s touch, which gently nudged the horror back into it’d dark den. She buried her face into Xena's shoulder, craving the reassuring feel of their connection and letting it comfort her.

Finally, she raised her head and sighed. "I’m all right. It’s just that.. the more I realize what I almost lost that day, the worse that memory gets." She put the scroll back in the box, and pulled out another, tangling her arms and Xena’s but managing to get it partially opened. "Hey.. this is different." She squinted. "I can’t… " Her eyes slid up to Xena’s, where the warrior was resting her chin on the bard’s shoulder, also looking. "Can you?"

Xena let her gaze fall on the parchment, brittle with age, the ink so faded it took even her sharp eyes time to decipher the inscription.

Dyma y hanes can Elevown ac Ardwyn pwy creadded hwn tir eang a llifio ymwnc a rhyfeddod….

She laughed gently. "Seems our friend Ardwyn was a bit like you, my bard." She leaned her head against Gabrielle’s. "These are the tales of Elevown and Ardwyn, who traveled this land wide, and saw many wonders." Been a long time since I’ve seen those letters. Incredible I can still read it. You were a good teacher, M’lila.

Gabrielle studied the script, then Xena, taking the gentle, introspective look on her angular face. "There’s dozens of these scrolls, Xena."

The warrior nodded. "So there is." Her eyes twinkled. "That’s a lot of stories to tell."

"I want to know them." The bard breathed, running her fingers over the letters in fascination. She turned brilliant eyes to Xena. "Will you read them to me?"

Got an impish grin in return. "Well.. I don’t know.. what are they worth to you??? " A bantering tone entered her voice.

Gabrielle tilted her head, and softened her gaze, looking at Xena with a wistful expression.

Xena felt her heart melt at the look, and stirred her rusty memories of a time long past. "Amcan innau rhaid at cofio fy Cymraeg" She dredged the words out of somewhere, and smiled at the charmed look on Gabrielle’s face. Probably got the structure all backwards. M’lila was always getting frustrated with me on that.

"It sounds so.. different." She smiled in wonder. "Like music."

The past washed gently over her, as Xena let herself remember the gentle splash of ocean waves. Felt the stinging spray in her face, as she listened to M’lila sing to her homeland. Of a love so fierce it set the young Celt’s eyes on fire. Someday.. M’'lila had told her, once, when she’d asked. "Someday, you’ll know this feeling, Xena. And you’ll never be the same." Ah..M'lila… how right you were…

"fi cariad ti, Gabrielle." She let the phrase come from a place deep inside.

Warm lips met hers for an timeless moment. Then Gabrielle tipped her head back and gazed into her eyes. "I love you too."

"Didn’t know you spoke the language." Xena teased.

The bard smiled. "Your mouth never says those things, Xena..your eyes do." Gotcha… her mind chuckled, seeing the deep blush. Score one for the bard. She let her head rest against Xena’s shoulder for a long minute, absorbing the unusual scent of thick wool, embedded with the tickling smell of the fragrant herbs they kept packed in their saddlebags. "Guess we have to get going, huh?"

Xena forced her eyes open, and glanced around. The cavern had a settled, peaceful atmosphere, and she let her mind drift for a while, imagining what it must have been like living here. She redrew the room in her mind, putting a fresh and snapping fire in the pit, warm, lush furs on the sleeping platform pressed against her back, restored colors to the woven wall mats, and could, for the barest of instants, almost hear the high, ethereal tones of the harp.

It was a private place, she realized. And.. I think I want that.. for us. . "Yeah, we’d better." She said, but neither of them moved. She gave Gabrielle a rueful glance. "Kinda nice, here, huh?"

This time it was the bard who had to force her eyes open. "Very." She chuckled, then put a hand on Xena’s knee, and pushed up, getting to her feet and starting to put the scrolls in a carrybag that Xena had brought down strapped to her back. "Give me a hand with these, will you?"

The warrior scooted forward and complied, handling the scrolls carefully. When they’d finished, she let Gabrielle move out of the alcove, then stood up, stretching luxuriously, and shaking herself a little. Fuzzy feeling is pretty much gone.. that’s a good sign. She analyzed. She looked down at a warm pressure on her chest.

"Close your eyes." The bard commanded, moving the torch in her hand away.

Xena obediently complied, counting, then opening them and focusing on the light.

"That’s better." Gabrielle approved, giving her a pat on the stomach. "How do you feel?"

The warrior nodded. "Headache, but not too bad." She picked up the bag of scrolls, and slung it over her back, tightening the chest straps to hold it close. "Ready?"

Xena went around the perimeter of the cavern and doused the torches carefully, then joined Gabrielle at the entrance, where the bard was holding the remaining torch. They both turned to look behind them, then moved forward into the short passageway before the tunnel.

"Gods." Gabrielle sighed, examining the warhammer as they passed around it. "Did that…"

"Uh huh." Xena nodded. "Good thing I have decent reflexes."

The bard snorted. "Decent." She sighed melodramatically. "Ah.. the Warrior Princess of Understatement strikes yet again." A niche in the rocks caught her attention, and she detoured over, to examine it. "Wonder what this was for? Hey.. Xena, look at.."

"Gabrielle, don’t touch th…"

A loud, screeching thunder nearly deafened them, and Xena reacted in pure instinct, grabbing Gabrielle around the waist and hurling herself backwards.

With a roaring crash, a heavy lattice dropped down from a counterweighted balance, and sealed off the passageway. Dust flew as the portal dropped into place, the cracking of rock under its base a testament to it’s weight and measure.

Xena looked up from where she was protecting Gabrielle’s body with her own and sighed. She put her lips down close to the bard’s ear. "You attract trouble like clover attracts bees, you know that?"

Gabrielle peeked out from under the warrior’s arm, and grimaced. "Guess that explains you, huh?" She joked faintly.

Surprisingly, this got a healthy laugh from Xena. "Never thought of it that way, but I guess it does." She stood up, puling the bard with her, and dusted both of them off. I should be falling to pieces, trapped in here. But I’m not. Wonder if it’s just a temporary thing from the head injury or what? "Ok.. Wonderbard. You got us into this, you get us out of it."

Gabrielle put her hands on her hips, and gave Xena a look. "Don’t start with me." She warned. "I didn’t do that on purpose." She paused. "Stop smirking." Another pause. "Or else."

Xena amiably wiped the grin off her face, then leaned back against the wall, and crossed her legs at the ankles.

The bard shook her head, and walked back over to the alcove. "If they had a way of triggering this, they must have had a way to release it." She reasoned, and was heartened by Xena’s grunt of agreement. She studied the rock she’d moved, then ran her eyes up the counterweighted rope. "Oh… OK… " She grinned. "I see… if that’s holding up that, then all you need to do is this.." She moved a second stone. "And it should reverse."

A loud creaking rewarded her efforts, and she gave Xena a smirking look.

But the counterweights were old, and made of furs that had last seen the light of day several hundred years before. With a compressive sound, the weight burst, and dumped it’s load of sand right on top of them.

"Whoops." Gabrielle sighed, shaking the sand out of her hair disgustedly. Then she gave the rock a slap, and started searching around the edges of the lattice, her movements sharp and angry.

Xena watched her a minute, then walked over and put her hands on the bard’s shoulders. "Hey."

"What?" Gabrielle growled, continuing her search. "I’m looking for another answer. Go siddown or something."

The warrior got in front of her, and forced her to stop, her face now very serious. "I was just joking, Gabrielle."

The bard stared at her. "I don’t like being reminded of just how much more capable you are than I am." She stated flatly.

One curved eyebrow. "I triggered two of those things myself coming through here, my friend. And I then proceeded to pull a rock shelf down on my own head and you had to come here and rescue me. Let’s not discuss capable right now, OK?" She put a hand on Gabrielle’s shoulder. "And besides, you came up with an excellent solution to the problem. It’s not your fault the damn thing is hundreds of years old."

Gabrielle blew out a breath. "I suppose you have a miraculous answer now." She was still mad.

Xena sighed. "You know.. I consider you a very capable, very intelligent person, Gabrielle. I’d put my life in your hands, and have, without a second’s thought."

The bard tried to stay mad, but… "I know." She admitted. "I just… Xena, I don’t care what anyone thinks of me. You know that, right?"

"I know." The warrior replied quietly.

"I do care what you think." Gabrielle moved closer. "Look..I know there are a lot o things you’re always going to do better than me. I can accept that. You’re like this wonderful, magical sprite that can make anything happen."

"Gabrielle.." Xena objected. "That’s not true."

The bard grabbed her tunic, and shook her. "It IS true, Xena. Stop denying it. Stop making it sound like anyone can do what you can. They can’t. There is something special about you and you damn well know that."

Silence from her partner.

"And I get… a little insecure sometimes. Because I’m not special. And gods know, I can’t compete with you, but I can’t stand the thought of you looking down on me either." Gabrielle finished quietly.

Xena looked at her in shocked silence. "The only reason I have for looking down at you, Gabrielle, is the fact I happen to be half a foot taller." She said quietly, then knelt at the bard’s feet. "You’re what I live for." She hesitated. "Surely you knew that." Her eyes dropped. "I’m just a.. beat up ex warlord, Gabrielle. If I do.. " She gave her head a little shake. "Extraordinary things.. it’s only because I have an extraordinary inspiration." She looked up into the green eyes above her. "How can you think.. for a.. a. minute.. that you’re not special?"

‘Easy." The bard whispered, kneeling beside her, and putting a hand on her knee. "Because you’re the only person in my whole life that’s ever told me otherwise." She smiled. "And.. if I .. believe that… then you have to believe that you’re a whole lot more than a beat up ex warlord." She paused. "Deal?"

Xena’s lips curved into a wry grin. "Deal." She agreed.

Gabrielle sighed. "Now… my beat up ex warlord best friend… do you have a miraculous plan to get us out of here? Because .. frankly.. I’m really tired of the smell of dusty rocks."

Xena pursed her lips thoughtfully, then got to her feet, and took the torch they’d tucked into a crevice. "Stay here a minute." She padded off towards the living chamber, leaving Gabrielle in the darkness.

You’re what I live for… The words trailed warmly through her. Gods.. that’s wonderful to have someone say to you. Anyone.. and to have it be someone like her… she just doesn’t see it.. at all. I guess we have to live up to each other’s expectations…. That’s kind of funny. She looked up as Xena reappeared out of the darkness, holding the torch on one hand, and something long and reflective in the other. "Hey.."

"Hold this." Xena requested, handing her the torch.

"You have an idea?" Gabrielle asked, taking the lit brand and glancing at her.

"Stand over here." The warrior took her by the shoulders, and set her against the far wall.

"What are you going to do?" The bard wondered, her brow creasing. "Come on, Xena.. give."

Her partner stepped back, and hefted what she was carrying, which Gabrielle could now see was a longsword. "Well.. our Viking was damned clever, Gabrielle." Xena’s eyes turned upward, and her grin went feral. "But I don’t think she had me in mind."

She bounced once on the balls of her feet, then leaned forward, and took three long strides, pushing off on the last one and catapulting up into the air, slashing backwards with a powerful stroke and slicing through the thick woven hemp holding the warhammer with a screal of metal on fiber. She let her momentum take her around in midair and flipped lazily, letting the warhammer crash to the ground and landing close to it’s thick head.

"Wow." Gabrielle laughed, brushing granite shards from her shirt.

Xena tossed the sword down, and walked over to the hammer, wiping her hands on her tunic before wrapping them around the shaft of the weapon. With a smooth motion, she lifted and shouldered it, then crossed to the lattice, and studied it intently.

Took two steps back, then ran forward, and jumped, and swung the hammer against the lattice with all the power of her body. A splintering crack skittered around the chamber, sending echoes that sent shivers up Gabrielle’s arms. She watched as Xena repeated her run twice, and then three times, until on the third time, half the lattice exploded inward, and sent shards flying everywhere.

Xena settled the hammer back on her shoulder, and stood back to view her work. "That’ll do." She grinned, and turned towards Gabrielle, holding out a hand. "Shall we?"

Gabrielle sauntered up, and studied the hole critically. Then she slid an arm around Xena’s waist, and gave her a pat. "Nice job."

"Think so?" The warrior smirked. "Not bad for a beat up ex warlord?"

"Nope." The bard agreed, giving her a squeeze. "I think I’ll keep you."

"Good to hear." Xena chuckled, as she stepped through the hole, and took the torch from the bard. "Come on."

They moved through the passageway, and stopped at the mouth of the tunnel. "You OK?" Gabrielle asked, searching her face intently.

"Fine." Xena answered absently, examining the rock. "Why?" She looked down when Gabrielle didn’t answer, and saw the bard giving her a look. She shrugged and moved forward into the tunnel, luxuriating in the freedom from fear. Probably temporary, she regretted. I’ve had this for a long time, and been able to control it – still, it’s nice to not have to worry about it for a little while. They got to the shaft, and saw Wennid’s anxious face above. "It’s ok.. we’ve got the scrolls." Xena yelled, waving a hand. She turned to Gabrielle. "Up the rope, my Queen."

The bard hesitated. "Xena.. I don’t’ think I can do it."

"Sure you can." Xena reassured her, tightening the straps on the bag she carried.

"No.. I don’t.. I couldn’t make it all the way down. I had to let go." The green eyes met hers in mild regret. "I guess we can get them to just pull me up, huh?"

Xena studied her. "Gabrielle, you have the strength to do this. I know you do. I was in there, remember?" She curled the bard’s hands around the rope. "Go on. I’ll be right behind you."

Grimly, Gabrielle started to climb, aware of her partner’s reassuring presence as the warrior pulled herself up by the rock handholds. Halfway up, she stopped, breathing hard. "I don’t…"

Xena wrapped an arm around her, and took her weight, bracing her feet against the rocks. "Take a minute." She breathed into the bard’s ear. "You can do this."

"All right." Gabrielle nodded, and started climbing again, and before she knew it, furred hands had grabbed her upper arms, and she was being pulled out a of the shaft and into pandemonium. "All right..I’m fine.. Xena’s fine.. stop yelling..!"

Xena watched the bard disappear with some amusement, and steadied herself for the last leg of her journey. She could, she knew, just grab the rope and climb. But that would be too easy, and if there was a hard way to do something, she’d find it.

Right now, she was balanced on the last of the handholds, and there was nothing but clean rock above her, with the lip of the entrance several feet above her head. She chuckled, and felt her wilder grin coming on. No.. no.. my Viking friend.. you definitely didn’t have me in mind, did you.

She took a breath, and deepened her crouch, then sprang up, reaching with both hands and smiling as she gripped the edge of the opening. Now this, was the hard part. But she didn’t spend plenty of time hanging around in trees for nothing. She tightened her grip, then pulled herself up to level, and then pressed her body up and out of the shaft, to a seat next to where Gabrielle was sprawled. Now that.. she smirked to herself. Wasn’t bad for a beat up ex warlord.

Gabrielle rested her head on Xena’s thigh, and gazed up at her in appeal. "Make them shut up." She muttered.

"Anything for you, my bard." Xena touched her nose, then looked up, and let her expression darken, lancing her gaze from person to person until silence fell over the room. "That’s better." She growled.

They divided the scrolls, Wennid gleefully taking possession of the healer's texts, since Elaini was down in the village getting ready for the ceremony. "You will come back and tell us the stories once you translate them, right Gabrielle?" The forest dweller smiled at her.

Gabrielle gave her a direct look. "Sure.. but you could just ask Xena to read them to you.." She enjoyed the startled look on Wennid's face. "One of her many skills." Her eyes slid towards her partner, who was leaning causally against the wall, looking bored. Affecting not to have heard Gabreille, but the bard spotted that little quirk at the corner of her mouth that she couldn't quite control and smiled quietly to herself. I won't make that mistake again, my friend.

The small party set out down the steep path, speckled in sunlight travelling through the whispering branches. The cold wind brought them the smell of the firepit, far below, and the rich smell of the rain soaked forest ground that sent a spicy, mouldering aroma into the air. Above them, the leaves were dimming to the colors of sunset, and the undergrowth was thinning, tucking it's richness away for the coming winter.

Xena strolled along easily, keeping a protective arm tucked around the bard's shoulders, and easing her steep decent with unconcious courtesy. "Nice day." She idly commented, turning to gaze at Gabrielle, who was taking full advantage of her support, and had tucked her head into Xena's shoulder and wound an arm about her.

"Huh?" Gabrielle rolled her head slightly to glance up at her partner. "Oh.. yeah… beautiful." She agreed, focusing impishly on the amused face above her. "Leaves are pretty."

Xena reached up without looking and plucked three or four of them, handing them to the bard with a flourish. "We usually don’t' get colors like this at home.. but we're further north here."

Gabrielle studied the leaves as she walked, trusting Xena to guide her steps. "Oh.. look… " she laughed gently, putting out one tentative fingertip and letting the ladybug she'd spotted crawl up on it. "Xena.. it's so pretty."

The warrior gazed down at the bug, and smiled. "That it is." Then blinked, as the bug took off from the bard's finger, and landed on Xena's nose, and somehow, managed to stop her gut deep, instinctive reflex to catch it. She grinned and closed one eye, watching the insect with the other, as it investigated for a minute, then flew off and landed on the bard's shoulder.

"I wonder.." Gabrielle regarded it. "If that little lady knows just how close she came to being an ex bug." She laughed, and gave her partner a pat on the stomach. "That was quite a stop."

"Mmm." Xena agreed. "Maybe someday I won't even have to think about it anymore." She paused, and stared off into the distance. "Think about hurting things."

Gabrielle just hugged her in answer, and smiled.

They got back down to the village with a short time to spare before they had to leave for the ceremony, and found they'd been left clothing and some brief instructions.

"You know you don’t have to.." Gabrielle started, as she tied the belt on the white garment she’d been given.

Xena covered her mouth with one hand. "I’ve got a temporary reprieve here, Gabrielle. I"d like to actually enjoy this thing, instead of just endure it, ok?" She released the bard and adjusted her belt, giving her a little raised eyebrow look and a gentle pat.

Gabrielle rolled her eyes. "I know..I know.. " She slapped at Xena’s hands. "Cut that out." She studied her partner critically. "I like you in white." She commented, giving the fabric a twitch. Glanced up. "It suits you." And it did, contrasting nicely with Xena’s tanned skin and dark hair.

"Not really my color." The warrior snorted. "Let’s get going."

They walked up to the ceremonial cavern surrounded by laughing forest dwellers, who were showering both them, and Jessan and Elaini with various bits of forest debris, such as pinecones.

"Much more of this.." Xena growled low into Gabrielle’s ear. "And I’m gonna start an impromptu sparring session."

The bard giggled and slapped her. "Would you relax and enjoy this please?" She exchanged winks with Jessan, who was gallantly fending off pinging pinecones from Elaini’s head. Gabrielle herself walked on in perfect serenity, ignoring the occasional flicker of movement as Xena intercepted various bits of this and that with absent minded precision.

The entered the chamber accompanied by only part of the crowd, and, looking around, Gabrielle realized it must be the other lifebonds. The outer chamber was fairly large, and even had benches cut into the wall for those who stood and waited. A tall tunnel lead further back, and it was to this that Lestan headed for.

At the portal, he stopped, and looked at the four of them with a gentle smile, then let his eyes slide to his right, where Wennid was standing, with two other forest dwellers in attendance. Jessan’s mother, solemn and silent, crossed first to Elaini, and then to her son, fastening brilliantly delicate silver chains around their necks, with some kind of pendant. Must be a gift from his parents. Xena mused. Very nice.

Then Wennid was standing in front of her, and lifting her clawed hands towards Xena’s neck, with a little smile on her face. As though realizing what she was doing, she paused, and raised one furry eyebrow at the warrior for permission. Too startled to do anything, Xena gave a little nod, and the forest dweller continue her movement, fastening the necklace firmly about her neck, then stepping back, and moving to where Gabrielle was waiting, with an impish grin. .

"Normally, we don’t speak at this point." Lestan said softly. "But you do not know our customs, so I’m going to explain them." He stepped forward, and gazed at Xena. "There is symbolism in both the chains, and the pendants, my friend. The chains.. that should be obvious." He grinned, and the rest of the forest dwellers chuckled around them. "The pendants… are crafted by one of us who is specially trained to do so – they are cast from the living stone of this mountain, with it’s embedded treasures, and then split exactly in half, so that each pendant is but part of a whole, and that whole fits together perfectly."

He laid one finger on Xena’s necklace, and she glanced down at it, seeing the brilliant sparkles of fire and ice captured in the small circle of crystal, fitted in a dully gleaming hammered setting. "Each one is unique." He smiled at Xena, and now, for the first time, she spotted his own necklace, hidden in the fur which covered his wide neck.

"There are two forks in the tunnel." His eyes turned that way. " They lead to two chambers… and in those chambers you will find.. what you will find. " His smile went gentle. "We have no rules for this… each time it’s different." He stepped back out of the way. "Take what time you need. Feel the spirit of that place, and let it live through you."

Then there was silence, and Xena caught Jessan’s eye, and gave him a jerk of her chin. He nodded, and headed first into the tunnel, his hand intertwined with Elaini’s.

Blue eyes met green, and then Xena found herself walking after them, her body numb except for the warmth of Gabrielle’s palm in hers. She felt.. very strange.. and wondered if it was the surroundings, or the thought of what she was doing, or even the residual effects of her concussion. They reached the fork, and Elaini and Jessan went up the right hand one, leaving them the left-hand passage. It was dark, but the floor was regular, and they had no problem negotiating.

A blind end, then they turned a corner, and entered the chamber.

And just stood, in awe.

Xena could hardly breathe, it was so beautiful. Crystal indeed, the cavern walls were studded with them, in all the colors she could imagine, embedded in a cloudy pale surface that she supposed was salt. Above, an opening let in the sun, and as the clouds over head cleared, the brilliant light poured in the opening, and lit them both in a sea of reflected color.

"Gods." Xena breathed, feeling the light hit her in almost a physical sensation of weightiness. She turned to see Gabrielle’s reaction, and stopped, transfixed by the sight of the bard, standing with eyes closed, breathing in the sunlight with the gentlest, most beautiful smile. The rays burnished her skin to golden hue, and brought out every highlight in her fair hair.

Gabrielle let her eyes drift back open, and sighed in pleasure, turning her head slightly and seeing Xena watching her. She let her gaze travel over the chamber, then came back and looked intently at her partner’s face. A roomful of crystals, and not one of them can match her eyes. The thought rolled lazily through her head. "It’s beautiful."

Xena nodded quietly. "Yes, you are." And smiled as the pink blush darkened her fair skin. They both looked down. Then Xena glanced over towards the other side of the chamber, where a small pool was tinkling, reflecting the sun even more brightly than the walls did. By silent accord, they walked over to it, and Xena knelt down, and touched her fingers to the sparkling surface, then brought them to her lips. "Sweet." She commented, surprised.

Gabrielle kneeled down, and was about to taste some, when Xena put a hand on her arm. "Thirsty?" The bard nodded.

The warrior cupped her hands, and scooped up a glittering handful, then held it up to Gabrielle’s mouth, smiling at the feel of the bard’s lips against her fingers.

"Thanks." Gabrielle grinned when she finished. "You next." She dipped her cupped hands into the water, and raised them up.

That finished, they both stood, and moved to the center of the cavern, and Xena found, somehow that their hands were linked tightly, and they were standing, gazing into each other’s eyes with a soul felt intensity.

"I had.. " Gabrielle smiled shyly. "This little speech prepared.. but.. um… " She bit her lip. "I can’t remember any of it."

Xena took a deep breath, and just let the past slip away, and concentrated on the present. "I.. never got that far.. I’ve been trying to figure out what to say.. and… " She let the words trail off, giving the bard a little, helpless smile. "Uh… "

Gabrielle laughed softly. "You’re really cute when you’re flustered, did you know that?"

"You’re not helping." But that came with a smile. "I’m not.. really good at this sort of thing."

The bard sighed. "I should be, right?" She looked down briefly, then back up. "You know.. when I started this all off.. I had no idea where I’d end up."

"Not what you expected, huh?" Xena asked, softly.

Gabrielle considered this for a minute. "Surpassed my wildest expectations, really." She smiled. "Look..I know.. we’ve had our ups and downs. And I know.. we hurt each other sometimes." Her voice dropped. "But.. I’d rather.. go through that pain.. then live with the knowledge that I.. don’t mean anything to anyone." She paused. "Because it wouldn’t hurt if I didn’t care. And I"d rather care."

Xena rubbed the bard’s hands in her own. "Was a time I would have disagreed with you." She admitted. "I blocked people out for so long, I didn’t think I was capable of caring for anyone anymore." She gave the bard a wistful grin. "Then I found out just how wrong I was." Her eyes twinkled solemnly. "Now.. I think you’re stuck with me."

Gabrielle nodded, and took a breath. "That’s a really good thing." She looked up. "I very much want to be stuck with you." A pause. "Because I want us to spend the rest of our lives together."

Xena’s face went still, and she gave a little nod. "I want that too." She rested her arms on the bard’s shoulders. "You’re a part of me, Gabrielle. The best part. And I’ll do the best I can to take care of you."

That got a smile. "And I"ll do my best to take care of you" She touched Xena’s cheek. "Because there are parts of you that need that."

‘Yes, there are.." Xena answered honestly. "It's a tough job you’re taking on." Her eyes met the bards in a direct and open look. "Most people wouldn't touch it."

"Labor of love." Came the confident answer. "And I'm not most people." She closed her eyes, then opened them and looked Xena right in the eye. "Sure you want some half wit bard wanna be hanging around you all the time?"

Xena answered that with a kiss, lazily aware of the deep warmth from the sunlight pouring down on them. She took a breath, and watched the light elicit deep emerald highlights in Gabrielle’s eyes. "I couldn’t live without you."

Meaning that in every sense of the words, and Gabrielle knew it. Felt it glide all the way down into her heart and settle there, snuggling up with a warm contented glow. She let her body follow suit. "I love you. I always have. I always will."

"Forever." Came the quiet response, rich with conviction. "Beyond knowledge, beyond understanding, beyond death." Xena had just… decided. To Hades with the past, with what she'd been, who she was… the only thing that counted, that mattered, was that they loved each other. And she wasn’t ever going to let that go. She let out a deep breath, and felt her spirit soar into places beyond her understanding.

And that, Gabrielle realized, was a promise she'd never hoped to hear. Tears slid down her face, neatly absorbed by the clean white fabric her face was nestled against. Thank you.. she whispdered to whoever was listening.

They floated in each other's arms for a legnth of time, then Xena peacefully let her eyes drift open and regarded her partner. "You ready to head home?"

"Mm hmm." The bard replied, in a very muffled tone, barely opening her own eyes.

Xena chuckled gently.. "Did you want to stay for the party, or… "

Gabrielle nestled closer and let her eyes shut again. "You want an honest answer?"

Got a chuckle back. "Thought so." She replied. "I told Lestan we’d probably be leaving right after."

"Was he mad?" The bard inquired, finding a gap in the front of Xena’s shirt and nibbling her bare skin.

"Nope. He said he understood completely." The warrior answered, concentrating on the tickling sensation on her chest. "I like that."

"Really?" Gabrielle nibbled lower, pulling the soft cloth aside with her teeth.

"Uh huh." Xena stroked the side of her face, and wrapped a lock of the bard’s fair hair around her long fingers. "Shall we go say goodbye?"

She felt Gabrielle sigh, the breath warm on her skin. "I know.. they’re really good friends, Xena.. and I like visiting them.. but it’s been a long week. I think my nerves are shot, a little." Especially after this morning. Gods.. "I just want to find some nice secluded spot and watch the sun go down with you. Is that OK?"

"More than OK, my bard." Xena chuckled. "Let’s go."

"Wait." Gabrielle lifted a hand, and picked up the necklace lying in the hollow of her partner’s throat, then lifted hers, and slid them both together. She smiled. "Perfect fit." And looked up, to meet quiet blue eyes. "Like us?"

Are we? My silence and your voice, your sunlight and my shadows, your strengths are my weaknesses, and my strengths keep you whole… damn, Gabrielle, maybe we are. Maybe I found the part of me I've been missing all my life.

"Just like us." The warrior answered, laying her fingertips over Gabrielle’s on the joined pendants, and looked up, startled, as an errant ray of sunshine flickered through the opening above and caught them, making the crystal flare with brilliance in their hands.

After a moment, it faded, but Xena could swear she felt a residual warmth in the stone. They looked at each other in silence, then both let out held breaths simultaneously.

"Wow." Gabrielle released a surprised laugh.

"Yeah.’ Xena agreed, for once dispensing with her cynical attitude, and letting blue eyes widen in wonder.

They turned and walked down the dark tunnel, emerging into a party. Lestan bounced up from his bench, and enveloped them in exuberant hugs, which Gabrielle enjoyed and Xena endured. "Thanks.. Lestan." The warrior smiled, and gave him a clout on the good shoulder.

"You two taking off?" The forest dweller crinkled his snout in a devilish grin, winking when Xena gave a nod in the affirmative.

Xena turned as a familiar hand touched her shoulder, and found herself swallowed up by Jessan’s huge arms. He lifted her up, and gave her a good squeeze, and set her down, not seeing the wicked twinkle in her eyes. "I love doing that." He whispered in her ear.

"Really?" Xena asked, sliding her arms around him to return the hug.

"Yeah." Jessan smirked. "Cause I can get away with it."

"What a coincidence." The warrior remarked. "I love it too." And she let her arms close in a powerful grip, and straightened her body, lifting him off his feet and into the air.

"Awk!" He gurgled, eyes bugging out of his head. "Xena!!" As the giggles rose around him, and she bounced him a few times, then let him down. He rested his arms on her shoulders and looked her in the eye. "I guess I deserved that."

She gazed at him fondly, and patted his side. "Thanks for being a good friend, Jess."

He lowered his head until he was close to her ear. "Good to see you whole, my friend."

"Thanks." She replied, with a smile. "Good to be that way." She glanced at Elaini, who was hugging Gabrielle. "Congratulations, by the way."

Jessan followed her glance and blushed, then grinned. "If I have a daughter, you know what I’m going to name her, right?"

"Aw.. Jessan.. " Xena sighed. "Is that fair to the kid?"

The forest dweller studied her face intently. "To be named after the most noble and courageous person I’ve ever known? Yes. I think that’s fair." He smiled. "Oh.. look. I made you blush." Gotcha! His mind laughed.. Oh.. I do like you, Xena. Wish you were sticking around. "You know.. you both always have a home with us, right? That adoption thing wasn’t for show."

"I know." The warrior rubbed his arm lightly. "Besides.. uh… " She wiped a smile off her face with effort. "I kind of… told Secan’s group if they ever so much as picked a flower on your land I’d umm… " She shrugged a touch sheepishly. "wipe them out."

Jessan blinked at her. "You did?" He turned. "Hey dad, did you hear this?"

Lestan wound an arm around his son’s broad shoulders. "What?"

Jessan told him. Lestan stared at Xena in fascination. "Did you really?"

Xena crossed her arms over her chest. "Well.. yeah. I did." By this time Gabrielle had joined them, and was glancing between her partner and the two forest dwellers.

Lestan let out a low whistle. "You forgot to mention that, Xena."

The warrior shrugged. "No big deal, Lestan. I do it all the time. Gabrielle keeps track of the thr… why are you looking at me like that?"

Silence had fallen over the room, and they were being watched by a crowd of interested forest dwellers. Gabrielle scanned the faces.. saw intrigue and some curious excitement, but nothing else.

Lestan knelt, and took Xena’s hand, and pressed his lips to it, startling the daylights out of both warrior and bard. "What are you doing?" Xena demanded, in a low voice.

"You championed the sprit of my clan, Xena." Lestan answered, with a sparkle in his eyes. "And until you renounce that, you lead us." His face crinkled into a smile, showing his fangs. "Do you back down from that?"

Xena looked at him, and slowly, a feral grin shaped her lips. "I never back down, Lestan." She tapped him on the nose. "But I am NOT staying here. That’s your job."

Gabrielle had been watching this exchange in delight. "Hey.. you guys like to party?"

"Don’t start." Xena warned her, but her lips were twitching.

"Party?" Wennid asked, laying an arm over Gabrielle’s shoulder.

"Yeah." Gabrielle’s smile grew positively demonic. "What are you doing around Winter Solstice?"

"GABRIELLE." Xena gave her a severe, almost top of the scale look.

"I think we’re free." Wennid responded blithely. "Right Lesti?"

He nodded, and rose. "Sure."

Xena sighed. "My mother’s gonna kill us, Gabrielle." She gave the bard a plaintive look.

Gabrielle shook her head. "Nah. She’ll love it." She turned to Wennid. "You guys wanted to meet the Amazons anyway, right?"

"Amazons? How cool is that!" Jessan chuckled,. "We’ll be there."

Hugs all round then, and they trooped down the hill to gather their gear, and saddle a very smug looking Argo. Gabrielle left Xena muttering to her horse, and went back in to collect Ares, and a few last things. The wolf was laying possessively on top of Xena’s bedroll, front paws clasped around the fabric, and his chin resting on top.

"Come on, Ares. Time to go." Gabrielle grinned, and patted her leg. The wolf stood and stretched, arching his back and yawning. "You know, you look just like your mom when you do that." She commented with a chuckle, grabbing her bag and slinging it over her shoulder.

Ares obligingly closed his half-grown jaws around the fastening of the bedroll, and proceeded to try and drag it outside with her, stumbling over it every few steps. "MFWRO." He complained, with a puppy sigh.

Gabrielle giggled, and took pity on him. "Here.. give me that." She removed the bedroll from his jaws, and watched, amused as he poked his tongue out a few times. "Yeah, that fur gets between your teeth, doesn’t it." Then blushed as she realized what she’d said. "Gods. Glad no one heard that."

She walked outside, and saw Xena crouched down, speaking with Tody. She smiled, watching her partner. Saw the boy reach out tentatively and touch her face, as he had her own. Then Xena hugged him, and stood up, giving her a nod. "Ready?" She glanced down. "You ready too, Ares?"

"Roo." The wolf stated, trotting over to her and leaping up against her legs. "Grrr.."

"Yeah, Roo to you too." Xena lifted the animal, and stuffed him in his sack on Argo’s withers. "You’re getting too big for this, boy. You start walking soon." With a grin, she vaulted up into the saddle, and extended an arm to her partner. "Ride while we can."

Gabrielle stopped in mid motion, and cocked her head. "Did you… " She glanced at the horse’s complacent expression. "You did." She chuckled and grabbed hold, swinging her leg over Argo’s hindquarters and settling into a comfortable spot snuggled up behind Xena. "It’s going to be quite a winter." She wrapped her arms around the warrior’s waist and let out a sigh, glad Xena’s heavy cloak was between her and the armor plates. As Argo moved off, she felt her mind starting to drift pleasantly.

"Hey Xena?" She asked, leaning forward and feeling the warmth of her partner’s back through the cloak.

"Yeah?" The warrior answered, half turning to look at her.

"So.. you’re the leader of the clan, huh?" The bard queried, hiding a grin.

Xena sighed. "Don’t get started on that, OK? I shoulda known better."

"Uh huh." Gabrielle mused, with a sniff. "So.. you are their champion then, right?"

Xena gave her a glance. "I guess.. yeah."

The bard snuggled closer. "You’re the Amazon’s champion too, remember."

Xena chuckled. "How could I forget that, Gabrielle?"

"Hope we never get in a war with each other." The bard giggled. "You’d have to fight yourself."

Dead silence from the warrior, then they both started laughing, and the sounds of trailing merriment followed them down the tree-shaded path, towards the hills.

This be the end, folks. Thanks for a taking the journey with me…

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